Hellooooooo 👀 I’m finally back with my posts! I’ve spent a while debating with myself on what to write for this post specifically because I’m sure we were all hit by a truck this year. It hasn’t been easy AT ALL. I recently had a good read of my last post and MANNNNN did all of that just go out the window from the first month ALONE. I’m quite used to unfortunate events, but I’ve never dealt with it in such quick succession (picture Road Runner from Looney Tunes). I’ve also never felt myself go on a downward spiral in that rate either. Uh, yeah…2020, for the most part, has been terrible, appalling, horrific, and the long list of synonyms given by my online thesaurus.
So, when it all turns to 💩 what do you do? The answer varies, but I wanted to start fresh.
Hence, I decided to drop forensics and move on into the wonderful world of ✨Biology✨. I am once again a “fresher”. Hitchhiking for freebies aside, I feel very excited (yay) because I have always loved biology. However, I know it’s not going to be perfect upon observing this year’s track record. But imperfection is totally fine! The journey to transferring has been bumpy because it’s not common in my culture to change courses, let alone repeat a whole year. Although I did calm the waters a bit by telling my Asian family I was planning to be a doctor which is half-true jk (whether I go through with that or not, I have comfort that it’s going to be something I chose for myself).
On top of that, both my ✨anxiety and depression ✨decided to peak last month and I’m still trying to recover from it. I’ve been taking steps to get better to which some have been successful and some have not. Honestly, I’m still pretty sad about the parts that backfired because I truly cannot do anything about it 🥴. So, its a pretty bumpy start to the academic year, but we move still. I do think it’s important for me to post this part because I never want to give an impression of false positivity (more on this in an upcoming post). Okay, enough rambling I’ll end this update here, but I’d love to hear about your 2020 experiences! 👁👄👁