#su new episode

[artbyblastweave]

Your description of yourself is the guy with Opinions on Steven Universe so say what you think of Peridot

Fond of her. I don't think I've got much to say about her that the more singularly fixated SU analysts haven't gotten to. I will say that she's a pretty salient example of a quote-unquote "redemption arc" that's facilitated in large part by the villain being "redeemed" never having actually caused serious, lasting, unfixable harm before switching sides, such that the story being told in practice is the story of an interpersonally unpleasant person working on themselves and learning to be less of a tar pit- jazzed up with ray guns and cartoonish doomsday devices. This is interesting taken on its own terms, but not necessarily morally interesting in the way the phrase "redemption arc" would ideally imply.

Contrast (unfavorably) with Entrapta in She-Ra, where they're clearly chasing a Peridot-adjacent energy, but the narrative treats the conflict between her and the protagonists as a similar kind of souped-up interpersonal miscommunication when no, she's in fact on the hook for very literal war crimes in a way the narrative was never really prepared to weigh seriously due to the use of a handful of Princesses as a metonym for everything meaningful SPOP is interested in trying to say, to the exclusion of more literal, non-metaphorical worldbuilding. Zuko, meanwhile, sits in a happy middle ground where he genuinely is attached to some morally heinous shit that the show is interested in weighing and unpacking, but not so deeply attached as to become synonymous with it in a way that would make his redemption come across as apologetics. (I sort of use these three as reference points when calculating how annoyed to get at the writing decisions of whatever children's cartoon I'm currently watching- this does not translate very well outside of that space methinks)

#steven universe #peridot #thoughts #meta #ask #asks #Also in general I would have enjoyed seeing her in more actual fights #New Crystal Gems as an episode felt a lot like a gigantic missed oppurtunity in that respect #ultimately not that kind of show however #su

[angelsdean]

seeing a post that gets some things right (interesting complex john thoughts) but other parts dead wrong (bad dean takes) has me like *eye twitch*

#reducing a complicated plot to dean hates all monsters and thinks every monster needs to be killed is um. first of all not even canon #do i need to bring out all the posts abt dean's monster ethics and how he thinks a monster is someone who hurts / kills innocent ppl #and that definition includes humans who do monstrous things too (a theme explored in multiple episodes in s1 !!!!) #but anyways. no he did not think jack should be killed bc he was ~not human~ he thought jack was a Dangerous supernatural being #since ya know. he Was. literally thee most powerful being after god / amara. and they had no idea what he might do. he was not their Baby #or their Kid yet. he was a stranger. a strange new supernatural being that they might have to stop. #s12 finale literally leaves off on a cliffhanger positioning jack to potentially be the new 'Big Bad' #so he's a stranger AND the son of lucifer (they had no idea how that would affect jack yet) AND he seemingly brainwashed cas and kelly #bc remember cas was all about Free Will and Choice and Fuck Heaven / Paradise / Peace #and then suddenly he's going against his core beliefs talking abt paradise on earth and jack needing to fulfill his Destiny like ??? #i'd be sus af too if i were dean #dean had no reason to trust jack right off the bat. 'oh but he should've trusted him bc cas did' ok and cas is dead now so ?? #then there's the soulless jack stuff which is a whole other complicated beast. and dean was not the only one trying to stop jack then eithe #but anyways. no you cannot reduce dean's complex feelings abt jack to simply 'lol dean hates monsters and wants them all dead' #he doesn't. half his family and friends are literally monsters. anyways. #vic.txt

[yesterdayiwrote]

Drive to Survive just *happening* to have an episode about Lewis/Mercedes contract negotiations feels a little bit too convenient... no?

#f1 #formula 1 #'Noone knew' and it was all a surprise #But netflix just happens to have the footage to make an entire episode that's going to look relevant and foreshadowing as fuck... #Considering the news only dropped 3 weeks before the premiere and they'd have nearly finished editing by that point? #Ngl it's a bit sus... #Or alternatively they're going to make the footage they have fit the narrative

[tinysweetflour]

Dff ep10 thought:

This episode was so fast i didn't even realise 30 min had gone. I saw the 'next episode' and went what!! It's already over?!!.

All the events of new/tan we see are through the telling of phee who THINKS new did it. We still don't know who actually did it.

Mio is amazing like new is just something else.like he isn't bad or evil. He is sinister. He's the one demons are scared of. Satan takes notes from him.

White is sus. We finally get to see his history next episode. Also that there is no backstory on how white and tee got together is weird. White is too much involved in this to not have a 'romance with tee' flashback or a backstory.

#mio is amazing #the episode was short #white is sus #dead friend forever #thai bl #bl series #dff tee #dff white #dff new #dff tan

[treasurechestsubs]

Panguan Audio Drama S1 Ep 5 and Thousand Autums Gift – New Year P3

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#panguan #audio drama #season 1 #episode 5 #english #subbed #mp4 #hardsubbed #thousand autumns #novel #new extra #qianqiu #qq #new year #part 3 #fan translation #mu su li #action #drama #horror #pure love #meng xishi

[faelapis]

I'm honestly confuse that Belos went back to the Boiling Isles. He was almost killed by the Collector, who now has complete control over it. We see in the season 2 final that he was scared and powerless against the Collector, so it makes no sense why he would be so willing to go through that portal.

But then I realize that they needed an irredeemable villains who gets killed in the end and they can't do that with a child character.

i got this ask in my inbox months ago, after the october special.

and before this newest episode, i was like, come on. i'm not gonna be that cynical. give them a chance! there's plenty they could do now that the collector is the entity with real power! there's so much organic tension between the collector and king, thats plenty conflict. we dont need belos as a big bad. hell, that lack of power could even lead to belos having to begrudgingly team up with our heroes, or abandon his quest and deal with his feelings about caleb-

and no. belos is just there to manipulate the collector in that dumb, predictable way where the exciting character conflict (king being sympathetic to the collector, but also having to navigate this scary power imbalance) is shoved aside for the sake of cheap misunderstandings, courtesy of belos. so we'll probably just get the collector + main gang teaming up to destroy the Real evil. sigh.

#not su / #the owl house #i mostly liked this new episode but that forced misunderstanding conflict was so ughhh #ask to tag / #toh spoilers /

[weedle-testaburger]

idk why but i have really strong nostalgic connections with the way i watched tv shows for the first time

#personal crap #i feel like I've mentioned this but it makes me weirdly happy #whenever i watch robot wars i get this association of watching it after school on a friday with garlic pizza bread perched on my lap #with doctor who it's racing into the living room in the evening frantically setting up the tv before it starts #a lot of comedies i grew up with like simpsons or red dwarf i associate with having on in the back room or a little bedroom tv #for sp and su it's mostly watching em at night in my uni dorm (sometimes I'd binge em late into the night or stay up to watch new ones) #i haven't rewatched toh really but i feel like with that it'd be waking up early the morning after a new episode and watching it on my phone

[technicalknockout]

LOOK WHAT MY FRIEND GOT ME YESTERDAY

#me: studying in my seat before class starts* #said friend: promptly hands THIS to me #the wrappings weren't even taken off it was literally new #this is from 2016 how did she even find it #anyways crying i am going to die over these postcards #theres like random s1 photos in there and it's giving me SO MUCH NOSTALGIQ #unpopular opinion su s1 was actually good ppl dont like it because it's not that plot centered #i like the filler episodes actually. they add to the worldbuilding and also theyre fun #incoherent ramblings

[shentunans]

#modu la #zhang xincheng #fu xinbo #justice in the dark #cdramaedit #she is the audience waiting for new episodes #fei du #pei su #luo wenzhou #luo weizhao #tao ze #tao ran #my gifs

[s1mpl3sp0ng3]

listen you can say whatever you want about the steven universe fandom at its peak but nothing was more satisfying to my pattern-seeking brain than seeing fusion charts like this progressively get filled out with each new character reveal

(credit to reddit user Gemsuniverse89 for this chart)

i remember whenever a new fusion was revealed people would make these charts and there'd be so much speculation and the SATISFACTION i felt whenever a new piece was added in...

i'm still chasing this high, fuck man

#steven universe #i live for peak su fandom #yes it could be awful but when new episodes dropped it was so FUUUUUN #so much speculation and theory building... the art... the fics... Hough

[doughma]

im rabid with jade brain rot

thick fem s/o with jade rambling

slight suggestive/nsfw in some parts maybe?

• Jade who is too used to curling in on himself in coral reefs and sea walls, pushing himself further down to hide and wait for perfect moment to strike or to just simply watch ocean life swim by. Being enclosed is something that brings Jade comfort, the tight pressure all around making him feel safe and secure (a trait that mayhaps encouraged Floyd's love of squeezing). Which is why he can't help but seek your warm full figure out and bring you back to his room for a moment to escape from his busy schedule, even if it sometimes goes on for longer than he intended and gets a ear full from Azul. In his eyes, it's worth it. It started out as a small source of comfort that slowly becomes something more and more to Jade.

•He can't help but push his face further in between your breasts trying to fully block out his view of the room only wanting to see darkness. He tries to pull more of you onto him, wishing to feel more of your weight on top of him. He truly is secretly a greedy eel who wants more and more of you, and you can feel it in his actions. He sometimes wish you would just lie your whole body on top of him, your full weight on him would please him greatly, but he doesn't want to make you uncomfortable so he'll take whatever you feel like giving him that day. When he finally settles down in a comfortable position, you can feel him exhale deeply before he starts kneading at your more softer parts of the body.

•If you asked Jade what his favourite part of your body is, he would give you a smile, a soft kiss on the lips and answer 'I love every inch of your body, Dear.' but you know better. Most of the time he tends to massage wherever his hands are currently at, but with how his hands always find themselves sliding down to your hips and thighs and stay there for the remainder of your time together? You would bet money he has a preference for them even if he denies it.

•During these moments in his room alone, you can't help but feel loved and also self conscious. You never really cared about your looks and weight as you got a little older. Despite the teasing from your family and bullying you had to get over as a kid, you learned to accept and love yourself eventually no matter how you looked. Tho sometimes you can still hear the comments in the back of your head when you're feeling low, and when you get into that bad mindset you can't help but wonder, why you?

•You don't think you could ever admit to Jade your insecurities most of the time since to you they just feel so small and silly, since its just about your looks and not anything you would consider important. Even if this slippery eel has a way to worm sneaky questions in while you try to vaguely vent about whats bothering you, and get you to accidentally confess your worries to him anyways. You can help but sigh at how easy it is to fall for his tricks, but you know its his way of showing that he cares and wants to help. And for that you'll forgive him again and again. A kiss here, and a squeeze or hug there, Jade is always ready to reassure you that you are lovely and perfect just the way you are and wouldn't change anything about you. (thats a lie, if he could he would wash all your doubts away in a flash so you could give him the full WWE bedroom experience and thigh choke holds he keeps wet dreaming of. he knows you need to overcome this yourself with him giving you support on the side but one can dream for the day to come sooner)

•You love having his arms around you and his hands on you, but you can't help but flinch when you feel hands sneaking onto your stomach or eyes staring a bit too long on your body and stretch marks. Normally such a thing wouldn't bother you before, but when you see how handsome he looks when just waking up, or the shimmer of his mer form in the sunlight and lean body, it's just the little things that make you question what does he see in your imperfect body. What does he see in you when he could get any one he wants.

•You remember asking once before you could stop yourself why he seemed so interested in the stretch marks that covered your hips and upper thighs. Him gently caressing the marks on your thighs made you embarrassed and a bit ashamed, you also wonder for a second if merpeople could even get them in the first place. Maybe its a curiosity he has for something he has never seen before, or likes the slight texture they have. You can't help but voice your worries over it and ask him what the deal is. He pauses, and gives a slight chuckle. You didn't expect him to bring his face to them, and rub his cheek over the marks. Jade's reasoning being that they look and remind him of rippling sands, and shore lines is enough to shock for a moment. Even if he looks back up with a teasing smile that makes you want to question him more, but you resist the urge. Such a Jade answer to be something so simple on the outside but you know holds more meaning it you looked further into it. You stopped the questioning, and worrying about his wandering eyes and hands on your body after that. You know if you asked more questions he would find more ways to lovingly tease you over it, and give an answer thats going to keep you up at night.

•Sometimes you still wonder what Jade sees in you and your body, but you slowly learn to just accept the fact that he truly might be interested in you and actually likes how you look. You know that he does have unusual tastes, and a mean part of you wants to chalk up that his love might just be the same as that. Morbid curiosity for someone who isn't thin. But a part if you feels that its cruel to try and say his love isn't true or kind, so you push the negative thoughts away and believe that he truly does love you in a pure way. As pure as a Jade Leech can get. You know your own self love, and the love Jade has for you are two completely different things and you might never fully understand it. But you find yourself not minding the idea of also learning how to love yourself through his eyes and in his own special kind of way.

•Jade doesn't think he has it in him to ever admit it, even if it's not the same as the familiar ocean's embrace he grew up with, there is just something about how you hold him back in your arms that starts to feel like home. Sometimes he ponders if its better than actual home as more time passes by, late nights at the lounge drying a glass as he watches you from across the room.

•The table you are seated at is scattered with drinks and books from the studying your friends dragged you along for, which as typical of them started out as studying and now ended up as another hangout sesh. Feeling eyes on you, you look up and over at the bar where Jade is still rubbing the same been dry glass. He knows he could be doing other things right now, but he doesn't want to you to be out of his line of sight just yet. Meeting your gaze, you give him a soft smile and for a moment he feels like all is still.

•Jade has seen your smile many times before, as most people here at the school. You were never one to shy away to express how you are feeling, and a selfish part of him wishes he could keep your smile to himself. but he is not that possessive. Not enough to force you to only smile for him alone even if he craves it, so he lets the world feel the same deep calmness he feels whenever you grace him with one. The same calmness he can only compare to childhood rests on the ocean floor where every thing is still and asleep, even Floyd is silent for once as they enjoy the tranquility together as if life is frozen in time. Little things from his past that he tucks away into the deepest parts of his heart that keeps getting dug up again and again whenever you remind him of the feeling. He promises that someday he'll let you in, and experience it and all the dark feelings he has for this world and you. When he can confirm for sure that you wont be afraid of how he truly is like and wont run away, when he knows for sure that you'll accept and love him all the same.

•After your shared private moment, a short one to you but it means more to him than you'll ever know, you turn your attention back to the conversation at hand, and Jade returns the glass to the shelf behind him. You may not be the ocean but you certainly have similar traits that he keeps finding out and comparing. It almost feels like a game to him, wanting to see what new things you'll show him and him seeing how he can connect it to something thats an important part of himself and his life. He wonders for a moment if he would someday be able to replace the whole ocean and the thought of home with your body, and Jade finds himself not minding the idea of finding a new home in you someone who is dusted with traces of his sea.

#jade leech #jade leech x reader #jade leech imagines #i dont normally put my hcs into words but this was something i needed to put on text so i can come back to it and reread #my hcs #'how self inserty was this' shut up #your honor he is in love #no i dont care if nothing in canon proves or supports it #its just a gut feeling trust me guys #there is nothing in the world you could say or show me to make me think otherwise that any of the octatrio mfs are not in love with mc #they got that love interest feeling #theres just something about how accepting they are of you in chpt4 after what happens in three that feels so sus of their chara #like 'oh i dont normally tell anyone about my UM but since its you and no-' #'its not like we trust and like you or anything youre just a silly little person not a threat at all hehe' yeah fucking right you little bit #idk it just feels different from how riddle or leona acts around mc after their episode u know?????? #YA KNOW??????????? #i need to post this now because i keep editing it and changing stuff or adding new things in so if there is mistakes then 💀💀💀💀 #my writing feels like cringe but at least i am free #i got four hours of sleep before work cause of this

[raveartts]

God I miss Twelve Forever, ‘’indefinite hiatus’‘ hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh :((((

#raveartts #I always draw reggie with a peace sign what the fuck #twelve forever #reggie abbott #esther #esther hopkins #stardew valley fanart #digital art #oh this art is like 2 years old or sth #I should make some new art #reggie is literally such a comfort character #this is my comfort show and I love it #it deserves a 2nd season it is so good an underrated #if only the creator didn't suck and the studio didn't shut down #uuugghh esther is such a sweetheart she's like my second favorite she's so relatable #kinda hate todd tho #he's literally the cause of conflict in most episodes and he's so annoying abt it #his girlfriend is nice but she feels so sus #like sth is wrong with her I don't like her but idk why

[birbfeeder2artisticboogaloo]

thousand autumns donghua, episode 8~

OHHH he's the junior preceptor?? what an interesting title!! i have no idea what it means!! is that like 'guoshi' from tian guan ci fu, perhaps?? a similar title, maybe?? WAIT THE OLD MAN IS BULLYING BIRBS??? UNACCEPTABLE. I WILL PECK OUT HIS EYES >:V oh so they're competing for Number One Temple now?? have they already decided on the top ten brothels and five-star inns of the jianghu?? are the temples the only thing left to be ranked?? lol yan wushi curled up on the other side of the table before he stands up looks so fecking funny, i wish i could take a screenshot, he's like a lil purple daruma 🤣 SHEN QIAO IS OUTRAGED!! yws: why do u care what those losers do?? btw u lost this game so u have to do my chores >:) shen qiao: i mean….i guess i'll do it :/ ilu announcer man whose job is to shout the guests' names jfc shen qiao u couldn't even be bothered to dress up?? put on a different jacket or something?? ok then i actually find the random 'normal looking' side character and bg characters to be a bit more pleasing to look at than the super-pretty main dudes lol. might just be personal taste tho 😅 UH-OH HE LOOKS FOREIGN. WE ALL KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS ngl he's kind of hot tho Duan Wenyang is STYLISH AF. vaguely menacing, but TOGGED TO THE BRICKS, as they say!! (idk anyone who actually says this) dwy: OH CHIEF DISCIPLE?? u can be our witness!! sq: im blind :/ WHY DO FIGHTS ALWAYS BREAK OUT WHEN PPL ARE EATING owo who dis??? he's even MORE stylish!!! wow ;A; the old man splayed out over his divan like a TART, robes hanging open like a TART, his hair LOOSE and FREE like a TART honestly i have the most fun with the fight scenes and watching yan wushi menace random ppl for his own amusement OH SHIT ITS JGY'S BIG BRO i don't TRUST HIM, he wears a HAT and MISTREATS MUSICAL INSTRUMENTS >:( yws: wow, ur such a creep. #cancelled BIG JGY U STOP HURTING THAT POOR INSTRUMENT!! is that a qin?? it makes such a pretty sound ;A; i want oneeeeee ;A; OOOOH PHOENIX POWERS!! YWS IS SUCH A BADASS OH MY GOOOODDDDD!!! HOLY SHIT!! GET EM OLD MAN, SHOW EM WHAT'S WHAT!!! WELL DONE!!! :DDD yeessssss MORE FIGHT SCENES!!! duan wenyang has got a whip and the li qingyu has got a really pretty sword!!! dwy: see y'all another time! :D poor shen qiao has to keep telling ppl that he's not the chief anymore, that can't be easy on him ;A; OH LOOK DWY IS BACK. i guess when he said 'another time' he meant 'in ten minutes' lol GET EM SHEN QIAO!! li qingyu thought shen qiao was a bad dude??? wtf??? WHO HAVE U BEEN LISTENING TO. WHO COULD CALL MY SWEET SHEN QIAO A BAD DUDE. HE'S LITERALLY SO INOFFENSIVE??? god the music SLAPS OH CRAP HE BROKE THE BAMBOO STICK----OOH NICE CATCH!!! lmao shen qiao immediately showing the other guy up after praising him for his good martial arts 🤣 HE'S SO POLITE. I LOVE SHEN QIAO lmaooo li qingyu seems quite nice as well, 'u can stay with us instead of the old man, if u like, we don't mind! :D' ASDFGHGFDS THIS KID WANTS TO PAINT SHEN QIAO 'bro ur like. SO HOT. LIKE A CELESTIAL BEING. WAY HOTTER THAN ANYONE ELSE. LET ME PAINT U PLS ;A;' i roast him, but as an artist i understand his pain 😔 sometimes u see someone so beautiful, u really can't help urself 😔 OH I SEE. duan wenyang and kehan dude and big jgy are all IN LEAGUE with each other!! innnnch restinggggg 👀👀 DON'T TRUST THE JGY SHAPED MAN, FELLAS. DON'T U SEE HIS HAT. DIDN'T U SEE WHAT HE DID TO THAT INSTRUMENT. IT'S A BAD IDEA ALL ROUND u know yan wushi barely evil laughed AT ALL during this episode. how disappointing 😔

#birb watches #i really am loving this donghua #probably not the way im MEANT to love it #but i do love it lmao 🤣 #we met a bunch of new friends today #like duan wenyang and the khan #and li qingyu and big jgy (idc what his real name is. i am calling him big jgy) #also su qiao and his mum!!! #what a fun episode!!! #can't wait to see what'll happen next!! #thousand autumns donghua #qian qiu #birb still says

[kingkangyohan]

I want Jinyoung makes a cameo in Adamas as Suhyeon's cute and clingy junior. Woosin already has two cute boys in that villa. Suhyeon deserves one.

you are speaking the truth anon.

Jinyoung deserves to see Ji Sung wearing a turtleneck.

it's just fair.

#is the new episode out? #i need to check #i really wanna see what's coming #it's becoming a juicy show #and not just for double Ji Sung #also #Ji Sung wrapped yesterday #and Jinyoung's truck arrived just in time for the last nightshoot #adamas #i got mail #Su Hyeon is my fav bro at this point btw #remma

[onyxylophone]

(@bakedbananners mcga gem AU that I stayed up like all night to write lmao ♡)

"My Lifetime Will Be a Fraction of Yours If I'm Lucky"

10:00 p.m.

          "Citrine, there is no way in hell that I am going to-!" Speridot burst into the motel room, Citrine hot on her heels as she slammed a worn-out hiking backpack down onto one of the beds. 

          The conversation Lionskin Jasper was having stopped abruptly, said gem sighing and pinching the bridge of her nose as Citrine flashed her an apologetic look.

          Speridot's head shot up, glaring at the fourth person in the room. "What's he doing here?"

          Amir made a face, cringing. "You told them?"

          Lionskin slowly nodded, "I told them. And it seems like everyone's handling it like mature gems-"

          "Oh, you can both just go crawl back into the exit holes you popped out of!" Speridot said, addressing the other two Crystal Gems. She spun around, pushing her pointer finger against Citrine's chest, "He's supposed to stay in your room!"

          Citrine's face flushed, "Well, if you'd just listen to me for a second-!"

          "I NEED SOME AIR." Speridot announced to the room before vanishing out of the open doorway, letting the door swing shut behind her.

          Citrine paced the length of the floor, running his hands through his hair as he felt his physical form heating up. This was supposed to be a good trip! He could fix this! He just needed to…needed to…

          "Citrine," Lionskin said, pulling him out of his thoughts, "The carpet."

          He paused, looking down. The floor around his feet was starting to smoke, the beige synthetic fibers melting and clumping together from his high body temperature.

          "I need to-? Uh-? Ugh…bye."

          Citrine left the girls' motel room and entered the one next door. He dropped his own bag down and fell backwards onto the bed with his arms outstretched. If he let out a mildly embarrassing noise of frustration, then that was between him and the popcorn-textured ceiling.

          He hadn't seen Speridot outside anywhere. That meant there was nothing he could do but sit and wait for her to come back. Surely she wouldn't be gone too long, right?

2:30 a.m.

          Speridot stepped out of his and Lionskin's shared motel room. He closed the door carefully behind him, hearing the lock softly pop into place.

          The faint smell of chlorine. Moths danced around the flickering fluorescent lights over his head. In one direction, Speri could see a long line of windows with their blinds shuttered and a sign marking the entrance to the pool at the far end. Turning the other way, he noticed a familiar face about five rooms down.

          "Amir."

          The one human member of the Crystal Gems nearly jumped out of his skin, spinning around as Speridot walked up. He froze for a split second. 

          Probably still not used to my face.

          "Oh! Sorry, I…I didn't see you. Your name's Speridot, right?" Gem stuff was all still so new to him. Alien, for lack of a better word.

          "Speri's fine." Speridot folded his arms and tilted his head. "What are you doing?" 

          Amir motioned to the vending machine in front of them. Speridot studied the mix of soft drinks and bottled water. Looking closer, he could see a pop can wedged sideways; the tab at the top was pressed up against the glass.

          "My drink's stuck," Amir awkwardly explained, "I was about to go ask the owner if he could-"

          Speridot glanced over at the machine. The soda lurched sideways, freeing itself and falling to the bottom with a loud thunk. Amir crouched down, reaching his hand inside to grab his drink.

          "Um…thank you, Speri. Look, I'm sorry about Lionskin…"

          Speridot shrugged. "No problem." He mumbled, casually brushing a pink curl out of his face.

          One of the motel room doors opened behind them. Speridot knew it was Citrine without even having to turn around. The gem frowned, glaring down at the dandelions growing up through the cracks in the concrete.

          All of the drinks in the vending machine came crashing down. Cans and bottles tumbled out, spinning in circles at their feet. A Pepsi rolled into the parking lot.

          Amir rubbed the back of his neck with one hand, "I only really need one…"

          Speri lifted a cherry soda with his ferrokinesis, letting it hover in the air beside him. "I need to go." He said abruptly before walking off in the direction of the pool. He sped up as he passed his teammate, trying not to make eye contact.

          "Speri, hold on, I just want to talk to you-!"

          Speridot was now jogging and fighting the urge to cry at the same time. "There's nothing to talk about!" He lied. 

          "C'mon, man, I can help! Don't push me away like this!"

          They were both standing at the edge of the pool now.

          "Don't you get it?" Speridot said, looking back over his shoulder, "I'm trying to push you away!"

          Citrine stopped, inclining his head, "Why would-?"

          "Because!" Speri said, throwing up his hands, "If I act like an asshole, then Lionskin will throw me out of the Crystal Gems!"

          "...I'm not following."

          Speridot folded his arms, sighing as he stared down at the water rippling in the pool. "If I leave now, then I won't have to be here when Amir dies. I won't have to watch Lionskin try to cope and fail."

          "But how do you know-"

          "Because that's what happened to me."

          The can of Tizer hit the ground hard, rolling until it came to a stop against the tip of Citrine's shoe.

          Citrine fumbled for both the right words and the can at his feet. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to-"

          "It's okay," Speridot said just a little too quickly, "It was a long time ago. I'm fine now."

          "You don't really seem fine to me."

          Speridot roughly ran the back of his hand across his eyes. He tightened his jaw. There was a long period of silence where Citrine waited for his teammate to make the next move.

          Speri inhaled, his breath shaking as he struggled not to cry. "His name was Adrian. He was my best friend, and he died. That's what humans do. That's what everybody does. And when Lionskin told us about her and Amir, I…I didn't know what to do. I just wanted to run away from it again."

          "Speridot, I…I know how you feel. I lost someone I cared about, too."

          "At least you had Onyx and Goshenite!" The tears were now openly streaming down one side of Speridot's face as he raised his voice, "I didn't have anybody after Adrian died! It was just me! Then I met you and Lionskin; and you? You're probably going to end up shattered! Or corrupted! Or something else that's equally terrible after you do some stupid shit because that would be just my fucking luck and-!" 

          "You care about me?" Citrine blinked, feeling his whole body heating up again. He was suddenly grateful to be standing on concrete.

          Speridot paused for a second, looking very much like a deer in headlights. "You're an idiot!" He sputtered, before turning on his heel and moving to storm off again. 

          "Speri, wait-" Citrine lunged forward, gently grabbing Speridot's wrist and spinning him to face him. The metal bars all around the pool area began to warp and rattle. "I'm never going to leave you like that." He told him softly, pushing a few strands of curly hair out of his face.

          Speridot's other eye became wet and glassy. "Don't make promises you can't keep." He said finally, before slipping his arm out of his grasp and quietly fleeing out into the darkened parking lot.

          Citrine wanted to follow him. He wanted to chase after him for the second time tonight; he wanted to know all the right words to say that would fix this sudden rift between them.

          But he didn't. 

          Citrine felt himself losing control of the body. He retreated willingly, letting White Labradorite take over. 

          Labradorite shook out all his limbs, reveling in the humid, summer air.

          He took a deep breath. He could feel Citrine still, curled up and quiet inside their mind. Flashes of memory filled him in on the situation.

          Speridot.

          Labradorite pushed Speri's abandoned drink into his and Citrine's combined gems before jogging out into the sea of cars.

          It wasn't that hard to find him- Labradorite just followed the muffled sound of sobbing. Eventually he spotted the mix of peridot and pink spinel tucked between a pick-up truck and the family falafel business van that Amir was currently borrowing from his father.

          "Hey." Labradorite said, sliding his back down the side of the van until he was sitting beside his friend.

          Speri lifted his head, his one eye red and puffy from crying. He sniffled. "...Labradorite?"

          White Labradorite couldn't help but grin at the sound of his name. It felt nice to be recognized. 

          "The one and only!" He paused, and Speridot could almost see the little loading wheel spinning around the top of his head, "Eh, well I guess not so much one or only, haha."

           "Don't give yourselves another crisis." Speridot told him as he hugged his knees closer to his chest.

          A brief, uncomfortable silence.

          "So…how long were you…alone?"

          Speridot made a face, leaning his head back to rest against one of the car doors. "As if you care." He said finally, avoiding eye contact.

          Labradorite flexed his hands. A minute went by as he searched for the right words. "I do care," He whispered, "...And not just because of Citrine, or whatever. We're friends just on our own, aren't we?" Speridot's eyes flickered over. Labradorite continued. "…Besides, I remember what it's like. Being alone. One time Yellow Diamond, he-! Ah-?…I mean…"

          Speri's right hand started to fidget without his input. "You'll never be alone again, though," He said, trying to be comforting, "You and Citrine…you're both always going to have each other. It's not the same as it is with me."

          "I mean, we could probably fit your gem in here with us. Maybe if I just scoot over a little."

          Speridot rolled his eyes playfully, a smile tugging at the corner of his mouth, "Stop cracking my facets."

          They both stopped talking for a while, quietly stargazing as the night went by. Gems didn't need to sleep, so it didn't really matter how long they sat there on the wet pavement. Speridot felt a familiar longing in his chest: a muffled, almost painful yearn for something he didn't know outside of weird visions and vague conversation.

          He pressed his tongue to the inside of his cheek, carefully thinking over what he wanted to say next.

          "...Labradorite?"

          "Yeah?"

          "Where is it?"

          "Hm?" Labradorite looked up from where he'd been watching ants skirt around rain puddles, "Where's what?"

          Speridot motioned up at the night sky with his chin. "Homeworld," he said, "Where is it from here?"

          Labradorite blinked, tilting his head back to stare up at the dozens and dozens of little white stars. He took a second to orient himself; searching for landmarks, figuring out the directionals, remembering all the little tricks he'd learned from his Diamond over the years…

          "There!" He told his teammate finally, reaching out with one arm to point at a section of space that didn't really look all that special from where Speridot was sitting. "That's Homeworld."

          Another long pause, both of them thinking about the weight of the far-off planet they were expected to call home.

          "...Thirty years."

          Labradorite looked over at his companion with a confused look on his face, "What?"

          Speridot stared down at his knees, his own expression carefully devoid of emotion. "Thirty years…" he began again, slower and softer this time, "It's been thirty years since I lost Adrian."

          Hey, Citrine! Is that a lot-?

          Yeah, it's…it's a lot.

          "I'm sorry, Speridot." Labradorite tried to comfort his friend with a hand on his shoulder. "I hear Citrine think about the mom sometimes. You both must miss your little human friends a lot."

          Speridot nodded, "Adrian would have liked you guys. He always thought gem stuff was cool."

          Labradorite paused, withdrawing his hand. He stared down at the white lines outlining each individual parking space, his face looking lost in abstract concentration. He mumbled something under his breath.

          Speri recognized that face. "What'd he say?"

          White Labradorite blinked and swallowed a few times, trying to ground himself as he faintly processed what both the gem inside and the gem outside were saying to him.

          His head raised sharply.

          "I, um…I think Citrine wants to see you now."

          Speridot looked over, "Oh! Uh, yeah, okay. Bye, I guess?"

          Labradorite flashed a thumbs-up, already letting his head fall back towards his chest. His eyes closed. He took a deep breath. 

          Their shared physical form flickered once, twice, and then Citrine was back.

          He blinked. Seconds went by as Speridot patiently waited for him to come around. Citrine slowly reached into his gem, withdrawing Speri's cherry soda.

          "...You dropped this."

          Speridot crouched down in front of Citrine, cupping the latter's face in his hands.

          "I'm sorry for what I said earlier." He told him, looking deeply into his friend's eyes. Pretty.

          Citrine laughed softly, "It's okay. I kind of like my exit hole, anyway. It's a good one. You saw it."

          Speri hummed, his pink thumb gently running circles across Citrine's cheek. The light, feathery touch made Citrine's insides twist into painful knots.

          "I care about you, Citrine. A lot."

          At first, Citrine didn't even realize what happened. Speridot quickly closed the distance between them. 

          The kiss only lasted a few seconds, but entire gem eras might as well have come and gone. Speri could have shattered him into hundreds of little pieces and Citrine would have been less surprised. 

          Somewhere inside their mind, Labradorite was loudly cheering him on. Something about quartzes being notoriously good kissers. 

          He wasn't sure how a guy who used to be a sword would know something like that- but he wasn't really eager to ask, either. Citrine didn't exactly feel like a good kisser; in fact, he felt more like a literal rock than he had in his entire life. 

          It ended just as fast as it began. Speridot pulled back, head tilting to the side as he studied Citrine in silence.

          "...Don't destabilize, 'k?"

          Citrine swallowed dryly, feeling like his mouth and throat were stuffed full of hot, itchy cotton. "Okay." He wheezed.

           That seemed to satisfy Speri. He stood up, dusting gravel off his legs before striding off in the direction of the pool. "Night, Citrine!" He called over his shoulder.

           Citrine felt himself start zoning out. He slumped against Amir's falafel van, blankly staring down at the pavement with wide, unfocused eyes.

           Breakfast tomorrow was going to be so fucking awkward.

#hmm okay new second favorite fic I've done so far #but that could just be bc keystone motel is one of my favorite su episodes #alex fierro #magnus chase #samirah al abbas #amir fadlan #fierrochase #mcga #percy jackson #pjato #steven universe #my post #my writing #okay to rb

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Which speaking about that episode...... are you emotional about True Colors because of what happens to Marcy and was it on pair with a few SU episodes that were emotional?

i think i remember putting my hands over my mouth and being p shaken when she got stabbed, it was brutal and i wasn't expecting it, but no i don't think anything in amphibia has made me feel the way watching some of those su episodes for the first time made me feel

#of course i was younger when su aired but nevertheless a lot of episodes still fuck me right up #and i've yet to find a new piece of media that makes me feel like su did which is hard when networks keep ending shows after 2 or 3 seasons #toh is pretty close but i still havent actually cried watching it #i think its just bc im older #also again not as passionate as amphibia as much as i love marcy its nowhere near su in terms of making me feel for its characters #asks for sami #amphibia #obviously im biased what can i say lol