#suicidal actions

[sorry-apsalar]

Frender Drabbles: Reasons to Stay Alive

Content Warning for suicidal thoughts, actions, and an interrupted (and thus unsuccessful) suicide attempt.

Summary: The second writing, I want it to be from angst. Sometimes I see Bender as if everything he does is just for temporary pleasure, and he knows it, just to hide the fact that he was broken inside and takes the laid back and indifferent attitude towards everyone, as he doesn't want to look weak. before anyone. In all the suicide attempts he's made, it was mostly for attention. But one of those days, he just couldn't take it anymore. To the point that he didn't even see his useful existence in a world in which he was a clear nuisance, his creation was based on building a machinery that served death, and seeing himself seeking happiness in such banal things. .. pushes it to the limit. That's where Fry truly cares for his best friend and crush, stopping him from further cutting the wires in his wrist and system in an attempt to kill himself.

Also this was another request that was originally in Spanish so here is the original: "El segundo escrito, quiero que sea de angst. A veces veo a Bender como si todo lo que hace es por simple placer temporal, y él los sabe, sólo para ocultar el hecho de que se encontraba roto por dentro y toma la actitud relajada e indiferente ante todos, ya que no quiere verse débil ante nadie. En todos los intentos de suicidio que ha hecho, fué mayormente para llamar la atención. Pero un día de esos, simplemente no podía soportarlo más. Al punto de que ni siquiera veía su existencia útil en un mundo en el que él era una clara molestia, su creación se basó para construir una maquinaria que sirviera a la muerte, y verse a sí mismo en buscar la felicidad en cosas tan banales… lo lleva al límite. Ahí es donde Fry, verdaderamente se preocupa por su mejor amigo y amor platónico, evitando que se siguiera cortando los cables de la muñeca y de su sistema en un intento de matarse."

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Bender hadn’t made a real attempt since the one he’d been making when meeting Fry, when Fry had inadvertently stopped him and somehow convinced him not to go back to it. The thoughts and temptation hadn’t gone away though, grown less powerful at times sure, but still always in the back of his mind somewhere.

Fry’s argument that Bender was his only friend no longer applied, making the list of reasons not to a bit shorter. Other reasons like, wanting to watch the next episode of ‘All My Circuits’ with Fry, enjoying getting away with stealing stuff, and other similar things were all so… lame. What kind of reason to live was sitting and watching TV or playing video games or finding new ways to slack off at work?

Shouldn’t one’s reason to live be something deep and meaningful like wanting to make the world a better place through finding a cure for cancer, ending world hunger, etc.? But while Bender would like if the world were a better place, he didn’t really care if it was, certainly not enough to want to bother to do anything about it. Or there were the folk who’s reason to live was devoting themselves to serving their god of choice. Silly nonsense in Bender’s personal opinion but whatever, if it worked for them he didn’t exactly have a lot of ground to stand on. Or there were the people who’s purpose in life was great scientific or artistic achievement. The only thing Bender wanted to achieve was being rich and famous but he’d failed at that at every turn and he was too lazy to really put the required amount of effort in to achieve that. Leaving him with zero good reasons to stay alive, only a bunch of dumb ones.

He’d been built to build machines that delivered death. That was his big purpose in life. The shittiest reason of all to live which was why he’d abandoned it. But even so it’s why he’d been built, the reason he existed in the first place. He couldn’t make that not reality even if he could sometimes forget it for a little while.

And so he was going to kill himself. It had to be big and dramatic, something that would make his friends feel sad and sorry even if that wasn’t likely to last for very long. But it also had to be done in a way that it wasn’t obvious he was trying to make them feel bad because then they most certainly wouldn’t. They’d just be mad and annoyed instead which was already how they felt about him a lot of the time while he was alive.

A suicide note would be nice. But as kept staring at the blank page, tapping the pencil’s eraser against the side of his head, nothing good continued to come to him. All his prior attempts – now scrunched up balls of paper in the trash bin – had come off sounding too melodramatic and whiny, too angry, or not serious enough. He didn’t have a good strong reason to kill himself, he just might as well because he was steadily unhappy and lacked good reasons to stay alive. Finding a way to explain that in a way that would make sense and would make his friends feel bad was hard.

He could lie and say he had a deep and dark troubled past that he’d been hiding that he just couldn’t bear to live with any longer. But… lying on a suicide note felt wrong in a way that even he was uncomfortable with.

A glance at the clock revealed that he was running out of time. Fry was due to return to the apartment in a couple hours. Bender needed to be done killing himself before then because doing it with Fry in the house would just be awkward.

He needed to put something down though so… ‘I killed myself because I wanted to. I guess you can have my stuff Fry because I don’t need it anymore. Love Bending Bender Rodriquez’ He stared at it for a few seconds before erasing the ‘love’ and replacing it with a dash. There. It wasn’t good and probably wouldn’t make anyone feel particularly bad for him like he’d wanted but it delivered the news and let Fry know he could he have his stuff. … What about Leela though and Amy?

‘P.S. Leela and Amy can have some of my stuff too if they want it. But NO ONE else!!’ There, much better.

He stood and attached the note to the fridge with a magnet, making sure to place it on the corner so it’d be easy to tell upon walking in that it was a note of sorts. Fry at least should feel a little bad when he read it, he was sensitive like that. He might even cry at the funeral. … Bender felt bad about that but feeling bad about making people sad by dying wasn’t much of a reason to keep living. Fry would get over it, probably rather quickly too.

Turning to leave, Bender headed for the bathroom. In all the murder mystery shows whenever the murderer wanted to frame their crime as a suicide they often poisoned the victim, slit their wrists and put them in a bathtub filled with water. Of course the detectives always figured out the truth but they always had to fight with people about it initially, indicating that this was a surefire way to kill oneself.

Mostly it was humans and other biological beings but a few had been robots too. Supposedly cutting the power lines in one’s wrists and submerging them would electrify the water enough to fry one’s systems beyond repair. It was supposed to be fast, effective, and dramatic but not obnoxiously so, making it perfect.

He plugged the tub and started water running. While he waited he pulled the knife out of his chest compartment to fiddle with. He’d sharpened it last night but he checked its edge anyway, scratching part of the tubing that made up his arm. It would take some pressure to get it to cut through to the wires but he was a bending bot, by design he could supply more than enough force and pressure to get the job done.

It took a while, way too long, but eventually the tub was full. Bender turned off the faucet and climbed in. Water sloshed out over the side to the floor. Oops, he’d overfilled the tub. Not his mess to clean up though because he was going to be dead really soon.

He lifted the knife, placing its tip to his wrist and pressed down. … Far too gently though, only making another scratch. Part of him was still hesitant to go through with it. He needed to get his act together and just…

The bathroom door burst open.

“Oh thank god you’re still in the house,” Fry said, panting as he stepped in. “I was worried that you’d gone off and that I wouldn’t be able to find you in time.”

This was the exact kind of awkward thing Bender had wanted to avoid. The frantic worry and relief in Fry’s face and tone as he stepped closer made Bender feel bad. Enough so that he lowered the knife. “You’re home early.”

“Uh… yeah, guess so. You’ve been acting weird lately and you didn’t want to come with us to the bar so… I was a bit worried. So I wanted to come home early to see if you were all right and stuff. And uh… apparently you’re not.”

Fry had noticed and worried about him. Bender wouldn’t have thought him observant enough to.

“Don’t do it,” Fry continued. “Please don’t do it.”

“I don’t have any good reasons to live and life is varying degrees of miserable so why bother with it anymore?”

“I… I don’t know. But we can get you help, a therapist or something. Aren’t they supposed to help?”

“I don’t wanna go see some quake doctor that’s gonna poke around in my brain before telling me to go back to my job at the factory. Because that’s apparently gonna make me happy and give me purpose, building death machines. It’s what I was built for after all, the reason I exist.”

Seemingly uncaring of the water pooling on the floor, Fry lowered himself to his knees by the tub. “They can’t all be like that, can they?”

Bender shrugged. “I’ve only ever been to two so I don’t know, maybe not.”

Fry’s worried frown deepened as he clasped his hands into an almost begging gesture. “Is there something I can do to convince you not to?”

“Why do you care so much?” Bender hadn’t seen him this distraught since finding out about his nephew.

“You’re my friend.”

“I’m not you’re only friend anymore so you can’t use that to convince me this time.”

“But… but… you’re my best friend. And I don’t know what to say, I’m with bad emotions and words and stuff but if you need someone, I’m here. I wanna help if I can and just… please don’t do it.”

“Fine.” It’s not like Bender could do it in front of Fry anyway.

Hope dawned on Fry’s face. “Really?”

“Yeah, yeah. I wasn’t that invested in it anyway.” A lie. He’d been thinking about it on and off for years, most of his life in fact. It’s part of why he’d decided to just go ahead and do it. But he couldn’t do it with Fry looking at him like that.

Water streamed from him as he stood up. He unplugged the drain and put the knife back in his chest compartment. Fry stood and stepped aside, allowing him to exit the tub, dripping even more water onto the tile floor. As soon as he was all the way out though Fry hugged him.

It wasn’t the first time they’d hugged, far from it, but it had been a while since they’d last done so. Just by pure happenstance, not a decision either of them had made. Bender hadn’t realized just how much he’d missed it until now. Fry was warm and soft in his arms and he cared. He cared more about Bender not dying than Bender did.

“Don’t do this again, please,” Fry whispered before stepping back.

“I won’t.” Maybe Bender would even keep that promise. Doubtful but technically it was possible he’d find a good reason to live before his feeling bad about making Fry sad faded enough to allow him to try again.

#my writing #futurama #frender #frender drabbles #suicidal thoughts #suicidal actions

[pastelgothkitten]

The Scars

.・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。.

I wish I could forget you. Pretend you don't exist. Erase you from my life. You're destructive. Damaging. You leave physical scars everyone can see and emotional ones just for me. If I talk about you I get to wear cute grippy socks on vacation. You tell me I deserve it. That you're my only hope.. My only option. You sold me a dream of change and happiness. I bought every word. You were a permanent solution.. To a temporary problem. Now I cover your memory with tattoos. Edit you out of every photo. I had hundreds of lies to cover you up. "That dang cat." I didn't have a cat. If I cried for help you screamed louder. I was drowning in your noise. I hate you. I hate that I listen to you. I hate what you do to me. Why do I listen? I long for control and you give me the feeling. I'm suffocating in your presence. Let me go. Please let me go..

.・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。.

#self harm recovery #healing #mental health #poetry #spoken word #scars #battle scars #depression #suicidal thoughts #suicidal actions

[kropotkindersurprise]

January 29, 2023 - Some uplifting news from the US:

Neo-nazi piece of shit Teddy von Nukem (his legal name lmao), who featured in some of the viral photos from the tiki torch march in Charlottesville, killed himself at age 35, a day before his trial for drug trafficking was set to begin.

He was also one of the attackers in the brutal beating of DeAndre Harris in Charlottesville the next day, but was never charged for that, despite being identified in video. But anyway, he’s dead now lol. Good riddance to bad rubbish. [link]

#suicide #trigger warning #charlottesville #neonazi #karma #alt-right #antifa #antifascism #antifascist action #usa #death #good night alt right #good night white pride #teddy von nukem

[baltharino]

Suicide Squad (2016)

#suicide squad #harley quinn #margot robbie #dcedit #filmedit #movieedit #filmgifs #moviegifs #filmtv #tvandfilm #dailytvfilmgifs #live action #harleen quinzel #suicide squad 2016 #gif #gifset

[dailyflicks]

The Suicide Squad 2021 | dir. James Gunn

#the suicide squad #thesuicidesquadedit #cinematicsource #filmgifs #filmedit #moviegifs #dcedit #harley quinn #by alex #2020s #action #comedy #*

[lordartsy]

i remember seeing someone bring up adding Blue Beetle to the League, and a comment saying he belongs more with either the Titans or Young Justice. wonder how that'd go 🤔

#i'll probably color this later but i have deadlines to chase 🏃 #dc #blue beetle #blue beetle 2023 #jaime reyes #tim drake #bart allen #kon el kent #conner kent #cassie sandsmark #sorry to the guy that commented that but do you really have hope that this series holds out enough that they get to the other kiddos #my sweet sweet beetle borg is already a box office failure orz #okay i was thinking like how would you even fit the other guys into this timeline and oh my god i forgot. suicide squad #save us jaime you gotta hold out long enough for live action booster 🙏 #right i have deadlines i wish you all a good evening 🏃 #comic

[animenostalgia]

Some extremely sad news to share - Mangaka Hinako Ashihara, best known in the US for her shoujo work like Sand Chronicles and Forbidden Dance (originally Angel's Kiss in Japan), has died from suspected suicide. Her latest series in Japan, Sexy Tanaka-san, has recently gotten a live-action drama series. But behind the scenes, the production has been riddled with problems. Ashihara had expressed in a now-deleted blog post the scripts where not what she was promised out of the adaptation, which she later apologized for, saying she hadn't meant to sound like she was attacking the staff of the TV show.

People speculate that all these issues most likely lead to feelings of despair, though we don't know the full details and possibly never will. Whatever happened, it is a true tragedy and Ashihara will be deeply missed.

#New #hinako ashihara #Tw: suicide #Death #Shoujo manga #90s shoujo #Links out #Sand Chronicles #Forbidden Dance #Angel's Kiss #Sexy Tanaka-san #live action

[stressfulsloth]

I really do think it's interesting that the way DE discusses ableism gets ignored by a lot of the fanbase. Because Harry is undeniably disabled and that's a core conflict of the game. He's living in an impossible situation that so many disabled people get caught in; he's physically disabled, even more so by the end of the game after being shot, but even at the beginning of the game he struggles with nerve damage, post-polio syndrome, partial paralysis in his jaw, withdrawals, and that's not even starting on the mental illness. He is sick and cannot ever properly heal under these circumstances because he cannot stop moving forward or he will start to sink. He's living in poverty. He has no safety net. No way out of the RCM. That night in Martinaise before the beginning of the game, he tries to quit- throw everything away. He tries to end his own life and drive his car into the sea because he cannot fathom a future where he's able to get out of this alive when he's so intrinsically bound to this abusive institution that he can't escape from.

And then comes Jean, deliberately forbidding anyone from jogging Harry's memory out of spite and anger, refusing to allow anyone else to help, calling him a fucking idiot and a psychopath, asking if he can go to the toilet on his own, telling him that he doesn't deserve his disability pension because it should go to cops who gave a shit instead (nevermind that Harry has been working at burnout pace for years, he's an addict so his contributions are essentially worthless, right?). He has a conversation with Judit, right in front of Harry, on whether or not he has learning disabilities.

This guy is a very interesting character! And I'm not denying that he's likely dealt with consequences at work from Harry's illness. But he also fulfils the narrative role of being a mouthpiece for the suspicion and even outright aggression that addicts face even while trying to recover. He fulfils the role of a representative of the RCM, with the ability to approve or deny Harry’s return and in turn essentially sentence him to a slow death in the seaside village. He is not there to help; he is there to judge and observe, and then blame Harry when things go bad even though his inaction is at least in part responsible for the deaths during the tribunal. And this is all very deliberate! The RCM, and by extension the Coalition, as an organisation is failing both its officers and its citizens- Jean, by extension, is one of the officers being failed! They are underfunded, overstretched, overworked, and shouldn't even exist in the first place. The expectation on partnered officers to provide emotional support to each other is ridiculous. But instead of directing his anger upwards towards the Coalition airships or superiors at the RCM, he directs it outwards, towards 'the liberals' or towards Harry, who as a disabled addict is a pretty convenient punching bag.

His vitriol towards Harry is not supposed to be sympathetic! At least the way I read it, you're not meant to look at him and think 'oh wow Harry's struggle has been so hard for him.' You're meant to question his language, to think more deeply about how society treats addicts, how punitive measures are never going to help someone get sober, about the importance of safety nets.

#disco elysium #idk man its the social murder game people keep saying this #this is not to say that youre never meant to sympathise with jean or question Harry's actions either #like clearly pre-martinaise harry did some pretty terrible things that's undeniable #but can we do some more blaming the occupying government and structural issues for Jean's issues #and less villanising one of the best portrayals of addiction that ive seen in a long time? #please? #harry du bois #personal #suicide tw #DE rambling

[hg-aneh]

You don’t have to answer this but I hope you read it. I just now saw that you wanted to settle things privately and I feel like a dick because

Well. I hope you’re doing alright and that you have lots of warm blankets and all your favorite drinks of choice nearby. ♥️ I was upset on your part. Lots of good vibes to you.

Hey, don't feel bad about it, I know your intentions were definitely not bad with this, and I'm very appreciative of the gesture regardless of how I wanted to handle things personally

What has been bothering me however is the way people are reacting about this being brought up to Neil

I know it can be mortifying to the fandom at large, but sometimes, some people on the internet won't stop or listen to reason unless some higher authority tells them to do so (which, in this case, it would be Neil), and the people who come to those higher authorities are only trying to make things right, it's all!

Also, he's got over a thousand asks on his inbox and he decided to pick this question to answer by his own volition

No one was pressuring him to do so and he's not going to leave the platform or close his askbox because someone gets a bit too personal with him, he's said before that he just deletes asks that make him uncomfortable, which wasn't the case here so that should tell people enough about it in my opinion (you are completely allowed to disagree)

I've also seen people considering this whole thing just "drama"-?

Listen, I know those people are not me and that theyre not in the position I'm currently at, and by God I hope they never EVER will be

But look. I haven't told anyone (besides 2 friends who watched everything unfold very closely and have helped me with receipt-safekeeping) all the details about this situation, nor have I gone out of my way to talk about it fully with anyone or allow myself to process this whole thing completely, but I assure you, it is not just drama

The way the buildup of all of this messed with me almost made me k-ll myself about a month ago

I can see why people would think it's just something silly since they don't have all the details (and I'm not planning on revealing them unless something big comes up), but please, to those people, think of that for a second, think of everything I haven't talked about. Just. Keep that in mind before you call this drama

I'd really appreciate that

#tw suicide #suicide mention #ughhhhh #thank you for the gesture btw #i knew neil would stand with anti bullying messaging because thats one of the things the dude preaches the most #but its nice to see it in action #even if he still scares me to death dncnmf #aneh answers #aneh cries

[is-the-fire-real]

Another bit on the pro-Pal fandom, this one axiomatic

Being a good person is not the same thing as pretending as though you believe you are a good person.

Being a good person takes work. You have to do stuff. Doing stuff is hard. Doing good stuff is harder, because you have to put thought into determining what you think is good beforehand. That requires self-reflection, honesty, a willingness to challenge oneself, and taking in information from other people to verify that your concept of "good" is, well, good.

The nice part is that once you evaluate what is good and start doing good things, it becomes easier. You gain inner calm, peace, and even joy.

("Good" is not always the same as "necessary". Necessary work can be a slog, or it can be horrific. But there can still be a calming satisfaction at the core, the security that this is necessary and therefore worthwhile.)

Pretending to believe you are a good person takes less immediate work. You don't have to do anything that positively impacts the real world, and you don't have to do any of that annoying, time-consuming self examination. But in the long run, it's more exhausting. By far.

You are insecure about whether or not you are a good person. You're pretending to believe you are good. You can't feel secure in something you pretend to believe. That insecurity gnaws at you, especially when you engage in bad behavior--harassment, doxxing, posting gore, swarming tags, encouraging and promoting suicide among your fellow "activists", telling your opponents to kill themselves, stalking, spamming unrelated content with literal Nazi propaganda.

None of those are good things good people do. And you understand that. You would think someone was bad if they did those things to you. The cognitive dissonance between who you want to be and who you really are, as determined by your actions, is scary. It's painful. It rears up every time someone you have labeled a Zio colonizer scumbag asks you to please just stop and you remember a time when you begged someone--an abuser, a troll online, a 4channer, your parents--to just stop please just leave me alone.

That must feel terrifying, and again, it makes you insecure. It makes you question if you're doing the right thing.

So you do the work to pretend to believe you are good. And that's far more work than goes into being good.

You recruit others, and all of you agree that you will pretend together. Tabletop gaming has taught us how powerful this imaginative play can be. You all reassure each other that you are good and you are right. But since you're all lying to each other, that means you must spend more, and more, and more time every day telling each other that you are good, chasing that high, that feeling that you are a good person and your actions are justified.

You tell each other that your "opponents" in this "battle" are not people, so anything you say or do to and about them is okay. You look at lists of "dehumanizing tactics" and instead of internalizing what those lists are teaching you, you go: "Ah, so if I don't use the word 'vermin', anything I say should be fine!" And then you say it.

You do not smile over good news. You only smile when one of your opponents logs off Tumblr because you made the site unusable and unsafe for them. (The expression you make there isn't really a smile, but we'll call it that, since the corners of your mouth do turn upward.) You tell yourself you're just attacking Zionists and pretend you do not see how you're really going after Jews.

No self-examination; that would mean admitting that you're lying to yourself and others. Instead, you traumatize and exhaust yourself until you're psychologically incapable of self-examination. You watch snuff films. You stare at mangled bodies until you're weeping and physically ill (certainly, you're too ill to check whether the video is real, or if it was taken from this conflict).

You force your beliefs into your fandom spaces so that others, the bad people, cannot escape their complicity in genocide.

But more importantly, you do that so you can't escape.

You cannot engage in any fandom but the pro-Pal fandom because that takes imaginative energy away from your biggest pretense--that you're a good person.

You are NOT hurting people because you are striking a blow for Palestinians. You are hurting people, including yourself, because you do not want to do the work of becoming a good person. You are afraid that self examination, at this point, will reveal to you that you are exactly the sort of person you believe you are fighting.

That fear, that insecurity, that dread, that restless sense that if you ever rest or stop or think for just a moment, you'll discover something awful? That's your conscience.

I do not ask you to change your mind about your political opponents. Your defenses are already on your lips and in your mind; a thousand How Dare Yous for me hinting that you look at other people as people. What I will ask you is to consider this.

I came to young adulthood just as Bush was elected, and the Iraq War post-9/11 was the first war I really followed as an adult. I did what you're doing now. I forced myself to look at photographs of destroyed bodies. I looked at photographs of torture perpetrated by US soldiers. I blogged about it obsessively.

I told myself that I was Doing My Part to end the war. But really, it's that the anxiety of being an American during the war made me insecure over whether or not I was responsible for all of this, and therefore, a bad person. If I pretended my looking at snuff photos was activism, and that it was good, then I could pretend to believe I was good and shout "Not in my name" at protests. I could deny my responsibility.

What I really did was traumatize myself. It's been almost twenty years. I can still see some of those torture pictures in my head. In the end, that is the extent of the impact of my online activism. The blogs are all long deleted, and nobody remembers them.

Only my trauma remains.

I do not want this for you. I want you to be wiser. There is still time. You can stop.

Stop hurting yourself and other people. Do the hard work. Examine yourself and your actions. Consider what your own heart is trying to tell you whenever you start to get the shakes and your throat gets tight. Do not take that feeling out on random people online because they have a Magen David in their pfp.

Once you have done the hard work, it gets easier. You will be able to advocate and work for whatever causes you believe in because you know they are good, not because you're joining your friends in cosplaying goodness. You will still be traumatized, and you will still be sad, and you'll definitely still get angry. You will have to face how you've acted exactly like your own past abusers, and that's a real tough row to hoe.

But at the end, you will be able to advocate and work because you want to, instead of feeling as though you must in order to keep up the masquerade.

#free gaza #free palestine #palestine #politics as fandom #suicide #torture #trauma #worse than slacktivism #abuse #is-the-fire-real original #g-d damn it you've got to be kind #i understand you won't listen to this. it's okay if you don't #i may have addressed “you” but i was soothing my own conscience #because i think it's a good thing to tell people to stop harming themselves and others #and it's not my responsibility to change your behavior #it's yours #i'm also not addressing your antisemitic actions #not because you aren't doing that #but because that is between you and your dark night of the soul

[utilitycaster]

(this is tagged for it as well, but putting it here: the below involves some non-graphic mention/discussion of suicide in relation to episode 3x78)

I think it's important to keep in mind, regarding the most recent episode, that while Ashton's behavior was extremely dangerous and reckless, it was not suicidal in intent. Ashton thought it would work. They thought that they would fix things, and they ignored all the smart people warning them against it because it would imply a lot of negative things about their parents. That doesn't mean it wasn't an action taken out of a certain lack of self-regard (Ashton's realization of this is what drives much of his conversations in the first half of the episode); but it's much more akin to an accidental overdose, or a drunk/reckless driving, or other dangerous choices. It feels very true to the idea of punk that Taliesin is going for, in which dying young is always very much a possibility, even perhaps an expectation; but not necessarily a goal. Ashton did not expect taking the shard to result in their death, and is incredibly shaken specifically because it did.

With that in mind I think the party's reactions seem very real and very understandable. The fact is, when someone does something very risky and nearly dies (or even is briefly clinically dead, using real-world terms) but ultimately survives it's extremely normal for one of the emotional responses to be anger that they put themselves in such danger. It is not, perhaps, rational, but most emotions aren't. It hurts a lot when someone one is close to does something that harmful to themselves. I don't judge the other members of Bells Hells for expressing those feelings. Frankly, them not expressing similar feelings in the past might very well be why Ashton made the decisions he did: the party lacking trust and walking on eggshells around each other is why he didn't confide in them, and why they fell apart so completely here.

I think it's relevant that Chetney tells Fearne, after stating he likes Ashton, that either she or Ashton can talk to him if they "want out", and he pretty heavily implies that this indicates not just leaving Bells Hells, but suicide, and that he has considered the latter in the past. It's clear that initially Chetney considers that a possible reason for Ashton's actions. He then gives Ashton the "You should leave" speech only after everyone present has been talking at dinner, after Ashton has indicated that he will help find Laudna. It only comes out after Ashton's emotional state is made more clear to him: it's pretty bad, but not actively at risk of self-harm (and indeed, desperately trying to avoid it and to change).

Finally, it's worth considering how important anger is to Ashton. Obviously I don't think having Imogen, FCG, and Chetney yell at them feels good. I also think it's going to feel better than apathy, and more honest than any other option. I don't think a forced gentleness would be better; in fact it might be worse, with them taking a break because clearly Ashton is having a hard time and needs to recover (shades of how Marisha mentioned Laudna feeling like a burden following her resurrection), rather than "we are clearly all in disarray and all have been not dealing with a lot of emotions, and this could have been any of us, and we should all regroup." I mentioned before that ultimately what's important is, angry as they are, Bells Hells undeniably stayed, and FCG and Imogen at least made it clear early on that they would, even if they were angry. Ashton was abandoned in the past by people who weren't even angry, is the thing. I don't think they cared enough to be.

#tw suicide #let me know if you need other tags. #critical role spoilers #critical role #ashton greymoore #truly the flat out stated similarities between ashton and fcg and some people's responses have been. unfortunately enlightening. #some who claimed FCG was going to sacrifice themselves/destroy others in the grand disc and were pretty vile about a hypothetical #are quick to paint ashton in a light so sympathetic it demands no one else feel any emotions #Ashton even states his shittiness about the changebringer was bc he thought this would lead FCG to do...exactly what he did with the titans #really it brings us back to a core question: is it action or is it intent. the answer is both but action matters more. #but also. much more bluntly. some of you have never either fucked up real bad or had a friend do so huh. #this felt extremely true to life; that's really it in the end.

[queerbauten]

It is suuuper telling how many people are acting like the two choices are “allow people who are doing harm to continue doing harm” or “have the guilty party kill themself”

#James Somerton #FWIW: I believe he was suicidal in some capacity; I also believe his note was posted to manipulate #*especially* given how Nick said there was no reason to worry #suicide tw #abuse tw #basically: Harry & the others were right to call attention to James’ actions and attitudes #death tw

[sunlit-haruka]

I don't know if this still happens cause I'm not too involved with the Fuuta side of the community, but when I was first getting into Milgram I remember being somewhat annoyed at how much I saw Fuuta's murder being watered down to just "Haha twitter user was twittering". And I still feel that way, not because I think Fuuta should be specially punished for his murder, but because in a series full of murders that anyone could commit when placed into their shoes, Fuuta is the character that I think exemplifies the fact that any of these prisoners could be you if you were placed into different circumstances.

#tw cult mention #tw suicide mention #haru chats about milgram #I would talk more in detail about what I mean but it's 1 AM and I need to be up for school so like #Just pretend I talked your ear off about internet cults of punitive justice and purity culture and how often teenagers get harassed into- #-offing themselves on these damn sites because of people'e desire to be the 'good guy' and 'the hero' #I've both observed and met so many Fuutas in my life and doubley so people who have been in his circumstances #Out of all the prisoners he by far feels the most real to me #And considering how much I've praised Yamanaka's character writing for how real he makes the characters feel despite their actions #that's saying a lot #milgram #milgram project #fuuta kajiyama #kajiyama fuuta #milgram fuuta

[ethanreedbooks]

DC's Epic Event: Absolute Power - A Battle of Heroes and Villains!

DC Comics has pulled back the curtain to reveal the full details of their upcoming summer event, "Absolute Power." This monumental storyline will see Batman, Superman, Wonder Woman, and a myriad of other heroes facing off against a formidable "Trinity of Evil" led by the cunning Amanda Waller. With far-reaching implications for the entire DC Universe, "Absolute Power" is poised to be an event of epic proportions.

As previously teased, "Absolute Power" will unite a trio of villains - Amanda Waller, Braniac, and Failsafe - each with their own nefarious agendas aimed at eliminating the world's metahumans. These characters have been making significant power moves in various ongoing comics, and now their convergence is set to unleash chaos on an unprecedented scale.

"Absolute Power" is not just big, it's massive, spanning across eight separate titles and a total of 15 issues. The event kicks off with the "Absolute Power 2024 FCBD Special Edition" on May 4th, followed by the prelude "Absolute Power Ground Zero" on June 25th, and culminating in the main event series starting on July 3rd.

The "Absolute Power 2024 FCBD Special Edition" will feature an original story by Mark Waid and Mikel Janín, providing readers with a glimpse into the events leading up to the main storyline. It will also include a preview of "Absolute Power #1," setting the stage for the epic conflict to come.

"Absolute Power Ground Zero" serves as a prelude to the event, bridging recent events in Batman, Superman, Action Comics, and Suicide Squad Dream Team. This oversized one-shot will unveil Amanda Waller's grand plan and the full extent of her ambitions.

The main event kicks off with "Absolute Power #1," a four-part limited series written by Mark Waid and illustrated by Dan Mora. As chaos ensues and heroes face off against overwhelming odds, Batman leads a resistance movement against Amanda Waller's insidious schemes.

Additionally, the event will feature tie-in titles such as "Absolute Power Task Force VII," which explores the events from the villains' perspective, and "Absolute Power Origins," delving into the history of Amanda Waller.

Fans can also expect tie-in issues in their favorite series, including Batman, Wonder Woman, and Superman, as these iconic heroes grapple with the threat posed by the Trinity of Evil.

With stunning artwork and a star-studded creative team, "Absolute Power" promises to be a game-changer for the DC Universe. Don't miss out on this monumental event, hitting comic shops starting May 4th. For more information and updates, visit DC Comics' official website.

#absolute power #trinity #dc comics #amanda waller #clark kent #superman #batman #batman family #batman and superman #wonder woman #Shaza #shazam #mary marvel #trinity of evil #justice league #green lantern #task force 7 #suicide squad #action comics #fcbd 2024 #brainiac #failsafe

[baltharino]

Suicide Squad (2016)

#im only uhh. 8 years late #suicide squad #harley quinn #margot robbie #filmedit #movieedit #filmgifs #moviegifs #filmtv #tvandfilm #dailytvfilmgifs #live action #harleen quinzel #gif #gifset #dcedit #suicide squad 2016

[dailyflicks]

THE SUICIDE SQUAD (2021) dir. James Gunn

#the suicide squad #usersavana #jokerous #useraurore #tuserhan #usersaoirse #userraffa #userashe #userpavlova #usergiu #usernani #usersnat #2020s #adventure #action #fantasy #* #by lou