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[hauntedpearl]

s12 destiel from dean's perspective is explanation enough for why dean is sooooo insane after that season. like.

- first he almost kills himself for the greater good or whatever and has to come to terms with like. dying. on purpose. and then he is given the gift of life but before he can be like yay! i can go home! his mom is back from the dead??? and his brother is missing???

- then his mom leaves him bc she wants to figure out who she is and even tho he's like a 38 yo man it fucks w him a lot understandably.

-they get arrested and put in SOLITARY for a while and when they finally get out and meet cas again (at which point dean has once again come to terms with dying for the greater good but also mostly his mom and brother this time), he KILLS THE REAPER THEY MADE THE DEAL WITH AND GETS ALL EMOTIONAL??? after which he proceeds to fuck off bc he is Busy™ tracking lucifer etc.,

- then they get a lead and CAS ALMOST DIES IN FRONT OF HIS EYES and throws an I love you in his goodbye speech for the lolz. which. hahaha. anyway cas lives but turns out his mother — with whom he's trying to connect so badly so he can achieve full Normalcy — was like. lowkey responsible for his almost death. so they're fighting now.

- cas receives a divine voicemail from his close friend and colleague and then they go on that case with Lily sunder and ISHIM BEATS CAS UP AND THREATENS TO KILL HIM and even after they beat him Lily Sunder is like. I'm gonna go do some soul searching and if im in the mood I'll come back and KILL YOU. THREAT. and cas is like 😔 fair. so you know.

- there is also an instance of him losing his memories which is scary. and it's like. being intimately familiar with that experience is. something else. as a memory loss girlie let me tell you 👍🏽😄

- and then!!!!! lucifer's unborn child mind melds with his wifehusband — once more in front of his own two eyes — and "manipulates" him into running away with the pregnant lady instead of staying and Figuring Out A Solution. and when they finally do find cas, they are with them for all of 12 hours before HE DIES. FORREAL THIS TIME. AND LIKE THAT'S IT. NO COMING BACK FROM THAT ONE!

this is not an exhaustive list bc i don't remember everything but. like you know. he was primed to get worse and worse. all things that happen in s12 are out of his control but they are also things that happen in front of his eyes, and in ways that make him think that perhaps he did have control over them and he did fuck up some way and he *should* have done something to change the course of their lives so he's filled with guiltshame about it. and he decides that the solution to not losing anyone in the foreseeable future is to just. Control Every Possible Aspect Of Their Existence. which is impossible and that's why he gets mad all the time but YOU KNOW. YOU CAN SEE WHY HE'S CRAZY. poor s12 dean man.

#doe is talking again #just thinking thoughts #i MISS S12 BTW #EVERYTHING WAS SOOOO RIGHT #and then </3 #also this is my bias against s13 showing bc i think it's STUPID #thete i said it idc about narrative importance s13 commits the worst crime of all: its boring as shit #and yeah I've only watched it once but i hated having yo watch it and supernatural WAS my favourite show back then even!! #snd an excuse to spend time with my v close friend!!! SO !!! EVEN THAT couldn't make s13 worth the time 😔 #im also not a big fan of first half of s14 while we're at it. #i think it picks up in the second half thk when thsy start doinf family drama #anyway #ANYWAYSSSS #this is not meta or analysis im just thinking about s12 dean my baby #suicide ment

[crash-bump-bring-the-whump]

Whumpril 2024 - Day 22 - Stoicism Breaks

I've been threatening to send Mariano to therapy so here we ARE! I reference a little RP I had with @comfy-whumpee that's been swirling in my brain ever since we did it c:<

TWs: self harm mention, suicide mention, anxiety mention, talk of a shooting, talk of captivity, this is real cathartic though I promise it's not bad

Ex-military, spent most of his twenties in foreign federal prison, history of anxiety, suicidal ideation, and self-harm. Stoic, highly traumatized, closed off, slow to open up. Hesitant to talk about intense experiences, needs reassurance. Overly concerned with others' needs.

Mary Barlowe looked over her notes before walking into the latest session with Mariano Cross. He wasn't her most difficult patient to talk to, not by a long shot. She never had to worry about calling security, or convincing him to leave when time was up. He was polite, punctual, and friendly.

But he was challenging in his own way.

He'd had a full decade of people telling him that he was an irredeemable monster, and he'd taken it all very seriously. Discussing anything heavier than everyday troubles was approached with the same caution that stray dogs approached an outstretched hand. He barely seemed to have even a basic connection to his own body or emotions, sounding detached whenever he spoke about them. They were things he needed help with, of course, but it was clear that there were things buried deeper than that.

The small, quick smile he gave her when she entered was a fantastic sign. "Good afternoon, Doctor Barlowe." He was already seated, back straight, both feet flat on the floor, and careful hands folded and resting on his leg.

"Good afternoon, Mariano." She returned the greeting easily, taking her own seat in the comfortable chair opposite his. "You mentioned wanting to talk about something difficult today, did something happen?" She knew the answer to that. He'd missed a few sessions due to being hospitalized from a robbery gone wrong.

He hesitated, dark eyes darting to the table between them. "Yes. I...there was something that happened." He seemed to close in on himself, just so, hands still clasped firmly together. She could feel the tension that crept into his voice. "But I understand if we can't."

There it was, the familiar beginning of withdrawal. "Why wouldn't we be able to talk about it?" She leaned forward, a small smile on her face. She kept her features soft, her posture relaxed. "You're paying to have a space to talk about the difficult things."

"I am, yes." He trailed off, not quite meeting her eye yet. "But it was...graphic. I don't want to overstep. I've accidentally done that before, and I...I don't want to find a new therapist. I like you."

"Oh?" Mary's voice softened. "Mariano, let me reassure you: You are not the first former prisoner I've worked with, or the first soldier. If I need a moment after hearing something then I'll let you know, but you're not going to destroy me by just talking.

"You deserve to feel safe enough to say what's on your mind. I'm sure it gets heavy holding it in, doesn't it?" She saw something in his jaw tense, the hold he had on his own hand growing tighter.

Mariano swallowed, nodding, eyes on the tissue box between them. "...It does. I have dreams about it sometimes."

"I'd imagine so." She said. "What happens in those dreams?"

When Mariano spoke again, his voice was barely louder than a whisper. "I can't call for help after I'm shot, and I wind up dying." He took a deeper breath, the sound just barely trembling. "It always feels...very realistic."

"Were you alone when it happened?" Mariano didn't move. His eyes never left the tissue box. "Mariano?" She had a feeling that he wasn't thinking about whether or not he needed a tissue.

He looked up at her, tension tight around his eyes, jaw set, and shoulders curled in on himself. "I...I don't want to hurt you."

"Have you hurt someone by talking about this before?" She spoke to him like he was backed into a corner, cowering away. He was, in a sense. It was like he was waiting for her to snap at him.

Mariano nodded.

"Can you tell me about it?"

Mariano hesitated, his grip shifting to his own elbows. He looked even smaller in the soft, pale green chair. "One of my friends asked me what happened, and why people weren't applying to the ad we put out for more managers. I said that I got shot during a robbery and almost died, and that it had gotten publicized--I don't think I went into detail, but he said that I...ambushed him?"

Mariano's breath caught. "I don't want to overstep again." He repeated. "He's a therapist and...I tried to keep things civilian friendly. It was why people hadn't been applying, and I tried to keep it brief, I...I don't really know what I did wrong. I didn't want to ask him to explain if I'd already hurt him."

A frown ghosted across Mary's face. "I see. Well, you don't have to worry about that, here. I have my own therapist, and I come to work expecting to hear about hard things."

She pushed the tissues closer, leaning forward to catch Mariano's eye. "And I think that I would've answered similarly, in your shoes. Maybe your friend was just having a hard time himself, and didn't communicate that well.

"But most people wouldn't consider that an ambush, just like you wouldn't consider it one if you asked a friend how they'd been and they said that they'd broken their leg recently, or lost a pet." She smiled softly when Mariano continued looking at her. "I think you'd just consider that surprising and unfortunate."

Mariano's jaw trembled. His eyes shone in the mid-afternoon light that streamed in through the window. "...I would."

"This hour is yours, Mariano. I'm not going to get upset at you." She plucked a few tissues and offered them over. "I've seen you for a while now. You don't have to be vigilant like that with me."

Mariano took them, holding them tight.

"Let me help you set some of that heavy stuff down." Mary offered. "You don't have to hold it all in on your own. You won't hurt me with it. It's safe."

Mariano's shoulders shuddered as he crumbled face-first into the tissues. A sob crawled out of him, escaping into his palms. It sounded agonized, like he'd been holding it in for months.

It was the most emotion he'd shown the entire time she'd known him. "It's okay to let people help you. You don't have to be a one man army anymore."

When Mariano had collected himself again, minutes later, Mary listened as he told her about the night that he almost died.

@whump-captain @whumpr @whumperofworlds @lektricwhump @cyberwhumper @bxtterflystxtches @inscrutable-shadow @honeybees-125

#whumpril2024 #whumprilday22 #day 22 #stoicism breaks #self harm ment #anxiety ment #suicide ment #talk of a shooting #talk of captivity #talk of imprisonment #murder mention #mage of violence #mary barlowe #I love when conflicts happen in rp and it informs how a character interacts with people #it's fascinating!! #mariano is so ready to accept that he's hurt someone and needs to change even if other people's trauma might be informing their reaction #He's so ready for more instruction on how to be better and how to dull any sharp edges

[naggingatlas]

my mom is suicidal, help me get her to a therapist

i won't go into details, but she's had severe depression since i was a little kid and it's been getting worse every year. our material circumstances not being great ever since covid finally got to her and she really, really needs help. she's the kindest, most talented, wise and wonderful person i know and i don't want to lose her to mental illness. i've been begging a lot these past two years but this time we need it the most. the appointments in my country cost only around 20$ so even the smallest donations would help immensely.

i obviously have commissions open ranging from 30 to 150$ with examples below but if you want to donate,

paypal: [email protected]

i'll set a goal just so i can see progress. this will cover 5 appointments:

0/100$

#i dont know what to tag this as but people say that tagging as d*nations does something to the post/the blog so maybe don't do that #commissions #suicide ment

[firstofficerkittycat]

i LOVE when ppl write rory calling the doctor his son in sickfics like "sorry I can't come in to work today family emergency yeah my son" ur so fucking real for that. yes my 1103 year old son tripped and skinned his knee and broke his helecopter hat and I need to stay home and feed him jammy dodgers or he'll kill himself

#rory williams #11th doctor #doctor who #fanfic #suicide ment

[chronomaza]

Proper language in the Grizzco workplace

#splatoon #splat3 #splatoon 3 #salmon run #splatoon salmon run #salmon run next wave #splatoon shitpost #splatoon big run #big run #grizzco #yes this is that one fuckin poster that's up in every classroom #we've all seen it #suicide mention #suicide ment

[annabelle--cane]

so he goes into the coffin dimension, right? and his plan to get back relies on his psychic connection to his rib, which he had taken out of his body specially for this task. it doesn't work, but you can sorta see where he was coming from, and this is an upgrade from his first plan, which was repeatedly chopping off his own fingers to use for the same task. at this point, you may be asking yourself "these plans are so bad? why was this what he went with?" and to that I say, he did have a back up plan: if his flesh anchors didn't work, then at least he would be basically dead.

#many of jon's more overtly faulty plans can be explained by remembering that honestly he'd settle for dying most of the time #death is not his plan A! but it is a workable plan B! #tma #self harm ment #suicide ment #marina marvels at life

[e101betamkii]

terminally online girl meets terminally offline boy

#art #pokemon #penny #kieran #drayton #pokemon penny #pokemon kieran #pokemon drayton #pokemon scarlet and violet #indigo disk #whew thats a lotta tags #im just saying. she would get him with updog. she would get him with ligma #hes the perfect target #suicide ment

[caspercryptid]

Sorry this is dogshit quality but I had to get this out of my system

#bg3 #bg3 spoilers #gale dekarios #gale of waterdeep #i hate you mystra #SI #tw si #suicide ment

[couch-house]

#bitches love my m.e. #shadow the hedgehog #shth #knuckles the echidna #sth #sonic the hedgehog #fanart #id in alt text #suicide ment

[hajihiko]

How's it feel to be on the other end of it Fuyuhiko

#Suicide ment #Suicide mention #Fuyuhiko kuzuryu #Hajime hinata #ryoma hoshi #Sdr2 #Super danganronpa 2 #sdrv3 #This was supposed to be funny but it ended up less funny than I thought. #Oops. Anyway! #Ryoma being so so so depressed is tragi-funny to me #An art

[spooksier]

ceaseless watching abridged

#art zone #fanart #tma #the magnus archives #mag 165 #suicide ment #i just started a new relisten i cant wait to hear it all again #anyways i heart jon’s power word kill

[go-to-the-mirror]

"wow, the doctor's actually doing mentally well! it's cool to see him finally being comfortable telling people he loves them and being a bit more vulnerable, even if he is... a bit minorly suicidal" AND HERE COMES NOT!DONNA WITH A STEEL CHAIR

#hhhh #doctor who #fourteenth doctor #wild blue yonder #episode: wild blue yonder #doctor who spoilers #suicide ment #suicide mention

[shadowcreature]

A digital comic zine I made, about things I wish I felt sooner.

#i don't know why i needed to get this out but i ended up liking those two little goblin guys #and it came out well when I printed these #myart #zine #mosquito #black #orange #suicide #suicide ment #insects

[fishyizm]

og dialogue vv

#honkai star rail #hsr #veritas ratio #hsr aventurine #aventio #< i guess #suicide ment #< someone tell me if i have to tag it something else as well i dont want it to bypass anyones filters #playign the 2.2 sotry and its sooo cool im so glad it only took a year for hsr to reach hi3 ch 22 levels of insanity #but i simply cannot take anything seriously #fishyizm

[spacepatrolhana]

#suicide ment #my art #stardew valley #shane stardew valley #farmer nana #shane sdv