I've been meaning to speak on this for a while, but, rooster teeth seriously needs to stop implementing "ascension" storylines into their shows.
they clearly didn't know how to handle it when it was written into gen:lock, and it certainly flopped the second time around. their idea of ascension is this insanely watered down vaguely hinted form of reincarnation.
i can't speak on cultures that follow buddhism or similar religions / beliefs that rooster teeth attempted to base ascension off of, and i won't, so please don't take this post as any sort of education. that said, these writing teams need to stop pulling from the real world when they refuse to handle it with the weight it carries.
the fact that they did this TWICE, in regards to this ascension plot. the first time was met with huge backlash because they wrote characters into literally ending their lives to reach enlightenment (ignore the fact that they openly stated they liked controversy). and yet they went ahead and did it again, in almost the exact same way as they did in gen:lock — characters unaliving themselves, one of which being one of our main characters, only for them to come back as themselves but "better".
the lack of care and sensitivity when portraying mental health and trauma, and unalive attempts is so outrageous. they can slap hotlines and copy pasted messages about how you're never alone all they want, but their writing choices are hugely irresponsible and in most times, offensive.
the way they went out of their way to make joel an explicitely suicidal man who just got over/kinda healed from his suicidal thoughts/tendancies but they'll still go through with *waves around* ANY of tlou2 is actually quite triggering to me
My mental health went through some significant breaks in the last year. Lost a lot of friends through being paranoid, too emotional, too over sensitive, trying to run away from difficult conversations. Trying to handle too much on my plate, the self-percieved responsibility to handle the mental health of those around me, trying to figure out if I had a diagnosis of autism at their recommendations. I wanted to keep the peace and be on top of community dramas so I could make sure everyone was happy.
Admittingly, I've only ever known how to vent or vague post my sadness and struggles. Usually on Twitter. When I started losing contact with the community that I felt a part of, I fell back into feeling extremely suicidal - which was called me suicide baiting.
People think I lie about a lot of things, when the truth is, I panic-reacted to a lot of things, and I've gotten a lot better about understanding why that is. Do I still deserve these messages? I don't really know. I just want to write, make friends, and I'm sorry for my past displays.
TW: mentions of suicidal actions and thoughts, moral ocd, general vent stuff
you can eat my heart if your stomach can digest it
and i’m sorry my emotions got the best of me
its such a shame i wasn't your cup of tea
when you were considered my coffee
and i'm sorry i never loved you right
and i'm sorry my smile was your last goodbye
and i'm sorry if i ever made you cry
and i'm sorry that i always want to die
apple pies, fireflies
childhood slipped away from time
the noose in my backyard never had a use
but i think i’m tired of life, so death and i make a
truce
my eyes want to rest, so do i
my body feels heavy, rotting towards the sky
and maybe i’m the ocean
and maybe i’m the fisher
and maybe i’m the fish being murdered quicker
maybe its true, i can't justify
the thoughts in my head are always lies
but the mind's an illusionist and i'm a child
except i’m fucking vile
suicidal people deserve a space to talk about their suicidal feelings without risking hospitalization/institutionalization or being accused of being manipulative or attention seeking
I hope no one who supported Israel, I hope no one who said “Israel has the right to defend itself”, I hope no one that stayed silent, I hope no one that stayed neutral, I hope no one who cried “both sides”, I hope no one preaching “nuance”, EVER gets to experience another peaceful day again. I hope every last one of them suffers for the remainder of their lives. I hope the guilt eats at them every single day to the point they can’t take it anymore and they choose to do the world a favour and off themselves. I hope every last one of them pays severely for their crimes and for their support of genocide. I hope their very existence is plagued with nightmares. I hope they experience what it’s like to have never ending bombs rain over their heads.
Whatever happens in Gaza tonight or tomorrow or after, know that we won’t forget and we will never forgive.
i drew some memes. idfk dont look at me
also ive heard whispers of a zosan discord server. where is it. who has it. let me in my friends are so sick of listening to me talk about sanji
I desperately wanna know what it was like for each of the bishops to gain their crowns. Like they were all children, Shamura was the first. They were alone for a long time until Kallamar came along.
I feel like every time I answer an ask I just leave y’all with more questions. But Shamura, dispute being the first of the bishops, was not alone. They are about 12 here.
I have a headcannon that a lot of Shamura’s game dialogue are phrases that they have said or heard before their injury. Left over fragments from their past that they can’t quite remember yet are still haunted by.
Don’t ask me what happened with the visual style here, it’s out of my control. This is barely even cult of the lamb anymore, I’ve gone rouge.