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m-jelly · 9 months

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Tea for two - Chapter 2

Pairing: Post-war Levi x Fem!Reader

Tags and warnings: Canon world, post-war, injured Levi, scarred Levi, romance, falling in love, fluff, angst, emotional pain.

In this chapter: It's the morning after you staying over at Levi's and he has some intense feelings and an emotional moment with you. Levi has a bit of a mental attack and lashes out, but you care for him. Levi overhears you talking about your feelings as your friend with hidden feelings for you tries to warn you about the dangers of being around Levi.

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Part 3

It was a dream, he was sure of it, there was no way that you were sleeping in the other room with Bo. He felt his heart racing as something stirred inside him that he’d never really felt before. He blushed hard when he felt slight arousal. He slammed his hand down on the cover onto his crotch and grunted at smacking himself. He rolled onto his side and groaned a little at the slight pain, but he really didn’t want what he thought was going to happen, to happen.

He huffed and gazed at the empty spot next to him in his double bed and imagined you lying there with a sweet smile on your face. He let out a long sigh and knew he’d be in bed for a while so he could make sure that he could calm down whatever was going on between his legs. He was a bit embarrassed because he was always up early for the day but it looked like he would be staying in.

You woke up as Levi had his moment in bed. You made your way to the kitchen and started making breakfast with the few things Levi had. You pouted a little and thought about offering to do a shop for Levi because the lack of food was concerning to you. You fed Bo a little something before finishing off a nice big breakfast and a lovely refreshing pot of tea.

Levi shuffled out of his room as his stomach growled in delight at the divine smells coming from the kitchen. He flinched a little when Bo came bounding over to him. He fussed the pup and rather liked being greeted in the morning. He limped down the hall into the kitchen and watched you plate breakfast. His heart raced in his chest as he felt happy that yesterday was not a dream.

You smiled brightly at Levi. “Good morning, Levi! I made breakfast for you.”

He blushed a little as you put everything on the dining table. “Thank you. This is sweet of you.”

You sat down and smiled. “You’re welcome. So, I need to talk to you about your food.”

He gulped hard. “Right.”

You picked up your tea. “Well, you don’t have much food and I’m worried about you.”

He blushed a little. “You’re worried about me?”

“Yes.”

He shuffled in his seat. “Could you help me?”

You smiled. “Happily.”

He ate some of his breakfast and loved the flavours. “This is delicious. It’s the best food I’ve ever tasted.”

You stared at Levi. “Really?”

He nodded as he smiled sadly. “I was born in the underground city, so the food was shit there.” He released a long sigh. “Then when I got into the scouts, it wasn’t much of an improvement. It tasted a lot better and I got more of a balanced diet, but the food wasn’t the best.” He gazed at you. “All the food you make me is incredible and so full of flavour. It makes me smile.”

You smiled sweetly at him. “I’m glad I could make delicious food for you that makes you smile.” You shifted in your seat a bit as you danced around the question in your head, but you decided to go for it. “So, what kind of foods did the military supply?”

He hummed in thought. “Bread, porridge, corn and other vegetables. Meat was a special treat, so it’s nice that now we get lots of meat and fish. I do have a big appetite so I would eat big meals. There was nothing nicer than a baked potato…” The light in Levi’s eyes faded as he thought about Sasha. He clenched his fist tightly as a mix of rage and pain filled him. He was angry at Eren still because his actions led to her death.

You reached over and placed your hand on Levi’s tightly clenched fist. “Levi.”

He returned to the present and smiled a little at you. He opened his hand and turned it over to hold yours. “I’m okay. There was this cadet who was an excellent hunter, she was a great shot with a gun too and always full of energy. She was a fan of food and she loved potatoes and meat the most. She was a good kid and she was shot down in her prime.” He welled up and shook his head. “She had faced countless titans and yet she died in a fucking blimp after being shot by some kid, all because Eren attacked Marley. It’s a shit way to die. She went through so much and her ending was brought about by a damn kid.”

You got up and walked around to Levi. “Is it okay if I hug you?”

Levi looked up at you with tears in his eyes. “Hug?”

“Yes.”

He gulped hard as he thought about hugging. Levi wasn’t used to it, and it’d been so long since he had. Levi was sure the last person who held him was his mother, so he wasn’t sure if he’d like it. “I’ve never really…umm…y-yes?”

You wrapped Levi up in your arms and held him against you. “Tell me if you don’t like it.”

Levi was a bit flustered at his head being right under your breasts. He’d never really noticed breasts that much before, but he was very aware of yours. He liked how they were shaped, the size and how soft they seemed. He was flustered by how they would bounce as you hurried around at his shop. He was even more flustered that they were right above his head.

He was then overwhelmed by your warmth and how your fingers were playing with his hair. He felt so happy and comforted by you. He lifted his arms and slowly wrapped his arms around you. He squeezed you against him and began nuzzling his face against your body. He inhaled deeply and adored your divine scent. He gripped you and smiled as he felt at peace.

You tried to pull away, but Levi held onto you. You gazed down at him and realised that this man was so starved of affection and contact. You felt terrible that he’d been hurt for so long. You wanted to heal him and make him happy. You tried to ease the weight on his shoulders. You wanted to chase away the darkness that had wrapped itself around Levi.

Levi finally released you and sighed. “Sorry, it’s been a long time.”

You stepped back and smiled. “I don’t mind. I love hugs. If you ever need one, I’m right here.” You leaned down and kissed the top of Levi’s head. “I’ll clean up and head on out.”

Levi watched you move around his home. “Oh, I was hoping you would stay a bit longer.”

You looked over at him. “Really?”

He cleared his throat. “You know, for the uh…umm…shopping.”

You dried your hands and walked over to Levi. “Sure, I can help you with a shop.”

“Thank you.”

You hummed a laugh as you watched Levi get his cane and shoes. “If I didn’t know any better, I would say you are trying to find an excuse to spend more time with me.”

His cheeks burned at your comment. “Maybe I am. Would it bother you?”

You walked over to him and grabbed your bag and one for Levi. “Not at all. I enjoy your company.”

“I enjoy yours too.”

You opened the door for him and let Bo go first. “May I escort you?”

Levi blushed a little and took your arm to give him a little help as he walked through the town. He felt so happy having you at his side. He wanted you to be forever next to him, but then his doubts and worries fluttered into his heart. He looked over at you and gulped hard. He called your name and felt happiness fill him when you smiled so sweetly and gazed back at him.

You hummed a laugh as Levi just stared at you. “Yes, Levi?”

He looked away and sighed as guilt filled him. “Was staying over okay?”

“Yes, why do you ask?”

He winced a little. “Tch, 'cause your boyfriend would hate this.”

You frowned at his words. “Boyfriend?”

“You have one, right?”

You laughed a little. “Oh, no, no, I don’t have one.”

He was happy but also incredibly confused. “You don’t? Tch, that doesn’t make any fucking sense.”

You laughed. “Why?”

He looked over at you. “How could someone like you not be taken?”

You shrugged. “Maybe because the men around have not been good enough. I want to find meaningful and deep love. I haven’t found the right guy yet.”

He stopped with you by a stall. “Right guy? What is the right guy for you?”

You picked up a few things and inspected them. “Someone who wants to grow old with me, have kids too. I want someone who will listen and care for me but also like being taken care of. I want someone to work with me through life, to share the load. I want someone to love me for me.”

Levi hummed in thought. “You’re not asking for much.”

“Well, to some people I’m asking for too much.”

“Tch, fucking stupid people.”

You bought a few things and put them in your bag for Levi. “Well, what about you?”

Levi sighed. “I’m single. I’ve never dated before.”

You stared at him. “Not interested?”

He blushed a little. “It’s really the same as you. I’ve never found the right person, plus it is hard to date when you’re in the scouts because we faced death every day.” He whined a bit as he thought about all the people who’d died. “I couldn’t bear the thought of losing someone I love. I’ve lost so many.” He smiled at you. “Anyway, I want someone that doesn’t see my title and achievements or wants me because I’m Captain Levi Ackerman. I want someone to get to know me as a person.”

You smiled at Levi. “Well, I don’t know all the things you did in the scouts, all I know is the things you’ve told me. I am sure there are others like me.”

“If it’s not you, then I don’t want to know.”

You walked over to Levi. “Did you say something?”

He blushed hard. “No, nothing. Uh, I think this is everything I need.”

You nodded. “Sure thing. Do you need help taking everything home?”

Levi wanted to keep you around for longer, but he knew that he couldn’t keep clinging to you so much. You needed to go home and change, you also needed to feed Bo some dog food. He needed to let you go, just for now though. “I’ll be okay on my own. You should head home.”

You hummed in thought. “Well, only if you’re okay.”

“May I walk you home?”

You blushed a little and nodded. “Sure.”

He slowly walked with you through the town to a home near the edge that was on its way to Levi’s. He gazed at the cute place with flowers in boxes on the windowsill. “You live near me.”

“I do.” You unlocked your front door. “Do you want to come in for a bit?”

He hummed in thought. “I would love to, but I should get my food home.”

You let Bo in before moving over to Levi and kissed his cheek. “Thank you for last night and today. I’ll see you at work tomorrow.”

Levi nodded. “Yeah, see you tomorrow.” He watched you go inside your home and lightly touched his cheek after as he felt the warmth of your lips on them. He smiled a little. “I liked that.”

You hurried through town with a smile on your face. You had a bag full of baked goods and you couldn’t wait to share the food with Levi. You giggled as Bo sprinted ahead and ran right into Levi’s tea shop. You jumped inside and saw Levi chuckle as Bo bounced around him. “Morning Levi!”

Levi smiled at you. “Good morning, you’re both in a good mood.”

You nodded and placed your bag on the counter. “I have some treats for you!”

He opened the bag and was in awe of all the things you’d baked. “This looks delicious. We should sell some.”

“Oh, it’s not good enough for that.”

Levi got a few things out and plated it up. He placed a little price card in front of it and smiled. “They’ll be sold out quickly.” He picked up the bag. “All this though is mine.”

You leaned on the counter causing your cleavage to show to him. “I hope you enjoy.”

His cheeks burned as he looked. He turned away and hurried around. “U-Um, I t-talked to the stall owner you mentioned and set up a deal.”

“Really? That’s great.”

He cleared his throat. “I have something for you.”

You stood up and felt a little shocked. “Really? Wow.”

He moved to his office and grabbed what he’d bought you. He returned to you with a blush. “You like baking and cooking so much, so I got you this nice apron.”

You took it from Levi and admired how pretty it was. “Thank you so much.” You put it on and tied it. “I look so cute.”

“You always look cute.”

You looked up at Levi. “Huh?”

He blushed hard. “I umm…I said…you always look cute.”

You walked over to Levi and smiled. “You flirting? This is surprising.”

“I uh…think I am…I’ve never…I’ve never done this before…”

You kissed his cheek and smiled at his adorable blush. “You did great. I felt special.”

“Well, you are special to me.” He frowned a little. “S-Sorry, I don’t umm…fully understand these emotions inside me.”

You smiled and rubbed his back. “It’s okay. Take your time. I’ll be here and I won’t leave.”

He gazed at you with pained eyes. “Never leave?”

You nodded. “Yes.”

He looked away. “No one can promise that.”

“Well, I promise.”

He glared at you and didn’t see you, but he saw all the people he’d lost in the scouts who promised him they would live. “Tch, bullshit! Stop with your fucking lies. You promised you would stay and you never did. All people ever do is leave me.”

“Levi, I didn’t mean to upset you.”

“Get out!” He clenched his fist as his voice cracked. “It’s better to get rid of you before you leave.”

You undid your apron and took it off. “Are you firing me?”

He frowned a little. “Fire?” His visions of his dead friends faded away and he finally saw you. He said your name softly. “I’m sorry. I’m not…I don’t want…you’re not fired.”

“Do you want me to leave?”

“I…I…”

You took Levi’s hands and squeezed. “I’ll do whatever you want. I want to stay. I want to be with you, but if me being here right now causes you pain then I’ll leave.” You stared at him for a while as silence filled the room. You sighed and released his hands. “I’ll go for a walk.”

Levi felt his stomach drop and his heart hurt when he watched you walking away. He flung himself at you and hugged you from behind. “Don’t leave.” He pressed himself against you. “I can’t lose you. I refuse to lose you of all people.”

You placed your hands on Levi’s. “I don’t want to stay if it causes you pain. I can see you are suffering from the past.”

He squeezed you tightly. “I need you.” He said your name and released you so you could turn and face him. “I need you so badly.” He lowered his head. “I’m so sorry for shouting at you. I have a lot of…there’s a lot I haven’t faced from my past. I know I need to.”

“You shouldn’t force yourself to do something you’re not ready to do.”

“Thank you.” He reached up and caressed your cheek. “Please, stay.”

You leaned against his touch. “I’ll stay.”

“Thank you.” He picked up your apron and smiled. “Can I put this on you?”

“Sure.”

He put the loop over your head. He moved closer and wrapped the lines around you and tugged at the front making you gasp. He glanced up at you as he blushed. “Too tight?”

“It’s perfect.”

He did his best to tie a bow at the front. “There.” He looked up at you. “I’m sorry again.”

You smiled. “Don’t be sorry about feeling something. I couldn’t possibly imagine or comprehend what you went through. I don’t even know your story. All I know is you were in the scouts and you were hurt.”

He nodded. “I was hurt mentally and physically. I want to talk.”

You saw people coming towards the shop. “Whenever you’re ready. I’m always here for you.” You pulled away and got cleaned up. “Do you want me up front today?”

He limped over to you. “Uh, yes if that’s okay.”

You nodded and put your hair up quickly and put on a smile as the customers started coming. “Good morning!”

Levi manned the mixing counter, so if anyone wanted a mix of teas he would make it for them. He was also serving the baked things you’d made. He was so proud of everything you’d made and it sold out fast. Levi was going to ask you to bake more and to teach him a bit so he could help you out. He also wanted to do something for you because he felt terrible about today and how he spoke to you. He was thinking about taking you out on a date.

He cleaned up the tables a little as a man came into the shop and made a beeline for you. Levi kept glancing over as you seemed friendly with the man. He didn’t like how the guy was flirting with you. Something was filling Levi and he wasn’t sure what it was, but he felt irritated by this man. He wanted to get this man away from you and have all of your attention.

He moved over to you and called your name. “Who’s this?”

You smiled a little. “This is my good friend Claude.”

“Claude?” He studied the tall man with a charming smile, muscles, soft hair that was tamed and a neat suit.

Claude adjusted his glasses. “Indeed and you are Captain Levi Ackerman of the scouts.”

Levi clenched his jaw a little. “Yes.”

“Hm.” He looked at Levi in a way that Levi had never been looked at before, almost like there was dislike or hatred. He turned to you and smiled. “May I borrow you on your lunch break?”

You nibbled your lip. “Well, I kind of want to stay here with Levi. We always have lunch together.”

“I’m sure he can manage without you.”

“I like it though.”

Claude released a long sigh. “I need to talk to you, it’s rather important.”

Levi walked over and placed his hand on your lower back. “Take a short break so you can talk. We are on a downtime right now.”

You gazed at Levi. “Are you sure?”

He nodded. “It’s okay.”

You reached behind Levi and rubbed his back in response. “I’ll chat to him out back.”

“Okay.”

You pulled away from Levi and opened the hatch door. “This way, Claude.”

Claude followed behind you and gave Levi a quick nasty glance before he carried on walking. He slipped outside and sighed as you closed the door a bit. “We need to talk.”

Levi hurried over to the door and leaned against the wall and listened closely to the conversation. He looked down at Bo and fussed him. He wanted to know how you felt about him and what you’d say to Claude about him. He was so scared that you would agree with Claude about bad things.

Claude folded his arms. “Do you know who that man is?”

You nodded. “Yeah, Levi. He’s my boss and a wonderful friend. I like him a lot.”

Levi felt touched by your words. He liked you too.

Claude shook his head. “You really don’t know him. He was Captain of the scouts.”

You leaned against the wall. “I know. Everyone always calls him Captain.”

“You really don’t know what he did?” He laughed a bit. “Come on, you can’t be that oblivious.”

“Instead of making me feel stupid, why don’t you say what you want to say and then go.”

He huffed. “Levi is from the underground city. He was a criminal and was so bad the military police chased him down. Did you know he was hired to kill Commander Erwin Smith?”

You shrugged a bit. “That’s fine. Have you seen the underground? I would do anything to get out of there. I don’t blame Levi for taking whatever mission he had to so he could leave. Plus, I’m sure the Commander died in combat.”

Claude growled a little. “He got his two friends killed!”

“Titans were deadly. They killed many people. You couldn’t protect everyone from them and I know he would have tried hard.”

Levi was trying hard not to cry, he was so touched by your kindness. You were so understanding of his life in the military so far. He wasn’t surprised that Claude knew so much because after the war everything came out about those who lived.

Claude sighed. “He abandoned his famous strong team to go back to the main group. Him leaving them caused them all to die.”

“His team were capable. They faced off against a person-controlled titan, right? She was highly skilled in hand-to-hand combat and was trained by the military too. She was deadly and I am sure Levi made the choice he would regret the least. You’re not a military man, you’ve never been in a position that Levi was. You don’t know what it’s like to face Titans and command people to fight.”

He shook his head. “You’re right, I don’t know but he still left his team to die. He valued Eren over others.”

“He was ordered to keep Eren alive. Eren was humanity's last hope for us. They all had no way of knowing what he’d do.”

Claude stared at you for a while. “He saved Armin over Erwin! Erwin was the brains of the scouts and the heart of it all.”

You frowned a little. “I don’t know what went down and I don’t think I will unless Levi tells me, but as far as I know and from what I’ve seen from Armin now…Armin has such hope in his eyes and dreams of the future. He’s working so hard to get Marley to work with us. Erwin had lost an arm, he wasn’t as strong as he used to be and he had been beaten badly.”

Levi leaned his head back and smiled when you understood. It had been one of the hardest choices to make, he could choose his friend who had led the scouts so well for so long or the young kid who was smart and had hope and could see beyond the basement.

Claude groaned. “Really? What about the fact that he let Zeke go countless times? He prolonged our suffering.”

You hummed in thought. “If he was one of the best soldiers, then killing Zeke would have been easy. He was likely asked to keep him alive. I can’t imagine how painful it was for Levi to keep him alive for so long.” You welled up and cried a little. “Poor Levi.” You sniffed. “No, I won’t cry. He doesn’t need pity or my tears.”

Levi didn’t like others crying about his life or being upset for him. However, hearing you cry for him made him feel so touched. He wanted to hold you and cry with you. He could tell you really felt for him.

You laughed a little. “I can’t seem to stop crying, damn it.” You cleared your throat. “I don’t understand why this was so important to talk to me about though.”

Claude walked closer to you. “I’m worried about you being around such a dangerous man. He’s killed people. I mean, he killed a lot of people led by Kenny.”

“Wasn’t Kenny a serial killer though? He was a bad man. It must have been really hard for Levi to see him die because he was family, but Levi had to do what he must to survive.”

“What if he hurt you?”

You grabbed Claude’s hand before he touched you. “Levi would never. He’s dedicated to the people he cares about.”

“But those scars he has.”

You blushed hard. “What about them?”

“They’re terrible. He got blown up because he was stupid and his leg? I bet it looks awful. He got chewed on by a titan.”

You winced. “Must have hurt.”

“He looks like a thug.”

You whined a bit. “I think he’s really handsome.”

Claude stepped back. “Wait, don’t tell me you’re attracted to that?”

You nodded. “I am. I really like Levi. I think he’s handsome, kind, smart, funny, sexy…” You mewled. “So fucking sexy.” You blushed bright red. “He’s just a wonderful man and any woman would be lucky to marry him and make him a father. I don’t think he sees me in that way, but I would very much like to be his wife.”

Levi’s cheeks were burning as his heart raced at your words. He clutched his chest as he thought about you as his wife. He smiled and whined a little. He wanted you to be a permanent part of his life. He was going to work hard to romance you and understand his feelings. Levi had never been in love before or had romantic feelings for anyone before, so all these feelings for you were new to him and he liked it.

Claude called your name sternly. “He’s no good for someone like you.”

You rolled your eyes. “You don’t have control over who I should and shouldn’t be with.”

“I’m not trying to control you, I’m just saying that you deserve someone good in your life.”

You laughed. “I do and it’s someone like Levi. I hope that he likes me the same way, but if he doesn’t then I’m happy to have him as a friend. I just want him to be happy.”

Claude shook his head. “I don’t understand you sometimes.” He sighed. “He really makes you happy?”

“Yes.”

He saw the sparkle in your eyes. “Fine. Do as you please. I’ve warned you about him. I will be here for you when he hurts you.” He walked to the door. “You should wait out here a bit, you are bright red.”

You whined. “Yes.”

Levi hurried away from the door as fast as he could and waited by the counter. He stared at Claude as he made his way to him. “All done?”

Claude stopped by Levi and sighed. “I don’t know how you feel about her, but I will make this perfectly clear to you. I have loved her a lot longer than you. I will not give up on her.” He pointed at Levi. “I know how dangerous and horrible you are. I will win her heart, not you.”

Levi tilted his head a little as he took Claude in. “Tch, you’re more annoying than not being able to shit for months. You might have looks and money, but your personality is about as appealing as a gnat’s cock. She’s not a possession, you arsehole. She’s her own person and she can be with whoever she wants. So, take your stupid toxic thoughts elsewhere.” Levi smirked a bit as Claude stormed away. “And anyway, you would have been a couple by now if she liked you and you had her heart. There must be something wrong with you that she doesn’t like, that’s why you’ll always be a friend and nothing more.”

Claude snarled. “Fuck you, Captain Levi.”

Levi felt proud when the door was slammed. He looked down at Bo and petted his head. “You prefer me over him, right?” He smiled at Bo wagging his tail. “Knew it.” He looked up when you walked down the hall and felt his heart race. Now he knew you returned his feelings, he saw you in a whole different light. You were glowing to him. “Everything okay?”

You nodded and smiled. “All good. He was just being a bit of an ass. Are you okay? You look a little pink.”

Levi touched his burning cheeks. “I’m great.”

“Wonderful. I’ll make us some tea and we’ll have a bit of lunch.”

Levi watched you closely and felt an urge inside him. “Are you busy tomorrow?”

You looked over at him. “No, just working here with you until closing.”

He nodded and hummed in thought. “Would you like to join me that evening?”

You walked over with his tea. “Join you? What for?”

He started to feel his heart racing. “W-Well, I-I w-would, umm, like to t-take you out. I was th-thinking a walk.”

You smiled brightly. “I’d love to.”

His eyes lit up. “Really?”

You nodded as you felt your heart flutter. “Yes. This a business thing or?”

He cleared his throat. “A ah…d…d…d…date.”

You stared at Levi for a bit and felt like your heart was going to explode at how cute he looked. “I…I would love to.”

“Great!” He gasped when he realised he’d almost shouted that. “S-Sorry…umm…let’s ah, eat.”

You hummed a laugh. “Cute.” You walked with him to your usual table. “I don’t know about you, but I am starving.”

“Me too. I’m happy you made so much food again.”

You laughed. “I really need to work on my servings.”

“Don’t. I like it when you bring food in.”

You sat down and smiled. “Don’t worry, I’ll keep baking and cooking for you.”

He played with his cup a little. “I was thinking, because your food was so popular today that we could make this a regular thing, if you want?”

You nodded. “Sure.”

“I will help, so maybe we could set up days where we cook and bake together at my place or yours.”

“How about yours? You know, because you have your medical things there in case your knee hurts.” You blushed. “I’m sorry for suggesting that.”

“No, no, it makes sense to be at mine. If I have a bad day I won’t be able to cook at yours due to there being steps up to your front door.”

You sighed in relief. “Great, I didn’t want to offend you.”

“You never would. You’re so kind and sweet to me.” He smiled a little. “So, my place it is.”

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