#system rambles

[eternalbloodmooncrypts]

I want to chew on things so badly like a squeaky toy or something.

#pawsonpaws #otherkin #therian #therian community #otherkinity #therianthropy #therians #system rambles #otherkin community #-🔮

[theselfishmachiness]

i never understood the systems who said having alters is like having friends. cause no matter how many alters im on good terms with, talking to them doesn’t feel like talking to friends. asking an opinion and getting an answer feels lesser than asking an opinion from a friend and getting a response. sometimes talking to an alter is nice but it’s not truly socializing.

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[thebitchwitheface]

Would a system jerking off be considered an orgy?

#im not high #did #osdd #dissociative system #did system #osdd system #plural system #actually plural #sysblr #system stuff #system shenanigans #system shit #system humor #system jokes #system life #system rambles #system relationships #system community #system nsft #system memes #system things

[theweebsystem]

Be gay, do plural

#system rambles #queer #plural #pluralgang #endo safe #system #system meme #plural meme #is this anything? #pride month #pride month 2023

[lightning-system]

collecting dimension 20 introjects like candy. Autism why must you.

#d20 #dimension 20 #d20 fantasy high #dimension twenty #d20 fhjy #disabled #disability #lightning rambles #actually autistic #system rambles #dissociative identity disorder #did system #🎲

[the-hadal-zone-sys]

I never got the question of "would you describe yourselves as separate people or parts of a whole person?"

To be honest, we've always seen ourselves as both.

We're all our own people, but we're also all parts of a bigger whole.

You couldn't separate us from each other, but you also couldn't make us the same.

I don't know how to describe it... Does anyone else feel this way?

#🎥 || caelia (they/she) #system rambles #endo safe #pro endo #plural #system #sysmeds dni #quoigenic #quoigenic system #pluralgang

[appbeljuice]

i live in fear every time we creat new ocs bc i get so attached to them so quickly and im just like

please dont split please dont split please dont split please dont split please dont split please dont split please dont-

#system #did system #did osdd #actually system #traumagenic system #actually traumagenic #actually dissociative #dissociative identity disorder #system memes #actually plural #plurality #plural stuff #osdd memes #did memes #system rambles #osdd system #systemblr

[navy-collective]

Me the moment I start fronting: “If I’m fronting it means the others are fake.”

The Others:

- Parker

#osdd #osdd 1b #osdd community #osdd stuff #osdd tag #osdd things #osdd system #actually osdd #osdd memes #system memes #system #system posting #system safe #system stuff #system struggles #system rambles #traumagenic osdd #system alters #system humor #system host

[eternalbloodmooncrypts]

I’m feeling very silly right now.

#otherkin #therian #therian community #otherkinity #therianthropy #therians #system rambles #otherkin community #alterhuman #-⚜️

[theselfishmachiness]

repeat it with me, alters cannot be replacement for social interaction! you can be friends but they cannot make up for the fact that humans are social animals, and need social interaction!

#did #didosdd #osdd #polyfrag did #system #polyfragmented #did system #actually did #system community #actually system #dissociative system #system rambles #system alters #plural system #systemshit

[furiousgoldfish]

system update

I'm finding myself having to re-write the way this brain functions. Since the old host was extremely anxious, the brain immediately runs off with anxiety at every noise, movement or event. If there's a footstep, it wants to freak out. I constantly have to stop the train of thought and redirect it, and it's tiring.

And it's not only anxiety, it's dread, grief, pain, shame, guilt, at every past thought. Every single time a person pops up in memory, the entire system goes numb with pain and helplessness, like we cannot handle the betrayal and the embarrassment and being wrong, or just looking dumb and getting humiliated in front of that person. When the real situation is that there's nothing important to care about there, nobody even remembers it anymore and feeling such severe pain over minor issues makes no sense, it doesn't help us, that person meant nothing to our life and the memory shouldn't even be brought up.

The old host has became permanently triggered and trapped in trauma inside of me, I tried to deal with it in a kind way, it didn't work since the host ignored me, I've since resorted to force and violence and now it's working better. There's a voice telling me that I'll probably regret that but I don't see anything else I can do, I cannot function with the old host flooding the system with trauma.

Also I've noticed that whoever is the host of this body is always just trying their best to make things work and function and everyone else inside is just freaking out endlessly and criticizing the host's every move. It's like once they're inside they drop all self control and allow themselves to be unrestrained volatile cretins who can do whatever they want, forever. Zero investment in real life. All of the child alters are constantly trying to spread their brainwashing like poison thru the system and I have to fight them.

I've tried to read other people's experience with alters but I've seen nothing that reflects my situation, at this point almost all alters are my enemies and I can't stand them. The old host was kind to them but only to ultimately get betrayed and broken by them. I won't let that happen to me.

#system rambles #did #osdd #personal #where are the alters that are supposed to help #everyone in here is unhelping #we used to have some support in here #now its just chaos and pain #i don't like this

[theweebsystem]

All plurals may vote and reblog, but DO NOT bring up syscourse or discourse of any kind

#system rambles #polls #plural #pluralgang #plural polls #system #system polls #endo safe

[lightning-system]

i realy like kitty i hope they nice to her. she seem hurt :(

#d20 #dimension 20 #d20 fantasy high #dimension twenty #d20 fhjy #lightning rambles #system rambles #💊 #kalina

[somniumcomics]

What's your view on median and monoconsious systems?

I HAD NO IDEA THAT THERE WERE TERMS FOR THESE?? I HAVE WONDERED FOR SO LONG- ANON YOU TAUGHT ME THINGS!!!! HOLY SHIT!!!

#omni rambles #system rambles

[crownedrottenthorns]

system rant/rambles

General tw for distressing topics, or allusions to them anyway, very vague basically

Starting it beneath the break.

I don't like how much host is digging into things. We have discovered a section of the inner world we did not even know about. A new section of alters we simply know as the "controllers" which act as guards/enforcers have appeared as well. Us that cannot know that much about the more intense parts such as us fictives cannot even know those alters' names/faces.

I also do not like how much host is trying to solve this puzzle due to how it affects them and us as a whole. They're digging into trauma that Unknown specifically stated was something they may never know. Yet they're so desperate for control and understanding that they want to force themselves to remember things they do not have memories of, ones removed and locked away FOR A REASON.

I understand their urge to learn such things especially with how some alters that are quite dismissive have appeared as well. They want to understand every minute quirk about them, every sign that all adds up to something ugly, and the pieces of the puzzle that begin to pain an uglier picture than previously thought. I do not know much myself. Us fictives are common fronters and a lot of us common fronters do not get to/need to know as much. It's why it's often easier for host to speak to us fictives than it is for a lot of the more personal alters that don't often leave the main headspace.

It's not overt triggering that's happening either. It's subtle things. Weird flashbacks, strange "trances" they seem to enter, the thorny vines trailing up and encasing unknown memories, intense feelings, strange alters with strange purposes appearing, and so much more. Host is letting off it these past few days after having dug up enough to paint a horrific picture they want to forget. Still. I know this will not be the last time that something like this happens. They want all of the answers to everything.

The one plus side is we are in a mostly safe environment and have decent coping mechanism especially with the alters prepared to step in due to how easy it is for host to breakdown and put us in danger. So no matter what, we will be safe. I just worry for the mental anguish host is putting themselves through. They know their limits, yes, but I worry about how much they're learning in such a short time.

They're desperate for answers yet cannot receive them easily. They must dig for answers themselves and yet much of it will be forgotten to keep us all safe. I am especially close to host with us often being together with very little time apart. Of all the common fronters, I am the one most active of them all alongside our front stuck darling host. They are precious to me and I care deeply for them so I naturally worry for them greatly. The one good thing is...they've been so happy recently. After months of depression and stress for our system back in November and December, I am now seeing them take things easy and be happy. It means everything to me to see that beautiful smile, that charming confidence, and to hear that lovely laugh. I worry about host, but I trust them too. No one in the system will allow anything to happen to us. It's why we are so ready to take over when needed. And Unknown is always watching. We will be safe and they shall be too. They've been so good lately. I'm quite proud of them.

-Ally-

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