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doll-collecting-aerialist · 2 years

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Read Like an American Girl~ Part Two!!

This is where I recommend middle grade and YA books (that are either stand alones or from short series) that remind me of American Girls!!

For fans of Julie and Joss…

Marshmallow and Jordan by Alina Chau!!

This is a beautiful middle grade graphic novel based in Indonesian mythology!! Jordan is a girl who became a full-time wheelchair user after an unspecified accident left her paralyzed. Before her accident, Jordan was the captain of her school’s basketball team; and while she still plays with her team, Indonesian basketball regulations forbid mobility aid users to compete with those who use their legs. But when Jordan meets Marshmallow- a fluffy, puppy-like elephant who loves water, she realizes that she’s very good at swimming. Marshmallow and her basketball coach push her to join her school’s water polo team. There, Jordan flourishes, even with the problem that is the overbearing team captain who calls Jordan a slug, and her now jealous basketball teammates.

For fans of Marie-Grace…

The List of Unspeakable Fears by J. Jasper Kramer!!

Essie O’Neill is not happy that her mother has remarried to a doctor (who may or not be up to something shady!!), and she is certainly not happy to move to a quarantined island where this so-called doctor works. Rumor has it that this is the island where Typhoid Mary lives, and even if Typhoid Mary isn’t there, Essie finds it all too risky to move to an island for sick people. What if she gets sick herself? And what if there’s ghosts? And most importantly, who will be her friend? If Essie can’t convince her mom to stay in the city, then she’ll just have to take matters into her own hands, and prove that the hospital is no place for their family.

For fans of Josefina…

Echo Mountain by Lauren Wolk!!

Can you grieve if your loved one is technically alive? Ellie feels guilty for grieving her comatose father, who hasn’t waken despite her best efforts. Living in the mountains is lonely, and it’s even more so with one parent unable to speak. So when Ellie finds a friend, she’s elated. Even if that means she might have to talk to the scary old hag that she’s been warned about ever since moving to Echo Mountain. But what is her new friend’s connection to the hag? And could the hag be the key to saving her father?

While it may not be obvious by the synopsis, in addition to grief, this book shares similarities to Josefina’s story when it comes to both girls wanting to become healers and using the earth to do so, as well as similarities in personality and family dynamics.

For fans of Julie, Courtney and the Smart Girl’s Guide series..

Friends Forever by Shannon Hale!!

Is there something wrong with Shannon? Eighth grade was supposed to be her year!! But it seems like all her friends want to talk about is crushes!! Shannon wants to grow up, but not if growing up means having to kiss boys. At least, not yet.

This graphic novel takes place in the late 1980s, and touches on topics like feminism and running for (class) president. This is a really good read for those who want to learn more about the lived experiences of the women’s rights movement of the latter 1900s!!

(Just be aware of multiple scenes of sexual harassment.)

For fans of Sonali Matthews..

Jennifer Chan is not Alone by Tae Keller!!

Jennifer Chan is Not Alone tells a story of bullying.. From the bully’s perspective.

Mallory knows that to survive middle school, she has to follow the popularity code. That includes not being “weird,” ignoring her Asian heritage, wearing trendy clothes, and following her friend Reagan’s lead.

So when Jennifer moves to Mallory’s small town, Mallory is at a loss of what to do. Jennifer is different than the other middle schoolers in her town. She is proud of her Asian heritage for one, but most notably, she believes in aliens. Like, really believes in aliens.

It starts with Mallory ignoring her in the halls. But that’s the right thing, isn’t it? She just doesn’t want Reagan to make fun of Jennifer. Jennifer just can’t seem to get social cues, and pretty soon becomes the target of Reagan and her friend group, despite Mallory’s efforts to ignore her. As the bullying slowly escalates, Mallory can’t help but join in. Maybe Jennifer does need to learn a lesson.

But now Jennifer is missing. And Mallory can’t help but wonder if it had to do with the bullying. Is she the reason Jennifer ran away?

For fans of Corinne..

Frost Fire by Jamie Smith!!

Welcome to Adranna, a futuristic ice world that takes place in modern day Tibet.

Sabira is finally thirteen, old enough to take the test which will determine her future; whether or not she’ll be able to bond with a frost sliver, a piece of the sentient glacier just outside of Adranna.

But as she prepares for this test, a war is brewing between her people and the Ignatians, a conflict that will disable her brother, and attempt to thwart her bonding ritual by destroying the path between the glacier and her home.

But Sabira isn’t just any bonded person, and she’ll find her way home, even if that means breaking through sheets of ice, swimming in below freezing waters, and befriending the dangerous Yetis that reside in the glacier.

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godzilla-reads · 2 years

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Astrology Book Recs

♋️ Cancer the Crab: June 22-July 23

“Cancer is the sign of the crab, which sounds like an insult. It’s not. Think of the soft inner body of a crab, surrounded by a thin, brittle shell. That’s the image of a Cancer. A soft inner soul protected by a thin shell.

Cancers are loyal and very empathetic. They will be the first to notice if a friend or a relative needs a hug. But their sensitivity costs them. Cancers are quick to feel a hurt and once that thin shell is penetrated, they are helpless to protect themselves.”

♋️ When You Trap a Tiger by Tae Keller

♋️ Under the Whispering Door by TJ Klune

♋️ All Boys Aren’t Blue by George M. Johnson

♋️ The Housekeeper and the Professor by Yoko Ogawa

♋️ Green Angel by Alice Hoffman

#godzilla reads #astrology #astrology book recs #cancer zodiac #book recs #bookworm #book blog #book blurb #bookblogger #booklr #bookish #booklover #bibliophile

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whitefoxgirl · 2 years

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⏳Ageless⏳ A Namjoon Series {Chapter 2}

Author's Note: This is chapter 2 of the series. I wrote this in between classes so that's why it's so long. I was also advised to do a taglist, so, if you would like to be tagged, just comment on the post and I will add you :)

Pairing: Namjoon x reader (Female Pronouns) Fandom: BTS Warnings: Ageless Namjoon; Namjoon imagining the MC in a sexual way but nothing smutty happens. Genre: Fluff, angst Word Count: 4.8k

Songs that helped me: • "Soft Skin" - Ali Project • "Theme of Love Con (Orgel Ver.)" - Lovely Complex OST • "In the Forest" - Fruit Basket OST • "Want to Get Along" - Fruit Basket OST • "Galaxy Games OST 6" - Star Project OST • "Unjust Life" - Angel Beats OST • "Anxiety" - Angel Beats OST • "Snow Melts Into Spring" - Fruit Basket OST • "So That You're Not Lonely" - Fruit Basket OST • "Memory Loss" - Fruit Basket OST

Tag list: @dreamescapeswriting @ourkarlanicoleuniverse @cutttteeee

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As Namjoon got to work, he looked at the first editions that were not available to the public, which was in the basement of the store. It was his favorite part of the bookstore, as he read most of them in his youth. He heard someone call his name from the top of the store, Charles, his coworker. He was letting Namjoon know that it was time to open the store, to which Namjoon nodded and got ready to stock books. His job at the bookstore was one that required little to no interactions with other people. This is something that he decided as he didn’t want his clients to recognize him years later, in their old age. Charles, being the saint that he is, thought Namjoon was just socially awkward and that he maybe had extreme anxiety, so he talked to the owner and manager of the store suggesting that Namjoon do bookbinding as a service to those customers who would like the service to happen, and stocking the books that were being delivered.

As the afternoon rolled around a new book was delivered and as Namjoon was stoking the book on its shelf and decorating the table presenting the new arrival, he heard a soft gasp and from the corner of his eye, a figure approach him.

“Junseo!” He heard a familiar voice say, to which he turned to look and smiled as, even though he heard it only for a few hours, he has grown rather attached to it. “Fate did its thing, right?” She said smiling softly, her cheeks where blushed slightly and her body language screamed: “I’m shy but I’m doing my best to interact with you”.

“It did. How are you? It has been a couple of weeks, right?” He asked her while holding a couple of books in one hand. She nodded to the question and pushed her hair back slightly behind her ear. Namjoon took her appearance in, she was wearing work pants, with a fitted black shirt that had sleeves above her elbows, and she was wearing low cut doc martins. She looked like she had come out of work and looked professional. He smiled softly at her appearance as she dressed like she listened to her coworkers and is willing to stand up to them.

“Yeah! I was just looking for something else that Tae Keller released” She looked around and then back at him. He looked at her thinking for a while then smiled softly.

“The… Children’s literature author?” He asked to which she nodded excitedly and responded by saying

“Yeah! I read ‘The Science of Breakable Things’ and I really liked it! So, I was just looking for something else.”

He thought for a second then signaled her to follow him, to which she did. She looked as his tall figure crouched down and grab a purple book with a tiger on the cover coming out of a jar. Namjoon showed Y/N the book, she grabbed it with a gentle grip and looked at the title, ‘When you Trap a Tiger’.

“It’s about this girl, who visits her grandmother and finds that her grandmother is hiding something about her past.” He explained. She looked at him smiling and said,

“Like… A secret that affected her?”

Namjoon nods at this and smiles responding “It’s really good, I find that it really feeds your inner child”

She nods and smiles looking at him saying “Okay, I’ll take it then!”

Namjoon smiled softly and then put his hands on his pockets wiping the palm of his, slightly sweaty, hands gently. He inhaled gently and said, “Yeah, and when you finish it, let’s discuss it over our date?”

Her mouth gaped as she looked at him then giggled gently saying “You remembered!” He nodded and took off the palms from his pockets. She smiled and said, “Okay, it’s a date then.”

He decided to do something he had never done, check someone out, which surprised Charles greatly. As Namjoon was checking Y/N out, he thought about how he has never been a bold person. Even with Suyeon, she was the one who approached him, and even though he did ask her to marry him, he found that he asked too late for his own liking. And so, he decided to be a bold person for the first time in his life.

“So, what’s your number?” He asked her, something she was surprised at, as Namjoon did not seem like the bold type, then she inhaled, feeling her cheeks heat up.

“Is it normal for you to ask girls for their phone numbers?” She asked.

He chuckled at this and said, “Only girls as pretty as you.”

Y/N crunched her nose, cringing, something Namjoon mirrored. Both laughed at this, he shook his head and look at her saying “I mean, I’m usually not even interacting with customers, so… No, you’re my first ever customer and first even person I asked for their phone number.”

She licked her lips smiling and dictated her number, having Namjoon write it diligently and carefully on a piece of paper near the register. After he was done Y/N spoke up saying “And… Just in case, that’s my personal number, so… Feel free to text me or call me whenever you want.” He nodded smiling gently and handing her her receipt. He smiled and said “Don’t… Throw away your receipt. I put my phone number in for you” She smirked at this gently and looked into his eyes smiling saying

“Your personal one I hope?” He chuckled at this and nodded responding

“Yeah, you can call or text me any time.”

She nodded and grabbed her book saying “I’ll text you tonight then” to which he nodded and smiled wishing her a great day.

When she was out the door, Charles ran towards Namjoon and asked him what that was about. Namjoon shrugged his shoulder and smiled gently, to which Charles said “Nah, Nah, Nah! Hold on! Mr. Junseo Jung! You never even look at customers, let alone help them find their books! Who was that?” Namjoon felt his cheeks redden as he said “Just… I just find her interesting, sue me” Charles chuckled and touched his shoulder gently saying “My friend, it’s about time you got out of that shell! You never even talk to me that much!”

Namjoon sighed gently at this because it was true. Even though Charles was a very eccentric person, with a very bright personality and was a very sociable person. Namjoon decided it was best to keep his distance, as he did not want to get to know someone, only for them to be hurt when he leaves and goes no contact 10 years later.

“If anything happens, you’ll know, Charles. You read me like a book” Namjoon looked around as if to signal his joke, to which Charles faked amusement and faked laughed at his attempt at a joke. “Please don’t say jokes like that, ever.” Charles said as he walked away leaving Namjoon to smile at the piece of paper with the phone number he has (lowkey-highkey) been desperate to obtain.

As soon as Namjoon got home, he fed Moni and decided to take a shower thinking of how his day went. His mouth softly turned into a smile when the thought of Y/N ran through his head. He remembered how soft her voice sounded to him, and how he would have liked to touch her fingers when he handed her the book, but reluctantly decided not to as he felt it would overstep an unspoken boundary. As Namjoon got out the shower, he saw that he had received a message. It was from Y/N! He smiled gently and unlocked his phone only to see the first thing she sent saying

“You. Are. Evil!” with a little crying emoji. He chuckled and then texted her back feigning ignorance, to which she replied with

“You know what you did! This is angst! PURE ANGST! How dare you! What do you mean her grandma has cancer?! It can’t be!”

As he got dressed, he couldn’t help but look at the stars outside his window, which prompted him to text her,

“Wanna go out on a mini date right now?” It was 10:30pm, he doubted she would say yes, but sure enough, she confirmed she could, and he texted her that he would pick her up from her house. She sent him a pin as a precaution and then he decided to bike his way towards her house. He felt it was safer for him to bike around town than to own a car. Owning a car would bring a lot of unwanted attention. As he got there, a 30-minute bike ride, he got down and phoned Y/N. She looked out the window and smiled holding her phone and got down towards the building entrance quickly.

“I thought you stood me up,” she said smiling as she approached him. He smiled and shook his head replying with

“No, I just don’t own a car” She nodded and smiled commenting on how eco-friendly the decision was, however, she continued by saying

“I don’t think where we’re going you can bike us, so… Let’s take my car.” He agreed taking out his bike lock to which she said, “You can leave it in my apartment, you know how it is here” Something which, Namjoon once again agreed with.

As they hoped in her car, he couldn’t help but notice the nice scent it had. To him, it radiated her essence. Y/N was excited to have met him again and to her, it truly felt like fate wanted them to meet again, it was even more exciting that he was now proposing a quick hangout. She didn’t exactly know where they were going, however, it didn’t stop her from being excited and feeling like her own clothes didn’t fit with how full she felt from this feeling.

As they made their way to Wassaic Multiple Use Area, the couple couldn’t help but feel nervous at the feeling that they were both experiencing. To Namjoon, this was something new, unexplored, it was liberating to feel so comfortable, and while yes, he was comfortable with Suyeon, it wasn’t enough to feel like he was being himself. It felt as though he was forced into a role, maybe by his peers, his own society at the time, he doesn’t know, but what he does know is that he felt, free. To Y/N, even though it wasn’t new, it felt like something worth exploring and something that would bring her happiness in the end. She has dated before, but nothing felt like this. Not only was Namjoon respectful so far about her as a person, but also listened and was understanding towards her. As they walked down the trail that led them to the stargazing section, at the very top, the couple couldn’t help but gaze at each other from time to time, there was a comfortable silence between them as the insects and little creatures of the night sang their tunes. It felt very peaceful and comforting.

As soon as they approached, Y/N ran to the very top while Namjoon stayed behind and looked at her with a soft gaze, a smile adorning his features. She signaled him to come towards the top telling him that the view was beautiful and as Namjoon got there, the view was beautiful, the stars shined as if only for them and he felt like he was in the best life he could ever have, for the first time, he felt alive.

“It’s so beautiful here, Junseo!” Y/N exclaimed as she looked at the stars. The moon was full, and the sky was clear, it felt like the moon was highlighting everything around them. This did not go unnoticed by Namjoon, as he, did not look at the stars, rather, he chose to look at how the moon’s shine reflected on Y/N’s features. It gave her a soft, gentle, innocent glow like she was made of glass, like she was something Namjoon shouldn’t touch, yet was so inviting to the eyes.

“You’re beautiful…” Namjoon said in a soft whisper, although he wanted to say that to himself in his mind, his mouth moved before he could even think properly. He felt his blood rush towards his cheeks, as he blushed at his own sudden confession. His hand moved towards his mouth in a quick matter when he saw that she had turned to look at him.

“I-… I didn’t mean to say that out loud” Namjoon said, almost like he was defending himself. She chuckled at this and smiled gently. The wind blew gently towards them, making her hair messy. She pushed her hair behind her ear, and looked at him with a gaze that said, to Namjoon, ‘I’m soft by your words.’

“I don’t mind getting compliments, especially if they come from you,” she said, something Namjoon blushed at. Namjoon decided that it was best to leave it at that and looked at the sky. She was right, it did look beautiful, if his eyes didn’t deceive him, he could make out even the milky way, in a very faint manner, but he could.

“I’ve decided… Where I want our date to be.” He looks at Y/N and smiles gently, her eyebrows were high as if to signal him to continue.

“We could go to this really awesome, quiet, café and talk about the book you’re reading” She smiled at this and looked at him nodding.

“But then… I’ll take you somewhere you’ve never seen before” She responded looking into his eyes. Namjoon felt himself smirk gently then looked down. He wasn’t going to tell her that he knew this city like the back of his hand, simply because, the boredom of his long life has turned him into a rather curious cat, thus, he explores every city, town, and state he visits just because he didn’t want to become completely bored with it.

After the date, Namjoon and Y/N headed toward her apartment. She had offered him to stay because it was already 2am when they came back, but he refused as he didn’t think it was appropriate for him to stay. She sighed and let him leave with the condition that they would be on the phone on his way back to his apartment, something that Namjoon obliged. It was now the next day, and Namjoon was getting ready to meet Seokjin for lunch. He sighed as he knew that Seokjin would pick something spicy to eat and began to mentally prepare himself to scold him once again, but for now, he decided to focus on Moni and feed him his raw food. Namjoon, being the attentive owner he is, decided not to feed Moni dry food, which is something he learned from his last dog. He decided that spending money as if it was for two people, was better for his dog’s health than buying dry food. He had heard Seokjin say that Moni was a fancy dog for this, but to Namjoon, it just seemed essential to have him on a well-balanced diet, like he would with his own body.

As Namjoon said goodbye to Moni and walked out towards the restaurant, he began to think about the next day and how excited he was to meet Y/N. He sighed gently thinking about how he has been letting his guard down but then decided that letting it down was better than being in a constant panic. He was glad that there was another person in his life that he could be comfortable with other than Seokjin. Namjoon didn’t want to admit it, but he was scared. He was scared to lose Seokjin, out of everyone, Seokjin has been his rock since they met, and Seokjin was the only one he was comfortable with.

At the restaurant, Seokjin made his way toward Namjoon. Seokjin had decided to eat at a Korean restaurant as he wanted to “feel at home”. Namjoon mirrored this, as he hadn’t had Korean food in a long while, deciding to leave that part of him behind as well. It’s not that he was not proud of his heritage or ethnicity, however, Namjoon felt like had he been out of the norm in the United States, more than he already is while being an Asian man, he would attract unwanted attention, and so, his Korean pride was behind him but never forgotten.

As the waitress appeared she didn’t hesitate to compliment how great it was for Seokjin to spend time with his grandson and how it was rare to see a grandson-grandfather moment in that day and age. Seokjin ordered the tteokbokki and dak galbi, while Namjoon just settled with some bibimbap. He sighed when he heard Seokjin’s order and look at him as if he was ready to scold him.

“I thought we talked about cutting back on spicy food, Jin…” He said, to which Seokjin rolled his eyes and head then look at Namjoon, almost pouting.

“I’m Korean! I love spicy food! It’s in my veins, how could you even think about asking me to cut down on spicy food?” Seokjin exclaimed, to which Namjoon sighed and replied saying,

“I’m not saying to completely give up on it, I’m saying, to eat less of it. Why would you order tteokbokki and dak galbi when both of those are spicy? It’s not healthy to eat an excess of spicy food, Kim Seokjin.” Namjoon said in a slightly rough, scolding voice. Seokjin smiled and looked down at his plate then drank the water that was beside him.

“You would make a great father, Joon…” This is something that Seokjin always brought up and something that Namjoon always got sad about. It’s not that he didn’t want a family, but how could he start a family when he’s ageless? When he doesn’t age? It would bring a hell of a lot of pain just thinking about the possibility of his children dying before he does. Namjoon said something to the effect of “Let’s drop it” to which Seokjin did as he knew that every time that he brought up children or him having a family, Namjoon would become quiet. Seokjin didn’t do this with negative intentions, he just wanted Namjoon to live a life and stop running away from everything every decade or so.

“Namjoon-ah…” Seokjin began to say, Namjoon felt his spine tingle, he loves hearing his birthname as it tells him that he, at the end of the day, was still himself. He hummed, signaling Seokjin to continue.

“I think, I’m gonna move to a retirement home” Seokjin informed him. Namjoon stopped chewing on his food and looked at him as if he was scared and asked why. Seokjin sighed and said,

“After Eunbi died, I felt alone. And now it’s getting harder to live in that house. My hips hurt more, and my arthritis is getting worse. What if I can’t grip the rails of the stairs well? What if I fall? Who will be there? I live alone.” Namjoon sighed and looked down at his plate saying,

“I’ve asked you to live with me and Moni in the farmhouse.” To which Seokjin shook his head and looked straight into Namjoon’s eyes.

“I can’t live my life running, Namjoon. I’m getting too old for that.” Namjoon looked at him with a soft gaze then looked down at his plate, understanding what he meant.

Although Namjoon didn’t say it out loud, he too was tired of living in fear, of running, of being caught for experiments and other things of that nature. He poked his egg yolk and said,

“I don’t wanna live like this anymore, Seokjin… I’m tired…” He looked around as if to check if there was someone else around him while he said “I’m 94 years old. You’re the only person who I’ve kept a relationship with. I’m just tired of… not living.” Namjoon said feeling his eyes begin to water. Seokjin, being the understanding friend that he is, grabbed Namjoon’s hand gently, giving it a reassuring squeeze. Namjoon looked down and wiped his tears gently, and in a soft voice asked Seokjin “Will I ever age…? I’m scared that I’m stuck like this forever…” Seokjin stood up, sat beside him, and hugged his friend as tight as he could.

Normally, one would be afraid of death, but Seokjin’s theory to this is because you’ve had such a great life, that you want to relive it, or that you’re young and inexperienced and feel the need to do more. However, Namjoon has not lived. He has been alive but never lived. While you don’t have to have children, a partner, or other things to live, this is something that Namjoon craved. He didn’t want to live a thousand lives every decade, he wanted to live one life for a hundred years.

Namjoon understood Seokjin’s decision and decided that it would be best for him as of now, while he thought of a solution. Namjoon decided that it would be best to go home as he didn’t want any more bad news. When Namjoon got home, he laid down in bed and thought about what Seokjin said. Ever since his late wife, Eunbi, passed away from cancer, Seokjin has been alone. Namjoon always offered Seokjin his place to stay, but Seokjin always declined stating the same thing “I can’t run away with you, Namjoon”. Which is something that tug on his heartstring every single time as it was a reminder that he, indeed, as running away from everything.

Namjoon decided to call Y/N, hoping that hearing her voice would bring some peace into his troubling mind. She did not hesitate to pick up the phone after the first two rings. A cheerful “Hello, Junseo!” greeted him. He felt his angst melt away at the sound of her voice.

“Can you do me a favor?” He whispered. She nodded, even though he couldn’t see her, he took her silence as a confirmation that she would help him with his troubles. At first, he wanted her to call him by his name, Namjoon, but he didn’t want her to think that his interest was built on falsehood or that he was faking being himself, so, he opted for the simplest request.

“Tell me about your day… I wanna listen to your voice.” He said in a soft, slightly rough whisper, something that definitely had an effect on her. He proceeded to hear her talk about her day, he learned from hearing her, that she was a manager on a law firm and how crazy it was to hear lawyers gossip about cases like old ladies in church or something of that nature. As she laughed and smiled at the ridiculousness that was happening around her, Namjoon felt his uneasiness melt. As she was smiling and laughing with him; he felt himself laughing at a ridiculous attempt of a joke a lawyer had told her to get into her pants. He liked this feeling and wished nothing more but to treasure it. His smile softly faded, and he asked her.

“What would you do… if from this day forward you couldn’t age?” She was left stunned at this. It wasn’t something that she had ever thought about, never in her 24 years of living had she thought about this question. The questions she always asked herself were always about how would her life end, never, what if it just never stopped.

“I suppose… I would feel lonely, right? Seeing so many people you love and care for pass away, their books closing as no new chapters are beginning…” Namjoon closed his eyes, it was as if he was being validated for feeling the way he felt. Seokjin always validated his feelings, but he felt sometimes that he validated them because Namjoon was a burden. And now, this person, whom he feels comfortable with, says his thoughts, and he can’t help but feel… seen.

“But… I guess… If I had your company, it wouldn’t be so bad, right? Live just becomes boring when you distance yourself, become just another speck of dust, but… If another speck of dust joins you and sees you, then you wouldn’t be so lonely, right? I guess what I’m trying to say is… If I’m with you, comfortable, seen, understood, cared for… Then, I don’t mind not aging.”

This made Namjoon smile, tears running from his eyes. He himself understood that being vulnerable was important, for any human connection, but still, the ever-longing fear of not being old with someone he loved and cared for kept growing. Namjoon decided to be a hermit not only to stop the other person from feeling pain, but also to stop himself from experiencing pain, loneliness, and suffering. That, however, has only caused more pain for him.

“Y/N… I…” he began to say, he didn’t know what to say. He wanted to tell her about his situation, even though it felt like it was too early. He didn’t care if he was being vulnerable if it was her. Namjoon closed his eyes and sighed softly. He looked at his ceiling holding his phone gently on his ear and said,

“I can’t wait to see you tomorrow.”

Y/N felt her cheeks blush at this, his voice was deep due to what she thought was a lack of sleep, and it was filled with so much sincerity and longing. She smiled at this and looked at herself in the mirror and fixed her hair gently as if she was in front of him. She closed her eyes, her smile widening more imagining that he was there.

“I can’t wait to see you too. I… kinda miss you” She chuckled gently. Something which Namjoon mirrored. She felt as if they were moving too fast, but she didn’t care. It felt right, he felt right, it felt perfect, and even if others were seeing red flags, she was only seeing how comfortable, loving, and sweet Namjoon was towards her. He was, to her, a perfect gentleman. Any other guy would have stayed the night, but he didn’t, respecting her space. And even though he didn’t kiss her yet, she felt as if they were both waiting for a moment, a perfect moment, where both of them were completely open to each other. She felt that even though he has opened up a lot, she has done so little, and maybe that’s why he’s so hesitant. But tomorrow will be the day, a day where she opened up over dinner and tell him everything about herself, just like he has been sharing little facts about himself.

“Let’s talk tomorrow, Junseo” she said. Namjoon felt his smile slowly disappear at the false name. Any other person would be happy to hear their name, but Namjoon was presenting himself to the world as “Jung Junseo” and even though he picked the name after his army buddy Jung Jungkook, he didn’t feel like it was his own to be proud of. He would rather prefer his own name being said by the lips he has been dreaming of kissing since the first time he saw them. He inhaled gently bracing himself for his next words.

“Goodnight, Y/N. Dream happy things” he whispered gently and hung up after hearing her say,

“Goodnight, Junseo. I’ll see you tomorrow.”

As Namjoon laid back, he thought about the possibilities of his date tomorrow. He hasn’t been anxious since he was in the military, a young 19-year-old. He smiled at the thought of him going to his mom and asking her to shave his hair. How nervous he was when he received his uniform, but the sense of nervousness faded as he thought about the fight he was going to put forward. Those feelings are back with him now. The thought of Y/N going up to him like she once did at the restaurant a couple of weeks back, and how she would look. He remembered the figure of her body and thought about how he wanted to explore it in a slow matter and mark his way down and up her body. He sighed thinking that he shouldn’t think that way about her because he was more than just a horny teenager, but he couldn’t help himself. He was sure that he wasn’t just sexually attracted to Y/N, he was also emotionally attracted to her, and this scared him.

He didn’t want to think of a future where she was old, and he was still looking like his 22-year-old-self. Where she was caressing his cheek and he didn’t have any wrinkles, while she had aged gracefully. He hugged his pillow and turned to the side and closed his eyes whispering to himself softly “I’m scared…” something that he hasn’t admitted out loud ever since he stopped aging. Kim Namjoon fell asleep after admitting his fears to himself.

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bibliophilecats · 1 year

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April 25 2023: Everyone should read this

#book photo challenge #justonemorepage #when you trap a tiger #tae keller

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the-final-sentence · 2 years

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Their story would keep growing.

Tae Keller, from Mihi Ever After

#Mihi Ever After #Tae Keller

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yourlocalqreator · 1 year

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Isabella BELL Beaufort

Theme song: Silhouette by Phuture Noize

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PLAYLIST 1

PLAYLIST 2

Are you ok?? The hell?

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Voice Claim: Lilly Rose Depp

Face Claim:Lilly Rose Depp ofc

Name: Isabella Beaufort

Age: 26

Gender: Female

Nickname(s):Bell

Alias(es): Belle, Adlers Protege

Timeline: Black Ops Cold War

Rank: Agent

Regiment:

Status: Shot but healed up by Adler

Birth Date: November 27, 1954

Death Date: shot by Adler but was taken care of

Occupation: CIA

Affiliation(s): Soviet until (Formerly)

KGB/CIA (Currently)

fun fact: Like Hailey "Rose" Quinn She taught herself martial arts

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"Adler, I Forgive you"

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Skin Tone: White

Eye Color: Hazel dark

Hair Color: brownish black

Hair Length: Waist Length

Hairstyle: Hair Down Ponytail,

When she wears her Balacleva, a low bun

Height: 5,4

Weight: 90 lbs

Scars/Marks/Burns: The wound that she got shot at by Adler got healed but not to much

Tattoos: none

Physical Enhancements: none

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"ADLER ITS SOLOVETSKY”

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Personality: she is a sweet, soft, and bubbly person but she is also violent, aggressive, and yea

who used to be an agent of Perseus until she got brainwashed by the CIA

Fear(s): Losing her loved ones, and her Team

Likes: Nice People, Victory, betrayal

Dislikes: Mean People, Enemies

Habit(s): Thinking

Flaw(s): Yes

Talent(s): Photography, and combat

The Character’s Relationship With Others

Reputation: Isabella got along with the team s well even with Adler

Well.. idk about Hudson

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"Russel the scar looks cute I mean it"

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Love Interest(s):

Russel Adler When Isabella gets brainwashed by Adler Adler noticed something different about her, Both bell and Adler have some romantic, cute, and sexual chemistry

When she found out the team has been brainwashing her she was mad but she gave Adler a 2nd chance so she stopped the nukes

Friend(s):

Russel Adler

Helen Park

Mason Woods

Frank Woods

Sims

Death's Mission:

Rose

Logan Walker

Alex Keller

Enemy(ies):

Perseus

Arash

Stitch

Adler (For a bit)

Relationship(s):

Doesn't have one

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"Stitch? you mean that fucking guy?"

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The Character’s Abilities

Fighting Style: Kung Fu, Krav Maga Tae Kwon Do, Vacom, Silat

Weapons: M16A1, 1911, M60, Tranquilizer Gun, MP5, Type 63, Gallo SA12, RPD, LW3 - Tundra, Pellington 703, Hauer 77, Recurve Bow, M79, War Machine, XM4, AK-47, any weapon obtained by the player

Preferred Weapon(s): A Weapon

(On a scale of 1 - 10; 1 being terrible and 10 being the best)

Agility: 9/10

Hand-to-Hand Combat:10 /10

Long Range Accuracy: 8/10

Defense:9 /10

Offense: 9/10

People Skills:9 /10

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"Wait, I.. I wasn't in Vietnam???”.."

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Birthplace: Paris, France

Family:

Father: Aleski Beaufort

Status: ???

Mother: Farina Beaufort

Status: ???

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"I'm from France"

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Character Background

She was born in Paris France and was adopted by 2 Russian soldiers who died after being assassinated. Before moving to Russia to become a soldier in the Soviet Union, she received a pendant from her mother as a gift, telling her to never give up when all things seemed hopeless before both her father and mother passed. She was a soldier of the Soviet Union and for Perseus, the main military force of the country.

Sometime during her teen days as a Combrate, she befriended Arash Kadivar, who became her sparring partner and closest comrade. With the forces of "evil" approaching the Homeland, the military council of Of the Soviets decided to get the nukes in Solovetsky in order to expand Perseus' defenses. When Isabella and Arash were in the car they were talking about the nukes and the nukes detonating Solovetsky, but then Arash got out of the car then saying to her that Perseus thinks too highly of her before shooting both the driver and her. But then Adler, along with Mason and woods found Isabella who was still alive, and killed Kadivar.

Soon Adler took her into a place and started using MKUltra to brainwash her and transfer his memories onto hers with the help of Helen Park to help them find Perseus.

First, it was about the DaNang war back in the 1960s Meeting Adler and Sims. Bell helped the team and also gained the trust of the CIA and with missions with the help of the saying that triggered her by Adler, "Bell, we've got a job to do."

After the nukes were over and Adler shot her in the head he knew what he did wrong and never wanted to brainwash her again so he carried her to the safe house to fix her up. When she woke up he apologized for it took bell a moment to forgive him because she was mad but he was forgiven and now the rest of the team along with bell in 1984 catch stitch and his evil in Verdansk.

TRIVIA

In Call Of Duty Deaths Mission In Rose Premonition, She died by her head getting exploded, In the final ending, she dies by getting trisected by a random barbed wire while falling from a building that's just broke

#Isabella Bell Beaufort #cod cold war #bell x adler #Spotify

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I’m doing one more reading wrap up for 2022 because I want to share some of my favorite reads with all of you so here are my top 10 books of 2022 in no particular order! (Note: this does not include any of alice oseman’s work because they would be the majority of the list, and this list does not include any Harper Collins books because whilst I have no influence from my silly little blog we do not cross picket lines here <3)

1) Frizzy by Claribel A. Ortega

I do not know how to explain to anyone what this book means to me. Whilst I am white and not explicitly represented via this book, I have really funky hair that I was judged for throughout my life and can be really fucking frustrating to deal with. This book made me feel through some solace that I was not alone in that struggle. In a lot of ways, it healed my inner child and my current self because I was seeing those scenes of her mom struggling to do her hair and I saw myself and how much of a struggle doing my hair used to be. This book meant the world to me. And is only one of two graphic novels on this list (considering how many graphic novels I read I’m surprised there aren’t more).

2) What My Bones Know by Stephanie Foo

My therapist gave me this book to read, and I had no idea when I picked it up how impactful this would be for me. I know the popular memoir of the year was Jennette McCurdy’s, and I did read that and found it to be absolutely heart breaking and wonderfully written. But this book changed me. It was one of the best books I have ever read. The content is not light, but as someone who has diagnosed PTSD and has been told they have CPTSD by their therapist- this book fucking wrecked me and showed me that I am worthy of love and that my trauma does not need to define me. This book is so important to me.

3) In the Dream House by Carmen Maria Machado

This is another memoir about trauma, specifically dealing with domestic abuse this time, but it’s done in a very unique way. I recently read House of Leaves, which is a fictional horrorish book and it reminded me pretty strongly of this book when I read it. The way in which Machado utilizes the house to be representative of this terrible situation was really well written. As someone who has existed in a house in a not great situation, this book really sat with me.

4) This Is How You Lose the Time War by Amal El-Mohtar and Max Gladstone

I know that I am so basic for this one, but it is genuinely so good. This book is so hit or miss for people, and it absolutely hit for me. The storytelling, the relationship, the heart break. This story killed me. I devoured it in such a short amount of time, and it has yet to leave my brain. I love this book so much. It is one of my all time favorites.

5) Chemical Gardening for the Amateur by Charles Henry Connors and Victor A. Tiedjens

This is such a random pick I know, but part of why I loved this book so much is that it is a book about chemical gardening from 1939 that I got from a local bookstore where they had miss marked it as $3.00 and they gave it to me for that price (it is definitely worth more than that). But it is so cool. Reading about how these techniques that we still use today were being developed and showing how people can use them for their own gardens and plants is so fucking neat????!! Also there were so many pretty pictures in it. I read this fairly quickly whilst at my girlfriend’s house because I just hyper focused on it and loved every moment of it.

6) When You Trap a Tiger by Tae Keller

This is one of my favorite middle grade books that I have ever read (like genuinely). Part of why this book hit me so hard is that my grandmother was at the hospital the exact day that I read this. I had genuinely no clue what this book was about, and it relating to that type of event made this book hit even closer to home. It was a really good story overall though.

7) The Anthropocene Reviewed by John Green

As someone who has OCD, it was so interesting reading a memoir (ish) by someone else who has OCD and seeing the overlapping in our general thinking patterns. I am a fan of John Green’s work (Turtles All The Way Down is a super important book for me), but this collection of short stories or remarks was just something that I really enjoyed reading. It was not like earth shattering, but it was a really good book.

8) Sick Kids in Love by Hannah Moskowitz

I love chronic illness representation so much. This was probably my favorite romance that I read this year. Whilst I do not have the specific conditions that the MCs had, the general like problems that come from having chronic illnesses was something that I significantly related to. And getting to see a romance where those aspects were included is something that was really really nice for me. It was also just a really fun teen romance book (I am a sucker for romcoms).

9) The Magic Fish by Trung Le Nguyen

This is literally the book that I recommend to people when they tell me that they want to try a graphic novel. It is like a middle grade to early young adult read, but it is one of my favorite graphic novels. It does a really cool thing with utilizing traditional Vietnamese fairy tales or folk stories to weave this story between modern day and the past. It was a really interesting way to showcase generational trauma, and a new way of discussing the immigrant experience that I have not seen before. It is also queer representation! And the art style is absolutely brilliant!

10) Yerba Buena by Nina LaCour

I am a Nina LaCour bitch. Her work is always outstanding in my opinion (at least her newest releases). I really enjoy the way in which she weaves a story together. I very much so enjoyed this like non-traditional take on a romance centric story. For me, a lot of books with a romance centric plot line have become just romcoms and whilst there is nothing wrong with that, I prefer having some substance to the plot in a lot of instances. I personally feel like LaCour does that really well. This book was so good in my opinion.

I know this is a long post, so I won’t make it longer. But thank you if you read my thoughts at all. And I hope whatever reading you partake in is fulfilling for you (or whatever media you choose to consume)!!

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