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urcrybby24 · 2 years

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Look. At. Me. (Eren Yeager x Black!Reader)

Notes: Soo this is set when Eren went rouge. It’s set up where there is quite a bit more down time from when he went route to when he touched zeke. Eren is hiding out in the underground city. The reader is a relatively shy black woman with long locks. She has sheep ears and a sheep tail. Don’t ask, I do what I want. Let’s all pretend the world doesn’t attack the island because of the threat of the rumbling. I’m too old for heavy angst. Let’s also say there’s black people on the island but not a lot. I listened to the slowed versions of these songs: What’s wrong, scared? Help urself by Ezekiel, After Dark by Mr.Kitty, In Heat by Hentai Xander, and Desire by Meg Myers.

Tags: smut, smut, smut, Anal, Anal Fingering, Unprotected Sex, Hair Pulling, Heavy Verbal Degradation, Dub Con, Crying, Humiliation, Fear Play, Power Play, Chasing, Choking, Collar, V Mild Pet Play, Dom Eren, Dacryphilia, f receiving oral, slight dumbification, vivid depiction of fear, Eren is scary and you’re v turned on by that but don’t want to admit it, You also have trouble with eye contact, Eren calls you stupid and dumb, it’s not that bad but it is intense for you, You very much won’t Eren but don’t want to admit it, you are autistic coded

Word count: 11k (buckle up 🥴)

This wasn’t happening, this wasn’t happening. You didn’t think you’d be the one to think something so cliché. After all, you’d pretty much seen it all. Through bodies upon bodies, betrayal, giant monsters and carnage, but you were deeply regretting “investigating” Eren on your own. You weren’t on anyones side for your plan really, you just wanted Eren back. You just wanted all your friends to be OK. For Mikasa, Armin and you all to get along again. That was so important to you, to fix something that mattered among this madness. You never believed for a moment that Eren hated Armin or Mikasa. Eren was past his last straw and using last resorts to protect us, whether we liked it or not.

But now you were desperately trying to escape Eren. He’d spotted you before you could find him in the underground city. It was almost like he hadn’t just spotted you. It was like he knew where you were the second you steeped foot in the city. Which was insane. It’s not like you were terribly noticeable. You kept most of your skin covered by a large dirty cloak you found here. You were also fairly short but wanted to hide your curves. It would be strange down here since most were starving. Then again, this was also just your natural body type. You didn’t really eat more or less than others in the military on the surface.

Oh how you wished you could go back in time. Before you were caught, you were walking in some of the city’s alleyways staying hidden in darkness and in crowds when you could. You were actually about to wind down for the day. You had no idea if it was night or day but you’re body was telling you it was time to rest. You were about to check one more place. Surprisingly, you had gotten used to the smell here, after 64 hours of wandering. That made you feel more comfortable. A persons smells was quite noticeable here and would make you stand out even more. You were the best at things like this, staying hidden. It actually made you feel more comfortable to be an observer, too many eyes on you and you couldn’t help but to tense up. You were never sure why.

You even helped a few people here when you could. When you were sure it wouldn’t draw attention to you. You knew what it was like to not eat. You walked down one ally and turned the corner giving the intersecting walls wide birth to not get stabbed by anyone. As you kept your eyes down like everyone else. Although you felt the familiar discomfort of eyes, something just nagged at you to look up towards the end of the ally.

Only for him to be standing there, looking down at you. You couldn’t help the gasp as your eyes widened into saucers. Every bit of sleepiness was chased out of you so fast it made your head pulse with pain. As soon as you saw his eyes, the dead conviction. Fear spiked up. He spoke in that deep slightly whispery tone.

“Looking for me?”

It wasn’t a question. You turn and bolt. You ran. ran. And ran. He wouldn’t care about hurting you even if there were people around. In all technicalities, these people didn’t matter to him and neither did the people he used to hold close. You…didn’t actually see Eren since Marley. You just heard what Armin told you he did and said to him and Mikasa. You didn’t think you’d be scared of him. You didn’t realize how committed he was to pushed all of you away.

Eren was strong and people often didn’t give him enough credit for his brains, he could read people quite well. It was obvious from speaking with him since you all were cadets and how he talked about others. You needed to focus. This wasn’t a game like your body seemed to think. You ignored your body and pretended like you weren’t anything less than sick in the head. You supposed war made most, if not all, crazy but this was…You tried not to panic because you couldn’t fall. No, you…you wouldn’t fall.

You ran keeping to the balls of your feet so you could weave about the people milling about. But you could still feel his presence right on your ass. How was he keeping up with you? If you hadn’t been so focused on not falling, your tail would be tucking itself between your legs.

You seemed to have ran into an abandoned part of the cavelike city. It was a bit darker and made up of a maze of dirt walls and empty dilapidated buildings. As your heart pounded like a horse you wondered if he ran you to this place on purpose. You wouldn’t put it past him.

The panic started to spark in your belly when you found somewhere to hide in a building. A closet on its side with rotting wood. Disbelief coursed through you like a wild fire when you heard the door to the house you were in open not even minutes later.

You managed to slip past him but not without earning three burning scratch marks to your side when he tried to grab you mid stride. That was no easy feat, it should have been near impossible with how fast you were moving but his skills were off the charts. You ran once again ended up in a system of dirt walls of sorts now it was actually a maze. The ceiling was lower here. This was the worst possible outcome. Your mind scrambled to think of a way to weasel yourself out of Eren’s hold.

Your breaths were coming quicker now. Your options were running out but you kept it together enough so your chest wasn’t heaving. If you fully gave yourself to panic you’d trip and fall. There was still light here, dim as it was. Your steps sounded so loud here. You’d gotten used to the high ceilings in the main city before you realized it, but you could still hear his footsteps behind you. Hell, if his footsteps are silent, you’d feel his presence. It was so large. It was as if he was in his titan form. Even though logically you knew he wasn’t as close as you made him out to be, his steps didn’t sound so close, but your back felt so vulnerable.

As if he could simply reach out and grab your tunic. All you wanted to do was hide under a bed. You had to concentrate for as long as you could if you hoped to get away.

You wanted to risk a glance behind you to gauge your next moves but you couldn’t even turn halfway.

You saw his eyes right next to yours. He closed the distance between you two in just a few seconds. He was fucking with you. He could’ve caught you. Your blood immediately turned cold. Not cold enough to stop your reflexes.

Eren swung a fist at you and you dodged. He rushed you and took more swings but you made sure none of them landed. Each swing came the rush of wind with them. He was fast. You were desperate though. If he even landed one hit on you… It didn’t even have to be a good one. You’d be incapacitated. Now you could certainly take a punch but Eren was a heavy hitter. There was a lot of weight behind his fist. It had been quite a while since you two spared, but hand to hand was Eren’s specialty. You had no plans on challenging him on his home turf. You didn’t even bother to counter seriously. You flipped back quickly, doing a back walkover. Kicking out one of your legs, you only felt the tip of your shoe graze one of his fists. Just using the threat of your legs to encourage him to stop attacking.

As you gained much needed distance, you ran again. You sensed a tunnel coming up by the sound of echoing steps. That wasn’t good. That would be the worst place to be in an already bad situation. You turned, maybe a miracle would happen and you could slip past him again. You’d have to circle around the walls to…to… Your thought ground to a halt in fear. Fuck. You start to tunnel vision.

Eren stood in front of you. Just…looking down at you. He was too close now. You wouldn’t be able to round him. He tilted his head looking at you down his nose.

“You can keep running. There’s a dead end up ahead. You should circle around to give yourself an opening.”

His words made your head pound. That was… too on the nose. Oh…oh god… why couldn’t you move?? Instincts be damned. Move. Move. Move. Move. H-holy shit, what the fuck. When you looked in his eyes. You saw something terrible. It felt like the primal unease when one stand atop a really tall building. You cursed primitive ancestors that thought freezing up was justifiable in survival. That wasn’t the current case for you. You had to run. Fear just wouldn’t let… After a few seconds, he just put his hands in his pockets.

Your lungs started to burn but you couldn’t force yourself to breathe. Please, move. Please, move. Please, move. Your leg flinched before managing to take a useless, small step back. Which Eren matched with a step towards you. It was in sync. As if he knew you would take it.

A century passed and you took another step back. Eren responded with another step towards you. He just looked at you with those eyes. It was driving you insane. You wanted so badly to look away, even just to breathe, but it seemed that wasn’t up to you. Such simple choices no longer belonged to you. It was up to Eren to release you from this awful eye contact. He held you fast in this tension.

This was extremely dangerous. He was too patient. Finally, your steps had your back reach a wall, a cruel unyielding wall. Eren reached for you then. He grabbed one of your long pigtails and dragged you up the wall, to the balls of your feet and a little further. You breathed, mercifully, but it came as choked yelp. Just as your oxygen starved lungs got relief, it felt like needles stabbed you all over half your head. Both your hands flew up to grab his wrist reflexively to relieve some of the pressure. Your eyes burn with hidden tears. The dim light cast on his face only serving to make him look more frightening. Gold light splashed across his insane green eyes. Having your head turned, you were able to break away from those terribly still eyes. Your heart dropped several times. He… Eren had already done such evil in the eyes of the world. The two of you were alone. There’s no way he wouldn’t hurt you for coming after him. No one would hear your screams here. You both were too deep in the cave. Would he believe you if he asked yo why you were looking for him? Was he already so far gone that he wouldn’t believe someone else that still believed in him?

You press your thighs together. There was nowhere to go but you try to lean away from him on the wall as he leaned closer to you. You only pull your hair more with the motion. Your frown wobbles on your plush lips. You try to banish the thought but it came through anyway. He smelled like wood and rain.

“What did you come here for? Who sent you?”

He spoke quietly but with no softness in his voice, monotonous and in control.

You open your shaky mouth but it takes a minute before you find somewhat of a voice. You squeak.

“No one… sent me. I wanted you back with…”

You squeaked out. You could feel his eyes narrow at you. Your previous thoughts were right. He was skeptical someone still cared for him. You wanted to die, but it was foolish to think of all people Eren would give you a quick death if he thought someone was in his way. It seemed to you that he was always closer with Mikasa and Armin and he even pushed them away. Your own thought hurt you since you always really liked Eren. Maybe even loved.

Slowly, his other hand grabbed your jaw and turned your head further to the side, pulling your hair further. It seemed he was scrutinizing you further if the feeling of a hole being bore in you was any indication. You wince and squirm against his hand, trying to find purchase against the wall with your feet. You heard dust and dirt scrape up and fall at your flailing. You bent your legs over and over, they kept sliding down making the pain in your head worse and better as you slid about in his grip. He spoke slowly, almost like he was in disbelief. You think his face remained neutral but his eyebrows drew in.

“What’s… with the red in your skin..? That’s not from running.”

Your heart stopped pounding and dropped. Fuck! Fuck! In your head, you cursed and spat at your bodily functions for giving you away. What would he think? Would he take this as an insult and hurt you more than he was already going to? You thought about denying it but…you couldn’t hide the shame in your face. You knew he was good at reading people but you didn’t expect…

You tried grounding yourself with the pain in your head and squeeze your eyes shut to hide whatever he would see in your reaction but you felt the red crawl further across your face at mention of it.

You swallow and instantly regret it. He could probably feel your throat move in his hand. Your ears fall with your shame. Slowly, you opened your eyes. Your head was fixed in its position by his hand you could only barely see him in your peripheral. You whisper.

“It’s…a fever… I couldn’t, sleep while trying to track you down.”

Mixing the truth with the lie was always the best way to lie but a humorless laugh shook him. He didn’t sound convinced, seeing right through you. Something that would become a theme. You pressed your lips together in a frown. Your breath came shaky now. You chanted in your head. Your heart pounding 6 times for each chant. ‘Don’t say it. Don’t say it. Don’t say it. Don’t say it. Don’t…Don’t say it, please.’ He finishes laughing and says it incredulous.

“You’re, you can’t be turned on right now.”

You wanted to hide your reaction to prove him wrong and hide things in you. Like how you used to have your heats, the way you liked to be fucked and your interests, like you always did, but you couldn’t help it. You were caught completely off guard being read for your filth here of all places by him of all people. Your legs stopped struggling against the wall. Silence dragged between you two. You said nothing. What could you say? You couldn’t bring yourself to care about the silence though. You were too busy wanting to vanish into thin air leaving him confused by such an amazing magic trick and you ending up anywhere but right here right now, in this situation. The hands that held his wrist started to shake. You shut your eyes as if this would help that vanishing trick dream come true.

“You’re skin is dark but I know what that face means. What? Did you think I wouldn’t see it? The light down here is golden and the red shows up well in your skin.”

You tried to cringe further away from him as he drew closer to one of your fluffy ears. Oh god no. He wasn’t going to whisper was he…? There wasn’t any fur on the inside of your ear. His warm breath brushed up on the skin there. You could feel every breath he took against the sensitive skin on the inside of your ear. Your sensitivity was definitely rising… You…you thought you stopped having heats completely, what was happening? You stopped breathing again as your mind was seized by way too many overwhelming feelings.

“You would be a halfway decent liar if I couldn’t see that face. Your formula was perfect but the execution…”

The leveling pain in your head started to lessen and you got confused until your body started to lower. O-oh he was letting you d-

A yelp got caught in your thorat and you relized he’d raised his knee in between your legs before leading you down. Your body was being lowered onto his leg.

“Is god awful.”

Your ear flickered involuntarily with the sound of his warm whispers inside it. You were glad your voice caught, you did not want him to hear that sound in its full. This was embarrassing enough and you didn’t want to give him that. Still you were caught off guard enough to not be able to stamp your noise completely. He still has a grip in your hair and jaw. Your tail was flickering quickly from side to side on the wall. You quietly gasp since your heart was thundering for a slightly different reason now. Eren was still terrifying, maybe even more so now, but he’d pulled your attention to something you’d tried to ignore.

You tried not to but you couldn’t help squirming, not having much but his leg to balance on now that the pull in your hair was gone. You let go of his wrist and your hands grasped at the wall behind you. You were determined not to put your hands on him for any support. As you squirmed and your crotch ground on his leg. His leg felt so warm against your lips. You could felt his leg was cut with muscle. The angle became awkward in some places with your squirming and hurt at times on such a sensitive place but that only seemed to spur you on. You were glad your hood completely covered your clit but you could feel your…n-no you, you weren’t feeling good. He, he wasn’t besting you.

You managed to keep most of your most pathetic whimpers inside you. Your eyes darted around. You tried to look anywhere but Eren’s face now that your arms weren’t in the way of your line of sight when you held his wrist, it was hard. You could feel the pressure of him looking at you. You knew if your eyes caught his, you wouldn’t be able to look away again. You knew your body well. You knew what would happen to the thoughts you were barely keeping at bay. Those thoughts were threatening to burst if you didn’t keep fighting it. You couldn’t handle being locked in his eyes again, you’d break for sure.

He watched you struggling on his toned thigh and you tried your best to believe his pants and your skirt were too thick for him to feel how wet you’d gotten just from this. Was he planning on waiting you out? What was the last thing he said? Was it a question? It’s was getting a tiny bit harder to concentrate. This was fine, you could handle this. Your mind pitted against his own that’s all. Eren wasn’t Armin. Eren was stronger than you but you could outlast him in mind games. You would.

You pushed your lips together further as saliva was producing in your mouth. Just as your heart finally began to slow, just as you were convincing yourself that this was childsplay and you were bored, your heart jumped up as his hand slid down from your jaw to your throat just under your chin. You wanted to sigh and melt into him with how warm his fingers felt. He wasn’t choking you but with the tension he may as well have.

“If you think this is all I’m going to do to you, you must be incredibly stupid.”

He took a breath and looked you over slowly from head to toe. It was as if he was assessing what the required work would be for a new long project.

“Let’s see…”

He squeezed the sides of your neck then released, squeeze then released. He kept doing this as he spoke. How did, how the fuck did Eren know how to properly choke someone for pleasure?

“Judging by the way you walk and fight, you probably have sensitive and weak spots mostly on your legs.”

Squeeze, release. Squeeze, release. You breathed in deep each time he released, savoring the air, as if his hand would latch on your neck and not release. squeeze release. Oh, oh god. You were getting tired of wondering how he knew these things. You felt like you could make out the spirals of fingerprints on the rough pads of his fingers. His smell felt like you could get high off it. Your pupils were no doubt blown the fuck out.

“And maybe…”

He looked off to the side and thought. The shadows of the cave followed the tilt of his head.

“Your pinky…?”

A whimper accidentally left your throat. How closely has he been watching you all this time? Squeeze release. Squeeze release.

Even if you hid your reactions in your face, which you didn’t, he felt your pulse racing in his fingers. Once again you thought. How could he know such a thing? He had to be joking. Surely that wasn’t the sort of thing you could find out by just watching someone.

His hand in your hair unwrapped itself before slipping up your skirt. You made a small gasp and you turn- fuck, you met his eyes. His warm hand slid up your hot thigh and tugged down the waist band of your panties. He kept grazing the part of the front of your hip where it connected to your torso. You were a bit embarrassed to say how much pleasure he was making you feel just from this pressure point. You had to swallow against his hand on your throat or else you would start drooling.

“You look surprised but it’s simple. Your adrenalines pumping to assess the situation and respond to anything. All of your senses are heightened.”

He punctuated this by gripping your plush hip and pressed his thumb in circles on that fucking spot on your hip. Eren practically kneaded into your skin and soft body. You grit a groan back and ground your teeth together. Your eyes however fluttered. It felt so good it almost hurt the waves of sharp pleasure shooting straight to your twitching clit.

“Not to mention you’re a bitch in heat. I won’t be giving you a break.”

You were pretty sure your flush continued to spread. His grip on your throat released again and he pulled his hand from you. He grabbed your wrist from your side and before you could try to pull your hand from him he placed your pinky in between his teeth and lips. Eren then picked up one of your legs and put it around his hips to grip the back of your knee. Oh god, all of this at the same time…

Your one free hand flew to your mouth but not without releasing a pretty little moan. His eyes became lidded at that. Finally getting a mirthful sound from you he was spurred on. His fingers pressing into your hip muscle making circles in your sensitive skin and the back of your knee. His teeth nibbled on your pinky as his leg raised you higher. Fuuck, you were being attacked from all sides. You felt wince feeling your nipples harden up under you tunic. You wonder if he knew that too. Sharp surges of pleasure were shooting into your crotch from your pleasure points. It didn’t seem like any of this was hard for him at all. Why would it be? He was already so strong. All the while, he held you there with his eyes not leaving yours even as a thin line of drool spills from his mouth on your thigh. It should have grossed you out. The sight of him coupled with your merciless pleasure was ahhh…

You were definitely making noise now. You were becoming too loud for just your hand to keep them in, muffled moans started to echo terribly in the dark cave. You’re only saving grace was when he looked down at your hand like he wanted to rip it from your face. It served him right. He wouldn’t get that satisfaction. Although at this point, you wouldn’t be surprised if he grew another arm to do as he pleased.

Finally, he slowed his hands and lowered your body so your feet touched the ground but your weight was still fully dependent upon his leg. His mouth released you but he picked up your other leg to join the first and wrap his waist. Your hand slowly released your mouth as you caught your breath. You put them on the wall at your sides again for stability. Your legs squeezed his waist. Of course, for no other reason but to make sure you wouldn’t fall. His hips slowly pulled closer to your crotch, so very fucking slowly pushing and grinding against your wet vulva. He was so slow and methodical that you were confident in simply keeping your mouth shut and kept your sighs to a minimum.

You frowned and gasp as you look off to the side. Eren tilts his head as he leaned in to look at you closer showing off his jawline. You regret not keeping your mouth covered though. He cages your head with his arms and presses his chest against yours. His arms are in the way of your face so you can’t cover your mouth. There’s no room for your hands to reach your face. He leans in to bite and nibble your ear. You feel a bit silly, you just exposed yourself in the most obvious way by turning your head from him. It wasn’t even a question if your ear were sensitive.

He has to be able to feel your nipples now. They rubbed up against his chest. Your breath pickes up sped again before whimpers start coming though as he bits and tugs along the length of your ear finding the most sensitive spots. Before they can get too loud, you turn your head to pull your ear from his mouth and face him but…but that’s also a mistake. He ground his hips against you so his hard erection pressed up just right against your clit. Ohh… oh no… He saw your face head on when you moaned in the most pathetic way.

He keeps doing it, hitting your clit again and again over and over and over. He’s got you under the spell of his eyes once again. Once one moan was out you couldnt stop. How could you? Before he was teasing you by going so slowly but now the roll of his hips were deeper in their follow through. He rubbed you so well and it felt even better when you pulled him even closer with your legs. You couldn’t simply stop the way your legs kept squeezing him close.

You panic a bit when you think you’re going to cry. You don’t know how but you manage to keep everything at bay by willpower, not a single tear slips past your control but the pressure of holding back was building in your chest. You promised your body you would cry all it wanted once you were alone, so please let you get through this with some sort of dignity. All this pointed attention and pleasure on you was driving you mad. You were so embarrassed but your will to fight his power plays was stronger.

You will wavered completely though when he kissed you. Out of everything he’d done, he still caught you off guard. It was even worse when your wide surprised eyes looked into his lidded ones. He pulled away only to kiss you again as if to solidify that what just happened seconds before was real. He pressed his lips together on your bottom lip lightly sucking slowly. As if hypnotized by the movement of his lips, your eyes close. You tried to remind yourself to even try to make him follow your lead but you couldn’t try very hard, your effort only deepened the kiss. It felt like all inside your mouth had become as sensitive as the hood of your clit. He felt so damn good. You couldn’t help that thought that leaked through. He was just so patient taking his time to build up the passion.

You wanted to do something, but opening your eyes was out of the fucking question. You could feel him looking at you. You would die. You opened your lips and he licked the inside of your lip. You groaned deeply, the sharp pleasurable sensation making your head spin. You squeezed his waist with your thighs since the pleasure shot straight to your pussy and bucked your hips against him. As if remembering how he ground into you, he met your thrust. As his tongue licked yours, you two thrust against each with perfect timing like you’d been fucking for years. Each time his tongue passed over the space between your gums and lips, your moans hiked up a few octaves so he did it often.

His hands started to pet your ears as you made out and when you tried to struggle to reach up protect them. His thumbs simply dragged themselves closer to your ear holes with a particular devastating thrust into your clit. You scream in his mouth. You could physically feel his message, ‘Don’t even try it.’ He put you in your place with pleasure. Eren simply had not a shred of mercy for you. He found all of your weak points and attacked them directly. You vaguely think that you wanted to make him feel it too. To catch him slipping and make him lose himself in pleasure but you were holding onto your own composure by a thread. You were focusing on trying not to cry, how would you be able to think long enough to retaliate?

It was so strange, the way you two did this. The strangely high amount of… intimacy he was giving you. The intimacy that was between the both of you. It seemed to actually heighten the tension.

Finally, your lips slowed. The tips of your tongues touched with no motion for a few seconds, savoring everything about each other before you two parted. The thick line of saliva you shared didn’t break for a while. You both looked down at it. When it finally fell away, you looked to each other. Eren’s breath got heavier but it wasn’t as bad as yours. Before you could catch your breath though he reached for your legs and unwrapped them and led them down. You managed not to reach for him for balance but… Y-your legs…

No! Keep standing! Don’t let him! Win!

“Hohh? After all that you’re still standing? But, I can tell your putting everything in you to keep standing. I think I’ll knock you down and destroy you properly.”

Halfway through your gasp, you ate shit. Quickly, you moved your aching limbs to obey you and at least sit up to to give him a glare but fear was all that dawned on your face as Eren was right in front of you crouched. He tilted his head to the side looking at you.

“Go ahead. Try to stand.”

You were frozen for a few seconds before his eyes slid down to your body as if taking in the sight of you. Another intrusive thought broke through even in your fear, it screwed with your will to fight. Fuck he hot.

You scramble to a squat but your thighs burned, they had no strength. You struggled burning and flexing them further to the point of muscle failure. They gave out under you only to fall again. You did your best to meet his eyes and challenge him. The way he looked at you was the worst. They never search your face. They were just awfully locked onto your own eyes unmoving.

“I can also tell you’ve been holding back your tears this whole time. Go ahead, you don’t need to hold it anymore.”

You winced as your eyes immediately pinpricked with pain and opened your mouth to deny it but the ball in your throat swelled almost as if on cue. The sound you made when trying to speak cracked on what felt like a metal ball in your throat. You bit down for a while and hard till you bled in fact. You felt the small dot of blood rise from your skin as you tensed. You shook your head, but your lips quivered without your say so. The tears fell anyway as if it was completely fine with having been given permission by him of all people. Your tears didn’t seem to care about what you wanted. They fell fast enough that your vision didnt even have time to get blurry. Every promise you tried to make to yourself was being dashed by Eren like a gun through wet paper. You tried to cry silently but even that seemed impossible small hiccups and gasps kept on escaping from your chest.

“You are…strong in a sense. You’re also very sweet and very weak deep down. Your walls won’t fall unless I force them too.”

It almost sounded like he was trying to consol you, but he was completely in your head. Eren was right, the protective walls you worked so hard to build for yourself were nothing but dust by him.

He pulled you in a cruel humiliating embrace and held you for a bit before kissing your tears as they fell. You didn’t hold him back at first but you shakily grip the bottom of his tunic. Strangely the feeling you had when he was chasing you, when you wanted to hide, it seemed like you could do that with him here. You hid your head in his unwavering shoulder and sobbed. Finally, you were able stop to speak. After all those times you had no response for him for all of the points he made against you.

“Just, just because I cr-“

You stop shaking your head and starting again.

“I’m not giving up. I’ll fight you.”

His voice was strong against your neck.

“I’m not through with you either. Far from it in fact.”

Suddenly one of his arms fell from your body.

He grabbed both your hands with one of his.

You lost your grip on his tunic.

He wrapped up your hands with a long piece of cloth you didn’t even know he had.

Then your back was on the ground.

He straddled you.

Your tunic was ripped open.

Eren started talking as his hands took their time wondering your torso. It all happened so fast.

“You hate eye contact don’t you? Not just dislike, it’s a hatred. I noticed you didn’t back when we were cadets.”

His fingers played along where your collarbones are and between the valley of your chest.

“You can hold it for a bit and you’ve masked pretty well before but it can become too much for you quickly. If you’re backed in a corner and forced to look, your brain can’t seem to handle processing the pressure.”

You watched his hands move as pointedly missed your breasts and nipples. Caressing up and down your sides languidly.

“Through our interactions, it’s painfully obvious you still can’t stand it. Look at me.”

You hesitate biting your lip.

He pinches your nipples and your hips buck up into him. Slowly you bring your eyes up and look at him. Your brows are drawn together. The inside of your chest squeezes with humiliation.

“I forgot. Youre sensitive here too aren’t you?”

He lets go of one of your nipples and slides his hand on your back from the space of you arching it off the ground. He slides down your lower back then to…

“Ahh! Eren! Eren! Eren! Eren!”

You feel his hand wrap around your tail. He groans at your reaction closing his eyes for a moment. Griping you tighter and tugging on your nipple.

“I know, y/n I know.”

You can’t help but squirm under him.

The pleasure is making you feel crazy again.

More tears fall when you realize you sort of need to get over yourself or you were sure you would die.

You really can’t help it.

You need him now.

Your body burned all over.

You grit your teeth, swallow your pride and open your mouth to beg.

“Eren, Eren, Mmmf… Touch, please… Eren touch mee…”

“I already am.”

You buck against him in frustration. Your pussy throbbed inside you painfully.

“Eren!”

“What is it?”

He asked like he had all the time in the world.

“Touch my, ahhmm touch…”

“Touch your what?”

Fuck he wanted you to say it. You drowned in pleasure, the way he was massaging the muscles in your tail as it squirmed in his hand. The way the pressure in your tummy built slowly but surely. He played and pinched your nipples. His thighs pressed against your hips hard as you dug your heels in the ground back and forth. He pinned you right here so you couldn’t squirm away. You were aware enough to register how pathetic your voice sounded, having to ask explicitly was just too much. Your own mind tortured you with embarrassment and he knew it did. Eren has already proven to be a patient man. He’d wait forever if you didn’t say it. You felt his touch on your tail begin to soften.

“Ahhh wait! wai…please I…Please…keep touching my tail…”

He looks down at you releasing a slow breath through his nose.

“I am.”

“Touch, Hahhn touch my tail more roughly…”

You try not to yell as loud as he grips it immediately. He raises an eyebrow at you. ‘Go on.’

Trying desperately to gather your shattered thoughts. You say.

“Please, uhmm touch, touch my pussy…”

“Look at me when you say it.”

You hadn’t even realized you closed your eyes. Your face burned and you whimpered when you finally looked up at him. He gripped your tail really hard.

“Aaahh fuck Eren! Eren! please, please mmnnh. Touch my pussy, it hurts! Please playy with mee!”

He nodded.

“Mmm.”

His hand that was playing with your nipple reaches back to slide up your skirt. Your tummy is already burning with the anticipation of his touch. You breath quickens, wishing his hand would move faster. You know he’s able to. You’d just seen him move at a mind bending speed and now he was painfully slow to tease you. You wanted him to cram his fingers inside you over and over and keep bullying your pussy after you came all over his hand. Fuck please go faster Eren! You open your legs a bit but then he says.

“Actually, I know the perfect position for a slut like you.”

He gets off you to sit on the ground between your legs and pulls you towards him. He lifts your hips in the air, your lower and mid back rests on his torso. Your ass was right in his face. Your legs had no choice but to rest at the sides of your head spread wide open. He looked right down at you and you feel tears dot the corner of your eyes. You didn’t want to cry more but you felt like you just might. You struggled against the cloth that held your hands. You really wanted to cover your face.

“N…noo don, don’t look aat it…”

It was the perfect position to play with your pussy and look down at you. This was the worst. So why was it making you feel so good? You tried not to think about how he could clearly see your asshole. The only thing that gave you ease was that he didn’t mention it.

“Hmm so this is what it looks like for people with darker skin huh? It’s throbbing pretty hard, how long has it been like this? I haven’t been touching it. Are you just that fucking horny to be hurt by me?”

A few tears slipped down as one hand rubbed your lips and the other gripped your tail. He was really waiting for you to answer.

“S-since uhhm uhh…”

It was so hard to think. You were so embarrassed. You’re arms were stuck tied up above you. Eren gave you encouragement in the form of gripping your tail again. You mumbled.

“Since you were touching me…”

A sharp slap came down on your ass.

“You’re lying. Try again.”

“Aaahh! Since you were chasin’ m-me!”

You caught the way his eyes widened for just a moment. He hummed as he rubbed you. Eren spread the wet over your vulva.

“Wow, since the beginning? You really did want to be hurt by me didn’t you, whore? Did you get turned on by being hunted down by me?”

You wished and prayed you could just get desensitized from his words but your heart lept at the way he spoke to you.

“Aaah I’m ‘m not a…”

“A whore? Well you certainly could have fooled me. You asked me to touch your pussy so urgently I thought you might die if I hadn’t.”

You couldn’t move in this position especially with how his legs held you in place. It was hard but you did manage to squirm in place a bit.

“Mmmf thas cause…mmmhh you, you made me say it…”

“Hm? I made you say it but wasn’t it true?”

He tilted his head down at you and you regret talking back. You squirm as he opened and closed your swollen lips. Eren was gonna make you say it.

“Mmmf…”

“Use your words. Answer me.”

He palmed and rolled your tail in a way that made the joints inside your tail pop.

“Oooh fuucknn…Y-yess.”

“That’s what I thought.”

He swirled a finger around your entrance feeling your wet on his fingers.

“And this…”

Gently his thumb passed over your hood applying a bit of pressure watching how you begged and pleaded. He pulled the hood back to see the head of your actual clit. You gasped.

“E-eren I, I know you’re….”

You bit your lip. How could you ask him not to directly touch your clit in a way that wouldn’t get you punished?

“Please, please if anything a-ahhmm please be gentle with that…”

“With what?”

Eren was so awful. You bit your lip. He was gonna make you say all of these embarrassing words. Your hands shook as you whispered.

“M-my clit…”

“Mmm.”

He hummed and slowly blew on it. His mouth was centimeters for your clit. You flinched throbbing hard, your walls grip and flexing around its own walls. He let your hood back down and slipped two fingers inside you. His lips covered your hood and some of your vulva. He started to suck, his fingers sliding in and out of you. You were gonna die, you really were. Your hands turned into fists and dug in the ground.

His hand left your tail and entered your mouth as you screamed and squealed. You were about to come. Eren was watching you. He was watching you. He was watching you. He was gonna watch as you came. Your orgasm stole control over your body, your eyes rolls back and your tongue spills from your mouth as your body convulses. You growl and scream biting down on his fingers as you came all over his hand, mouth and chin. He kept pumping into you during your orgasm. When it ended, your body twitched with after shocks. You flinched, as he removed his fingers he slid them over the hood of your clit. His fingers swirled around your tongue.

There was slight lucidity in your scrambled mind as your mind comes to. You realized he was holding most of your weight so your neck and shoulders wouldn’t hurt.

“Fuck, y/n. You’re not hiding your face from me again.”

Oh noo, he saw your face as you came. He hadn’t even touched you for that long and you came. You tried to shimmy away from him from the overstimulation as he tried petting your pussy again. His hand left your mouth and again pinched at your nipple.

He saw your reaction and instead slipped three fingers into your pussy. It… wasn’t like he was trying to pleasure you through. They were doing something of a…scooping motion in you? Then you saw him put all your juices on your asshole. He opened his mouth and let his drool slide down his tongue onto your ass too. He started working a finger into your ass. You wiggle your waist side to side moaning.

“Aah that, that hole isn’t-”

“What? Trying to act innocent again? You strike me as a person that would like it in your ass.”

You looked off to the side.

“That’s…”

“Did I guess right?”

One of his fingers was suddenly able to slide inside and you couldn’t even try to hold back the gross long moan that leave you wholeheartedly.

“I think I’m right.”

It felt so good. Your head swam. Your ass felt hot. Ohh your nipples…

“C’mon relax more so I can add another finger. You’ll break me if you squeezed that tight.”

Your eyes dart about.

“I, I uhh…”

His hand on your breast slid up to wrap around your throat. The pressure on such a vital part of your body strangely grounds you. You melt for him like you wanted to do when he had you against the wall.

“Push my finger out.”

“I, I caant…”

“Try.”

His face does not deviate from his lustfull neutrality but his eyes softened for you.

You concentrate and try pushing and he went even deeper. Eren was able to pick up a rythm then added another finger. So fucking good. Despite everything you felt nothing less than beautiful. Every time he was able to comfortably push his fingers in and out he added another. It took a while but he enjoyed working you over and torturing you. You reacted to every one of his movements. There wasn’t anyway you could hide from him. You were on display physically and emotionally. When he got up to four fingers, he slipped his tounge inside. You felt it moving all hot and wet inside you. God, you were gonna fucking cum again. Then he stopped, tears fell down.

“Eren! Eren! Eren! Eren! Please! ahhh…. pleeeasse….”

You were nothing but a needy little slut now. His needy little slut. As your inhibitions fell, you had no problem begging him to fuck your brains out. The headspace you were in was strange and new to you but you welcomed it with open legs. With your embarrassment out of the way, you felt like you could do anything right now. He ignored your pleas and sat motionless waiting for you to come back down from almost cumming.

Slowly, verry slowly, he removed each of his fingers so you wouldn’t cum just from him sliding out of you. You were so close from before you probably would have came if he breathed wrong. When it was just his tongue inside you left. He just looked at you and before you could start to squirm under his gaze, he gave you a harsh suck with a roll of his tongue inside you before popping out. It wasn’t enough to push you over the edge. He just wanted to fuck with you and hear that voice of yours again.

Your head was spinning when he finally let your lower body be on the ground again. You rolled over to your side. Finally able to close your legs, not that you could for long though. Eren untied his pants and slide them off as you pouted on the ground from a lost orgasm. He laid behind you and grabbed your thigh pulling it up against your side. Eren hissed as he rubbed the head of his dick on your soaked vulva.

“Even though you can’t handle it, I think you love when I talk to you like a whore.”

Your face turned red and he started to inch inside you, you moan and squeal. At his words the embarrassment started to bubble up again. You were so tight that he had to ease in and out of you a few times before being able to sink deeper. He growled the feeling of your cunt driving him up the wall.

“You love how I mess up your head and holes. Every time I wrap my hands around your throat, every time I call you a little slut. I can feel it.”

He gripped your throat and wrapped his arm around your waist and thigh drawing your bodies closer. Even though your pussy throbbed with an angry pleasure you shake your head moaning.

“Your pussy throbs against me again and again. Every time I say something filthy. Every time I look at you. You can’t take anymore but you can’t get enough.”

You feel him bottom out and start to thrust into you. He was deep and you were so full. He let got of your waist and reached up to pinch your nipple. Then bit your ear and growled into it. The rough deep sounds he was making were making your mind go blank. You just wanted him to keep fucking you and being mean to you.

“Aaaahh! Yess Eren….”

His dick smacking in and out of your pussy was making the most obscene noises. Especially as he picked up speed. Every thrust took your breath away. It felt so god that you started to cry again. The vibrations of your moans with his hand on your throat felt so goddamn good. Why did it feel so divine when Eren did such nasty things to you? The things he whispered to you were disgusting and every word was another heavenly pulse to your pussy.

“Oh nooo Erennn ahh it, I’m uh cumming cumming cumming…!”

He pulled out of you and you gasped. You felt so empty, your climax stolen from you. Your stomach ached as you sob at another loss. You can’t even say you regret telling him you were cumming, the words just spilled out of you. He was rubbing something soft cloth on your vulva, padding you and him down.

“Eren…! Please!”

“Alright, I’ll give you what you want slut.”

He buried himself inside you again and you saw stars. Somewhere in your mind you think, you get it, he was increasing the friction inside you. He was pounding you now, you would cum!

You growled your words behind gritted teeth the intense pleasure was turning your feral. You felt feeling your body brace for a big orgasm.

“Cuminn’ I’m cumming I’m cumming I’m cumming!”

He growled right back to you.

“Cum all over me. Show me that face, those sounds. Cum. Cum. Cum!”

You cum on cue drenching you both. You saw white his hand squeezed your throat as you came. Your tongue fell from your mouth. You felt him pull out and shoot his own cum all over your thigh and vulva. You heard your blood rushing in your ears and your panting when your hearing faded back in and you slowly come back to yourself. Your whole body was buzzing.

“Come here. Sit on my lap.”

You shifted yourself to help him pull your weak body into his lap. Now that you came your embarrassment had come back. Your spine sat up straight. You immediately saw this was an awful position. He could clearly see your face in this position and see your every reaction. You look down and actually see the size of him, then look off to the side. Holy…holy shit, you can’t believe you had been able to take him. Although…you had really soaked him in your own cum… Plus his cum was all over your ass.

“You’re still embarrassed. I’m surprised but I’m a little glad. You trying to hide yourself from me… I really like when I get to see your face all flustered like that…”

He lifted you easily and lined himself with your ass and slowly lowered you.

“Eren! Ahhh Eren! Ooohhff…”

You couldn’t help your instincts. Your arms struggle trying to hide your face. It was futile though your tied arms were behind Erens back. You felt him beginning to stretch your ass open, slowly entering. You arch your back, your bare chests pressed up hard and heaving against each other. You flinched and tense up. His eyes roll back a bit from the pressure.

“Now y/n, remember what I told you. Relax and try to push me out. I’m going to let your ass take me in. I’m not pushing you down.”

You push but youre having trouble relaxing under his gaze. You stammer to provide an explanation for yourself when you don’t take him in. Your heart was pounding so hard, your chest hurt.

“Uuhhm I, umm…”

“Close your eyes.”

You pout. Even if you did, you still be able to feel him looking at you.

“Just do it.”

You slowly close your eyes but don’t lose your pout.

“Stick out your tongue for me.”

You frown, your lips quivered before parting. Your tongue slips out of your open mouth. Even though you swallowed before you opened your mouth, you still feel drool fall from the tip of your tongue. He smells so fucking good. You feel him lean closer. His breath puffed against your tongue as he purrs a low.

“Mhm just like that.”

His praise only makes you moan as it sends a hard throb to your overstimulated pussy. His tongue is down your throat and you immediately start to take him further down his shaft. It feels more intense the deeper he digs into you, before the point of no return for your mind, you have an epiphany. You keep trying to push his delicious dick into you as you thought.

You realized why you hated his eye contact in particular. It was true you didn’t like eye contact in general. It felt much too intimate for you. You felt way too vulnerable. Eren’s eyes were nothing less than piercing. He saw what made you up and exactly how to tear you down. Then built you in ways you thought were lost to you. You weren’t sure what was worse, him watching your pussy seize as you came on him or him looking into your eyes and finding out every secret about you. You felt your stomach drop and your body quivers a bit. A few of your tears fall.

You were halfway down his cock when you felt him pull from you to say.

“Hey, we haven’t even gotten started. Did you already cum?”

Ah, so that’s what that was. You should think you’d recognize your own orgasm but it seems you both were learning things. Eren made you feel good in ways you didn’t know your body was capable of. That was scary since you thought you knew all there was to know about your body.

“Auhmm uh a, a little…”

“How do you, cum a ahnnm… a little?”

You felt yourself squeeze him from an already tight fit. If he made that sound again you’d probably have another little orgasm. You think you started to understand why he wanted to hear your own sounds so much, that was very much fucking hot.

“I jus… did…”

You heard and feel a rumble inside his chest. He was chuckling. You found yourself looking up at his little smile. It’s been a very long time since you saw that. Your eyes felt glossy. You could listen to it forever. Though the both of you groaned when your ass made the rest of his dick disappear into you. Slowly, he let you sit with your entire weight on him as you both adjusted to one another. He wrapped his arms around you and pulled you closer still. He leaned down again to bite your ear and growl through gritted teeth.

“Fucking, tight.”

You may have had another tiny orgasm. It was a few minutes until you both were able to start moving somewhat comfortably. You felt his heart beat against your chest. The pulse of pleasure in your ass. You jumped when he gripped that front part of your hips to move your body up and down on him.

“Ohh please, please not therre… I’ll, I’ll cum againn.”

You whined.

“Not, not here? Then how about here?”

Your clit swelled when he used one arm to lift you a bit and the other played with the hood of your clit. You shook your head vigorously drool slipped past your lips.

“Nnot there eitherr!”

He looked into your eyes as you descended further into the madness of pleasure. Whatever thoughts you had were so nonsensical warped with how good your ass and pussy were burning inside you. No thinking, no thinking. Every cell in your body felt it, they were alive and burned with a passion that would last after death.

“How does it feel huh? Being taken by me.”

You mind was fried. You tried to collect something in your head long enough to form a proper thought but it kept slipping through you.

He smacked your ass hard and yelled “Answer me! Rack that dumb brain of yours and make it work long enough to answer my question.”

You yelped and just started talking about what you thought without a filter. You physically couldn’t have one at this point. Your words slurred something serious.

“I-I- it’s embarasshing! Sho, sho embarasshing I could die…ooof I, I don wan you lookin at me h-hearin myy voishe hearing my ahhmm down there makin those noishes I’m, I’m tryin really hard to not, to be quiet but it- but I can’t help it, it, it f feels oohhh…”

You were losing steam of your stream of consciousness as he fucked your brains out, devolving into moans again but Eren was having none of it.

“Huh, how does it feel?”

He grabbed your throat to make you look at him. Your heart lept at being forcibly grounded by him as he was taking you to heaven.

“It feels sho good it hurts…feels shoo good, it feels way too gooood…”

“Should I stop then?”

He only asked not slowing down, just the threat was enough. You panic and plead.

“N- no no pleashe don stop! I can’t take it! Pleashe keep aahnn!“

He gave you a deliciously gross kiss as a reward and said.

“I suppose that’s all I’ll get out of your fucked out brain. Besides you were working that pretty head of yours overtime to try and challenge me before. You held out a while longer than I thought. You did such a good job for me.”

Your eyes could’ve turned into hearts. Your actual heart and clit felt like it would burst from your hood.

“Good? goood?”

You repeated like a happy little puppy.

“Yes, such a good, strong girl for me.”

That’s what you were! Eren said you were good! You were good for him! And strong too! You were melting.

“Yessh, yesh!”

He paced picked up slowly but there was no doubt that it was. You couldn’t hold back full screams. As he picked up the rythm, he laid you back. You two laced hands that was still tied. His other hand held your jaw so he wouldn’t miss a second of you now. You both were getting close. Your body started to seize and your moans turned to growls as pleasure heightened still. You both sounded nothing less than primal as the orgasm slowly took any control of your bodies. You would really die like this it was too much but if he stopped you would still die. The arch in your back got higher and higher, your walls squeezed and squeezed till you were literally milking him.

Burning liquid shot from him and poured into your ass. You both still thrusted erratically against each other through your orgasms getting the absolute best pleasure until you couldn’t anymore. You came for so long before your body mercifully but slowly came down. Eren pushed your knees up to the sides of you. He kept them there as he slid out of you and watched his cum ooze from your ass. You start to gain your wits about you and seeing as his hands were occupied with your legs, you look away and cover your messy pussy with your tied hands.

He sighs.

“You… don’t quit do you? This isn’t making much sense at this point.”

“Its ah, not really a feeling I can control. Besides you already saw me, you got your fill haven’t you?”

Slowly, reluctantly, he lets you go his hands sliding down the backs of your thighs and squeezing your plump ass.

“Mm I think we’ll have to try again though…”

Your legs fall and you slide your eyes over to him trying and failing to hide your curiosity and excitement.

“Eh? huh? Try…try again?”

He nods and sits back on the wall. You sit up and he makes a come here motion with a finger. You crawl over and sit between his legs and he unties your hands,

“Mhm I was in the middle of cumming too so I couldn’t get a good look at your face when you came.”

You rest your hands on his thighs and he holds your hips.

“That’s an awful excuse.”

“It’s better than the ones you gave me.”

You don’t have a response so you pout. Then you felt him slip something around your neck. You touch the soft leathery material and say.

“Ya know I was wondering where you kept pulling things from.”

He shrugged.

“Gotta be prepared. Weren’t you?”

He points down in between you two and you realize he’s talking about rinsing out your ass.

You face burns.

“Aren’t you going to ask me what’s around your neck?”

You sigh.

“Eren Jaeger, what did you put around my-“

“A dog collar.”

You face burns so hard it smarts.

“Yeah I thought you would like it. You liked being called a good girl so much.”

You change the subject.

“How am I gonna go back without a shirt?”

Of the clothes that sat behind you two, your tunic had a split right down the middle. He thought for a bit. You looked at him incredulous.

“You didn’t plan that?!”

“Not…really.”

It seemed like you did make him feel it if he did something so uncalculated for once. You smile and tilt your head at him.

“So you aren’t prepared for a everything.”

He slides his eyes over to the side and admits.

“I was not prepared for you.”

It seemed like he was referring to your feelings. Well you didn’t know he would reciprocate. It seemed you two worked, twisted as it was.

“I wasn’t prepared for you either.”

He hummed.

“I might be big but I thought you were pretty prepared. What with how wet-“

You put your hands on his mouth.

“Ahhh stop talking!!”

He just looks at you and you look away. But you look back to narrow your eyes at him. Then only drop your hands when you think he won’t say any more. You both sat in silence for a minute. You lie against him listening to one another’s breathing. For the first time in a long while both of your minds are quiet.

“I was planning on going home anyway.”

Slowly you smile.

“Our home.”

He nods.

“Our home.”

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