#tag venting ahead ig so like

[lewsvnc]

😸.

#rant/vent ahead ig #this talk about lewis and sexualisation has reeeeally just confirmed im absolutely a lesbian #it's made me realise that i am genuinely repulsed by the idea of having sex with a man #like. not just like oh i don't want to have sex with a man. but genuinely repulsed by it #my attraction to lewis is no exception #this is also related to my thoughts on reader inserts like i said before at some point #like. theres nothing objectively wrong with them (i guess?) but it makes me just. ugh #any time they come up on my for you section and i read a part of them i get soooo overwhelmed it's so uncomfortable #and anyway i only follow like 30 people on here and i try to keep away from blogs that are well... weird abt lewis #especially the ones that depict him as extremely masculine #bc that just. isn't him #my physical attraction to lewis is about 0.000001% of what i love abt him #and recently all i've been seeing is stuff abt his physical appearance including well... sexualisation #anyways idk where im going with this. this isn't directed at anyone and it's my own problem (/srs) but #being a lesbian in this fandom is uncomfortable #but then again lewis is a man lmao #and again it's not anyone's problem #ok lol im done #ig i'll tag this as #ana stuff

[ghostboyjules]

hm

#vent tags ahead ish #mental illness sucks so fucking bad #can I go a week without feeling like everyone I know hates me and like I want to cry so badly but can't #FOR NO APPARENT REASON? #like intellectually I know I'm loved and thought about. not that it doesn't feel weird to say that still ig I'm still trying to believe it #BUT at least I like. can't intellectualize that. doesn't stop my chest from feeling like a goddamn black hole tho #m'goin to sleep #jules.intothevoid✨

[ayatoscupid]

♡.

#💘.doc #💘.vent #long tags ahead! #nothing like writing a piece so dramatic to project ur problems on hghklhflgf #unfortunately it didnt bring any catharsis to me though :pensive #ive also been feeling sick the whole day thanks to my awful mood. incredible how ur mental state affects ur physical health #but anw........ i just wish i didnt feel so selfish asking for help #or asking if someone cares. i wish it didnt seem so selfish to me to have someone worry over me #idk how exactly how to describe what im feeling right now but i just. yknow? i want someone to worry over me. #i want someone to go looking for me if i go missing #to wonder where i went and come and find me and tell me to come back #ig thats bad for me though isnt it??? i should learn to seek people out #but maybe... just this once

[hiccupbutpurple]

Wip Game

RULES: post the names of all the files in your WIP list, regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous. Let people send an ask with the title that most intrigues them and then post a little snippet or tell them something about it. And then tag as many people as you have WIPS!

Tagged by: @howtowhumpyourhiccup :D

I don’t think I can realistically do that many but @reallyprofoundkryptonite @worldwhightnight @sorushing @violet-moongem @amyrafierceblade if y’all haven’t already been tagged and feel like sharing! Of course anyone who see this and also wants to participate go ahead!

Imma put all the ones I’ve at least started writing for because we’d be here all day if it was also the ideas that just have a few dot points or things. Some have actual titles some are just random description type things lol. I put the general ship name or character in the title so I can easily find it but it makes it less vague ig but eh. (Also sorry this is kinda long so I’m putting in under the cut lol.)

- How Time Has Transformed You

- To Rediscover An Old Self

- Some Things Shouldn’t Be Admired

- Preparation – Vigcup

- Tired – Vigcup

- Hiccup and Gobber self-care reminders

- Searching – Hiccstrid/Heathstrid

- Knock - Hicclegs

- Improper use of Maces and Talons - Vigcup

- Swordsmanship – Dagvigcup

- Accidents - Hiccstrid

- One inspired by entertain – Vigcup

- Room Where It Happens – Hiccstrid runaway Hiccup Au 1

- Put on a show – Dagcup

- Lusty Confidence - Hicclegs

- So You Wanna Marry Hiccup – Dagcup

- Naga Viggo one – Vigcup

- Hypnosis – Vigcup

- Love it When You Hate Me – 3 Versions (Hicclout, Vigcup, Dagcup)

- Honesty – Hicclegs

- Hiccup comes out to Gobber

- God Au drabbles (Starts with when lighting strikes) - hijack

- Finding Wounds – Hiccstrid runaway Hiccup Au 2

- Survival confessions / Hiccup tells Viggo about savages ship – Vigcup

- Heather period blood insanity – vent fic + Heather

- Projects – Hiccstrid

- Jane Doe / Heather’s soliloquy

- Borrower Au

- Venomcup Au drabbles

- Humiliation – Vigcup + Heather

- Thrall - Hiccup

- Snotlout and Small Hiccup drabbles

- Finding Trinkets – Hiccup and Toothless

- Toothless and small Hiccup

- At a Spa - Vigcup

- Making Up For Lost Time – Stoick and Hiccup

- Viggo and Hiccup + Dagur on treaty signing day

- Rock me in - Hijack / Hicclegs

- Mala/Dagur/Hiccup

- Lovefool – Vigcup + concerned Stoick

- Hard Hitting – Hicclout

- Constantly on the Mind – Hiccup

- Half Runaway Au – Vigcup

- Viggo and Hiccup in bed talking

- Sex Puzzles – Vigcup

- Forever suffering for other people - Hiccup

- Spying – Vigcup + Riders

- Ghost hunt – Riders

- Hiccup see’s ghosts

- Ride - Hiccup/Jack/Astrid

- Obstacle Courses – Zephyr and Hiccup

- Who is the hottest – Drunk Hiccup stupidity

- Survivor – Vigcup og day one fic

- When the smoke clears – Dagcup

- ‘What if I have that berserker insanity inside me?’ ‘I want that Berserker insanity inside me.’ – Dagcup + Heathstrid

- Panic attacks – Heathcup

- Paints - Nuffink and Hiccup

- Burns – Hiccup

- Tango – Vigcup

- Saviour – Heathstrid

- Expendable – Riders

- Ships and Anchors – Valka and Hiccup

#httyd #wip game #implied nsft

[mass-angel-exodus]

BYF ⚠️

-MINORS/UNDER 18/AGELESS BIOS DNI

-DO NOT repost my work anywhere outside here

- uhhh idk this is a dark fiction n$fw ish blog so ooo aaa triggering themes ahead

-L0LISH0TACONS/PED0S/ZOOS/GENERAL DNI CRITERIA GO AWAY

- DO NOT make flirtatious comments towards me if you are in a relationship idc if your partner is ok with it please don't do that

-kilbit/roxxo/sinner/silv idgaf I have so many names just call me whatever you know me by idc anymore.

- I like 2 draw and traumadump on here woohoo, also n$fw sometimes

-Current interests rn are Tcoaal, ob3y m3,Funamusea games, csm and general yandere content

-If you want to use my art as a pfp ask me for permission first and then credit me after I say it's ok

Content/Trigger warnings ⚠️

- Gore/Guro/Eroguro, 1nc3st, CNC, Mentions of various kinds of abuse, religious trauma, Purity culture and other stuff caused by whatever illness I have, the occasional psycotic episode, incoherent rambling, venting, trauma recovery?

(Not all of these are for k1nk reasons but they will be discussed/drawn)

Tags

Yanderuposting: I go fucking insane whenever I have a crush and it devolves into just violent ramblings so uhh cw ig?

anything that ends with the word posting: interests i have that aren't related to things i mainly post on here

#silv draws #silvarambles #flats #fully rendered #light shading #line art #wip #silv animates #silv animatics

[jayyyz-stuff]

i realized i haven’t done a intro so here it is ig

ok so hi you can call me jay

i am trans ftm please don’t remind me of that i know i wasn’t born with a penis💀

(pronouns)

he/him(preferred)

they/them(these pronouns are fine)

but seriously please don’t remind me i already struggle with my body image as is so reminding me that i have boobs instead of balls just makes my life worse-

i am a minor please don’t be weird about anything unless i know you irl and i tell you that you can say stuff as a joke (like my irl friend[s] can call me baby girl/boy as a joke- )

this is my vent blog if you don’t like that then just block me please

i will probably post stuff about my sh addiction depression anxiety (most likely) eds

also please note i am only diagnosed with depression and anxiety so if i use tags like “tw ana” i am not diagnosed with an0rex!a yet and same goes for bpd or any other tags i use that involve mental illnesses i am not diagnosed with

if you wanna be friends online with me then please be at least 11-15 which is around my age range

yes ik i am young if you don’t like that block me if you are older then that age range cool go ahead and follow me just don’t be a creep or you will be blocked

if i left anything out uh tell me and i will add it

(the tags i added have mostly nothing to do with this they are just tags i will probably be using in the future)

#tw ed descussion #tw s3lf harm #sh #s3lfharmm #tw self destructive behavior #tw depressing stuff #tw ana fast #tw ana mention #tw ed diet #tw ed vent #tw selfhate

[kaerichan-yatta]

Hello, dear Kaeri! I just wanted to send you a nice comment, as someone who discovered your blog today.

First, I found your blog while searching tags through Tumblr on sleep and coping with mental health. From your posts, it sounds like we share some similar problems and I'm so sorry to hear about what you go through. I know these problems aren't the type of thing that can get resolved overnight, personally I have been struggling for a long time myself, but I can tell how hard you are trying from your posts, and I genuinely wish you the best.

Second, it seems like we have some fandoms in common, too! I admire you for speaking up about your struggles while still posting fandom stuff, because I'm not brave enough to be like that. So, thank you so much for being honest about yourself and the difficult things you go through, I know it takes courage to do that, and it helps me feel a bit less alone, hopefully there will be some nicer and calmer moments ahead of you though.

I'm sending a lot of love you way, take care of yourself as well as you can, please continue to watch after your health and doing whatever is helpful for you. You seem so sweet and I hope November brings beautiful things your way.

hi anon!

thank you so much for saying the sweet words you put here, and thank you for all the good things you wished me, i really hope things cam get better for you too.

it's really difficult sometimes to get better with problems like this, and i'm sorry too to hear that you have the same struggles as me, but i lnow you can do it and get better with everything <3

on second part of the ask, about how i tell about my struggled between my posts, it's something that comes almost as a reflex.

after i kept refusing to vent with someone about problems, it immediately comes to mind to tell about struggles and/or bad moments in a public way, like a kind of "public vent". it's like i told someone about it.

i was like you until like, six months ago ig? i wouldn't tell anyone on here about my problems, but i'm sure that with a bit of patience and confidence you'll be able to vent on here too (if you want that, of course! i'm not forcing you, but if you wanted to vent about struggles like i do, this is an advice just in case ^^)

[always if you feel comfortable, if you need, I'm at your disposal if you have any problems or you want to vent. I'll tell that twice, I'm not forcing you to do it, you're free to make your own choices!<3]

thanks again for everything, i wish the best for you, anon!<33

#kaeri talking #anon asks #<3

[captainshadowshifter]

Hhahaaahahahaha depression go brrrrr

#yikes man #tag venting ahead ig so like #just keep scrolling if you dont wanna deal with my screaming into the tumblr void #bc screaming into the void is fun :) #anyway- #im really just a burden huh. #like. i feel like everyone gets annoyed at me because so many customer complaints go through me #like i know its just because im diligent and im full time and im always on floor bc im shit at behing behind the bar rn #but its very taxing that im the one who hears prolly about 85% of them #and like today it was just complaint after complaint after complaint and one set of customers were really aggressive with it #to the point that it started to feel kinda personal #anyway so i had a breakdown at work and ended up crying in front of everyone which was very not fun #not in front of the mean people though thank fuck #but like thats just the tip of the iceberg #like i know this is only a small thing but like. i dont have much motivation for art these days #so its always kinda disheartening when i manage to spend a good 3-4 hours on a drawing for it to only get like. less than 20 notes? #like idk im used to it but then theres some of my shitposts that have like 50-60 notes and its like. why? #kinda makes me want to just. not try anymore. #doesnt help that im really paranoid about sharing my au stuff #like ive been pushing past that a lot recently and it just gets kinda. ignored. #along with everything else i do #idk it feels petty but i feel like people dont want me in the server anymore and i should just.. leave. again. #anyway im probably running out of tags and i could be here for hours typing shit in here #but i should just try to get some sleep. maybe itll help. #or at least itll cut at least a couple of hours out of all this. #so um. sorry ig. if you got this far then maybe im not as alone as i feel rn (even despite not being alone at all...)

[hxrnysys]

hypersexuality + bpd be like *wants sex but doesnt feel desired enough so doesnt have sex even tho i could and then cries about it* lmfao

#this is kinda a vent but i feel like some of yall could relate so i decided to post it here instead of my vent blog lol #id prefer you not rb but if you relate ig go ahead just put in the tags not to rb since i dont want this spreading TOO much yk #nsft

[sunlezz]

HUGE VAGUE/RANT/VENT POST INCOMING

alright so… this is embarrassing smh

ive been following a rly cool artist on twitter and it was their bday today so i went ahead and gushingly wished them a happy bday, mentioning that we had been tumblr mutuals since the twdg days… and then i went and looked them up on tumblr and realized. we’re not mutuals anymore.

and it’s just like!!! ok that is fine! it’s totally fine and i understand, nobody is obligated to stay my friend and everyone is free to unfollow at any time if that’s what you want to do. but just.

i explicitly ask in my about that if we’re mutuals, that you please softblock me if u decide to unfollow. it’s embarrassing for me to continue to interact with your posts all enthusiastic and shit like we’re friends when we dont actually follow each other anymore. u know??? i have no hard feelings and i will never bear any ill will to anyone who decides to unfollow me no matter what the reason, but fck man this just feels so shitty.

and the thing is, this is not the first time this has happened, there have been MANY mutuals over the years who i’ve noticed no longer follow me, or have deactivated, and some of them have in fact softblocked which i appreciate!!! i do not believe anyone is EVER under any obligation whatsoever to explain their reasoning to me. u don’t even have to HAVE a reason! it’s fine! (and sidenote that recently i mistakenly followed somebody again after they softblocked me without realizing that OOPS they actually unfollowed so i unfollowed again right after that. but it just makes me so fcuking sad, bc i have no idea what i did to make them unfollow me in the first place!!!)

it’s just. the problem with the current situation is, this is not the first person who has unfollowed me without also softblocking me as well, and it just!!! puts me in a very potentially embarrassing situation!?!!! and ig i just dont know what im supposed to do now??? do i unfollow them too??? like fck i m at a loss here. i guess i just dont understand, why would you go to the length of pressing that unfollow button if u dont also bother pressing the block/unblock button as well?? youre already there, what’s so hard??? especially on tumblr where follower count isnt displayed, i would understand better if this was ig or twitter where everyone can see the follower/following ratio and that matters to some ppl but idk!

idk i guess i m just. paranoid and sad now bc it’s like… ok did i do something at some point that made a bunch of ppl decide to unfollow me or someth??? bc if that’s the case then again, that is fine, but please. if im fucking up or doing something that would warrant mass unfollows then i would like to know!!!

anons are welcome to weigh in here, im also going to tag this as twdg bc that was the fandom i met most of my old mutuals from and i’d like anyone who still lurks there to weigh in as well ig

idk :C lol

#tumblr #social media #telltale games #the walking dead game #twdg #the only thing i can think of that this might be related to was in the fallout from season 2 which i was very vocal about back in the day #another reason ive thought about was the fact that i am Old and i realize this #like i was looking at my old twdg tag and i had just joined tumblr as a 22 year old so i felt so inexperienced #and i was talking shit about what an old man luke is as a 28 year old and SURPRISE! IM 28 NOW HAHAHAHAHA fck #lmao #there were a lot of young kids i was following back then too like. 16 or someth and i do feel bad about that bc looking back on it now #whether or not i felt like i was on their level the fact was i was definitely an adult #and looking back i feel like it might not have been appropriate to be interacting with kids so young when i was so much older #bc they might not have known that #i mean i tried to be as transparent as ever and i never did anything appropriate as far as i know #*inappropriate #but it still bothers me bc it was a couple of these younger kids who were the ones that unfollowed me or broke mutuals #and idk i just wonder if it’s bc of something i did?????? #somebody enlighten me pls #twdg talk #man i havent used that tag in literal years lmao #about #ig #in the spirit of full disclosure etc #ttalks

[heckadoodles]

Ah hello

And another thing cause its late and im emotional

#vent in tags #vent #iiiiiii am so lonely #i think i developed a crush but not really a crush on this person ive only talked to twice #have never seen #and i only know about their interests from this website and ig #im also essentially incapable of beginning a conversation due to... well my life #so im probably never gonna talk to them #its almost definitely not a romantic crush #i think its just like... a friend crush? #like i really wanna become their friend and get to know them better #but like they seem like i could develop a romantic crush on them #just like based on our similar interests and the fact that i try to plan way too far ahead #buuuut #in their bio it says theyre ace/aro #and then in a post recently they said theyre pan/aro #so idk but im overthinking like always and none of thos matters cause i cant even talk to this person #cause im stupid and i cant handle anything #ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh #and then imagine i scream for like 10 more minutes

[memcaked]

Decorations

Source: Subarashiki kono Sekai | The World Ends With You

Relationships: Kiryu “Joshua” Yoshiya & Hanekoma Sanae

Characters: Kiryu “Joshua” Yoshiya, Hanekoma Sanae

Additional tags: Pre-game, creation story, Dead God’s Pad, also lots of hcs over joshua's phases as like a person but what do you expect of me, TWEWYTOBER, TWEWYTOBER 2020, Not Beta Read

Summary: “Producers can procure things swiftly from the Higher Plane, can’t they?” Sanae nods. “Good. I’m renovating the Officer quarters. I want toughened glass and tanks for schooling fish,” the Composer explains. “I’m thinking of a blue room, accented with white - get some wood for lengthening the baseboards. Something comfortable.”

He chews his lip. “Is this what you want?”

“Sanae, I used to stutter, I used to lisp, and you know I did. I don’t anymore.”

Beginning notes: Addendum: This was first written on October 13th, 2020 and first uploaded on October 18th, 2020. always liked the dead god's pad. pretty dope. sastify is growing on me. also trying to fit all my Big Joshy Ideas like this is a longfic and not a 800 word piece written in one day. related to the piece for food ig

Body: “Producers can procure things swiftly from the Higher Plane, can’t they?” Sanae nods. “Good. I’m renovating the Officer quarters. I want toughened glass and tanks for schooling fish,” the Composer explains. “I’m thinking of a blue room, accented with white - get some wood for lengthening the baseboards. Something comfortable.”

He chews his lip. “Is this what you want?”

“Sanae, I used to stutter, I used to lisp, and you know I did. I don’t anymore.” Something about him started changing and before he noticed it the dominos fell and fell: the swagger he carried himself with now; his stage-fright voice becoming smoothly slow; the anxious awkwardness changing into an aloof leader; how at this point, it can’t be cologne, the scent of paulownias is so strong on him; discarding his human name because Composers shouldn’t feel like their subjects.

Sanae can’t get ahead of himself, though; he needs to keep up with the demands of his Composer, especially one as freshly presumptuous as him.

-

At least the Composer has the thought to find his own furniture. Simple off-white couches pushed to the walls, a sheepskin rug thrown in the middle with an irregular glass table. Sanae smiles, asks him what he thinks.

“There’s something missing here,” the Composer stares around the emptiness, his eyes latching to a wall. “Put a bar down here. Sake and whiskey and vodka and wine.”

“Aren’t you too young for that?” Sanae tries to come from a measured position but he swears he can see the Composer’s face drop immediately.

“I can change the fabric of the UG and Shibuya entirely but I can’t have a fucking drink?” the Composer’s twisted face still can be seen through his blurry white aura he hides behind. “Did I really give up my humanity to become a Composer but apparently I still have a blood-brain barrier that’s illegal for me to get drunk on?”

When did this kid change so fast, when did he get so difficult and sharp-eyed and, “No, I wasn’t implying it was against UG law,” no, he still sees this young doe-eyed boy in the Composer, “I’m not sure if you’d know what bottles,” he’s fucking omniscient, Sanae--

“I’m fucking omniscient, Sanae.” He’d think of saying yeah, I knew you’d say that, but he feels like walking on eggshells around this such, demanding Composer. “I’d probably know them from the cellars and fridges of my old home anyway,” he continues.

Sanae starts writing the list of bottles and drinks needed in his head. “Why go through all this renovation, though?”

“This room is fucking dreadful. There are blackened sewer walls everywhere and you think the Officers can work in there? Shibuya isn’t the place I remembered it as.” The Composer opens his arms wide, waving them across the room. “I’m putting table soccer here, too,” he mutters, dropping his arms to his sides, “Fuck it. When I’m done, this will all be part of my image.” Sanae understands this is someone he needs to obey; he can’t imagine what will start from the Composer and the Higher Plane if he acts out. At this moment, he runs the brand names by the Composer even if all he wants to do is ask him by his human name and if he’s still there.

-

Wrapping his picked-skin fingers around the cup. Yoshiya takes the tiniest sips from the almost-white coffee. “My hands are too s’aky most of the time but I like fulball.”

“Boy, it’s a hoot imagining you with the NFL gear yanks wear,” Hanekoma laughs.

“Fulball!” Yoshiya mimes turning the rods with his hands. “The table, not fulball.”

“Ah! I played a mean game of air hockey as a youth,” Hanekoma nods, staring over at Yoshiya. “Get that coffee in your gullet before it goes cold. Might stop you from getting hypothermia today.”

“It’s so cold…” Yoshiya takes a slightly more substantial sip. “Uncharacteristically cold for now. We haven’t - ack, acclimb--”

“Acclimatise. Wish sometimes I could hibernate through the winter like a bear,” Hanekoma smiles, but something flashes in Yoshiya’s eyes.

Yoshiya raises his hand like he’s still in a classroom. “M’fourteen in Febwuey. Februwi. Febab,” he pushes his drink away and puts his head in his hands, “Three months. Couldn’t invite you to the party but I want to,” he mewls, “my mot’er makes it all about her a lot. I jus’ want her to give me ss’io or musrooms… not big parties of people I don’t know.”

“You’re not going to be a kid forever,” Hanekoma muses. “When you’re older, maybe we can get you birthday shio. Get away from mumma, huh?”

“Oh, I’d… like that a lot, Mr. H.” He gives that uneven, crooked smile, that admirable way he keeps a grin through all his nervousness. “I wanna keep living for that.”

End notes: i only really used yoshiya as a vehicle for unpublished childhood vent shit since a scrapped username idea was JoshuaSympathiser69. i kind of like writing him nice young boy who takes too much milk in his coffee and can't pronounce his shs and will recite poetry for you. that and im a slut for paulownia references involving josh too

#twewy #the world ends with you #joshua kiryu #sanae hanekoma #yoshiya kiryu #twewytober 2020 #fanworks #writing