#tara raeken is alive

[outcastpack]

Tara Raeken is alive in I wanna drown in an ocean of you.

"You two make me sick."

"Don't be jealous of our love Teddy."

"Trust me, you two will put me in an early grave before my heart does."

#teen wolf #tara raeken #tara raeken is alive #shes also dating erica #thiam as jasher #i wanna drown in an ocean of you fic #thiam fic

[spookyblazecoffee]

Deucalion talking to Talia: I just had a long talk with Tara and Theodore about hitting and now they are yelling “it’s my turn to perpetuate the cycle of violence” before hitting each other. Talia: You see, I had that same talk with Derek and Cora, and now they’re doing the same thing.

#Deucalion Teen Wolf #Talia Hale #Tara Raekan #Theo Raeken #Derek Hale #Cora Hale #Raeken siblings #Incorrect Raeken siblings quotes #Deucalion adopts Theo #Deucalion adopts Tara #I love how I read one (1) fic where Deucalion adopted Theo and ran with it #What do you mean 'So-and-so is dead'? No they're not they're very much alive and happy

[theoraekenapperciation]

♡ Theo Christmas Week 2023 ♡

this event is for Theo Raeken centric fan works and will run from December 20th — December 25th 2023, it can be gen works or ship, all characters & au’s are welcome! feel free to send in an ask with any questions or concerns!

to participate in this event tag your creations with #theoraekenchristmasweek23 and/or #theochristmasweek23 then tag this blog @theoraekenapperciation — please make sure to read the rules found here before posting a work for this event

Prompts : these can be mixed & matched however you please and if you don’t want to follow them that’s fine too!

Day 1 - Mistletoe — is theo caught with anyone under mistletoe? is he the one setting two people up to walk under it? is he avoiding it? did he hang it? — December 20th ♡

Day 2 - Pack Party — is this his first pack holiday party? is he hosting? how does the night go for him? is he excited about going or is he dreading it? — December 21st ♡

Day 3 - Presents Under The Tree — does theo buy everyone in the pack a present? what’s the significance to them? does he receive a present from someone in the pack? how does he react to it if he does? — December 22nd ♡

Day 4 - Pre-Canon — how did theo spend christmas before coming back to beacon hills? was it a happy time for him? is he remembering times from when his family was alive or is it from when the dread doctors were around? how does this affect theo’s mood around the holidays? — December 23rd ♡

Day 5 - Chimera Christmas — how does theo celebrate with the other chimeras? does he do something special with them? or how does he grieve his lost pack around the holidays? does he ever think about what it’d be like with the other chimeras still around? — December 24th ♡

Day 6 - Dealers Choice! — December 25th ♡

Visual Prompts:

Day 1 — Winter Wardrobe

Day 2 — Snow Storm

Day 3 — Bundled Up

Day 4 — Holiday Baking

Day 5 — Starry Night

Day 6 — Dealers Choice!

Alternative Prompts:

Alt 1 - Jingle Bells — what holiday song do you associate with theo? does he have a favorite? is he a christmas music hater or lover? do him and the pack do christmas karaoke?

Alt 2 - With Tara — does he go to visit her grave on the holidays after she’s died? was there a tradition he did with her that he still does? does he talk about her more or less around the holidays?

Alt 3 - Deck the Halls — does he hang up decorations? does he put up christmas lights or fancy scented candles? does he ask the pack to help set up whatever space he’s decided to decorate? does he hate decorations? does he want nothing to do with them?

#navigating #theoraekenchristmasweek23 #theochristmasweek23 #theo raeken #thiam #sceo #steo #maleo #scireo #thydia #thracy #thira #thissac #therica #thayden

[jjsstars]

thiamweek2023: day 2, Nightmares

|| for @thiamappreciationweek event

|| tags: post canon, talk of arguments, mentions of canon events, swearing, angst

This is the third argument they’ve had this week, it’s only Wednesday, Theo thinks he’s losing his mind. He knows logically why they’re arguing so much - it’s coming up on the anniversary of everything happening, meaning both Theo and Liam are being plagued by nightmares more than normal. The lack of sleep alone is bound to make them more irritable but throw the shared trauma on top and it’s just a recipe for disaster.

Which is why he finds himself sitting on the curb waiting for Liam to get out of the car. It’s been twenty minutes, Theo’s getting cold which he hates for a multitude of reasons, but he has to wait for Liam. He’s not going to walk up the stairs to their apartment without Liam by his side, fighting or not, he refuses to leave his partner alone in the messed up headspace he’s in.

Theo can only stare up as he waits, the night sky is dark and star covered above him, it’s peaceful. Part of him wants to say fuck it and grab Liam out of the car to show him the sky, tell him to just look for a minute, to breathe. He won’t. Liam needs to come to Theo, sometimes it’s the other way around but tonight Liam was the one extra on edge. Him lashing out wasn’t a surprise to Theo but it hurt his heart all the same, he hates seeing the other upset for any reason, he’d erase every bad memory if he could, shoulder it all himself just so Liam could be happy.

And just as Theo contemplates sending a text to Scott asking for advice, Liam’s car door pops open and he comes to sit next to Theo. His shoulders are still tense and his jaw is clenched with stress— Raeken wishes he could take the tension away the same way he’s able to take physical pain away, black veins skittering up his arms, sucking all the hurt along with them, leaving Theo a little dizzy because of the pain but he doesn’t care. He’d never care.

“I killed Scott last night.” Liam says and stares down at his sneakers without so much as a breath out of place, Theo wonders if he knows he’s gotten better at hiding his emotions. Maybe he picked it up from Theo.

“I killed Scott, you didn’t.” All it gets him is an annoyed huff.

“I would’ve. I was so close to just— god I feel like a horrible person.” Something twinges in Theo’s chest, Liam feels this amount of guilt for something he didn’t even do, how’d he ever react to hearing all that Theo’s done? Sure he’s shared bits and pieces but never all of it, he can’t even remember all of it, it makes his hands shake. Liam shouldn’t be the one drowning in guilt, it should be Theo, it is Theo, but he’s not as outward about it and that only makes him feel worse.

“I mean- fuck- I would’ve killed Scott, he’s like the best person I’ve ever met, he’s so good it actually annoys me sometimes. And- and I would’ve killed him, if Mason didn’t show up- fuck.” Liam drops his head into his hands, Theo thinks he could throw up on the spot. He tries to remind himself that this isn’t about him, it’s about Liam, he’s struggling, he needs Theo to be there for him— Theo needs to get over himself. He’s not sure it’s working.

“You didn’t, Scott’s alive, he’s okay.” Okay and somehow tolerating having Theo around, he’d say he has absolutely no idea how Scott’s able to do it but he does, just like Liam said— Scott’s good, so fucking good that he doesn’t even hate Theo.

“It’s like every time I go to sleep the worst moment of my life plays over and over again, it just gets worse, I kill him. I kill him over and over and over— it makes me want to bash my head off a wall.” Dunbar scrunches his hands in his hair and curls farther down on himself, staring at the ground like it’ll lead him straight to hell. Theo looks back up, refusing to think about Tara ripping his heart out, refusing to acknowledge his trembling hands and teary eyes.

“Fuck this- I’m going to Scott’s.” He stands and is back in the car before Theo can say anything back- he doesn’t know what he’d say anyways -he watches as Liam pulls away without a second glance to where Theo sits. He gets it, he’s the last person that’d be any real help in this situation.

Minutes pass, maybe hours, Theo doesn’t move. His hands are numb and lips cracked in the cold air, he keeps staring at the stars, getting lost in his guilt as he does. And when he does stand to go inside, without Liam at his side, knowing he won’t get an ounce of sleep, he thinks he deserves it. All of it- but especially this, because Liam’s the only person to ever look at Theo like he’s worth something and maybe after tonight he won’t, maybe Scott will finally talk some sense into him and Liam will realize all over again that Theo is just what the dread doctors wanted him to be— a monster, nothing more.

#thiamweek23 #thiamweek2023 #thiam #liam dunbar #theo raeken #teen wolf #jj moodboards #jj writes

[pansexual-puppy-pack]

theo didn't cry. he didn't when he watched his sister die, when he abandoned his parents. he didn't when he killed, nor when the dread doctors finally dropped dead. he didn't when he killed the two members of his pack who actually wanted to be there, or when he was freed from the skinwalker prison and realized that tara wasn't still alive.

theo doesn't cry. he doesn't when the cops wake him up for the fifteenth time this week, when he actually has a real conversation with a random stranger who doesn't know him or what he did. he doesn't when an old lady asks him what his favorite kind of candy is, or when he sees an older sister take care of her younger brother.

theo won't cry. he won't when will liam take his hand for the first time, dragging him out to the lacrosse field to teach him how to throw and catch. he won't when corey and mason don't insult him for the whole time like they promised.

theo raeken does not cry. he won't.

#my posts #theo #teen wolf #theo raeken #xoxo !!!! #liam #mason #corey

[theroyalsavage]

heyoo!! sorry this is kind of an annoying ask so feel free to ignore but I loved all your thiam fics and they characterizations you have for everyone especially theo is so spot on and perfect so I was wondering if you could do a character analysis on any of them?

hi anon!! thanks so much for your kind words! i’m 99% sure this unhinged rant is not what you were hoping for but bestie my professors chose violence this week and my brain is made of soup so please. bon appetit

i really think the thing that's so compelling to me about theo is how fundamentally his character arc captures the themes of change and redemption that are at the center of teen wolf's dna as a show.

pretty much as soon as his betrayal is revealed in 5a, theo's framed as a figure whose very survival has itself become a selfish act. tara's heart is an obvious and visceral symbol of what he's taken from others in order to survive, but her death is also a direct parallel to what he does to tracy and josh, and what he tries to do with scott. like corey and mason and the rest of the chimeras, theo is a victim of the dread doctors - perhaps even more so. he was a child, taken from his family, raised in an unloving and unsympathetic environment for almost ten full years. as a result, his primary defense mechanism has become a twisted sort of ambition. gain more power, and no one can hurt me. gain a pack, and i won't be alone anymore. become an alpha, and i’ll never feel helpless again.

in 6a, after he's brought back from superhell (rip), theo immediately declares himself to be the same person he was before he was sent away. joke’s on him, though, because within three episodes he’s actively sacrificing his life for someone for the first time that we're aware of. when he throws liam into the elevator and stays to hold off the wild hunt, there is absolutely no reason to believe he’s getting out of there alive. nobody else has up to this point. s5 theo wanted liam to kill scott - kill his alpha and his friend, scarring himself permanently in the process - so that theo could kill liam and gain both of their power. s6 theo, unprompted, makes the choice to put his own self-preservation on the backburner in order to give liam the chance to survive another day. setup, meet payoff.

i really think a lesser show might've killed him there - redemption complete, a selfish existence thrown on its head and then ended. when it’s not doing the Absolute Most, though, teen wolf actually kind of slaps really hard. so instead, we get s6e10 the wolves of war (complimentary). this episode is a mess and i understand why people have issues with it, but i'm a wolves of war apologist just because of theo's final scene in the hospital. that shit is such immaculate character work. i cannot shut up about it. s6e10 tells us that what theo needed to be redeemed was never to die for someone - it's to fight with someone, to live with someone, to reframe existence and life and growth in terms of support and mutual benefit instead of selfishness. theo’s able to take gabe's pain, in the end, because he's no longer putting his own self-preservation first. but he doesn't need to die to prove that - instead, he fights at liam's side, and eases gabe's pain as he dies, and proves his survival does not have to be a selfish act.

theo proves the point scott’s been making for the whole fuckin show. he's not only capable of change, but he does it - and he does it because he decides to. because he finds something - someone - worth fighting for. it doesn't erase the things he's done, but it does recontextualize them. i believe that in life we do the best we can with what we're given. theo was given tara's heart and a chimera's body and then - finally - liam's outstretched hand. good is a verb, not an adjective. theo is redeemed because he's given the opportunity to, and because he actively seizes that opportunity.

theo raeken is when dove cameron said “so you wanna talk about power? / well, let me show you power.” and when mitski said “open up your heart like the gates of hell / you stay soft, get beaten. / only natural to harden up.” and when khalid said “sister, sister, please know that i’m sorry; / i wish you could’ve stopped me.” and when mary oliver said “you do not have to be good... / you only have to let the soft animal of your body love what it loves.” and when rina sawayama said “i’m trying to be normal / but trauma is immortal... / i don’t wanna be a monster anymore.” and when silas denver melvin said “you are not as damned as you think you are.”

#anons #oooooh boy theo raeken u live rent free in my cranium #he's like a marble inside the pringles can that is my skull and the universe is shaking it vigorously #i didn't even mention this but cody christian is fuckin phenomenal in this role. he did what he had to do he gave what he had to give. #i got a lot of shit to say about liam too but like. i've subjected you to enough here #sorry this is absolutely unhinged and also if this isn't want you had in mind anon dsfjghgk i have 400 pages of reading for this week #if i see another acronym my brain is going to implode on itself

[sunel0]

First Kill

A late SteoDay entry @steoevents

You can read it on AO3

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Archive Warning: No Archive Warnings Apply Category: M/M Fandom: Teen Wolf (TV) Relationship: Theo Raeken/Stiles Stilinski Characters: Theo Raeken, Stiles Stilinski, Tara Raeken, Allison Argent, Tracy Stewart Additional Tags: Vampire Theo Raeken, Hunter Stiles Stilinski, Adopted Stiles Stilinski, Allison Argent & Stiles Stilinski Are Siblings, Enemies, Non-Consensual Blood Drinking, Blood Drinking, Seven Minutes In Heaven Game, Tara Dies, Murder, nothing really happens they just get obsessed with killing each other Words: 7329

***

Theo was standing in front of the mirror in their ridiculously big, ridiculously bougie, and ridiculously light entrance hallway, staring down his own reflection, checking to make sure his fangs weren't showing. Which he could feel they didn't do, but he did need to do something.

Soon Tracy was going to pick him up for school, which he found unbelievably annoying, but then he did drive his truck into a tree, so it was mostly on him that it needed fixing right now.

He sighed, impatiently checking his phone.

Tracy was running late, which meant he was running late.

Tara slid behind his back, as if he couldn't hear her coming in her heels on their fancy floor a mile away, putting a hand on his shoulder in one smooth motion, placing her chin on the other, looking at both their reflections.

"Are you nervous your little girlfriend will figure out you're planning to snack on her?" she turned her head to the side, letting out a tiny laugh that purposefully sounded like silver bells or something, because she was the perfect little heiress to the family. "Literally."

Theo rolled his eyes. He was so glad sometimes that he wasn't a girl and didn't stand a chance at having a place in the vampire hierarchy. If something were to happen to Tara, the responsibility was going to go to their cousin, not Theo, since he was a guy. Which was bad for the family, Theo guessed, loosing the status and all. 

"It's not going to be her."

It was Tara's turn to roll her eyes, looking as annoyed as Theo felt.

"I don't get you. She's a perfectly fine mark, and you need to get your First Kill soon, Theo," their eyes met in the mirror. "It's not something you can put off for too long," she said with intention, as if talking to a toddler who didn't understand why one shouldn't play with an electric socket.

She patted his shoulder and left, leaving him even more annoyed.

He knew perfectly well that he had to kill someone soon. He wanted to. He had been waiting for this since he could walk, basically. He felt the burn of it in the back of his throat pretty much all the time even with the pills.

But he also knew that Tracy wasn't it. He wanted his First Kill to be perfect. It couldn't just be anyone. But he didn't know who it had to be yet, he didn't see anyone who would be what he wanted.

He just knew that he would know when he needed to know. And Tara rushing him wasn't going to do anything. Theo didn't even exactly understand why she was rushing him. The thirst wasn't getting super bad (maybe just yet), the blood pills their parents got him worked fine; he wasn't female, so he wasn't in waiting for the crown of vampire royalty, even if they didn't really have any kind of proper governing structure or anything in place. He didn't really matter that much in the grand scheme of powers his mother and sister cared the most about.

There was a honk from the outside.

"Your little friend is here," Tara almost sang from the living room, as if Theo wasn't literally standing by the door. "Still alive," she added in an exaggeratedly sad voice.

Theo almost growled, throwing the door open with Tara's infuriatingly ugly laughter following him out.

***

Stiles got out of his car. More like fell out, but whatever.

"I just don't get it, like, we've trained basically our whole lives. Well, you did, but still, I've done enough, too. Why can't we go hunting with them?" he complained, throwing his hands up, accidentally sending his car keys flying.

Allison looked up at their new school, covering her eyes from the sun, while he scrambled to pick them up.

"No, I totally agree, but I also think that maybe dad and Kate know better? Since, you know, they went through this exact thing and everything."

Stiles made a vague noise. They had this argument hundreds of times by now, both with their dad and aunt and without them. On one hand, yeah, maybe it was a safety thing, maybe they weren't ready or something. But on the other…

They have been training for so long, and when Stiles - an overly traumatised and overly excited seven-year-old back then - learned that he was getting adopted into a monster hunter family, he sure as hell had hoped for some monster hunting to happen eventually. And that was ten years ago. He wasn't that far from being an adult. Maybe he should be allowed to stab an undead thing here and there? Just a little bit. As a treat.

So while Allison may be willing to comply with what their dad said (and what their mom used to say), Stiles was going to kill something. Soon. He was going to get his First Kill in this town. He decided.

So he probably didn't have much time. No one knew how soon they were going to have to move, it was up to the Hunters' Guild. Stiles had better figure it out soon. It didn't have to be something big. Just a little zombie or something. 

He finally retrieved his keys and looked up at the school as well. It was huge (especially for a town of this size), and bright, and somehow way too pretentious looking for a public school, really. The sun reflecting from the banner with the school football team's name (Stiles guessed it was football) was almost blinding.

"Okay, whatever. Do you have a scheme or something? Because this place is huge."

Allison sighed and took out her phone.

***

Theo was laughing at something one of the guys on the lacrosse team said, sitting up on the table, his feet on the chair, when he smelled something.

Something that caused the world around him to go bright red like it caught fire, and his all senses to become almost painfully sharp, his throat closing up with thirst. He had to squeeze his eyes shut, his hand gripping the edge of the table under him until it was almost painful.

Everything was so much, all at once, and he was so, so, so hungry, and there was so much food around him, and he felt his fangs press against his lower lip. 

He couldn't… he needed…

He couldn't think. He just needed. What did he need?

He needed his pills. That was it. He was not about to ruin his First Kill by accidentally losing control. It was not happening.

His First Kill or his whole family's lives, actually.

He forced himself to let go of the table, then he dug around in his backpack by his side blindly, almost throwing it off the table, until he felt the little container with the very red capsules, almost dropping all of them onto the floor in his haste to rip the bottle open. 

As soon as he felt the cold metal taste of the blood from the capsules cover his tongue in one thick explosion, the red in his eyes dissolved slowly like fog in sunlight, like the cover of the pill did in his mouth. He drew in a loud breath.

Josh made a compassionate sound from somewhere to Theo's left.

"Migraines are rough, bro."

Theo grunted in something resembling agreement, slowly peeling his eyes open. 

Only to see a pair of brown ones staring at him, squinting slightly, suspicion in them clear as day. The sunlight from the huge window to the right made them look almost golden, like that fake liquid honey in those dumd squizzy bottles; those damned lashes looked like they were borrowed from a calf.

And that was when Theo knew. He felt a smirk slowly sneak its way onto his face. That was his person.

He knew who his First Kill was going to be.

"Who is that?"

Tracy, sitting in the next row, turned around, looking where Theo was looking.

"No idea," she turned back to painting her nails, disinterested.

Well, Theo was going to find this out. It was probably polite to know the name of the guy he was going to murder.

***

Stiles watched Theo Raeken from the bleachers. He and Allison were currently having to endure watching a lacrosse practice, purely for job reasons.

Only job reasons.

The fact that the guys looked mostly nice totally didn't do anything. And it absolutely wasn't as if Stiles actually liked sports.

Really, he wasn't on any teams just because they were moving around constantly, so there was no point.

"Look, there actually are painkillers that are pink, maybe he really has migraines?" Allison asked, showing Stiles a picture of a pill on her phone. "Or maybe he's a drug addict and needed his dose," She shrugged.

You know, like rich kids do casually, hung in the air.

Stiles turned to stare at her.

"So this sounds more plausible for you than the simple explanation of him being a vampire? And the pills were way more bright red than these are anyway. They were blood red, you know," he waved his hand at his sister and turned back to squinting at Theo on the field.

Only to immediately avert his eyes, totally inconspicuously, almost falling off the bench when he saw Theo squinting back at him. 

Theo smiled and waved in all of his jock glory.

Stiles was totally not looking at him anymore.

Allison raised her eyebrows at him.

"Do you actually think he's a vampire or do you just need a reason to stalk the guy?"

Stiles actually fell over in his haste to stare at her accusatory and indignant. Like he needed a reason to stalk anyone. He could stalk whoever he wanted whenever he wanted.

And anyway…

"I have taste, actually, and he's… he's…" Stiles made a face and a gesture roughly in the direction of where he presumed Theo was on the field.

Because he wasn't looking.

Allison's eyebrows climbed even higher.

"Not your type?"

"Yeah!" the skepticism in Allison's eyes made him backtrack a bit. "Well, okay, that's a lie, but I'm not having a… crush on a vampire or something! Objectively, he's attractive, but that's it."

They were so lucky there was hardly anyone on the bleachers, so they didn't really need to lower their voices. He was grateful that vampire super-hearing was only a thing of legends.

He found Theo on the field again with his eyes, shit-talking some other guy on the team, by the looks of it. Allison might not believe him, but Stiles was going to prove all of them that he was right.

And get his First Kill in the process.

***

The party seemed like an easy way out. There are ways to get people away from other people even if they weren't that into you, and Theo knew all of them, of course. After hearing that there was a party happening already, he made sure that Stiles got invited as well, watched it happen. He didn't even have to organise anything. He didn't have any guarantees that Stiles would show up, though, but Theo was willing to take these odds.

Now he was standing in the living room, his usual entourage around him, keeping up the sound bubble around him while he scanned the room almost restlessly, waiting for Stiles to show up.

For now, he chose to ignore the possibility of this not happening.

Eventually, when Theo had to go get his glass of mostly juice refilled (he knew he wasn't going to get actually drunk, his body couldn't absorb human food that well, but it was going to have some effect, and Theo wanted to remember every single second of this night crystal clear) and almost went to do it (it was annoying to get through all the people), he noticed Stiles and his sister. Theo couldn't remember her name; she was also very pretty, and betting on her was probably safer in terms of how easy it would've been to get her away from everyone, but Theo knew what he wanted.

He jumped off the closed grand piano he was sitting on, turning to Tracy.

"You know what, this is getting boring," he stretched a bit, lazily. "Maybe we should arrange a game or something. Seven minutes in heaven?" He said distractedly, knowing full well Tracy was going to jump to organize whatever he mentioned.

"Oh yeah, totally," and she was off somewhere in the crowd looking for people and a place.

Getting into the kitchen to refill his juice, he found Josh there.

"I heard Tracy was arranging some game. Should we invite the new guy? Get to know them better and everything, you know," a lazy smile definitely got his point across.

After ticking off this point of his plan, making the cogs of the party move and the clock tick its way to the hour of First Kill, Theo moved forward.

In one of the upstairs bedrooms (he felt kind of annoyed about this, he had wasted some time looking) he found Lucas.

Leaning against the wall, the picture of casual disinterest, Theo took in all the weed on the blue duvet.

"You heard Tracy is organizing something downstairs?"

Lucas nodded slowly. His pupils were huge. Maybe there was not just weed here, actually. Theo didn't know and didn't care.

"Gonna go down in a minute."

Theo almost nodded, satisfied, but stopped himself. He knew he could trust Tracy to work quickly.

Lucas did the rest of the work for him. He smirked suggestively:

"Anyone you're hoping to get?"

Theo shrugged, feigning lazy interest.

"The new guy seemed cute."

Lucas laughed a bit.

After a moment, Theo left.

Now he just needed for Stiles to agree to the game.

***

Stiles almost sighed in relief when that girl that he had seen around Theo (Allison thought her name was Tracy) invited him to that dumb game.

Who the hell was even still playing it, especially in high school? But it definitely was a great way to at least try to get Theo alone with just a little bit of luck.

Which he made sure was going to be on his side by stealing a little amulet from his father's stash of witch-hunting trophies.

A small circle gathered around the kitchen island with the bottle placed as a central piece. Stiles wasn't sure what exactly the rules were, but he guessed it was intuitive enough.

Of course Theo and several of his little pack of small town cool kids were across from Stiles. He still felt betrayed that Allison had ditched him to go talk to some guy with a jaw very noticeably to the side, but then he guessed it would've been kind of awkward to play something like this with a sibling.

Anyway, Stiles was here now, looking at the admittedly attractive smirk on the admittedly handsome face of the admittedly hot Theo Raeken (he knew what he was doing with this pink sweatshirt).

Also known as Stiles' future First Kill.

Someone was talking around him, but Stiles wasn't listening. All his thoughts were about how Theo was going to perish into dust with Stiles' silver dagger in his heart and how he was going to get the traditional Argent hunter bullet tattoo afterwards. He guessed it was going to hurt, but he couldn't wait. He already knew what design he wanted.

Stiles snapped back when someone spun the bottle. He forgot to listen to the rules they used here, but it probably wasn't that different from everyone else's.

The bottle spun and then started to slow down.

Stiles could feel Theo still smirking across the table, so full of himself (and, probably, others, or at least their blood), it was almost annoying.

Theo was watching him, too, Stiles could feel it. He guessed it was a good thing for this particular situation that he managed to capture the attention of the local Main Asshole.

The bottle between them stopped.

***

Theo felt like cackling on the inside. The bottle did what he needed it to do even without Lucas' intervention.

It looked like everything in this game was on his side.

He knew he was probably going to get in trouble for that (he was going to be the last person seen with Stiles when they would find the body, after all) but he knew Tara was going to help him out.

His First Kill was a big family occasion even though he wasn’t an heir. Pureblood traditions and all.

He slid a finger along one of the shelves, walking into the huge pantry after Stiles, and while he did manage to keep his glee quiet, he could still feel a smirk tugging on his lips. At least it wasn’t the fangs. Yet. He could feel it coming, making him feel giddy.

"Who the hell needs to have that much food?" asked Stiles, looking around and scrunching up his nose.

He looked adorable in his little red hoodie.

This was like a fairytale or something.

Theo shrugged, eyes not leaving Stiles even for a second. He could attack him right now and be over with it.

But where was the fun in that?

He came closer, every move deliberately slow, like with a snake, so it wouldn't see you.

"Well, rich people, I guess. Ours is smaller, though" because they used it just for decoration, really.

But this one was really kind of bizarre, why was there a window at all? Wasn't this counterproductive?

Stiles just looked at him.

"Or people who believe in apocalypse."

Theo nodded. He knew how to keep up a polite small talk while waiting for the dinner to be served.

"Or those."

There was a beat of silence. Stiles huffed, impatient.

"So, are we going to do anything or just stand around?" he asked, his tone just shy of business-like.

Theo let out an involuntary laugh. 

"You sound so eager, I'm almost insulted," he stepped closer, stopping just on this side of invading Stiles' personal space, of crowding him against the shelves. 

Stiles rolled his eyes at him.

"Okay, I'm sure at least three quarters of the people around here who are attracted to guys would fall over themselves to be in my place, but I've moved around too much to do that. Every school has someone like you, and all of you are assholes, and I’m too much of one myself for our personalities to be compatible in long term, and I’m a long term kind of guy."

Theo wasn’t sure if Stiles took a breath anywhere in this little triade, and he was sort of impressed. Maybe it could've been fun to keep Stiles around for a bit. See what else he could hold his breath for.

He stepped closer, now positively overstepping a boundary, smiling at Stiles in the sweetest way he could manage, his oh she actually has a curfew, but you're such a nice boy, of course you can bring her back after midnight smile.

"So… you don't want to make out with me?"

Stiles made a face at him.

"I didn't say that."

He grabbed Theo's shoulder, pulling him in, close, putting their mouths together.

Theo couldn't for the life of him describe what the kiss had felt like. He guessed it was a kiss.

What he could describe was the feeling of a heartbeat just under his thumb on Stiles' warm neck. 

Theo let his lips slide down, leaving a kiss on Stile's jaw, before getting to his neck, fangs just scraping the sensitive skin for a second.

Stiles moved in his arms, one of his hands leaving Theo’s back for a second.

Theo pushed his fangs in, the metallic taste immediately making him forget about the party going on outside. For a second his whole world became the fresh, warm, warm, warm blood on his tongue.

And then he felt something sharp against his chest, and it burned, and he stumbled back.

There was a dagger in his chest.

He looked up at Stiles, not quite comprehending.

"You… fuck…"

Stiles looked at him, weirdly, pressing a hand against his neck.

Everything swam in front of Theo's eyes, and then the fire alarm went off, and everything went black.

***

Stiles bullied Allison into not telling anything about the party and what happened to their father (or to Kate, which was more likely; they had always been close, but after Victoria's death they became even closer; also, it was probably weird that Stiles was calling Chris his dad, but Victoria would always remain Victoria because she died before Stiles felt ready to call his adoptive parents mom and dad). He wanted Theo's disappearance to hit the news before he would say anything.

He could see it in his head (half-delirious right now with the lack of sleep right now, and he didn't even know why he slept so bed, it was like he was having some weird dreams), how he was going to be all smug about it because he got his First Kill without anyone's help.

Well, almost. Allison did cause the fire alarm to go off, so in the general chaos no one would notice him sneaking out.

He was probably going to be questioned about Theo's whereabouts, but there was no body to be found, and it's not like he realistically could've had an opportunity to do something to it between them going into that pantry and him appearing next to his car and making sure to cause a whole commotion so the most people would see him being there.

Without any traces of fang wounds that definitely should've been there, but he was going to research this on his own time. He felt it. Even Allison didn't need to know he got bitten.

Anyway, it wasn't enough to turn him, that he was sure of, so he was probably going to be fine.

Most likely.

Possibly.

Maybe everything is different with purebloods.

He pressed a hand against his neck where he could still feel Theo's warm mouth.

He was probably going to need to stop ignoring whatever the teacher wanted to inform him about.

He heard a door behind his back open.

"Sorry, I overslept."

Stiles tensed up immediately and felt Allison whipping her head to look at him, eyes probably all huge.

Because the point of yesterday's plan was to make sure that this voice was never going to sound out loud again.

"Mr. Raeken, oh, it's alright, it's just a couple of minutes, go sit down," said the teacher, smiling at Theo like he was her favourite grandchild.

Stiles watched Theo walk by him, stared at his back when he sat down two rows in front and diagonally from Stiles.

This shouldn't be possible. He used a silver dagger, he had seen his father kill vampires with it before, it worked, Stiles was sure of this. Did he do something wrong? Did he not pierce the heart? Fuck, be was so fucked now.

Theo laughed quietly at what the guy next to him said, and then turned around, his smile morphing into a smirk when he caught Stiles staring.

Stiles looked into his sparkling blue eyes, and suddenly felt threatened. Now there was actually something dangerous in there, not just an asshole jock.

Now he wasn't safe.

He did ended up just teasing a bear in spring, didn't he? But how did it not work? What did he do wrong? Where was his mistake? Stiles' mind was all over the place now, and he couldn't understand what he did wrong.

Allison was tugging on his sleeve, trying to get his attention.

Theo winked at him and turned back around to the teacher.

"Stiles, we're screwed," Allison whispered urgently.

It was so nice of her to be willing to take the fall with him.

***

Theo rubbed his forehead. He just took a pill, and the world around him was slowly becoming less red.

This was not helping his general level of annoyance.

More like rage, really.

He still couldn't exactly wrap his head around the fact that not only Stiles turned out to be a hunter (who the hell else would have had a silver dagger just laying around), he also figured Theo out just like that and ruined his favourite sweatshirt.

Not it was a matter of… honor, Theo guessed, or whatever. Who the fuck Stiles thought he was, trying to kill Theo like that.

Not that he could actually kill a pureblood vampire like that, mind you, so obviously Stiles didn't know his hunting theory too well, but this was not Theo's problem.

Also, Theo had slept like shit last night.

Tara watched him from the door of his room where he was sprawled on top of the duvet.

"You know you need to kill someone soon, right?"

Theo grunted in response. He had no patience for her right now.

He could feel her rolling her eyes at him.

"It can't be your picture-perfect First Kill or whatever you got in that big head of yours, okay? It's just something you have to do, otherwise you're just going to lose control one day and give away all of us, you dumbass."

Theo thought about Stiles' blood in his mouth. About a knife in his heart.

"It's going to be what I say it's going to be, fuck off," he sat up. "It's my First Kill, I'm going to decide how and when it's going to happen, and it's absolutely none of your business. Also, get out of my room!"

Tara stared at him, full of indignation.

"The hell, Theo? You are literally setting all of us up. You have to think about the family's safety, not just yourself! I get it, it must be a complicated concept for you to grasp, but maybe it's time to fucking learn that the world doesn't revolve around you!"

"I know that!"

Tara threw her hands up.

"Is this about the guy that stabbed you? I'm going to deal with it, it's fine, you don't have to arrange your little revenge thing!"

Theo gritted his teeth. Of course she was going to handle it, she was supposed to prove that she was going to be a good little heiress and could keep this family safe.

Theo hated the fact that he was so screwed up last night, he actually told her everything.

She could handle everyone else. Stiles was Theo's.

"You're not touching Stiles. Now, fuck off!" He threw a pillow at her.

Tara caught it with ease, rolling her eyes, closing the door and taking his pillow with her.

"You're such a baby, Jesus."

***

Stiles absolutely hated going grocery shopping. Especially after he had spent the night having a very bizarre conversation with Theo Raeken. In his dream. His subconsciousness could be so unbelievably annoying sometimes. He guessed it had this in common with Theo.

Anyway, he felt awkward with other people knowing what he was buying for some reason. But he was actively trying to get on his dad's good side before he told him he might have totally told a vampire family that they were hunters and had completely zero ideas about how to fix it.

He didn't even know why Theo didn't die. A silver dagger into the heart was how it was done, Stiles was sure of it. He heard sizzling when it went into Theo's chest, so that must mean it did do something, just not what he needed it to.

So Stiles was probably in deadly trouble now, and so he wanted to mitigate the damage as much as he could.

He also didn't have much time, so he needed to tell his dad soon. Preferably yesterday, but he blew that chance. However, he didn't think the vampires were going to wait long. Even Theo in his dream said something along these lines. Which meant Stiles knew, but he also really didn't feel like catching the hell that he was going to get when he told his dad. Even if it was deserved and the least of his worries right now, really.

Now he wasn't going to get to officially kill anything until he was like 30. Practically ancient.

He walked out of the shop with his bags and almost dropped them while trying to get his keys, as per usual.

He felt even shakier today than he normally did, that dream last night felt so weird, it was still screwing with him.

It was kind of Friday evening, so there wasn't much place in the parking lot in front of the shop or in the street, so he had to park in the back alley, which was sort of convenient as he could put his bag on his knee against the wall to make it a bit easier to reach his pocket.

He heard heels clicking on the asphalt behind him, but didn't have time to turn around and look, as someone pressed on his neck, forcing him to lean his head to the side, and then there was sharp pain in his neck.

Familiar pain.

He tried to make a sound, and the person behind him (he could only tell that they had kind of small hands and were shorter than he was) hummed gently, as if to say "shh", and then he lost consciousness.

***

"I think your sister just kidnapped me," said Stiles, frowning.

Theo scoffed.

"She wouldn't."

Theo was lying. She totally would. He could even kill Stiles on the family's behalf. 

Theo really had to get going with his plan, Tara wouldn't wait much longer.

"Yeah, no, I'm pretty sure that's exactly what happened, and now I'm dreaming about you again," Stiles sat down on the fallen tree trunk.

They were in what looked like an abandoned garden. Everything was kind of rotten. Theo didn't know why his subconsciousness was doing this. Also, it wasn't Stiles dreaming about him, it was Theo dreaming about Stiles.

"No…" Theo didn't have time to finish.

A bird flew right over his head, screaming like it was insane. Like the birds did around here.

It wasn't in the dream, though. So he woke up.

Blinking awake, he looked at the pool and considered it. Maybe trying to do his homework outside wasn't his brightest idea.

It's not like it was hot enough for the pool. It's just that it symbolized everything that annoyed Theo about trying to concentrate outside, which was primarily the noise, which wasn't apparently stopping him from falling asleep.

Everything made a fucking noise. Birds in the neighbour's little garden. The trees and the bushes. The insects.

The fucking pool and the fucking wind.

But he kind of failed to concentrate in his room as well. He kept thinking about Stiles' mouth under his lips. About the slightly rough skin of his neck under his teeth.

About his blood on Theo's tongue.

Theo slammed his textbook in his lap shut.

He had been this fucking close to his First Kill, he had to get it now. There was literally no other option. The fucker had to die, and Theo was going to be the one to do it. Maybe that was going to stop these weird dreams.

Like hell Tara would just kidnap anyone.

Anyway. If before Theo might have considered letting it go in case of a failure, after that dagger pierced his skin there was just no other option for him. Stiles was going to be his first, and that was it. As simple as this.

He might need to really hurry up though, there was always a possibility that the hunters wouldn't stay to actually try to destroy Theo and his family but choose to run, and then it was going to be a hassle to deal with. Also, there was Tara.

Theo couldn't really go away chasing someone right now, he had school. Tara, however, could do whatever the fuck she wanted.

He heard the sound of heels clicking on the tile around the pool and rolled his eyes. He knew this sound anywhere. That was just what he needed right now. Tara and her bullshit.

"Fuck off," he didn't even look up at her, slamming his textbook again, this time open, the edge jamming into his thigh, in order to scowl at it like he was actually reading it.

Tara laughed her silver bell laugh.

"Still being a huge baby, I see. Come, I have a surprise for you."

"Go away."

"No, come with me, it won't take too long, I'm sure you'll be finished really quickly," she said with a weird intonation and laughed again.

There was something in her tone that suggested that there was a nice virgin girl waiting for him in the woods to do whatever he desired to, or something.

Theo scowled even deeper. He wanted Stiles, not that.

Also, like hell he would be finished quickly.

"No."

Tara almost stomped her feet, Theo could feel it.

"Come on, you're literally not doing anything, just sulking here because you got too bored sulking in your room."

Jesus, his sister was so annoying, he would make a great heiress.

"You'll like it," she added.

Theo squized his eyes shut for a second.

Okay, Tara wasn't leaving him alone apparently. It was easier to give in, he knew it, he grew up with her. He closed his textbook again with a sigh and stood up, tossing it on the lounge chair he had been on.

"Okay, whatever. I don't have much time," that was mostly a lie if one didn't consider thinking about the ways to get to Stiles a hobby.

Which it was. Theo was going to go into town to try to stalk Stiles out today. He was working on his hobby, he didn't have time.

Hunting was a hobby, right? So were specific types of hunting.

Tara smirked at him. He felt that familiar almost rage at the thought that he smirked the same way. He needed to unlearn it, right this second.

"You're going to like it," she said again.

***

Stiles slowly came to. He was confused about what exactly was happening. He felt dizzy and there was something on his wrists. He had the weirdest dream about Theo again.

He slowly blinked his eyes open. Someone was yelling. He couldn't open his mouth. He thought there was something over his mouth. 

"What the fuck were you even thinking?!"

Okay, that voice Stiles recognised, although the intonations were new.

Someone was very angry. Someone who was supposed to be very dead.

"That you were going to fuck all of us over with your idiotic stubbornness, you dumb ass!"

She definitely said it in two separate words.

"You…" it sounded like Theo couldn't find words to describe what she was; it looked like it too, his face flushed with, presumably, rage. "You had no right," he gritted through his teeth eventually, way quieter than the rest of their nice sibling chat.

Stiles guessed they were talking about him, and he did not want to know why exactly. But then, it was pretty obvious, considering his hands were bound and there was some tape on his mouth. There was also blood on his shirt, but he didn't feel hurt. So the marks must've disappeared the way Theo's did. Because Tara definitely bit him to knock him out.

Did Theo's sister bit him? She had to, Stiles definitely had felt this exact same thing before, and that was at the party.

Tara moved closer to Theo, getting in his face, hissing something too low for Stiles to hear over the sound of the creek running under the bridge Theo and his sister were arguing on.

Theo grabbed her shoulder.

Stiles decided that this was about time he concentrated on his restraints, since both of his captors were distracted. Although he guessed it was just Tara who was his main captor.

He guessed they were fighting now, judging by the sounds of it, like, physically, but he was too busy trying to pry the little blade he had on his forearm down and then cutting the tape with it.

It didn't actually take very long, and he finished right in time with the end of the fight on the bridge.

The last bit of the tape fell apart.

There was a gasp, a huge splash and a quiet shit, and then there was only the sound of the creek.

Stiles looked up.

Theo was standing on the bridge with his hands covered in blood and a couple of rips in his shirt. He was staring down at the water with huge eyes.

There was a spill of red on the dark water, slowly getting bigger and longer as the water flowed further away.

Theo's sister was nowhere to be seen.

"Tara? Theo? Children, where are you?" Someone called from somewhere in the woods.

"Shit," said Theo again.

That was an admirable lack of reaction to killing his own sister.

Stiles squinted at the water, one part of his brain trying to understand what exactly happened (he should have watched the fight), so he could use it later, since it looked like standard methods didn't work; another part of his brain was concentrating hard on keeping as quiet as possible, and slowly getting away.

It was pretty dark in the forest already, so it was mostly the sound he was worried about. Vampires were way cooler in books.

"Kids?" Someone asked, stepping from behind the trees.

Theo looked white as a sheet and frozen, staring at the person coming.

Stiles wanted to bolt, but made himself walk on silent feet. He desperately hoped no one was going to follow him in the commotion he could hear starting behind his back.

"Theo? Why are you covered in blood? What the hell happened?" Asked someone.

Stiles didn't hear Theo's answer.

***

It has been two days since Tara kidnapped him and apparently got fucking killed by her little brother. The fuck. Did Theo kill his sister over Stiles?

Stiles' weird dreams became more vivid, now actually seeming to happen in real places. Theo was there sometimes, not always, though. According to him, he was the one sleeping and seeing Stiles, not the other way around. So he told Stiles that there were technically legends about vampires biting someone the wrong way and getting a mental connection to them, but it had to be on the neck, and usually when a vampire did that to you, you were dead, so there wasn't much evidence. He also told Stiles what, according to him (Stiles' dream!Theo), had happened to Tara, and, well, Stiles guessed his brain made the only thing that made sense with his knowledge and what he saw about what went wrong when he tried to kill Theo. Apparently, according to his brain, purebloods could only be killed one way, and it had nothing to do with silver.

What Stiles did know for sure, from real sources, was that Theo was now a wanted person among vampires for killing a pureblood, and so now hunters were trying to get to him before the vampires did to use as leverage. What for, exactly, was a mystery for Stiles, but his dad did whatever the Guild wanted.

But Theo was Stiles'. Only his.

So Stiles thanked everything that was there to thank that his father was predictable enough for Stiles to guess his password.

Stiles knew what he was doing was wrong. It went against everything his dad taught him and what the Guild stood for.

He was screwing with the data so they couldn't find Theo.

He knew they were getting close, he saw the maps. He knew it was absurd to believe his dreams, but it was the best he could do right now. He recognised the place Theo was in in his last dream, and he also knew where his father was searching. He didn't understand how or why, but the feeling that Theo was actually there was so strong he couldn't even question it. He knew it was probably his brain mixing up everything and making him believe what he wanted to believe, or whatever. 

But Theo was his responsibility now. He was Stiles' fuck-up, and Stiles was going to fix it. The Guild void fuck off and die, they weren't going to use the fact that Theo was already separated from his own kind for their own needs. Stiles was going to kill him.

Or at least try out the theory his brain provided in his dream. Although it was kind of hard to set up. But Stiles could always knock Theo out with a nicely placed silver dagger and just a couple of herbs.

Anyway. Stiles wasn't going to let the Guild get to Theo. Theo was his to kill and only his. It felt personal now that he even got kidnapped for him. And Stiles didn't like leaving a mess, and Theo was his mess.

So Stiles wiped a detail here and there, changed some numbers. He was going to be the one to get to Theo. He was going to be the one to figure out how to kill a pureblood.

***

It was just a couple of hours later that they figured it out.

Well, Kate did. Stiles had never liked her much.

He did expect them to find out, but not this fast. He hoped he had some time to set something up in order to clean his name or something.

He didn't.

What he also didn't take into account was how high profile this case was with the Guild.

And exactly how much of a bitch Kate was.

Stiles knew what it meant. They all did. He was going to be judged. And the Guild didn't take kindly to saboteurs. Especially the ones potentially connected to the enemy (he asked his dad about it, apparently, there were actually legends like that in their books, although Stiles could swear he hadn't heard anything like that; it was before Kate decided to check their data again).

Stiles didn't have time for that. He had a mission to complete, and the Guild was just going to take up his time.

So he got half an hour of sleep in, got some stuff and sneaked away.

He was going to deal with the consequences later. After he got his First Kill on his own terms and cleaned up his mess. Right now, he had a mission.

***

Theo waited, leaning against a tree near the edge of the woods on the side of the road leading out of town.

He knew where he needed to be. They had an agreement.

It was funny, actually, how both of them ended up the prey in their families' hunts.

Theo killed a pureblood. Stiles prevented a killing of a pureblood.

Adorable, really. Red sting and everything.

Considering that Stiles was now potentially the only human who knew how to kill someone like Theo because Theo didn't realise in time that it wasn't just his subconsciousness.

And yet, here they were. Both having to run away, both absolutely refusing to give up. Both determined to make the other their First Kill.

Neither of their lives was going to be easy until they figured it out. Surviving off pig blood wasn't fun, but it was a matter of principle now.

Stiles' ancient jeep rolled up next to Theo.

Theo felt a smirk slowly appear on his face.

Stiles lowered the window.

"Well, I guess we are both unbelievably deeply fucked now and are currently making it worse."

Theo rolled his eyes.

"We are both dead anyway, might as well die in the right hands."

Stiles almost smiled at him. It wasn't a nice smile.

Theo felt almost giddy looking at it for some reason.

He got in the car.

#teen wolf #steo #steoday #stiles stilinski #theo raeken #my fandom #my writing stuff #my aesthetic stuff #blood tw

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no one asked for this, don't read all this, keep scrolling, save yourself

i was inspired by @canary44 's theo raeken coded playlist, and i really wanted to make theo a sad boi playlist of songs by my favourite artist. aurora's music is very special to me; she makes me feel a lot and has gotten me through some very tough moments in life. so i wanted to pick songs for theo that i thought sounded like echoes of his grief, or invitations to lean into his softer parts, and to not let pain tear him apart.

did i add like, half of her discography? yes but i could have added more so don't fucking try me🥰💅✨

if anyone doesn't wanna listen to the whole thing but wants the vibes, here's a breakdown.

grieving songs: Runaway, Little Boy in the Grass, Lucky, Winter Bird (he would 100% cry to it while thinking about tara, argue with the wall), Through The Eyes Of A Child, It Happened Quiet

healing songs: Conqueror, Warrior, All Is Soft Inside, Infections Of A Different Kind, The River, Daydreamer, Soft Universe, Giving In To The Love, This Could Be A Dream

"fuck you dread doctors and fuck you god" songs: Running With The Wolves, Churchyard, You Keep Me Crawling, Blood In The Wine, The Devil Is Human

"haha i'm fucked up" songs: In Boxes, Soulless Creatures, In Bottles, The Innocent

i'm also going to add some lyrics from each song that reminded me of him here bc i love her lyrics so muuuuuuuuch🖤

Runaway

and all this time i have been lyin

oh lyin in secret to myself

i've been putting sorrow on the farthest place

on my shelf, la-di-da

and i was runnin far away

would i run off the world someday?

nobody knows, nobody knows

and i was dancing in the rain i felt alive and i can't complain

but no, take me home, take me home where i belong, i got no other place to go

Running With The Wolves

there's blood on your lies

the sky's open wide

there is nowhere for you to hide

the hunter's moon is shining

i'm running with the wolves tonight

In Boxes

calling out for the lonely, i am going home

i've been doing awful things again

i hear them laughing in my head

Little Boy In The Grass

when will my healing come?

when will my healing come along?

sinking like a stone

when will my healing come along?

finally i am over it all

finally i am over it all

Conqueror

broken mornings, broken nights and broken days inbetween

open ground the sky is open, makes an open scene

Lucky

i, i don't know where i am, where i'll go

where to even begin when i know

what lies behind, makes no sense in my mind

but i know that it's time to let go

and i feel the light for the very first time

not anybody knows that i am lucky to be alive

Winter Bird

silent things

violent chase

we are dancing again in a dream by the lake

my tears are always frozen

i can see the air i breathe

got my fingers painting pictures on the glass in front of me

lay me by the frozen river where the boats have passed me by

all i need is to remember how it was to feel alive

Through The Eyes Of A Child

when a human strokes your skin

that is when you let them in

let them in before they go

i would rather feel alive with a childlike soul

with a childlike soul

Warrior

i can't recall the last time i opened my eyes to see the world as beautiful

and i built a cage to hide in

i'm hiding, i'm trying to battle the night

let love conquer your mind

warrior, warrior

just reach out for the light

warrior, warrior

All Is Soft Inside

i don't know why, but i feel down

you need to know, i can't go on

i was a rose, i was an animal

don't let me change, don't let me go

all around is stone, all is soft inside

It Happened Quiet

you fell apart

like a stone can be broken into sand

a thousand pieces

spread across a crying land

and you can't remember that day

but you know it happened quiet

so quiet

Churchyard

hate followed him gently

black seeds in his heart

roots tearing the love in him apart

he told me i belong in a churchyard

he told me i could walk away but i wouldn't get far

tell me how do people know what is hurt, what is love?

he told me i belong in a churchyard

Soft Universe

don't let me turn into pain

all of this is loveliness

chaos came, we laid our head

down on a feather cotton bed

you find a heart and catch your breath

let the universe go red

speak to me, speak to me

with love in your words

make for me, make for me

a soft universe

Infections Of A Different Kind

and i beg, i beg to be drained

from the pain i have soaked myself in

so i can stay okay

and more than okay for a while

for a while, for a while

The River

don't forget who you are even though you are hurt

you are caught in a wire and soon it will burst

you can cry

drinking your eyes

do you miss the sadness when it's gone?

and you let the river run wild

Daydreamers

i step on broken glass

and dream of soft clouds

when feelings are heavy they become

all we are

and we become

nighttime dreamers, street walkers, small talkers

when we should be

daydreamers, and moonwalkers, and dream talkers

Soulless Creatures

never knew this curious head of mine

never knew what is love if kept inside

nothing but an endless empty heart

like laying a seed within the dark

give me a piece of your heart

give me a piece of your hands as we go

In Bottles

i will kindly watch you sleep

i find out that your eyes are open

i hide all the pieces that you never would have liked

if you knew about them

so i hide my children

oh, cover your eyes, cover your eyes

hide me inside

under your spine, under your spine

Giving In To The Love

cause if i'm not loved, i guess that i am cursed

i gotta know how to beat it, beat it first

if i'll be somebody i'll never let my skin decide it for me

i never had the world so why change for it

i never had the world so why change for it

giving in to the love, giving in to the love

giving in to the love, the love, the love, the love

You Keep Me Crawling

if i keep, if i keep forgiving

maybe i'll believe that you never meant for life to hurt for me

maybe i'll recover if you set me free

but why does it make me feel like i am weak and small?

why do i keep begging like the animal?

maybe it's because i need to serve someone

so you keep me crawling on my knees

The Innocent

danger in the boy that would lose control

when everyone thought he had a heart of gold

i remember how we used to play

he'd let me win if i let him stay

left without a single trace

i don't know why he said goodbye to love

Blood In The Wine

i was given a heart before i was given a mind

a thirst for pleasure and war

a hunger we keep inside

we fell from sky with grace, and life gave us a sweeter taste

you can drink, you can feast

there's beauty in your beast

the flesh and the fruit and the blood in the wine

come on feel alive, lover

come on feel the love, like a sinner

shout it louder, shout it for the ones who can never say

i won't feel ashamed, mother

can you break the chains, of her

shout it louder, not a sinner

she's a lover

This Could Be A Dream

feeling so alive can hurt so very much

when you're losing touch

but if i touched you, would you feel it there?

could i trust love, even if i'm scared?

oh i wish i could give like i'm longing to give

oh i wish i could live like i'm longing to live

The Devil Is Human

oh do you envy how i'm free?

how the life in me is real

running barefoot through the fields

oh does it hurt how i don't look at you with fear?

do you like to watch me kneel

'cause the way it makes you feel?

and i hear you don't like it

i don't care if you don't

...if you actually indulged me and read all this i'm sorry but what is wrong with you

#here it is #the most specific to my interests crossover event in history

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IF YOU STAY ALIVE

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by TeriSama0

Keeping yourself alive is as simple as possible. However, trying to save everyone around you is something almost impossible. Still, Stiles isn't going to leave anyone in the dust. That's why this year's reaping, he will be the first volunteer from the twelfth region. But what if the second payer this year becomes the person Stiles owes his life to?

Words: 4224, Chapters: 2/?, Language: English

Fandoms: Teen Wolf (TV), Hunger Games Trilogy - Suzanne Collins

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences

Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence

Categories: M/M

Characters: Stiles Stilinski, Derek Hale, Peter Hale, Scott McCall (Teen Wolf), Malia Tate, Kira Yukimura, Lydia Martin, Cora Hale, Sheriff Stilinski (Teen Wolf), Tara Raeken

Relationships: Derek Hale/Stiles Stilinski, Scott McCall/Stiles Stilinski, Liam Dunbar/Theo Raeken, Malia Tate/Kira Yukimura

Additional Tags: Love Confessions, Falling In Love, Fights, drunk, Fluff and Smut, Hurt Stiles Stilinski, Alpha/Beta/Omega Dynamics, Boys In Love

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#malira #ao3feed #fanfic #teen wolf

[tabbytabbytabby]

Change (6550 words) by tabbytabbytabby Chapters: 1/? Fandom: Teen Wolf (TV) Rating: Mature Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Liam Dunbar/Theo Raeken, Tara Raeken/Lyana Dunbar Characters: Theo Raeken, Liam Dunbar, Theo Raeken's Father, Theo Raeken's Mother, Tara Raeken, Theo Raeken's Stepfather, Corey Bryant, Jenna Geyer, Liam Dunbar's Mother, Lyana Dunbar, David Geyer, Dr. Geyer (Teen Wolf) Additional Tags: Pen Pals, First Meetings, Growing Up Together, Childhood Friends, First Kiss, Falling In Love, Eventual Relationships, Alternate Universe - Human, Liam Has A Sister, Theo Has A Brother, Angst, Fluff, Angst with a Happy Ending, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Hurt/Comfort, Protective Theo Raeken, Rating May Change, Other Additional Tags to Be Added Summary:

Theo was a really happy kid, he talked all the time, and even gave little performances. Then his parents get divorced and his Mom remarried. Theo slowly starts withdrawing into himself and becomes quiet and withdrawn. Then he meets Liam on vacation. Liam is able to get Theo to open up in ways no one else is able to, not even his sister Tara. The only problem is Liam lives in California and Theo lives in Illinois. The two make do by exchanging letters and talking on the phone, finding ways to stay close despite the distance between them. They get by with the knowledge that one day they will see each other again, no matter how long it takes.

#thiam #thiam fanfic #my fanfiction #lyara #denna #morey #at some point #i may hate myself for starting another multi-chapter fic later #but oh well #i'm loving it #theo raeken #murder nugget #tara raeken #alive tara raeken #fluff #angst #a mixture of things #liam dunbar #jenna geyer #david geyer #dr. geyer #so many tags #change

[outcastpack]

Pokemon Teen wolf AU(Mainly thiam focused)

Main travelling companions

The idea to finally write this came to me from watching the last few episodes of the Anime(Ashes one) and rewatching TW since its being taken off Netflix soon. Also I seen someone had made moodboards etc for their own Pokemon AU and that also sparked me.

Some changes I've made though is that trainers don't start travelling and entering Leagues etc till they are 18. The 4 main characters are all 18(Theo being close to 19 for certain reasons to be revealed).

Theo is the son of Cynthia just because I wanted to include Cynthia in a way and the dynamic of being the son of a champion and having everyone compare him to his mother stuck with me. Corey will also be travelling with Theo after he follows him.

Liam is Scott's protégé of sorts. The older boy taking Liam under his wing after witnessing his potential in battle as he watched Liam battle Mason and his Raboot. Mason travels with Liam since he refused to let his best friend leave him behind.

Thiam and Morey will happen

The 4 don't travel together at first untill a certain point in the story so will alternate POV between Theo and Liam.

Preview of the characters and rivals to come too

#teen wolf #thiam #pokemon #pokemon au #liam dunbar #scott mccall #theo raeken #corey bryant #mason hewitt #cynthia #Tara raeken is alive #morey #au #this is in the works but will take time since im very much a perfectionist #i wanted a pokemon au thats all

[spookyblazecoffee]

Tara: You don't think I can fight because of my gender! Deucalion: I don't think you can fight because you're in a wedding dress. For what it's worth, I don't think Theodore can fight in that dress either. Theo: Perhaps not. *Turns to Liam* But I would make a radiant bride.

#Tara Raeken #Deucalion Teen Wolf #Theo Raeken #Liam Dunbar #Raeken siblings #Incorrect Raeken siblings quotes #Deucalion adopts Theo #Deucalion adopts Tara #I love how I read one (1) fic where Deucalion adopted Theo and ran with it #Thiam #What do you mean 'So-and-so is dead'? No they're not they're very much alive and happy

[voidstilesplease]

in dreams (i meet you in warm conversation)

Team Seven is the worst team to be formed in Beacon Academy. Well, at least, that's how it started.

For their last year in the Supernatural school, the students - mages and shapeshifters alike - are clustered into three's. These groups will serve as their allies for the entire year's battle simulations and C-rank missions required to pass the course. Only then are they qualified to graduate from the Academy and be members of Beacon Village's Protection Squad: the Pack. Each student has their metal identity tag - a necklace with an engraved image of a Rowan tree, Beacon Village's symbol - to mark their loyalty to the Village.

The members of Team Seven are scornful of each other in all their time in the Academy. Lydia Martin, a banshee and a mage, is the smartest student of their class but a stuck-up know-it-all who loathes her teammates on principle. She doesn't trust the male variety, is her excuse. Stiles Stilinski, a werefox who's not in-tuned with his abilities and generally an erratic mess of power, causes more bad than good. Then there is Theo Raeken, a brooding chimera who is the sole survivor of the Raeken Clan's tragic downfall. He has never gotten over that.

Stiles likes to think of Team Seven now as his new family. Like Theo, he became an orphan when his father, the late General of the Pack, died in combat with an enemy country. But both of his teammates prefer to perform missions independently - which never works in their favor - than overlook their petty rivalry. They've already failed six and are on the brink of being dropped from the program.

It turns around when Stiles manages to trick them into cooperating in one of the missions - their first successful one. And the second victory follows shortly, then the third, the fourth, and they're suddenly unstoppable. Lydia is more assured of her team, Theo is starting to belong, and Stiles has two anchors to balance the power he used to fear before. They fill his void.

Then it pours half-empty again.

Theo finds out that his older sister, Tara, is alive. And she's also responsible for the slaughter of the Raeken Clan that spared Theo by luck. Theo forgets everything they have at once; the door he is opening slams shut. He is hell-bent on avenging his family, swearing to scour the countries up and down for Tara. He doesn't look back, even if it means defecting from Beacon Village. Even if it brands him a traitor.

•••

Stiles wears Theo's mutilated identity tag over his own and raps on Lydia's front door.

Stiles was quickly incapacitated that night he attempted to fight Theo into staying. He had never regretted his lack of control of his powers more than that moment. Theo unchained his tag from his neck and ran a clean diagonal slash across it, symbolizing his severed loyalty to the Village. He left it on Stiles's bloody hand along with a whispered "I am sorry" before retreating completely into the darkness.

Lydia opens her door, arching an eyebrow at the unexpected sight of Stiles. Her eyes briefly wander down to his collarbone, where the metal tags are cold on Stiles's skin, before looking up again. "What are you doing here?"

Stiles forces an almost genuine grin. "To fetch you, of course. Team Seven is going to train together even outside of the Academy. It only makes sense; we are the most compatible together."

Lydia looks surprised for a moment, but her expression falls immediately, crossing her arms with a deep sigh. "Stiles," she says, mouth in a thin line. "There is no more Team Seven," her face is pinched as she says this as if it is physically painful for her to say the words. "Theo is gone."

But Stiles is not deterred. He's always been the one with the tightest grip among them - the one who won't quit. As much as it appears that he needs his teammates to anchor him, Stiles is anchoring them, too.

He smiles, "No, Lydia. I'm bringing him home. Even if it takes me years, I will not stop. Theo is ours."

Lydia doesn't say anything - she doesn't have to. It's in her eyes; she will follow Stiles.

He takes one of her hands and looks directly into her eyes, "I will never let him go."

So, they didn't.

~•~

#teen wolf #stiles stilinski #theo raeken #lydia martin #ns au: attempt 1 #make everything steo #this is so lame i swear #but whatever #maybe it'll be better when I look at it again tomorrow #because right now I hate it lmao #omg 🤦 i swear I'm so tired of me sometimes #fics tag #naruto au

[parker417k]

Teen Wolf Fic Idea- Theo Raeken

For some reason, I keep thinking of what it would be like if the Dread Doctors never manipulated Theo, and what it would be like if Tara was alive. But, I also feel like Theo might not have turned out the same without all of his experiences, so who knows what he would be like. Also, his memories are an important part of what started to shape him (and his personality) in the last seasons. Without remembering his time in hell, he would have still been suppressing his emotions and wearing a mask 24/7. So, I was thinking of a fic where he was either sent back in time to when he was little, reincarnated (and restart his life basically), or something similar. Anyway, the point is, he would be redoing his past, meaning he would be able to save Tara if he found a way to stop the Dread Doctors. (I don’t know if they would have just went away if he said no- so he might have to find another way to stop them). So, then, he grows up with Tara by his side (him and Tara are super close this time around as he wants to protect her and make sure she has the life she deserves this time around), but she does not know about everything yet. The parents, I’m not sure what to say for them rn, maybe they’re not really that close but they’re okay with each other, idk. (Also, I’m thinking Theo’s powers will go back with him just to be clear- forgot to write that, oops. But yeah, he will have all of his memories and will still be a chimera- so he can no longer get sick). He mostly tries to avoid Scott and Stiles as much as possible so that he doesn’t mess up the timeline- so nobody finds out about him until after Liam shows up. (Thiam is optional tho. Theo didn’t really show up until around the time Liam did so... yeah). To everyone around him, he is normal- since he is an AmAzing actor- so nobody can tell there is anything weird about him. The only people who have ever noticed anything are probably his parents- and obviously Tara (again, she doesn’t know anything, but can tell there is something off about her brother- especially how protective he is over her sometimes).

⁃ If Liam also restarts his life or goes back in time with him, they will eventually reunite and everyone will be like how do you even know each other- what is going on.

⁃ If Liam does not come back with him, Theo still tries to help him cuz Liam is his bf- or best friend; either one. Mason is still Liam’s best friend but Theo is his werewolf bestie if they’re not together.

~ Also, I want Tara to have a big role in the plot if you can write that. If you don’t want to, that’s fine, but I would love to see how their dynamic would work. and how Tara being alive would change things. (Plus you have the fact that he has already lived through all of this, so he knows a lot of the shit that’s going to go down and can prevent some of it or just help the pack in general).

note: I ran out of space in the tags lol. The rest of the sentence was “a good contribution to the plot” just so you know

#theo raeken #liam dunbar #thiam #but its optional- but at the same time it’s kind of not since nobody would hate thiam unless they’re crazy so #I guess it depends on if you like thiam #tara raeken #teen wolf #Theo is protective over Tara now #and does not want her involved in any supernatural shit #but he’s supernatural- so that’s kind of hard #cuz like- he has powers- so she’s most likely going to figure it out eventually #Theo and Tara are the best sibling duo #Theo has plans to protect the pack (and Liam lol) #and especially the puppy pack #cuz he loves them- they’re awesome #can be #time travel #reincarnation #or a mystery. it doesn’t matter. Also- can have any brotps you want to include. Like you do whatever as long as it is a good contribution t

[officialthiamlibrary]

Hey, I'm wondering that is there any fic about Theo actually become or is an alpha with red eyes?

There are several! Important note: we actually received a second ask a couple of days ago for this same type of fic, so we are splitting the rec list in half for you! Expect part two later today!

Be Careful What You Wish For by manonlemelon (Mature | WIP | 55K) Tags: Unwilling alpha theo, Angst, Getting together, Description of violence, Happy ending Summary: Back before he was sent to the ground all Theo ever wished for was power, to be an alpha, to have a pack. Now he knows better, knows that power isn’t as easy as it seems. All he wants now is to try and stay alive, try to be good enough to one day be part of the pack and protect the beta with anger issue. During a fight with an alpha gone feral Theo is given power he doesn’t want anymore. Now he has to learn to live with what he had wished for so long ago. A Peek Inside: Theo closed his eyes and with one last breath filled with the beta’s comforting scent he let his eyes glow before slowly opening them. Observing his reflection in the place where it all started for him. The image it returned him was glowing red eyes. Alpha eyes. Red like the blood he just spilt. Had spilt, so many times over the years. The blood of his own pack. In a way it was fitting, that color defined him. And now his eyes were reflecting it too. Blood red eyes.

New Friends, New Housemates by DarkAngelGirl13 (Teen | 7.5K | Complete) Tags: Roommates, alive Tara, alpha Theo Raeken, past Liam/Brett Summary: Theo’s been living with his sister, Tara for most of his life. Now he’s moving out and in with three people he doesn’t even know if he’ll get along with, but Scott’s never let him down before. ----------------- Liam about jumped when someone took hold of his arm. He hadn’t heard anything over the smoke alarm going off. Then there was a guy there, who he hoped was Theo, holding his arm taking the pain. He never had checked the photo that Scott emailed him, which he probably should have. He hadn’t realized he was still in pain until it was leaving up through Theo’s arm going to his neck. He felt a little embarrassed that Theo came home to this, but at least he wasn’t yelling at him. He was helping him when he could have easily gone off on him. A Peek Inside: “That makes me feel a little better,” Liam smiled back not sure how Theo could burn popcorn, but he had the same problem. He had burnt food he made a hundred times since he was thirteen.

Red Yellow Blue by Garcia_Allen (Teen | Complete | 2.3K) Tags: Post-canon, hurt Theo, protective Liam Summary: Theo lifted his eyes to look at him, eyes glowing as bloody as the right arm. Containing the usual caution, shock by the upheaval, and more bewilderment than any word could describe, all Liam could think at that particular moment was that the chimera looked to be in a state of extreme solitude. OR Clearly, Theo and Liam needed to have a conversation. Liam just didn’t expect that Theo would be the first one to talk. A Peek Inside: But the thing just had happened. They were there. They were all on-site. Any words were too pale and feeble at the moment, and the noise constituted a certain degree of oppression that surrounded every corner of the truck. It'd been a long time since Theo had so completely shut off his emotions.

Heat by Rae_Pancake (Mature | Complete | 1.4K) Tags: Smut, Alpha kink, Alpha Theo, Theo randomly becomes an alpha Summary: Liam's in heat and Scott isn't there to help him. Luckily he finds Theo who is more than happy to help him. A Peek Inside: As he ran through the woods he couldn't shake the feeling of something or someone watching him from a distance. He picked up his pace but that didn't help as he ran into something, causing him to be knocked down to the ground. He looked up to see Theo, causing him to growl."Ahh, I guess little Liam isn't happy to see me."

Sparks and Ember by wolfenboy (General | Complete | 3.3K) Tags: AU, Emissary Liam Dunbar, Alpha Theo Raeken Summary: Liam has trained all his life to be an emissary, only to find out the spark of power within is too dim to help anyone, let alone a pack of werewolves. Theo is a reluctant alpha on the run from hunters and his past. When they meet the beginning of something new takes form. A Peek Inside: ‘I thought werewolves had big teeth.’ Liam said. ‘We do.’ Theo mumbled through a mouthful of burger. ‘Maybe you should use them. To chew?’ ‘You’re funny.’ Theo said, deadpan’

Reflection by germanfanfictioner (Explicit | Complete | 2.6K) Tags: Porn Without Plot, A/B/O dynamics, Alpha Theo Raeken, Beta Liam Dunbar, Knotting Summary: After graduating college, Theo and Liam move into their new apartment. And when they're about to christen their new bed, they realize that they placed their mirror very well. A Peek Inside: "It was college! Who unpacks immediately after moving into a college dorm? " "I did that. " "You're a neat freak. " "You're a slob. " Theo retorted. The two stared at each other for a few moments, silently challenging each other, before they burst out laughing. Liam leaned over to give Theo a kiss.

Beach trip by germanfanfictioner  (Explicit | Complete | 2K) Tags: Porn Without Plot, A/B/O dynamics, Alpha Theo Raeken, Beta Liam Dunbar, Knotting Summary: When Liam and Theo are the first to arrive at the beach and wait for the rest of the pack they decide to have some fun to pass the time. Unfortunately the others arrive earlier than expected, which puts them into an awkward position. A Peek Inside: Once the coal was burning, Theo got up and wiped some soot off his hands. He walked over to Liam and sat down next to him, wrapping his arms around him. Liam leaned against his Alpha, head resting against Theo's shoulder. Theo was rubbing circles into Liam's shoulder with his thumb before his hand slipped down a bit.  "You can't be serious.  " Liam said incredulously, straightening up to look at his boyfriend. 

The monster inside by liamschimera (Explicit | Complete | 4.5K) Tags: Explicit content, Explicit language, Dark!Liam, Dark!Theo, Blood, Gore, Death Summary: Theo Raeken has returned to Beacon Hills under the pretense of wanting to join Scott's pack. However, what he has in mind is far more sinister. After gaining some inside help, Scott McCall's pack have finally met their match. A Peek Inside: Liam snarls again, grabbing Scott by his arms with one hand, trapping them behind his back and forcing his head back by his hair. Causing him to bare his fangs. “You were wrong Scott.” He growls straight into his ear. “Some of us are monsters.” Theo approaches the two of them and Scott realizes he’s been in this situation before, except he was Liam holding Derek. “Liam, don’t do this. You don’t have to do this!” There’s fear, so much fear and both Chimera and young beta werewolf are intoxicated by it.

#fic recs #alpha!theo #thiam #mod: mary #mod: tara #otlansweredask

[rosesraeken]

i made the list of loose ends with Theo. let me just say all of this is bc of this photo i saw on Pinterest.

seriously. i started thinking and this happened. and a lot of these are not gonna be loose end things more just questions that i had. also some things just don’t connect, some things are confusing and like 90% of these are about Theo’s parents. ok here we go.

1. was Theo still living in his truck after the s.6 final????

2. did the pack find out???

3. and did theo become part of the pack? (EDIT: ik theo was said to be an ally in the last episode but i just like the idea of him becoming pack)

4. this house.

there are clearly boxes like the people were either moving in or out. maybe they just moved in so they were an easy target bc maybe no one in beacon hills knew them yet?

5. where the hell are Theo’s parents??? bc we know the people in the previous picture aren’t.

6. i think they might be dead tbh. only because if they were alive, depending on how normal and sane they were, wouldn’t they have filed a missing child report?? like a normal parent would?? to try and find their child? try and find Theo?

7. Stiles said that Tara died in an accident when Theo was 8 (it sounds like he says “got in an accident” but idk. maybe getting into an accident is referring to her dying) and then said he was 9 when he killed his sister? and Theo also said he was 9?? AND THEN Verlac, when he was ya know, drilling a hole in Lydia’s head, said “why choose a 10 year old willing to kill his own sister?” excuse me?????????????? do the writers of this show not know what consistency is???

8. ok so Theo’s family left town when Theo was around 9 or 10, after Tara’s death. so what happened to them? did Theo just leave? did the dread doctors actually kill them? because for some reason I seriously don’t think Theo killed his parents.

9. the house. again. and this photo again.

liam says bedroom. so maybe Theo was actually staying with the people? or maybe he was just there for that one night.

10. Theo having ptsd was never addressed.

11. so was Theo with the dread doctors 24/7 up until he was like 15/16 or was he still staying with his parents after Tara died?

12. after they left town, what happened to his parents? bc Theo came back to Beacon Hills. did he just leave his parents??? i swear if they happened to be alive they would’ve filed a missing child report. especially if they had just lost their daughter.

13. why didn’t Theo just use his own parents and get his actual dad to sign the transfer paper? why use different people? he could’ve manipulated his parents if he wanted and got them to sign the papers so it would’ve been 100% accurate. so why didn’t he? why use a different person unless his parents were actually dead.

14. but then again if they were dead, Noah and the sheriff officers (or someone else) probably would’ve known. so maybe Theo’s parents are actually alive and Theo didn’t have the heart (😶) to kill or manipulate them. or the dread doctors didn’t want him to????

15. where did Theo and his parents go after they left town?

16. also, why did they leave town? maybe Tara’s death was the reason they left but what other reason would they’ve left?

17. i don’t think Theo’s parents knew about the dread doctors. so i don’t think that’s a reason why they left.

18. when Stiles went to do a background check on the Raekens, all he found was a speeding ticket from Theo’s dad. why didn’t he find anything else? like where they moved too? or if they were alive or dead? so are his parents just fully off the grid? which is why i think they might be dead.

19. Theo’s parents are seriously never mentioned again after s.5 episode 2 (as far as i know. please correct me if i’m wrong). why are we just left with that? why didn’t the damn writers mention them again? i guess we’ll never know what happened to his parents.

#Teen Wolf #Theo Raeken #Cody Christian #so many loose ends #i need a season 7 #i want answers