sometimes whenever i show my family and others my characters, they often are bewildered by their meshes of identity, like my character Clement being a Scottish Iranian christian, or when ive written queer characters from historical timeframes, i remember they often ask why.
its hard to explain why, i myself have always felt like a mesh of identity, im a persian, with intergenerational trauma, who was born and raised in the uk, i am a nonbinary trans who is masculine but also feminine, i am gay, i am lesbian, i am ace, i am autistic, i have who knows whats happening in this brain, im still trying to figure a lot of things out, but i am a mesh, i am a experience, things are complicated and people are complex
i just find it important in a sense to represent that complication, no matter how 'strange' that mesh of identity may be, because i too am a strange mesh of identities, or rather, its not so strange once you learn further about them, in fact, its more common than you think because again, people are complex, and i just hope, maybe, through what i make, as little as it often is, people feel less alone in their complicated identites
Everyone is like "cat to cat communication" regarding Astarion and Tara, best buds, so on and so forth.
In the meantime, me: THEY WILL FIGHT TO THE DEATH FOR GALE COME ON (and Astarion end up stealing Gale from both Tara and his mother to go adventuring together). I've seen people getting a second cat and the war over the human that feeds them is goddamn real.
I'm not sure what I can really explain or what context I can give for this scene, as Kill It and Leave This Town is a very surreal film that's entirely based on the director's, Mariusz Wilczyński, grief and loss and was a way to give farewells to his passed on loved ones, but this scene of the film still has stuck with me. The cat's nihilistic speech on annihilation and the destruction of all things created is something I look back on when Grief is too much to bear, and I wish that any experiences I had never happened so I never had to deal with the grief.
Kill It and Leave This Town is still a film I think about a lot...
thinking a bit more about tim's interview and tim saying that he imagines gale was bullied, for his studiousness, and learning to use humour both as a weapon and a shield:
tara absolutely would've thrown hands - or paws, in her case - for gale. i Know it in my heart. my new headcanon is that tara mauled at least one child.
(but also: absolutely do not imagine tara curling up around gale, maybe even hugging him with one of her wings, much, much later, when it's quiet and gale is trying to hide his tears.