And just like that, I cried from behind my steering wheel, your face vanishing from my phone screen one last time. I had felt like someone reached into my chest, grabbed hold of my heart, and tore it out.
I've seen this film before. I am a starring role each and every time, playing the young romantic with heart-shaped eyes and a smile that stretches for miles whenever I look at my handsome co-star. That role has been played by other faces, but none as handsome as him. But just like the rest had done, I was discarded. Disposed of in a way that made my heart-shaped eyes crack and swell with hot tears. I was tossed aside over something I didn't do, a choice he made on his own. A choice that muffled my pleas for him to stay, a choice so overpowering, I lost my voice in the chaos.
So I was left crying in my car, and then crying at the grocery store, and then crying in the shower and before bed, and then on the way to the hospital to visit my dad, and then when my brother texted me about it and when I told my mom the news. My tears could fill the mug he got me, a big one I drink hot cocoa out of.
I've seen this film before. So I know how it ends. Those cracks in my heart-shaped eyes heal, and the tears stop streaming down my cheeks before the end credits roll. I am smiling in no time, preparing for my sequel.
Okay for the love of god SOMEONE PLEASE tell me I am not alone in this because I'm losing my shit.
I just found the Long Pond Studio Sessions version of Exile, and something about the way its done, the way its filmed.....
I don't fucking know. But somefuckingthing makes it genuinely difficult to remember that Justin Vernon was just another artist performing part of it and not the actual person from the story the song is telling. Like, that video gives me feels and I am losing my mind because that feels completely fucking ridiculous.
Someone please tell me I'm not the only person on the face of the earth who's bizarrely having trouble separating the two? Please?
Just thinking about how I’d love a scene in s5 where we see Lenny watch on as Joel makes me ass of himself. Not only would that be a perfect demonstration of Joel’s awful personality, but it would also mean I would finally be able to make a gifset using these iconic lyrics: