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peachypinkygloss · 10 months

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could you write a jimin x reader smut with a slight piss kink? ( he’s made her drink water all day and distracted her everytime she’s needed to go to the toilet + in the middle of sex and she keeps saying she needs to pee + when she cums she pees at the same time because of overstimulation etc: and jimin finds it so hot.) 💓💓

i've never wrote something like this before, but i will write it because why wouldn't i? 😼 + it's feeding my jimin obsession 😔 i kept it short, but hopefully there's everything you wanted 🤍

Embarrassed

↝ pairing: dom!jimin x sub/fem!reader

↝ genre: established relationship, smut

↝ warnings: mean jimin 😮‍💨, humiliation, manipulation (or he's just mean tbh), watersports 🏄‍♂️, she drinks a lot of water so her piss is healthy dw lol, don't know how accurate this is but if it's hot I consider my mission a success (if it's not, well... 🤐), unprotected sex, titty fucking 🤞🏻, clit stimulation, around 2k words.

"I can't-" You refuse the water bottle Jimin's offering you, a scowl on your face. "I've drank too much, I have to pee," you say as you gently push his hand away.

When you rise up from the bed, he looks at you with a dark gaze, eyebrows frowned. You face him, confused as to why it seems to bother him.

All day he's been handing you glasses of water, telling you to drink everything because you haven't drank enough water those past few days according to him. You agreed, even though you weren't that thirsty.

For some reason, you haven't been able to go to the bathroom, Jimin was always distracting you from it. The first time he said you'd be late to your classes, the second he reminded you that you never use public restrooms anyway and should wait til you're home and once you were at your apartment, he forced you to watch a movie, saying you couldn't miss any part of it.

You don't understand why because it was a movie you've seen before and you're pretty sure Jimin was aware of it. After the movie, he brought you into the bedroom, giving you another water bottle to drink.

Your tummy hurts now and it's difficult to not think about anything else than your urge to use the bathroom. Usually, you can hold it in easily, but today you've been drinking an amount of water you don't take normally so it really presses against your bladder.

"No, no, drink this," he sits you back down on the bed, handing you the plastic bottle filled with water.

You sigh and take the bottle, sipping on it a little until you really can't. "It's too much," you wince, giving him back the water bottle. You clench your thighs to hold it in, looking up at Jimin, expecting him to let you go to the bathroom.

He sends you a disappointed look and you're embarrassed to be in this situation. He's still holding the drink and you wonder what he has in mind until he spills all of the content on you.

You gasp loudly and scrunch your eyes shut, surprised he did such a thing to you. You feel the water flowing on your head, dripping down to the front of your body. Your hair is wet as well as your top, completely drenched in water.

You're not moving, arms frozen in mid air. Droplets of water are falling down from some strands of hair as one hundred questions flood your mind.

Jimin passes a hand through your hair, slicking it back on the top of your head. When his hand reaches the back of your skull, he grabs a handful of your hair and tilts your head back. You glance at him through wet eyelashes, mouth agape.

"Always do what I tell you," he grits his teeth and you swallow, nodding immediately. He observes you, letting his gaze fall down on the swell of your breasts, nipples apparent in your now transparent crop top.

He wets his lips, his pink muscle peeking out from between his plump lips, and his eyes shift back up to your face. You're slightly shaking, this unexpected cold shower has you freezing, goosebumps appearing on your skin.

You don't break eye-contact with Jimin despite everything, his intense and dominating aura lingering over your little body. It's humiliating to be like that, wet and cold while having a full bladder.

"Show me your tits," he demands and you don't think about disobeying him, even when he just poured an entire water bottle over your head.

He likes humiliating you, that's why. Likes seeing you embarrassed or in inconvenient situations where you feel uncomfortable, exactly like right now.

You grip the end of your top and pass it over your boobs, revealing them to Jimin. He hums appreciatively, scanning them with his eyes. He registers how your perky nipples point at him and the way your stretch marks stand out on your skin, giving this natural look to your breasts.

You sniff, tears forming at the corners of your eyes. You blink up at him, still holding your top over your chest for him, anticipating his next move.

He lets go of you, scalp stinging when his fingers detangle from your hair. You watch him palming himself over his joggers, a big bulge very apparent under the two layers of clothes he's wearing. He grips and strokes his cock over his briefs and your belly twists at the sight, clenching your thighs to relieve the ache between them.

Jimin lowers his sweats down his thighs as well as his boxers, setting his fat cock free, twitching twice until standing up proudly over his stomach. He runs his palm up and down on it, licking his lips as he places himself between your legs, erection hovering over your naked tits.

You straighten your back, guessing what he has in mind. "Be a good girl and spit on it for me, baby," he orders, holding his hard cock in his hand. It looks very stiff and you're excited to feel it glide between your breasts.

You tilt your head downward and let a globe of saliva drip down on his length. He strokes it to spread your spit all over his shaft, tip dark pink and wet. When he considers he's lubed enough, he settles his cock between your tits and you wrap them over him the best you can.

He places a hand on top of your head to steady it and to have a grip on something. You wince at the tight grip he has on your hair, but nothing really compares to the feeling of having a full bladder. Though it's painful, you keep your mouth quiet.

He starts to move his hips at a slow pace and he lets out a sweet moan, loving the feeling of his cock sliding between your boobs. His tip brushes against your neck when he thrusts in, erection peeking out from the plush of your tits.

Heat floods to your core as you don't look away from Jimin, his cheeks flushed and an expression of pleasure drawn on his handsome face.

You only hear the deep breaths he takes, totally focused on the sensation of his hard cock making its way between the comfort of your boobs. He is as focused as you, wetting his dried lips and frowning his soft eyebrows, as if the whole process needs a lot of concentration.

He drives his cock on your chest more avidly, his hold on your hair becoming stronger and tighter. You whine out of pain, but you still keep your hands secured on your breasts, creating the perfect hole for Jimin to fuck. Soft, plushy and tight, that's how he likes it.

"Mmh, fuck," he groans and throws his head back, lowering his gaze so he's able to look at his dick sliding between your breasts. With the remains of the water, your spit and his pre-cum, the glide is smooth and easy.

Even though his skin sticks to yours a little bit due to the water, it's still enjoyable for him. He likes the feeling of it, how the meat of your breast moves in sync with his hip thrusts, how it pushes aside to make room for his cock as he penetrates the tight entrance you've created for him.

"Jimin," you call his name in a low voice, not completely confident on interrupting his pleasure. "I really need to-" You get cut off as he shifts his hand over your mouth, muffling your voice.

"Stop saying such non-sense," he scolds, stopping his movements. You look at him, totally helpless, not capable of convincing him. "Lay down."

He detaches himself from you and you hesitantly back away on the bed, laying down on your back. You quickly clench your thighs, this time to literally not pee yourself. You wiggle your hips to ease your urge, but it doesn't help really well.

"It's really uncomfortable," you try again, following him with your eyes as Jimin takes the towel laid on the chair's back, the one he used last night after his shower.

He comes back to you, joining you in bed with the towel in hand. "Lift your butt," he says with a sign of his hand. You raise your hips and he places the bath towel under you. You wonder why, you're not specially the kind to stain the sheets during sex. Protection isn't really necessary.

Next, he tugs your skirt down your legs with your panties, discarding the clothes away on the floor. He pulls your knees apart and you have to focus to not let yourself go. He takes the time to caress your inner thighs, running his palms over your skin, taking your breath away.

"I know you don't need to go to the bathroom, you can stop lying to me, baby." He lifts his gaze up to yours, looking at you like you're just a liar — a bad liar.

You whimper, shaking your head in exasperation because how could he not believe you. But he's just pretending to, of course.

"I'm not, Jimin, I swear-"

"Shh, no, no," he disapproves, now his turn to shake his head, showing you how much he's disappointed. His hands are terribly close to your core, completely at his mercy, uncovered and legs open for him to see.

You stare at his hands, veins popping out along his strong arms, fingers dancing on your thighs. You swallow, always a little anxious at the thought of him touching your private parts, a gesture so intimate and sexual.

A gasp escapes your mouth when his rough digits find your clit and Jimin looks suspiciously satisfied. "No! Fuck, Jimin," you whine out, immediately closing your legs around his hand. Since your urethra is right under your clitoris, his fingers pressing down on your bud of nerves gives you the urge to pee again.

He roughly takes a hold of your jaw, making you look into his eyes. "Don't say bad words," he tells you severely, raising his eyebrows to emphasize his seriousness. "And open your fucking legs," he orders and you do so while letting out a sad sob past your lips.

He lets go of your face and resumes his previous action, doing slow circular motions on your clit. It feels good, but the problem is that you just don't want to pee on the bed. How humiliating would that be? The more you think about it, the more you suppose it's exactly what Jimin wants.

As he stimulates your clit, he presses down on your belly with his palm, literally making it more difficult for you to hold in your pee. His fingers move swiftly on you and you moan, twisting the bedsheets between your fists.

You arch your back and your eyes water, feeling so embarrassed and out of control. The pace of his fingers fasten and you grasp his forearm with your two hands, wanting to stop him, but really, it does nothing except encourage him to go rougher on you.

"What's happening, baby, hm?" He asks in a fake compassionate voice, pressing more and more on your stomach. "Have you drank too much water?" He smirks, malice dancing in his sweet dark eyes.

You contort your body, squirm around, typically doing everything to not let your orgasm take you over and to not pee yourself at the same occasion. "Stop, stop," you weakly cry, sinking your nails into the flesh of his arm.

Jimin seems to get annoyed because he's now more insistent and eager to make you cum. "It's nothing, just let go, baby, come on," he says in a sweet voice and honestly, you really want to let go, too.

You feel the knot in your stomach tightening until your orgasm finally shoots through you, making you whine and moan, sounding so soft to Jimin's ears.

And then comes the moment where you really can't control it anymore.

You pee yourself and a wet puddle forms under your butt. You look down in total disbelief, Jimin still massaging your clit and observing the scene like there's nothing wrong — on the contrary, he finds it absolutely hot.

He groans, his cock twitching and leaking more pre-cum, so impatient to bury himself inside your wet cunt.

"Shit, baby," he practically mewls, so turned on by the embarrassment you put yourself in — and with a bit of his help, for sure — and by the tears streaming down your face. He stares at you like you just did the hottest thing ever, and you really did, in his opinion.

You sob and hide your face behind your hands when you've stopped peeing, so embarrassed. But Jimin pushes them away and leans down to kiss you so you at least understand he's not disgusted at all.

"I can't believe you let me do whatever you want to you," he admits, pecking your cheeks and neck. "You're so fucking perfect," he praises, a huge grin on his face. His eyes glint lovingly, even though they're still playful. He clearly hasn't finished with you yet.

You blink up at him, eyes round and watery. He lays his forehead on top of yours and you softly moan when his cock pushes at your entrance.

He fucks you roughly, the headboard rocking against the wall, letting everyone know about your heated session of sex. He doesn't miss to suck on your nipples and bite on them, devouring them like a hungry man.

Your hands find their usual spot in his hair, pulling on silky strands of hair to give him back a little bit of the pain he's inflicting you by snapping his hips against yours. The bedroom is filled with sounds of your skins slapping against each other, the noise of his dick entering your wet pussy as well as yours and his deep moans.

You cum around his cock and he ejaculates in you, stuffing you full of his seeds as a reward for being such a good girl for him, despite your little screams of complaint when you peed the bed.

Now you understand why he put a towel under your ass.

Don't ask for a part 2, thank you!

#bts fanfiction #bts fanfic #bts smut #bts imagines #bts x reader #bts scenarios #bts drabble #jimin fanfic #jimin smut #jimin x reader #jimin fanfiction #requests

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artemistalkstoomuch · 3 months

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All of My Opinions on the Mean Girls Musical Movie

Firstly, loved all the original film references. Of course the obvious ones like having the same lines, the thing about fetch being slang from an old movie, but also!!

. Janis' suit being purple for spring fling!! and omg let's not even talk about how pretty Aul'il Cravalho was throughout the entire film. Her eye make-up was so impressive

. that part in Sexy where they're cycling through potential outfits and one of them is the white shirt with the purple bra holes cut out !!

Slightly upset about the fact they cut out Meet the Plastics and it ended up being more like, Meet Regina, but I get that. On the topic of songs, I understand a lot of them were cut out because they were "too theatrical" but I can still miss em!! Truthfully when I heard the new Stupid With Love I was devastated because it's one of my favourite songs and they fucking tiktokified it, but I actually think it works really well in the film- it gets the "cringy first proper love" aspect across, which is its purpose, so I'm happy.

THEY GOT RID OF "WHO HERE HAS EVER FELT PERSONALLY VICTIMISED BY REGINA GEORGE" which was absolutely criminal

AND THE PRINCIPAL AND MS NORBURY ARE TOGETHER which was actually adorable, and I didn't think about the fact that could be something that happened, but I'm very happy it did.

The bus at the end of Rather Be Me was such a jumpscare but also so funny. THEY MISSED OUT THE DIALOGUE TO DO IT THOUGH SADD. Plus she was so goofy that entire song?? Why was she running in and out of all of those random rooms.

The rumours spreading via phones looked half cool, but it's dated the film imo, which is what Tina Fey originally set out to avoid! Like "fetch" was made up slang so in years to come the film wouldn't seem cringy for having slang teens actually used to use at the time.

Big drum-roll: We did not see enough of Regina's meanness to actually justify her being a mean girl. A lot of it got filtered out through songs, and the majority of stuff was just her, like, responding badly to sexism?? Also tell me how I'm gonna villanise Renee Rapp she fucking SLAYED what a queen.

Also WHERE IS COACH CARR'S SEXUAL ASSAULT. THAT'S THE WHOLE REASON MS NORBURY GETS ARRESTED!!?? That, to me, is one of the biggest indicators in the original film of just how powerful the "Mean Girls" are, they know about this, and the other teachers don't. Not only that, but it highlights just how immature they are, because they don't do anything about it. They're girls who run the school, without having any sympathy or context to do something about bad stuff they know happens. It's just "a funny thing to write". Not having that made me sad tbh.

Changing the line to "you wrote this" in World Burn was clever but I wish we got to see more of the girls turning on each other, rather than direct fighting.

KEVIN G BEST SONG IN THE MUSICAL

Where was the 4 way phone call, DEVASTATING. We literally did not see the plastics actually interact with each other. There was no meanness, no impact, all we got were the "events" when OTHER THINGS HAPPEN. You could say it lost a lot of filler, but the filler was actually context! And part of what makes the film so good!

Devastated she doesn't say "damn you're mine" in Someone Gets Hurt. I do think it's hilarious they just didn't make the actor guy for Aaron sing at all lol

"That filter you use looks just like me" WHY. I appreciate the change from the line about weight but like, this DOES NOT MAKE SENSE. at least say "that filter you use has nothing on me" THE WHOLE POINT IS SHE'S ABOVE IT

I didn't like the extended version of Revenge Party, sorry, too used to the old version

And I did not like the girlbossification of Sexy. I get it's supposed to be powerful like "watch me as I run the world in shoes I cannot walk in" but I feel like the whole point of "I expect to run the world in shoes I cannot walk in" is supposed to point out the irony, like, being slightly critical of "modern feminism". I will say though that the wobble from avantika as she says that is superb.

Overall I thought the film was enjoyable and a nice blend of the original film and the musical, but I think both ended up losing individual meaning because of how much they intersect. You don't have time to appreciate the lyrics and power of the musical because you don't hear them all, and some of them get cut, and you can't follow the plot in a meaningful way because the songs are happening, and they skip a lot of context to fit them in.

Would totally watch it again though, if only to see Renee Rapp say "get in loser" cos she actually nailed that

#mean girls #mean girls musical #regina george #renee rapp #angourie rice #auli'i cravalho #tina fey #bebe wood #avantika #mean girls 2024 #musicals #long post

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hoardlikegoldenirises · 1 year

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He's a biter, you know.

details and un-shaded version (and also lineart version) under the cut:

I meant to draw this for peterfel week and made the sketch in like, literally February but didn't get around to finally finishing it until now… lol… well it's done now!!!

i dunno if i love how the dark shaded version turned out...

These are my base colors, but I guess I just felt like spending a couple hours with color overlays and fucking around to make the final moody blue version lol

as an aside the bokeh is a brush by Bunabi/Eriart which you can find as a freebie on her patreon - i saw it and was like omg wait i could use that

...the buildings are also brushes (well the windows are)

anyway here's the lineart

I also used a chain brush of course cause I ain't fuckin drawin all of that lmao —I used a brush from this set, they're pretty nice

😻 there she is oh i also used a diamond stamp 😂 the lesson to learn about me is if i can use a brush for something that would otherwise be tedious and it looks decent i will because i am lazy. unless i only have like a Single instance then I'll usually just draw it but when I have more than one it's either brushes or copy pasting lol

Felicia's outfit is a mix of sources, inspired by both her original costume, with the furry chest (in this case unzippable) as well as obviously more modern sexy latex outfits and so on... but i did NOT give her cleavage to her bellybutton cause I think that's dumb. though. to be fair in this case it would be more justifiable 😂

i love drawing her long long hair (angel medina's fault tbh) (sensational spider-man my beloved...)

rawr 😼

he's trying very hard not to laugh 😂 but he's into it, he's having fun

the muzzle ended up being like multiple designs from photo refs mashed into one so idk... how realistic it is other than the nose-forehead piece which was the same on both my refs. admittedly it looks a little loose but 🤷 still looks nice 😏

claws 😏

I also drew Peter in the classic suit, which I don't normally do, but I was doing more of the comic book look here instead of my own AUs and so on lol

he broke the cuffs so he could touch her butt 🙄 god peter don't you know how much real leather BDSM gear costs (don't tell him)

this new pen tablet is a lot of fun, it's way more comfortable to draw on and the increased pressure sensitivity makes it a lot easier to draw my favorite thing to draw: peter's arm hair 😂😂

the only weird thing is if I press down medium or harder while I'm drawing it... creaks? which is very funny, my old pen did not do that. it really is weirdly like using a felt tip pen or a very fine point marker. except it's plastic.

shoes. it may be classic style but I can never resist giving Peter sporty soles lol I know some people hate that but I just think it looks nice and I can handwave the sticking away as electrostatic forces or something. negative charge. electron transfer. blah blah blah. (in my AU i decided Peter has both electrostatic sticking that encompasses his whole body and ALSO adhesive secretions so if he gets his hands and feet bare i guess he has double the sticking power lol)

shaded versions just cause

tits

i really like drawing latex lol

also if you're wondering why i didn't give peter a boner to match his red face well i have an out and it's that long ago i decided he wears a dance belt under the costume so as not to inflict the outline of his dick and balls on the people of NYC on a daily basis, and dance belts are first of all designed as mentioned to smooth out and hide that outline but also you wear them with everything pointing north and the waistband is like 5 inches wide so i don't think he has to worry about his little buddy escaping LOL (though I'm sure it's possible it would be more visible... i didn't bother trying to google it lol)

really i just didn't feel like trying to draw a boner 😂

#peterfel #felicia hardy #black cat #peter parker #spiderman #spider-man #nadiart #fanadiart #shiny art

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greeniery · 3 months

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I know it's a popular post and you're probably sick of it by now, but I love the plexiglass post.

I see that kind of comparison made a lot but people usually use just a sheet of Regular glass. I'm not sure if this was your intention but the fact that it's plexiglass makes the statement all the more real to me. It often feels like there is cheap inauthentic border society (or myself) imposes (some way or another) that draws a line between me and everybody else. This barrier is not even one of real glass, it is subpar acrylic plastic glass. It warps, it grows cloudy after a time and it doesn't even grow cold as glass would. I can feel everyone else's warmth from the other side of it. Though, I am still behind a piece of shitty acrylic.

Sorry if this speculation was silly, it just made me think!

not sick of it! i mute notifications once they start to bug me. thank you so much for caring this much tbh lol. the use of plexiglass was intentional and you hit the nail on the head. may we both break from our enclosures some day

#ask #ty :)

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purplesurveys · 2 months

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1804

Did you know that all the fish are dying out? That's the sad case for a lot of animals...

Would you ever wear a white tuxedo? I can't see why I'd ever refuse the opportunity. It's not my personal style, but also why not?

Do you judge a book by its cover? In a literal sense, yes. People-wise, I have my first, super topline impressions depending on how strong a person initially comes off as.

Do you like chips and dips? Yes, anything that comes with a dip I'd be all over.

Last time you went on a rollercoaster: 11 years ago in Singapore. I rode one for the first time, hated it, and have never wanted to get on another rollercoaster since.

Ever been to a pottery class? Not a class per se but I went to a factory once where we were shown the process of pottery and allowed for a handful of volunteers to make their own jars. I joined in :)

Does your milkshake bring all the boys to the yard? I hope it doesn't...

Who was the last person to stay over at your house? That would be Reena I think, but that's been a while.

Do you like red lipstick? Not on me.

Can you recall your country’s national anthem? Of course.

Do you believe in ghosts? Nope.

Which sweets/candy would you put into your dream pic'n'mix? I never liked candy and never had a bag of mixed candies, so I don't relly know...maybe a bunch of different gummy shapes, sour strips, and peanut butter chocolates.

If you had a boat, where would you sail in your boat? Point Nemo.

Can you rap? I have select rap verses memorized but abilty-wise I'd never say I could be a rapper haha.

Are you a light sleeper? No, I'm awful when it's situations where I have to wake up. I'm never able to do it, regardless of how many alarms I set.

When you were young, did you ever pretend to “marry” somebody? Eh, not really.

What is your favourite Disney film? Toy Story and Tangled.

Do you prefer brown or white bread? White.

Have you ever spent an entire day in bed? I have. I need those days sometimes.

Don’t you just find it annoying when people get too much plastic surgery? I'll sometimes find it hard to understand people who do it in excess, but I just keep those thoughts internally always and I also wouldn't say it's annoying.

How high’s your pain threshold? Very low, it's almost clownish.

What would you wear to a red carpet event? I see myself declining the invitation, lol.

Whose birthday is next, out of all the people you know? Hobi's :)

What kind of coat are you going to wear in the winter? We don't have winter and I don't own coats.

Did you ever go through a Goth phase? I didn't.

Do you find architecture interesting? Only to a certain extent. I like seeing photos of certain styles, like brutalism, but I wouldn't read about architecture.

When on the computer do you ever think about how it all works? Never, tbh.

How many songs are there in your iTunes library? I haven't used iTunes in over a decade.

Do you like Irish accents? I don't dislike it but I also don't particularly watch out for it.

Describe the worst date you’ve ever been on: My ex cursing me out in full public view at a party.

When did you last go to the park? Last July at the KLCC Park in Malaysia.

Which two animals would you breed together to make a hybrid? Dog and quokka, haha.

Do you ever forget how to walk? Doesn't really happen to me, no.

Do you own a Jesus bracelet? Nope.

How far out can you stick your tongue? Not far at all. It doesn't take long before it starts to hurt.

Do you like David Bowie? I like him and acknowledge his talent but I can't say I've really listened to him a lot.

Would you eat a live cockroach if it made you a millionaire? Tempting, but no.

Does it annoy you when you feel like people aren’t really listening? It depends on how they're like when they do so. Some people are more outright about not actually listening to what you have to say (my mom does this a lot and it drives me insane), but there are those instances where someone just isn't comfortable with eye contact so they do other stuff while hearing you out – that's okay with me.

Are you the type who usually plays it safe? For the most part.

Do you want what you can’t have? Yes, all the money in the world lol.

Ever been copied by somebody, clothing or style-wise? Not really.

Is there a point to clear nail varnish? Idk I don't know much about nail polish and things like that.

What is the latest time you’ve ever woken up? 11 AM.

Ever gotten into trouble over something you didn’t really do? Sure.

Are you currently ill? I had colds just a few days ago but it's on its way out now.

Don’t you just hate being corrected? If it's done in either a condescending or a really harsh reprimanding tone, then yeah.

Are there any really beautiful buildings close to where you live? Not really. You'll need to go all the way to Manila for the pretty architecture.

Who do you think about most? These days, it's about thinking of what to do and what new things to explore and experience once my resignation officially takes effect. I plan on spending April doing a hard reset and kind of just taking a trip here and there to rediscover myself and get myself ready for my new chapter.

I'm also thinking of what new jobs to apply for, of course.

Do you have embarrasing parents? No. My mom can be embarrassing when she occasionally turns into a Karen but otherwise at 25, embarrassing is a word I hardly use for my parents anymore lol.

How often do you use the word “poltent”? Did you mean potent? Because I'm not sure poltent is an actual word.

How’s your grandmother? They're both fantastic and healthy.

What in your opinion is the most annoying noise in the world? Kids.

Are you any good at writing? I am.

Can you speak any Spanish? Not conversational but I could make out words and phrases beyond the basic ones because Spanish colonization.

Do you like things from the ‘50s? Just Audrey Hepburn but otherwise wasn't being a woman at the time awful?

Would you rather be skeletal or curvy? I don't have a preference.

What’s your favourite type of cloud? I don't have one either.

What’s something that really matters to you? My wellbeing.

Did that pass some time? Yes, so much so I took this over 3 days lol. Thanks it was fun!

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alltimefail-sims · 4 months

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OKAY SO LITTLE UPDATE AND SCATTERED THOUGHTS ON THE NEW EP

It turns out that removing 95% of your mods will improve the game's overall ability to run. Not shocking, but it's definitely a thing lol. I've also learned that some mods, while amazing conceptually, will probably not be added back into my game. This isn't on the modders: some mods are just so complex that I honestly can't keep up with them and therefore can't enjoy their features to the full extent. I do miss my custom recipes, wonderful whims, and a few lumpinou mods though (but that's really it so far).

I also removed all my custom sliders because I have no idea what is broken and what isn't at this point. Shocked to say I don't miss most of them, so I think it might be time I clean that folder out. I did, however, miss my presets!!! Especially body and mouth presets! Likely gonna tidy up those folders and then add those back in.

Kijiko eyelash remover seems to be working perfectly fine in my game, so if you use that one you are probably good to go.

The new pack's CAS items are good! I don't think I'm going to use a lot of it outside of sims in Tomarang, but that's okay. As of right now I am not planning to do an in-depth review of the CAS items because I pretty much just feel "fine" about all of it across the board: I don't hate anything but I'm not absolutely in love with anything either. Idk if I'm just feeling this way or if others are as well, but it seems like a lot of the items (especially the hairs) aren't really new and they're just modifications of things we already have... but that could be just me. I will say the cute dress with the slit up the side... chef's kiss. Needed more swatches though!

One unexpected item that I did love was the tea kettle!! I'm never buying a tea magic brewer or tea pot ever again. I never realized how badly I needed the ability to only make one cup of a tea/hot chocolate/coffee at time but it has been a game changer. I don't have much to say about the build/buy... it's all really nice. 🤷‍♀️ Wish there were more items that really stood out, but for the most part it's all just good, simple pieces with a few beautiful wall hangings (nice posters, a few good plants, love the baskets, standing toilet is a nice addition, adore the plastic garden chairs, etc.). Functional radiators, water tanks, etc. were fantastic additions with this pack and I would have been happy if they were just decor tbh (and was expecting them to be) but the fact that they aren't makes me very happy. Compatibility across packs is done far too rarely, so I'll let the sims team have this one crumb of a win.

I'm still testing this pack out so gameplay features are being dicovered bit by bit. Haven't ran into some of the big bugs people have been having, but I'm still early in the save and playing as a tenant (I stand by the fact that I have 0 interest being a property owner). The tester sim I made (Riley, she/they) vibed so hard with Vanesha Cahyaputri. Like the two of them have "amazing compatibility" and had full bar friendship almost instantly and I did not make Riley with any partner in mind... I didn't even know Vanesha was a canon lesbian! But they haven't had a single negative interaction soooo brb I'm on my way to make her over ASAP because I loooooovee a good sapphic friends to lovers arc. 😂

Lastly: I have some asks in my inbox. I swear I'm not ignoring you if you've messaged me, it's just been a chaotic few days as December is always so busy. I will answer them as soon as I can! Until the holidays are over I'll probably be posting sporadically! I'm still going to be here, but I'm enjoying just playing the game without any pressure to post about it.

Also, with updates breaking cc and sliders like crazy, it's unlikely I'll be sharing any sims outside of sim requests for a while. I'll still crank out builds, happily chat about my OCs, and reblog other people's content on here. For now I plan to just enjoy my time with my family and play the game stress free! ❤

Okay bye now!

#also idk where that gif is from but it's hilarious #okay I'm done now haha update over for real #update #personal #gif warning #ignore spelling errors this is a mess of thoughts

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dumbdomb · 7 months

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10/19

i'm guessing this is for the nsft ask thing

10. What do you think your favourite position would be?

well, the position i'm usually in when i'm alone is on my back, sometimes with my legs up. i'd like to try more things, being on my tummy with my hips raised for example. i'm more interested in trying things now, but i have no one to do anything with at the moment 😅 ...haha.

19. If money wasn’t an issue, how many sex toys would you have and what would they be?

oh, wow. so many things!! i recently got a really cute, rainbow petite le wand on sale. i love toys that feel like "toys" and have a whimsy about them or are overly, devastatingly, pretty (less resembling it's purpose and more like a fairy wand, or a mermaid's seashell, etc). Very kawaii.

i don't like large sized dildos and such. the toy i use for penetration is the avant d15, which is 5 inches insertable and has a width of 1.25. the toy i was considering getting next is the blue unihorn, with a flicking tongue. i was also interested in trying a device, like the rolevin electric nipple corrector. i think a session with a machine sucking on my nipples sounds way nicer than a plastic fimble hanging on, not doing anything really...

i wish i knew of a shop that sold more items that are cute AND body safe, and that aren't just silicone toys. (if you know of any i could look into, please share the information! it'd be very appreciated.) i also have some toys from Cute Little Fuckers (starsi, jix, and trinity- which is too big for me to insert lol. i mostly like trinity's adorable little fangs tbh.)

i also want to get a cool silicone toy from a handmade shop, something like a monster tongue. but lots of terato toys are either too big or too expensive to try out without knowing for sure if i'd like the way it feels. i kinda wish they made penile pumps for vulvas, but i guess the closest thing is an air sucking toy?

i would try so many obscure items if cost wasn't an issue lol. that, and my privacy holds me back from buying larger items (like furniture pieces or that vibrating machine you straddle, and regular fucking machines honestly).

kinda funny how much my pillow prince/ss tendencies are showing right now. all these toys basically require me to do nothing lmao. yeah... just hook me up to a bunch of gadgets and gizmos in a room full of screens with spirals and filthy content for a few hours like... xP

i've also thought about making my own, like, casting my own vulva or someone else's part for a toy. but idk much about actually doing that so... i haven't tried it.

#anon my beloved #answered #long post #pillow princess

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castle-dominion · 11 months

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c1x10 a death in the family ooh this is the last episode!

I like how I started with s2 so that i had a feel for the characters as they should be before going to s1 where they are figuring things out & I'd be saying "this isn't right" for the rest of the series but I actually kind of wish that my solo binge watch could have been in order, I feel like it would have made more sense. Tho I didn't HAVE s1 by the time I started. It was (obviously) the most requested castle disc set. (I just found out in canada disk is computer related disc is for everything else.)

Ok I get it not seeing the fellow from the front bc of the cover & the sides bc of the tint but the back window? They should be able to see this fellow Fun song

wow 10 years. I don't make promises Martha: dr death Me: doctor death defying from the killjoys? MR: Well, you ever stop to think you're invading her privacy? RC: I'm not poking through her underwear drawer. I'm investigating her mother's murder. Me: is that any BETTER?

I love alexis, this reminds me a ton of myself & my mom. AC: Dad, all we've done is hold hands. RC: Ew. Okay, Please. Don't need details. Just... Martha is the greatest

KB: I'm not running a background check on your daughter's date. RC: Oh, come on. She says he's quiet. He keeps to himself and he lives with his parents. Tell me that doesn't sound like a serial killer to you. [They join Ryan and Esposito.] JE: Who's a serial killer? (XD) KB: Castle's daughter, Alexis, got invited to prom. RC: It's her first real date. KR: And you're worried he's a serial killer? You should be more worried he's a teenage boy. (tbh yeah) RC: Oh, he's only fifteen. KR: Between satellite TV and the Internet, 15 the new 25. (he's right tbh) JE: Dude's right. I was fifteen once. *cringes* (most people have been... Thomas brackenreid: what do you know about kids? george crabtree: well I was one!) KR: Still are : ) (XD) JE: If I had a daughter her age, I'd never let her out of the house. (So you know & participate in this behaviour. This sort of line always makes me a bit mad.) RC: Thanks, guys. (https://scriptline.livejournal.com/21496.html) Outfits: ryan has a very unbuttoned shirt, esposito has the nice tie.

I remember this episode now! Probs smells p bad lol Fingernails for ripping off the plastic or...? just pinch it bro. It must be the "or" Broken how much before death? I think it might have been close enough that it would present as peri mortem.

Poor gal. Plastic surgery? That sounds like it could be useful to criminals bro. Just like you mom! If you're going to be late, you call!

When did ryan put on a real shirt & cover up his cleavage? Castle: *deadpans some random theory just as an example* Castle: HWoah! That's a good one! *shocked at himself for coming up with a good story?*

He asks permission when it's about smth like this.

KB: Same reason a recovering alcoholic doesn't drink. You don't think I haven't been down there? You don't think I haven't memorized every line in that file? My first three years on the force, every off-duty moment was spent looking for something someone missed. It took me a year of therapy to realize, if I didn't let it go, it was going to destroy me. And so I let it go. So she HAS been to therapy, she HAS let it go before, she LET IT GO after a YEAR of THERAPY. I feel like they forgot this information during s4.

Boobs are designed to look like butts actually. Santa's not real!

So is the clinic still working even tho the doctor is gone? Or maybe he shared the space with someone? OH WAIT they didn't realize he was dead

New fic idea: this surgeon is the one who transed [character's] gener. Or maybe was planning on it & now the person needs to get a new surgeon, possibly bc they had plans or a deadline of some sort. Or fic idea where they are talking about how "gross" plastic surgery is & beckett is like "I had braces as a kid, how different is it?" & one of the others is like (monkey with eyes meme that got deleted when my post went kaput) thinking "i didn't trans my gener no-sir-ee"

from here on out the liveblog comments are recreated (you will see the point which tumblr broke)

RC: Mentally unstable plastic surgery chick. That is way better than harvesting organs.

KB: Well, apparently, quite a lot. Me, trans: don't u know it

castle is right but unhelpful

MR: Her ears stick out, her... *sees mirror* Oh, God, her butt's too flat

love the rysposito banter it's his WORK computer, ofc it's pornless

castle is so right abt billing vs patient info

Not reformatting & adding my comments like I did when I wrote this the first time before tumblr went stupid but here:

BECKETT (CONT'D) So, did Alexis find a dress yet?

CASTLE Yeah. Yeah. Cute one, too. Boy, I can't believe my little girl's going to prom. My only comfort now is the longstanding tradition of torturing the boyfriend.

BECKETT What do you mean?

CASTLE You know, the time-honored hazing that goes on in those few moments we share, where he and I are alone, just before my daughter descends the stairs.

RYAN I remember the terror of meeting my date's old man.

CASTLE What'd he do?

RYAN Checked my wallet for condoms, showed me his gun collection. My hands were shaking so bad, I could barely put on the corsage. (never uses a pronoun)

CASTLE What'd your dad do?

BECKETT I... I don't know. I was in my room.

CASTLE How was your date when you finally came out?

BECKETT You know, actually, now that you mention it, he looked terrified. And this whole time, I thought he was scared of me.

CASTLE Nope. And now it's my turn.

RYAN What are you planning?

CASTLE Something befitting the name of Castle.

girl ur vic is dead he can't care

CASTLE So, what if we ask the other side?

BECKETT You want to ask the mob who the witness is?

i didn;t KNOW beckett read plays

lmao sal

ESPOSITO Jimmy "the Rat" Moran, aka Jimmy Pretty. Been linked to gambling, loansharking, and extortion schemes.

RYAN You know, you want a guy to be loyal, you probably shouldn't nickname him "the Rat."

BECKETT Okay, so let's start off by digging up all known associates of the Spolano family.

RYAN Yeah, sure. And while we're at it, we'll just bang our heads against a brick wall. You know, just for fun.

[Castle looks confused

ESPOSITO Professional hits are the hardest to close because of the anonymous nature of the murders. The usual rules - like motive and relationship to victim - don't apply.

y he confused tho? he should know, he's a crime novelist & actually rly smart, haven't you seen the pilot where he pulls a sherlock holmes & lifts beckett's entire backstory?

sprinkles ARE a metaphor! (I didn't know they were already a metaphor this early but it makes sense)

castle would look more like a dork than a threatening dad

CASTLE What? Whoa, whoa! Wait, wait, wait. Whoa, whoa! That's it? I don't even get a chance to ask him if he's killed a man?

ALEXIS Dad, he hasn't. But I might.

CASTLE Alright. Get out of here. Don't do anything I would do.

voice is not funny bro

she calls it an "unmitigated disaster" before the real disaster even got worse

i looked it up & still don't know how teflon bullets work

castle u could watch the kiss to make sure it doesn't last too long

CASTLE In a couple of years, you're gonna go off to college. You're gonna get married. You're gonna have kids. And I'm only gonna see you on holidays. Until some gold-digger steals all my money, but then I get to move in with you.

ALEXIS Wow. I feel like I just lost thirty years of my life.

CASTLE That's how it happens. One day you're in tutus, and the next day you're too old for severed heads. (u only have 5% of your shared time left or smth)

ALEXIS Dad, don't worry. No matter how old I get, I'll always be your little girl.

my mom @/nowtransparent: unless she's trans

oof reminds me of culinary school. I made a lot of comments about this but I'm not rewriting them

BECKETT It's just... Doesn't that seem like a weird thing to be doing on a Friday night?

RYAN Yeah, well. When you're a low man on the totem pole, that's what life is like. People think they can call you into work at 6 a.m. on a Saturday.

y they tell the hospital to remove the IV but not the fbi to arrest her? bc they don't have enough evidence for the first murder?

WHEN did she join the plastic surgery? was it specifically for jimmy?

"What's that going for these days" as if it's money not years in jail lol

she's allowed to just turn state?

ok idky why but i rewrote (in a crappy summary) some of my comments. here is when I found out I broke things, it goes back to real-time liveblogging now:

FUUUUUUUUUUUUdge

MY LIVECOMMENT GOT DELETED & IDK WHY. I HIT CTRL Z & IT GOT RID OF WAY WAY MORE THAN MY LAST LINE; THEN WHEN I HIT CTRL Y IT DIDN'T DO A GOSHDARN THING WHAT THE HECK MAN?

Lady hit man. A real blow for women's rights.

it's called girl power not girl morals

or whatever the fuck i said before TUMBLR ATE MY FRIDGING POST

well

i'm frickng pissed.

dun dun dun it's bad news about beckett wow i'm so thrilled about it but not rly bc i'm mad

martha is sort of right but why can't castle skip beckett & tell esposito who gave him the file or montgomery maybe? (except I know how the future seasons go)

sprinkles is a metaphor

good to tell her to sit

oof

& I love the style of the credits this season.

now that I spent WAY MORE time than I wanted to watching JUST TWO episodes, I need to go make supper.

#fanfic ideas #castle 1x10 #castle 1x10 spoilers #castle 1x10 quote #castle s1 spoilers

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oh no worries about answering late, i understand you completely - i'm getting ready for my finals too, finishing all assignments i was supposed to do during the year but ignored until now 🤣 glad you're free now!

we're actually studying in pretty similar fields i think? i used to be a languages major but dropped out, now i'm majoring in marketing. and english isn't my first language either. i used to write in my native one exclusively, now it's the other way around haha. what other languages do you speak?

ooh i love when you discover artists thanks to other artists! so some more basic questions: what are your favorite albums/eras/songs?

and also have you seen velvet goldmine? i'm really not sure how i discovered bowie and lou but it could've been through this movie tbh!

-❄️ (i sign like this so you know it's me since you have two santas! and my name is daniel btw!)

Hope all your works are going well! And also wish you have the best holiday season after you are finally free from all the assignments 😅

Woah that’s niceeee! Exciting to know that you are doing marketing cause I’m pretty bad at it lol. I have never studied any other marketing except the linguistic branding one which is compulsory courses but from what I see I know that my brain is not made for it

Anyway, my first lang is Thai and I do speak a bit of French and Spanish but quite badly. Wby?

For the question ~ I think 70s is my fav music era as I feel like it was very bold and experimental in a strange way that fit just right to my taste, especially with Bowie! My fav Bowie era would be The Plastic Soul 74-76, around the late Diamonds Dog and Young American/Thin White Duke. And ofc my fav album is Station To Station (i am basic hahaha)

For VU if I have to pick one album out of four (I just expose myself that I count Loaded as VU and I do not count Squeeze 😂), I would say White Light/White Heat as i think this album is VU at their rawest form. Personally, I think the banana album is better both lyrically and musically but WL/WH just has the kick that I prob wouldn’t find on other bands

Okay enough about VU lmao

Yes I LOVE Velvet Goldmine!!!! This movie never failed to delight me. Idk if it’s because I get so much entertainment from picking up bit and pieces abt Bowie, Lou, and Iggy Pop rather than actually like the plot but still… I enjoy it and that’s enough 🤣

Plus it is really a ao3 -style Bowie/Lou/Iggy fanfics and who wouldn’t love that hahaha

Thank you for all the great interaction and questions! I have no clue who you are but I enjoy talking to you so much my friend.

So before I end this, here are some questions and requests from me to you 😙

What is your 3 favorite artist/bands

Which albums/song/live-show (could be anything) of them you would recommend to me?

Best,

Tawan

#secret rocker santa 2022 #srs22

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dollopheadedmerlin · 2 years

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So, fun fact, I have a pretty large Merlin Merchandise collection

Everything in this picture (except for the map on the right side of the shelf) is official merch. I've got your typical stuff like the action figures, the backpack, and the wallet, but I also have a few lesser known ones and some pretty rare finds too.

Right between Kilgharrah and the wallet is a pack of Merlin themed Top Trump card, a game I've never played but that has really cool hard plastic packaging!

Next to the DVDs is all of the books that were ever released. Up top we have a weird notebook that looks like Merlin's spellbook, which comes with a cheap quill-shaped pen. Beneath that is a scholastic book that tells the story of the Labrinth of Gedreff as a stand alone tale and it comes with a CD that has an audio version in which the narrator has clearly never seen the show and so he chooses very funny voices for the characters.

Then we have all of the "younger reader" books. Those are just written versions of espiodes with occasional linework illustrations. There is a secret message where all of the books have a different rune watermark and you have to follow clues on the spine to spell out a word but . . . they use a different rune system (with similar looking letters) then the show's props so at first it just spelled jibberish but it's meant to say "Emrys" (and I technically does if you use the "right" alphabet lol).

Under that we have the hero's and villain's guide, as well as the complete guide (which ironically is VERY incomplete as it was released after season one haha)

Then there's the activity books, the Book of Mystery and Magic, the Annuals, and the awful DS Game :)

Then there's a few more chapter books. Same deal as the "younger reader" ones except there aren't any pictures and they're meant for older kids (probably tweens and teens maybe?). I especially like these because the spines line up to form images

Okay, now for the pretty rare stuff. In the brown binder beneath the backpack, I have the Topps Merlin sticker collection, which is a little under 200 numbered stickers that are all Merlin themed

Unfortunately, most of them are honestly quite ugly screencaps (I have no idea WHY they would chose stuff like this for a sticker collection tbh)

BUT a FEW of them are holographic

These were hard to find a complete set of but I managed to buy an already completed set off of ebay Collect Them All ™

Now the stamp collection wasn't very hard to find, but it does seem to be logistically rare because there appears to only have been one thousand ever made (I have #425/1000).

But the MAGAZINES! Now THOSE were hard to find! There's not much information on them but I'm PRETTY SURE the Merlin Magazine only had two issues! It's really cool, I especially find it interesting seeing contest prizes for prop peices and tabloid-like interviews with the cast. But each them also has a comic with original content. I wouldn't consider them canon because quite frankly i feel like they're a bit out of character, but I was super surprised that the comics weren't just adapted episodes like all the books!

Each issue also came with "exclusive free gifts"

NOW THESE WERE THE HARDEST THINGS TO FIND LET ME TELL YOU! The ONLY reason I was able to find these was because I asked the person that I bought the magazines from if she knew if she still had the gifts. At fist, she only had two or three of them but she *found them* over the course of a *year* and I bought them off of her as they turned up in her home (except the last one! She surprised me and just mailed it to me for free to complete the collection!). These still toys are so funny because other than the keychain and buttons, these are just preexisting toys that they wrapped up in Merlin packaging, which is why Kilgharrah is green and the serket toy is just a bright orange sticky scorpion (like those sticky hand thingies).

That's about it though! Let me know of you want a closer look at anything and I'll try to take more detailed pictures!

#mine #merlin #bbc merlin #merlin bbc #merlin merch #merlin merchandise #merch collection #merlin fandom

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yoonpobs · 3 years

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bad boy good thing xiv.

pairing: jeon jungkook x oc

genre: angst, smut, fluff, miscommunication (we hate her lol), pining

warnings: smut, jungkook is really an asshole, the angst hurts a lot tbh, unhealthy relationships (?)

words: 5, 690

summary: a series of drabbles where you're confused and jungkook's confusing

a/n:

hello!!!! we’re here at fourteen chapters omg ✨✨when i first started this series it was mostly self-indulgent and now there are people who actually enjoy reading it??🥺 it almost doesn’t seem real T.T

thank you so much for the love and support!!! just so I don't give too much spoilers for this chap - I apologise to my fellow geminis for the potential slander 🤣 this is more of a self-drag lmaooo

anyway, I hope you enjoy this chap!!!

“Ah. I’m getting allergies.” Yena sniffs, scrunching her nose.

You furrow your brows in concern, “Are you okay? Do you need any medicine?”

“It’s just the seasonal changes,” She brushes you off.

You nod in understanding, “I get it. My mom has horrible reactions towards pollen so—”

“I’m not allergic to flowers.” She blinks.

“Then what—?”

“It’s Gemini season. It’s like—literally the worst time of the year.” She blinks.

You gawk at her, taking a whole ten seconds to process her serious tone when she doesn’t waver under your scrutiny.

“I’m a Gemini,” You inform her slowly.

“I mean …” She shrugs all as you scowl at her, opting to throw the closest object you had, which was your favourite pen so you decide against it; simply shooting her the meanest glare you could possibly muster.

“Look, it’s not you,” She sighs, and you’re half-expecting her to finish with an it’s me to make you scoff, “It’s me.” And there you go. “I mean, it’s Gemini’s in general because they’re two-faced bitches who have the worst emotional attachment issues. Like they’re literally what the opposite of glue is. And they’re so over-analytical. How is it like psychoanalysing every person you meet only to hurt your own feelings and sulk about it?”

You blink.

“I mean it’s not you but if the shoe fits.” She says casually, plopping a grape into her mouth that you’re tempted to slap away.

“You’re so mean!” You pout indignantly.

She cackles, throwing her head back as you continue to sulk. You weren’t that bad. You just … you were risk-averse! You liked having the freedom to observe everyone and anyone and package them into tiny compartments in your head so you could understand them better. You weren’t … that Gemini.

“You’re so cute,” She coos pinching your cheeks. “No wonder Beef One and Beef Two like you so much.” She teases.

Your first reaction is to blush because you know who exactly she’s talking about, but you have more pressing matters, like—

“You have nicknames for them?” You ask, baffled.

“Hey, I wasn’t friends with many girls in high school. Don’t girls usually have nicknames for their crushes?” She says through a pout.

You stay expressionless as you try to gauge the level of seriousness you can extract from her tone.

You realise she’s dead serious.

“Yeah, but we’re in college,” You argue, scrunching your nose, “And sides’, it’s not like they’re strangers. We know them.”

She rolls her eyes, waving you off like you were the inconvenience here. Then she leans forward, her eyes twinkling as she takes a complete one-eighty that you try to adjust to.

“So … you Gemini hoe, what’s your plans?” She nudges you.

You raise a brow, “Did you just call me a—?”

“Plans, ___. Stay on track.” She scolds.

You sigh, still fond but you pretend to be annoyed. You really couldn’t get annoyed with Yena. After all, the more time you spend with her the more you realise how much life sucked before you had her in your life. You spent each moment learning more about her quirks and habits, her choice of words that made you giggle or laugh until you were crying.

And you realise that this is how she loves, a little rough but welcomed nonetheless.

“If you’re talking about my birthday then … not much. I’m probably stuck doing admin work for the college’s charity programme.” You shrug, stabbing a fork into your soiled salad.

Yena gapes at you, “Not much—excuse me? It’s your birthday! You’re turning twenty-five!”

You look at her dryly, “I’ve been twenty-five since the year—”

She groans, “That’s not the same! You’re like—officially twenty-five. You’re literally hitting the mark for a quarter-life crisis. Isn’t that something to celebrate?”

“Me going through an existential crisis at the end of my degree is not how I want to celebrate my birthday but okay,” You blink.

She rolls her eyes at your realism.

“That’s not the point. Point is, this is our first birthday together and I want it to be special.” She points out.

You snort, “What? Are we doubling my birthday as our monthsary or something?”

She shoves you with a brute force that has you snickering but she continues to pester you anyway.

“You’re so dumb. So smart, but so dumb,” She shakes her head, “You’re always studying or doing some form of work that requires the use of more than one brain cell. You deserve a break. Besides, you have two dudes to pick from on how you’d like to be wined and dined and—”

“Yena!” You whine.

“—it’ll be like an episode of the Bachelorette! But just with a super cool and smart best friend that’ll make the decision for you. It’s not your birthday. It’s ours.” She emphasises towards the end.

You stare at her for a long second, before the two of you are bursting into laughter at the absurdity of her statement.

It was nice, just to laugh about things without having your heart feel so heavy. Even if it was a mild distraction, it was still wholly pleasant to be able to just talk about mindless things that didn’t require much mental gymnastics to navigate the conversation with.

“What are the two of you laughing about?” Taehyung and Jimin arrive at impeccable timing, sliding into the booth with their own packaged food. It’s very college-student-esque, a cute paper (because no plastic) container filled with an array of assortments.

“None of your XY chromosomes business.” Yena retorts.

Jimin blinks, “You are literally so hostile.”

“Then don’t give me a reason to be.” She sticks her tongue out petulantly.

You laugh, nudging her with your shoulder, “Be nice.”

Taehyung rolls his eyes but manages to keep a civil smile on his face. Always the more rational one between the two.

“Anyway, Yena definitely isn’t going to answer me so, what’s up?” He turns to look at you.

You roll your eyes but it’s half-hearted, “She wants to celebrate my birthday like we’re on the Bachelorette.”

“Like you’re on the Bachelorette.” She corrects.

“Oh my God, our baby’s turning twenty-five!” Jimin coos at the reminder, pinching your cheeks as he coddles you. You scowl and weakly shove him away, even if you preen under the attention.

“I’m literally older than the both of you.” You huff.

Yena blinks, “There’s no way I’m the oldest person at this table.”

Taehyung furrows his brows, “Wait—how old are you?”

She sends him a scathing glare that has his arms raised up in defence.

“Jeez, okay. Don’t answer.”

“I’m going to answer because you told me not to.” She clips. “I’m twenty-seven.”

Jimin blinks, “No wonder you and Yoongi hyung are so alike.”

You almost miss it, but as Yena so eloquently pointed out, you were a sucker for psychoanalysing people (even if you didn’t want to admit it yet) that you notice the way she flushes ever so slightly as she scoffs.

“Him? How dare you compare me to that sorry excuse of a—!”

“Okay, everyone is beneath you. I’m sorry your highness.” Jimin rolls his eyes.

You make a note to ask her about it because you know for a fact that Yoongi ‘complains’ about Yena every hour he can. It’s almost as if he can’t go long enough without mentioning her.

You smile to yourself as you duck your head.

“Exactly,” She flips her hair over her shoulders before turning to face you. “Anyway, back to you—our baby.”

Taehyung nods, “Exactly, the baby.”

You scrunch your nose, “Don’t coddle me.”

He pats your head before cooing at you like he would to an actual baby, “But you’re just so cute. You’re too good for this shitty world. Too good for the likes of mere mortals like us.”

“Not me.” Yena blinks before gesturing to their bodies, “You.”

Jimin sticks his tongue out in retaliation as you sigh at their never-ending bickering.

Somehow … it felt right. You think it most of the times but you don’t know any other way to describe how it feels to be back with your friends, laughing, bickering and just appreciating their presence.

When you and Jungkook had your issues, it was like you made the conscious choice to avoid everyone and anyone as much as you could, and any interaction you had during that period was purely out of coincidences and not the intention. You remember actively avoiding Jimin and Taehyung because it felt too draining to pretend like you didn’t have a battle in your head. Even studying or spending time with Namjoon made you feel guilty, the thought of Jungkook lingering in your mind. Yena was there through it all, but even then you saw her as much as you did with any of your classmates you so happened to share a class with.

In fact, if it weren’t for Yena you’d probably have zero social interactions as a whole because she just knew. She somehow picked up on your internal conflicts but never outwardly shamed you or confronted you about it. All she did was be there for you, offering you her presence and you were grateful.

So, yeah. Things were better, but your heart was still at its core—confused. Your feelings for Jungkook didn’t disappear overnight and you knew that you were the one that asked for space.

You forgave him … you did, honestly. But there are things you can’t forget, and those are the things that you wished you could. The words he said in principle, was outright shitty. But the fact that it came from him only poked at every single one of your insecurities that you developed over the years.

You knew it wasn’t healthy to compare yourself to other women when they were living vastly different lives than you were, but it’s proven difficult when you’re forced to see these type of women every day, at college, in your community work or on the media.

Believing Jungkook’s apparent feelings for you was harder because, well. Jungkook was Jungkook. He wasn’t just another guy, and despite his shortcomings, he had more merits than he’d let on and you knew that people saw that. It was also the fact that Jungkook had a charm that drew all types of people in. He was soft-spoken but passionate, and people loved a quiet achiever.

You … knew about the women. Way before Jennie and way before the thing between the two of you happened. Jimin and Taehyung would always update you about the new fling or girl he had tied to his hip just as he was in his final year in high school. You had to force a smile every single time they’d snicker and joke about how your Jungkook suddenly became a man overnight.

And you noticed the trend with the women he liked. They were … captivating. Beautiful wasn’t even enough to describe them because they looked like they could carry the world on their shoulders and spark immense change with just the movement of their lips. They were confident and charismatic, outgoing and just the right amount of flirty. You were anything but.

It sucked, majorly, because you spent years agonising over the fact that you were already coined with the older sister title in the group because of the way you acted—just a little more uptight than the average woman your age. You were quiet but loud in the right company; you didn’t like crowds, socialising or mingling around with people you didn’t know and based on your observations it seemed like that was the only thing that Jungkook’s been doing ever since he made it to senior year in high school, and even in the first years of college.

You don’t resent him, you think. You couldn’t blame him because you weren’t honest either. You consented, to all of the kisses and touches even if he hadn’t officially had sex with you. You wanted to, but you were terrified. Not at the prospect of penetration but at the prospect of not being enough and the fact that Jungkook was the only person you wanted to have sex with while he had options that were far more attractive and experienced than you were.

That’s why you needed time because at least you could get your shit together even if it was an uphill battle.

“Earth to ____?” Taehyung waves a hand in front of your face with a concerned expression.

You blink, snapping out of your daze as you offer a meek smile and an apology.

“We just asked you if you wanted a small get together at Tae’s and I’s place for your birthday?” Jimin asks.

“Really?” You beam. That was exactly what you preferred.

“Yeah, we know you don’t like clubs and stuff. Just a small and intimate gathering with all your best buds.” He grins.

You nod your head, but Yena beats you to a response.

“By best buds you mean the three friends she has, which is us and the two meatheads duelling for her affection.” She snorts.

You flush, “Y-Yena!”

Taehyung snickers at your embarrassment.

“It doesn’t help that both of them are literally the biggest dudes on the football team. It’s literally like watching King Kong and Godzilla getting into a fight for world domination.”

Jimin throws his back in laughter as you fold your arms across your chest at post at the way your friends are practically crying in laughter at the image. Jimin was clutching onto Taehyung for his dear life because if he didn’t then he’d fall off the chair.

“Stop,” You whine, “you guys are being mean.”

“Oh my God, you’re literally the only person on this earth that would take two people fighting for your attention as an offence.” Taehyung groans.

“I-It’s not that!” You deny exasperatedly, “I-It’s just … awkward …”

Jimin sighs with a small smile, patting your head.

“If it’s any consolation I think it’s offensive that Jungkook thinks he even has the right to breathe in—”

“Jimin!”

“Wow. It really is like King Kong and Godzilla.” Jimin whistles lowly, eyeing the scene before him with amusement lingering in his eyes.

“Do you think they’re gonna start slamming their chests soon or …?” Taehyung trails off in a whisper, leaning into Jimin so that the two other men wouldn’t notice.

“I can literally hear you.” You say dryly.

Jimin offers you a plastic smile, “You’re meant to hear us, babe. How about you try to tame them like Jane did with Tarzan?”

Jimin nearly shrieks when you shove him so fiercely that he topples over into Taehyung’s grasp as the second part of the duo only catches him in the process.

You sigh, completely ignoring the way that Jimin’s muttering curses that were directed to you under his breath. Instead, you were transfixed on the scene before you—which specifically is Jungkook and Namjoon staring each other down through the mirror of the gym. You were lucky that it was just the five of you since Namjoon was able to use his captain privileges to book the gym because you had no idea how to explain the fact that two big-sized men were attempting to outdo each other in their circuit reps as if they were on a suicide mission.

“Listen, when I agreed to help you out with your sets I thought I was meant to help log it in for a report.” You exasperate, but the two men continue their manly lift-off as they huff and puff their exertion away.

“Trust me, you are helping. Being the motivation is more than—”

This time it’s Taehyung who faces your wrath as you thwack him upside the head.

From where Jungkook and Namjoon were, Jungkook can only deliver death stares into the direction of his captain who returns it tenfold. He wasn’t even sure why they were doing this but something a flicked definitely switched in Jungkook when Namjoon (purposefully) revealed that you were helping out with something. At the gym. Supposedly alone.

Jungkook’s primitive side came out because the next thing Namjoon knew was that Jungkook managed to drag himself, and Jimin and Taehyung as a diversion. He still feels his chest swell with pride when recalling the scowl on Namjoon’s face when he entered the gym, all fake smiles and a pep in his step.

“____, could you help me spot?” Namjoon breathes, sitting up from whatever the hell he was doing with the barbell. You weren’t fixated with gym language and you weren’t even sure why he was asking you when there was an entire Jimin and Taehyung right next to you.

“Uh, okay sure—“

“Noona,” Jungkook calls.

You freeze.

“Jungkook … I thought we established that you don’t need to call me that anymore.” You raise an eyebrow.

You miss the obvious glare that Namjoon shoots his bitchass friend, as well as the snorts that leave Jimin and Taehyung’s mouth.

“Pay attention to me,” Jungkook pouts. Like, actually pouts. You somehow flush because he seemed so much like the younger version of Jungkook who used to always coddle you for attention.

“Okay but after I help—”

“Yeah. After she helps me.” Namjoon interjects, and you nearly jump at the way he’s suddenly behind you, more so—pressed against your back with his hands on your hips as he moves you aside to get to another piece of equipment.

Your breath hitches because while you weren’t exactly invested in Namjoon in the romantic sense, he was undeniably attractive and … big. You could salivate in private.

“Oh my God, do you see that?” Taehyung hisses in a hushed whisper.

“Hyung is petty,” Jimin gawks.

“This is Namjoon we’re talking about. Didn’t he steal all the umbrellas from your dorm because you ratted him out to the librarian when he broke a bookshelf?” Taehyung recalls.

Jimin pauses to retract his mind to that moment.

“He’s so petty and I’m living for it. Look at Kook’s face,” He snickers, nudging Taehyung with his shoulder.

Jungkook only can clench his jaw in return because he knew that you wouldn’t be a fan of him reaching out to strangle the shit out of Namjoon. But the older boy seems fine, if not pleased with how Jungkook’s fuming in his own spot.

“Let me just …” You cock a thumb to Namjoon, before releasing a breath of your own and going to help him with whatever he needed in the first place.

“Jimin can help him. I have a more pressing problem.” He complains.

You stop in your tracks before turning around, raising an eyebrow at Jungkook who finally sits up, still staring at you like you held all the solutions in the world.

“Literally wait for your turn,” Namjoon scowls.

“My arm hurts,” Jungkook says, raising his arm to show you.

“I don’t … see anything?” You furrow your brows.

“Because my muscles hurt, Noona,” Jungkook emphasises with a flex of his bicep and you can feel yourself get hot in the way your eyes can’t stray away.

You’re momentarily distracted by the blatant display of muscle by Jungkook that you completely miss the way that Jimin and Taehyung are struggling to breathe because of how hard they’re stifling their laughter or the way that Namjoon is contemplating on throwing the nearest dumbbell into Jungkook’s direction.

You flush, “Okay, you know what? Wait here. Let me get the first aid kit.” You mumble, quickly scampering off to alleviate yourself from the situation.

The moment you leave the room, Namjoon takes two long strides until he reaches where Jungkook’s sat, before wrapping a hand around the arm that was supposedly hurt—and squeezes.

“Ow! What the fuck hyung?!” Jungkook shrieks.

“Don’t hyung me, you brat.” Namjoon seethes, “What the fuck is wrong with you?”

Jungkook gapes, while Jimin and Taehyung watch in amusement.

“Me?! What’s wrong with you?” Jungkook retorts, equally as agitated, “Oh, _____, help spot me! Woe is me! Like she wouldn’t get crushed under you, you meathead!”

“Like you’re any better,” Namjoon snaps, “Oh, Noona, pay attention to me. My arm hurts. You might as well have asked her to change your fucking diapers at the rate you’re acting like a damn child.”

“You’re the one that started all of this!” Jungkook exasperates, “With all due respect hyung, I love you and you’re my captain but I really feel like smashing your head into the wall right now.”

“That’s it?” Namjoon scoffs, “Well I’ll do you one better and let you know that every time you breathe in my direction I feel like—”

“Oh my God will you two idiots shut the fuck up?” Taehyung interjects, snapping at the two boys who pause, staring up at him with wide eyes.

Even Jimin is surprised at Taehyung’s intervention, purely because he was the type that usually let shit slide or let other people put problematic individuals into place. He was the mediator, the diplomat—not usually the aggressor.

“Wha—”

“Another peep and I’m going to smother your body under the dumbbells and leave you here to rot and die.” Taehyung seethes, staring straight into Jungkook’s soul.

That shuts him up.

“Both of you are acting like goddamn children, and for what? To battle out your masculinity to see who gets ____’s attention first?” Taehyung exasperates.

Namjoon clears his throat, “We were just—”

“—acting like a bunch of barbarians who’s never seen civilisation?” Taehyung retorts dryly, “Yeah. Because that’s exactly what this looks like. The two of you are so petty and for what? You two are literally rubbing the last remaining brain cells you have with each other but nothing is coming out from it. Like—nothing. Do you think she’d give a shit which one of you can lift more reps? That means absolutely nothing! She’s already freaked the fuck out at the prospect of her childhood best friend being in love with her and now we have Big Tit Number One and Two battling it out like you’re in the Greek Olympics.”

Jungkook blinks, and Jimin is mildly impressed.

“So before she comes back and tends to Jungkook’s hurt muscle,” Taehyung sneers, eyes narrowing at a guilty-looking Jungkook, “Both of you better sort your shit out.”

Namjoon flushes, embarrassed at the prospect of being called out, all while Jungkook is avoiding eye contact at all costs.

“Oh my God, do you have a crush on each other or something? Apologise!” Taehyung gestures towards the two boys who awkwardly blink at each other, feeling much like reprimanded children.

It’s Namjoon who breaks the silence first, clearly the more mature one in the situation.

“Look … Jungkook,” He sighs, “I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to … drag it out like this. I don’t mean it maliciously and you’re my friend and teammate, so I’d really hate if a girl got in the way.”

Jungkook nibbles on his lips, eyebrows still scrunched; and the irrational part of him tells him to ignore the apology. But with the way that Taehyung is glaring him down, with Jimin’s expectant gaze, he knows that he doesn’t have much of a choice.

“I’m sorry … too,” he winces at his own voice, “But just to let you know … I really …” He shuts his eyes, feeling his chest tighten when he tries to force the words out, “She isn’t just … a girl to me, hyung. I really, really like her. And—I know you like her too but … I fucked up and I really want to make things right and seeing you—”

Jungkook is flushing while he rambles on, fully aware that the rest of his friends are listening intently to him speaking his heart. But a hand rests itself on his shoulder, and when Jungkook opens his eyes he sees Namjoon offering him a gentle smile.

“I know,” He says, “I know I said I wouldn’t back off …” He trails off and Jungkook recalls the conversation he had with him in the very same gym just a few weeks back, “But I don’t think I can compete with a decade long love story.”

Jungkook scoffs, though his ears are flushed.

“It’s really not—”

Namjoon waves him off, clasping a tight hand onto his back that tells him it’s okay, and whatever that was going on would get better. And Jungkook feels marginally better and allows himself to let out a sigh of release.

“So are the two of you gonna kiss or what?” Jimin asks in the midst of the silence.

Namjoon glares at the boy, “Don’t make me give you an extra ten laps.”

He backs down immediately, raising his hands up in defence. And at that moment, you return, all smiles and with a pant as you raise the first aid kit up.

“Your arm?” You smile sweetly, and Jungkook can only offer a weak on in return.

“Can I ask you something?”

“Depends. Will I have to run from the government if I answer you honestly?” Yena ponders out loud.

You roll your eyes but shake your head anyway. The two of you were meant to be cooking dinner but you’ve surrendered yourself to Netflix and Yena’s witty live commentary on horrible films you were scrolling through an hour earlier. Though, your head wasn’t quite in it, to begin with; your thoughts drifting to other aspects, ones that you thought too hard for and didn’t necessarily know the answer to.

It was frustrating, the way that you wanted to have a solution for everything but overthought every single case that happens to pass by your mind.

“No one’s hunting anyone down, your anarchist,” You say, “This is a little … personal.”

You didn’t have any girl friends prior to Yena, and that was your first mistake. You weren’t the person that actively avoided having girl friends because you thought they were dramatic or overly emotional but purely because you never knew how to befriend women. It was weird—being a woman yet being muddled with your own sense of femininity that suppressed your ability to form meaningful friendships with your women peers.

Throughout most of your childhood and teenaged life, you only had Jimin, Taehyung and Jungkook. While they were more than enough to keep your memories cheerful and filled with laughter, there were more personal things that you couldn’t quite approach them with. They had each other to confide in their ‘manly’ discussions, small talk that you’d often flush at—but you couldn’t ask them the same things you wanted to.

You knew, that on a fundamental level that your personal things were just … things. It wasn’t that deep, nor did it require a PhD in Gender Studies to fully understand the nuance of periods or apparent ‘girl’ problems; you just needed to listen. But you were timid, and you got embarrassed super easily—so that never boded well whenever you’d want to approach them with a question of your own.

But now, you had Yena—debatably the most open and understanding person you’ve met in your life; and you owed it to yourself, and her—to be honest, to live yourself vicariously in your girl best friends eyes—and ask:

“How do you have sex?”

Granted, there was definitely a smoother way of peeling off the bandaid, but you supposed if you were going to be discussing this one way or another, you’d go big or go home.

“I’m sorry,” She coughs, “What?”

You blink.

“Sorry, I guess I should’ve asked if you were a virgin first …” You mumble.

Yena stares at you with a stupefied expression as she gapes at you.

“Hey, repeat after me: candy, tree and cat.” She grabs you by your shoulders.

“I’m not cerebrally compromised, Yena,” you say dryly.

“Repeat,” She glares.

You huff, shoving her hand off your shoulder.

“Candy, tree and cat. There, happy?” You huff.

She eyes you weirdly as you sigh.

“Are you sure you’re okay?”

“Yes!” You exasperate, “So like … how? Do you just? Penetrate?”

Yena blinks one more time, her eyes trailing to the ceiling as she asks for a higher being to give her strength before she returns her gaze onto your figure.

“Babe, that is literally the unsexiest way to approach sex.”

“Penetration?” You furrow your brows.

She scrunches her brows, “No.” She gestures to you, “That.”

You scowl.

“I don’t know how to approach sex! That’s why I’m asking you. I literally don’t know who else to approach. If I went to Jimin or Taehyung I’m pretty sure they’d just stare at me and cry. Namjoon is out of the picture because he’d likely approach sex textbook style and I don’t need that level of detail right now. I definitely can’t ask Jungkook because he’s the guy I wanna have sex with. So yeah. I’m here because you’re a woman and the only person I can have a full conversation with without losing my will to live.”

Yena gawks at you, jaw slack as you finish your ramble; ears flushed.

“… you …” She begins, wracking her brain for the words that seem to fail her, “… okay. You know what, the fact that you’re here and putting your big girl pants on and asking me this is a feat in itself so I’m going to just ignore the fact that you said you wanted to have sex with Jungkook.”

You flush, “I was word vomiting—”

“Ah,” She holds her hands up, levelling you with a knowing glare, “If you want honest, you be honest too.”

You slump in your seat, sighing as you nod your head defeatedly.

“Firstly, I’m not a virgin. I could never be a virgin.” Yena declares, “Granted, I’ve slept with three people and two of them were women. But the idiot I lost my virginity to was, unfortunately, of XY chromosomes so … I guess I can answer your questions.”

“I mean … I know how sex works but … approaching it …” You mutter.

“And sex isn’t this groundbreaking act that requires Einstein’s IQ to partake in. It’s both intimate and not, and that’s definitely a personal preference. You can know the semantics of how people have sex, for hets in this case, which is just the classic ol’ penetration method where the penis enters the—”

“Your point?” You exasperate.

“—okay, I got a little carried away. But really, sex isn’t … difficult. It’s scary, I’ll give you that. But you don’t go into your first time thinking you’ll be great at it. Hell, you won’t even like sex that much your first few times unless your partner is a sex demon or something.”

“I mean when Jungkook …” You shudder, “When he … I … you know, did things … it felt …” You fiddle with your fingers. Your ears were undoubtedly on fire, and you were so embarrassed saying these things out loud because it was just so awkward!

“Good? You know I’m not going to judge you for it,” she says pointedly, “That’s what friends are for, right?”

You flush, covering your face with your hands in embarrassment. You knew that Yena would never judge you for something as trivial and as unimportant as your sexual endeavours, but this was still a road you’ve yet to properly navigate yourself.

“I … came,” you wince at your breathy voice, “It felt good. And … he’s experienced, you know? I just don’t want to …”

Yena looks at you inquisitively.

“You don’t want to …?”

You sigh deeply, considering your next words with a soft murmur, “I don’t want to not live up to his expectations, you know?”

She frowns at you, “Jungkook’s made some mistakes but you said it yourself. He’s in love with you,” she says softly, “There’s no pressure to have sex with him just because it’s out in the open now, you know?”

You nibble on your lips.

“It’s … more than just that,” you tell her, “I told him I needed time, and really, I do. But it isn’t because I’m confused. I mean, kind of—but really it’s because I don’t want to walk into something and disappoint him … I’m just … scared.”

Yena holds your hand in hers while offering you a gentle smile.

“It’s valid that you’re scared. But there really isn’t anything that can come out of being scared right now. The two of you worked through an obstacle, and here you are creating another one that doesn’t quite exist yet. Trust me, when the time feels right, it does. And you’ll feel ready. Will you still be scared? Maybe. But it’ll feel like it’s meant to fit within your timeline.”

You nibble on your lips, “Is it bad that I’m overthinking this?” You wince.

Yena shrugs her shoulders, “Like everything else in your life?” She teases.

You whine, shoving at her shoulder playfully where all Yena does is snicker in response. You weren’t quite sure what you were expecting out of the conversation, even if it was vaguely about the ins and outs of sexual exploration. And she was right, you’ll always be afraid of something, whether it’ll benefit you or harm you because that’s what change does. It shifts your comfort zone into a space that may be unfamiliar but necessary.

You lean into Yena’s shoulder, and a wave of overwhelming emotion washes upon you when you look at her. You really didn’t know how you survived a time without Yena in your life. And as if she’s noticed your glassy gaze, she raises an eyebrow at you.

“What are you looking at?”

You grin at her, all teeth and gums on display as you hug onto her arm like a koala.

“I’m just really happy you’re in my life.” You sigh wistfully.

She pauses for one whole second before she snorts.

“Wow, talk about sex once and suddenly you’re in love with me?” She wiggles her eyebrows at you, “Tell Jeon and Kim that you’re mine now.”

You giggle, rolling your eyes.

“They’re not even competing in the same league as you are,” you assure her.

She smiles.

“So … does that mean I don’t need to get you a birthday gift?”

That earns a thwack on her shoulder.

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Hi! I'm a gay fan of 911 and I have a question about the whole Buddie fandom. As much as I like Buck and Eddie, it's frustrating that a HUGE part of the fandom is pushing for these two characters to get together instead of putting energy into supporting Hen & Carla and Michael & Dave. Not to mention Carlos and TK in Lone Star. Can you explain to me the appeal of wanting these two men together? Wouldn't it be more interesting to see two heterosexual males just be able to bond in a non-toxic fashion? That's something we don't get to see often on television.

Hey! This is MAD long lmao I am so sorry! You caught me on a day I felt like talking! Also this took like a year to answer you lolololol. This does have a few ʻhot takesʻ so please be warned! So like in this essay....

So first I am also apart of the LGBTQIA+ community, so I do understand how it could come across as a fetish or being non supportive of the current canonically LGBTQIA+ characters, however I think a lot of the interest around Buddie and the want for them to be confirmed as a couple is how they are being written. Me personally I knew since s2 e1 Buck and Eddie were written not as rivals but as two people who would eventually become friends, but it wasn’t until the Christmas episode with the elf assuming Buck was Chris’s dad and Eddie’s partner that I was like ‘hold on!’ because I was really hoping Abbey would return and I didn’t see Eddie as a possible Buck live interest because of that. The elf’s comment wasn’t played off like most other shows would (think Dean and Sam arriving anywhere in Supernatural) it made me go back and look at the other episodes to see exactly how Buck and Eddie were being framed/written. And as we have moved into further seasons I think there has been a shift in how Buddie is being written, in s3 it was very much like two people progressing into a deeper friendship then the blood clot/lawsuit gets in the way and they both have to deal with emotions surrounding that, then Buck’s response to Eddie being trapped (we see how is he when Boddy is trapped in a fire WITH A GUNMAN, it’s emotional but not to the point is is with Eddie), even the love interests feel very pushed on us and there’s so little banter between Buddie about their gfs and how they feel about these new beginnings. It feels off, not like a friendship in the slightest, more like two people trying to force something and not wanting to deal with any other feelings. Then when Eddie gets shot and reveals Buck is Chris’s legal Guardian in the event Eddie dies, that’s huge, and he did this after only a year of knowing Buck (I have friends with kids. I’ve known one of them for FIVE years, I’m at their house every week, the kid calls me family. I’m person #10 on the list of ‘who gets my kid if I die’, not #1 lol) It just feels like it’s all building up to something, and people are getting tired of waiting for that something! We’re all emotionally tired from the past two years, and probably from many shows queerbaiting us and this is something that could happen, seems to be something the actors are ok with and the fans want. So why do they keep drawing it out. This isn’t about us demanding they ignore the chance to write a healthy platonic male friendship, or forcing two characters to be gay, it’s about holding the writers to what they’ve implied and seeing what could come of it.

Also think of it like this; If Buddie is confirmed it will still be a good example of a healthy friendship which then developed into something else, like Booth/Bones! Showing the natural progression of friendship to relationship that happens a lot in real life. It’s two men who previously (on screen at least) have only been with woman, but now they have an emotionally connection with someone which they then develop and explore. This could be 911’s first nontoxic depiction of two gay characters coming together, because sorry not sorry the canon couples aren’t perfect (which does humanize them) but they also reenforce harmful troupes that plaque the LGBTQIA+ community, which I’m sure you understand: TK was a drug addict, who only got with Carlos at first cause he was hot and sex was TK’s new addition (all gay men are sex addicts who do drugs and sleep with anything that moves). Carlos was ashamed and wanted to keep TK on the downlow (poc gay men want to pretend to be straight but have free access to gay sex). Hen cheated on Karen seemingly the first chance she got (lesbians can’t handle monogamy when pushed, and cheat on their long term partners). All known and documented troupes that happen far too often.

I’m not saying Buddie is some gay jesus ship that’s gonna save the entertainment industry but if done right it could prove to be one of the few healthy depictions of two men getting into a gay relationship we have. If they plan it out correctly, show us the relationship development, like they did with Maddie/Chim for example, Buddie could be used as a positive example of a gay fictional relationship (I really could go into depth about this. I probably should tbh).

As for not supporting Hen and KAREN, or Michael and DAVID, I think fans do support them! The writers don’t. If you read fanfics Henren and Michael/David are featured heavily in many fics, and ik some people might say ‘well they’re only there so Buddie can talk about their gay side!!’ but both these couples have their own fans and fanfic tags! They aren’t just plot devices in Buddie stories. There is a huge side of the fandom that supports Henren and wants to see more of them and their family. Same with Michael and David, during the episode where Michael and Bobby team up to find that plastic surgeon who was working illegally many people where ecstatic that we were getting more Michael/David content and that David was getting more than a couple lines. But sadly it seems like the writers only want to delve into these story lines when they need filler, they even miss opportunities to include these other LGBTQIA+ characters when it makes sense;

(Someone came for me about this but I am going to bring it up again)

When Chris is sad and wants more human connection, instead of bring Harry + Michael/David and Denny+Nia+Henren back into the picture (and yes I understood at the time the pandemic was bad (lmao still is!!), but all the actors at some point would have/had crossed over into each other’s ‘bubbles’, so ALL the actors would have been exposed to each other so getting the children together with adults they had ALREADY been with during shooting wouldn’t have been a super spreader event) but instead they brought in Ana after only two on screen dates and pretended like it was a logical thing for someone who’s up to that point been extremely careful with their child.

They really could have pushed the ‘118 is a family!’ message here and included the canonically gay supporting characters, and the lesbian main character(s) but they did not and instead chose to push the Ana/Eddie coupling even though they hadn’t properly developed it yet. The writers themselves don’t seem to care about developing their canonically gay characters and including them more than they have to but fans are continuously developing Henren and Michael/David with hc and fics.

I’d like to use your logic against you for a second, in s1 we have a very healthy, platonic friendship between Chim/Bobby but that got written out to the point they are more like boss/employee unless the scene calls for them to seem closer, we now have Bobby and Michael friendship but again we hardly see Michael. On Lone Star we have Owen and Judd as a really, really good example of a healthy male friendship but we see Judd more often with Tommy now then we do with Owen, and in s2 it’s overshadowed by Owen trusting Charlie from Twilight and constantly getting fucked over! Why can’t the writter just be happy with these happy, healthy, emotionally well male-male friendship they’ve already included and expand upon them. There’s enough drama because the show literally involves burning buildings and people’s lives being at risk from some natural/man made disaster ever 12 seconds. Does it need to have so much interpersonal conflict and male peacocking??

#Buddie #Please donʻt get offended by anything in this!!!#These are JUST my opinions which MAY change the further we get into this show!!#ALSO IT IS JUST A TV SHOW!!!! PLEASE BE KIND TO ME AND TO EACH OTHER

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ice-emperor-zane · 2 years

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3. 11. 14. 23. 24. 28. 30. 37. 38. 44. 46. 47. 48. 53.

*virtually boops* feel free to choose your favs!:D (since,, yk, that’s a Lot of asks- 😂💛)

ty! ok but have you considered that idk how to make a decision so im gonna do them all 🤪🥺

3. Do you drink the milk out of the bowl after the cereal is gone?

Definitely lmao, especially if its like coco pops or something like that, free choccy milk

11. Ever broken a bone?

yeah a couple times! Ive actually broken bones more than once at my old school and became known as the mf who can and will find any safety hazard, the first time was when i was first looking round the school before i’d even started there, at least i made an intresting first impression 😌

14. Do you send 1 long text or separate your thoughts into single texts?

I used to always send one big text and i probably prefered that but then people started replying like ‘im not reading all that it looks like an essay’ so im tryna do many small texts more

23. Are you on other Social Media? If yes, which is your favourite?

Tumblr only babeyyy!!! Sure i have others like instagram/twitter/discord n all but this is the only one i really actually use 😳

28. What was the last thing you Googled?

‘meme where what if there was two guys on the moon and one killed the other with a rock would that be fucked up or what’ for funny image purposes

30. Last song you listened to?

currently listening to lord its a feeling by london grammar cuz my dads put on speaker lol

37. How would you describe your sense of humour?

personally I think its poggers but everyone irl says that i dont seem to have a sense of humour so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

38. Do you collect anything?

Not intentionally but yknow those little plastic rings kids have, ive got so many and Where Are They Coming From?

44. What are the top 5 tags in your Blog?

they’re all ninjago related lol, surprising that Jays at the top tho

46. Coffee or tea?

Both, i probably prefer the taste of tea but i also have a caffeine addiction and coffee has more of it so like 🤪

47. Do you like Amusement Park rides?

i think so? Idk its been years since ive been on one tbh, and last time i went to a theme park they hadnt cleaned up some puke from the person before me that was on my seat, so that was a little gross, at least it was a good indication that the ride was an exiting one?

48. What is your used most emoji?

😳 rn, but it always swaps between that and 🤪🥺😌👍

53. How many languages do you speak?

Just English and like the tiniest bit of spanish n french from school, been trying to learn japanese too from duolingo (not for weeb reasons i promise), funny u mention it cuz it was today that i had an 87 days duolingo streak die 🤪

So, once again ty!!

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tiarabellxo · 2 years

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TASK 001: KNOW WHO YOU ARE

“A beautiful woman is a car crash. Shiny asphalt and smoking rubber. Melted plastic and metal edges. Glimmering glass shrapnel iridescence scattered across the road. Haphazard beauty. Dignified and slightly terrifying.” - Halsey

PART 1: THE BASICS

What is your full name? Tiara Mae Bell

Where and when were you born? 3/21/1999 & Echo Creek

Do you have any siblings? What are/were they like? Newfound twin sister that she is still getting to know!

Where do you live now, and with whom? Describe the place and the person/people. She lives with two of her friends Rosie and Faye in an apartment in Amity Park.

What is your occupation? Employee at Fix-It Felix’s Repair Shop

To which social class do you belong? Middle

Are you right- or left-handed? Left-handed

What words and/or phrases do you use very frequently? She curses a lot but that doesn’t really count so no.

Do you have any quirks, strange mannerisms, annoying habits, or other defining characteristics? When she is mad her entire face gets beet red like a tomato. She also has a habit of leaving a place and then running back in for the one thing she forgot.

PART 2: GROWING UP

How would you describe your childhood in general? Pretty fun. She didn’t have the most attentive parents because of work but when Peter entered her life the rest of her childhood days were constantly fun and adventurous.

What is your earliest memory? Bright lights and tears of joy. She isn’t sure what exactly was going on, but her parents were looking at her with tears and smiles.

How much schooling have you had? College graduate.

Where did you learn most of your skills and other abilities? Her magic didn’t really kick in until she was about six. At first it freaked her out but her curiosity helped her develop it over years.

As a child, what did you want to be when you grew up? As a kid she wanted to be an astronaut.

As a child, what were your favorite activities? Hanging out with Peter and soccer.

As a child, were you popular? Who were your friends, and what were they like? Not really. She wasn’t really trying to be either. She met the best kind of friends in grade school and they have been stuck with her since. Rosie, Faye, Isabella, Michelle, and Veronica.

When and with whom was your first kiss? (Answering this when we get a Peter tbh)

Are you a virgin? Nope!

PART 3: PAST INFLUENCES

Who has had the most influence on you? Peter Pan. 100%.

What do you consider your greatest achievement? The first time she made pixie dust.

What is your greatest regret?

What is the most evil thing you have ever done? Wendy Darling 24/7 treatment and care.

If you could change one thing from your past, what would it be, and why? She would go back in time and somehow as a baby convince her mom to keep Perie.

What is your best memory? Meeting Peter.

What is your worst memory? Meeting Wendy.

PART 4: BELIEFS & OPINIONS

Are you basically optimistic or pessimistic? She likes to say she is a happy balance.

What is your greatest fear? Peter choosing Wendy lol. Everyone in her life choosing Wendy over her really.

What are your views on sex? It’s fun and sometimes annoying.

In your opinion, what is the most evil thing any human being could do? Stomp on someone’s heart.

Do you believe in the existence of soul mates and/or true love? She does, she really does. She will never admit it either.

What do you believe makes a successful life? Happiness, passion, and love.

How honest are you about your thoughts and feelings (i.e. do you hide your true self from others, and in what way)? Pretty honest unless it comes to love because that can get tricky.

Is there anything you absolutely refuse to do under any circumstances? Why do you refuse to do it? Compromise who she is for someone she doesn’t like. She doesn’t think she should lie and say she likes someone she doesn’t.

PART 5: RELATIONSHIPS W/OTHERS

Who is the most important person in your life, and why? Peter Pan because she has been hopelessly in love with him since she was six.

Who is the person you respect the most, and why? Her friends. Because she doesn’t know better people on this planet.

Who are your friends? Do you have a best friend? Describe these people. Peter, The Lost Boys, the Fae squad, and some others here and there. She would describe her friends and beautiful, talented, sassy, messy, and loyal.

Do you have a spouse or significant other? If so, describe this person. Not at the moment.

Have you ever been in love? If so, describe what happened. She is in love and absolutely nothing good has happened from it tbh.

What do you look for in a potential lover? Charm and an adventurous spirit.

How close are you to your family? So-so. She isn’t with her parents as of late but she is trying to get to know her sister and grandma better.

Who would you turn to if you were in desperate need of help? Any of her friends because she trusts and believes in them that much.

Do you trust anyone to protect you? Who, and why? Peter Pan because he has ALWAYS had her back. Even though most of the time she is the one who needs to be protected from him.

Who is the person you despise the most, and why? Wendy Moira Angela Darling. Because she is perfect and never does anything wrong and could really steal Peter and her boys from her.

Do you tend to argue with people, or avoid conflict? Argue. Always argue.

Do you like interacting with large groups of people? Why or why not? She doesn’t mind it most of the time but every now and then she needs a breather. She can be extroverted when she wants to be and when she does it is normally a fun time.

Do you care what others think of you? No. YES.

PART 6: LIKES & DISLIKES

What is/are your favorite hobbies and pastimes? Fixing/taking apart found things, karaoke, knitting, and hanging out with her people.

What is your most treasured possession? A music box. It is the first thing she ever fixed with her magic.

What is your favorite color? Green.

What is your favorite food? Pumpkin muffins.

What, if anything, do you like to read? Romance novels.

What is your idea of good entertainment (consider music, movies, art, etc.)? Loud music or music with good lyrics, stupid movies that are either really indie or really mainstream and have bad reviews.

Do you smoke, drink, or use drugs? If so, why? Do you want to quit? She vapes, she smokes, she drinks. Because she is a young woman who makes fun and dumb choices. She isn’t trying to quit, no.

What makes you laugh? Dumb pranks, serious situations.

What, if anything, shocks or offends you? Wendy Darling :)

How do you deal with stress? She does not.

Are you spontaneous, or do you always need to have a plan? A nice mixture of both.

What are your pet peeves? Know-it-all’s, perfect people, loud chewing, bothering her when she is tinkering.

PART 7: SELF IMAGES & OTHER

What is your greatest strength as a person? She is loyal to the end.

What is your greatest weakness? She is stubborn and let’s her pride guide her often.

If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be? She would like herself more. A lot more.

Are you generally introverted or extroverted? Extroverted.

Are you generally organized or messy? Messy. But has gotten better for Rosie’s sake.

Do you like yourself? Most of the time. Sorta.

What goal do you most want to accomplish in your lifetime?

What is the one thing for which you would most like to be remembered after your death? For her inventions and her kind and loyal heart.

What three words best describe your personality? Stubborn, passionate, and fearless.

What three words would others probably use to describe you? Stubborn, hot-tempered, and sassy.

#✨ in this head my thoughts are deep; sometimes i can’t even speak || hcs.#animaniahqtask #task1 #i did delete a few of them rgheonhrte

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You know it's always really funny to me when mhs say that had it not been for swimming Haru and Rin would've never become friends bc I'm like, that's how relationships work???? You initially connect bc of something you have in common and go from there???? In that case you can also apply it to mh bc if Haru and Makoto had not been neighbors since they were young they probably would've never become friends either, but nobody wants to mention that bc then their argument crumbles lol

Anyways, your blog is literally the best and your rh (and general) takes are always so nice to read

I'm... same, I just do not understand what’s new about this? Like my mom and dad met while they were both working at school, if I started talking with a guy cause he told me that he liked my chibi Akashi bag and anime, is this not allowed? This in no way means that that’s all we like about each other or smth, this means this one thing brought us together.

This is the reason why I dislike mh fans so much. Because the majority of them instead of posting some canon facts and truthful arguments, they either twist some words into something unrecognizable, either try to change a rh moment into mh. I just always thought ppl ship things for what they are, not what they are not...

And the main problem in this happening and the error in their equation is Haru. Cause they’re trying so hard to sew him into that but with everything he says and do he constantly falls off and they end up with mako-haha. It’s like they say that Makoto is the reason that Haru walks into his future, which is hilarious tbh, and the next movie airs and what do you know Haru is yelling at Rin’s face how “he only walks towards the future and wants it bc of him”, they say that s2 relay teams are what they truly want which everyone knows ain’t true and boom drama airs and Haru and Rin are talking how it’s not the same if they’re not together on the team. They air all the birthday stories and oh no, Rin is special again. I remember how they were running around after that frfr! episode, where Rin tries to make Haru laugh and Makoto says he actually already heard it before and turns out it was kid Haru’s evil laugh in his sleep at school. Like what is so special about that? And how is this mh related? Haru was cutely laughing watching Rin sleep and just reading his text.. that’s yeah, that’s the reason to fuss.

Their problem is always Haru, he never fits their mh plan like ever. But do they listen to him? No. Because we have a moment IN THE ANIME, where Haru says “RIN, I WANT TO BE LIKE YOU, TOO.” meaning he wants to be as brave/daring/passionate, etc. cause Rin represents freedom for him. Okay, I’d get why some needed me to post an arguments list for “Rin doesn’t like Haru only for his swimming”, which is still hilarious to me, but okay, he does have a kink in books about Haru moving in the water and goes about it for several pages, but with Haru this is actually not the case.

I don’t know if anyone noticed it, but swimming is not what attracts Haru the most about Rin and never was. It’s his character and state of mind and the way he makes him feel aka free. It doesn’t matter what they do, like whether they eat their rolls or draw new years fortunes. Haru said his whole body is on fire just when he looks at Rin and he doesn’t even notice how he starts smiling when Rin talks to him. It’s just the way he makes him feel. And swimming has nothing to do with that. Sorry, guys lmao.

Did they seriously just erase this moment, when Rin writes how he wants swim as fast as Haru in his letter, but Haru looks at the sky and he has this kaleidoscope of Rin’s pic in his mind and what he says next is "Rin, I want to be like you, too.”

And he means what he says. It’s not about the swimming truly, he admires the fact that Rin follows his dreams with such passionate determination. Mind the fact that moments of Rin that flash before his eyes in this moment a) when Rin openly gushes about Haru’s swimming in front of everyone; b) when he yells in front of the whole class that if he wants a relay with Haru, he will bloody get it; c) his swimming; d) when he tells Haru that he’s a sight he never saw before he’s gonna show him the sight he’s never seen before. It’s about how what Rin wants, Rin fights for until he gets it. Haru is in love with his passion, always was, always will be.

Haru doesn’t want to “swim like Rin” although they did compliment each other by saying “I find your strength amazing” “but I find your stamina amazing”, and Haru always drools about the power behind Rin’s strokes, but Haru swims in his own beautiful way. And while he adores the way Rin swims, that’s still not his favorite thing about Rin and never was. Every time he talks about Rin it’s always about his personality and surprisingly... it’s rarely about swimming. When he thinks about Rin it’s always stuff like... how he is so colorful and intense and full of life and passionate about his dreams and how he stands out among everyone else to him, not about his swimming skills.

So this argument is dumb AF tbh. I’m like.. yeah, and Lan Zhan loves Wei Ying for his demonic cultivation skills. Not because of his strong character, daring heart and his incredible ability to tick him off and light his cold ass on fire.

P.S. Seriously tho this is the first shipping base I see who just always for some reason does this stupid thing with finding a crumb and actively trying to make it into a bread but then realise it’s realistically impossible so they just replace it with a plastic one and pretend it’s real. This in fact makes your ship ridiculous. You can’t try to push the line that Rin is abusive (thats still lol) and how Makoto is better for Haru, since Rin did everything to make Haru reach his dream and made him happy and he’s the only one who can help Haru, when he feels down like in s2 and then with Albert and etc. Makoto can’t. It’s the truth, just let it go. I know there are not much positives sides in mh relationships to be honest in my opinion, but there are still some (?). Why not base your arguments on truth? Like at least it’s gonna be mh, not some imaginary thing. Either love mh for mh or don’t. Like yeah, Haru doesn’t resiprocate, but maybe one-sided stuff is your kink, ok, explore this, fine, but don’t try to make Haru into somebody else. Then it’s not your ship anymore.

It’s just funny to me like that Rin here writes poems about Haru and openly flirts with him in restaurants and plans their future together and I don’t even need to exagerate anything, it’s just how it really is and meanwhile mh is like “remember how 7 years ago Utsumi said that Rin and Haru wouldn’t be friends if it wasn’t for swimming, so mh is the shit”.. like I’m sorry, but I think I’m allowed to laugh at this. Sometimes you just have to let it go, seriously. Or at least like idk think before you post (and I know that it has like 3 retweets and no one cares, but still 3 ppl agreed and it reached me somehow, so..). My policy is when I create posts about my ships is validation. Like my last Rinharu facts youtube post got 5K likes, I didn’t post my thoughts, just their moments and at the end I specifically said “I have links/translations to all of this, so name thing you want to read, I’ll link you” and I linked everyone whatever they wanted.

This is how you tell ppl a story of why you love this ship and make them fall in love with it, too. Not by making up lies about what’s not there and twisting someone’s words (like this person wrote “thats what she really meant *adds complete nonsense*). And I know mh do not have any of this stuff that rh have, but if you really ship mh, find something real and go from there. Seriously, it’s better if you have smth small, but real, than a huge lie.

Also I still think ship is about two people, not just one. Why mh don’t want to listen to anything Haru says or wants like at all? That’s just sad.

P.P.S. Thanks for liking my blog, this makes me so happy <3<3<3

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