i wonder what side of the bed he sleeps on, what his favorite tv show is, his favorite type of flower, if he showers at morning or night, what kind of books he reads, what he wears at home, what kind of bedframe he has, what he looks like when he first wakes up, does he automatically get out of bed or lays there for a little? what he thinks about before he goes to bed, if he prefers the city or country, favorite alcoholic beverage, what clothing does he sleep in or if he knows how to cook? i sigh for not knowing
On a scale of Chang Geng to Luo Binghe, how well does your teenage protagonist cope with the realization that he has a massive thing for the guy that's basically raising him?
Maybe I want to feel strong and scary and powerful when I've been nothing but small and weak.
Maybe I want to strike fear into the hearts of others because everyone scares me.
Maybe I want to hurt people because they've hurt me, and I'm tired of just brushing it off so I don't get hurt further.
Maybe I want to be a beast to protect the pup who lives inside me still, who couldn't protect himself. Who no one protected when he needed it the most.