BACK FROM ALBANY!!
The Super Bowl tickle party took place this past weekend, and I had a real rough week leading up to it- I thought about not going honestly because I was a mess of anxiety. Though it turned out to be the best gathering for me! It was so much fun, and I met so many wonderful people, including some from Tumblr, and really broke out of my shell~
I definitely really like the gatherings now for socializing. I am socially anxious and don’t do well in new crowds, though this time I actively put myself in social situations, I really enjoyed chatting with multiple people and joking around~ I even sent messages out to hang out one-on-one with those I want to get closer with~ I do consider myself socially feral though because I am so awkward and loud asdfhklfd
I didn’t plan to play with people this weekend, just because I do like to have a good friendship as the base. And honestly I am insecure as a person and lee, feeling like I’m not good enough or fun enough to play with. But after some talking with those I know and being open-minded, I actually ended up having like 3 sessions that all went really well and they definitely boosted my confidence!
I GOT TAG-TEAMED WHILE HIGH!! IT WAS SOOOOO MUCH FUN AND I WAS BROUGHT AN EDIBLE JUST FOR IT WHICH IS SUCH GOALS and oh my g OS h w o w did I get destroyed I didn’t want it to end~ It was terrible aaaahgdgjkjdhj~ and my favourite toothbrush heads were used~ little toad lived out a fantasy~ (˘▽˘ʃƪ)*:・ﾟ✧♡
Also got to Ler a few times~ I love silly little lee boys~ >:)c
Oh, I got to be the model for rope again! Will post photos on Fetlife some time!
I’m also very proud of myself for saying no when I needed to. I got asked to play a few times, which is always very flattering and I don’t mind at all~ Though I’m happy I can say no and not feel bad! And I’m glad people can take a no too! Proud of them too!
Yeah, this gathering was so much fun, the best one yet~ Everyone was super friendly and kind~ It felt very homey and safe, and I really broke out of my shell and opened up more~ Greatly looking forward to making closer friends, meeting new ones, and growing within the community~ ♡
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