This is cross posted from Reddit. You can find the original here vvv
If you don’t know me, hey there I'm B.
December of 2022 u/mrtechnodad gave me the challenge of finding something good in every day, no matter how small. Since then I’ve been sharing monthly updates with a few of my good things from that month.
Anyone who's followed my updates has probably noticed that the title is different and I missed part of my usual intro.
That's because today's list only has one thing:
- I'm officially cancer free
After 708 days, countless hours of chemo, and 4 major surgeries, I have beat almost impossible odds.
Along my journey I've lost too many people who were important to me. Each of them gave me a new reason to keep going. My first roommate taught me how to be strong, how to push through the darkness. My second roommate taught me the power of compassion, how to use my voice to help others. A friend taught me how to laugh, how to see the fun in even the worst situations. And Techno, Technoblade taught me how to fight, how to win any war.
It's no secret I've struggled with survivor's guilt for almost as long as I was sick. I've asked the question, "Why them and not me?" so many times it's become a mantra. I've realized it isn’t about me or them. I think it's about finding what my purpose is. Their lives had purpose, they were full of love and joy. For so long I didn't think I had those things, that there wasn't a reason for me to still be here. I still have a purpose here. I think I know it. At least part of it.
I'm here to share my story. I'm here to share the good I see in every day. I'm here to live.
I'm alive to live.
And so are you.
Be alive. Wake up to wake up. Laugh, cry, sing, dance. Feel everything, sadness, joy, grief, shame, love. Watch the sunrise and live to see it set again. Then do it all again. And again.
Be alive to live.
Today I sat on a beach and watched the sunrise with the love of my life. For the first time in almost two years it wasn't tainted by the possibility of being my last. Instead the sun rose on the first day of my future. It's the first one of a lifetime of new days. Sunrises are no longer a symbol of bitter relief. Now they represent the promise of tomorrow.
I am beyond grateful to be alive. Since my diagnosis I was so sure I wouldn't make it. I had so little hope. Now my voice can shift from the cries of a fighter to the laughter of a survivor.
I am a survivor. Those are words I never dreamed of speaking.
Thank you to everyone who followed my journey. Thank you for your love, your support, and your endless compassion. Without this community my story would be very different.
Remember, "no matter how ridiculous the odds may seem, within us resides the power to overcome these challenges and achieve something beautiful. That one day, we'll look back at where we started and be amazed by how far we've come."
Until next time.
Your friend, B
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Technoblade
At first I thought the video was click bait, but after watching it the whole way through it finally sunk in.
Technoblade (which I now know to be Alex) was the first 'new generation' minecrafter that I subscribed to and liked, his humor,his dreamsmp character, and content in general really. He was a relatable figure for me, he inspired me to get back into Minecraft, he loved greek mythology like me etc.
I could sit here and talk about how much his content got me through bad times anyday of the week really...
But I'm kinda speechless today.... Sorta numb to be honest still trying to process really what has happened.
I know I'll cry later, I know I'll hurt later
and if me a simple watcher of him feels grief this strong I can't even imagine how his friends, parents,or siblings are going to survive this....
Goodbye Technoblade, you were an inspiration to many and I hope that if there is an afterlife your in the best part of it.
Technoblade will never die, he is with all of us
Blood for the Blood God!
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TECHNOBLADE!! im def not a huge fan of this drawing but im a huge fan of techno so it evens out ig
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Happy Birthdat Tenchoblde
you would have been 24
fuck cancer
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“If I had another hundred lives, I think I would choose Technoblade again every single time, as those were the happiest years in my life.”
“Having abolished all governments of men, I have ascended to heaven to take on the Kingdom of God
Technoblade”
“So long nerds”
So long Technoblade
So long Techno
So long “Dave”
So long Alex
Technoblade never dies
He lives on through those who he loved and those who loved him.
See you in another life, king
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For the last three days the sky has been pink for me. It’s taken him over a year but techno won
technoblade never dies!!!
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