#thank you for making me re listen to love song I love it sm!!

[thefreakymunson]

i loved your movie night with eddie sm you wrote him perfectly omg 🥲 if you’re up for it could you do something soft with him helping the reader fall asleep? thank you so much :) <3

Ooo yes! And thank you for the compliment!!

Eddie knew you had trouble falling asleep especially when you had no melatonin. He'd offer to roll you a joint before he had fallen asleep himself, but you weren't feeling it. Instead, as you laid awake in the cold dark room, listening to the sounds of the window unit air conditioner humming and the soft snores from your boyfriend fast asleep next to you, you decided tonight was another night of no sleeping. Eddie's arm was draped over your waist loosely, having lost his tight grip the further he slipped into slumber. You thought you could carefully remove his arm and sit up, but Eddie was a light sleeper. The second you lifted his arm slowly, his eyes popped open and he jolted a bit. "I'm up!" He yelled, startled a bit as he lifted his head and looked around.

"Shhh," you said softly, "It's just me. I'm going to get a glass of water."

He looked at you through bleary eyes as he slid his hand off of you, calloused fingers scratching gently as he moved and mumbled a soft "Mmkay, baby."

After returning from the kitchen, you opened his bedroom door to find the little lamp beside of the bed on. It casted a soft orange glow around the room, revealing Eddie sitting up on the side of the bed.

"What are you doing?" You asked softly, sitting down beside of him on the bed.

"You can't sleep, so I'm not either." His voice was raspy and sleep riddened.

"Just because I can't sleep doesn't mean you have to be awake," you playfully bumped your shoulder with his.

"Get comfy," he nodded back towards the bed, "Be right back...gotta piss first."

You bit back a smile as you slid back in the bed, watching as he sleepily stumbled into the bathroom adjacent to his bedroom. You leaned back into the pillows, hearing the water run from the bathroom faucet, and then soon he had re-emerged from the bathroom and was in bed beside of you.

"C'mere," he said, opening his arms as you slid closer to him, your head resting on his bare chest, your head tucked under his chin.

His fingers went to work, one hand massaging your lower back while the other gently scratched at your scalp, making you sigh softly. The tension from the lack of sleep slowly melting out of your body as you closed your eyes for the first time that night.

He slowly started humming your favorite song as he cuddled your closer, a small smile spreading across your face as you realized Eddie Musnon was humming "Papa Don't Preach" by Madonna just for you, soft and lowly against the top of your head.

It seemed almost at record pace, you were gone. He felt a sense of accomplishment as he looked down at your sleeping face, lips parted slightly as he kept massing your back and head at the same time. Sure he'd be tired tomorrow, but if it meant that you finally got some good rest, he'd sit and lull you to sleep all night if that's what it took.

"Goodnight, baby girl." He said as he reached up and turned the lamp off, enveloping the room in total darkness again, only the soft lull of the air conditioner and his soft hums filling the room.

#Eddie Munson #Eddie Munson x reader #Eddie Musnon fanfic #Stranger Things #Stranger Things fanfic

[everybodyknows-everybodydies]

20 questions for writers

tagged by @pia-writes-things - thank you! :D

(under the cut to save your dash)

How many works do you have on AO3?

64 at the moment!

2. What's your total AO3 word count?

145,151 in eleven years... same as with drawing I don't post 90% of what I do lol whoops

3. What fandoms do you write for?

currently TES has been getting the gears going the most, but ER is my perennial love - and once in a blue moon I am compelled to do something TLU! SM is still very dear to my heart but I've been pretty dry on fic inspiration/drive for it for a while now :(

4. What are your top five fics by kudos?

these are ALL OLDER PIECES haha so don't look too closely: it still burns - fluffy OPM piece for Knight c: what else can I say! too cold for you here and now - fluffy little Makoami piece (are you sensing a pattern already...) featuring terrible puns, because I have always loved characters trying to make each other laugh you do it for her (that is to say you do it for him) - another one written for Knight; OPM/SM crossover. with TWO chapters! left, left, left right left - introspective Romano piece re: arm. I actually now disagree with some character choices I made in this one so seeing it still getting attention has me like no... this doesn't represent me... Across the Western Ocean I Must Wander - Makoami pirate AU. also not a oneshot! (shock!) I don't think it holds up as well as I'd like, but the premise still compels me and there's some cute moments :'D still VIVIDLY remember being up late on a class night listening to one song on repeat while working on The Kissing Scene™

5. Do you respond to comments?

almost always! it may take me a bit sometimes, but I do try to make sure I do

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

frankly idek - being completely honest, "angst" just as a word at this point turns me off so immediately and so hard that I can't engage with the concept that way. I prefer endings with some hope, but I like some emotional complexity too! all my baggage about fandom and "angst" is for. ANOTHER TIME

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

again I'm not totally sure how to answer this one! I guess Ocean? doesn't get much more stereotypically happily-ever-after than "and then they ran away together the end"

8. Do you get hate on fics?

no, thankfully! I've gotten the occasional comment here and there that make me go "??" but more just sort of confusing, not malicious as far as I can tell lol

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

sdlkghlsj sex-repulsed asexual here and not for the first time I say: I am reasonably confident nobody wants me doing that. it can happen but offscreen to spare me the inevitable mortification... fade-to-black is about as far as we go in the House Of Mouse sorry!!

10. Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written?

I have before! it's not my preferred stomping grounds but I like a good one. I don't know about "craziest" but wouldn't do us any harm I think is probably the funniest of the handful I've shared (again: written primarily for Knight! warning that it is from 2016 LOL)

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

not to my knowledge!

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

also not to my knowledge!

13. Have you ever co-written a fic?

yes! baby Mouse ran a fic awards "show" (in the written medium obviously) with a friend back in like 2010 or 2011 on FFN... it was loads of fun!

14. What's your all-time favorite ship?

just one?? if I have to choose then: Lizzie & the Bald Boys... my little driftwood raft that I've finally convinced a handful of other people aboard c':

15. What's a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

Makoami Princess and the Goblin AU :( still means a lot to me but SM just hasn't been where I've been drawn to write for a while!

16. What are your writing strengths?

dialogue + characterization is most often what I get compliments on (<3) - I'd like to think I have a fairly decent hand for little meaningful details too, but I think these more often than not end up just being for my own benefit because I like my symbolism subtle aha

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

LONGFORM... plugging together things into ordered chapters and maintaining momentum over longer spaces is my greatest struggle. I've had to come to terms with the fact that I'm much more a sprinter than a marathon runner, and it's been very freeing letting myself step outside of needing all the surrounding context to just do things as I come to them and then getting to string it all into chronology via series ordering

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

done well I find it really impressive! it's very hard to do well though ahaha.

19. First fandom you wrote for?

without the context of "fandom", the first story I ever wrote was about the Boxcar Children hanging out with me at age 6 (the entirety of chapter three was all of us singing the alphabet together and it was narratively crucial that this happen. for some reason.). with the context of knowing about fandom though, Scooby Doo at 11-12!

20. Favorite fic you've written?

of what's posted: Ocean has a lot of personal meaning because it was the first multichapter piece I was able to finish in several years, but on a technical level I've been really proud of some of the more layered pieces I've been practicing in the last year or so: Thermal Equilibrium and skipping stones I think are good examples of that :')

tagging: @knightnightwrite (I AM GOING TO GET YOU TO DO ONE OF THESE SOMEDAY <3 <3 <3), @wispstalk, @ehlnofay, @wonderofasunrise, and anyone else who wants to do it!! as always no obligation if you've been tagged and don't want to! except for Knight. beloved I am knocking on your door come PLAY WITH ME

#Mouse talks! #whew - the cut was definitely necessary hglskdjf

[maxsix]

Favourite KPOP Songs of 2023

So I am 3 days late posting this but I wanted to do it to keep up the tradition. It's fun looking back at old lists. My criteria isn't so much based on technical merit but rather the songs that I wanted to listen to over and over again for whatever reason.

Cupid by Fifty Fifty. No doubt, this is social media's song of the year. I have never seen a song that is actually good become so organically viral, only to be reduced to absolutely nothing because of abysmal management. Not even New Jeans was this widespread this year (to me). Cupid was playing at my local supermarket and even people who know nothing about kpop loved this song. It ranks low for me because I'm definitely sick of hearing it by now. Regardless, it is still a very well written pop song.

Ayo by NCT 127. Okay, hear me out: NCT is like durian. You either completely understand why it is called the King of Fruits or you think I should be put in jail for saying that. If you are a brave connoisseur who refuses to be confined by societal pressure, then know what it's like to open your third eye and consume NCT for what they are: completely weird but never boring. It's an experience. If you don't get it, I don't know what to tell you.

Tinnitus by TXT. Temptation is my least favourite TXT album from the last 3 years but I think that is mostly due to how much I hated Sugar Rush Ride. I've been re-listening to a lot of their material again and okay, I'll give this one a pass: it's a mood. Thanks Kang Taehyun. I don't know if it was very intentional but his voice is all I hear on the final version. Man, that dude's voice always gets me somehow, I don't know how he does it.

Rover by Kai. It's not even that good of a song and yet, it was everywhere and I was gaslit into liking it. The viral dance made it the hit it became but to be fair, much of this was really down to his star power and ability to make really good choices that suit his strengths (dance first, vocals second). This is EXO Kai we are talking about after all; when he delivers, he really delivers. New Gen boys can take some notes.

Drama by Aespa. This is like Asian Junk Food. It's objectively so terrible, full of empty calories, no nutritional value but they took the Terrible and sprinkled MSG on it, so now it's TastyTerrible. As someone who wants to learn film editing, the MV is excellent and an example of top tier editing without choppy cuts. I have not noticed editing this neat and time consuming since Seventeen's 'HOT'.

Back To Me by The Rose. A group with solid talent and well written songs. I wish every success for them to be honest. I am posting the live video because they are one of those groups who are better live and won't give you The Fear watching it. I wish I could've seen them because I genuinely just love their voices and sound. They've filled the void left behind by Day 6.

Hard by Shinee. It's just your typical weird and perfect Shinee pop song but with a distinctly 90s flavour in my opinion. They are just all so talented that it's virtually impossible to ignore them. SM production is always so slick but with Shinee it is something to gild the lily rather than hard carry the entire song and group. Onew vocals never takes a day off, he was flawless even in the raw recordings.

Kitsch by IVE. It's just so cute and comforting in the way a harmless little pop song can be. It's like a fresh breeze. There's no pressure to do anything but enjoy it. In the absence of Blackpink, they are definitely my favourite girl group at the moment.

This World by Ateez. I do actually prefer it to Bouncy because it has that dystopian and almost gothic feel to it. I don't think it would've made a good title track because it's not as explosive as Bouncy but it 100% would fit into a movie or montage sequence. It absolutely goes so hard in the car, especially at night.

Flower by Jisoo. I think this was just a very smart choice for her and her team. It did not have anything too complex or overly dramatic. It suits her elegance and brand perfectly. It was also very pleasant and kinda of prettily boring? The dance was very popular and cute without being obnoxious. She is very much a Great Gowns Beautiful Gowns and "Go on girl, give us nothing!" idol but I have a soft spot for her. I can't believe we live in a world where Jisoo has the best Blackpink solo song.

3D (Alternate Version) by Jungkook. I did not like it when it was released (with that awful rap feature) but the purely Jungkook and performance versions of it really improved everything. I am really happy that Golden is as good as it is, because I think most Jungkook stans from 2013 lived in fear he would only release Mid Tier pop songs. I think most features on the album are unnecessary. Jungkook has presence and star power on his own. Everything else diluted what we all came for.

Blue Blood by IVE. It's an unexpectedly more mature sound from them and I loved it. I think the driving backing track makes this one of the best driving songs. It has this dark eloquence to it, which I always vibe with. One of their best B sides for sure.

Off The Record by IVE. This was the best track off their album this year. That title track was heinous. OTR was so calm and comforting and there is something about it that reminded me of Gfriend and OhMyGirl where it's just a good song with any histrionics. I do not think IVE suit that bad girl crush concept at all. They always had this expensive High Teen aura and it really took at hit with Baddie imo.

Ring (Unplugged/Acoustic Version) by TXT. This isn't cheating, they released this one on a July 2023 album. Even if it was cheating, I would've still put it on here. It's well written, well produced, well paced and suits everyone in the group. But personally, I always saw this as a Kang Taehyun song (even though he didn't even write it). His aura is all over it. Controversial opinion but I think this has one of Yeonjun's best rap verses because the slower tempo works so much better for his voice and flow.

Crazy Form by Ateez. Ah the Male version of Junk Food with MSG. I don't think it's anywhere near their best song but it's a good fun time and after the tough year(s) we have all had, it's nice to jam to something silly. It's very SKZ adjacent but in my opinion, with much better production and editing because the team behind Ateez are better at it. I'm also including this because it made me really see Jeong Yunho. If you know you know.

Roll With Me by Hyungwon/Shownu. Technically The H/S version of Wildfire is my favourite from them this year but since it wasn't official, I'll go with my second favourite release. It once again proves that Hyungwon is my favourite man (musically) in Monsta X. I like his style, tastes and instincts. It's true that he is my overall favourite in MX but I'm mature now! It's not just the visuals, I truly put his musical output as the number 1 reason I like him.

Standing Next To You by Jungkook. Listen, listen, listen.....I have been following this dude since 2013. I always KNEW he could give more and be more. Even though SNTY isn't even 100% of what I think he can do, it was enough for me to feel all these 10 years were not wasted lol. This deserved this stop purely for the instrumentation and production value alone. Granted, it is very westernised but good music is good music. This is the only time where a feature (remix) actually added something.

Silver Light by Ateez. The sister to Cyberpunk. It is really like its title: a sparkling God Ray of light that cuts through the darkness. It's mysterious but also so hopeful and comforting. They just scraped in with this at the last minute but it is already one of my absolutely favourite Ateez songs. Instant love from 1st listen. The type of song I wish I was more conscious and present for so I could go back to experience it again for the first time. Park Seonghwa supremacy because this is now a song I associate with him. He's not even my Ateez bias but he is my favourite and the most important Ateez member to me. How that works, I do not know.

My favourite song of 2023:

Chasing That Feeling by TXT. They achieved the trifecta in 2023 for me: favourite song, favourite lyric, favourite choreography. I'm not even going to link to the official MV because the choreography needs to be seen unobstructed and undiluted. This is the type of song that I barely have any critiques on (and if I did, they would all be minor). The type of song that I would put as my bio. The type of song I want my best friend to play at my funeral. This era was also the one that pushed Choi Soobin into my life when he knew damm well that my heart has been closed for business for the last 12 months. The power this song had on me was all consuming and cannot be overstated, ok?

#favourite songs of the year #top 2023 kpop songs #there are a lot of songs i liked but don't listen to a lot #i don't think any of this is a surprise #i'm a nice friendly pop girl now i promise #ateez #txt #tomorrow x together #exo kai #aespa #nct #5050 #jungkook #ive #monsta x

[tojisun]

Have you listened to other Lana Del Rey songs about dating older men? You already know about “Off to the Races,” but there is also “Lolita,” “You Can Be The Boss,” “Cola,” and “Brooklyn Baby.” Also her songs “Playing Dangerous” and “Queen of Disaster” talk about dating a man that has a hint of danger to him. I always think about Toji listening to these❤️ You should give it a try! Hopefully each song can be an inspiration for new Toji fanfics🙏

POOKIE I THOUGHT U WERE A BOT??? (i still kinda think u are im rlly sorry 😭) BUT RAHHHH YES IVE LISTENED TO THESE N I LOVE THEM ALLL

thank u so much for sending these recs bc TEEHEEEE the daddy issues re: toji is hitting me so hard rn as i complete the kinktober toji prompt

toji who spoils u so much makes me ILLLL i need him :(( carries u in his arms and plops u on his lap and kisses ur jaw n cheeks before finally slotting his lips on urs :(((

THE WAY HE hefts you up and places u on the counter in the morning bc he wants to kiss u and hug u and he burrows his face on your chest, breathing in ur scent — the scent of home

oh god i need toji. i need to make him happy he deserves it sm

#pikapal105 #ask #toji

[ariesmemes]

♡    ╱    SEMICOLON SENTENCE STARTERS ( created using seventeen’s 2020 album semicolon. lyrics come from english translation via genuis. feel free to adjust to fit your muse. )

“still holding onto the bat”

“don’t step back”

“don’t listen to anyone”

“just do whatever you want”

“hit ‘em up”

“you still have one chance left”

“don’t give up”

“you know what, i believe ya”

“just be yourself”

“what are you so worried about?”

“hit it further away”

“come running out, babe”

“keep your head up”

“we’ll wake up to a new tomorrow”

“throw that ball”

“let’s have some fun”

“you’re busy running away”

“why the game of hide and seek?”

“let’s play something else”

“there may be no end to our journey of dreams”

“let’s take a break for today”

“let’s have our own party”

“party on until the day ends”

“we do what we say with no fear”

“we play and play”

“why do you keep holding back when you feel emotional?”

“there are many ways to express it”

“i want to have a matter of choice”

“calm down”

“slow down”

“you can think about it more”

“everything is a good idea”

“everybody has a good idea”

“i don’t know what’s right or what’s wrong”

“base it on the order of your senses”

“i’ll always support how you feel”

“it’s right, it’s good”

“whatever you want”

“you can think it easily like do-re-mi”

“it’s difficult to think”

“it’s always difficult”

“just sing”

“life goes on”

“just keep going”

“endless regrets and worries”

“you define my world”

“almost everyone knows if it’s not as easy as it seems”

“take it easy for tomorrow”

“write that down”

“it’s not so difficult”

“hey buddy”

“what time is it?”

“i overslept”

“look out the window and it’s good weather”

“tripped on a stone while coming out”

“even if it hurts i don’t feel bad”

“i need to fix my sneakers”

“people don’t seem to care”

“why doesn’t it change?”

“i’m sure it’ll come soon”

“i’ll be at your house soon”

“knock on the door”

“what are you worried about?”

“come with me”

“what do you want to do today?”

“write down everything from one to ten”

“whatever you want”

“the destination is not very important”

“let’s go together”

“we all play the role of problem-solver and worry about it”

“tell me your wish”

“blurt out anything”

“it makes you feel better”

“wait a minute”

“it’s between you and me”

“it’s between me and you”

“it’s always between us”

“like a flame that never goes out”

“meeting you today was fun”

“how did you feel?”

“call me right away tomorrow morning”

“we are friends”

“tip-toeing the line”

“on the edge of barely crossing”

“relying on the light of a single candle to find each other”

“we already know”

“don’t rush”

“light a flame”

“don’t need loud sounds”

“let me breath deeply”

“i want to keep going right now”

“we’re falling for each other”

“i’m ready for you”

“my heart is ready”

“never cared about what anyone said”

“said you fell in love at first sight”

“checking if it’s a lie”

“if i show you something will you think me over every morning?”

“that firework launched in the middle of the sea”

“any day and anywhere”

“in the end i hope you become more to me”

“i become more to you”

“we won’t be able to hide what’s between us”

“love is you”

“if you’re careless about it now, what do i do?”

“the wave doesn’t stop”

“my surroundings are so quiet”

“my love only amounts to this”

“hello, my joy”

“you always make me laugh”

“you let me forget everything for a moment”

“play a song i know”

“hold my hand”

“before i know it, the me of today hopes for the you of tomorrow”

“baby, it’s alright”

“it’s okay”

“i’m even more thankful”

“i don’t know what to do”

“what can i do?”

“i’m really sorry”

“i’ll be your spring to whatever winter it may be”

“this is all my heart can say”

“please be the light in the dark sky”

“i can do everything for you”

“i just want to give you everything”

“that makes me feel small”

“it suddenly makes me hate myself”

“thank you for staying by my side”

“thought it was hard writing my feelings down”

“i can get closer to your love”

“i’ll be your umbrella in the rain”

“i’ll protect you on all your days”

#sentence starter prompt #rp prompts #rpt #rp meme #sentence meme

[hellfiredaddy]

Tag 9 people you want to get to know better

i love these posts, but I never get tagged in them. So I’m extra excited I finally did. Thank you sm for tagging me, @thefreakandthehair <3

fav colour: orange

currently watching: re-watching teen wolf bc I stopped after my favorite character died lmao

currently reading: the stranger beside me by Ann rule

song: not listening to anything rn but my current fave is mandatory suicide by slayer

last series: the last full tv series i watched was stranger things lmaoooo

last movie: Purple Hearts

sweet/savoury/spicy: I’m a slut for spicy things. Always wanting samyang noodles

currently working on: the eddie fic i was thinking about last night that was making it so i couldn't sleep < 3

you don't have to participate obvs, just tagging a few cool people (and honestly if ANYONE wants to do this, go for it and say i tagged you!!): @onehotgreasymechanic @starlightfox @strangerfreaks @chaoticmunson @stranger-nightmare @eddiesbattlejacket @munsonlover @ariel-munson @aconfusedtoad

#this was cute #about me

[slytherinshua]

this is regarding the funky writing game!! D && F && H && L && S && T !! :D you don’t have to answer them all but those were the ones i was the most curious abt 🫣 LOVE U MWAH

THANK YOU FOR ASKING AXE IM SO EXCITED TO ANSWER THESE KSDJFKSDF

D - "is there a song or playlist you associate with [insert fic]?"

okay okay I feel like I semi associate wildest dreams by Taylor Swift with infamous together... and that's because I listened to that song on repeat like LITERALLY ON REPEAT while in the car while writing a large portion of infamous together... and like its just such tae vibes so rly any tae fic but especially that one!!

F - "share a snippet from one of your favorite dialogue scenes you've written and explain why you're proud of it"

“This is the best day of my life. Besides the wedding part. But this.” You gestured to the scenery that lay before you both as Taehyun continued to drive away from the old town.

“This automobile is so old. I’m surprised it could go as fast as it did back there.” Taehyun told you with a laugh.

“Of course it did. You fixed it. The one and only, Kang Taehyun.”

“I’m not ‘the one and only, Kang Taehyun’.”

“You’re my one and only Kang Taehyun.”

“You are so annoying with your pickup lines-”

“But you love them.” You teased.

“But I love them.” He glanced at you with a smile on his face before focusing back on the road.

idk smth about this scene in drive was rly satisfying to write like they're running away together but still flirting with each other and I just thought it was cute <33

H - "how would you describe your style?"

this is a hard one... like idek???? I feel like most of it is just me thinking of these complex settings (which is why I like AUs sm) and then just writing down the words that I think of. tbh idek if my writing is good or not 💀I just try my best ig. and like I've read a lot since I was little so that helps with knowing how to write like... better? idek im making no sense lmaooo

L - "how many times do you usually revise your fic/chapter before posting?"

it depends how long the fic sits rotting in my drafts. cause sometimes I write a fic in a day, and then the words just flow together so I do very little edited even I barely proof read 💀 but when its been in my drafts for a while and I've written like the beginning or smth before finishing it, I'll always re-read all of it and then re-write as much as I think is needed so it all makes sense and I can refresh my memory. Infamous together actually took a rly long time. It was originally supposed to be based on like that one halloween thing txt did where they all had spy code names. And Taehyun was "black card" and I was gonna use that as a big thing in the fic. But then I struggled with it for so long, and left it for m o n t h s. and then I finally found a way to finish it. But I actually erased everything I had written before and started completely fresh for that which sometimes happens.

S - "any fandom tropes you can't resist?"

hands down enemies to lover or rivals to lovers with taehyun. like I've written that... 3 times I think? (one of those no longer is published shhhh it was rly bad old writing) academic rivals slays so hard with him, any kind of mafia/secret agent slays as well. honestly I just eat it up every time I LOVE IT SM. also nurse trope. where like one of them is patching up the other sKSKSJDF OH MY GOD ITS SO GOOD THE TENSION CAN BE JUST SDJFSKNDFKSJDFHSKJ or when they're actually dating then its just super cute 😭 OH OH AND ANOTHER ONE IS KINDA WEIRD AND IDK WHY I LIKE IT SO MUCH.... but like. presumed dead?? like when one of them thinks the other is DEAD. but then they're not AND IDK I JUST THINK THE REUNION CAN BE CUTE. but im scared to attempt it and I don't come across it very often on Tumblr but I did a bit on wp.

T - "any fandom tropes you can't stand?"

hmmmm maybe like love triangle- I just rly hate that trope and I hate reading it, I hate writing it, I hate watching it in dramas. like everything. its just d e s p i s e. there are some others that are kinda obvious like unrequited love or smth similar but love triangle takes the cake.

hope these answers satisfied you axe!!! ily mwah!!!

[celestie0]

music anon again lol (also maybe can i be 🗝️ anon ? i have a feeling i’ll be coming back soon ur really nice)

nd i agree w EVERYTHING U SAIDDD i love their italian songs so much !! the only thing i know in italian is pasta nd i still try so hard to get the lyrics right whenever i sing mark chapman in the shower 💀

YES I HAVE IDOL ON MY GYM PLAYLIST TOO 😭 lmao i’ll have all these metal songs playing then idol just comes on 💀

i love folklore nd evermore sm !!! cardigan will always hold a special place in my heart

y’know what i haven’t listened to hiroyuki sawano but i’ll totally give him a try !

you have such a GREAT music taste 👏🏾👏🏾 nd omg i was so horribly obsessed w big time rush 😭😭

have a good day/night </3

hello again love! 💕 and sure u can be my 🗝️ anon hehe

LMAO pasta im dead mark chapman is so gooood it give me chills. honestly all of their italian songs make my pussy pop 😭🤚🏼 likeeee moriro da re????? THE HOTTER VERSION OF BEGGIN. kinda tuff tho i was introduced to their italian songs cuz i used to date this guy that was half italian but he fucked me over 😔 i still think of him w all their italian songs </3 pookie come back

(is idol the name of that song? its in japanese on spotify & truthfully i havent seen the anime either 🤣) but YES the song starts w such a bang even tho it’s kinda cutesy it gets me hype

cardigan makes my heart ache aaa. and yes! i like sawano’s music bc its got a lot of rock components mixed w orchestral and just a lot of weird random techno sounds i’ve never heard before lol. plus he layers a melody like no other. you could check out “attack on titan suite” on youtube, its a live medley of the iconic tracks from the show and its legit the best thing my ears have ever been blessed with

THANKS LOVELY YOU TOO 🫶🏼💕

#🗝️ anon #asks

[baekhvuns]

We did it Baek, we beat the MATURE CONTENT allegations! Not sure about this message though 👀 Yes, I'm either meeting idols randomly or missing everything </3

Not being able to see Kai in the MV, fucking jail for everyone!!! I'm glad the comeback seems to be successful despite everything, honestly first Shinee now Exo, good times for the hags! I listened to Baekhyun's debut 10 times in a row to celebrate the anniversary btw!

My overall review of Exist is that I enjoyed the album, I like that it's EASY TO DIGEST, but the songs are catchy enough, I don't go through 100 emotions while listening to it just to end up confused. Anyways, uhmmm what's up with that champagne on the window shield I-?! And Mr Byun being embarrassed for saying sex??? Man, stand up lmao. Ngl, I wish the MV gave a bit more, I also saw people mentioning Suju 😭😭😭😭🔫

So actually some of the past Exo tracks aren't for me, but this album is really sooooolid, it's definitely cohesive sonically, the r&b undertones, THE FUCKING HARMONIES HELLOOOOO EARGASM! But also thematically it's definitely an album made for horny people lmaoooo. I'd have to give it more listens to establish which songs stopd out to me the most, but so far I think Regret It and Private Party are my faves!

Kai is away so Baek is the one serving cunt now?! Who would have thought. Military made Taemin into a bigger baby girl, meanwhile Baek is whoring

Also, let me say I'm so proud of Shinee honestly and the way they can never believe whenever they win, because some fuckass people wanna claim Shinee isn't relevant anymore and they won INKIGAYO!!! TAEMIN DID S CLASS AND HARD CHALLENGE WITH HYUNJIN, HE WENT TO JYP????? Why is he so adventurous all of a sudden

Jamal astrology hoe, pls https://www.pinkvilla.com/entertainment/ncts-jaehyun-to-make-big-screen-debut-with-film-in-6-hours-you-will-die-alongside-park-ju-hyun-kwak-si-yang-1228441 this is the short description 👀 I need more kpop men in unhinged roles, like yeah them playing losers in rom coms is fine but give me something else

Hybe didn't even apologise for the way they treated fans, they justified their actions. Fans were still groped, wtf, sometimes the gender matters, but they were still violated so what difference does it make seriously

So, I'm sure if YSL was in contact with Hwa they'd already invite him somewhere :/ and he'd definitely thank them publicly, but his dedication to get noticed is admirable. Stop because first I saw those sandals on Ten and had to close my eyes and Seonghwa too... Hongjoong's obsession with Olivier Rousteing paid off so fingers crossed, ugh if not I'm personally going to Anthony Vacarello's house ☠

Re: N**m*r: Idk some girlies really love footballers, they have humiliation kink cause I know at least 3 WAG wannabies from London who do that, they don't care those men will cheat on them. They usually just wanna bang and go, lmao kinda respect the hustle, but is it even worth it with some of them... yikes

Omfg no because I saw the Suarez thing and was like HUH, then got confused why RM was posting about it 😭

Baek are you updated on King the Land, because the latest episodes?! They really went for it, it's so cliche idk how it even works, but it does! Do you remember Yoona and Junho dancing to Senorita, because that was an event!!! I also remembered Taeyong and Seulgi and WOW... imagine 4th gen idols doing that ajsvhshajskdavshsjdjd

Insane to think certain idols would be in totally different fields, like business, pilot, chef then tattoo artist, Twitch streamer lmao but here they are in the same fucking group doing aegyo and hip thrusting on stage

Yeah, so I obviously enjoy 4th gen, but 2nd and 3rd gen had the quality, now I see those Tik Tok fucking songs that are under 3 mins and I wanna die!!! Don't wanna be a boomer, easy and fun choreography can be cool, not only for fans to follow, but also idops to perform, but where is the versatility, the creativity...

Shhahdhndjshahhshaaj stop SM people are lurking cause that guy was quick to like Yuta's post?! 😬😬😬😬 and now there are articles about SM being xenophobic <333 like I said, embarrasSMENT... it's a shame they have so many artists I like, because they're literally the worst. And apparently Sungtaro are debuting soon, I will believe it when I see it. Really shitty that they remived Shohei, he's neither in NCT Tokyo nor the other bg :( man is a grown ass adult, let him debut!

Ryan is Ken for life because wtf is he saying?! Margot os serving so many iconic looks during the promo! Btw booked tickets for both Barbie and Oppenheimer on the same day lmaooo it's gonna be a fucking ride

You're right, KQ posted the "apology", not even Ateez's account??? And the apology was too vague imo, again if Indian/South Asian fans want to accept it that's their decision, I'm not saying people should cancel them and send then threats (it's happening and it's so bad), BUT some stans are ok with bare minimum, they just wanna move on... :/ that's what I told my friend, imagine if someone wrote a track called Kimchi Song, Asian people get so much shit for their native food, so it's incredibly insensitive. I don't wanna generalise, but I met so many Korean stans and while some were nice, some are simply crazy and lose their morals over kpop. On the other hand, one thing can tip them off, nothing serious and they can go from loving someone to sending them threats and???

It's a shame none of the members apologised, I like to think they wanted to, but idk. San posted on b.stage I thought he'd mention it, I understand it was his birthday, but... :/ I'm not usually personally affected by most of idols' fuck ups, but it always pisses me off regardless

Exo possible collabs??? Exo on Killing Voice, well they definitely fucking killed :o

Shinee, Teen Top, U-Kiss, Exo, Infinite, what year is this?! Remember when we would get so many 2nd/3rd gen ggs comebacks?! 2021 and 2022 😭😭😭😭

Baek, I got two tattoos during my trip and I already made appointments for two more, so pray for me lmao <333

Did you see model Hwa on the cover?! Sadly I don't have high hopes, because it's Cosmo and they usually have boring shoots, so far they look ok (but their clothes are basically their promo/stage fits? 😬) *sigh* - DV 💖

hello!! i answered this but tumblr glitched and wndfkklwef

We did it Baek, we beat the MATURE CONTENT allegations! Not sure about this message though 👀 Yes, I'm either meeting idols randomly or missing everything </3  /// Not being able to see Kai in the MV, fucking jail for everyone!!! I'm glad the comeback seems to be successful despite everything, honestly first Shinee now Exo, good times for the hags! I listened to Baekhyun's debut 10 times  in a row to celebrate the anniversary btw!

WE BEAT THE MATURE CONTENT ALLEGATIONS!!!!

that cream sada is not just about cream soda after all 😀 KAI WOULDVE DEVOURED HE HAS THE FIRST CHORUS TOO 😭😭😭😭 FUCK RAVI, KAI IN A SUIT DOING THAT BODY ROLL WITH HIS GAZE WOULDVE ENDED ME SO BAD FHWJDHWKDHWK im also vv glad it’s successful but sm’s doing everything in their hands to not make it bc what the fuck, all this treatment and everyone still thinking we crazy like ☺️☺️ but this is actually sad. HIS 10TH ANNIVERSARY AND HES A MILLION SELLER AGAIN OH TO BE HIM !!!!!

good times for hags yes!! saw this twt and cried my eyes out rhkwhdwjshkw

sorry what the fuck. u know what i can’t even handle him idk how id handle kai  like ive gone thru theee breakdowns all delulu while wondering why iTS NOT ME WHOS WITH HIM

THIS IS JUST NOW WHAT THE FUCK   )oh im screaming AND MATEO??? BROTHER IN CHRIST??? UR WIFES WATCHING FBHWKDHWK

??? thirty sexy to a new level

i need this man actually

yeah kai possessed him also not kai doing fansigns in the barracks and having men fall for him 😭😭😭

im also vv sorry this is late like idk what happened i met this new person yesterday to do an assignment w my friends and i went home and im immediately sick like i think they hexxed me bc i am SICK 😭😭���

My overall review of Exist is that I enjoyed the album, I like that it's EASY TO DIGEST, but the songs are catchy enough, I don't go through 100 emotions while listening to it just to end up confused. Anyways, uhmmm what's up with that champagne on the window shield I-?! And Mr Byun being embarrassed for saying sex??? Man, stand up lmao. Ngl, I wish the MV gave a bit more, I also saw people mentioning Suju 😭😭😭😭🔫

I AGREE. I AGREE ITS EASY TO DIGEST ITS EASY TO LISTEN like my ears are not crying im so vv happy w the entire album, i realized many reactio channels said that after heat me out,, it’s so casual r&b like the reactors have grown to love simple music and that song + all the other ones are just so, non fussy??? just straight good music and the choreo??? the best in their career ever. the preciseness??? beat the broken knees allegations 😭😭

cream soda took me three listens to understand and it dawned on me that it’s bc my volume wasn’t up so i listened to it w bass and 😯😯😯 eargasm galore,, it is A HIT. ENTIRE CHORUS BEING A HIGH NOTE, 12/10 OVER FOR EVERYONE EVER FBWKDH ITS SO FUN FUNKY SEXY PERFECT FOR SUMMER AND PARTIES??? vocals wow,,, a new level,,, ur so correct! it didn’t feel confusing but it felt so nice to hear their voices after so long,, THE HARMONIES LIKE???? THE FALSETTO BEING THE ENTIRE CHORUS IS MENTAL PHEWWWW KILL ME SIRE,, champagne on the windshield, u know exactly why 😵‍💫😵‍💫 LMFAOOO NO BC THIS DOES LOOK LIKE THE SUJU MV SHIT THEYRE OLD NOW 😭😭😭ngl me too i wish the mv was just tad bit MORE but i won’t complain bc this mv was filmed on the du of the damn lawsuit so ik none of them said a lot of shit against what to do and what not to 🤚🏻but i think the more i watch it the more i like it,,, cinematography is rly pretty the yellows holds greens purples and reds,,, wow 🫡 very classic, gatsby look just classic exo

just tells me that there’s a lot of incredible music but this talent is 😮‍💨

So actually some of the past Exo tracks aren't for me, but this album is really sooooolid, it's definitely cohesive sonically, the r&b undertones, THE FUCKING HARMONIES HELLOOOOO EARGASM! But also thematically it's definitely an album made for horny people lmaoooo. I'd have to give it more listens to establish which songs stopd out to me the most, but so far I think Regret It and Private Party are my faves!

im going to say U GOTTA RELISTEN TO OBSESSION WND TEMPO IM SORRY I WILL NOT ACCEPT ANY LESS 🔫 OASIS SIGN DAMAGE BUTTERFLY AFFECT YA YA YA??? no ur so right this album is so solid and cohesive in the best way possible,,, like the tracks are so well thought out??? the 90’s, r&b pop and synth pop 😭😭 CRYING IK THOSE PRODUCERS WERE LINING UP TO WORK W RHEM UR RIGHT RHE FUCKINF HARMONIES THE WAY I GET SO GASPY WHEN THEY DO THAT LIKE??? this is exactly what i want from atz so bad 😭😭😭 IT RLY IS FOR HORNY PPL LIKE DO U HEAR THE BED CREAKING NOISES 😭😭😭 PRIVATE PARTY PLS DID U HEAR THE BED CREAK this me listening to it

but like im obsessed w no make up and love fool,,, like what the fuck did they put in THOSE SONGS,,, what an album honestly i am always surprised w them in the best way,, like how can u gag me every bc 😭😭 i am obsessed w cream soda

Kai is away so Baek is the one serving cunt now?! Who would have thought. Military made Taemin into a bigger baby girl, meanwhile Baek is whoring /// Also, let me say I'm so proud of Shinee honestly and the way they can never believe whenever they win, because some fuckass people wanna claim Shinee isn't relevant anymore and they won INKIGAYO!!! TAEMIN DID S CLASS AND HARD CHALLENGE WITH HYUNJIN, HE WENT TO JYP????? Why is he so adventurous all of a sudden

NO BC BAEKHYUN???? WHAT THE FUCK IS HE DOING IM ACTUALLY CRYING,, it’s the way kai left them a mission that they need to DANCE and not embarrass him and they are dancing im so sick the footwork is insane,,, taemin bbygirl meowing and baekhyun’s out here showing nips and tongues 😭😭

NO BC ITS TAEMINS REACTIONS TO THE WINS HAVE ME SO HAPPY LIKE HE TRULY CANNOT BELIEVE THEY WON LIKE MF UR A LEGEND??? 😭😭😭 THESE CRUMBS ARE SO WHOLESOME LIKE TAEMIN X SKZ, DARA X EXO, MINHO X EVERYONE 😭😭 AND THUNDER IS GETTING MARRIED??? 😭😭

Jamal astrology hoe, pls https://www.pinkvilla.com/entertainment/ncts-jaehyun-to-make-big-screen-debut-with-film-in-6-hours-you-will-die-alongside-park-ju-hyun-kwak-si-yang-1228441 this is the short description 👀 I need more kpop men in unhinged roles, like yeah them playing losers in rom coms is fine but give me something else

no bc im very excited to see what he does,, kpop’s actors / drama’s have been really good and exciting,,, i just know he’s gonna be so incredibly hot,, do u ever look at jamal and think he’d fit the twilight role so perfectly

Hybe didn't even apologise for the way they treated fans, they justified their actions. Fans were still groped, wtf, sometimes the gender matters, but they were still violated so what difference does it make seriously

no bc do u rmr the mental health polls hybe did?? fans were groped NEAR the new artists,,, i hope a few ppl sue them bc this is so incredibly wrong???

So, I'm sure if YSL was in contact with Hwa they'd already invite him somewhere :/ and he'd definitely thank them publicly, but his dedication to get noticed is admirable. Stop because first I saw those sandals on Ten and had to close my eyes and Seonghwa too… Hongjoong's obsession with Olivier Rousteing paid off so fingers crossed, ugh if not I'm personally going to Anthony Vacarello's house ☠

yeah!!! :( HIS DEDICATION REALLY IS UP THERE I HOPE THEY LISTEN FOR ONCE,, im sorry like those sandals are so whatsapp mom core 😭😭😭😭 KEEP UR GRIPPERS WITH U PLS WE DONT NEED TO SEE 😭😭 omg hongjoong’s manifestation power must be crazy good for rousteing to fall in love w him like that LMFAOOO ANTHONY ITS ON SIGHT

Re: N*mr: Idk some girlies really love footballers, they have humiliation kink cause I know at least 3 WAG wannabies from London who do that, they don't care those men will cheat on them. They usually just wanna bang and go, lmao kinda respect the hustle, but is it even worth it with some of them… yikes /// Omfg no because I saw the Suarez thing and was like HUH, then got confused why RM was posting about it 😭

NO SRS THIS HUMILIATION KINK IS FBKWHDKWHDKW I RESPECT IT BUT THE WAY I CRINGE FBWMDBKW ou not the wag wannabes u know what yeah i also respect the hustle like u go get that ride and dip w the money <3 no bc srs are they even worth it 😭😭😭 YEAH ME TOO UNTIL IT CLICKED AND MY HEART CAME BACK UP FBWJDHSK also why tf is everyone moving to saudi im actually so disappointed in everyone, losing passion over money 😭😭 LIKE BRO UR IN UR PRIME AND UR GOING INTO A NOWHERE LEAGUE

Baek are you updated on King the Land, because the latest episodes?! They really went for it, it's so cliche idk how it even works, but it does! Do you remember Yoona and Junho dancing to Senorita, because that was an event!!! I also remembered Taeyong and Seulgi and WOW… imagine 4th gen idols doing that ajsvhshajskdavshsjdjd

I AM SO UPDATED!!! I LOOK FORWARD TO EVERY WEEKEND FOR NEW EPS the kiss. the way. he was shaking. 😶😶 crying screaming shitting i need them married. YOONA AND JUNHO WON THE IDAF WAR omf do u rmr the cabi song like that was peak idgaf,,, taecyeon and yoona and then jessica 😭😭😭 taeyong seulgi doing a show together???? 👁👁

Insane to think certain idols would be in totally different fields, like business, pilot, chef then tattoo artist, Twitch streamer lmao but here they are in the same fucking group doing aegyo and hip thrusting on stage /// Yeah, so I obviously enjoy 4th gen, but 2nd and 3rd gen had the quality, now I see those Tik Tok fucking songs that are under 3 mins and I wanna die!!! Don't wanna be a boomer, easy and fun choreography can be cool, not only for fans to follow, but also idops to perform, but where is the versatility, the creativity…

RIGHT LIKE KUN AS A PILOT??? 😭😭😭 so random,,, twitch streamer stOP 😭😭😭 here they are being a slut fbwkdhwk ur right!!! thwy had the quality, everyone was releasing bangers it was crazy but the best time for kpo musically!!! UR RIGHT THE TIKTOK SONGS ARE 😭😭🔫,,, no bc this 100% easy and fun can be cool but not having it fit the music,, new choreo is so underrated these days like all we see his hand moves or straight up gymnastics,, give us good food!!!!

Shhahdhndjshahhshaaj stop SM people are lurking cause that guy was quick to like Yuta's post?! 😬😬😬😬 and now there are articles about SM being xenophobic <333 like I said, embarrasSMENT… it's a shame they have so many artists I like, because they're literally the worst. And apparently Sungtaro are debuting soon, I will believe it when I see it. Really shitty that they remived Shohei, he's neither in NCT Tokyo nor the other bg :( man is a grown ass adult, let him debut!

LMFAOOOO BRMWHDKWHDKW HES ON TWITTER FOR SURE,,, EMBARRASSMENT TRULY,, but honestly is it surprising bc sm’s past treatment with their chinese employers and then doing a law suit on them before leaving,, literally,, the idols are the best part of sm honestly 😭😭 YEAH ???? LIKE JUST PUT THEM IN A GROUP AND DEBUT IT OUT also their new bg having jaejoong dna like sm rly loves him 😭😭

Ryan is Ken for life because wtf is he saying?! Margot os serving so many iconic looks during the promo! Btw booked tickets for both Barbie and Oppenheimer on the same day lmaooo it's gonna be a fucking ride

LMFAOOOO CORRECT I DONT KNOW WHAT HE IS ON FBWKDHWKDBSK so excited to see it,,, OH UR DOING A DOUBLE FEATURE??? SCREAMING PLS GET THE SEATS NOLAN WANTED PPL TO HAVE stop ur gonna feel the nuke irl 😭😭😭

You're right, KQ posted the "apology", not even Ateez's account??? And the apology was too vague imo, again if Indian/South Asian fans want to accept it that's their decision, I'm not saying people should cancel them and send then threats (it's happening and it's so bad), BUT some stans are ok with bare minimum, they just wanna move on… :/ that's what I told my friend, imagine if someone wrote a track called Kimchi Song, Asian people get so much shit for their native food, so it's incredibly insensitive. I don't wanna generalise, but I met so many Korean stans and while some were nice, some are simply crazy and lose their morals over kpop. On the other hand, one thing can tip them off, nothing serious and they can go from loving someone to sending them threats and???

yeah like the clear difference in followers and posting on the other acc had me side eyeing them,,, was v disappointed that it was yunsanhwa— omg do u rmr lee hyori doing sexy dance on a hindu mantra???? MY JAW WAS ON THE FLOOR HOW DO U BE THIS INSENSITIVE????? yeah ppl wanna move on but i am definitely side eyeing them for a while 🤨 but honestly i expected it, every idol has to do something like this with their whole chest 😭😭😭

It's a shame none of the members apologised, I like to think they wanted to, but idk. San posted on b.stage I thought he'd mention it, I understand it was his birthday, but… :/ I'm not usually personally affected by most of idols' fuck ups, but it always pisses me off regardless

i do too but that ur right that part,,, it always pisses me off when it be the ppl u never expected??? this one rly had me open my eyes a little like 🤚🏻

Exo possible collabs??? Exo on Killing Voice, well they definitely fucking killed :o  /// Shinee, Teen Top, U-Kiss, Exo, Infinite, what year is this?! Remember when we would get so many 2nd/3rd gen ggs comebacks?! 2021 and 2022 😭😭😭😭

possible collabs,,, i need them to collab on a group album more often. THEY RLT DID BUT I WANTED A PT2 BC THERES SO MUCH AND THEM CHOOSING LOVE SHOT OVER TEMPO??? CRAZY.  watching it made me realize how c razy their discography is, hit after hit and wow 🤚🏻 mr kim jongdae rly does it w so much ease, and baekhyun??? he’s a full time flirter, part time idol

I AM SO EXCITED FOR INFINITE LIKE DBWKDHWKHDKW WE SEE IDOL L 😭😭😭 FINALLY AFTER SO LONG CRYING FHWKDHWK hoping this summer brings good songs for everyone esp the 2/3rd gen groups that are coming back, we need that era back!

Baek, I got two tattoos during my trip and I already made appointments for two more, so pray for me lmao <333  /// Did you see model Hwa on the cover?! Sadly I don't have high hopes, because it's Cosmo and they usually have boring shoots, so far they look ok (but their clothes are basically their promo/stage fits? 😬) sigh - DV💖

WE NEED A DOODLE DRAWING OF THEM RIGHT NOW 🔫🔫 I DID SEE MODEL HWA COVER. ITS ALL BLACK AND WHITE BUT I GUESS ITS SOMETHING 😭😭😭 but did u see jeong yunho. why is he so big like that. i went thru a 15 min blankness looking at him

no cause fbwkdhwk

damn

AND HIM???

#✉️ : ask #dv 💖 anon

[stayxlix]

helloooo!!🩵 how are you?? I've taken some rest (and yes, I did reread otde...) but I wanted to thank you for even reacting to the playlist! I'm so glad I got to share it with you and introduce you to some new artists! I still listen to yours and I agree with you saying that both yours and mine give off the same vibe! They definitely do and i honestly love that sm! 💗 since I reread the story I got a ton of motivation ( and an amazing mood, god i love this story so much omfg) so be prepared for the moodboard AND the playlist bc my mind's just full of ideas rn also, thank you so much for giving me such nice replies, it feels like you really read all of my rants and it just makes me so happy ajwhehhehe i always get so so so excited and overall happy when you reply😭🩵buuut I got share something with you🤭

So I've been thinking what types of love/ tropes could fit with Felix and aside from best friends 2 lovers and enemies 2 lovers, I think the type of love where both love each other so much that it slowly eats away at them is so fitting! Like the type where they are always together, doing everything together to the point where they don't even know anything beyond each other — they know it's slowly ruining them but they don't care as long as they are together, and they always put each other before anyone else which kind of ends up with the losing a few friends/aqquantiences but they still just really don't care because, you know, the still have each other. the kind where they love each other with their own bones, know everything about the other by heart. Lets say, the type of love where it slowly ruins them, without them even knowing. I feel like this fits Felix so much,bc he's so nice and sweet that before you could even begin to notice that what you two have may be a bit unhealthy, you'd just simply be to deep and wouldn't be able to imagine a life without him. like soulmates / twin flames but a bit twisted 🤔 why I'm saying this is, because i think that mc and felix in otde are so tied together that in some future, this could potentially fit them (not neccessarily perfectly but it's there, you know what I mean?) , since they're going through the hardest times together, but also bc I feel like you might like this trope! Unfortunately, I haven't seen anyone write for Felix (which makes me a bit mad so I might as well do it myself)

But that's all for today's rant! Hopefully it wasn't too long🫠 as always stay safe and take care, love you sm! 🩵💗

welcome back my🩵🩵 i’ve been wondering how the rest of your week has been!! i’m glad you got to rest (and do a little reading🤭) i’ve been pretty good, but im so ready for the weekend lol.🫠

omg no need to thank me for reacting to the playlist, to be honest i’ve already come back to it multiple times since you sent it my way💕 it makes me so happy to hear that you feel motivated just from re-reading the story because i feel the same about your playlist, having all of these new songs to write to has certainly helped me get a good start on chapter 5.🤭 and i hope you know how excited it makes me to hear that you're planning to make the moodboard too?!?! if it comes from you then i already know it’ll be a masterpiece, and now i have even more motivation to look forward in the future!! you’re spoiling me🩵🥹 i love your “rants” (every single word!!) please never stop sending them, they are so special to me and put the biggest smile on my face no matter what time of day it is or wherever i am when i read them :) i dont think ill ever be able to express how much i appreciate them but ill continue to do my best to try💕

oohh something to share you say….🤭

“I think the type of love where both love each other so much that it slowly eats away at them is so fitting!” 

AND I THINK YOU’RE ONTO SOMETHING HERE. i completely, totally, one HUNDRED percent agree with you. this is SO Felix i can’t even put into words how much i enjoyed reading this because YES. just yes. like the type of love where its totally harmless at first, right? there’s this unexplainable connection between them that neither of them can ignore...even from the first time they see each other. and then they start spending more and more time together because they just can’t help it. and soon they're all each other can think about, and they’re not even trying to do things like push others away but they continue to let it happen, because they’re just so intoxicated with each other you know???? (omg i could go on forever) and i think felix is the perfect person for this trope because like you said, he’s so sweet and i can see him getting completely wrapped up in his partner because of how much he seems to genuinely care for those around him (and i mean vice versa, who wouldn’t get tunnel vision for felix????) the idea of soul mates and twin flames is great and all, don’t get me wrong, but take something that’s supposed to be innocent and make it a little twisted?? that is RIGHT up my alley. and i think it perfectly suits our main duo in otde because they're already feeling that pull toward each other and it's only natural that their bond will grow even stronger because of what they're currently going through/will go through together in the future....🫢

so in conclusion..you are a a genius🩵🩵my mind is already buzzing with inspiration from reading this🤭 and it makes me want to pick your brain even further to find out what other brilliant ideas you have hiding in there lol. okay okay im cutting myself off here (i am so very sorry for how embarrassingly long this😂) thank you so much once again for the inspiration💕🤗 i hope you have a wonderful weekend, it always makes my day to see the little blue hearts in my inbox, ily so very much🩵🩵

#otde.feedback #alex answers asks♡ #🩵

[crab-funk]

This time on Things Happening Pertaining To Music That Interest Me:

Because you know what? This is a blogging site. And I love to be an annoying motherfucker. Woe, musical obsessions be upon ye.

Firstly, it seems Vic Entertainment uploaded some Yoeko Kurahashi stuff 5 months ago! A couple music videos and higher-quality footage from a live (just one song tho.)

https://youtu.be/4c-R9kxL3Ss (Song is called ‘Jewelry’ I believe.)

I’ve seen footage of this live before (as have I heard the songs they put up MVs for,) but it makes me wonder if it’s just because they happened to have em on hand/get the go-ahead to put em up or something more. Probably just the former, but I do wish I could’ve been around when she was active - she’d stopped making tracks and performing live before I’d even hit school. One commenter on the live video has the same lament...I feel you, buddy!

Moving on...

On the topic of re-uploads...

https://youtu.be/n77fjnp_BxM

U/M/M/A Inc. has done an official upload of the Strobe Light MV! It’s a song that’s so so dear to my heart. I was so shocked then I caught it only 1 hour after they uploaded it and ran to listen immediately!

However, funnily enough...the key was too high! It seems that they have now done a re-up rectifying this, but that was funny. Everyone was chattering away abt it in the comments. It’s nice that something light-hearted happened with this bc understandably I think a lot of us siinamota fans get emotional about his passing whenever he comes up. I initially thought that perhaps this was a commemorative set of uploads, in fact, but yet again I think it’s just because they had the videos on hand or got the rights, smth like that.

https://youtu.be/SqTq1P6y70Q

Moving on, it seems that Porter Robinson has a real-ass Vocaloid as of 5 days ago! I’m not a Porter Robinson fan, but I mean cmon it’s Porter Robinson. I rlly like Po-uta and the debut song Humansongs...songs that are from the pov of the synth are always so heartwarming/heartwrenching gaaughgh

I think it’s interesting that despite it being an AI vb, the direction in the song and the vc in general is decidedly robotic and more like a character than a human person, which I love. As awesome as it is when vocal synths sound realistic, I greatly appreciate when people go more ‘stylised’ - as a few people have called it.

ALSO: This is not a recent discovery for me BUT I need to put this out there so people hear it:

https://youtu.be/zRF2SQSeUAU

What is THIS, you may ask? It is a Gakupo cover of You Spin Me Round (no img bc it’s literally just a still of the original mv lol.) It is so so good and it makes me happy to see people use Gakupo to any capacity these days...hes my og babygirl and I love his vb sm so. You best believe I blast this in the mornings!!

The yt channel this is on has a tonne of awesome Gakupo covers in English, Japanese and I wanna say Polish(?) so like...freakin check em out!

That concludes this post about Things Pertaining To Music That Interest Me. Thank you for reading or not reading.

[twogyuu]

Thank you, I listened to the recs! 😊 I found the songs fun, but not always my vibe or genre. Sorry! 😅 Weirdly, they all sounded nostalgic (2010s) & vaguely familiar; they reminded me of other songs, except for "Arcade." My final ranking is: (1) "Arcade," (2) "Without You," (3) "To My First," (4) "Action Figure," & (5) "Back 2 U." I didn't like the chorus of "Action Figure" or "Back 2 U" much, but I'd listen to "Arcade" again! I'm open to more recs, if this helps narrow some down. Take care! ❤

LOL no dwai!! I'm in my slow jam, angsty R&B era rn and after we talked about music last time, I figured our tastes were kind of different 😂 I'm glad you enjoyed Arcade enough to check out their other stuff!

Candy was a re-make of H.O.T's 'Candy' from the 90s!!! 🤣 They were SM's very first BG I think (I could be wrong, but like very very early Kpop lmao). Deja Vu is so catchy!!! It was my alarm for a hot minute 😂

Renjun my beloved 😍😍😍😍😍🥰🥰🥰🥰💚💚💚💚!!!! He is my NCT Dream bias (for now pending Jaemin doesn't send me in too deep of a spiral LOL)!!! If you liked A New Beginning, I think you might like Graduation by NCT Dream and From Home by NCT U? Other ones I would recommend checking out: Boom and Quiet Down both by the Dreamies again 😅 Ofc, no pressure if you don't want to listen to them either! I'm just excited to talk about them with someone 👉🏻👈🏻

DPR IAN!!! I LOVE Ballroom Extravaganza by him! I just listened to Nerves as well and I really like it!!! If you have anymore recs from him, would be so down for more hehehe

Also, pls don't apologize for sending so many asks!! Like I've said before, you're not a bother at all. I might take a while to get back to the longer ones, but I will get to them! Just wanna give them the attention and time they deserve :)

#take care! ❤ anon #i would rec more nct 127 songs #but i don't know their b-sides all too well tbh 😭 #sorry :((

[moonhoures]

super late to the party but i just finished reading the entire first love series and it was seriously so good 🥺 loved it sm, i feel like the way you portrayed soob as a bf is so spot on 😭 like it makes my heart ache i just know hes the sweetest boy!! also i was listening to nothing feels better by pink sweats while i was reading and now i associate the story w it <//3 the lyrics feel very apt to the story and it just got me deeper into my feels!!! AHHH just wanted to share these thoughts with you, ur amazing & tysm for writing this fic ill definitely be re-reading ❤️

it’s never too late to join the first love lovers party! we simp hard for that fic on this blog 😌☝🏻 myself included bc it’s my fav fic i’ve ever written and will continue to be so until i top it somehow 🤷🏻‍♀️ but anyways i’m so so so thankful to you for reading and enjoying it! i have more planned for it in the future so you’re not really finished with it 😉

and thank you for the song rec!! i agree, i think it fits the story very well! i’ll be adding it to my playlist for the fic 🥰 i appreciate you taking the time to send this, and i hope you enjoy the rest of the fic when it eventually comes out 🥹💓

#anon ilysm thank you for making my day ❤️ #📬: mail #📎: first love

[moonctzeny]

Hii if you're still doing the ask game,,Love song-nct127+ friends-to-lovers +reading💙

haechan. (every time I hear of love song I think of him 💙)

"hey y/n, what's the name of that cute cafe we went to last time?", haechan asks you, his skin burning where his left shoulder is touching your right one. you hear the familiar sound of his pretty metallic voice but you're too focused on your book to make out what he's saying. your best friend has been trying to get your attention for the past thirty minutes to no avail, admiring your cute concentrating face; but just that and the rhythmic sound of the raindrops falling on his bedroom window are not enough to keep him entertained. he quickly grabs his umbrella from his desk, snatching your book from your hands and storms off. "donghyuck, if anything happens to my new book you're a dead man!!". he runs outside his apartment, to the hallway, and quickly ascends the stairs when he realises you're following him. when you reach the rooftop, you see him standing next to the edge, umbrella in his one hand and threatening to throw your book from the 10th floor if you don't play with him. you run to his side, only to realise that the umbrella is way too small for the both of you, so you stay close to him while you're throwing little punches on his chest, demanding your book back. after a particularly strong blow, he immobilises you by pulling you flush against him and holding both your wrists in his hand. the move made him drop both the umbrella and the book, the rain falling mercilessly over the both of you. you just stare at the water that is making the hair stick on his forehead and wetting his pretty eyelashes, both your heartbeats banging against your chests from all the running and something else. you look like a mess, haechan thinks, but a mess that he wants to call his, so he collects his courage and plants his full lips on yours. you just stay there, under the rain, lost in each other, and he promises to give you a romance just as good as the ones in the novels you love so much.

send me a song stuck in your head, your favourite fanfic trope and one of your hobbies and I’ll tell you which nct member would challenge you on a rooftop fight and why

#omg all of your hobbies are so wholesome it’s hard to make a rooftop fight out of that 😭 #thank you for making me re listen to love song I love it sm!! #haechan #game #haechan fluff #ew i went all s*ppy in the end #haechan drabbles #nct drabbles

[mineogi]

Games in the Dark. | K.H.J

pairing: yan-demon! hongjoong x f virgin! reader

wordcount: 11.5k

genre: demon au, virgin!reader, oneshot/smut.

synopsis: He was happy when he had a friend to play with at night. He loved to watch you tremble under your blankets hoping you were invisible yet you weren’t, he could always see you. You’re much older now and you guys haven’t played in a while, he wants to play again. But he’s getting quite tired of hide and seek. Tonight he wants to play tag and he’s it.

warning: smut (penetration, oral, foreplay.) , VERY DARKKKKK, hongjoong has no morals, virginity lost, DUBCON, smacking, passing out, slapping, fingering, oral (f), spanking, orgasm control, begging, forest sex, dirty sex, 18+ subjects, prey/predators vibes, dirty talk, foul language, mentions of throw up, overstimulation, creepy hongjoong, he psychotic, mentions of childhood trauma + trauma in general, creampie, cum play, cum eating, hair pulling, different positions, multiple orgasm, reader cries a lot but can we blame her?

A/N: this so late yall lol T.T but anyways this is definitely more a darker oneshot than i did before, ughh yeah 11k words hope you guys like it, i’ll be re-editing later on lol so just be aware this isn’t proof read fully!! so sorry if there are any misspells or anything of the sort! thank you for all the notes and follows! i’ll get to request after the series is done!! ^_^ i appreciate it sm it makes me happy u guys like what i write

song to listen to:

the game - motörhead

we belong together - ritchie valens

“Check under the bed.” The little girl said in a tiny voice, fist gripping the sheets in fear.

“Sweetie, I did that four times already along with the closet and the shelves.”

The young girl tenses when she notices her mother going to turn off the light. “Mommy…please can you leave the light on.”

“Silly, you know I can’t do that, everything will be okay. Me and daddy are right down the hall.” The lady laughs half heartedly at her daughter’s request. Her new found fear of the dark started to kick in, just like other kids her age.

The girl watched her mom turn off the light and close the door leaving her completely alone in the darkness. The shapes of her room messed with her eyesight as her wide fearful eyes looked everywhere for the creature she was most afraid of. Pulling the covers closer to her face she squeezed her eyes shut trying to force herself to sleep so morning light could come quicker. Minutes passed and her heart began to calm down when she figured maybe it was her mind playing with her the whole time and her young self couldn’t understand it yet.

Until the squeak of her closet door opening rang through the air.

Then it’s silent but she knows he’s there, always watching her, trembling under her blanket afraid of what he would do. Her heart began to beat fast while she desperately wanted to call out to her mom to come save her but her fear kept her in a freeze like state.

“It’s disrespectful to not greet your friends.” The monster evil voice airs through the room when he steps out the closet, slowly dragging every second on.

He watches the little girl hide herself under her covers and dig deeper into the bed wanting to disappear from the monster taunting her every night in the dark. Making everything much scarier than it was. At first it was fun hide and seek, the game was harmless and fun Hongjoong loved coming up to play games with the young girl. Then one day the young five year old couldn’t help recite a curse word she heard in her kindergarten class from a boy who said it.

At first it was just the soul he needed, he needed a pure, innocent soul. When he was called upon by the grief of your mother when your father had died in the car accident he made a deal with her. A deal that was perfect for him when he saw your mothers swollen belly holding the piece of light that was you. He needed your light and he couldn’t let anyone dim his light.

It was never his first intention to let his demonic side take over. He didn’t want his evil side to get in the way but he didn’t have much self control ever, he let himself get taken over by anger from the word leaving the young girl's mouth forming into her darkest nightmares. Traumatizing her by showing the child what would soon be her greatest nightmare. The hollow empty eye socket he had, the sharp pointed teeth that ripped through his mouth and jaw leaking his black blood all over his white suit—the white suit he always wore, the way his body cracked in different forms screaming at her that night to never repeat that word while she screamed for her mother. After that the child never wanted to see him again and she avoided him for days. It upset him, so he continued to taunt her at night,  terrorizing the young child.

“Look at me!” He yelled throughout the room forcing the room to feel as if it was shaking, the little girl's eyes shot open when the blanket was ripped from her weak grip. Tears flowed down her chubby cheeks, her bottom lip wobbling at the demonic monster turning into her worst fear in front of her again. Hongjoong examine the child’s appearance, everything screamed fearful it only forced him closer to her. She screamed choked sobs leaving her small chest trying to get away from the man in the white suit but he only moved closer.

“I’m gonna get you, Y/N.”’

Growing up you told your mom and dad about the man in the white suit and how he always scared you at night. They told you it was nightmares and that no one was there. They never believe the stories you told them only coming to you when you screamed late hours at night in terror yet to them it was always another night terror. Sleeping became harder every night until your parents began letting you sleep with them some days that was until they opted for night lights in your room. Night lights plugged into any socket available in your room.

You prevented yourself from seeing him in your life for a while, but everything comes at a price. You lived your entire life filled with fear, fear of the night, fear of what he could do now after all this time of blocking him out. You couldn’t enjoy simple things in life like parties, sleepovers, overnight trips with friends.

Friends, a thing you didn’t have. In elementary it was normal. As you got older you saw your friends call nightlights ‘kiddish’, ‘lame’, resulting in you not going to sleep overs with them and always feeling left out until one day you were left out the whole friend group of kids. It led you to being an outcast, which wasn’t as terrible as others made it out to be, well for you at least. You were always preoccupied with the fear of what if something slipped up and caused him to come back. All you knew was you never wanted to see the man in the white suit ever again.

When highschool came around many things in your life seemed to go wrong. Nightmare’s terrorized your mind daily of the man in the white suit. He had found ways into your head and your dreams, your vision. You saw him in the shadows, the ends of his bright white jacket peeking through showing you he was always there with you, watching you. He appeared more as the years went on until there were days you would look in the mirror and be shocked by the face of him behind you only to be alone in the bathroom, days where you hear his hysterical laugh echoing down your halls.

The torture only pulled down on your mental health, it was seeming to become all too much for your parent’s as well when you’re dad left you and your mom for another family after dealing with your family problems for so long he declared he was simply tired. Your mom always was guilt ridden.

Countless days you tried to figure out why you had to deal with this evil presence. When you were a child you were too young to process what was happening only filled with fear and wanting to escape into the safety of the arms of your mother but as time went on you realized it wasn’t normal, other kids didn’t depend on their nightlights for their life, they didn’t have the memories of those nights when you were forced to endure his frightening appearance—They didn’t go through what you went through.

Your mother never judged you for the way you were, only helping you when it all became too much. Your mom became the only other protector you had besides yourself. She never asked about your dreams, or ever allowed herself to believe maybe they were more than dreams, that maybe they were just memories coming back.

At one point after high school you began to think maybe they were just nightmares, years passing by caused blurred your childhood trauma away in hopes to give you any sort of relief, any hope to move forward and live a normal life.You thought maybe your mind was playing tricks on you, that your fear was taking over you making you believe things that weren’t true, you began believing your mother. It was always a battle between fear and wanting to stop living in it. You never experienced life how others did, you didn’t party, didn’t get to experience relationships and friendships past adolescence. The feeling of being on edge all the time became repetitive and you internally begged yourself to do anything, anything to feel just a bit of life.

Then you created a safety kit, you prepared yourself with flashlights, lighters, matches. You never stayed out late, you never knew if he truly lurked in the dark of the night waiting for you to grab you and take you but you never wanted to test it out so you always would come home when the sun was still present in the sky afraid that the moon wouldn’t protect you. Starting with small places located close by like your favorite cafe you found a little down from your town then venturing to small shops and clothing stores, you never bought a lot, only window shopping as it was something fun to do sometimes and when you found a small bookshop you couldn’t help see how welcoming it was—slowly you began to experience a tiny bit of life. Walking also became a thing you grew fond of doing whilst listening to music to block your thoughts was the favorite part of your bland day, you could imagine another life where you didn’t suffer as you did in your real life.

When you began living the nightmare’s only became worse, more gruesome, more terrifying. You saw his blood everywhere. You were scared to shower the last time you remembered how you closed your eyes and when you opened them you were getting soaked with his black blood from the shower head, how it wouldn't turn off no matter how many times you tried, how it took you your mom to burst in the door for the water to turn clear and make you feel like you were crazy. Snapping you back to reality that he had to be real, he was getting angrier and stronger.

Life always throws signs your way and it’s up to you to take them and decide what to do after. So maybe the strong wind and rain should’ve been enough to force you to stay home but you were determined to have a good day at the local cafe and bookstore. You would simply get your favorite drink and read a nice book in the cozy book store.

You were currently sitting on one of the bean bags in the bookstore, drinking cold and stale as hours went on with you reading. The plush of the bean bag felt so comforting to you, so soft and like a huge marshmallow that had you dozing in and out of sleep. Exhaustion hitting you after not sleeping correctly for the past few weeks, your brain felt as if it was swimming, floating almost, in a sea of sleep. You told yourself a few seconds of you closing your heavy eyes wouldn't hurt, the delusion given to you by your own exhaustion.

“Miss you have to wake up, we’re closing.”

Eye’s shooting open, you stare at the man in confusion, blurriness clouding your eyesight . You don’t remember falling asleep or how long you slept, only that it felt good and needed, you didn’t have any nightmares, no sweaty panicking awakening, the feeling was nice until you noticed your reflection in the glass window. The dark skies almost laugh at you for indulging in your own human needs.

That scary dark sky.

“What time is it?!” Standing up you throw the forgotten book onto the bean bag, quickly looking for your phone and belongings to run home.

“It’s 10:45, we close at 11 o‘clock, But we need guests to leave so we can clean up and place everything back.” He sounds like he’s not trying to rush you but rush you at the same time possibly wanting to get home just as much as you wanted to.

Your heart began beating rapidly while you walked to the door realizing you would have to walk home, in the dark, alone.

The natural reaction of flight or fight settles inside you when you open the book store door letting the cool air brush against your skin. You can’t remember when was the last time you were out late at night, it’s been years.

Speed walking down the street you don’t put any music, only focusing on making your way home. The streets are so empty it’s almost an illusion to see anyone walking. You thought this part of time would be buzzing with life but you were left deserted and alone to walk the dark night alone. You feel more lonely than usual which is puzzling since you’re always alone but the way you feel like you’re the only one on the earth right now doesn’t grant you any protection you desperately need right.

You tell yourself it’s your mind playing tricks on you. The internal battle within yourself of,

“He's real.”

“He’s not real.”

“We both know he’s real.”

A dark figure emerges from the shadows of an alleyway at the corner. Feet stuttering against the pavement you stumble backward, fear consumes your whole body. Shaky hands try to find your safety kit when you reach for your flashlight but everything’s gone, nothing’s packed. The pouch is empty and gone like all your hope. You don’t have any other choice but to run when you see the bright white ends of his coat flowing through the night, peeking through the shadows where he stood hidden. Those footsteps hitting the sidewalk is your warning to get running before he catches you. Turning around you, you run, entering your first game of cat and mouse with the demon.

Every second you felt him gaining on you, your full speed run felt like it was you walking with how he was catching up quickly. You didn’t turn back to look at him, terrified what you’ll be met with, you could only look ahead and pray you make it to safety in time. Taking turns didn’t seem to stop him, you tried everything to find your way back home but it was much farther than you began to believe.

Where was your damn house?

Heart beating, you feel like throwing up and fainting with how much you’re overpowering your body to run to its full capacity for so long. Every time you felt yourself slowing down his knife like fingernails would graze across your back trying to grip your flowing shirt in the wind forcing more adrenaline to pump through you to run faster. You knew he was using his demonic form to gain the upper hand. The way he would warn you whenever he was close with a short giggle, fingers barely away from your grip. Finally, seeing one of your neighbors' house, you were so close but not there yet it broke your heart but have you hope, you couldn’t help sob harder with each sprint you made to your home. Heat spreading through your legs in pain you wanted so badly to take a break and rest, but the echoing laugh and jingle of his suit medals only fueled you more.

Never in your life had you felt this fear before. Every street lamp that came your way to grant you safety to take a break shut off mere seconds before your arrival at the lights pushing you to run more. This had to be a game from hell, this wasn’t fun at all. A soft tug at the bottom of your shirt in an attempt to yank you had you screaming in terror at him being so close to you again.

Taking a sharp right you force the light grip off your shirt and you finally see your safety. Your home is just a few steps away. You can get on your porch safely and hope the porch light blesses you. The sharp turn gave you a bit of space between him, you hear his feet stomping against the pavement like he was shaking the world with his anger of losing you again.

Reaching your porch you don’t notice if the lights even turn on with your frantic banging on the door needing to be let into the safety of your house before he gets the time to try and get you. There was no time to even think of searching for keys, not when he was so close to grabbing you again.

“Mom!” Your fist bangs on the door multiple times with any strength you can muster, even beginning to use one of your legs to kick on the door. “Mom! Open,now!!”

Crying out you look behind you, seeing through your tears the blur of white running towards your porch and you know you’re set to be doomed when finally the door swings open you don’t spare another second pushing yourself onto your savior, slamming the door quickly.

“What happened Y/N?! Are you okay?! Who was chasing you!? I’ll call the cops right now!” The question comes too fast for you to understand anything, all you feel is light headed and physically sick.

No words come out to answer your mom yet, all you do is hug onto her sobbing your fears into her chest. You just wanted to feel her safety, to feel okay. More sobs leave you when your mom softly pulls you off but you don’t want that, you just want to be held by her embrace to feel protected, fingers gripping her pajama shirt in terror. When looks at you with a confused look you blink more tears out, with a shaky breath you hold her tighter.

“The man in the white suit, he almost got me.”

It was one particular evening that answered all your questions and sealed your fate for the rest of your life.

The evening when you came out your room just finished showering and felt the need for a snack. But, you didn’t expect to see your mother at the table, tears streaming down her face. You can see the wrinkles on her features, stress of your father’s cheating, leaving you and her alone for another family, along with your nightmares you could see it was starting to take a toll on her. You didn’t expect her to cry about it now but you knew everyone had their breaking point.

But, it was when she noticed you and her tears fell more frequently with broken sobs. Before realizing what's happening you feel her hugging you tightly like she would never see you again. Holding onto you like a mother holds her newborn, so much love and care.

“I love you so much hun. You know that right.”

Her eyes are sad and you know she looks scared when she touches your damp hair nervously moving it around to caress you, you didn’t understand why she was acting like you were moving or leaving. You just wanted a snack and to rest in your room.

“Mom, what's wrong?” Fed up with her strange behavior you pull away from her giving her a puzzled look.

“Nothing, nothing, just I need you to know I did everything to protect you and I love you, Y/N.” She whispers, blinking more tears, a sad smile on her lips.

“You’re scaring me, what happened?”

Stinging takes over your eyes, you try to stop the tears but you feel like your mom knows something that she won’t tell you, it was frustrating because you knew deep down there was more than what she was leading on. You needed to know why she was so broken hearted right now.

Heartstrings being pulled when you see the distraught look on her face, while her hands rest on your shoulders massaging you almost like she was preparing to tell you something that would shock you to your core and she needed you to be prepared and comfortable for the news she was about to tell you. Only making your heart ache more in fear and only heightening when she guides you to sit down at the dining table while offering you a drink. You know you’re mother and you can tell she’s nervous with the way she’s speed walking around the room looking for items that weren’t missing to begin with. She wasn’t all here right now you can see she was worried about something, she looked rushed for time.

Sitting at the table you stare at the glass of water looking at the reflecting of the glass in water. You waited for your mom to sit down and speak but every second felt like years to you.

People always say ‘Trust your intuition.’ So you know the feeling in your stomach telling you your doom was about to come. You can only focus on the lukewarm water and the seconds ticking on the kitchen clock. But like a person in love with someone who doesn’t want to believe the gut feeling you try to ignore it, hoping she wouldn’t say what you were fearing the most.

“Remember those really bad night terrors and how you would always say you were hiding from the man with the white suit because he scared you.” It’s just the beginning but the tears already fall down your cheeks onto the table. You did so much to stop those nightmares, night games. You want to tell her it wasn’t night terrors that it truly happened and you were this way because of it but then you second guess yourself about everything.

But, that night.

You will never forget that night. How you feared your life and you couldn’t sleep for days after it happened. You slept in your mom’s room too afraid to even step into your room or be anywhere alone. Just the feeling of having someone, anyone be by your side to witness if anything was to happen was more than enough safety you needed at the moment. There was no other option, either.

Nodding at her trying to get you to remember those nightmares as if they ever left you in the first place.

“Yes I remember, h-he tried to get me that day I t-think, I saw his suit.”A broken sob is heard from you mother startling you and causing you to look at her.

Wiping her tears your mother collects herself with a wipe on her face with a napkin, then she looks at you with one of the most devastating heartbreaks ever. She made a mistake, a big one, you and she will both have to pay for. She takes a deep breath looking down at her hands.

“Before you were born your father had gotten into a very bad car accident and he wasn’t gonna make it…I remember feeling so heartbroken and at the time I was pregnant with you. I couldn’t live without your father at the time, I was so young, naive and hopeless without especially being with you on the way.”

You don’t want to hear the rest, it physically makes you sick. The tears fall down your cheeks hitting the dining table as your throat tightens. Trying to contain your sobs to hear the rest of what she has to say but it’s so hard when you know nothing good would come out of what she is telling you. It breaks your heart, to be so helpless, to not have any control whatsoever in your life.

“So I met with this woman one day who told me about someone who would help your dad wake up in return for something. At the time I didn't think much of it but when I met with her again and things happened that night that I swore to myself I would never speak of again. But I made a deal with this demonic presence of some sort.” Full on sobbing your mother breaks down at her own trauma and guilt, “He wanted a soul so I said he could have mine but he insisted on a pure soul and he wanted my first born in return for your dad to live. He never said when he’ll come to collect his half of the deal. I have regretted ever since you were born and I held you in my arms.”

Now it was your turn to sob at what you were being told, you couldn’t believe she let you live with this monster terrorizing you for your whole life only to tell you it was your mind when she was the one who did this. You were disgusted, hurt, betrayal, and rage. You were so upset you could hurt her

“Why would you do this? Are you crazy? How could you do this?!” You scream all the questions at her quickly, hands slamming on the tables in a desperate

to get her attention to answer your questions quickly.

“I’m sorry! I regret it Y/N” She cries gripping her hair, the years of guilt falling onto her all at once, “I didn't know how to tell you at such a young age, and then when you came home that night hysterical I couldn’t keep it from you.”

“You did this to me, It’s your fault our family ended up this way! And now you’re gonna die alone because you sold me off to some demon!” Screaming you feel your throat burning up in irritation from overworking it with your sobs and cries. This feels like some sick dream, a sick horror movie you could never escape.

“I’ll do whatever I can to protect  you.”

“Do you know how much hell you caused my life to have, it’s too late can't you see that, the moment you made that deal you sealed my fate.”

“We’ll go to the church, we’ll go get a priest and fix this.”

“This isn't a movie! what do you think they'll look at us as, like we’re maniacs. You’re the only sick one here, who would even think of messing with life and death bringing them together. It’s not in your hands mom and now you caused me my entire life.” You wish you were being dramatic right now.

Getting up you walk away from your mom practically running to your room, you didn’t want to hear anything she had to say, nothing could fix what was happening. You just had to work harder on being aware with time, and stay home more, that has worked before and you lived somewhat peacefully. Ever since that night at the bookstore everything went terrible, you could still feel his finger on your back, how sharp he could make his nails to slice against your skin if he wanted to. There were times your mind screamed that you were only saved that night because he allowed you to be, that if he truly wanted you he would have got you that night—you didn’t allow yourself to believe it.

The tears didn’t stop that night, you just cried into your pillow. Hoping that maybe this was just a terrible nightmare and there was no way your mom would have done this to you, but you knew from how broken she was she was telling the truth. You wanted to hate her, despise her for doing what she did but you can see she regrets her decision, it messed with your head that you felt bad. She did all this just for your father to end up leaving, and now she would be alone whenever that thing would come and collect you. You would try your best to avoid him again but the idea of living this way in the long run didn’t seem so ideal to you, but what else was there for you to do, just accept the fate he had for you?

You never were one to be a skeptical person but the whole idea of being sold to a dead entity who haunted you during your whole life, just felt a bit too fake. Like so fake, that someone would laugh at you if you ever tried to explain what was happening and then probably lock you up away, somewhere he can get you.

Nightlights twinkled all over your room, protecting you from any shadow in the room that he could be in. Effects of crying so much began to weigh on you and your eyelids. They flutter now and then, your room coming into your view here and there, while you fall deeper into the peaceful slumber that would grant you the one wish you wanted so badly, the wish to forget your miserable life for just a moment in time.

It’s a soft noise at first, you barely notice it due to the layers of sleep you can feel yourself falling into. A soft sizzle echoes around the room, a noise that has your ear twitching in curiosity. Then like a jack-in-the-box a loud pop is erupted throughout the room pulling your mind out of the sleepy hold.

Sitting up from your bed you watch in horror as each and every one of your night lights burst one by one dimming each section of your room until you’re left in complete darkness. Glass shattered onto your bed from your bedside lamps shattering into complete shards. Releasing the most shattering scream you can, you cry out for your mom trying to remove the covers from your body so you can run to turn the light switch, your last hope.

But, when it begins to rain shards of glass on you in the process, you know all hope for any light is lost.

“Y/N!” You mom screams could be heard down the hall in terror, you’re running to the door, and just like fate has other plans, second before you grasp the knob you yanked by your ankles, filled with the throbbing pain of your chest colliding with the floor so abruptly.

“Help!” You shriek the wood scraping under your nail in an attempt to grip onto anything as you’re being pulled away from the door. The grip so bruising on your ankle you sob in fear it might dislocate, but sobs of pain turn to fear when you notice no one holding you but air, no one’s in the room grabbing you, yet you’re being dragged. You fear him more than you ever thought you could, terrified of how powerful he really can be.

“Y/N, Honey, I’m coming.”

Thrashing in the grip of the invisible person you keep attempting to move out of their hold, with every move your ankle aches in pain.

“Please mommy. I don’t want to die” Sobbing out to the only person you fele can save you, you cry for any safety you can get, the one you’re most familiar with—your mothers. The sobs from the outside can be heard from your mom as she desperately tries to open the shut door but to no avail, it won’t budge. Closing your eyes in pain you try to not feel the broken shards of glass cut against your skin with every pull.

“Mom!” You screamed the house shaking, you could only hear her pleas to let her daughter go then it went quiet. So quiet you could only hear your staggered breathing and harsh sobs.

Opening your eyes you see you’re no longer home but at the entrance of a forest. It’s so dark outside you can barely see anything. Just big tees and grass that soon turns into twigs, and dir deeper into the forest. And then you realize how cold it became, the air nips at your skin. You realize how much skin you are showing and you’re only in your underwear, nothing else, not even socks or a jacket at least. Blood still leaks from some small cuts on your skin due to the shards of glass but nothing too major, only stinging pain.

Fear hits you when you see the skies black, no stars, nothing, just pitch black and the field of the forest is black, the tree’s, the grass. You swore it was green mere seconds ago but everything turned black.

Was this a nightmare? An illusion?

“After letting you hide from me for so long, playing this little game of yours, I’m tired, and bored. So I finally came to collect what’s rightfully mine.” His voice is smooth and arrogant. He appears like nothing in front of you. Crispy white suit, human form, still scary nonetheless. “You made me really sad, ignoring me like that, having me chase you to get you.”

“I-I, please let me go.” Wiping your tears look at him only feeling fear when he moves closer to you helping you to wipe your tears. Flinching back you stare at him in shock, horrified at him touching you and how it sends shivers down your body.

“You can’t leave so soon, We have to play.”

“W-what?”

“If you want to leave, I will give you that. But only if you win the game I have made just for you.” His voice is sickly sweet, melting like cotton candy in the air. He sounds so happy about the game, genuinely showing he was happy with your misery.

“What g-game? Hide and seek?” You recall the game he used to love to play when you were young until he showed his true side to you.

“Mm no, i’m tired of that game. Close though, we’re playing tag.” Holding his hands behind his back, the smile never leaves his face, only widening when he feels your heartbeat pick up and fear wash over your face at his next word. “I’m it, this time.”

Stumbling back, you look at him afraid of everything happening. You had been caught, all the stress to be protected and safe went down the drain and now you had no help, no one to save you from the man who wanted you more than anything else in the world. The only one who would freeze hell over for you if he had to. So much devotion only scared you, he would do anything.

“I’ll give you a head start, yeah?” Clapping his hands he turns around letting you see his back, showing you he wasn’t gonna turn around until you ran into the forest.

“The name’s Hongjoong, incase… you need anything to scream.” Shuddering in fear you stumble back into the forest, turning around sprinting into the forest when you hear the low,

“One...”

Each branch broke when your bare feet ran across the forest, endless darkness and trees flew past you. There was no ending. You kept running to the point your lungs burned in a desperate attempt to show you how much air you needed but you didn’t stop.

The ground was so uneven and unsteady it made perfect sense why people fell in those horror movies. You could feel a certain time your ankle felt  like it would pop out it’s socket from a wrong step you took that was due to the branches and stones everywhere. It made everything so much harder for you, to run, to see where anything was.

His laugh echoed through the whole forest, pumping more fear into you as you ran. Dashing in between trees and bushes, you try to find any way out of this hell maze but it’s never ending. When you think you see blackness leading into anything you’re met with a dozen more trees. Screaming in frustration when you see more trees ahead of you once again, too focused on your frustrations the tree misses your vision and you're running straight into it. You believed it wasn’t there but the feeling of the tree bark hitting your skin was enough evidence to tell you it was there after all.

Groaning in pain on the floor you look up at the pitch black sky slowly accepting your fate with the demon. Air finds its way back to your lungs and you allow yourself to catch your breath. Crunches of leaves and twigs notify you that you aren't alone anymore. A cold hand touches your arm, you finally see Hongjoong come into view crouching beside you. He tagged you.

“Gotcha..I won. Now I get my prize.”

His words send tingles down your spine, and you’re standing up quickly shaking off the dizziness from the impact you just encountered with the massive tree. Stepping back to bring more space between you and him you watch him stand up straight dusting off his clothes, not a sweat broken out on him. Your throat closes when he gives you a certain look, almost telling you to test his patience.

“I don’t think the g-game was fair.” Looking down you fiddle your fingers hoping he would let you free to go home and look for your mom. But you know he’s very upset with you. You don’t like it when he’s angry.

Memories of how demonic he turns, black eyes, gruesome cuts all over his face, tears of blood, sharp knife life teeth always breaking his jaw with how wide it could be, you remember it all. Squeezing your eyes shut you imagine yourself home and safe from him, but you know you’ll never be safe from him. He’s the only one who could protect you and hurt you more than anyone could ever.

“Look at me.” He growls.

Forcing your eyes open you see him centimeters away from you. He was so close you could feel his breath. The rough same tree bark presses into your back, you wish you had more than just your bra and panties. It felt like being scrutinized by his gaze. He took in everything watching you tremble under the moonlight. How your skin glowed under him despite the goosebumps on your skin when you feel his fingers dance along your inner thighs getting dangerously close to your panties. Tugging the ends softly to let it snap back just to scare you a little more. He always likes how you look when you’re scared.

“This is my prize for winning.”

His hand touches your pussy, so fast you can’t even remove it when his other hand holds your wrist above you. Cupping you in his cold hand is very different from you ever felt with your hands. Your body is heated despite the cold seeping into your body and delicate skin getting goosebumps, your thighs and pussy stay warm, like it was his own little oven, so warm and welcoming for him. He can feel clenched at nothing due to the unnatural feeling of having someone else’s hands touch your body, especially the way he handles you. It was so different than anything you ever expected. You never thought of this happening.

“I don’t t-think you should.” You stutter, you didn’t think he would do this, you thought he would just kill you for your soul but it seems he has other plans and after all you were his rightfully.

“Awe sweets, that’s where you go wrong, you shouldn’t be thinking in the first place.” His hands don't stop their journey deeper into your thighs to grind his palm against your clothed clit. “Huh? What's this? You’re soaked.”

Broken sobs leave your mouth trying to move away from him only to have the rough tree bark dig into your sensitive skin, it caused more discomfort when Hongjoong decided to press himself closer to you. You’re sure the harsh wood is drawing blood on your bare back. His words hit you like a ton of bricks, the guilt beginning to sit in your stomach. It wasn’t your fault your body was betraying you, but he had made you feel like you were intentional with what was happening.

A startled cry leaves your lips when you feel him yank your panties down and his cold bare fingers are sliding between your folds. Fingers brushing against your sensitive nub circling it a few times causing your legs to buckle at the newfound feeling of pleasure. His face is so close to you, breathing your scent in, rubbing his face in your neck while his fingers caress your pussy, the other holding your hands tightly, you know there would be bruises all over your body.

“You hear how wet you are? It’s such a beautiful sound, I love it so much.” Breath hot on your skin, a sharp tingle is sent shooting through your body when you feel his teeth nip at your skin leaving tiny bite marks all over your neck making his way to your jaw, tainting your skin with his marks.

Pressing his forehead against you, Hongjoong brushes his nose against you, cherishing every moment he had with you now that you were completely his. He waited so long to have you. You avoided him well for a moment he would give you that but now you had nowhere else to go and you were his to always play with.

Fingers flicking at your clit has you gasping giving him the perfect opportunity to shove his tongue into your mouth, colliding his lips with yours. His kiss is rough while his hands play with you gently, groaning into the kiss when he feel’s you become more wet. It was everything he wanted, but there was one problem.

You weren’t kissing him back.

You stood there frozen trying to block him out, like you always did. But he wouldn’t let it work this time, no you would accept him.

“Kiss me back or I’m gonna fuck you right now and I’ll make sure its painful.” He pulls back just enough to lock eyes with you, and you see nothing but darkness clouding his eyes. In all honesty, he was gonna fuck you anyways but he knew he could lie to you without you suspecting anything, you were just so trusting it was one of the things he loves so much about you.

“ You know how I can become when I’m not being listened to.” He reminds you of the horrid creature he could become, smirking when he notices more goosebumps forming on your skin—you’re such a delicate little thing. Hongjoong slips his finger into you, a deep groan when he feel’s how tight you are. He takes in how you close your eyes at the foreign feeling of something being inside you this deep. “Is that what you want? For me to show you how scary I can really be? I don’t think you want that, you already lived your pathetic life traumatized by me. I wonder what’ll happen If I truly rain hell on you.”

Doing all this while moving his finger to stretch you, he knows to get you ready for him, he needs to prep you at least, he gives you that much sympathy but if you kept up with your act he would cut it short, in the end he truly had no morals after all. He speaks through it all knowing it would throw you off, you didn’t know what to pay attention to. It was absolutely a divine sight to take in. Stopping his movements he kisses you again biting your bottom lip hard enough to draw blood, licking it and sucking on your bottom lips he keeps his eyes open, loving the view of you crying from the stinging.

Releasing your hands from his grip, they fall like noodles and they're so numb you can’t even use them to defend yourself—not that you could have anyways. You’d always lose. He brings his free arm holding you to the tree by your neck, forcing his weight to completely trap you to him.

Pleasure slowly finds its way into the pit of your stomach, a soft tingling sensation spreading throughout your whole core, you feel it for the first time. The small knot grew more intense with every thrust of his fingers. You’re horrified, horrified you were enjoying this. But it felt so good you could help melt into the feeling of his fingers arching hitting that spot, a shot of pleasure hitting you, and a loud moan leaving your lips to your horror.

“There it is.”

He continues to abuse your g-spot, always curving his fingers with every thrust until you are overtaken by your first ever orgasm given to you by another. He watches it all, how your eyes roll back, cheeks flush, head thrown back, your hands twitching along with your legs. You were such a sign to take in he wanted to always see this from you. He fucks you with his fingers, his digits soaked, until you're writhing in overstimulation, small pleas leaving your lips, still so hopeful. He loves that about you.

Coming back to your senses you open your eyes,  tears collecting behind them when you see him remove his fingers bringing them up to show you your own come. Spreading his fingers, Hongjoong watches your essence stick to each of them. It’s when he sucks them you gasp in disgust and he laughs darkly.

“What? I wanted my treat.” He shrugs.

Before you know it you’re on your back and he’s on top of you. The rough moist branches, twigs, and stone only pain your back more. So much pain and pleasure.

“It’s only right I get my full prize after winning right?”

The undoing of buckles of his belt and buttons are heard throughout the empty forest and he’s between your legs. Looking down you look at his cock shocked at how big it was, you can’t help sob and try to move back but he’s quick to grab your knee holding you in place.

“Please, it won't fit.”

“We’ll make it.”

“No! You can’t!”

Hongjoong gives you an unamused look. Then he offers you a big smile, it doesn’t make you feel any better, only igniting more fear in you.

“I stretched you out just for me, I did that for you, so don’t be fucking ungrateful okay? Do you want it to hurt? Because I could’ve made it hurt real bad, but I’m giving you the attention and care you need and yet you still are greedy?” He sends you a questioning look, asking you to test him.

“N-no, but it’s gonna hurt.” Crying out, you go cover your chest when he rips your bra off your body, forcing the buckles to break and free your breast. Yanking your hands away, he bring his other hand to his throbbing cock to tease your slit with his tip, letting your juice collec onto his sensitive tip before rubbing it on your clit, messily mixing his precum and your wetness together.

“It’ll feel better soon.” With that he pushes his head into your tight hole for the first time ever, the sound of your wetness squelching throughout the forest with his groans were the only sounds throughout the empty place. The cold air forced your nipples to perk up and goosebumps to form on your body, he took this as a sign to pinch and twist your sensitive buds loving the way you squirm in pain and pleasure every time he twisted your nipple and pushed more of himself into you.

“It h-hurts.” You free one of your hands to push him off your chest to stop the confusing feeling of pleasure and pain.

“Soon, you’ll be begging me to fuck you, just have to break you in a little more.” Thrusting the rest of his cock into your heat. Your walls flutter at the new feeling of his cock fully inside you. He didn’t give you time to adjust, just continuing his thrust, he would give himself a pat on the back for not roughly fucking into you, but there was always later for that, right now he needed you to actually feel the pleasure of his cock in you, show you that’s all you needed.

Soon enough his thrust became rougher and forced a new sensation on your body. You couldn’t pay any mind to the dirty soil under you or the sore muscles aching from running for so long. That pleasure that began to seep into you, along with the feeling of his cock thrusting into you, over and over again, had your body twitching. The same tight knotted sensation on your core was only growing stronger and stronger with each passing second. Your breathing began to become rushed and uneven, with your muscles starting to hurt and twitch.

“Gonna come so easily again? My cock just started fucking you, don’t be so greedy so quickly.” He laughs at you when you gasp and become weak in his hold being pushed over the edge to float in the endless sea of pleasure.

He loves the sight so much, but he still feels his chest spreading with heat and anger. How you tried to escape him for so long, running from him. Who were you to run away from your owner? You were his and you would know that

“You wanna go home? Back to the bitch who was quick to give you up for a man who cheated and left you guys? That’s who you wanna go back to? Well you’re mine and I'm taking back what rightfully belongs to me.” His tone is as cold as the night, he’s pissed you know with how he begins fucking you. Lifting your right leg over his shoulder fucking you deeper, the tip of his cock always hitting your g-spot with every thrust. It makes you feel light headed and dizzy. Your eyes fill with tears in embarrassment or overstimulating pleasure, you don’t know but it doesn’t matter when he’s watching you so deeply, your every move doesn’t go unnoticed by his piercing gaze. It makes you feel smaller and weaker than ever.

Through your tears you see Hongjoong pout and lean himself closer to you as if he was inspecting a hurt animal. His knuckles touch your tear stained cheek, noticing you too weak to even move away from his touch. You allow him to caress your cheek, only giving him a face of confusion and pleasure when his tip hits your g-spot in a solid thrust.

“You’re already so fucked out…Hm, isn’t that a shame baby? You just keep coming and it’s making you so sensitive so quickly. Maybe you should try to control your pussy baby, you’re making a mess everywhere.” He’s laughing at you, that same laugh that sends shivers down your body now making you clench around his cock forcing a curse out of him.

His fingers play with your engorged clit, fingers drawing messy eights on it loving when you clench around him whenever he pinches your sensitive clit. The combination always has you squirming under him causing the twigs and dirt shift around you. He love’s how responsive you are to everything. He couldn’t wait until the day he finally got you to be the perfect toy

“P-Please Hongjoong!” You cry out, everything becoming too much for your sensitive body. He was being so merciless with you as if it was like you were a toy that he loved to play with so roughly and carelessly because he only cared about his celebration not your downfall.

“F-Fucking shit, just like that. Scream my name again.” His hips become more sloppy. The pleasure became overwhelming for himself as well, his whole body was tingling and he hasn’t felt this way in a long time. He barely remembers this feeling even being remembered but now that he feels it he doesn’t think he’ll ever be able to forget it again.

Moving his fingers from your soaked clit, he chooses to wipe your juice on your cheek mixing both your tears and arousal on your face. Laughing when you don’t try to move from his fingers, only closing your eyes and letting him do whatever he wants to you. You would be lying if you said it didn’t feel good at this moment but it scared you to feel this way. It was becoming too overwhelming. The tingling sensation in the pit of your stomach along with his pelvic brushing against your clit with the help of the ends of his button up shirt gave your clit the right amount of friction to have you falling over the edge.

No noise leaves you when you feel your body being overtaken by overwhelming pleasure. You don’t feel anything but numbing pleasure. Barely you can see Hongjoong fucking you through your tears and the black dots appearing on your finish. Feeling yourself slipping away from reality. Only when you feel a sting on your cheek, a second one hitting harder forcing your visions to clear. You can barely make out his words.

“Nuh uh wake up. I’m not done fucking you.”

Gripping your jaw in his hand, he held your face in his hand squishing your cheeks enough to pucker your lips for him to kiss gently complete opposite his brutal thrusts.

“You came so much for me, princess.”  He begins to praise you when he finishes kissing you looking down at his cock thrusting into you, the come coating his length  almost was enough to have him eating you out yet with the way you clenched to him and shook from overstimulation was more than enough to have him more hooked in fucking you.

“No more.” You're weak when you find the small strength to speak and move your hands to his blood stained white jacket. Gripping it with all your might trying to push him off to give your poor abused sensitive cunt a break.

You can almost cry in relief when you feel him release you and move his thick cock from your soaked heat letting his throbbing length rest on top of your pussy. You clench around nothing trying to adapt to the feeling of not being filled feeling weird for the moment. A small groan of discomfort leaves you when Hongjoong pushes your legs off his shoulders letting the sore limbs fall to your side. Hands falling to your side you try to breathe evenly and rest some more.

“Get on your knees.”

“N-No please, no…no…sore…please...i can’t.” You babble out through your sobs and tears shaking your head. You can’t take anymore you felt like your body was burning and aching. Your muscles hurt from the positions and you feel so weak you just wanted to take a warm bath and sleep but you were stuck in this never ending forest with the demon you’ve been trying to run from for as long as you could remember.

Hongjoong could see the fear through your tears and the feeling was so euphoric for him. It was everything he wanted and more. Heart swelling in pride,dick achingly hard. The fear that came off you only ignited the fire inside the pit of his stomach. He had you right where he wanted you and he wasn’t done with you, not after so long. A part of him did want to give you the break he knew your body needed but he was damned anyway so he let his darkest desire take over any sense of control. After all he wasn’t one to ever want to do good. But all would be made up later—if you act right.

“Get on your knees or I'm gonna leave you here in these dark woods until you decide to play my game and I see you on your knees presenting your pussy to me like the good pet you are. So it’s now or later darling, make your choice.”

Giving you a little warning Hongjoong pushes your legs off him and to the side getting up ready to get up on his feet. Eye’s never leave your fucked out frame, curled into the dirt of the forest. If you wouldn’t have hid from him for so long and made everything so difficult then you could've gotten fucked nicely and respectfully like good girls but this was what you deserved and he only could thrive in the image of your trembling weak body.

“Ahh I see you made your decision.” He goes to tuck himself in his slack despite being so hard it hurts him even. He knows you’re gonna listen if you were smart enough to not test his words. So when he goes to move and stand up he waits.

Then he sees it—he sees you moving slowly onto your knees letting your cheeks touch the wet soil and twigs, nothing mattered anymore only finishing his sick twisted game you didn’t even have strength to use your arms for any leverage. You hated your weak human body for giving up on you so easily but was so strong to keep you alive and awake. “Such a smart little thing.”

He’s back on you quick, hands grabbing your ass cheeks spreading them and kneading them. You can feel his gaze on you. Staring directly at your gaping cunt, you should feel embarrassed but you don’t, instead you just close your eyes enjoying the few seconds of bliss called rest. His hands feel good on your skin, feeling like he was massaging your sore muscles. You can’t help but love the few seconds of his gentle touches he gives you rarely.

One of his hands moves down to your swollen pussy index finger going to gather the juice seeping out of you only to examine his glistening finger in the moonlight.

“Always making such a mess, I’ll help you don’t worry baby.” He sounds so sweet you remember how normal and sweet he could be, the memories plague your mind, the thought of how he is right now and how he was when you first met him, he seemed so nice but he’s anything of the sort. You never really knew him, back then your young mind only needed a friend and he was always there listening to you, playing games with you until you got him upset. When you get him upset he’s not nice.

Train of thought being broken when you feel his mouth on your clit, tongue pressed flat against the little bud until he laps at your cunt drinking in all your juice. The whimper leaves your mouth only when he moves his arms to hold you in place so he can properly eat your pussy from the back. Arching your back at the warm pleasure that brought a tiny bit of pain due to overstimulation. You couldn’t help gasping, fingers grabbing the dirty soil below you.

Finally having enough, Hongjoong quickly is on his knees grabbing his cock he enters you for the second time. Holding you particularly tighter when he feel’s your legs giving out below you from the pleasure. Grip strong enough to hold you with one hand he moves his other to your hair brushing some out your face before his hand is pushing the side of your face into the dirt keeping you completely still just before snapping his hips into yours only to pull you away with his grip on your side to yank you back to him all while holding you down.

“You’re not allowed to come unless I tell you to. You wanted to stop, but let’s see you try to stop yourself from coming around my dick or are you too much of a whore for that?” His hand comes down on your bare ass cheek, you can only cry out and try to move away from the assault but the grip on your head.

“B-be gentle.”

It sounds pathetic but you can’t care not when the stinging only adds to your upcoming orgasm that was waiting to happen. You didn’t want to beg him to let you come but you were afraid he’ll keep fucking you if you didn’t listen to him. Interlocking his fingers into your hair he yanks your head up from the ground, bringing his lips to your hair he chuckles when he sees dirt sticking on the side of your tear stained cheeks. His messy little toy.

“You think you deserve my kindness? Disobeying me for so long, you left me all alone, no one to enjoy my time with, I had to watch you try and block me out but I’ll always be stronger.” You have trouble hearing him when he mumbles half of it into your hair while his thrust never halts, you don’t understand how he could continue with his torture on your poor body. “You hurt me baby it’s only right you give me something in return.”

Hongjoong’s fingers never let their grip off your hair only pulling you closer to him, your knees ache from the soil,sticks,and pebbles imprinting on your knees. You can slowly feel the soft graze of his finger tips of his free hand moving towards your battered and swollen clit. Soft whines leaving your mouth when his middle and index finger rub quick circles on your overstimulated clit. The tears fall down your cheeks again. You hate yourself for wanting to come so easily again.

“Don’t fucking come, don’t be fucking greedy. Say you’re sorry for wanting to come on my cock again, then maybe I'll let you come one more time tonight.”

Pulling your head back to look in your eyes, he fucks you deeply and fully, making sure you feel every thrust and sharp movement. Playing with your abused and swollen clit Hongjoong could feel your walls clenching around him, he had to practically pull himself from you with the way you squeezed around him, trying so desperately to hold your orgasm at bay but the words never left your mouth, only forcing him harder on you until you were apologizing for wanting to come.

“I don’t fucking hear you.” Tugging on your hair harder he sends you warning glare.

“I-I’m so sorry for wanting to come again after you m-made me come so many times. I can’t help it.” Shame and despair fills you when you feel dangerously close again. “I’m sorry! I’m s-sorry! please just let me.”

His dark maniacal laugh is all you can hear throughout the forest, with the sound of your wet cunt and his dick meeting with every thrust creates a sloppy wet noise. The head of his cock hits your g-spot and kisses your cervix with every thrust and You can’t see anything by the sky and Hongjoong. He stares at you with a permanent wide smile looking down at your dazed face. Even through tears, dirt, spit, you look like the most beautiful thing he’s ever seen. He always wanted you this way—at his mercy.

You watch everything, when his eyebrows furrowed in concentration, when his tongue licks his smiling lips, when you let more tears fall, the way he watches you back with nothing less than intensely has you babbling apologizes in hope to stop the pressure of your orgasm getter harder to contain, but you couldn’t come. He wouldn’t allow you, he was forcing you to hold your orgasm against your will with the extra fun of having you apologize for all his doings.

“Ah you must really be sorry but again maybe you just wanna come again because you’re greedy.” He sneers at you, yanking your head back and forth to signal a nod from you.

You felt like his puppet, you were his toy to enjoy.

“Come.”

His words have your body shaking, and you swear your climax made you see stars, the skies and heaven. The pleasure overtaking your body turns your brain off for the moment being, all you can focus on is the overwhelming relief flooding through your veins. You were sure if it wasn’t for Hongjoong’s grip on your head you would’ve face planted on the floor. Soon enough, the never ending pace becomes too much for you again. It’s when you finally succumb to the darkness you feel his lips on your neck, soft and gentle.

Hongjoong held you close letting himself fall into the pleasurable fire pit. Hips stuttering finally releasing himself into your abused cunt. Only stopping when he fully emptied himself into you, body on fire his body tingles with satisfaction. For a moment the orgasm had him feeling human with how powerful it was, he hasn’t felt so sore and sensitive as he does now since he was a living breathing being. Hissing into your neck at the overstimulation has him abruptly pulling out and releasing your hair, watching your motionless body fall into the dirt with a small thud.

He can’t help his fingers moving to your come leaking pussy, collecting the mixed juices he examines them. His white seed with a tint of pink from your blood. Moaning when he tastes his seed mixed with your liquids on his two digits. Eyes rolling back he contains himself not to get hard again before he fucks you again.

When he comes back to his senses he inspects your sleeping form. A smirk reaching his lips. He knows he won the game and you finally learned your lesson.

“Such a weak thing you are.”

You don’t know how long you’ve slept for but when you finally come to the little senses you had left you notice your wearing nothing but the same undergarments again these being clean, you’re cleaned up. Part of you almost believed maybe you dreamt the whole ordeal but the chain attached to your neck forces you out of your hopeful state. Grey cement walls surround the whole room and there's nothing but a television in the middle, a leather couch off to the side and a mattress on the floor, the one you’re chained onto. There’s no light, only the moonlight shines through illuminating all the minimal things in the room. It’s dark but not enough to stop you from seeing the shadow of the man sitting on the couch.

“Rest well?”

When he doesn’t receive an answer he spares you a small hum, unfazed by your silence, since he was expecting it. You would speak soon enough, eventually. Grabbing the remote Hongjoong felt his stomach fill with anticipation and thrill to see your reaction to his surprise. Turning on the television he waited for the news to appear, turning the volume up. Eye’s flickering between you and the tv a small sinister grin making a way to his face.

The television displays your house with a news reporter standing outside your house that is blocked with yellow tape. The reporter looks at the camera with a sad expression, you don’t know if he’s acting or what’s happening but when you see your neighbor with a sad expression you glance at Hongjoong who’s watching it with a wide smile, happiness in his eyes, confused at what’s happening. Your heart breaks when you see your mom being taken away with handcuffs by police officers.

“I don’t know how her mother could have done something so horrible. She was such a sweet girl, always stayed home, never was a nuisance to our neighborhood, her life was taken too shortly by the hands of her cruel mother. I hope that poor girl gets the justice she deserves.”

Big fat tears fall down your cheek before you know it, your sobs and Hongjoong’s laughs are the only noise  heard in the dark room after the television shuts off. For a second you would think you were dead but your racing heart tells you otherwise when you’re left in the dark.

“H-how?” You stutter out mainly to yourself at what you just saw on the news.

Your mother was framed for ‘killing’ you.

When you see Hongjoong appear in front of you, you force yourself to scramble back into the cold cement wall yanking on the metal chain attached to your neck forcing more pain to course through your body despite the already dull ache that was rushing through your sore limbs.

Then you remember why your body is sore and the memories of everything come back. You wait for the guilt to hit but it doesn’t, you’re just so tired, you lived so long in fear and your only fear had finally got you. There was nothing to fear anymore when you’re staring into the eyes of evil himself.

“We can play all the time now.”

Then you’re back in the forest and you’re unreleased from your chains back at the spot from earlier, the entrance into the neverending forest.

“I hope your body isn’t in too bad of shape darling…” He gives you a pout before roughly pushing you into the forest. “Not when we have to make up for old time sakes.”

You look into the dark forest, a wave of nausea hits you when you realize your punishment is your eternal game with him. You know your body can’t handle it but you still stumble through the forest, the rough trees your only support to help your limping fatigue state. Then you hear it, like it’s the only sound you ever heard before.

“I’m gonna get you." He sings.

“One…”

You run.

COMING SOON.

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[fiyrball6063]

i've been listening to your Kaito playlist a lost and just wanted to thank you for carrying the entire fandom on your shoulders cause all the songs there are CHOICE and made me reexamine his character more then a lot of content ive seen hah

Anon thank you SO SO SO much for this, it genuinely made my day. I take pride in (some of) my playlist and my kaito one is no exception. I tried to add songs I genuinely think have a connection to some part of his character (weather that be relationships he has with other characters or his inner conflict). I honestly never thought people listened to my playlists nevertheless re-revalue a character it’s based off of! That makes me so so happy and honoured that it has that power… I love music, and space (thus the plethora of space songs I had already loved for him lol) and I just do love kaito in general… I’m so happy you like the playlist thank you Sm for telling me about it!! I would love to hear anything else you have to say as well… here’s a little kaito for you!

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