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s0fter-sin · 8 months
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everyone makes fun of soap when they find out how many hair and skin products he keeps on hand. the cabinet in his bathroom is filled to bursting and he always keeps travel sized bottles on him on missions
when soldiers outside the 141 find out, they call him precious and self-obsessed, a vain pretty boy too preoccupied with his reflection to focus on the enemy. no wonder how he got his callsign. price has given up telling him to leave them on base and just teaches him to individually wrap them so they don’t rattle against each other and give himself away
what they don’t know is that each product contains an ingredient that when mixed with any number of the others, creates potent chemical bombs. he was caught unarmed once, he won’t let it happen again
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gabe-lovebot · 27 days
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councilor 3D model
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i learnt 3d modelling from the ground up to bring him to life. he's yours now. do whatever you want with him
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please credit me if you make something using the model (or even ping/link me to it, i would love to see what you made!)
currently available as a .blend, .fbx and an SFM port.
#hello councilnation i'm finally releasing him to the wild#have fun playing toys with him#ultrakill#councilor#councilor ultrakill#3d stuff#obviously with the councilor having just 1 full body image of him means that some stuff i had to improvise on#so you get to enjoy my headcanons on how he looks#(like obviously the wings & halo)#(but also the chestplate design)#but did you know that the councilor's canon design has subtle engravings on his forearm armor pieces?#i only barely noticed them when painting textures and i was floored#i had to add them#to the sfm anon and whoever else wants to use this for sfm stuff-#i did my best with a port for sfm and i'm quite proud of the result#but please be aware i have never used it before so if you find that something doesn't work as it should please please let me know!!#gonna pour my heart out in tags as always so close your eyes if you don't wanna see me being sentimental but#i'm not kidding when i say i learnt 3d modelling from the ground up for this#i have meddled with blender before but never actually came close to finishing a project#and i don't know how i did it and how i kept going#(i do know) (it was my friend encouraging me every time i showed him progress)#this was like 1 entire month in the making#but i'm so fucking proud of this and how it turned out and people's tags in my act 2 render genuinely were such a huge confidence boost#so thank you guys for liking it <3#i'm still very much thinking of doing a version with just his bloodied head#but it might take a while because i want a break and i want to play warframe
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hyunpic · 1 month
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY HYUNJIN 🖤
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feluka · 11 days
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i hateeee jokes about arab parents only wanting sons and not wanting daughters because 1- when it's like that, that's an awful thing and not something to be joked about and 2- it spits on the face of every arab parent who consistently has to put their middle finger up to the world and say fuck you my daughter is my greatest treasure and i'd rather have her than a thousand sons and i won't hear a word against her!! because in my experience these are the most loving parents to be found in the whole wide world
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Abbott Elementary | 02×19: Festival The one where Melissa sucked her fingers and the gays went feral
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nova-rpv · 4 months
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i got this ask by someone some time ago that i made a post about and sent to queue, and now its gone for some reason :)))) im so fucking mad jesus christ. i dont remember who submited the ask (if ur reading this, thank u so much!!!), but they requested me to draw venice the mink, silver's early desing(s)
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this was the reference they sent:
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i didnt know about him until this ask, which is trully unacceptable. i apologize. this lil man is so meanie weanie looking i luv he <<33
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💛 rebelcaptain please 🥺
reunion kiss / relief
He doesn't like it when she's gone.
True, their respective occupations (spies, thieves, saboteurs, rebels) aren't exactly conducive to a thriving domestic life. They carve out pockets here and there, between missions. Moments in his quarters, in the cockpit of his ship. In hidden corridors on Yavin. But Jyn's been assigned to the Pathfinders for this mission, and it was estimated to take about three weeks. That was already four weeks ago, and anxiety has been a low-level hum in the back of Cassian's mind since. He knows that Jyn can take care of herself. Hell, she can take care of herself and the entire team, if it comes down to it. Does it make him selfish or cowardly to hope that it doesn't come down to that? He would take her safe return over a dozen successful missions, if that's not the most terrifying thought. He can count on Bodhi to try to distract him, or Kay to run statistics and data by him; the odds of Jyn's return are "mid-to-high chance of likelihood," as Kay says. That's practically a joyful song by Kay's standards, but nothing will reassure Cassian until Jyn is standing before him, whole and unharmed. He cuts through the hanger, on his way to his quarters to grab a datapad Draven asked for. He's been at loose ends, admittedly, for the last week, doing recoding and updating programming on any droid that needs it, or working out new codes and aliases for other operatives to use. Draven would've sent him on a mission, but Majors don't get sent on anything greater than pure infiltration and retrieval. (Cassian might've refused point blank to go if Jyn wasn't back yet, but he doesn't think he can take it that far. Not yet.) Kay meets him in the corridor just outside his quarters, looming up an iron pillar. "You are expected at a briefing in half an hour." "Half an hour?" Cassian echoes, startled. "I thought it was sooner." "I am not your protocol droid," says Kay sternly. "I only convey the information that is told to me." A patent falsehood, but never mind. "Half an hour, Cassian." Kay stumps down the hallway, as Cassian shakes his head. He trusts Kay's scheduling abilities, but it seems a little odd, and arbitrary for him to insist on this particular time--
He steps into his quarters and stops, the panel sliding shut behind him soundlessly. Jyn is there, in the very process of tossing down her kit bag, turning to face the opening and closing door. She freezes momentarily in surprise, those star-filled eyes widening as she takes him in. "Cass," she says. "I was just coming to find you--" He doesn't even think, he just moves. Surges towards her with no other thought but overwhelming relief, like a bone that's been snapped into place, and pain removed--
He catches her in his arms and kisses her, fiercely glad, and Jyn's arms wrap around his neck in response. He has to nearly lift her off her feet to get their faces level; he doesn't care. He can count on Jyn to wrap her legs around his waist like she's scaling a tree, her hands clenched in his hair. Her mouth tastes like caf and sugar, her hair smells like ozone. It's the safest he's felt in weeks. Finally, the need for breath draws them both apart, and he lowers her down to the ground, their foreheads pressed together. "Welcome home," he tells her quietly, their breath mingling.
"Hi," Jyn says, a little breathless. He tries not to feel too smug about it. "Not that I'm complaining, but what brought this on?"
He manages a little shrug, as they're still wrapped around each other. "I missed you." He says it like a secret, like an oath. "I see," Jyn says softly, nuzzling his cheek with her nose. "Well, according to Tall, Dark and Grumpy out there, we have half an hour. Why don't you show me how much?" He's only too glad to.
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skitskatdacat63 · 8 months
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"Bring on The Dancing Horses"(x) - Echo and The Bunnymen × Ferrari Drivers
#yes this web weave was titled 'Bring on The Prancing Horses' in my docs....yes im proud of that....#long post whoop!!! pls scroll back thru and listen to the song while doing so if you wanna experience it better :)#this was originally supposed to be an edit but i have no patience for that and im very happy w this!!#i daydream to music a lot and when i first heard this song i could only think of ferrari seb then sebchal then ferrari drivers in general#but this hurt me a lot to make(for several reasons)#one: AAAAHHHH IT MAKES ME SADDDDDDD!! now im only gonna be able to think of the myth of ferrari when i listen to this song#it rly hurt to look up the pics for this bcs it still feels sore to me and it makes me so sad#but at least i didnt have to watch vids! id probably burst into tears#two: fighting for my life in google docs trying to format the text hahaha... i refuse to use photoshop#special thanks to cofi (@sweatyflytrap) for giving me the idea to put the TPs for the lies lyrics!#its both funny and unfortunate that domenicali was the TP for both felipe and fernando#it would be a bit better if there was a different tp for each but ah oh well#also hehe changed the lyric a tiny bit for the Kimi part. in the og lyrics its Jimmy not Kimi but yknow felt odd to leave it as it was so!#other than that i really really ardently feel that this song fits the cycle of ferrari drivers soooooo well#the 'bring on the new messiah' at the end of the song PLEASE IT FITS SO WELL! with how they drop their prev golden boy for whoevers next!#also omg the way seb's verse is 'you're breaking my brittle heart' rather than "im breaking your brittle heart' HURTS DOESNT IT??????#i didnt included the original opening/middle verse. i def could make it fit but it wasnt a good opening for this post specifically#'Jimmy Brown made of stone' = kimi again. 'Charlie clown no way home' = charles of course!#anyways this is my magnum opus...but nah i really like it! ill only ever make web weaves w random 80s music i think hahah#ferrari#scuderia ferrari#felipe massa#kimi raikkonen#fernando alonso#sebastian vettel#charles leclerc#f1#formula 1#we do a little bit of f1#normal posts that catie normally makes in a normal fashion
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jimimn · 6 months
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just finished watching jimin's docu and my god I'm so grateful for the producers who worked on face. they were SO encouraging and so accepting of jimin's ideas. especially pdogg. incorporating jimin's ideas into the songs with such enthusiasm and telling him that they're good (they were!!) and telling him it's okay and encouraging him when he was having a hard time with the lyrics. they created such a great and comfortable environment for jimin to make his album 🥹 so so so thankful for them truly.
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raviollies · 8 months
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I always feel like I need to make agreeable characters when I play dnd. I really aspire to have something like what you have with Blythe. Cuz she's clearly a very strong personality that isn't afraid to be difficult to her party members, but she also isn't derailing the campaign by being a bad fit for the party. That's such an awesome balance to achieve!
HILARIOUSLY, Blythe actually is very well liked in the campaign for the most part, there is only one singular character that dislikes her (Kasimir - partially due to her clear relationship to Rahadin)I play her as a highly charismatic, sweet talking, playful woman that can absolutely play nice to grease the wheels.
While yes, people can see that is ...well crazy, it's very clear she is not malicious for no reason, which she isn't! Up until recently she was the only evil party member, so she balanced out when other party members didn't want to get their hands dirty but something needed to be done. She is Neutral Evil just meaning she can go do unsavoury things to achieve her goals, and if her goals align with the party...well power to them! They have someone absolutely fucking insane that WILL get the job done, morals aside!
The other point is that Blythe is diplomatic. She may be opinionated but she does her best to avoid violence, unless it's an 100% fight she can win, and even then. She prefers to conserve resources in this manner, to avoid conflict and talk her way out of problems.
Just because she has a strong personality, and is an evil character doesn't mean she will be at odds with the good characters; plenty evil characters hide their unsavoury traits behind closed doors and can spin them to seem like they're reasonable. She's a silver tongued devil so to speak.
Most characters just seem hesitant to approach her in a romantic manner in case she get's offended because she can cast fireball upon ye :/
That and well. Keeping up with the level of excitement she seeks in her life.
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mitsundere · 1 year
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@benbaroweek2023 day 4 (vampire) and day 6 (reunion)
vampires are immortal, right? :)
bonus doodles:
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Trick or Treat!
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footnoteinhistory · 1 month
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"Several months earlier [my friend] started taking pain pills, legitimately, under a doctor's orders, because of a bad back, and he kept taking them, and he kept taking them, and he kept taking them. And at some point he took them all. Because I know, because I know him so well and I'm the same way and I'm afraid that I'm the same way—that if I was sitting in my house—after this much sobriety and this much notoriety—fucked up, the idea of walking back in this room and going 'Guess what?'
"But goddamn we have to have that freedom. We must have that freedom to do that. And I know because of his position in our organization—given to him, foisted upon him by hungry people—he wasn't able to do that. And so instead of fessing up to [relapsing], he offed himself. Nearly 20 years sober.
"For months after, I was so pissed at him. And I talked about it in meetings, how pissed off I was at him. And I talked to someone once and they said, 'Well, you know what, maybe it was just, at that point, it was OK with his higher power that he leave.' I wanted to throttle the asshole. And that just may be my lack of spiritual development... But I cannot believe some higher power would rather you dead than sitting here in these rooms helping others and yourself live a moral, just, clean, sober, life."
-John Larroquette, 2002 (x)
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babykittenteach · 4 months
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2023 in review! I made an effort to try more things and it worked mostly (at least for TV and movies). New things, new-to-me things, and new installments of old things all had characters to love even if I didn't necessarily feel fannish about them, and I'm hoping 2024 does, too.
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hamartia-grander · 5 months
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Not to get sappy on main but. It's hard for me to believe that 8 years ago I was so sure I wouldn't live to see myself turn 18 because of depression/etc and like. Now I'm 21, and the thought of leaving this world, this life, before I'm meant to makes me feel sick and sad. I wish I could go back and tell my past self that they'd be okay, give them the hug they desperately needed and the assurance that it gets better when that was so utterly unimaginable to me. If given the choice to experience this life again, I'd take it without hesitation. What a fucking wonder that is. I love you guys so much
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thetomorrowshow · 5 months
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hubris killed the god - ch 6
First Part
this is the final part! thanks for coming along on this one, i really enjoyed writing it :) it kind of makes me want to do more of this style in the future, so thanks for the lovely feedback <3
cw: implied/referenced death, much open discussion about death, blood & injury, non-graphic animal death
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Within three days, Shelby is bedridden.
Or, tableridden, rather.
A mattress has been brought into the chapel (Scott’s suspicious that it’s Sausage’s own bed, dragged from the sideroom) in place of the pillows that had been cushioning Shelby’s resting place.
Shelby lies there, mostly unmoving, face pale. When she’s awake, her brow is furrowed in concentration, shaking hands weaving invisible purple webs with her wand (invisible to all but Scott). When she’s asleep, her temperature rises and she tosses and turns with illness, unable to protect herself; it’s often then that Sausage leans over her, muttering under his breath with his hands laid on her head.
At times they work at once, Sausage passing from her head to her cheek to her hand, spilling a drop of whatever is in his tiny cylindrical container at each point and continuing his muttered spells or blessings, while Shelby scrunches her eyes shut and weaves protection spells and health spells and resilience spells.
Scott can’t really tell if any of it is working. The red marks on Shelby’s cheek and hand don’t grow any smaller or larger, they don’t fade or darken. He watches the spells she casts enter her body, he sees the hexes that she weaves, but for all he knows, it’s doing nothing.
For all he knows, Shelby is still dying and he’s been right to not get his hopes up.
Sausage’s magic is less of the visible kind, for the most part, but he can see occasionally the way Sausage seems to wrap Shelby’s hand in golden strings, or the glow that passes from his hands into her hair.
Scott watches more than anyone else, he thinks—not that he’s there in the chapel more than anyone else, just that he watches. fWhip’s there whenever he can make it, sitting beside Shelby and laying his head on her shoulder or helping her eat; Gem reads to Shelby when she’s resting, hands shaking too much to carry out any more spells but feeling too ill to sleep; Katherine just sits beside her, sometimes gripping her hand when she needs it; even False steps in every once in a while, bringing fresh water for both Shelby and Sausage.
Scott doesn’t feel that he does too much to help. He mostly sits in the first pew, keeps an eye on the two of them, noting when Sausage’s prayers begin to stutter or Shelby’s hands list to the side. Then he quietly taps the shoulder of whoever is sitting beside Shelby (or slips out to the foyer where someone will be waiting) and lets them know that the two magic users’ strength is flagging, and they need to rest.
And Jimmy . . . Jimmy doesn’t come by at all.
Jimmy doesn’t even really come into the church anymore. He eats meals out by the fire alone, patrols the border by himself near-constantly, and otherwise avoids everyone.
It’s guilt, Scott thinks. If Shelby hadn’t been ill, he’d probably do the same, ashamed of his decisions and feeling horrible for the people he’s hurt.
And it may be guilt, but it’s also a terrible thing to do. Because Shelby is dying, and everyone is giving what they can to help her or be near her, and Jimmy isn’t even trying.
Every time he remembers how little Jimmy is doing, he does a little more himself. He helps Sausage to a pew for a nap. He offers to readjust Shelby’s pillows. He actually does something, which is more than Jimmy can say.
And when Scott isn’t in the chapel, he’s tracking the border’s changes, marking them with sticks and rocks. Because the border is changing every single day now, shrinking as Sausage focuses his efforts on Shelby.
And when Scott lies in bed at night, he stares at the ceiling and tries to think of ways to escape.
Oli’s dead, for sure. And there’s no way that Joey’s safe, now that they know the mites can swim. For all they know, they’ve already spread to the ocean, devouring every sea creature they come across and multiplying even further.
Pix is gone, whether by some sort of escape that only he could think of or death, Scott can’t know. Shelby’s here, but nobody knows for how long.
There’s nobody else. There’s nothing else. There’s nowhere to go.
They’re trapped in a dwindling Sanctuary, and even if Shelby does survive, they’ll all die not long after.
He considers the Nether—Shelby had managed to travel through it, after all, so it had presumably been relatively mite-free—but immediately dismisses it out of hand. Humans can’t survive long in the Nether—the temperature is just too high. Scott can barely manage the ten minute travel through the portals, there’s no way he could last more than a day before dying of heatstroke.
And then Scott loses track of his thoughts for a moment, tired as he is, and somehow ends up categorizing the various portals by how far they are from Chromia’s. It’s like counting sheep, he thinks idly. Tracking them in his mind as a way to fall asleep. Joel’s is the closest, of course, but there are a bunch of portals kind of all tangled up and he cannot for the life of him remember which color of carpet leads to which portal.
He tries to picture them in his head, holding back a yawn. Jimmy’s is brown, Gem’s is . . . orange? Was Pix grey, or a blue? And what about the fairgrounds, that Oli had built a portal for? Despite there having its own, much more mysterious portal, of course.
A portal, Jimmy had called the Rift. Then he’d said that it had been Lizzie’s plan to head in there.
Scott sits straight up in bed, exhaustion forgotten.
They can go through the Rift.
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There’s silence around the campfire after Scott introduces his plan. fWhip and Gem exchange a look. Katherine glances back at the church. False leans back a bit, folds her arms.
Jimmy, however, nods. “It’s something I’ve been thinking about, too,” he says. “I’d say it’s worth a shot to send at least some of us in.”
“Some of us being who?” Gem asks, and there’s something pointed in her voice that Scott doesn’t quite understand.
Jimmy seems to, though, because he inclines his head toward her. “Myself, Katherine, fWhip, and you, I figured,” he says to her, before shrugging. “We could rearrange those if we need to. But Shelby can’t travel, and False ain’t keen on the Rift—” False snorts in acknowledgement— “and Scott can see the border, might protect Sanctuary for a bit longer. That’s my reasoning, least. All good?”
And Scott nods, if only because Jimmy’s the leader.
He wants to go through, but he can’t leave Shelby. Sure, he wants to survive—he’s gotten this far, after all, one of the few left during the apocalypse—but he isn’t going to throw away his friends just for the chance to live.
And again, it’s a chance. Just like how finding Pix had been a chance.
Scott’s not willing to put everything on the line for another chance.
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The preparations start immediately.
Gem runs to and fro, reassuring Shelby in one second and sharpening her sword the next, packing food and first aid and everything she can carry.
fWhip trails along beside her, apparently already ready, offering suggestions and chewing so  hard on his lip that it starts to bleed.
Katherine hasn’t collected much in her short time here, so she spends her spare moments sitting beside Shelby and Sausage, holding Shelby’s hand whenever it’s available. Scott watches her, sometimes, his eyes catching on their entwined hands, and thinks of all the things that Shelby’s confessed to him over lunch, and wonders.
And Jimmy, again, is the odd one out, wandering through Sanctuary and sitting alone by the campfire.
Scott’s content to leave him to it—he doesn’t know what Jimmy’s thinking and he’s not really interested in knowing—but when Jimmy grabs him by the shoulder early the next morning (the day before they’re set to head out, leaving Scott and False in charge), Scott reluctantly breaks away from his path to the church and follows. He’s a busy man, trying to take over the management of Sanctuary at such a tumultuous time—whatever Jimmy has to say had better be quick.
They walk in silence for a moment. The sun has just broken over the horizon, casting the orange leaves of Sanctuary’s trees into a dim, yellow light. It feels so very autumnal, even though Scott’s fairly certain it’s only just barely September. Maybe there’s some kind of magic involved, like with the rest of Sanctuary, that changes the seasons on a dime. He’s pretty sure that last week when he was out here, the trees had been mostly green.
Those are only idle thoughts, straws grasped at for something to think about so that he isn’t forced to make conversation. Unfortunately, it looks like it’ll be up to him, as Jimmy says nothing for several long minutes.
“Nice out,” Scott offers eventually. Jimmy starts, almost as if he’d forgotten Scott was here.
“Yeah, I guess,” he shrugs. “Bit warm for this early, but I ain’t complaining.”
Scott nods slowly. Scuffs at the footpath that travels around the border that they’re following. Jimmy doesn’t say anything else.
Jimmy pauses at a point close to the border on the opposite side of the church, looking out over the plains in the distance, little patches of grass turned black.
“This is the most beautiful part of Sanctuary, I think,” Jimmy murmurs, and Scott tries to see it. He really does.
But there’s not much to it. It’s just a plain, with few of the trees that make Sanctuary so picturesque, stretching far until it slowly climbs into rolling hills.
He nods again, anyway. He’s not sure what Jimmy’s trying to do—connect with him, or apologize before leaving? Try not to part with bad blood?
Because while Scott’s certainly grown some sympathy for the man, he doesn’t have to like him. He doesn’t have to forgive him for ending the world.
Even if, in some strange turn, he wants Jimmy to forgive him for pushing them to look for Pix.
But Jimmy doesn’t ask forgiveness. He doesn’t try to explain his actions, or apologize. Instead, he takes in a deep breath, and says, turning to meet Scott’s eyes, “I want you to go through the Rift.”
Scott blinks. “Sorry, what?”
Jimmy sighs, sits down on a boulder in a familiar way that clearly tells Scott he’s spent quite some time here. “I’m not going. I want you to take my place.”
And that—whatever Scott had expected, it isn’t that.
“Wh-why?”
Jimmy doesn’t answer immediately. He just gazes out over the plains, something lost, something longing in his eyes.
Scott may not forgive Jimmy. He may not like him. But Jimmy’s a good leader, knows how to properly build a community in times of hardship, he knows how to direct. If the other side of the Rift is some new world, untouched by the death that plagues this one, someone will need to be there to help the group survive, rebuild from nothing.
Not Scott. Chromia had been full of llamas and not people for a reason, after all.
And he’s already been preparing to stay back, Jimmy had asked him to stay back and he’d agreed and he’s settled in that decision and that’s final—
“I can’t do that,” he says, and there’s a bit of panic rising in his throat, but he swallows it down as best he can. “I—you’re the leader, I can’t—I don’t—”
“Scott,” Jimmy says softly.
Scott stops.
“I’m not going,” he continues. “And they’ll follow you. Even False will follow you, if you can convince her. But I can’t go through the Rift.”
“Why not?”
Jimmy chews on the inside of his cheek. The fire that normally burns so brightly behind his eyes is dim, his body hunched over itself a little bit. He fiddles with his vest a little, then looks out again over the plains.
“It was in the catacombs,” Jimmy starts, his voice still lower than Scott’s ever heard before. “I was marking our path with chalk. And. . . .”
He shakes back the cuff of his right sleeve, and there, on his wrist, is a tiny pink splotch, raw scrapes from where it’s clearly been scratched at swelling it further.
Scott stares.
“I didn’t know what to say,” Jimmy says, a bit of a wry smile playing upon his lips. “Not when we couldn’t stop moving while we were down there. Not when Shelby needed comfort. Not when we need to focus everything on her.”
Oh.
Jimmy’s dying, too.
And Scott supposes he ought to feel something about that—sadness, at losing another friend; relief, that the killer who began this whole thing will meet his end; even despair at the loss of their leader.
He doesn’t feel any of that, though.
He mostly feels tired.
“We might be able to heal you,” he offers. The words come out halfhearted, as genuine as they are. “If it works with Shelby, we can do it with you, right? We can just put off the Rift thing until you’re both better.”
“And if Shelby doesn’t get better?”
Scott looks away.
“I want to stay,” Jimmy says. “I do. But I can’t. And maybe it’s selfish, Scott, but I don’t want them to know that . . . that I’ve been hiding this from them.”
“Like you hid the stuff about Joel from me.”
Jimmy grimaces. “Yeah. I’m not really good with confrontations like that. You saw what happened. But I couldn’t just leave without telling someone, you know?”
“So . . . you’re leaving,” Scott says. He glances out toward the plains, the little patches of darkness that mar them. “To—what, to become like Oli? Instead of staying here, where we can help you . . . go peacefully, I guess?”
Jimmy shakes his head. “I don’t care much for the idea of staying in bed, all still and sick ‘til it’s over. I figure I’ll just head out quietly, yeah? I already packed my bag. I just wanted to make sure someone could be in charge.”
“I’m not a leader,” Scott reminds him. “What about fWhip?”
“fWhip’s a follower,” Jimmy shoots back instantly. “He gets too stressed to actually lead.”
“Katherine?”
“I don’t think she’ll want to go through the Rift,” Jimmy says. He’s clearly given this a lot of thought. “She said she’d come, but I bet my bootstraps she’ll back out last minute. And not Gem, either,” Jimmy adds when Scott opens his mouth. “Scott, I chose you because you’re the one who fought back when you thought I’d made a wrong choice. You spoke up. And not just then—you suggest your own plans all the time. You’re a leader, even if you don’t know it.”
Scott wants to argue. He wants to tell Jimmy all the ways he wouldn’t be a good leader, all the times he’s screwed up, all the illegal things he’s done.
But there isn’t time.
There is time, however, to spend another moment with Jimmy, so Scott heaves himself onto the boulder beside him and leans, just a little bit, against him.
Jimmy tenses, then slowly, carefully, rests his head on Scott’s shoulder.
Scott can feel through his shirt that Jimmy’s forehead is a decent bit warmer than it ought to be.
They just sit there, as the sun rises, leaning against each other, staring out at the plains beyond the border. The world is silent, no wildlife left to wake up.
It’s strange, Scott thinks, because for all the various emotions he’s felt about Jimmy—the small crush he’d had for so long that had given way to anger and a little fear when he’d learned of Joel’s fate, the affection, the apprehension, the respect, the irritation—he feels absolutely nothing in this moment.
After maybe ten minutes, Jimmy’s muscles tense (as if he’s preparing to carry something heavy) and he pulls away, brushes off his wrinkled shirt, and stretches his arms out.
“I should probably head out before the town wakes up,” he says. “Get away before anyone can stop me.”
“Sure,” Scott says, quiet, then adds, “what do you want me to tell them?”
Jimmy pauses, looks in the direction of the church (obscured by the woods) and then back to the plains. “Not the truth,” he says eventually. “I don’t care what. Better to let ‘em believe I’m a deserter, probably. I don’t want them to try and find me.” He idly scratches at the spot on his wrist, before adding, voice quieter, “And I don’t want them to be sad. I don’t want them to have to grieve me. It’s better for them to be angry, I think.”
Which Scott thinks is unfair to Jimmy’s memory (not that he’s a memory yet), but. Dying men and their wishes and all that.
“Where are you planning on going?”
“Wander,” says Jimmy. “See if I can find a way to kill those buggers. Look for Pix, maybe. Then die peaceful-like in a ditch, probably.”
Scott doesn’t laugh at the poor attempt at a joke. Jimmy doesn’t either. Instead, the Sheriff gives him a sad smile, picks up his satchel that had been leaning against the boulder unnoticed, and steps across the border.
Scott sits there and watches until he’s just a speck in the distance, swallowed up by the hills.
-
“And what, he didn’t even give you a reason? He just left?” Gem demands, and Scott’s never seen her this angry.
He shrugs helplessly. “That’s all I know. I woke up, I came over to check on Shelby, he left me in charge, and then he left.”
If Scott’s omitting certain irrelevant parts of the story, nobody will ever know. Because despite the way it itches at him uncomfortably, it had been Jimmy’s dying wish to not tell them why he’d left.
“I can’t believe this,” Gem huffs. “I thought he actually cared. Forget him.”
fWhip’s sequestered himself awkwardly in the corner of the foyer, arms hugged tight around himself. His eyes are shining in the dim light, and Scott looks away quickly before he can confirm them to be tears.
Katherine’s angry as well, arms folded tightly over her chest, hair coming out of its braid. “Coward. Doesn’t want to face what we’d do to him if the Rift takes us someplace safe.”
Scott cringes internally. He doesn’t speak up.
“So, Jimmy ran for it,” Gem says, counting on her fingers. “Jimmy ran, Shelby’s down, Sausage is with her. Pix is gone, Oli’s gone, Joey’s probably gone. Lizzie left. Tomorrow, half of us are going through the Rift.” She sighs. “Soon there’ll be no one left.”
“Well, if the Rift works out, we can come back and send everyone through,” Scott points out. “Even though there’d be no one left, at least we’d be alive.”
Everyone across the room nods. fWhip sniffles quietly.
“So,” Scott says after a moment (they’d all been waiting for something to be said, and it was usually Jimmy’s job but now Scott has Jimmy’s job and he’s not ready for this responsibility—). “We’re leaving tomorrow. Can someone fill me in on the plan, please?”
-
Scott finds himself sitting on that boulder, overlooking the plains (which are still unimpressive compared to literally every other view of Sanctuary). He hadn’t even known this boulder existed, in more than a passing sense, until Jimmy showed it to him this morning.
He doesn’t have time to mourn, no time to mourn anything that’s happened over the past couple of months, but he does have a moment to sit by himself and mentally prepare for the plan that they've spent the past hour going over.
Or at least, he thinks he does, because he’s barely been there for ten minutes when someone clambers onto it beside him.
“Hey,” Katherine says.
“Hey.”
She sighs, looks out over the plains and the mites that inhabit them. “Terrible view,” she comments after a moment.
Scott snorts. “Exactly what I thought.”
Silence.
Scott hasn’t had much to do with Katherine—she helped him stitch a copy of his fedora, of course, but outside of that afternoon of sewing, they haven’t really hung out. Not like he has with Shelby, or Jimmy, or Joel.
All of his friends are dead or dying.
Except Sausage. Everyone always seems to overlook Sausage.
“He liked you, you know,” Katherine says out of the blue.
Scott chokes a little bit. “Sorry?”
“Jimmy,” she says, as if it’s obvious. “I know you had a thing for him. If you’d asked him out, he would’ve said yes.”
Right. Well, that’s a revelation that Scott doesn’t have time to process. And unfair of her to put on him. “Did you ever ask Shelby out?” he asks dryly.
Katherine inclines her head. “Touche.”
“I had a thing for Jimmy, he had a thing for Joey, Joey had a thing for you, you had a thing for Shelby—if anyone tried to pair off, it would’ve caused wars.”
“Or a big, happy polycule,” Katherine suggests. “Then maybe none of this would’ve happened. And Jimmy can still be the leader, which would keep his ego soothed."
Scott frowns. “Wait, why does Jimmy get to lead the polycule?”
Katherine gives him a look. “Oh, come on,” she says. “Literally all of you guys were down so bad for him. Gem and I used to bet on who would crack first and confess.”
And Scott had thought he’d been rather subtle about his affections for Jimmy. The Sheriff tended to eschew romance in general (he’d always looked out of his depth when Scott tried to talk about Katherine’s little love triangle), so Scott had been careful about not overwhelming him or crossing any boundaries. In fact, he’d become so used to dissociating romance from Jimmy, he must have not noticed several fellow rulers pining after the Sheriff.
Which is kind of disappointing. He must’ve missed out on months of gossip.
And it’s all in the past, now.
“So, about tomorrow. . . .” Katherine starts.
“You don’t want to come,” guesses Scott. She turns a shocked look on him.
“How—? Never mind. You’re just a natural leader, I guess.” She takes a deep breath. “Yeah. I’ve been thinking about it, and I want to stay with Shelby.”
Scott nods. “I figured,” he says. He didn’t. Jimmy figured, and Scott’s just passing along his assumptions.
Now, more than ever, Scott understands why everyone else valued Jimmy being a good leader despite his murderous tendencies.
“Right. Well, is that cool?” she asks.
He’d love to have Katherine with him when they come out on the other side of the Rift, knowing nothing about what might be waiting for them.
But on the other hand, he won’t pull her away from Shelby in what’s possibly Shelby’s final days.
“It’s not a problem,” he says. “I’ll see if False will join us instead. I’m not going to make you do anything. And I think Shelby needs you more than I do.”
Katherine shoots him a small smile. “Yeah. Thanks. But if everything works out, we’ll all be headed through soon, anyway.”
“Hopefully Sausage has another sheep.”
“Right.”
“Right.”
It’s not healthy to suppress emotions like this (Scott’s well aware of that, if nothing else), but he finds himself relieved that he doesn’t feel more than a distant sadness at Katherine’s decision to stay.
“You know,” Katherine says after a moment, “I knew Jimmy decently well. And if there’s one thing I know about him, it’s that he isn’t a coward.”
Scott doesn’t say anything. Just remembers that when he told them all what had happened, the first thing Katherine had done was call Jimmy a coward. Words of anger, perhaps? Or is her new admission a lie?
“It . . . it hurts to know that he just left us. I can’t decide if he had a reason, or if it really was just running away.” She sighs. “Everyone’s selfish when it comes down to it, I guess.”
Scott nods. “Yeah,” he finds himself agreeing. Just hours ago, he’d sat on this boulder with Jimmy leaning against him, feverish and likely hallucinating as he gathered the strength to strike off alone.
And just two months ago, Jimmy had killed a god out of quick-tempered anger and selfishness, dooming the world.
“Yeah,” Scott says again. “It’s what makes us human, I guess.”
-
Sausage, tired as he is, gives Scott a warm hug before they leave.
“Take care, Scott,” he whispers, beard tickling Scott’s ear. Scott nods, swallows back the lump in his throat.
“You too. Get Shelby better, yeah?”
Sausage doesn’t respond, just squeezes him and turns back to Shelby.
Shelby doesn’t acknowledge Scott when he bends over to give her a hug, her eyes squeezed shut and heat radiating off of her. He doesn’t say anything, just holds her tight for a solid ten seconds.
Katherine gives him a quick hug on the way out, and Gem and fWhip and False are waiting on the airship already (with the sheep just hanging out behind them, which is a ludicrous sight), so he hurries along and clambers up to join them, adjusting his backpack on his shoulders and his trusty shovel at his hip.
“Bye!” Katherine waves from the ground. Gem waves back right as the turbines start spinning and the airship slowly takes off.
Scott grips the railing, staring down over Sanctuary. From this height, he can tell that the protective magic around the town is beginning to fail. It’s patchy, almost open, from above, and it’s shrunk so much that the houses on the edge of town are beginning to fall outside of the line.
Some sort of emotion wells up in Scott, and he isn’t sure if it’s fear or grief or what, just knows that it’s making his stomach turn.
Whether or not the Rift thing works out, he probably won’t ever see Sanctuary again.
He may never see Sausage or Shelby again. He’ll never see Chromia, or the Evermoor, or Tumble Town, or any of this world ever again.
Scott heaves a sigh, then turns around, to find fWhip and Gem watching him.
“Sorry, what?” he blinks a few times. “Did you—did you say something?”
fWhip shrugs. “You’re the leader now,” he says awkwardly. “Just waiting for you to go over the plan.”
“I just learned the plan from you yesterday,” Scott points out. “Surely you know it better than me.”
“I guess, but . . . Jimmy always did it.”
“Right.” Scott forgot that he would actually have responsibilities. He’d never paid much attention to what Jimmy did, other than run himself into the ground patrolling and cause the apocalypse. “Um. False will drop the sheep on the other side of the river from the Rift, hopefully attracting the mites. We head through the Rift while they’re distracted. That’s . . . that’s it.”
Gem frowns. “I expected more.”
“What else do you want me to say?”
“I don’t know. More.”
Scott rolls his eyes. “Well, I don’t have anything else to say. Give me a couple of minutes, I’ll make something up.”
fWhip actually grins a little. Which is great, because Scott’s pretty sure he’s barely stopped crying since yesterday.
Then he turns back, and watches the miles pass below them until he can see the mountain that holds the pulsing Rift in the distance, the ground around it so overwhelmed by mites that the terrain is no longer familiar. Somewhere within the festival grounds that had never been properly used is a torn flag hanging from a bent flagpole, tatters flapping in the wind.
Finally, whatever it is in Scott’s stomach resolves itself into a properly identifiable feeling.
He feels fear.
Which, unsurprisingly, he doesn’t have time for.
“We all know the plan?” he finds himself yelling over the sound of the airship, as if they hadn’t just gone over it. Gem and fWhip nod, fWhip already leading the sheep to the edge.
Just as False passes over the river, by the bridge, fWhip shoves the bleating sheep overboard.
Even from as far up as they are, Scott hears it hit the ground with a crunch and cringes, wishing he’d thought to cover his ears.
But it works.
The mites that had been squirming around the Rift begin to crawl en masse in the direction of the sheep, where already a few lucky mites are devouring the thing. They’re going to have to move fast—this is in no way a permanent solution, especially considering the multiplication that’s going to take place.
Scott throws the rope ladder over the side when False halts the airship, looks around for—for no one, he’s the leader, he has to go first.
And he’s right—he’ll need to move faster than ever, what with the still sizable collection of mites below him.
Scott swallows, his mouth utterly dry. There’s a pretty good chance this is the last thing he’ll ever do. There’s no guarantee that there’s even anything more than a hellscape on the other side of the Rift.
But if this is his last act, at least he won’t have to be in charge any more.
Scott swings himself over the railing and finds his footing on the waving rope ladder, before hauling himself down as quickly as he can. The wind is blowing the ladder all over the place, and it’s all Scott can do to hold on and not die of fright, but his arms (somehow growing used to this) hold firm and his toes curl around the rope and he somehow, gloriously, makes it to the bottom.
He starts yelling at the top of his lungs before he even touches the ground, nonsense and folk tunes and wordless, whatever he can think of, just to frighten the darkness away a bit. He starts glaring as soon as he can look away from his own feet, clearing a nice space for fWhip and Gem to land.
Scott double-checks that his pant legs are tucked into his boots, then draws his shovel, holding it threateningly above his shoulder, ready to hit any mite that steps out of line.
There’s a lot of them. The grass is worn down around the Rift (so close Scott can hear it thrumming with power) by so many plaguelings stacked here, as if they know that a portal could lead to more places to corrupt but can’t figure out how to enter.
Scott’s voice cracks. He’s alone down here, surrounded by mites, the only way out is across that rickety bridge and even then it might—
Gem jumps the last couple of rungs, landing heavily on her feet beside Scott. fWhip scurries down the ladder right behind her, and then it’s just the three of them against the world.
“Ready to go?” Scott shouts. Gem nods, and her mouth’s moving but Scott can’t hear her over the sound of his own voice and the departing airship. She nods again, though, drawing her sword with one hand and holding onto fWhip with the other.
fWhip nods as well, his ears flapped over themselves to muffle the noise. Scott takes in a breath—they’re leaving it’s time to leave they’ll finally be out of here—and turns toward the Rift.
They have to cross the bridge, first. And as Scott takes his first step across it, the wood below his feet gives and his foot crashes through the bridge.
Scott loses track of his constant stream of noise, crying out in pain as the splintered wood scrapes up his leg like fire, all the way up to his knee, tearing through cloth and skin. There’s a mite just a few feet away from him, and surely more out of sight—he can’t stop here, he can’t catch his breath, he can’t wait for the pain to lull for a moment—it hurts and his stomach feels like it’s fallen out of his body but he can’t stop—so Scott grits his teeth and yanks his leg up, the wood scraping right back down the marks it just made until he’s properly standing again.
“Scott!” Gem grabs onto him, pulling him back a couple of steps—Scott hisses at the weight on his leg—
fWhip darts forward, testing the bridge on all fours, tail swinging out behind him for balance. It bends beneath him, but it doesn’t break like it had for Scott, and fWhip manages to cross entirely.
“One at a time,” he calls back. “And be careful—I think they’re swarming under it!”
Scott bites back a snarky response. He knows to be careful—it’s not like it was his fault the bridge broke under him. But he gingerly steps around the hole in the bridge and tiptoes across, his leg smarting, skin now bared to the wind.
Gem joins him on the other side. The Rift is within reach now, warm and pulsing purple, just a couple of meters away and they’re home free.
There are quite a few mites waiting between them and the Rift, however. That’s certainly an issue, but not unmanageable. He handled more in Stratos, probably.
Scott starts swinging with his shovel, yelling every curse he can think of, but he’s only cleared a few before fWhip grabs him by the shoulder and pulls him roughly to look to his right.
Returning from across the river, sheep entirely gone, is a veritable wave of death.
The mites are piled higher than Scott is tall, practically twice his height, an amorphous being that looms over them like Joel once had.
Scott’s mind goes utterly blank. All he can hear is the pounding of his heart in his ears. All he can feel is his limbs shaking.
It’s moving fast, the shadow of the plague passing over them as the pile begins to collapse, in a matter of seconds mites will be raining down and latching onto them and they’ll die under the assault of so much death and Scott can’t make himself move—
Then Gem shoves him, and instinct kicks in.
Scott grabs Gem by the hand, fWhip by the arm, and runs.
He runs, and fWhip trips and Scott doesn’t let go, just hoists him back up with a strength he’s never had before and keeps going, because they’re going to die if they stay here and Scott’s never been more afraid in his life—
Something hits his back and bounces off—then again and again. Scott just has a moment to spare a thought, a prayer to whoever is listening that it didn’t touch his skin, and then he has to focus every thought he has on getting out.
Gem screams something, fWhip yells “We’re gonna make it!” and Scott bites his cheek and closes his eyes and his shoe catches on a stone—
Scott tumbles headfirst into the Rift.
-
The first sound he hears is the chirping of birds.
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