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[neonovember]

Oh my GOD oh my for okay though that new fic you wrote with Carmy? 12/10 chefs kiss mwah mwah MWAH!! 💕💕💕 That part with Carmy going ballistic and beating the shit out of that asshole customer I LOVED it!! Now it’s got me thinking of Carmen going absolutely feral, just insane if he’s in the kitchen cooking and calling orders, while you’re out front taking orders from customers. He and the rest of the kitchen just go silent and stop in their tracks when they hear a guy just screaming at the top of his lungs at you, using the absolute most vile words against you and Carmen just sees red, especially if whoever it is ups and yells something along the lines of “You stupid fucking whore-“ and Carmen’s just a blur as he POUNCES on this guy. (Richie’s either cheering him on or trying with all his strength to claw Carmen off before he straight up kills the guy)

Office Doors

Oooh you guys are spoiling me rotten with these requests…I love a good feral fic every once in a while and this one was..well you'll know what i'm talking about once you've read it ;) I haven't written Carmen in a day and I miss him already, school has been up my ass so if you have sent me a request, don't worry it's being written, and re-written and-. Thank you anon for getting my gears going and your lovely messages 🥰🥺 ur support means the world

warnings: swearing, objectification and misogyny, angst, oral (f recieving), smut, thigh riding (?), porn with plot, feral!carmen

carmen berzatto x reader!

(This is totally and completely canon btw)

You stretch your body across the diner tables, dipping a dirty cloth into lukewarm soapy water before rinsing it out. The lunch rush had just slowed to a even pace, the sound of Carmen yelling out dishes from his line finally quieting down.

You have just a little time to spare, and you spent that time quickly wiping down the Beef’s tables that had begun to accumulate a few too many stains and unfinished crumbs of bread.

You had grown up in a home that was always messy, all the time. And no matter how much times you had asked, and no matter how much times you had just done the chores themselves, the clutter of dirty dishes and old wet clothes in the laundry had permanently been embedded into your family home.

It’s partially why you had loved the sterile laboratory of you culinary kitchens. Clutter caused your skin to itch with anxiety, it made you feel dirty, and with the way you scrub the diner tables a little too hard you wonder if it's another one of the many joy’s your family had given you.

And whilst the Beef was so different from your environment back in culinary school, it wasn’t necessarily worse. In fact, you had grown to fall in love with the quirks of the kitchen, the ‘fuck you carmen’ napkin holder, the too small walkway, the framed pictures of beloved regulars and the staff’s families. Most of all, however, was the family you had built here, the kind you couldn't find working under a domineering CDC.

The kind that had always been waiting for you, been planted deep into the earth like roots.

Besides, you and Carmen had bonded together during the late nights after most of the family had gone home. Were you both were left, scrubbing the floor together in a rhythmic silence that seemed to be more therapeutic than work.

You’ve nearly finished wiping down the last of the stools perched against the counter top of the front when a loud guffawing causes you to break your trance-like state.

Jovial yelling breaks into the rarely quiet restaurant as the door swings open, and a stream of rowdy men dressed in pullovers and fleece jackets, with scarves and basketball hats of distinct sport team colours wrapped around their necks.

One man is fully decked out, sporting the jersey and beanie of what seemed to be a hockey team. The boom of his voice indicates he was the loudest too, unaware of the grumble of patrons around the restaurant that had grown annoyed at the man's violent rambling.

You breath out a sigh, finishing off wiping down the bar stools and putting the bucket of dirty water under the front counter. Before ironing out any creases in your apron and preparing yourself for the absolute headache this would cause.

They were a familiar bunch, usually coming in after games late after the dinner rush. It seemed there was a game during the early morning, as they grumble about not having anything to eat the entire day.

Their loud and annoying and swear too much and Carmen hates the way one of them looks at you but they order a shit ton of food and fuck if the bear needs money, what can you say.

Your eyes glance at a cup of coffee Richie had accidently left under the register, and you suddenly crave your afternoon pick me up well after the afternoon. The men begin walking up to the register, ignoring your polite greeting and going straight into listing off items from the menu as if you were a machine. You nod along all the words they were saying, and soon enough you give up on writing it down as they’ve practically ordered the entire menu safe for a few appetiser's. 

“Make it quick, yeah? We’re bloody starving '' One of the men calls out from his seated position in one of the booths and you give them a tight lipped smile, resisting the urge to throw that coffee mug at him. 

Carmen peeks his head from the entryway leading to the kitchen, his unruly ashy blonde curls falling to the sides as he shares a look with you,  as if to say ‘you alright? And you nod in that unspoken way the two of you have and tell him that you can handle it. Working in a kitchen didn't have to teach you how to deal with assholes, you had your family to thank for that one again.

You hear the familiar sound of Carmen shouting out orders, and the sizzle of pans and boiling pots increase in order to push out the lengthy order before more foot traffic would pour in. 

You’re trying to fix the register when it happens, something gets caught in the old janky machine, causing the cash drawer to get stuck as you have to hit its sides at a certain angle to get it to open up again. Years and Carmen refuses to get it fixed, or buy a new one all together, resorting to having it taped up and banged every couple hours to get it working again.

You almost don’t see him, until he is leaning against the counter, into the space between the cash register and you, a greasy smile pulling at his features and he watches you. You bite back a grimace at the way his eyes trail down your apron, fixated on the dip of skin that peeks from the top of your shirt.

“Something you need Sir?” You ask politely, taking a tentative step back, your hand gripping the edge of the counter.

The man smiles strangely at your comment, cocking his head to the side before replying suggestively

“I definitely want something”

You cough, biting back your knee-jerk response to hurl at him, you can feel the burn of embarrassment against your cheeks and you swallow as you try to reply with a steady response.

“You’re food will be out in a short-while-” 

“You know, I think I’ve seen you around here, are you new to town?” The man tries to strike up a conversation

“Came here a few years ago and haven’t left since” You reply with a tight smile

“Ah! I know where you're from exactly now” The man replies with a grin that pulls his face upwards, it's eerie, his smile, like he knows something he shouldn't.

“There’s this porn star online, looks exactly like you, it’s kind of insane” The man replies with a smile that deepens as you stammer

You feel humiliated as you stare back at him, you don’t know what to say, and his eyes continue trailing down your body in a way that makes you feel disgustingly objectified. He’s reduced you to an object for him to gawk at, and you see the way the men behind him jeer and laugh that this is all a play to intimidate you.

You want to run straight home and scrub yourself clean, wash away the feeling of his imprinted gaze down the drain.

“You think we can recreate one of her videos when you get off work here?” The man replies, a glint in his eyes.

“What? You- you” You stammer and he breaks out into a laugh

“Awh, look at her, fucking shaking. Don’t tell me this is your first time?” The man eggs on to his friends, who have begun laughing and cheering him on.

You grit your teeth, trying to get the words out as you glance towards the kitchen, where was he? He leg twitches in want, wanting to get Carmen, wanting to run from the restaurants, wanting to run from the embarrassment and disgust you felt.

The flashes of Richie and Syd passing by is all you can see, the booming voice of Carmen being too wrapped up in the orders to notice what was happening.

“C'mon, just give me your number” The man presses on, leaning in so that only you can hear “It isn't like I don't know where you work” Before he leans back, muttering a halfhearted kidding under his breath

“You are disgusting” You spit out, trying to sound as confident as you can, and the mans eyebrow twitches, and he cocks his head like he was confused.

“What? I’m doing you a favour here, I'm actually a nice guy you know? Not one of those assholes on the street” The man scoffs, moving closer towards you and you have a feeling the man is waiting for a reason to lunge at you.

“Just, just take your food and your buddies and go alright? There doesn’t have to be a fight or-or” You continue, trying to de-escalate the situation and get him to just leave you the fuck alone.

“Are you fucking kidding me? I’m doing you a fucking favour and now your kicking me out?” The man begins to get heated, and his friends behind him watch on in silence, you can notice other customers begin to look your way, sensing the rising anger filling the room. You slowly step back, looking for something to shield yourself in case he comes at you.

“What, you think because you work you have some- some what, control? I don't think you know how this works doll, you give me your number, and I dump my load in you because your nothing but a stupid fucking whore” The man bellow, it’s so loud that it echoes through the Beef, that it reaches even the kitchen sinks where Manny is washing up. 

The man’s face grows red as the veins near his neck begin to pop out, he emphasises the last word, spitting it out like that was all you were.

The restaurant goes silent as the man heaves in exertion, the sound of Carmen shooting out orders is mute now, the slice of steel against bamboo stops, and the bear is fucking quite for the first time since it opened. 

Your body is pushed against the wall, near the swinging doors into the Kitchen, and you can see Carmen back to you, he has stopped cutting at his station, and the outline of muscle contracts under his white shirt.

Carmen turns, slowly, he turns to the family, as they all momentarily stop their tasks in shock at what they had just heard. He begins to chuckle a little to himself, as he replies in a quiet voice you and the man can still hear.

“What did he just say?” 

“Did he really say that? Did he really?” Carmen laughs to himself, nodding and gripping his hands into tight fists as the restaurant air gets thin. The man who had been screaming at you looks towards Carmen in confused fear, not knowing why this man was laughing and yet understanding he had completely fucked up.

The rest of the patrons can hear Carmen’s words, eyes widening, as they realise they were about to be collateral to a very one sided beat down. The crew looked at Carmen in silence, they had been used to Carmen's hot-headed temper, his bursts of anger that was more passion than rage. But this? This quiet silence of Carmen’s words, the way his chest heaves as you glances at your frightened position against the wall? They genuinely feared what he would do next, a silent rage like no other begins to envelop the restaurant, the air thin and suffocating as Carmen begins to walk through the kitchen and into the front counter.

“Don’t call an ambulance this time” Carmen mutters to Richie as he passes him by, Carmen’s eyes are fixed on you, trailing down your body before fixating on the shake of your hands. Carmen knows you well, and it’s the clench of your throat, like you're suffocating, like you can’t breath that snaps something in Carmen.

A malevolence Carmen has never felt spills into his gut, the burn of anger spreading against his chest until hes practically shaking with it, he is filled with this heart ache, like his heart is split in two and gushing as he realises his been cutting fucking chives whilst you nearly died. 

And something predatory fills Carmen, like he must prove to himself he can protect you, and in one swift move, like muscle memory etched into his bones, Carmen jumps over the front counter and swings his fist in one clean motion, knocking the man across the room.

The man’s body crumbles as he slams into the hardwood floor of the Beef, the immediate groan of twisted pain and pleads leave the man's mouth and Carmen is just so sick of his goddamn voice. 

It all went quiet then, the noise of Sydney yelling, of his friends, of the man’s heaving wet coughs, the air conditioner, all white noise. Carmen’s hand reaches for his ankle, dragging him back from his crawling escape.

“Oh, no no no, we’re not escaping now are we?” Carmen grunts, his voice lower than it usually is.

Carmen  wraps an arm around his throat, holding him there as he brings down his fist across his face. The wet sound of bones crunching into muscle and skin go on forever, bouncing across the room until the throaty heave of the man is all that is left of him. Carmen cannot stop the swing of his fists, something possesses him and as one of the men in hockey colours tries to grab Carmen arm he throws him back into the stack of barstool's piled near the tables. He is facing his back to you again, and you state, fixated on how his body moves to support him, the contracts and outline of his strong back, his large forearms that break bone with a mere swing.

His face swollen beyond recognition, piss and blood leaking from him, eyes bloodshot and awry. 

Carmen picks him up by his collar, the smudge of blood dripping down and staining his vest, whispering into his ear as the man’s eyes widen in harrowed fear.

“Apologise”

“..Whatnhn?” The man mumbles, the feel of his tongue swelling up and going numb, Carmen presses a hand against the man's bruised stomach, pushing  against the broken bone of his ribs until the Man wails in agony. 

“Apologise to her or I swear to god I’m breaking your fucking legs” 

The man spits out an apology, but you’re not looking at him, staring transfixed at Carmen,  at the way he’s golden curls fall across his eyebrows, at the way his muscles flex against his white shirt, at the way droplets of blood are splattered across the skin of his jaw. Carmen looks towards you, and something dark takes over his cerulean blues, blowing them out.

“Do you accept? Huh honey?”

You nod, letting an exhale out and Carmen tosses the man to a pile on the floor, reaching for your hand and dragging you to the office, you can hear the scatter of shoes as the men drag their friend out of the beef, and the crew looks towards each other in satisfaction, but also in knowing, in knowing they wouldn't dare open those office doors.

The soft glow of the office is a stark difference to the bright light of the front counter, and you have to blink a couple times for your eyes to adjust, and when you do Carmen’s face is inches from you, leaning you against the office doors, his arm above your head.

The soft glow of the office is a stark difference to the bright light of the front counter, and you have to blink a couple times for your eyes to adjust, and when you do Carmen’s face is inches from you, leaning you against the office doors, his arm above your head.

“You didn't- didn’t have to” You mumble, your voice caught in your throat for a different reason.

Carmen looks down at you, shaking his head in amusement

“Don’t lie to me, you enjoyed that more than I did” Carmen whispers, leaning down near your ear, pressing his nose against the curve of your neck.

You let out a breathless sigh, and Carmen groans as he smells that familiar  vanilla always hinted on your skin Carmen could smell when you passed by you. Now, now, he can practically taste it right on his tongue.

The truth was, you did enjoy it, despite being non confrontational and cringing every time Richie would show you a fight where the crunch of bone on gravel makes you shudder, you were transfixed by Carmen. 

By the way he broke the man to a heaving mess with just his fuckinf fists, those same arms that are edging closer and closer to you, how would they feel between your thighs? The thought wraps itself tight in your belly, and you have to squeeze your thighs for friction.

No one had done that to you, no one had done that for you, and in a strange way it felt nice to be protected. To be wanted, and it causes a need to start building deep within you. 

Carmen's eyes fall to you, and his eyebrow twitches as a look of guilt washes over his features.

“I should’ve been there, I- fuck, did he do anything? Let me get a look at you” Carmen replies softly, grabbing your wrists to look for any bruises he feared you had.

“I’m fine, just a little, uhm, shaken up you know? Said some pretty horrible things” You reply, scratching at your neck as your mind replays the way he had reduced you to a thing.

Carmen shakes his head, his teeth grinding as he grips his fists, his biceps flexing. 

“You shouldn’t have to deal with that, deal with people like fucking him, I swear to god if I find him on the street I’m gonna-“

“Gonna what? Finish off the job? There is always going to be guys like him, that isn’t going to change, and it’s something I have to deal with. But what I can’t deal with is if you get yourself thrown into a jail cell because of-of me” You reply, shaking your head and Carmen looks at you like he’s in love.

Gripping a hand to your chin, Carmen raises it so that you catch the burn of his cerulean blues as you can see.

“And That would be an honourable death for me” Carmen mutters, and you can’t take your eyes off him, until you're gripping his blood stain shirt tight against your chest until the suppression groans leaving his mouth are kissed into your neck.

You want him, want to taste him on your tongue, want to feel his weight against it. 

“Fuckin come here” Carmen groans out, reaching to wrap his hand around your jaw as he presses his lips against your own. The muffled of your moans escape your lips and Carmen slips his tongue between them. 

His pillowy soft lips wrap around your own, his nose bumping into your cheek as he wraps an arm around your back, pushing you against the office doors. It’s all teeth and tongue, the clash of teeth and muffled groans leaving the both of you. 

The suppression of both your desires falling between you two until you don’t stop to come up for air. 

It’s addicting the way he kisses you, and you have to grip his shoulder as an anchor as he begins to trail his lips down your neck, sucking and nibbling at the skin there before dipping down to your clavicle. 

You let out a moan as he blows cold air against the dip of your breasts, and Carmen looks down at you, his eyes heavy as he watches the way you shiver, waiting for him to give you what you want.

Carmen rips open your shirt, his eyes trailing across the curve and dip of your breasts, he mutters something under his breath, something like “beautiful” as his finger trailing the lace before unclipping it and tossing it behind him. 

Carmen cups one of your breasts, circling your nipple before wrapping his lips around it and sucking, you arch your back to him, and he follows it until he rests and your hip, squeezing the skin there as his eyes roll back at the taste of you.

“Please..” You groan out, your eyes watching the way Carmen pressing soft circles into your skin, he looks up at you in confusion, the hint of a smile curving at his lips.

“Please what?” Carmen replies, sucking bruises beneath your tits, drawing it out on purpose, having too much fun watching you suffer.

“Nmfha” You mumble incoherently when Carmen flicks his tongue around your nipple, whilst squeezing the other in his cold hands.

“I can’t hear you, what do you want?” Carmen replies with a hint of a moan, he’s having trouble himself, bucking his hips up into you as he watches the way you shake from his lips

“Wanna feel you Carm, wanna taste you” You groan out with a moan, Carmen grunts at your response, his eyes growing dark and heavy, and in one swift move, he hoist you up and swipes the coffee mugs and papers left scattered across his desk before placing you on the edge.

You spread your thighs, making room for him and he steps between them. 

“You wanna feel me sweet girl? You want me to take care of you? Please let me take care of you” Carmen pleads, rutting up against you as he tries to suppress the want pressing tight against his jeans.

“Carm” you groan out as Carmen tugs your jeans down leaving you in your lace underwear that Carmen grinds his jaw at, you don’t realise it but Carmen blue apron is discarded somewhere in the room, and as he carries you towards the coach you tug at his white shirt. 

He rips it off him in one move, and you drag your fingers across the deep of defined muscle that flexes under your touch.

Carmen moves your thighs so that you're pushed towards the edge of the couch, and he kneels between you, pressing a soft kiss to your knee, before trailing up your thighs. Carmen had been teasing you before but now there is a frantic eagerness in the way he touches you, like if he doesn’t taste you on his tongue he might combust.

Carmen hooks a finger into your underwear,pulling them down until you were bare for him. Carmen’s eyes glisten as he states at you, naked under him and sweating. God the image imprints in his mind and he wishes he can stay here forever.

Carmen presses a soft kiss to the inside of your thigh, and your thighs shake in need, Carmen flicks his eyes up to you, and keeps eye contact, as he licks one long strip across your folds, closing his eyes and he groans at the taste of you. You contort you back at the pleasure the waves through you, eyes rolling back at the pressure of his tongue sucking your clit.

“Fucking- taste so” Carmen mumbles, before dipping his tongue between your folds, dragging it up and down, the sound of your heightened moans ripping through him. 

Dipping his tongue in your hole, Carmen pushes a finger between your thighs, presses soft circles around your clit as his tongue works your folds. Your thighs shake around the curls of his head and he pushes a hand down at your stomach to stop you from moving, making you take every wave of pleasure he pulls from you.

“Carm, please, they’re going to hear us” You groan out, and Carmen shakes his head, causing his tongue to drive deeper into you, before looking up at you, 

“Let them” 

Carmen stretches you out with his tongue, pushing it into you and out until your heaving, his thumb is pressed against your clit, and he pushes a finger into you before sucking onto your bud. 

You begin to see flashes of stars, as he thrusts a finger into your hole whilst sucking you, he scissors you open, curving his finger in a way that hits a particular spot that has you raising your hips, trying to pull yourself off of him, the white hot burn of pleasure getting too much.

“There baby? Right there?” Carmen groans out, thrusting his finger to hit that spot over and over

Carmen grips your hips, pushing you down, deeper, harder onto his mouth and fingers, pressing a second digit into you as he curves it to pull that sweet moan from your lips.

Carmen had many names, but his favourite was the broken syllabus of his own between your lips when you fell apart on his tongue.

“S’ close, so close Carmy, please” You babble out, before resigning yourself to the burn of pleasure the feels like fucking nirvana, it’s all around you, Carmen, this pleasure, it’s all you can taste.

“I know baby, I know, I’m going to take care of you okay, sweet girl?” Carmen groans, thrusting his hips into the floor, searching for friction as he watches the way your eyes roll back.

Carmen laps at your core, pushing the digits deeper, curving them upwards until you were screaming, he pushes your face down to look at him, he wants to see your face as you fall apart, and the coil that has begun to wrap itself tight snaps when he nibbles at your over sensitive clit and you see the way his dark eyes watch you, his eyebrows furrowed and your slick coats his chin.

You can’t feel anything but the white hot pleasure that rocks through you, you aren’t in your body, floating away in the pure saccharine pleasure of Carmen’s tongue and he laps at the pleasure dripping between your folds. 

You mumble incoherent words, the only thing leaving your lips is Carmen’s name as you babble, spit dripping from your open mouth as you're left in a heap, Carmen leaving you dumb.

Carmen works you through your release, licking and sucking at your sweet slick that he gathers on his tongue. You see the way he thrusts into the carpet, trying to find friction as the scene in front of him becomes too much.

The thought splits something within you, seeing how Carmen got off to getting you off was out of this world, causing the pleasure to start building in your core again. 

You drag Carmen up to meet your lips, and then push his tongue between your lips, causing you to taste him on your tongue. Carmen pushes his finger between his lips, sucking on the shine of slick coated there, his eyes heavy as he watches the way you grind your hips against him. 

He pushes his digits into your mouth, groaning at the way you suck on them eagerly. You push him to lean his back against the coach, before manoeuvring your hips to straddle him.

You rock your hips against his jeans, feeling the way the indent pushes and bumps against your core, Carmen throws his head back, his curls falling over his forehead and he grabs your hips, pushing you deeper, down down down until he is thrusting up into you.

You grip his shoulders raising your hips before pulling his jeans and boxers down in one swift motion. Carmen forces himself to look down at you, his gaze watching the way you tug at his length, swiping a thumb across the red tip, dragging pre cum down the thick girth of him.

Carmen groans out, gripping your hips tight, and you raise up, lining yourself perfectly before sinking down on him.

Carmen’s groans are beautiful, rumbling from his chests as he squeezes his eyes shut, you fit so perfectly around him, the heat and warmth and slick of you wrapped tight around his cock. His length is thick and girth, and you have to adjust to his size, moaning at the way he fills you up just right.

As you begin to move, Carmen presses a hand, begging for you to wait

“Just, one second, fuck you feel so good I might cum from one thrust” 

“Who says this is a one time thing?” You reply with a wicked smile, and Carmen groans loud at that.

You raise your hips, dragging your self on him before sliding down, your grind against him and he heaves in the pleasure of your tightness around him. 

It had been so long, and the feeling of you is almost too much. 

You struggle to raise your hips high enough, and Carmen wraps his hands tight around your hips before raising you himself, driving himself up into you and thrusting hard.

This new angle allows him to go deeper, and you meet his upward thrusts, groaning out as he fucks you dumb. You look gorgeous above him, the way your tits bounce with every thrust up has him hard all over again.

“Just like that baby girl, keep going, doing so fucking well, my baby” Carmen groans out, and you begin to shake at the combination of his praise the the feeling of his cock driving into you impossibly deep.

You want to make him feel good and you say this to him, causing his eyes to roll back when you squeeze yourself around him, hard, until his thrusts have to drive into you even harder.

The coach freaks loudly from Carmen’s pace, and he slams you down, positioning his cock deep into you, causing you to press half circles into your shoulder, scratching at his biceps and gripping the nape of his hair that causes him to rumble out your moaned name.

You can feel him getting close, his thrust growing sloppy and deep, you tighten around him, and his eyes are in a trance, watching the way you fit around him so perfectly.

Carmen moves to fold himself upright against you, and your eyes roll back to your head as you feel yourself climb up a familiar peak.

Carmen presses a hard kiss against your lips as you groan out, and as he slips a hand into your conjoined bodies, circling your clit you have to shove your fist into your hand to stop from screaming.

The feel of Carmen’s length driving into you and the sound of his ragged moans, mixed with the over stimulation against your clit, you can’t help but fall apart around his cock.

You squeeze yourself tight around Carmen, and he cries out, his thrusts growing slow as he joins you over the cliff, his cock thrusting up into you with spasms. His cheeks are a blush red, his tongue poking out as he follows both of your orgasms.

You fall against his chest, exhausted, pressing your cheek so that it rested against the hard muscle of his pecs. You swallow back a breath, gripping your hand around Carmen’s, as he brings it up to place a soft kiss. 

Your thighs are still shaking from stimulation, and Carmen caresses a hand across them, rubbing soft circles and you lay across his chest.

You stay like this for a moment, basking in the bliss of pleasure and sex and the soft curves and dips of your bodies.

After a bit, Carmen has to slip his out cock from your thighs, eyes fixated on the way your ecstasy mixed with his one drips down your thighs.

“Fucking gorgeous” Carmen replies, and you look up at him in surprise

“What? You don’t think I'll find you gorgeous after this?” Carmen smiles down at your flustered state, he brushes back the sweat and tears dripping down your cheeks.

“That was..you are. Well fuck, Carmen, why didn’t this happen sooner?” You reply, he manoeuvres you so that your legs lay across his thighs.

“Yeah, uh, we’ll I’ve got a whole bucket of shit you don’t want dragging you down” Carmen replies scratching his neck, suddenly more shy as he lay his heart bare to you.

“Yeah, we’ll you gave me no choice when you practically murdered that man” You reply, biting back a smile, as you press soft circles around his thumb.

“Should’ve fucking murdered him…”

“What happens now?” Carmen replies, looking at you nervous that this was you just scratching an itch, because he was head over heels in love with you and he would never recover

“God Carmen, you didn’t realise I’m in love with you already?” You reply with a smile, “Practically the entire restaurant does” 

Carmen looks up at you in wonder, his eyebrows furrowing as your words hit him hard. You loved him? You loved him. He wants you to repeat it a hundred times, he wants to hear your tongue say those words to him again.

“You are incomparable” Carmen mutters under his breath, before wrapping you tight against his chest, pressing a kiss that feels different now, less crazed and rushed and fueled by heated passion. It was new, it felt like a start of something.

“You think they’re okay out there?” You reply with a start.

“Hell no” Carmen replies, and you can’t help but laugh as you push your head through a shirt Carmen had passed to you.

You and Carm may have just confessed your love to one another, but you still had a goddamn restaurant to run.

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[lillymakesart]

hey!! just wanted to say that i read your fic like water on ao3 the other night and it is so so good!!👌

I’ve also loved how much au art you’ve made about mizu, taigen, akemi, ringo etc. it’s a real treat and you spoil us with how many great illustrations you make so often. 💕💕

so i’m just here to say i really appreciate the fic you wrote, all your bes fanart, and all your really great breakdown vids of mikio/mama’s betrayal of mizu in ep 5 from your tiktok account (which are bang on analysis/theories btw💯).

your content adds so much value to the bes fandom, so thank you! 🥰

oh my goodness thank YOU so much anon!!!! ahh you are the sweetest potato and my most darling baby girl i love and appreciate you so much <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

im very happy and grateful to be here to hang out with all of you guys and share my creations, and it makes me so happy to hear that you've received them well!! ngl sometimes it does get kind of hard to balance with work and real life stuff, but where there's a will there's a way and messages like these fan the flames of my will tenfold so thank you thank you <3 <3 <3 <3

also you probably know me better than literally 99% of ppl that know me in real life seeing as how you've consumed my tumblr, tiktok, ig, AND ao3 content like you've truly collected every infinity stone and hold the power of my inner world in your hands LMAO we're bestiest atp

thank you for these kind messages!! i will continue working hard to level up drawing and practicing writing in your honor!! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

#lillydrawsmizu answers

[sitp-recs]

Hi liv!

First up looove your reclists! I read through so many in your pinned post and whenever you rec something I gotta check it out even if at first it doesn’t seem like my thing - and you’ve never steered me wrong!

If you like, I would love some recs for really cheeky, snarky sharp-tongued maybe posh/high society Draco!

Im thinking of the hilarious draco in Luckiest Fucking Size Queen Alive by loveglowsinthedark it just always makes me laugh or Nights with you by the_sinking_ship for something that’s currently ongoing.

I just love myself some fun and snark (and occasional smutt👀) sooo maybe you can help me find more?

Anyway, hope you’re doinh well!

Love

Vik

Hi Vik, thanks for the lovely message! Your ask truly made my night 🥰 love those bangers by @l0vegl0wsinthedark and @the-sinking-ship btw, Size Queen is a classic and I’m so hooked on Nights already, the UST is killing me! I can’t wait for next Sunday after that cliffhanger 😩

I also adore snarky posh Draco even if I don’t read crack-y fics very often, here are some of my favourites. Enjoy!

Student Digs by Lokifan (2016, E, 4k)

Harry’s living in *student accommodation*. Just the phrase makes Draco shudder.

Stand Back: I'm About to Perform Archaeology by Blowfish_Diaries (2018, E, 9.7k)

A new Muggle Studies professor takes the Eighth Year students to work on an archaeological excavation. In which Draco is lazy, Harry is sweaty, Hermione is drunk, and Ron turns red.

On Target by @the-sinking-ship (2021, E, 13k)

A charity dunk tank, some sorry excuses for friends, a Slytherin with freakishly good aim, a (mostly) empty locker room, and one very small towel. Because, apparently, everyone is dying to get Harry Potter wet.

An Act of Kindness for One Harry Potter by a Sympathetic Draco Malfoy by 0idontknow0 (2014, E, 15k)

As Draco leaned on the wall to wait for them to get dressed, he could not help feeling like he had done a very kind thing by disrupting them. Someone should give Potter a better rogering than that sorry sod had.

Reparatio by astolat (2016, E, 17k)

Draco snorted. “I’m not reduced to penury. I want something considerably beyond money, and I rather think you’re the only one can give it to me.”

Meddling, Menswear, and Magic by @writcraft (2022, M, 18k)

Draco Malfoy is working in a job he hates and avoiding the magical world entirely, but he really is fine. When a bequest from Severus Snape brings Draco back to a much-changed magical world, he must find his place within it and navigate his growing attraction to Harry Potter in the process.

amid this warm and steady sweetness by warmfoothills (2019, E, 21k)

Harry is not living in a period drama, no matter what his friends or his new house or Malfoy’s sudden affinity for horse-riding might suggest, and if one more person uses the word courting, he’s going to start hexing people.

Slithering by astolat (2016, E, 27k)

Draco found the nest down in the Manor’s cellars, while he was clearing them out.

Bite Me, Hate Memes by pir8fancier (2007, E, 44k)

Draco Malfoy is incensed to realize that someone is trying to usurp his position as the premier Harry Potter hater.

Stately Homes of Wiltshire by waspabi (2016, E, 57k)

Malfoy Manor has mould, dry rot and an infestation of unusually historical poltergeists. Harry Potter is on the case.

The Trouble with Wanting by waldorph (2021, E, 60k)

Draco Malfoy is cleared of all charges; this is what happens next.

What We Pretend We Can't See by gyzym (2017, M, 131k)

Seven years out from the war, Harry learns the hard truth of old history: it’s never quite as far behind you as you thought.

#asks #anon #drarry reclist #posh Draco #humor

[fayoftheforest]

I'm gonna ask a question

Please keep in mind I'm not trying to pressure you when asking, I'm just really curious and kinda excited because I flew threw your latest fic.

I totally understand if it's not even close to being done yet or if you don't even have an answer, but I'm DYING to know:

When will the next chapter of "Deny me and Be Doomed" come out

It's a great fic, btw! I can't tell you how long I've been searching for a good mysterion fic :P. I also wanted to ask if you had any recommendations 🥺

TYYYY (for being a writer, your fic made my night)

-awe-struck reader

thanks so much for your sweet message! what a lovely xmas gift 🥰

my best guess for the next dmabd chapter is some time late january as i am drowning in uni assignments at the moment :') i miss writing it very dearly </3 i have been nursing this fic in my sherlock-style mind palace for probably about two years now, maybe more, and if i do not tell these kennys' stories i will DIE hahaha ;u; so rest assured they will be completed, just at an ambiguous pace. the reason it's probably gonna take longer per chapter going forward is that I'm going to be properly rewriting them as opposed to just light reread-type edits that I had been doing. it will be worth it in the long run as it means higher quality chapters with better pacing, character consistency, and perhaps even some juicy description (my enemy at present >:| )

i got a couple other asks looking for recs too, sadly i don't really have many bunny recs as i haven't actually read much of them yet. ive not read very many mysterion fics either, but i can for sure recommend zariyari's "but i want a better place" and "who is mysterion?", they absolutely rock!

if anyone else has any recommendations, feel free to reblog and link em! ^-^

#south park #wip: deny me and be doomed #sp kenny #sp mysterion #therandonation #fic ask

[wheresarizona]

i want to take an opportunity to drop by and say i am absolutely in love with your writing. the way you paint a perfect picture in how you describe things, the depth you give the characters, the raw emotions you put into scenes… it’s amazing!

i remember reading learning to live (the chapter when cielito and javi visited the ranch) in the middle of the night, and reading this line:

"You've come back to me-I got you back. Tu mamá would be so happy if she saw you like this. You know what she'd say?" Javier shook his head. "She'd say, 'Ahi está mi niño feliz (There's my happy boy) - mi Javiercito por fin está en casa (My Javier is finally home)."

when i tel you i SOBBED. idk why it hit me so hard, maybe the whole chapter tapped into my mexican nostalgia (great spanish, btw!) or my fear of death, but this is only one of the times your writing has brought me to tears.

i guess, what i’m trying to say is thank you. your works are beautiful and i’d buy a book from you in a heartbeat. keep writing wonderful stories like this, but only if it’s what makes you happy. <3

🥹🥹🥹

😭😭😭

Oh wow, this is such a nice message!

My Spanish is only good because @juletheghoul checks it over for me, and also helps with phrasing things to sound more natural. I'm not a fluent speaker, but she is, and she's the fucking best for making my stuff make sense.

My goal when I write is to immerse you? I want you to feel like you're apart of the story, and I'm happy I'm achieving that!

I cried during that part, too. I actually cry a lot when I write about Javi's mom, or if he cries, I cry. There have been many a time that I'm writing while sobbing. It's embarrassing how often it happens and I know I'm going to cry like a baby writing the current chapter I'm working on.

Thank you for such a lovely message. It made me smile real big! 🥰🥰🥰

#wheresarizona answers #learning to live series #LTL Asks

[lostinfantasyworlds]

your writing indeed does slap! big fan btw :)

Omg thank you so much 🥹😭❤️❤️❤️

This was such a sweet message to receive 🥹. Totally made my night 🥰 .Thank you again!! ❤️😘

[emma-radfemcanu]

Hi you’re my favourite blog on tumblr and I’m always too scared to message you but I really need a friend for a moment so I’m hoping I can borrow your ear lol

So yesterday was my 25th birthday, it’s also the 15th anniversary of me becoming a Swiftie (I got Fearless on my 10th birthday as a present, instantly fell in love), but instead of being at Taylor’s Eras Tour concert in Sydney (just a state over from where I live) I spent the night at home.

All this because the ticketing company for the Aus leg of the tour is dog shit. Im on a disability pension so I had literally spent years saving up for a chance to one day see her, I didn’t even go to see Harry Styles on tour bc I’ve never seen Taylor live (I’ve never seen Harry live either but Taylor is my priority). I spent 10 hours online trying to get tickets, I didn’t have anyone to help me so I only had one chance. I never once even made it into the online ticket lobby.

I’m actually so crushed. It’s been getting me down for ages but I was hoping that for the actual day of, I might be able to go out with a friend to take my mind off it and hopefully enjoy my birthday but all my friends managed to get tickets and so went to the concert without me. Also just to rub salt in the wound I didn’t get any birthday presents, which like I get it I’m an adult and my family is pretty poor but it still would’ve been nice to at least get a card. My Mum did cook me my favourite dinner which was nice and she and my Dad tried to cheer me up by insisting I watch the SpongeBob movie with them, I used to watch it as a kid whenever I was sick, and it used to work to cheer me up but yesterday it just reminded me of spending my childhood in a hospital and having no friends. So yeah I just feel really shit.

Sorry to dump all this on you but i can’t really talk to any of my irl friends about it bc for some bizarre reason they just say I’m being ungrateful (I don’t get why but that’s just how my friends are lol). I just had to get it out of my system you know? I hope it doesn’t bum you out too much. I spent some time scrolling on your blog and as always it’s cheered me up a great deal so thank you💖

Ok anyway if you read this thank you you’re the best, I’m gonna cry in the shower now lol (btw we have the same name which I think is really cool🥰)

Another rad Emma xxx

Hello! (I am v excited that I can finally answer asks again- I meant to contact tumblr support so many times but was afraid of getting termed, but I saw the beginning of this and it made me finally do it)

I'm sorry that you didn't have a nice birthday :( it sucks when you really look forward to something and then it doesn't work out. It is what it is but you shouldn't feel bad for feeling disappointed- even if your parents did make an effort I get why you would feel sad about it

And unfortunately you definitely weren't the only one who had this experience with Eras tickets- the sales were enough of a shitshow as it was lol, I can only imagine how difficult and frustrating it must be trying to get accessibility tickets. And it was especially crappy timing for you with it being your birthday. I really hope that you'll get to see Taylor (and Harry) someday even if it wasn't to be this time

It was very sweet of you to say that you love my blog 💕 and I am always happy for people to send me stuff so please do if you want to talk!

(although just for clarification my name is not actually Emma haha, my url is a tennis pun)

#asks

[spookyserenades]

hi!! i found your fic at like 12 last night and stayed up until 3 reading and then kept trying to squeeze in extra reading during the day. i even had a horror movie date with a friend that i’d been looking forward to all week but once i was there i couldn’t stop thinking about your story and the characters 😭 i would leave comments on each chapter but i’m honestly pretty embarrassed with my inability to come up with interesting things to say so i hope you can tell how much i love you’re writing from this message! i’m home and all ready for bed and once this gets sent i’m gonna dive back into chapter 5 and I’m so excited bc I already love these characters so much and the few hours I’ve been away from them today has made me miss them 😭

Helloo dear anon!! 🥰💓 AHH I'm so happy you found Trouvaille and even more happy that you loved it so much you sacrificed your precious sleep for it! What horror movie did you see, btw? I love a good scary movie! (I'm sorry that I distracted you with Trouvaille, however fdsafdasjf 💀) And you've sent me such a lovely message, and I'm so grateful for that! Thank you for such a kind compliment as well, I'd love to hear from you any time (I promise, anything you send in interests me!) BUT!! I hope you liked Chapter 5, but I also hope you got enough sleep, my love! Thank you for adoring the characters and the story, I'm so lucky to share it with you!💜

#asks #trouvaille #dana's thoughts

[onlyseokmins]

Hii ❤️ how are you today? hoshi being a lil shit is really so good, i love it 😍 your Blog is my favorite btw 🥰 have a good day or night. I love you ❤️

hello <3 i'm good!! today's gonna be my busy day but it's been going alright so far and pls ily!! your favorite blog uwu - thank you darling ur my fav lil anon - ur message made me smile this morning when i got the notif hehe

#ur so cute - ty for enjoy hoshi being a lil shit 🥰 #i hope you have a good day/night <333333333 #ez.inbox #ez.feedback #💌 anon

[someone-worth-racing-for]

It‘s „read through the night“ anon here haha

My heart literally made a jump when I saw you updated „becoming a man“. As much as I love all your other stories, this one together with „someone worth racing for“ just has to be my favorite. Probably also because this was the first one of your stories that I read🥰

This whole storyline is just so cute and I have zero ideas what ideas you still have with this story cause I can remember that you once posted you still have notes for 15 chapters or sth🙈

Back to the new chapter: it was so cute. I also read the chapter before the new one again to kinda get the feeling of the story again. And it was totally worth it. I really felt and I know again why this is my favorite story of yours. I especially loved the part when they are on the swing together - so cute.. or when they had sex on a public beach - you go boys.. it was a great mixture of everything🥰

This was a great surprise! Thank you so much for writing and posting it!

Also: the whole time I was looking for Easter eggs and at the end you write that there weren‘t any included😂 I was even sure I had found one. At the end Carlos thinks sth like: it‘s never gonna be the way again like it just was.. or something similar like that. I thought that was an Easter egg for the move to Ferrari🤷🏼‍♀️😂

Hello and welcome back read-through-the-night anon 😉

First of all, I’m sorry it took me so long to reply to your sweet message, but I actually did that on purpose, so I won’t spoil anyone chapter 13 of Becoming A Man. I have waited over one week and even though some have maybe still got spoiled now, after reading your message, I will at least keep my answers under the cut 🙈

I’m really happy to hear, that you enjoy my story that much and that you are always looking forward for the next chapter. I really appreciate that a lot! 🙏🏽❤

But yeah, I actually still have notes for 19 more chapters, but I’m pretty sure that it won’t even stay by those 32 chapters all together 🙈 But don’t worry, I’m not getting tired of writing for this story or coming up with new ideas. I hope you won’t get bored of it during the way, until the big drama comes, so many people are already looking forward to by now. 

I know that it’s most of the time difficult for people to remember about the latest chapter and what had happened there, because I always need ages to update the story again (which I’m trying to make better in the future btw), so I also think it was a good idea of yours to re-read chapter 12 to get the feeling for the story/the moment back again. 

Well, you know - actually Carlos and Lando didn’t have sex on that beach. I mean, Lando didn’t have his first time that evening, I actually also wouldn’t call it smut what the two of them had been doing there, but I think them being intimate with each other would describe it better for what they have been doing in that moment. 

Haha 😅 Yeah, sorry - this time there weren’t any Easter eggs, but there will definitely be one in the next chapters again 😉 But yeah, technically you could count that thought of Carlos to be an Easter egg as well. But also Lando had been aware about that nothing will ever come close to their days in Spain again anytime soon..

However, thank you once again for reading my story and taking your time to leave this message here for me ❤ I hope you will also be able to enjoy the rest of the story

[promisedneverwrite]

Thank you @promisedneverwrite 🥺

Please bear with me, English isn't my first language but here it goes... I started reading stories at Choices a couple of months ago and since I enjoyed it, I joined some facebook groups for Choices uh fan? Not sure what term to use, sorry.

Then, I met this girl, she's from UK and I'm from the Philippines. We started chatting about Choices stories ofc. 😅

Chat. Chat. Chat.

Until one night, out of nowhere she said that she's horny and asked me if we can do phone sex. I was hesitant at first but in the end she made me agreed.

It happened again after a week.

Couple of days or weeks passed and we continue to have chat, we already know some personal things about each other and I just found myself falling for her. I told her about my feelings and she said that she likes me too but not ready for a relationship. I told her that it's fine, I can wait.

I continue messaging her - you know the usual, asked her if she ate already, to take care on her way to work or her way home, what she's doing ....

Btw, the phone sex never happened again, I avoided it. Want to show her that it's not just sex for me and she seems happy w it.

Couple of weeks passed again and she told me that I'm like Totoro and since then she called me "My Totoro". She even set it as my nickname in messenger and she suddenly then said that she also love me. The only reason why she's apprehensive is because of the distance between us but she assured me that we'll make it work.

So I planned going to the UK to visit her, to be with her... but she suddenly changed after talking to her ex, she seems distant, and just this morning she broke up with me saying that she never loved me and she just felt bad...

God... 🥺 Idk what to say anymore. I just want to let this all out... 💔

- Totoro 💔

No worries about the english totoro, we're all struggling here sksjsksks but we know what you mean 😁 And ayooo filo gang 🥳 🇵🇭

While I don't know the entirety of your interaction, it seems that you really fell hard for this person and really care about their wellbeing. You're very sweet totoro. That I know for sure 🥰🧡🧡

I can't really speak for the situation you are in, but I think maybe just taking a step back from this person might be a first step for you.

We can't help the feelings that we have for other people and sadly that also applies to what other people do with the feelings you give them. Its a chance, and you took the chance to give a piece of yourself to this person but they broke your heart. And that really sucks.

Maybe having some time to yourself, spending time with other friends, and maybe just talking about it with others will help you find something that you can relate to, to help fight this pain you are feeling.

It will may help take your mind off it for now. And it will probably continue to hurt even after this distance, but I think that it is an inevitable part of falling for someone as deeply as you did in these months you had together. Its a phase of healing in my opinion, taking yourself out of a situation to just take a breather to gather your thoughts and stuff.

But regardless of how you choose to continue, just know that you have friends here too totoro! You are FOR SURE my friend and I know you can get through this! 🥰🧡🎉🎊🥳 We'll be here to celebrate with you when you do. 😁🥳🎉🎊🧡

#my dear totoro asks 💕

[soraenun-archive]

(i enter the stage and the crowd cheers and chants my name. i wave at them and blush from the amount of love i'm receiving) hiii, i'm here <3 how have you been doing?

yeah, it sometimes feels like you have to know everything about it (football) but i only watch it to take my mind off of things lol oh shoot! did i give you too many hints already? 😳 from now on, i won't reveal anything about myself. i might have underestimated your sherlockholmesque skills. this is not about my url btw, i'm not telling if you're right or wrong about it to stress you out even more (jk ofc i don't want to stress about it). i want to keep the big reveal for later and i want it to be extraordinary hehe 💖

when i saw the pink outfits on my dash, i thought of you right away 💞 i was like 'shannon must be super happy right now' and i was right. i saw your tags under the rv posts you reblogged. reading the tags under posts is one of my fave things to do on this site lol

wait what? i thought harry kane was way older than that. it's.... so weird to me that he isn't even in his thirties........ i really thought he was 35-36 already. in case he's reading this, i'm sorry mr. kane but i don't know anything about football players' ages. i'm always shocked when i learn about their age because i always imagine them way younger or way older than their real age. i'm sorry but did i make any sense? my brain is not able to process this info </3

since i forgot my question of the day the last time, here is one: are there any other sports you follow or enjoy watching? if so, which ones and what made you so interested in them?

as you might not know, i started taking singing lessons so please sit down while listening to my beautiful voice. 🎵 dear sha-aaaaaaa-non. i wish youu-uuuu-huuuuuuuu a niiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiice (this was the high note) dayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy (vibrato at the end) and pleeeeeeeeease take caaaaaaaare 🎵 see? i didn't lie to you when i said i have a beautiful voice ;)

from 🐘 anon

hello!!! i am the crowd 📣👩 (that’s me cheering) hi bestie <3 i’ve been doing okay! i think your threats worked 🥰

exactly!! especially as a girl i feel like you get questioned so much more like im just here to have fun and support my besties :( the classic “explain the offside rule then” like i dont even think the players could explain offside anymore …. or the you must only be pretending to like it to get attention from men… but unless the man is heung min son i absolutely am not interested. oooh i must be onto something then 🧐 but you’re right! i will retire my detective skills and wait for your big reveal!

hehe i was super happy!!!! they all looked so pretty i love those outfits! and the stage with the flowers was stunning too <3 it’s so cute that u thought of me when you saw them :( have you watched the wildside mv yet? what did you think of it and the song?

yeah it makes sense!! i don’t blame you ajkhdaksd i think the fact he’s also married with kids certainly makes him seem like he’s a lot older than what he is?? but i’m hoping he still has a lot of years left in him especially if they’re gonna be spent at spurs 🥺 but nooo other than football i’m not really into any sports :/ i used to hate football too but something about tottenham hotspur just got me hooked <3 but i’m not really a sports person! sometimes i’ll watch rugby with my dad but it’s way too aggressive for me ajksdhjsakd

oh thank you for the beautiful song! you didn’t lie u have the most beautiful voice and you hit that high note perfectly! 👏👏👏 sorry if i’m being stupid are you really taking singing lessons or was that just for the fun message?? 🥺 if you are i'm curious what made you want to start taking them and how they’re going but if it was just a joke then u can ignore me <3

i hope you've been doing well too bestie and that you're having a good day/night 💞💗

#anonymous #💌 #🐘💌

[winchestershiresauce]

I was mindlessly scrolling through the chaos of tumblr and I have to tell you I love your name😂 Winchestershiresauce made my day or rather night 🤓 I love you and will now read all your stories❤️

😂🥰 I'm glad my ridiculous sense of humor could make your night! I hope you enjoy the fics ❤️

This message made me smile so big, btw, so thank you!!