#that addict is me

[ink-the-artist]

Video game I saw in a dream. It was in this low poly style like an older video game. You play as this character I think was meant to be a lamb, or maybe a weird mix of a lamb a mouse and a rabbit, (while not really looking like any of those things) and you’re running away from a wolf. Your objective is to last as long as possible before the wolf catches and eats you.

The house you’re running in is endless and bizarrely put together like most building interiors in dreams are (like the infinite toilet dream dimension on Reddit lol) the layout of the house is pretty detailed, you can stop and hide in places like closets or bins while the wolf looks for you, you can go up and down stairs and into rooms etc.

You never actually know where the wolf is or how close it is to you until it appears in your line of sight, it makes no noise and the game gives you no way of knowing where it is, and it’s pretty unpredictable it doesnt move at a consistent pace. When the wolf catches you there’s an animation showing it eating your character

#the actual animation of the wolf eating your character wasnt scary he kind of just cartoonishly swallows the character whole lol #the scary part is being pursued by him and never knowing how close he is #i remember being surprised when i first saw the game bc it was presented to me as #a fun addictive sort of game kinda like a mobile app game #and then i see it and its a horror game and the creators are just completely oblivious to it lmao #dream art #<- thats my tag for all my dream-inspired art #art #gif #photomanipulation #digital art #liminal #weirdcore #used a mix of ai photos and regular photos for this one #the ai stuff is sooooo good for recreating what a dream looks and feels like #but i didnt use it too much bc i wasnt able to get the specific photos i wanted :/ #hmmmm this is vore isn’t it

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

going through my old journals as part of therapy homework and i'm reading a section written in the emotional wreckage of a full-on breakdown when i get hit with this line:

There is never a satisfying answer to ‘Why didn’t they love me?’

like wow babe. good fucking point

#like you were on the ground biting the carpet and dry sobbing while you wrote that and still. good fucking point #not a shitpost #cptsd #and it's true. there's never a satisfying answer #the truth is i know why i wasn't loved #i analyzed my parent's traumas and abuse to death. i understand why i alienated and was alienated from my siblings #i know why my mom was too overwhelmed to be capable of nurturing #i know why my dad vanished into addiction and avoidance #the details of our cycles of trauma and cptsd and family history i have a phd in all of it #i understood perfectly. i spent years studying and now i knew the answer #and guess what? IT WAS NOT SATISFYING!!! #because they still didn't love me! and i still couldn't change that! #it was still a completely unsatisfying state of affairs! #so like. when the people who are supposed to love you...don't. #when the people who are supposed to take care of you...fail to #you can look for answers and reasons and explanations #but that's not actually going to FIX your situation. #and it's probably not within your ability TO fix the situation. (and definitely not your job) #because you don't need answers--you need a new situation #*inserts Just Walk Out. You Can Leave!!! (Running Skeleton) Meme* #and yes. walking out isn't always possible. #but for you i hope it will be one day soon. and i hope you build the courage to take that leap. #stepping away from the people who failed to love you...it feels like being untethered but also like being lighter than air #new and scary. immensely relieving. the future opens up. empty but empty like a canvas. blindingly bright until your eyes adjust #like climbing out of a pit you called home and for the first time realizing how bright the light of day can truly be #when you aren't just getting glimpses from the bottom of a hole

[inkskinned]

there are a lot of posts out there that are positive and healthy coping mechanisms for handling the holidays. this is not one of them :)

i think there's like. going to be times in your life you will be stuck in a social situation that you cannot escape from gracefully. i do not know why the internet doesn't believe these times exist. it's not always just that your physical safety is at risk - sometimes it's legit like "i just don't currently have the energy or time to put in the effort of responding to this." sometimes it's a coworker you hate so much. sometimes it's just like, fine, you know? like you know you can handle your aunt when she's cheerily horrible, but if you actually set a boundary around her, it's going to be weeks of fallout with your father.

i don't know why people think the answer is always just "cut them out!" or "don't let them get away with that!" because ... the real world is tricky and complicated. i think kind of a lot of us have an internal "radiation poisoning" meter for certain people. like - i'm talking about the ones who are absolutely giving you gradual ick damage. like, you can handle them, but you'll be exhausted.

and yes. you absolutely should listen to your therapist and the good posts about handling others and set good boundaries and take care of yourself. prioritize peace.

HOWEVER :) ...... since im often in a situation with a Gradual Sense of Ick person i cannot just "cut out" of my life (without losing someone else precious to me) - i have sort of developed the most. maladaptive form of mischief possible. because like, if i'm going to have to listen to this shit again, i like to have a little bit of private fun with it.

now! again, i am physically safe, just mentally drained by this man. you should only do this with people you are not in danger with. which leads me to my suggestions for when your Unfortunate Acquaintance shows up and says oh everyone pay attention to me.

my favorite word is "maybe!" said as brightly and happily as possible. whenever the Horrible Person starts in on a topic you do not want to go further with, particularly if they make a claim that you know to be inaccurate, do not respond to it. you and i have both tried to actually argue with this person, and it hasn't gone well, because this person just wants the drama of an argument. however, "maybe!" gives them literally nothing to go on. it is incredibly disarming. they are used to people having some response. they know they can't prove what they're saying, and maybe! treats them like the child they are. it dismisses them in the politest way possible.

i like to say maybe! and then, in their stunned silence, immediately change the subject. this is because i have adhd and i will have something unrelated to talk about, but if you can't think of topics fast enough, i recommend just pointing to something and saying, "isn't that lovely?" because fuck you let's bring in some positivity.

by the way. that second trick - of pointing to something and stating an opinion about it? - that just works on its own, like, 70% of the time. i picked it up from teaching preschoolers. it's an intentional "redirect". it stops children crying and it also stops grown adults from finishing their explanation on why women belong in kitchens. dual wielding!

keep it silly for yourself. i absolutely do not care if people think i'm fucking stupid (it's more fun if they do) and as a result i will purposefully misunderstand things just to see how long it takes them to realize i've completely removed them from the subject at hand. when they say "women aren't funny" i get to be like. "which women." "all women." "all women in america?" "no in the world." "like the mole people? the people in the world?" "what? no. like, alive." "oh are we not counting the mole people?" "what the fuck are you talking about." "you don't believe in the mole people?"

similarly, i play a personal game called "one up me." my Evil Acquaintance literally knows this game exists (my family & friends caught onto it and now also play it) and it always fucking gets him. i don't know why. you have to be willing to be a little free-spirited on this one, though. the trick is that when they make one of those horrible little bigoted or annoying comments they are always making, you need to go one unit weirder. not more intense, mind you - just more weird. "you don't look good in that dress." "yeah, actually, my other dress was covered in squid ink due to a mishap at the soup store." "you shouldn't wear such revealing clothes." "wait, what? oh shit. sorry, your son tears off strips when no one is looking and eats them. i swear it was longer before we left the building."

the point of "one up me" is to completely upend this person's narrative. we both know this person likes setting up situations where you cannot "win" and then they really like telling other people how badly you handled it. in a usual situation, if you respond "please don't say something that rude", you're a bitch. but if you let it happen, you're letting yourself be debased. they are not usually expecting door number three: unflappably odd. because what are they going to say when they're telling everyone how badly you behaved? "she said my son eats her dresses" ".... okay?"

if you can, form an allyship with someone whomst you can tagteam with. where they can pick up on your weird "soup store" story and run with it.

the following phrase is amazing and can be deployed for any situation: "oh, be nice :) it's the holidays!" i do not know why this works as often as it does. i'll say it for the most random shit. i think this is bc most of the time these people know they're being impolite, they just like to fight.

godbless. when in doubt, remember that you could always start stealing their pens.

the whole point of this is - if you can't escape. maybe see how long you can just be. like. a horrible little menace.

#this is objectively bad advice #don't listen to it protect yourself and do real work on yourself find one of the good posts i've made about this #but also. u know. if u want to have fun while u do the work of setting boundaries #.... it IS fun #i will say that my fear of him went SO down after i just started. fucking with him. #bc i used to get SO fucking upset #i'd spend WEEKS arguing with him. tearing my hair out. sick with anxiety and dread and anger about all of it #and now i just LITERALLY do not engage #instead i'm like '' haha :) mole people" and get the HELL out of any tense conversation #i kind of think some of these people are literally addicted to drama as a form of connection #they like the rush they get from arguing #but those arguments are incredibly damaging for me #so like..... i am in the process of literally rehabilitating this person to figure out how to find connection thru #NORMAL CONVERSATION #he doesn't get it yet #i also do talk to them like they're preschool kids lmafo . ''are you using a safe and kind voice right now?'' #'' do you need a snackie? you sound a little upset. let's have some hummus and come back to playtime when we feel ready''

[tojisun]

thinkin about simon smokin while you’re sitting on his lap, all pretty and docile, playing with the loose threads of his sweater. he taps your thigh and you turn to him because you know what he wants – he made sure you know it well, after all.

you part your pouty lips open, batting your long lashes as simon leans in before blowing the smoke into your mouth. you inhale it slowly, having been taught by him how to properly shotgun, and simon groans at how good you are being. then, he finally leans in to kiss you because you deserve to be rewarded <333

#suns.hc #simon ghost riley x reader #simon riley x reader #ghost x reader #simon ghost riley #IM SO MAD I WANNA EXPERIENCE THIS AGAIN #its so bad when u dont know how to but holy fuck the thrill and the underlying sensuality of it got me so addicted #suns

[funstyle]

TUMBLR POLL do you do drugs or have sex or drink alcohol or do cigarettes or anything

yeah ⬜️ 10%

NO!!! ⬜️⬜️⬜️⬜️⬜️⬜️⬜️⬜️⬜️ 90%

93837593 votes

#didnt expect this post to get attention. before anyone tells me to kms im a recovering alcoholic and drug addict so :P #like it really doesnt matter lol.

[maryn00b]

tim drake and his weird ass hair

if you saw the typo no u didnt

~~*expand for close ups*~~

#marynoob #myart #fanart #art #tim drake #red robin #bernard dowd #timbern #they make me sick *puts them in my mouth and starts munching* #no but seriously WHAT IS HIS HAIR ??? #tim drake bisexual caffeine addict hes just like me fr #i love how DONE he looks in some of these #bet all his thoughts at board meetings are just bernard smiling at him

[aris-has-a-paracosm]

They weren’t kidding. Those cooks sure are clumsy!

(Close ups below)

#hermitcraft #hermitblr #tangotek #zedaph #hermitcraft charity stream #grian #I think I may be addicted to redrawing screenshots #if y’all have any good screenshots of the charity stream send em to me and I might possibly draw them #aris paracosm art

[bajinns]

Hello lovely people I forgot I had a tumblr

#pikmin #pikmin 2 #louie pikmin #captain olimar #pikmin addiction help me #digital art

[xoxomireya]

ㆍ⇋﹒how to fix your phone and social media addiction: a tutorial ；ᨴ﹑📲ˎˊ˗

DO NOT delete social media !!

If your phone is taking over your life, who’s the real culprit? Exactly. Social media is not bad per se, the problem comes in when the content that you surround yourself with is toxic and unhealthy. Use your phone and social media for motivation, productivity, inspiration… Mindlessly scrolling is the real problem, not social media.

Don’t you have something better to do?

Being on our phones and constantly scrolling mindlessly through social media gives us dopamine and makes us addicted to it. But the thing is, phones aren’t the only thing that can give you dopamine. Explore and experiment life to see what can give you dopamine. For example, I love reading and when I’m doing it I never think of going on my phone because doing something that I love already gives me the dopamine that I seek.

Discipline is key.

This is kind of obvious since discipline is the solution to most of these issues but you actually need to learn how to have discipline. Change your mindset to one that understands that getting used to comfort will only bring weakness in the long run whilst getting out of your comfort zone will build strength. Start by choosing to do something that will be better for you in the long run even if it’s hard than settling for brief happiness just because it’s easier.

Start by not going on your phone first thing in the morning.

Going on your phone first thing in the morning will pretty much guarantee that you’ll be glued to it the rest of the day because the first dopamine hit that you get in the day is what you will continue to look for throughout the day. Get an alarm clock or just leave your phone in another room (e.g. your bathroom) throughout the night so when the alarm goes off in the morning you’ll be forced to get out of bed and not crawl back in it with your phone.

Change your phone from color to black and white.

Accesibility > display & text size. If the only colors you see on your phone are black and white it’s just not going to hit the same, you’re not going the get the same dopamine hit and you’re not going to want to mindlessly scroll because it’s not giving your brain that reward and that satisfaction that you would usually get, which is what unconsciously keeps us coming back.

#it girl #self care #self love #social media addiction #phone addiction #self improvement #self worth #self healing #self development #new year new me #girly #divine feminine #that girl #inspiration

[andhumanslovedstories]

some nurses I work with and get patients from give me the impression that they think a patient is opioid addicted and they need to be weaned off, and like even if that is the case 1) I'm not a addiction specialist, I'm their night nurse and their doctors have prescribed pain medication to be available to them, 2) day nurses I think can be more flippant about pain at times because during the day you have things that can distract you while at night, all you get to do is lie in bed and think about how much pain you're in, 3) I don't think a hospital stay for like heart failure is the best time to detox someone, 4) pain is incredibly subjective and I trust patients who've been living in their body for their whole lives more than I trust myself who has been talking to them about their body for five minutes, and 5) some nurses will be like "I don't offer pain medication unless the patient asks for it" and then the patient will ask for it and then it's all "this patient requested pain meds..... drug seeking behavior" like okay wtf are they supposed to do then? Stoically cry one tear down their cheek when I come to check on them so I can benevolently grant them 5 mg of oxy? 6) enduring pain doesn't make people better people, it actually makes people angry and tired and sad, so good luck building your therapeutic rapport while you make them beg for pain medication, maybe all your patients wouldn't be so mean to you if they weren't all suffering the entire time you're responsible for them, 7) if you aren't gonna give opioids and you're also not gonna page the doc for other meds and you're not gonna get ice packs and you're not gonna reposition your patient and you're not gonna ambulate them when they say that helps their hips and you're not gonna talk to them for a while to distract them and you're not gonna get them a jello cup to eat if they want, then literally how are you better than a little roomba with a med cup full of Lipitor scooting into their room?

I'm aware of the risks of opioids, I don't give them when it isn't safe or indicated, and I'm also aware that opioids aren't even good for all types of pain, but they can be an absolute gift to patients who need them. They aren't inherently evil. We don't have to make people suffer to improve their character. Even if suffering did that (it doesn't), improving character is outside my scope of practice. Here's some morphine.

#don't even get me STARTED on people who are STINGY WITH PAIN MEDS for END OF LIFE PATIENTS #JEEZ I SURE HOPE THIS PATIENT IS GONNA BE DEAD IN A DAY DOESN'T GET ADDICTED TO THE MORPHINE I'M SHOOTING INTO THEIR LIMP MOUTHS

[crumb-crumblet-s-crumbington]

🪤

#karl heisenberg #ethan winters #can i even tag him #hes not even actually in this #well i guess a piece of him is #mother miranda #resident evil #resident evil fanart #rebhfun #resident evil village #resident evil 8 #re8 #wintersberg #i was actually trying to draw cute geniune domestic wintersberg #and it was so hard for me i went into art block #and i spent the entire day trying to think of a good idea for it and couldnt #then while i was falling asleep i thought of this comic in like 2 seconds #domestic wintersberg is so hard for me to draw 😭 #addicted to making dumb stupid comics where karl needs ethan so bad it makes him looks stupid #fun fact the soldat was originally going to be sturm and then i realized sturm doesnt have hands to stop karl from walking over

[merakiui]

I AM RABID. this version of scaramouche……. oh my oh my oh my OH MY orz i’m on my knees for him. \(//∇//)\ HE’S SOOOOO AAAAAAAAA

AND THEN CIRCUS SCARA??????

AND HACKER SCARA???????????

SUMMER SCARA AS WELL!!!!!

it’s a mouchey meal. i’m so not normal. i’m insane, in fact. OTL OTL OTL

#meraki mumbles #SCREAMING AND CRYING AND CELEBRATING AND AAAAAAAAAAA #hoyofair is feeding me too well right now #and ‘circus addiction’ was sang by amatsuki too omg <3 forever feasting #i cannot and will not stop thinking about all of these scaras #especially spy scara!!!!!!! he's so perfect T_T

[boytraining]

the teething stage is the hardest part

#putting the training in boytraining #i think i’m addicted to dogposting #either forgive me or start barking #forced masculinization #forcemasc #force masc #autoandrophilia #androphilia #ftm hypno #boy hypno #ftm puppy #ftm dogboy

[sithcom]

me: ah yes, today i can finally get around to writing. game a bit. do that little diy project i've been wanting to get started

tumblr: hey you like clicking buttons right

#ik its only like 10 am here but i can see myself doing this all day. i need that 1k badge #ITS SO ADDICTING HELP ME #rikes.txt

[rongzhi]

Reviewing tactile paving in Wudaokou, Beijing

[video ID: A video from douyin that shows a first-person POV of a walk along an uncrowded granite city sidewalk. The camera is pointed at a downward angle, showing a silver walking stick sweeping back and forth over vertical block tactile paving, with white shoes stepping in and out of the bottom of the frame. A woman speaks in Mandarin Chinese as Simplified Chinese and English captions appear over the video. At one point, the woman encounters a pair of feet belonging to someone standing stationary at the edge of the tactile paving, but otherwise the path is unobstructed. The English captions read as follows: Okay, begin. I’m showing everyone this blind path. I was just walking on it and thought that it was especially distinct. Plus it’s very wide. This width is very wide. I feel like this is my ideal blind path. And then, just like… Sorry. When I walk on it, there’s also no particular obstructions. Like, there’s no trees boxes or anything super nearby. Uh, of course, I also don’t know if that’s true. In any case, I haven’t bumped into anything. I feel like this is the type of blind path that actually guarantees our safety. I really hope, like, that we can have more blind paths like this. /End ID]

English added by me :)

#douyin #video #tiktok #i'm like addicted to these videos rn idk why #tactile paving reviews are hypnotic to me.... #盲道 #i feel like i don't notice any tactile paving on sidewalks here?? only the blocks at the edge of a crosswalk really #i remember them in parts of chicago tho bc i used to walk on them in the loop when it was icy out #described #transcript

[the-meme-monarch]

I’m a big proporter of “k_k isn’t stupid he just likes to act like it bc he thinks it funny to make people mad or confused”. and other such doodles of him

if you ship scc go away👍

references for the last one under the cut

#the art gallery #deltarune #scc #yknow that tweet or whatever it was from toby fox where he said it was practically addictive to write sans and papyrus’ dialogue like t #like they could continue a conversation twice as longer than he intended bc it was just so fun to write them. that’s scc for me #I’m specifically talking abt the hot dog in the microwave one here