#that makes me want to redact myself

[thelastdayalive]

ILKKA VILLI in Luottomies (2017) Jouluspeciaali

#ilkka villi #luottomies #luottomies jouluspeciaali #ilkka stop making me want to [REDACTED] santa pyydän #WHY does he look at people like THAT?? and how does one even survive that #apologies to user tinyclowndancer if you were planning to gif this too but i couldn't help myself #i was told 'the more ilkka gifs the better' ✨ #giffing #editing #ppl

[heartbreakfeelsogood]

photos from summer sonic 2023

#fall out boy #FALL OUT BOY ALIVE AND WELL AFTER THE TWO WEEK DROUGHT #PATRICK ANSWER MY CALLS I CAN SHOW YOU SUCH A GOOD TIME LETS TAKE THAT SHIRT OFF SEXY #PETE LOOKS SO CUTE 🥹 #BUT ALSO I WANT HIM TO [REDACTED] MY [REDACTED] #JOE COME INTO MY BED **** ***** ***** ** ******** #ANDY * *** **** **** ******* #<- long drive making me act like a fool apparently #i’m posting these for myself because i don’t have the energy to see if someone else has LOL #still have . 6 and a half hours to drive 👹 #fob #the best boys #andy #joe #pete #patrick #smfs era

[gingerbreadmonsters]

sleepy and v fed up w this blasted reading for japanese history class tomorrow. give me 45 minutes to finish this article and i will be back to talk about kissing or something

#for the blissfully uninitiated: hello i am history student #which is a fantastic thing to be but also a significant pain in the [REDACTED] when it wants to be #the professor for this class is almost unbearably terrible which does not exactly make me WANT to do this reading #but the exam is in like 2 weeks lol #so yk. i have the hardest life of anyone on earth etc etc #god forbid i actually do the degree i asked to do lmao #also i up early this morning to drag myself to the immigration bureau for a visa amendment #which meant a decidedly unpleasant hour on the metro during rush hour :( #its bc im applying for this english TA position in spring #its literally only for 5 days and tbh i wouldn't mind doing it for free bc i am sad like that and enjoy teaching for fun #but it IS paid - and paid work is Not Allowed under my student visa #so even though i literally have not even GOT the job (applications close today) i still had to go and apply for permission to work #watch as they dont hire me lol #oh i should mention - for those who may not know i am in tokyo this year #i am british and i usually go to uni in the uk but im on a study abroad year this year #i came to japan in sept of 2023 so ive been here for coming up on 5 months and i will be going back home in august on 2024 #its weird to think that im approaching the halfway point #tbh i should really just make this a separate post but whatever #coming to japan has been very strange but a good thing i think

[rad-claid-plaid]

Instead of ranting in the tags on a post I just reblogged, making my own post.

I DESPERATELY need able-bodied people to realize that "limited mobility" or "can walk but has mobility issues" ≠ can sprint up a hill behind you. Like holy fuck!! I spent the week with super crunchy hiking nature enthusiasts. I used to love hiking before my mobility issues. I still do, but I have to go by myself or with the right people. Yes, I can walk X distance. No, I cannot do it comfortably. No, I cannot keep up with your normal walking pace. If I do X distance I won't be able to do anything else that day. Uphill is different than flat terrain, it makes my joints and my muscles freak out. When I reach the peak, that doesn't mean I'll be able to keep up from there. It takes a toll on my body, and it compounds. No, I do not have the kind of pain where if I just "work through it" it'll get better. I have the kind that gets better with rest. I have arthritis.

#rant #plaid.txt #genuinely i mourn the loss of my mobility often #ppl like this make me feel genuinely bad about myself and make me just want to sit out or [redacted] because im not ablebodied #i cant keep up. you know this. you convieniently “forget'

[lovelaceisntdead]

If you're interested in supporting the get Sophie to Vermont fund Moss Ink. is my main source of income and any support is greatly appreciated 🧡

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#tried to showcase some of things I'm most proud of but I have a lot of stuff up rn #I even have a little pumpkin frog pin if you want to go and look at him #I'm working on widening the shipping for my books because right now I'm only shipping domestic #i will open shipping for Europe definitely #but my prints stickers and pins are all global shipping #and I will have more lino prints up in the next few weeks as a few people have asked #i know it's a bit early for holiday shopping but if you'd like to keep me in mind #and I'll be making more books in time for December #i hate promoting myself so much but it is a necessary evil #and I'm really proud of a lot of the work I've done recently #anyway if just buying things from me isn't enough incentive you'll be donating to a worthy cause (getting me some [redacted]) #so if you believe in gay love !!! #Moss Ink. #🍊🐸 #bookbinding

[lunarharp]

various witch stuff of the day or whatever the heck

#witch hat tag #orufrey #uhh yeah just getting some stuff out of the way haha i like the first one tho. i drew something that scares me #iguin must have been involved in qifrey's thing somehow. The Lidless eye..the sight of the world..i mean i think [redacted] #and he'll be [redacted] and [redacted] will be forced to... [redacted]???!?!!? #I want to keep my theories to myself.......or do i. not being a fandom person (other than dropping my art and leaving) means i just.. #combust inside by myself with ideas and FEARS FOR THAT MAN.....CAN SOMEONE HELP HIM IM SO WORRIED IM SO... #CAN YOU LET SOMEONE HELP YOU #apparently tetia's expression in the last one is hard to understand =.= she's emotional bc she cant believe they remembered #the twin hat idea. and that she's so happy. i was thinking about how she was probably qif's first pupil so there must have been a time #where it was just her qif and oru... i DO think she is hinted strongly to be trans but even if not her mystery background is probably so sad #why would qifrey even become a teacher? his goal was the brimhats. but he keeps being distracted by kids with problem pasts so #he must have only been drawn to help tetia out of a deep sympathy. it seems at that point he and oru had drifted apart #did oru decide to be his watchful eye hearing about that or did qifrey ask him? he thought that qif had given up on brimhat stuff so.. #*mumble mumble* lately i also keep remembering oru saying something UNREAL in kitchen like 'we're finally living under the same roof' ???? #you can't just say that. what on earth. i..... whatever. i haven't even processed like 20% of my potential emotions about them #i feel so weirdly emotional today. i stopped thinking about witch hat for zuka even tho im SO hyperfixated it is genuinely PAINFUL to stop #i stopped just long enough to watch gatsby raku.... my haachan #i'm so grateful right now that i dont have any big issues in my life rn so i can get worried about manga men and sad about actors retiring #today at least i am extremely grateful. living and being alive is so so so so weird. i hope we all make it

[asteralien]

rips my poor little meow meow out of this story and out of this relationship with my teeth and carries him away to a dark corner where i can groom him like a kitten and hiss at people who don't Get him

#im going to explode [REDACTED] with my mind. manifesting. i'll take out every [REDACTED] ever if that's what it takes #good luck listening to any [REDACTED] ever again i'm taking them down i'm obliterating them all if i can't have fun no one can #things that i take too seriously that are absolutely not that serious no.45 #but. good christ this is too much i thought it was OVER #i thought i could be FREE i thought the blacklist tag would SAVE ME #BUT NO !!! HELL FIRE SHIT BITCH #it's really not that deep i understand. i'm a reasonable rational adult. but i'm listening to my long-lost inner 10-year-old boy this year #and he says he wants to run over [REDACTED] with his hot wheels. so. #need a blab tag for my new internet name ig uhhhhh #aster chat #i will not be posting about this btw insofar as i can restrain myself. i'm not making a bitching tag about it #i'm just very very. well. frustrated

[heartsburst]

WHY MUST I ALWAYS GET INTO THE SADDEST FUCKING SHIPS WHY DO I KEEP DOING THIS TO MYSELF

#frankie yells #like fucking. sure any ship can be made sad if you try harder enough but also. fucking. why must it always be tragic little gays #im not complaining but also i keep fucking doing this to myself man why do i keep making myself sad over fictional gays 😭😭 #like do i just only interact with the shit that makes me sad??? do i only really get engaged with sad fics etc. for them???? #is this a me problem???? #like. um. griddlehark. destiel. hannigram (sort of). ash/eiji. satosugu. aziracrow. zukka (in certain directions). shory. aaronneil. #most of my ao3 bookmarks are me sobbing my eyes out... #OH WAIT ALSO FUCKING. REDDIE 😭😭😭😭😭 I KNEW I WAS FORGETTING SOME BUT OMG REDDIEEEE #me like what if none of the mfs had a happy ending together? what then? #like babygirl are you okay??? why do you always want to be so sad?? #oh god also fucking [REDACTED] and [REDACTED]... both of which i had to stop reading fics for bc i was making myself too sad #like genuinely there is a certain very long fic that i had to put down bc i was making myself depressed #OHMYGOD I FORGOT WANGXIAN AND BINGQIU.... honestly mdzs and svsss in general... kicking my feet 1 moment and sobbing the next #there are sooo many ships in both of those that make me so very sad... too many to remember or list atm tbh #i should go to bed 💀 lmao #it's too late for this nonsense ans i shouldn't have been watching destiel and hannigram compilations in the first place... of course im #just making myself sad...

[maggot-monger]

having diagnosable thoughts about my interior decorating choices

#i want a huge mirror for my living room #i think i want it to be round but i'm like 'what if that's [redacted]. or what if it's [redacted]. or what if it makes me seem [redacted]' #with all due respect to myself. nobody but me fucking comes in here. #who. cares.

[swanconcerto]

this is soooooo lovely with their powers

#i love 4th sonata it's second only to 5th for me #both of them are sooo vincelovely especially for reasons i cannot in goodwill state #is this not so pretty. i hope this works i had to do a lot of computery stuff to make this #NOT ME PLAYING btw i wish lol #but you know when vincent says they feel like “pure seething energy” #this piece makes me feel like that #redacted audio #redacted asmr #redacted vincent #redacted lovely #once again im talking to my niche audience of one person. myself. #but i want to post this i dont care. hello main tags hello everbody #OMG I FORGOT TO STATE #this is the pletnev recording (the best) #swan song

[copperyy]

>__>

#talk #i think i'm gonna drop all but one course this semester in order to get properly medicated #+ catch up on some Essential Life Skills that i'm missing (that most people learned in their teens ahaha) #i've gamed it out. given it ample consideration. i'd rather ruin my semester plans than ruin my overall gpa #esp. since i have to maintain a certain number to transfer out of here lmao. if that wasn't the case it'd be 'Cs get degrees babey B)' #some people can make it through college with unmedicated/unaccommodated adhd. but not me! i suck at this!! #have also learned that i actually... miss? in-person classes? at our little downtown campus?? #online classes were nice in theory but Once Again My Friends Were Right. some things should not be taken online #... man. i'm still trying to justify this to myself. the guilt of 'failing again' is eating at me #but so is trying to deal with this fuckass [subject redacted] class. worst subject + no office hours + prof won't email me back + L #+ no late work allowed. my prof last semester was right when she said i should pick someone w/ a lax late work policy lmao #... mmm. well! well well well. #my sleep schedule is so fucked. i need a passport. i want to draw again. meds. whatever. it'll be fine

[ban-joey]

sending laser beams to my professor with my mind. kenneth you said midterm grades would b up by this afternoon. it is officially TONIGHT and guess what? kenneth i would love to not be clenching my teeth in my sleep tonight. kenneth i will be sending you a bill in the mail. yes i know its probably a TAs responsibility but i blame you personally. i hate school

#i dont im having a lot of fun (genuinely) but it is often pretty stressful #did find out there are a few folks adjacent to my program doing zoonoses & climate change research so im very excited to chat w them next w #possibly directing my thesis towards one health. social epi gradually becoming less interesting #plus i think my strengths do lie in applying epi to biological concepts so. one health works there #my brain continually trying to get back to lyme disease :( sometimes i really do miss the east coast tbh! #not lying actually i think the number one thing i miss is the amt of vector borne disease research LMFAO #i do unfortunately kind of have a crush on a classmate so that's fine but whatever. grad school. men are nice to me and i lose my mind ig #need to go make out w a hot trans person i think that would solve my problems rn #but also it's nice to be so excited about someone deciding to sit next to me in every class :) #like wow how isolated have i been the last 3 years to be so delighted by like. active signs i have Officially Made Friends. #even if he does live like a block away from my dad and jokes every goddamn day like 'so i saw your dad yesterday' no you DIDNT shut UP #idk yesterday he sat right next to me in a class he usually sits w other people in and it sort of sent my brain off the edge and now im jus #yeah. sitting with this one. it's fine like it's normal. but wowie i do think it's my first time having a Big Ol Crush since (redacted) #a little scary for my animal brain i think but it's okay! #im 25 in like 3 ish weeks and i still get embarrassed about this stuff somehow? stupid. #he's just really nice and always really fun to talk to! i think i had to officially Sit With Myself today bc epi is doing a holiday party #and there's a baking contest and we were talking abt it in class and i was indecisive abt whether i want to participate #and he like fully cut me off and was like oh you should bake something so i can have some :) #and. well fuck now i have to lmao. IM SO EASY IT'S SO EMBARRASSING #good evening everyone. guess this is my journal now. anyway ken rice you owe me twenty dollars and i aim to COLLECT

[bylertruther]

WAIT i want to complain one last time before i go to bed 💙 smth smth letting the demons out so u can have sweet dreams or whatever after, u kno. ahem. anyway.

girls when their dash is dying and they don't particularly enjoy the direction fandom is headed in bc unfortunately this fandom does move and act like a hegemony / hivemind a majority of the time and the canon compliant content that they do enjoy n look forward to is scarce but it's not like they can even go back to their personal blog for the time being because succession is literally ending forever in three days and hotd is currently filming yes but the tag for 2/3 of their fave characters is literally all either a ship they hate and/or character x reader smut fics and also it's depressing as fuck and the other media content that they enjoy is equally as fucked up which means they'd have no lighthearted Love Conquers All content in their rotation which isn't exactly good and and and—

#god. #i don't want to engage with fanon i don't want to engage with aggression i don't want to engage with headcanons and interpretations #that are essentially role reversals because i actually enjoy the characters and their story as it is and want to find people that also #enjoy it and make content for it i don't want to have to go back to my personal blog because you can only consume so much #[REDACTED] things before it starts to chip away at you even if you do have a healthy social life + other hobbies i don't want to leave #because i love stranger things and i love will and i love mike and i love how they fit each other so perfectly and become the perfect team #BECAUSE of their complementary natures but i just do not see content that reflects that and i don't want to make it all myself bc #i'm not an artist and i don't share my writing publicly and i don't want to scream into the void anymore :/ #i miss when s4 was fresh in people's minds and logging in and engaging with others was fun i just . #plops down on the ground n sighs like tht picture of tht one baby raccoon sitting on the road #and when i say canon compliant content i don't mean compliant in every way i jus mean characterization rly bc lord knows literally all i #think abt and read are AUs for byIer LMAO. i just mean i like it when will is like will and mike is like mike and fandom hasn't done that #''it's homophobic to consider will as he is'' and ''mike is a weak useless femboy'' stuff tht it loves to partake in n peddle #and there are people that do want to just talk about byIer and come up with AUs and headcanons but unfortunately those ppl do not want to #do tht with me so . i love that for me 😁👍 #ok NOW i sleep 🫡

[thetimecrystal]

#gifs #the strokes #albert hammond jr #from: one chance #violence // #blood // #... why do i want him to [redacted] blood in my [redacted] (god i hate myself /j) #let's be wild tonight hell yeah #sidenote. readin g that he took some actual punches during this video shoot did not make me feel any more normal about it all #i am so sorry y'all i am feeling Weird tonight