Most fucked up thing about Asuka is that he really was trying to help. He really did love Frederick and Aria. Except instead of an awkward normal like "Oh man I fucked up on understanding normal favors and social cues and now things are weird!!" he committed real, seriously atrocious crimes against the humanity of the two people he loved the most and wiped out over half the earth's population (indirectly). He's so fucking funny. I love him so much. I hear that part of "The Gravity" that's like "As the universe turned black / did the sun ever defy fate / beyond hope do you recognize me" and like. That's about Sol. That's about how much he loves and values Sol. He fucking put himself in a synthetic body because he wanted Sol to be able to recognize him no matter what. I'm so crazy about this. He's so fucked up and sad he's like the saddest wettest cat and it's like, barely his fault he just keeps compounding fuck up onto fuck up until he finally is like "Maybe I will just go to the moon now." That's so. Fucking sad. And then in the arcade mode the clone kind of implies Asuka made him to be able to still carry on work if his abilities are needed for some future disaster, because he didn't want to neglect his responsibilities for his actions, but also wanted to kill himself for what he's done (this might be a stretch on my part but that's what I was getting from the weird arcade story he has). And above all those complex layers, he is literally just some silly little nerd. He acts like a fucking dork. I'm so ill about him.
Asuka R Kreutz commission by @dailyarturia ! Check them out, they're very cool and their art is great! Thanks for accepting my commission! Big fan of how this turned out, especially the cape and flower eye.