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copperbadge · 2 years
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Hi! I suspect this question may sound sarcastic or asshole-ish, but I promise it's sincere. And I realize that you're not a doctor, so feel free to ignore or tell me to DMOR, but you seem to have looked into this pretty extensively, so I thought you might have some thoughts. If you take ADHD meds and they work (that is, you don't feel any different but you can actually Do Things, which maybe gives you really positive feelings, which is not how you usually feel about yourself), how do you know that it's actually ADHD and not that normally you're just lazy, but now you took meth and you're hyper and euphoric or whatever it is that it does to non-ADHD people? Asking for a friend.
I...hm, layers to this one. First, thank you for offering a tone note because on the one hand, without it I definitely would have felt a bit hostile, but on the other hand it's very difficult to ask a question like this without sounding like you're trying to get a rise, when you really are just trying to get information. I'd struggle with that too. So thank you! I believe you are in earnest :)
I'm going to try to dig through this by levels rather than go through the question chronologically, that might cause the least amount of confusion and crosstalk. This is going to get long and quite rough and I’m going to address a lot of tender subjects including drug use, addiction, and self-esteem issues, so please read with care for yourselves. 
(I’ve tried to add in bolded topic headers so if you have ADHD and get bored of reading about one thing you can skip to the next!) 
So to start with -- and this isn’t particularly satisfying as an answer, but well...I know I have ADHD because I’ve been evaluated for it, twice now, and the doctors said I did. 
I fit a lot of the classic symptoms on the usual checklists, and while I’m smart enough to game those checklists, I tried to answer as honestly as I could. I wasn’t especially interested in getting Adderall for its intoxicant properties, since I’ve got plenty of access to other, arguably much easier to obtain intoxicants. I also, because I know myself to be someone who enjoys gaming tests for the game’s sake, made sure that at least one of the evaluations had cognitive tests that were harder to fuck with, like tangrams and memory tests and such. On the very top level, I know I’m medicating my ADHD because the tests say I have ADHD. 
But say we don’t trust the tests, or say I’m not as honest as I claim. On the next level down, but still quite near the surface, let's talk about "how do you know you're medicated and not high?" 
I've been in several kinds of altered state -- concussed, runner's high, stoned on weed or opiates, drunk -- and very occasionally I’ve been around people on coke or meth, though I’ve never done those myself. It's usually not difficult to tell that you are not functional on a normal level. It's difficult to describe how to someone who hasn’t experienced it, but for me being in an altered state like that is very evident. The first time I got a runner's high I was absolutely terrified because I knew something was wrong with me cognitively, but not why it had happened. When I woke up concussed, I knew immediately that something was wrong, but it was all I could do to get dressed and go across the street to a clinic, I was so fucked up. If you’re in an altered state and suddenly need to do something complicated, you're aware you would very much like not to be in that state anymore.
I've described Adderall as being like the most functional high you've ever had, but there are differences. If I've had, say, a weed edible, I feel calmer and happier and I'm also aware I'm stupid. I'm impaired and I can tell that. If I've taken an Adderall, I feel calmer and happier but not nearly to the same level, and there's no impairment to my intellect. Part of the calm is that if I think of something I need to do, I can immediately get up and do it, competently -- or I can decide not to. I control my impulses and actions. With street meth -- which I should note is much, much more potent than a low-dose Adderall -- compulsive behavior and lack of control are much more evident. Even if you are getting a lot done while on meth, you’re not necessarily in control of what, or how many times you have to do it to get it right. I'm told this is also often how people who don't have ADHD react to Adderall -- they’re not efficient as much as they are manic, particularly at stronger doses, which is why a) a good test of “do I have ADHD” is “How do I react to Adderall” and b) they start you on a super low dose.
When my psychiatrist and I meet to discuss how the medication is going, he asks me stuff like, do you feel you're in control of yourself? Are you having hallucinations? Do you find yourself craving a dose even when you know it would be detrimental? Do you feel your performance at work has improved, remained the same, or fallen? Do you find yourself able to focus but not able to control what you focus on?
On Adderall I do feel like I'm in control of myself, I do better work, and while I'm still learning to aim that focus, I am capable of doing so. I don't take it after 1pm because I know that'll fuck up my sleep schedule, and truthfully I don't want to. The one time I’ve taken Adderall after 3pm was because I was going to an art museum and I wanted to see how that would alter my experience, being able to focus more fully on the art and the person I was going with. And while I did have a great time, I wouldn’t make a habit of either taking the drug late in the day or taking it purely so I could have An Experience while on it. It’s fine, it’s fun, but it’s not so much fun I’m willing to mess with my sleep over it. 
I also have zero desire to drink (for the best, given alcohol and stimulants are a no-no) and a much decreased desire to get high. I don't need to self-medicate because I am actually medicated. I wasn't doing a shitload of self-medication before, but I was undoubtedly doing some, and more during the pandemic, and I can see how it would have become unhealthy had I continued. Do I still occasionally take an edible in the evening to unwind? Yes. Do I do it at the level I was doing it earlier this year? Fuck no. And I take half the amount I used to when I do, making sure I’m doing it well after any Adderall has worn off.
The question of "medicated or high" can still be a little difficult. What I said above is also what a lot of addicts say. They believe they are in control, they are better when they're on their intoxicant of choice, etc etc. "I can stop anytime I want" is like, the number one way to quietly tell someone that you, in fact, can't. Addiction's simplest definition is "loss of control over behavior" and addicts will do a lot to convince you that they haven't lost control over their behavior. (For more on this, Caustic Soda has a great episode about addiction in which Dr. Rob discusses how addiction and physical dependence differ.) All I can really say in response to this is that Adderall improves my quality of life in ways external to my emotional state -- yes, it helps emotionally, but that’s small potatoes compared to say, weed or opioids (opioids -- now there’s a drug I could get into trouble over) and weed’s way easier to get these days than Adderall. Weed does not, however, help me cook healthful meals and clean the bathroom. Adderall does.
So let's talk about the deepest part of this -- "How do you know you're not just lazy?"
Increasingly we are coming to an understanding of human behavior that informs us that laziness doesn't exist. What we think of as laziness can be caused by a number of factors: failure of executive function, fear of failure, exhaustion, avoidance of the unpleasant. Humans want to experience pleasure, it's a fairly strong primal drive, and we do not experience pleasure purely through inaction. If you should be doing something but aren't, that's not pleasurable, it’s stressful and boring. Lots of people will tell you “I fucking love to sleep, sleep is the best thing” and I’m sure they truly feel that way, but it’s not because they’re lazy, it’s because they have a sleep debt they’re banking against or paying back. There’s a lot of debate about laziness right now, but even as I refer to myself as one of the laziest people on the planet, I know laziness doesn’t exist in the way we conceive of it. When I call myself lazy, I’m using it as shorthand to say “I will find the most low-energy way to achieve something.” Because I am tired, because I have ADHD. (And also because I’m not twenty anymore.)
With exquisite timing, @thebibliosphere has very recently written an essay on this situation called “But You’re So Successful Without It”. Joy can’t take any of the medications available for ADHD, and the essay talks about what it feels like to have ADHD and to burn out because of it, which is where I was about to hit earlier this year. There is no way to call Joy lazy and absolutely no way to hear what she has to say and think that she would choose to go through what she has if she had an alternative. Nobody with any compassion would force her to. 
And here’s how I know I am not actually lazy: like Joy, I want to be doing the thing. If I need to do dishes and laundry so I’m not eating with my hands and wearing smelly clothing, but I’m not doing them, that’s not laziness. I know that my life is less pleasurable, indeed very unpleasant, if I don’t do those things. If I’m still incapable of doing them, it’s not because I Don’t Wanna. It’s because I am too tired, because I don’t feel like I can deal with unpleasant sensations on top of forcing myself to do something, or because my executive function isn’t functioning. If you aren’t doing something you should be doing, there’s usually a reason beyond “I’m just lazy” and it’s helpful, in breaking out of the mindset of “I’m a lazy (and therefore bad) person”, to ask yourself why. 
If there’s a reason you’re not doing it, even if that reason is simply “I’m so tired”, then you’re not lazy. You’re tired. If it’s because it’s unpleasant, then you’re not lazy, you’re avoiding pain. If you want to and just simply can’t, you’re dealing with a loss of executive function. 
Sometimes there are nonmedical workarounds. I wear gloves to do the dishes, I bought a cordless stick vac so my back wouldn’t hurt because I was constantly holding the vacuum cord in one hand, I blast podcasts when I’m doing something boring so my mind is elsewhere. I used to run at 3am because at any other time I was too fucking tired and I hate being out in public around strangers.
But, well, the best workaround for wonky executive function for me is Adderall. It’s not for everyone, it’s not an option for some, but for me it is one more tool -- admittedly a pretty spectacular one -- to manage a difficult life. 
All that said, the idea of being a Bad Person for Not Doing A Thing is a knot that it takes a long time to unpick. It is very freeing, and certainly less stressful, to both acknowledge that some things are beyond us, and receive help that brings them back into the realm of our ability to do. But it’s a process, and nobody can hustle anyone down that path faster than they are capable of going. So, all I can do is offer my personal experience. 
Even if this shit does kill me eventually, I’d rather have thirty more years where I am the person I’ve been in the last two months, than have fifty more years where I am the person I was in 2021. And even if I eventually have to go off it, what I’ve learned will help me not to hurt myself for something beyond my control. 
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aechii · 10 months
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₍⁠₍ SPEAK NO EViL ₎⁠₎ ~ CH. 3
[ a kylian mbappe series ]
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SYNOPSiS ! it's summer break, where, yes, academic freedom ensues, but for stellar, upcoming young football stars, an unmissable opportunity springs. bondy elite summer academy prepares its youth for the professional world, and inevitably, everybody is hungry to succeed. girl or boy. life isn't kind to 18 year old kylian mbappe, and being mute seems to be a limiting factor of his progress. but once he's accepted into the football camp, he's determined to prove that his football speaks for itself. yet, in the midst of fatal determination and apathetic competitiveness, he doesn't expect to grow intrigue for [y/n], a profound player in the camp's feminine unit, whose kindness and exquisite skill awakens a visceral feeling within kylian, showing him someone else that he could love in a world filled with hate.
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PAiRiNG ! mute!kylian x fem!reader | fem!reader x oc!boyfriend
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A/N !  chapter 3 everybody!! make some noise!!!!! this one is a little bit shorter than 1 & 2 and i blame the me that was planning the chapters. it's not very content heavy, but is rather more of a deep dive into the ropes of kylian and brice's friendship (think, mental commentary because i be thinking a lot, and kylian must do that also!). once again, bromance is bromancing, and someway somehow, i've spontaneously added a, rather unprovoked, 'one sided enemy-esque' plot, but dw, it dies just as quick as it takes its first breath. anyways this is getting long now. ENJOY 🤍
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SERiES MASTERLiST ! here!
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TAGLiST ! [ ask here , those in bold i couldn't tag] @sad1esgf @ts1mp0ne @fezlvr @ippid @kyksgirl @user6373738 @kenjekwownwjn @lalunaenamoradasworld @mywhimsyjournal @imagesthatlive @heli991113 @cinderellawithashoe @milfs4lifee
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the condemnation kylian had faced just hours prior to the rise of the evening had him sinking in humiliation. although zion was present also, receiving the brunt of coach moreau’s harsh reprimand, it was undeniable that his malice was directed towards him specifically, and frankly speaking, kylian has had enough of hearing football ethics. he’s not stupid, nor disrespectful, no matter how much coach moreau makes it seem like he is by reminding him that the sport was to be ‘played as a team’. 
kylian can take constructive criticism. it’s woven between the foundation of his love for football, but what he cannot tolerate is expecting to take responsibility for a crime he did not commit. it’s a reality check, to be entirely honest. all he just can’t do is speak– rather, he can’t speak, and it’s the dimming aspect of his attributes. coach moreau had made it clear, even if it was disguised as a mutual warning for both him and zion, that he’s at a disadvantage here. lack of verbal communication is detrimental to a team, especially in one of such high calibre, and to prove that he’s worth the chance- the referral- his efforts have to exceed the others. 
he had prepared himself for this, but with someone already tugging at his nerves, he’s succumbing to his frustrations. 
“it’s been a day.”
brice and kylian made the impulsive decision to hang out in their room for dinner hour instead of in the canteen. the presence of the aforementioned aggressor seemed to anger brice more than kylian himself, and kylian needs to avoid any more confrontations for as long as he can. they had snuck in a meal of burger and chips- which did surprise them as bondy gave them the impression that strict diet rules are a given- and are wasting their time in front of the mounted television that plays a random match from an english league. they both don't care to know which one, though. 
“that’s quite the understatement,” kylian signs in response, fingers sticky with grease. the aftermath of the day’s events has him utterly emotionally displaced, and words have frozen in his brain. 
“zion’s fucking pissing me off, and it’s only the first day,” kylian adds. his hands goes for another chip, realises there’s none left, and deflates as he puddles into the sofa. brice takes a bite out of his burger before signing, “you have to learn to take your advice, you know.”
kylian looks at him dubiously, and brice speaks after he swallows, “how you retaliated earlier; you're just proving their point.”
"about what? it wasn't even my fault."
"but retrospectively, and in their close minded eyes, it is. and you just seem more incompetent to them the more you fight back."
his friend huffs and looks away. kylian knows that brice bears the truth, but everytime his mind rewinds and replays the words that hit like lightning bullets, his fists clench just like they had done earlier before he was stopped. his temper is short, can never endure more than two seconds of aggravation, and it sucks because the only way he can release it is physically. 
he fucking hates it, because his status quo has been thrown below everyone else's, and the more he attempts to climb, the lower his chances sink. the guilty is seen as innocent and vice versa, and sometimes he just wonders why his heart had chosen this godforsaken sport.
brice swims past his silence, and continues, “he irked you, yes, but remember what you told me coach moreau said. it insinuates something."
he knows that kylian would hate what he's about to say, but he'd rather his best friend be in the know, than lack thereof. he's read between the lines, yet kylian, still high on whatever hybrid of emotion broods inside him, hasn't.  
"from what i gather, bondy didn’t choose you because they wanted you, but because they see, somewhat, potential, and they’ll drop you in the blink of an eye if you don’t reach the level they want you to be at.”
that fucking hurt. 
“don’t look like that.”
“like what?”
“depressed,” brice walks over to the bin and dumps the empty styrofoam container in, “i’m pretty sure what i said applies to every kid here; and all i’m trying to tell you is that you need to try harder. fighting everybody, no matter how sick in the head they are, isn’t going to help you at all. and i know you’re better than that.”
he leaves it at that, striding back to his seat before flicking through channels to find something else to watch. settles on a game show that appears mildly interesting enough to be background noise for the time being. 
“he called me a freak, you know.”
it’s gratifying, hearing kylian’s voice after hours of not, radiating so much confusion and hurt. his sentence goes hand in hand with a disbelieving scoff, and if the other boy didn't know him that well, he'd think he was more vexed than pained. brice stares at him, bubbling with a myriad of unnameable feelings, yet still overrun by white hot fury.
“different and weird, maybe i can accept. but freak? i haven’t heard that since, what, 6th, 7th grade?”
“because you’re not. i swear- i’ll actually do a number on the guy.”
kylian shakes his head, “no, you won’t. remember what you said.”
“i do. but your chance here matters more than mine, and if the last thing i do here before being kicked out is defend you, then so be it.”
kylians face crumples, "your chance here matters just as much as mine."
"to you, yeah. but to me, i want you to succeed more. and i'll do everything in my power for that to happen, you just have to cooperate."
his words hit kylian hard, and the aftershock leaves numbing tingles everywhere. he shifts on the settee to face the tv more and for a moment, the program flashing bright light into subtly illuminated room seems more interesting.  
"why are you here then, if you don't care that much about your place?"
"i didn't say that i don't care, i'm just… prioritising yours," brice reiterates with a small smile. kylian doesn't like what he hears, and shakes his head. 
"why, brice? you don’t need to do all of that, you’re being stupid- irrational." he doesn’t mean to be harsh, but brice’s excuse nauseates kylian and his mind paints bright red question marks.
brice stares at him, it's not intense, but rather thoughtful. he looks away, "don't worry about it."
his sentence stands with determined finality, and kylian, too troubled by his friend's words, doesn't retort back. he thinks, and thinks, and reaches conclusions that he knows results from too much overthinking, but there’s nothing else that it can conjure. his inhibitions draw upon his face, and it causes brice to lean towards him, poking his temple.
“what ‘you pondering about?”
“nothing, nothing,” kylian replies. he puts on a fake grin, hoping that it’s enough to deceive his friend. brice looks sceptical, but lets it go with a submitting hum. they’re submerged into noiselessness once again; it’s wholly unlike them, by canon, every inch of space should be filled with obnoxious quarrels, but kylian places the blame on neither of them. for it’s tension, of one mistake unravelling everything, of fraying their friendship because of a sport that wasn’t when they were.
kylian despises dissimilarity, and so, brings up the one thing he had noticed earlier that would inject some humour into the sunken mood. 
“azali, right?”
kylian swears he witnesses brice get whiplash in live time with how rapid and vehement his head turns toward him, and it pushes a cackle out of him.
“it is her!”
brice doesn’t blush, his skin too melanated for it to be noticeable, but he evidently feels his cheeks heat up as he goes to touch them inquisitively. he’s startled by its unusual rise in temperature, pulling his training jacket over his face to hide himself from kylian, who still hasn’t stopped laughing at his antics.
“what are you hiding? your interest towards her? you could barely do that if i noticed,” kylian’s tone is inherently taunting, and brice chucks a pillow at his head.
“that doesn’t mean anything! you’re just… observant.”
kylian tuts as his eyebrow rises, “excuses.”
he couldn’t blame his friend’s untimely engrossment with the girl. she completely emanates quiet talent, barely speaking in the little time the boys and girls had been with each other, yet it is clear that she’s hyper aware of herself as a player. 
"you came here to get a referral, not get a girl," kylian chides, and brice shoots back, "and you came here to get a referral, not get into fights."
there's nothing kylian can say to that, for there's nothing untrue in brice's reply, and so he relents, "fair enough."
brice swivels in his seat, dumping a pillow in his lap, "you can't lie tho— she's pretty."
"well," kylian shrugs, "you're interested in her, and i'll feel awkward thinking the same way as you do."
brice purses his lips and says, "understandable," before smirking, "what about you? got your eye on anybody yet?"
kylian is rather half surprised that brice would think he has. he's never been the one to have crushes, maybe out of fear, or sheer commitment to football, and he's confused as to why brice would think he's now had a change of heart. 
"uh no?"
"really? there are some pretty girls in our faction," brice states as if it's a matter of fact. 
"and that's not my main focus," kylian shuts him down, glancing at the clock. their dinner break is 8 minutes from over and if they're to get to their parlour, which is all the way at north wing- before coach moreau, it's about time they leave. 
"we need to go," kylian says. brice checks the time for himself, and his jaw falls ajar, "already?"
kylian arises from his seat, "it really is only an hour-and-a-half long dinner." 
he goes into his room in search for his lanyard. looks on his bed, and its bedside table and underneath those, but it's absolutely nowhere. 
he immediately rushes out in a panic, interrogating his friend, "brice, have you seen my lanyard? i can't find it anywhere."
brice doesn't respond, and gives him a deadpanned look, "it's on your neck, kylian."
he glances downward and notices the gold ribbon dancing from his frantic movement. he tugs it sheepishly as if to check that it's really there, "oh."
"yeah, oh."
+_-
"-overall, we're highly impressed by the level of skill we've seen today. you all show that you can get to the top, but it's a matter of which 6 will excel and reach there first.”
coach moreau has gathered all 20 of them in the elite parlour, for a, what he calls, ‘end of day reflection’. side by side, both him and coach lambert stand before the group, arms crossed. they survey the teenage prospects, see the determination etched on every one of them, and conclude that this year's cohort is probably the most promising they've ever seen. 
coach lambert continues, "tomorrow is another day of training. don't expect anything, from now onwards, to be as easy as it was today because you're all here to push yourselves, am i clear?"
sounds and nods of affirmatives follow, and both coaches smile. moreau claps twice, untangling his arms, "alright, you all can relax now. curfew is at 9pm sharp, and i do not expect anyone to still be in any of the rooms when i come to check, yes?"
a collective 'yes coach' comes from the teens, and he gives them the all clear to disperse. brice leans into kylian, "i saw a table football in one of the leisure rooms, let's go there?"
his friend shrugs and nods, "yeah why not? i'll beat you, though." his signs are still mildly discreet and wary. 
"you'll beat me? over my dead body."
they walk into the room, it's quite large, corners dotted with settees of all sizes (and, by proxy, dark blue) and it's occupied with everything: from air hockey to table tennis, with an unexpected, basketball hoop game. it's rather an arcade, is what flows through kylian's mind. 
"you ready?" kylian smirks as he stands on one side with brice on the other. 
brice rolls his eyes and starts turning the metal bar, "get on with it kylian."
the first two rounds are completely chaotic as kylian, habitually, accuses brice of cheating, demanding head starts which don't end up proving to be useful. 
"i'm just going easy on you," kylian sulks. brice looks at him questioningly, "i thought you just said i was cheating?"
within the few seconds kylian loses concentration, the ball slides into brice's possession, and he quickly takes advantage of the opportunity, shooting the plastic sphere into the goal. 
"3-0!" brice exuberates as kylian huffs, dejected. 
"i'll get you back- character redemption arc," kylian strikes back, but brice just snickers. 
"yeah, right."
before another game could start, three girls walk over to them one of which both boys could recognise from her distinctive hairstyle and brice's every-living interest. his face palpably brightens with a smile kylian has never seen on his face before, and its makes him internally scoff. 
another of the girls, who kylian distastefully recognises as zion's girlfriend, steps forward, albeit rather hesitantly. he barely has an impression of her, yet rules her discriminatory by association, and has told brice his thoughts, too. it's senseless, he knows, but with an asshole as big as her boyfriend, it's hard to believe they're not akin in mentality. 
"sorry if it's a bother, but can we play with you?"
kylian so badly wants to say no out of spite. god knows what she's truly thinking, and he'd rather steer clear of her radar. but brice, the puppy lover he is, beat him to it. 
"yes, of course!" he rushes to the side to give the girls space. 
zion's girlfriend (he doesn't care to remember her name) smiles at the both of them, then signs, "sorry."
kylian and brice look at each other confused, but kylian is the first to realise her actual intention and grins. 
"thank you,"he corrects, putting the tips of his fingers on his mouth then pushing his hand outwards. 
"oh!" the girl smiles apologetically, flustered, "i'm sorry, i hope i didn't offend you or anything." 
"no, no, you're good." kylian takes it as she understands when her eyes relax from their furrow. 
"i'm still learning, you see," the girl adds
brice is bewildered. it's not often they come across someone their age willing to learn sign language.
"you are?"
"yeah!" she moves to stand where kylian had prior, "i've always wanted to, but only started a few weeks ago."
brice shoots his friend a knowing look, one that says, 'see?' and kylian fights back a smile. brice smugly signs, "she's not as bad as you thought, huh?"
kylian flips him off, "shut up."
and if brice notices how kylian's gestures suddenly begin to fill with their usual gusto, he doesn't say a thing. 
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The Big Four’s Zodiac Sign+ My Headcanons
OKay so y'all have no idea who I am- because I made this account 2 years ago lol But, I work with like, astrology,, for purposes,,, IRL. Anyways, this boils down to ''I am familiar with astrology and here are my best guesses for our beloved blorbo group xoxo'
The dates are as official as they go, I'm using their fandom wikis or their creator's hints for the dates! AND I'm including their moon and rising signs for the heck of it. But all in all, this is just my headcanons, so like do what ye will of this—
Plus some alternative sign vibes
Rapunzel - Taurus (May 12) ♋+♌
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Her character traits are spirited, smart, clever, kind, playful, and adventurous.
Tauruses are known to be Loyal, Hardworking and Generous. Traits that Rapunzel represents quite well. You might recognize her a little less in negative traits: Jealous, Materialistic and Selfish; However this is where our second sign comes in... I believe Rapunzel's moon sign would be Cancer: Making her negative and emotional traits go moreside along the lines of Pessimistic, Aggressive, Possessive. As far as first impressions go, you might mistake her for a Leo! She stays loyal to herself and comes off as a true romantic, her confidence is natural. Other signs that represent her: Aquarius & Pisces
Jack Frost - Sagittarius (November 22) ♏+♈
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His character traits are fun-loving, lighthearted, high-spirited, rebellious, wise-cracking, and mischievous trickster.
Jack was confirmed by his creator to be a Sagittarius over Twitter some years ago. His main traits are Friendly, Optimistic and Reckless, he can also be immature or boastful. However, you'll find that his ambitious and sometimes Intense as well. I favour his moon would be Scorpio, a secretive and compulsive sign under it all. And the rising? Up to no surprise, Aries is the symbol of all hot-headed characters, even under his cool temper, Jack is Dynamic, warm and independent. All in all, the goof guy and local cool kid jack is a mix of water and fire signs, man really has got a sauna for a personality lol
Jack gets no other signs of choice cuz Sag is just perfect for him, it would make him likely a December baby so like rebirth or whatever I like the concept
Merida - Aquarius (February 12) ♈+♐
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Her character traits are bold, brave, daring, courageous, stubborn, rebellious, and headstrong.
Logical, Social, and Rebellious: Those are the three main traits that encapsulate Merida. As an Aquarius, innovation is no news to her. She's the reason things change around her. Her moon is in Aries, along her fiery hair, she's got fiery spirits, so you might find her brash, impulsive or impatient. Under that though... there's more fire. At first glance, you might take her for a Sagittarius. Honest and friendly, and characteristically non-judgemnetal.p
Mer could also be Taurus or a Capricorn if you look at it in a very perched up angle?
Hiccup - Pisces (February 29) ♓️+♑️
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His character traits are witty, sarcastic, well-spoken but shy, reserved, smart, kind, progressive, compassionate, empathy.
Hiccup's traits have evolved over the years (and movies) but to the core, Hiccup is a kind person who resonates real well with the sign of Pisces, a sign that represents the compassion, emotional presence and empathy of his personality. On other levels, we find more serious details in his character, those brought likely from a Capricorn moon. The sarcasm, pessimism and whatnot comes from that emotional inner moon. Oh finally, his rising sign is absolutely Virgo.
I think we can pin him down as Virgo or Taurus if not in Pisces, but that’s just me
Ngl imo the only one with a possible different sign is Raps but the others are pretty solid if I say so myself!
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legendofzoodles · 2 years
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LU Character Design Analysis 1
The incredible designs for each of the heroes was the first thing that sold me on this story and concept. I love analysing things in stories and character design is something I haven’t talked about yet. I got this idea from watching character design analysis videos on youtube, and those creators sometimes put the designs into a tier list. So I thought I’d do that with the LU designs.
I’m going to rank them based off of aesthetic, (i.e. how good the character looks and how well the colours and textures go together), how well the represent the character and how practical the garb would be for the kind of travel and environments in LU- which will be mostly my opinion so take each placement with a side of salt. I’m not an expert on this stuff, but I’ve seen a few videos on colour theory and stuff like that, so I’m going to try my best at applying that here.
Onto the list! Starting with...
9th place: Wild 
I’m sorry but there has to be a last place, and for me that goes to Wild. There’s a lot you could do with a redesign of his character, although it’s impossible to mix in every aspect. That being the polished knight aesthetic, the wild survivalist thing he’s always had going on and ancient Sheikah aesthetic- maybe some Zora and Zonai stuff too. 
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Pros: I love the long ponytail, aesthetically it looks great and it gives the impression that he is somewhat of a rebel, which would reflect his unpopular opinion of the Master Sword and King of Hyrule. Long hair can also act as a shield that symbolizes a lack of maturity or toughness. Wild is as tough as old boots- he is a survivalist after all, but as shown numerous times in the comic he does lack maturity, often acting childish and impulsive. 
I will point out that while it is a bit of a shame that the hair is so long because the shorter hair made a similar silhouette to the one the pointed cap made, at the same time it makes sense. The cap is part of the hero’s garbs right? But Wild feels like a screw up, he doesn’t believe himself worthy and therefore still feels like he needs to redeem himself more before he can proudly carry that title.  
I love that he’s still wearing the champion’s tunic. I feel like it would hold a lot of importance to him, as it’s a tether to his past self, so he’d worry about making sure it doesn’t get damaged. I feel like in BoTW he wouldn’t have worn it much only when speaking to leaders or those who knew him 100 years ago. He’d wear it all the time around Zelda, as a sort of visual representation of his duty but also to help show that he’s still the same person deep down.
I also really like that he’s wearing the amber earrings, not only because they’re my personal favourite but also it’s a nice nod to the colours of the ancient Sheikah who’s technology played a large role in BoTW. 
The guardian scars are well placed too, having them be primarily on one side makes them easy to keep track of. Plus they’re bold and distinct, one of the first things someone’s gonna notice when they see him. The fact that they stand out so much and can’t easily be hidden reflects how Wild can’t hide from his past and has to constantly pick up the scattered pieces of his lost identity. His body is broken and torn like his sense of self, and while those cracks will never quite be the same they can be healed with time. 
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Cons: Gonna be honest, the dark and light blues of his tunic aren’t really doing it for me. It doesn’t show me that he’s an accomplished knight travelling with the princess, because to me it looks a little like he’s the court jester who happens to train with a sword. 
From a character standpoint it could symbolize how much he relies on others (especially Zelda who’s royal dress is that same dark blue) to validate his identity, hence creating a mismatched and stitched together sort of self image- like a mosaic of different people’s expectations and opinions. But to me the two-toned colour scheme doesn’t look very good visually and it doesn’t look very ‘put together’, which I assume is how Wild wants to present himself. Besides, I think the scars do a great job of representing all that on their own. 
I do like the style though, the flared sleeves and tunic make him look a little more androgynous, which is I think is one of the best parts about his look from BoTW.
Keeping the hooded cape was a great design choice. Although keeping it short would’ve been much more practical and shown that he still has to do some learning and growing as a person.
I’m a little conflicted by the fact that he’s not wearing any armour or chainmail. On one hand it keeps the essence of his original design from the game and helps him stand out amongst those in the chain wearing chainmail, but at the same time I feel like he would. 
He’s been through many near death experiences, if he wouldn’t slap on a bit of chainmail or some metal arm guards for himself, he’d surely do it to put the mind’s of the people he cares about at ease. 
...but maybe it would be better to keep his armour as just tough leather which would help him look like a survivalist, but at the same time I like the thought of it being polished metal, but at the same same time I kinda want it to be modified ancient Sheikah material. Like I said, I’m conflicted. 
Wishlist: There’s no such thing as the perfect design, but if I could add anything I’d give him a little more of an ancient Sheikah motif. The orange flaps on his boots don’t look right to me. I get that they’re there to balance out the orange in his earrings and arm guards, but I’d like it if it were maybe on the very bottom, or as laces or as little stellar constellation patterns like the ones in the shrines. Those patterns could also maybe be on his quiver or painted on a shield. 
I don’t like that the trousers and undershirt are the same colour. I get that they have to be light coloured as too not blend in with the hooded cape, but if it were shorter, his trousers could be a darker. 
Ok so, I once saw AoC Link fanart where the artist put the champion’s tunic over the Zora armour, and other than making me gush about how sweet it was, it also made me realise that a dark blue undershirt would go great with the tunic. Since Mipha is dead in BoTW, it wouldn’t really make sense for Wild to have any Zora motifs in his design (unless you ship him with Sidon I suppose)- but that undershirt could also have some ancient Sheikah inspired patterns on it. That could maybe be echoed on his trousers too. Also, instead of having ancient Sheikah armour- which is bulky and can look strange- have it be metallic knight’s armour/or leather and keep the Sheikah elements strictly on the clothes and colour placement. 
Last minute thought here but hear me out: what if Wild wore turquoise? A mix of the traditional hero colour and the colour of the Champions. Just putting it out there. Maybe he can wear a turquoise tunic, or cloak or scarf once he fully grows up into a competent and confident adult at peace with both duties. 
Btw, all that being said I do like this design for what it is. 
Score:
Aesthetic and visual score (/10): 4 Character representation score (/5): 3  Practicality score (/5): 3  Total (/20): 10
I didn’t mean to score him low, I had to set a precedent for the others to follow. But this doesn’t mean I think his design is bad, it’s good, I just think it’s the weakest compared to the others. 
Sorry I had to give 8th place it’s own post, cuz this was too long:
See 8th place here
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Thanks for reading! What modifications would you make to their designs? And do you agree with me or not? I’d love to know :)
Masterlist
Relevant character analysis/rant posts:
Hero of the Sky, Hero of Time, Hero of Twilight, Hero of the Wild, Hero of Warriors
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I have one for a reading! Would he ever consider being the third person in a relationship? He did say in an interview that he’s loyal and that goes both ways, so my guess is not. But still.. for example, while the idea of a secret affair does sound exciting, I would never do such thing because it’s against my principles as a human being.
Hello! I asked your question directly and the cards showed me some curious conflicting emotions. The Major Arcana were The Lovers, The Emperor and The Fool.
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So, The Lovers in this context is a card of choice. Pedro might believe the person should choose and he should choose, not just keep both (unless they all agreed with an open relationship or a throuple, which previous readings indicated he would probably not be willing to accept), and all three of them should consider what they want and what they would decide and they should balance their options and make a decision. Love is a choice. Then, The Emperor points to Pedro possibly preferring a more stable and “traditional” relationship in a sense that they should have rules and these rules should be followed. He did say he is not into conventional dating, but this card is more about choosing a way of functioning and sticking to it. In this case it’s not even about emotions, but about doing things in an honest way. However, The Fool comes up with a different energy. He is bold, adventurous, he is ready to go on a new journey, to dare and take a leap of faith. So THAT could be representing some kind of “temptation” to him as his impulsive fiery aries energy (the beginner, the trailblazer) could even make him consider being the “third one”.
The Minor Arcana were the Queen of Cups reversed, 3 of Swords reversed and 8 of Wands. Queen of Cups reversed with The Lovers shows us he might think choosing to be the third one or to have a third one in a relationship (as in cheating) is very selfish and can cause a lot of emotional turmoil, adding to that a lot of bottling up of emotions. The 3 of Swords reversed with The Emperor means he could choose a more “honest” and structured relationship because he might have been through some trouble and heartbreak because of that. He might have experienced some painful loss in a similar situation and he is still with a band-aid on, healing and not wanting to go downhill again. The 8 of Wands with The Fool is that conflicting energy that points to him considering being the third, being impulsive, in a quick and fiery shift of emotions that take over him and tempt him to take the leap. BUT this could also mean it would just be an impulse, a quick moment of doubt, and he would possibly not go forward with it.
So all in all, he knows it’s not right, he doesn’t want to do it, but he would potentially be tempted by it at some point, even if he didn’t actually act on it. As The Lovers show, all of this is a choice, though. He can choose not to, even being tempted, and he will most likely choose to not do it.
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catsofemma · 8 months
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in 2021, i stated some unofficial birthdays for the lego friends since i’ve never been able to find official birthdays for them
(can anyone tell me if they exist? like even in the OG in the encyclopedia?)
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i set mine based on zodiac sign hesdcanons
- stephanie as an aries because she’s hot headed, determined, fiery, impulsive, adventurous, competitive, ambitious
- mia as a taurus because she’s stubborn, generous, understanding, devoted, natural, loyal
- andrea as a leo because she’s bold, leader energy, dominant, blunt/honest, passionate
- emma as a pisces because she’s creative, empathetic, romantic, intuitive, emotional
- olivia as a virgo because she’s logical, observant, kind, analytical, intelligent, judgmental
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msookyspooky · 2 years
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As an astrology bitch that has everyones charts; My HC on Severen's big 6 in his birth chart.
(Please don't be like THAT'S NOT HOW I AM AND I HAVE A LEO MOON! bc your chart is a recipe and those signs are ingredients. Chocolate and marshmallows together are going to be different than say marshmallows and yams. So a Leo Moon with a Capricorn sun is different than someone with a Gemini Sun and Leo Moon...Okay? Okay!)
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Taurus Rising
Partially since Bill is a Taurus Sun and you can tell. They have the wide chiseled jaw, wider bodies and faces, thicker necks, wide shoulders that kind of taper as opposed to Sagittarius that have sharper angles, I cannot stress this enough; *puppy dog eyes* and prominent cheekbones that come with a Taurus Rising or Sun but especially Rising. No idea what Bill's Ascendant is but if it's Taurus it wouldn't surprise me bc even tho the sun and moon help contribute to appearance and demeanor; the Ascendant is key...And combined with the obvious Taurus physical traits, Severen gives off idgaf intimidating Earth vibes when he's not talking. Just look at him in the camper when Caleb was asleep. Fire Risings are warm, Water Risings are reserved but sweet in disposition, Air Signs are friendly but not as warm as Fire Signs, Earth Rising signs are quiet and aloof. He just gives that vibe when he's (rarely) not talking.
Leo Sun
Confidence out the roof. The Sun is what we strive to be/our essence. He's Proud, Bold, Confident, takes up space and does not care who likes it. They love playing more than Leo Moons too in my experience. This sign really shines in the Sun placement. They walk in and command a room. While a Leo Moon is more interpersonal and warm with close friends, a Leo sun is THERE. Severen is cracking jokes with anyone, making grand gestures and kicking the door down to let everyone know he's arrived. Look how he entered that bar and loudly insulted everyone; that is the most Leo Sun thing I've ever seen especially if he has a Fire Moon.
Aries Moon
Your sun is like your ideas and your being while the moon is your emotions and reactions. Aries Suns are confident but they're content being still, working on goals and are fine being alone more often. An Aries Moon is wild, LOUD, uncontrollable, stubborn, craves social interaction, rebels just for the sake of it. SEVEREN, SEVEREN, SEVEREN. Someone described an Aries Sun as a trained soldier vs an Aries Moon being an Outlaw in the Wild West and that sums it up perfectly! I will NOT budge on him being an Aries Moon. NEVER.
Sagittarius Mercury
Goofiest mfers. They are funny af! But sometimes funny in a mean way that's 'damn bro' bc that's so fucking mean. No filter...None whatsoever that rubs some ppl the wrong way. Some would describe it as immature and at times. Will probably tell everyone your secrets. I'm js. They just blurt shit out without thinking and that includes what you tell them in confidence. Honest to a default when it comes to opinions on things even if it's tactless. Great story tellers too. How energetic Severen is when he speaks, how he likes to rehash old stories like the Chicago fire, him telling the joke about Buffalo Bill in the bar out of no where, his extremely blunt nature. He is a Sagittarius Mercury that's made even funnier and more entertaining by his Aries Moon and Leo Sun. Very go big or go home energy with everything they do.
Aries Mars
Mars is your passions. He is hot tempered, impulsive, takes action right away, has hardly any fear even from the sun despite it hurting him, they like shit said straight away no diplomacy or beating around the bush. Hot tempered but just as easy to forgive and forget bc they get it all out in the open the minute they're pissed off. He wanted to rip Caleb apart, and the night after that, gave him his spur for doing a good job the night before. Water under the bridge! Then wanted to rip him apart again bc of him betraying them. But I can guarantee you if Homer wouldn't have wanted Sarah, Caleb would have came back, returned the spur as a sign of respect and Jesse allowed it; he'd get over it just as quickly if not sooner than everyone else unlike say...Homer who sits there and holds grudges. Severen could care less about holding grudges....And Sex? Primal, rough, loves a challenge, spontaneous. They can flip from being madly in lust to bored very easily but when he's in lust with you? DAMN that man wants you BAD. Expect to be shoved against a wall the minute you spark something in him. The most instinctively sexual placement. Like, they are all about the dirty animalistic side of sex...Did I mention they tend to have a corruption kink and love bratty subs for the challenge? SEVEREN.
Scorpio Venus
This may be surprising but as a Scorpio Venus, I know another Scorpio Venus when I see one. We don't trust ppl easily, we don't open up easily but when we do like you? OMG. We are extremely protective, possesive and loyal to you and depending on the other placements it can be jealous and obsessive as well. It is one of the most loyal signs in Venus but also the most toxic. You can tell he doesn't accept newcomers easily, look how he was with Caleb. And the ones he does accept and care about; he'll put his life on the line for them without a second thought. In Near Dark, he is constantly putting himself in the crossfire for his Clan. He'd be the same way with a S/O. It would take him a VERY long time to romantically trust a partner. Sex? Sure. That's the Mars sign. But telling them his secrets and being exclusive? It's gonna take a while as a Scorpio Venus. KINGS AND QUEENS OF SLOW BURN LMFAO. We also don't hyperfocus on relationships (As we see with him in the movie. He doesnt have a partner and doesn't seem to care) bc either we're all in or we're all out. We expect the same of a partner; either you are in love and passionate towards us or we're moving on. With him having an Aries Mars, he either ignores you or love bombs you for sure. It wouldn't shock me if you tell him a secret about yourself or open up to him and he is falling for you hard...I'm not saying your secrets safe with him but he would appreciate the gesture.
We tend to think Venus is only romantic relationships but that's not true. It's your love language and how you are in ALL relationships. Family, friends, lovers etc. It's also your sense of style (And some say what you want in a female partner but I don't focus on male vs female aspects in astrology like that. I think Venus is what you look for in any partner. Period.) Speaking of style. We like black, leather, lace alternative style. What Severen wears is my ideal style for a man as a Scorpio Venus and I tend to wear alternative styles as well. I hate to say this but if Im JUST STARTING to like a guy that dresses in alt clothing and I see him change into a Hawaiian polo shirt or urban style I get the ick 😭 I feel so bad but we are so attracted to alternative looks and ppl and I can GUARANTEE Severen is the same way. If he saw an alternative woman (Or man or nonbinary he gives bi vibes) walk by him he'd be checking her out and making a move for something other than feeding... But like I said, romantically it'll take some time to gain that trust and passion he has. But when you do? Think Gomez and Morticia. Dark, passionate, protectivly possesive, obsessed and enraptured with each other. Severen wouldn't be able to keep his hands off a partner and would want to be apart of their life in every way he can. 🖤
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Chimes of Freedom
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Three years ago I did an oral history of Orbital's "Chime" for MOJO. This is it...
Paul Hartnoll: From the age of 13 I was in school bands and local bands in Sevenoaks, usually playing guitar. Then when I was 16 and my brother was 20, about ‘84, ‘85, we started getting drum machines and what have you together. We were listening to electro, hi-NRG, Tackhead, Cabaret Voltaire, Chakk, Severed Heads. We’d turn up at local discos with a Front-242 or Dead Or Alive record, or a bunch of electro 12”s, and pester the DJ to play them. Then, when house came along in ‘86, ‘87 – the stuff like (The House Master Boyz’) House Nation and (Nitro Deluxe’s) This Brutal House - we immediately thought, Great! This is like electro and hi-NRG together!
Phil Hartnoll: I was doing an apprenticeship, so I had a bit of money, and any spare cash I’d spend on synths. I never had aspiration, I just wanted to know what synthesiser sounds were. Paul was much more driven, he wanted to be in a band. We gradually got tapes together, we’d give them to a few people, then Paul found this guy Jazzy M.
Jazzy M: My show was called The Jacking Zone, and it was the first ever proper house show on London airwaves. The stuff was already coming in from Chicago, but I wanted to hear if people could make it here in the UK - so on my radio show, I asked, Are you making music? Come and bring it to me!, bold as brass. So (Paul’s pirate DJ friend-of-a-friend) Jack Man Jay brought me this tape. It’s wondrous to think back that I had no other information but ‘Paul from Kent.’
Paul: I went up to see Jazzy in this record shop in Croydon, My Price I think; it was quite terrifying, really, because he was like a John the Baptist of house music, such an evangelist, a real character. He ran around the shop collecting all these 12”s, then went, ‘What you do is brilliant, but it’s too fast, and you need to copy these records.’ I said, I haven't got any money. He just looked at me like this was an abstract concept, and went, ‘Money? Nah, you can have them. Copy those, come back when you need some more.’ He became my mentor right up to the time when I finally gave him Chime.
Phil: The way Paul wrote Chime was very impulsive and instinctive, that non-thinking-about-it creative vibe is really captured there. Normally he’s much more the musician, the nerdy one who’ll sit down and work things out, where I’m just a Tasmanian devil - Wurrrrgh, press that, what’s this do? - so actually it was funny for him to do such an unconscious, unconsidered kind of track.
Paul: I was just trying out a way of recording where I did it all live to the four-track, without worrying about mucking about and syncing different tracks. I started about four in the afternoon, I think it was a Wednesday, a couple of hours before I went to the pub. I guess I was trying to do something a bit Detroit techno, but really, I just took some random samples from my dad’s easy listening records, put in the ‘dum dum dum du-du-dum’ bass at the beginning, job done. Right at the end I thought, What’s that weird sound? and it was the descending string bit. Sounds OK, I’ll put that in… and that was literally it.
Phil: His mates were sitting on the sofa hassling him to finish it as he did the live recording to tape! I’ll be honest, Chime never floated my boat massively because that sort of Salsa-ey rhythm didn’t really sit right with me, but I realised it really stuck out as quirky and weird, which is why it worked for us and helped as break through. And it really did go mad.
JM: He brought it into me at Vinyl Zone at the weekend, the shop was packed with DJs, I put the tape on and the whole place went spare – ‘I want it! I want it!’, thinking it was a new 12”. I was really cheeky, like, Ha ha, no you can’t have it, it’s not released! Right that minute, I went, I’m having this. I’d been working on setting up the Oh’Zone label so it felt like perfect timing, spiritual almost.
Paul: Jazzy told me to go home and re-record it, but with an extra bit at the end where it all comes back in – ‘and do it on a metal tape as well.’ I spent £3.25 on a cassette to record it on, the most expensive one I’d ever bought, and I was thinking, It’d better bloody be worth it.
JM: I’ve still got that tape, it’s a TDK MA90 with just ‘CHIME’ written on it. The brilliant thing is, that’s what we mastered the vinyl off - 12, 13 minutes whatever it is, no edits, nothing, just straight on to the Oh’Zone 12" (released in December 1989). And that was my label launched! 1,000 copies, then another 3,000, it kept getting bigger. I even played it out off the cassette too, before the vinyl. I remember it was Clink Street or one of those really grubby underground raves. The whole place went absolutely crackers. Johnny Walker was DJing there too, he worked at Polydor which was in the same building as Tong - so that’s how he got to know about it.
Pete Tong: Soon as I heard it, I had to sign it. I did the deal with Jazzy on the track, then rolled it into a bigger deal with the boys - because I knew I wanted a longer-term thing for them with (London records dance imprint) FFRR. It was a bit of a seminal moment for British homegrown electronic music; before them we had DJs going into studios with the help of engineers – S’Express, Bomb The Bass, M/A/R/R/S - learning how to make records cut-and-paste style. Then the next big wave was the talent doing everything themselves: The Prodigy, Underworld, The Chemical Brothers and Leftfield. And Orbital really set the tone for that.
Helen Mead: My first thought on getting the record was, Wait, this isn’t The Orb! And second - and this is how trendy everything had become - I thought, Oh they’re supposed to be named after orbital raves? God that’s so over. But with their live shows, they started something else. At the time I had such a battle to make people realise that there could be any link between dance music and live music, whereas I knew they interlinked.
Paul: We’d only played one show before, as The Hartnoll Brothers, amazingly supporting a local Kent go-go band. But a friend of ours (Johnny Delafons) drummed for the Shamen, and we ended up meeting them (Orbital played their first gig supporting The Shamen at the Islington Town & Country Club 2, February 1990)
Mixmaster Morris: Doing the Synergy tour with The Shamen was their first proper live gig. I took them out to buy sequencers to make it easier to do the live sets, and the first time I ever heard them play was their first soundcheck. Everything was moving so fast in 1990, and I’ll always associate Chime with that. It was in the charts as we were touring, so it just got more and more popular, everyone got more and more crazy. The Shamen weren’t in the charts at that point, they didn’t have a hit ‘til 91, so Orbital got bigger than everyone else on the tour. They were still only getting £10-15 a night like the rest of us, mind.
Phil: When we did Chime on Top of the Pops (on March 22, 1990), we were a square peg in a round hole. We were so awkward standing there trying to mime - we thought we were being all clever having everything unplugged. Ugh, it was pretty painful. We had a big argument with them asking why we couldn’t play live, but at the end of the day you can’t refuse Top of the Pops! Then of course we had Snap! on afterwards doing, “I Got The Power!” and they just showed us up even more.
Paul: Between us, 808 State, The Shamen and their mates, it really felt like the beginning of something, of people deciding they didn’t like the old nightclub regime and wanted something new. From there we got involved with (crusty tribal rave promoters) the Megadog lot. It was very word of mouth, it was really about being evangelical for this culture. Very different to all the Sunrise and Energy raves which we’d play - they were run by blaggers who were only in it for the money, and they would run things very shoddily. 
PT: They were very much in tune with the free parties, the traveller mentality, the DIY mentality. And they presented themselves as a band from the start. Them, The Shamen, The KLF, I think they showed the way. To this day, I tell producers starting out, If you want to be seen as a band, you’ve got to act like it, not just another DJ making a record.
Phil: Playing it live was where the magic came in for me. It was so simple, just a few samples, the 303 - which was my little baby to mess around with - and couple of other analogue synths, it was really easy to jam it out. You can hear how much we’d go off on one with it on Son Of Chime (released on the Live At The Brain album, 1990). Sometime around this we went up to Liverpool, that guy James Barton who started Cream asked us to do a private do for him and his mates, about 100 people. As soon as we’d played it, they’d go, Play Chime again, play Chime again! We must’ve played it for half an hour, maybe more.
MM: They played Synergy shows all through 1990, and we were doing underground parties at the same time - the whole point of those was to do an all-night party with no DJs, only live electronic music. A classic one was at a rehearsal studio in Willesden - maybe 1,000, 1,500 people, well overcrowded - which kickstarted (touring Megadog rave event) the MIDI Circus and was a precursor to Experimental Sound Field in Glastonbury in 1992, where Underworld, Orbital and everyone played for the whole weekend. 
HM: It was probably 1993 before people realised how big this whole scene had become: that’s when you had Aphex Twin, Sabres of Paradise, Leftfield, all coming through. So Chime was big, but I don’t think anyone knew how big it was all about to get.
Paul: I could never get sick of hearing Chime. Aside from just being proud of it, it’s given me my entire life of doing music. How could I ever not get a thrill from that?
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hi lovely 😘 5, 13, and 16 for the arctic monkeys asks thing 💗
Thank you sm Lulu 🥰🫶
5) which album means the most to you?
God this is a hard one. Honestly I think its a tie between Favourite Worst Nightmare and Tranquility Base Hotel and Casino. Favourite worst nightmare has some of the first songs I heard from the band and my all time favourite, 505. Its also just so passionate and a lot of the tracks feel like being impulsive and self destructive from heartbreak and thats always hit me incredibly deeply. Meanwhile TBH+C feels like an album that grew up with me. Those passionate loud lyrics simmered down into obscure, abstract, dreamy, and still very honest. It talks about regrets and wanting to escape and again it just struck me. I feel like the albums have always kind of evolved with me as well somehow but these two particularly hit close to my heart. Listening to them one after the other seems to really highlight it best I think. They're 2 sides of the same coin, 2 progressions of the same ideas bouncing in different directions and I gravitate to both.
13) what are some of your favourite lyrics alex has written? (doesn't have to be arctic monkeys, can also include tlsp/ other artist collaborations/the submarine soundtrack)
Oh goodness...this is incredibly hard theres SO many I think Ill just make a short list of all the ones I have enjoyed ♡
"But I crumble completely when you cry, it seems like once again you've had to greet me with goodbye." - 505, Arctic Monkeys
"Your pastimes, consisted of the strange And twisted and deranged" - Crying Lightning, Arctic Monkeys
"And never in my wildest dreams, has it occurred to me to try to go to sleep." - Pattern, LSP
"There's a set of rickety stairs In between my heart and my head." - The Element of Surprise, LSP
And honestly all of Dracula Teeth by LSP and Star Treatment by Arctic Monkeys
Honestly a lot of these are strongest in their visual imagery for me so these immediately stood out. Theres definitely more but I really tried to reign it in 😭
16) if each of the albums was a person, which one do you think you'd most be like and why?
I think I put WAYYY too much thought into this last one as I relistened to every album to get it accurate and this is what I got
Favourite Worst Nightmare:
Someone alternative in style. Scary looking but incredibly pretty, enough to get attention when he isnt looking for any. I imagine hes a bit like me in that hes incredibly observant and though guarded at the center hes got a love locket for a heart holding all his most precious memories secret and close. Despite his looks and cynical remarks he tends to be rather tender and optimistic about love because hes seen it, because he is it. He just hasnt founf the right place or way to spend it. Which as someone overfloeing eitht he stuff I hwavily relate to and Im rather scary looking. I actually imsgine Mr. Snarl the msot visually when thinking of this album.
Tranquility Base Hotel + Casino:
Very whimsigoth in style and very bold. Lots of purples blues ans flashes of gold. I tuink this one is the most ismilar to me because this person is very mysterious dreamy ans off in their own world. Trying to explain where they are relative to reality feels redundant. Like slick deep blue bell bottoms with gold accents and a deep purple V and sun glaases to cover dreamy eyes if the windswept hair doesn't do it.
Thank you so much again sorry it took so long to answer ♡♡♡♡
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⊙ + sky / anka
Send me ⊙ and my muse will bold all that applies to yours
I think you are:
| Admirable | Attractive | Absentminded | Amusing | Abrasive | Aloof | Arrogant | Brilliant | Bizarre | Bland | Caring | Charming | Clever | Confident | Courageous | Creative | Cute | Careless | Childish | Clumsy | Cowardly | Cruel | Dignified | Dramatic | Desperate | Devious | Disrespectful | Elegant | Energetic | Emotional | Excitable | Faithful | Forgiving | Friendly | Flamboyant | Foolish | Frightening | Generous | Gloomy | Greedy | Gullible | Helpful | Honest | Hateful | Intelligent | Ignorant | Impulsive | Insensitive | Irresponsible | Lovable | Lazy | Mature | Malicious | Misguided | Monstrous | Narrow-minded | Optimistic | Obnoxious | Peaceful | Persuasive | Protective | Power-hungry | Quirky | Reliable | Romantic | Ridiculous | Sexy | Sophisticated | Selfish | Trusting | Treacherous | Understanding | Unpredictable | Unstable | Vulnerable | Witty | Weak | Suspicious | Kind for someone so full of tragedy in their life | Hard-working | Successful
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beckitha · 2 years
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i get it.
i destroyed our friendship by betraying your trust. i let my anger and insecurities drive my impulses to vent to others about trivial annoyances. i didn’t speak up or challenge your (sometimes) reckless decisions that made me feel uncomfortable and made me concerned about your well-being. i didn’t reciprocal the level of care and nurture you gave me through times of struggle. and i put you on the highest pedestal and enabled toxic behaviors that were detrimental to both of us. i brought so much negativity into your life during times when you lifted me up, and for that i am truly sorry.
i took your kindness for granted. i grew comfortable with our friendship to the point where i blurred my boundaries and diluted my sense of identity to accommodate yours out of fear of losing you as a friend. i filtered out any potential threat or negative trait that would hurt our friendship only to realize that during the process, i was losing my sense of self that i am currently trying (and struggling) to rediscover. 
i was never nor am i still a good friend to you. you deserve better and you know that. you are smart, confident, and loyal; everything i’m not but wish to be. you have shown what a good friend looks like and how to be a decent human being, and i will always cherish those moments.
however, 
my spiteful actions were not of my own doing, at least not entirely. looking back, there were times when i felt like i was not as respected as i thought i was. times where i felt pressured or obligated to do things for you when i would try to set boundaries, but couldn’t find firmer words to solidify the seriousness of those boundaries. on the rare occasions where i would say “no” to something, i felt this coldness and judgement from you that would gaslight my anxiety. my fear of rejection immediately sought for any way of salvaging any contentment from you without you lifting a finger or saying anything. i would feel like the meanest person if i had made you feel some type of way. call it the people-pleaser complex in me, but it began feeling like i was waiting on your every command and allowing you to control me willingly because i didn’t know what i wanted; you did. or at least had a better sense of what you wanted than i did. and again, i didn’t have the sense or courage to speak for myself or address it in a constructive way.
i was naive to your boldness and charisma that i didn’t realize how irritable i was becoming until i outwardly expressed it to our mutual friends whom confirmed similar experiences. it was honestly eye-opening and strange. i began to see our friendship differently and ended up making the situation more awkward by tip-toeing around subjects, hanging out with you separately from our friends, and confusing you about triggering gossip.
i honestly don’t know what happened to us. i don’t know what’s happening to me in general. since we’ve been growing distant, i feel so lost and alone. it’s insane realizing how much i relied on you. how much of a void you filled in my life. i gave you more credit than i think was acceptable in some cases because you were so good at making others feel good, feel seen, feel loved. that’s something i have and will probably always admire about you. you made it look so effortless and natural, and yet it was still genuine and honest.
as i feel our conversations stretching thinner and your walls going back up, i need to accept the fact that things will not be the same between us after this. i can’t make you forgive me or apologize to me or acknowledge some of the impact from more turbulent moments we’ve faced. you are your own person, and so am i.
i do still want you in my life in some way, but i get the feeling you’re done with me. done with my insincerity. done with my emotional baggage. done with the negativity. done with the pathetic pity that comes with being my friend.
trust me, i get it. i wouldn’t blame you either.
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coldbrewnette · 3 years
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Good morning I sent a message to my crush and I am feeling nauseous actually, how is everyone else
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glacial-snowflakes · 3 years
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Subtle hum of the Hudson River - part 2 // Loki
A/N: Hi darlings! I'm sorry for not posting but I kind of don't have that much time rn :( I'm so so sorry! I hope you like it! <3
Here is part 1
Pairing: Loki x fem!reader
Word count: 2,5k
Summary: You and Loki take a stroll down the river, letting yourself be honest with each other. The words you spoke have an unexpected result.
WARNINGS: it's all fluff, don't you worry!; parts written like this are retrospection
Likes, comments, and reblogs are greatly appreciated. It’s really motivating <3
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Outrage and disgust filled every little whisper he heard. The team's looks were so sharp that they could cut one's skin open. Sighs full of hatred. Snarky remarks, supposedly innocent, yet hurt like hell. Why would anyone care about God of Mischief? Yes, he might live in the Tower, and yes, he might call himself one of the Avengers now, but he would never belong. Never. Not after what he did.
"They will never trust me, won't they?" Loki asked Thor, his sight focused on a cup he was holding in his frozen hands. The tea wasn't hot anymore. It went cold just like his heart that had never known the warmth of love. Trickster raised his eyes to meet Thor's. God of Thunder could swear that for a moment, he saw despair painted onto his brother's pale face. "I thought you didn't care about them nor their attitude towards you."
"I don't." The raven-haired man said immediately but seeing his brother's smile made him speak the truth. "I hate the way they look at me. I know what I did, and I deserve it. It's just— Nevermind." Loki sighed and took a sip of his cold tea. Speaking about his feelings was never his strong suit. Opening up to someone and spilling his guts felt like a nightmare he didn't want to experience at all costs. Runaway was the best choice.
"If you want to gain their trust, start with Lady Y/N. She's the most perfect for being the first one to break the ice with. Believe me." Thor gave his brother a clap on the back and nodded. "Go on."
"She's holding a knife right now. I am the one who stabs, not the one to be stabbed." Loki muttered. Thor's look said everything. In response, God of Mischief just rolled his eyes, stood up, and slowly approached you. You seemed so focused on the meal you were preparing that you didn't even notice him at first. He cleared his throat. "Lady Y/N."
You snapped out of the trance you were in just a few seconds ago. You lifted a knife you were holding in your hand. It was all covered up in ice, even sharper than the kitchen utensil itself. You held it up in front of your face as you were breathing rather heavily, scared of the sudden voice that made you come back to earth with a bump. Loki could swear that for a moment, your eyes turned impeccably white, just like the snow you could summon whenever you wanted.
"I— I'm so sorry, I didn't want to scare you. I truly mean it." Loki said immediately, waving his hands, the visible awkwardness painted onto his face.
"No, no! It's not your fault." You smiled to assure him that everything was fine. "Whenever I'm cooking, I'm in a trance. Just me, food, my mind free of all the bad thoughts that have been haunting me." You waved your hand in which you were holding a knife, and the ice melted away, just like that, not leaving any mark behind. Loki gave you a subtle nod and asked. "What are you cooking?"
"Oh, I won't tell you." You blurted out, which was followed by the awkward silence. "It's because I'm making my secret dish. Y/N's secret delicacy. No one knows what's inside except me." You explained in the blink of an eye. Loki seemed to be a little bit confused. Oh boy, you weren't good at small talks either. "If you want to, you can stay and sit here. We can talk about whatever you want or, if not, we can sit there in silence. It depends on you."
A sweet, delicate smile appeared on your face. You knew it was hard for Loki. You could see that. You noticed these quick looks he was giving whenever someone whispered his name. You noticed his need to be included when you were in a group, but everybody seemed to be ignoring him. Nobody wanted him to participate in meetings or conversations. He was in a crowd, yet he felt like he was all by himself. You saw all of this, and it made you feel bad. You knew what he did, but in the end, he was one of you now. Every god could bleed, and it hurt you to watch.
You wanted to make the raven-haired man feel better. Even if you were the only one to do this and every other person was about to judge you, you wanted Loki to feel included, to feel important. You promised yourself that it would be YOU who will make Loki feel welcomed, welcomed in a place where everyone pushed him away.
"Can I ask what your exact powers are?" Loki started the conversation, and you couldn't help but smiled. He truly wanted to talk with you. How adorable.
"I'm a demigod with cryokinetic powers. It would take a lot to talk about my abilities, but I will tell you that my favorite one is making ice daggers. Quick and simple, though it took some time to master the perfect shape." You chuckled. "Learning to aim ideally in a battle to cut through a chest and freeze someone's heart was the most problematic part."
"I didn't know you are so violent and tough."
"I am not... I guess I pretend to be." You said quietly, not looking upon a cutting board. A deep sigh escaped your mouth. "You know, it's not a job for everyone. Sometimes I'm too gentle for that."
You didn't let the silence last forever, as you immediately asked. "How do you find yourself here? Do you like the Tower?"
"Ah, you know... It has changed since the last time I visited." Loki said, clearly ashamed of all the damage he did back in 2012. Till these days, the thought of the Chitauri ravaging New York gave you the shivers. It was a very demanding and traumatizing first day of work as the Avenger.
"A renovation was a must." You joked; to clear the air and shoo away the atmosphere that was creeping towards you. "What about your room?"
"If you can call a small couch in Thor's bedroom my room, then I guess it's okay."
"You sleep on Thor's couch?" It was something that surprised you and not in a good way. You got that Loki wasn't everyone's favorite member, but there was a ton of empty bedrooms in the Tower in which he could live.
The God of Mischief nodded. "It's not that bad."
"I don't care. I will talk to Tony. You have to have your own bedroom. It's not like you can sleep on his couch forever. It's not comfortable in the long run." Loki opened his mouth to say something, but you cut him off. "I've got it covered, don't worry."
There was something in talking to you that made Loki feel at home. The way you looked at him; gave him the sweetest and prettiest smiles he has ever seen. There was no hate in your voice, no disgust that he's been experiencing on a daily basis since he could remember. You actually treated him like a human being, despite everything he has ever done. There was only one person he knew with such a kind heart, and you reminded him of her; you reminded him of Frigga.
"You know..." Loki begun. "I feel like you are the only one that doesn't want to cut my throat or stab my heart with my dagger."
You smiled gently. "I think you deserve a second chance."
"And why is that?"
"This is a story for another time."
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"Where do you think you two are going?" Tony asked when you and Loki approached the elevator. God of Mischief gave him a quick stare before pushing the button with an arrow pointing down. You turned your head to face Tony, who was making himself a coffee. "We're going on a walk." You answered with a smile on your face.
"It's almost midnight."
"Said a man with a cup of coffee in his hand." You chuckled. "We're going to be fine. He's a god, and I'm a demigod. Nothing bad will happen to us."
You knew that it wasn't you who Tony was worried about; he still didn't trust Loki. When you joined the Avengers, you were one of the youngest in the group. Fresh blood, you could say. Stark watched you growing from an impulsive, careless kid with ice powers to a deliberate adult, a demigod aware of her cryokinetic strength. Seeing you change over the years, he felt responsible for your life. Even if Man of Iron knew you could handle yourself, Loki was too powerful. Tony refused to believe in his change, and with it, he was afraid that the Trickster was purely playing with you. If only they saw Loki as you did.
A few minutes later, you two were strolling down the New York. Just you, Loki, and the subtle hum of the Hudson River that made your troubled hearts feel at peace. Slowly paced steps. Your knuckles barely brushing each other woke up armies of butterflies in your stomachs that went on war. If you were bold enough, you would grab his hand in yours and intertwined your fingers together, holding him like it was the end of the world. It was something you truly wanted from the moment Thor brought him into the group.
"So..." Loki cleared his throat. "If you want to, we can talk or, if not, we can walk in silence. It depends on you."
"I'm not ready, not yet... I'm sorry."
"Don't you ever be sorry for not being ready to talk about your feelings, Lady Y/N." Loki grabbed your wrist and made you stop your steps. "Ever, okay?"
Something was mesmerizing in his beautiful eyes and a worried smile. Something that made your heart beat faster; palms get sweaty and clammy. Something that made you agree to everything he said. It was like a trick, but not like the ones he did from time to time to piss of Thor or Tony. No.
You snapped out of it and nodded. "Okay." You said and took your wrist from his hand. You began to walk again with Loki by your side when he asked. "Lady Y/N. A few months ago, I had asked why I deserve a second chance. You'd never gave me an answer. I'd still like to know."
You smiled, looking at the tiny waves on the river. "I knew you'd asked that sooner or later. I think I can finally tell you why I think this way." Your eyes focused on his face now. "Okay... Let me tell you something. It's not a surprise that you've made some pretty bad decisions in your life, and you've hurt a lot of people. You think you're a monster, and you don't deserve to be loved. You were never more wrong.
"In this group, you probably won't find one spotless person. We are people that made huge mistakes. You don't have to look far." You grabbed his hand without thinking. It was an impulse that just felt right. "I was a reckless kid when I got these powers. No one was there to guide me through them, learn how to be in control. And to a bullied kid like me, it was something that made me feel better than others. I was the one on the top. With my mortal mum that couldn't handle the demigod kid and my godly father that had so many half-blood children he didn't give a shit about, no one could stop me. The bullied became the bully. I don't like to call myself that, but this is true. I went through hell, and I made sure they felt the same way. I'm not proud of it, but that is who I was.
"So you have me. And then there's former HYDRA's witch, a billionaire who made deadly weapons, former Russian spy, former HYDRA's most famous brainwashed assassin and etcetera. Welcome, you're just as messed up as we are. Being here with us is your chance to become a better man. You belong here, Loki. Trust me."
At that moment, something broke inside of him. For a second, he stopped being a mysterious, private God of Mischief that didn't want to let in anybody. He let go of all the concerns and worries that had been occupying his mind for far too long. He threw away the image of a monster he considered himself to be.
The words you spoke made him realize that as long as you were next to him, there was nothing he couldn't do. You were the key to his pure heart from the beginning. You were the answer he'd been looking for all along. You were the light that could sweep away the darkness that'd been consuming him from within, and he wanted you to shine beside him forever.
When Loki leaned over to your ear, all you could feel was his warm, shaky breath on your neck that sent the shivers down your spine. "Don't hate me for this." He whispered almost inaudibly as his hands found their way to your hips. His long, lean fingers quite roughly pressed onto your skin. Just like electricity, his touch pierced through your whole body, made your knees get weaker. Your senses were fogged, almost like you were under control. All you could focus on was how his mellowy soft lips felt against yours. The kiss was sweet and passionate, yet gentle at the same time. It wasn't hasty and rough like you'd expect it to be, no. There was something else, something special about it. It was Loki's way to describe every little feeling he had for you. Your adorable smiles you'd been giving him, slight touches you didn't even think he noticed, tea and sympathy. It was all for what he wanted to return the favor.
For a moment, you weren't sure if this was real. Was it just a pure imagination of your mind that was thirsty for love and affection? Or maybe it was a trick, fake reality that you'd fallen for so naively? No, it couldn't be. You could feel it. Feel your heart crazily pounded like it wanted to escape the cage in which it was held for far too long. It was the only thing that helped you stay sober.
You didn't want to stop this. You wanted to stay in this moment forever, scared that once it ended, it would never come back.
"Loki..." You started when you two pulled out to catch a breath. "I could never hate you for making my dreams come true."
The raven-haired man didn't say anything. In response, he wrapped his arms around your still weak body and brought you even closer, so there was no space left between you and him. You felt his chin gently placed on the top of your head. With a smile on your face, you embraced him tightly and snuggled your face onto his chest. All that you heard was his heart pounding fast in the same rhythm as yours, as the subtle hum of the Hudson River accompanied your feelings growing for each other at that moment.
tag: @handmaiden-of-mischief @amiechuchu
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inexistingwarmth · 3 years
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The romanticization of true love in miraculous ladybug, and its impact on adrigami and lukanette
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I guess the trope of true love is quite common in media, we grew up watching fairy tales where star crossed lovers found each other and connected in an intimate and irreplaceable way.
Soulmates ? Other halves? You complete me ?
It has long been romanticized, when a character would hesitate between two love interests, they would be told :
" pick the second one because if you truly loved the first one, you wouldn't have fallen for the second one "
In this sense', True love invalidates any other potential love because true love is the one, and the feelings felt for another person are not as authentic.
Realistically speaking, we may fall for more than one person and it is okay, they all were real while they lasted. But fiction tends to romanticize the concept of a love that makes all the others evaporate.
In miraculous ladybug, it is established early on that Marinette and Adrien are soulmate, being told they were meant to be by Master fu.
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And then, the love square happens
Marinette falls for Adrien as his sensible, shiny and perfect looking self.
And Adrien falling for Marinette as her confident, bold and also perfect looking self.
While not knowing their other version, or not acknowledging it as a love interest. The idea of loving unknowingly each other amplified the star crossed lovers theme.
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It was cute though.
Yet as time went by,Marinette's infatuation turned into a sort of romanticization of Adrien, she did interact with him and he held her in high regards, but her perception of him forbid her from seeing him lucidly enough.
She saw him as kind, good looking and talented, but also perfect. When alya suspected Adrien to be cat noir, marinette even dismissed it. She failed to see the foolishness and impulsiveness of cat noir in this boy she idealized.
She has a teenage crush, a caricatutal one sometimes but still a teenage crush. She is young, so her feelings are innocent and intense, to her that crush could be love.
It doesn't help when her friends encourage her believing that it could lead to a fairytale ending. For marinette; it is hard to move on.
Why is it hard to move on ?
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She invested a lot emotionally in that crush. When you have those feelings, you usually cultivate a fantasy on your own, your little romance. marinette even imagined the name of their future hamster. It is almost a comforting escapism, by moving on she has to let that go, all the efforts, the embarrassments, the instants that gave her hope..
If she lets that go 'the reality she is used to will be all new ..
Letting go without ever knowing how he felt. With all the perhaps and maybes.
It is and remains a romanticized scenario but isn't that what makes us hold on to things ? We have our narrative that shape our reality and give value to little things ..
And if he was her true love, can she allow herself to love someone else? If she does, something as intense was not true love? What is true love then ?
Whether it's her thoughts; or the message of the show, the idea of Adrien being the one is what seems to be holding her back, she romanticized him too long, and letting go of that dreamy reality is a big step.
What about Adrien now ?
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If marinette loved him secretary, Adrien was way loud and blunt about it, to the point of becoming a burden since after all, it was an unwanted affection.
Adrien is clearly a hopeless romantic. While marinette idealized the boy she liked, he seemed to idealize the idea of love, way more than she did.
Marinette and Adrien were friends, but Cat noir and Ladybug had a more intimate bond, a shared secret, a delightful comfort around each other, vulnerability and a genuine connection.
For Adrien, who's a hopeless romantic, he should not let go, he should keep fighting, trying, until he is capable of reaching the heart of his beloved.
His trying can be suffocating for her since she really cares about him and loves someone already. But in his world, it is his devotion.
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He feels like the connection he shares with ladybug is special and that no one knows him like she does. His interactions with her are also an escapism so letting go of that feels unimaginable to him.
And in a way he could protect the specialness of their bond by not really being that open with other people..
Like maybe, kagami ?
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If you watched "lies", even the title is emblematic of the shelter he hides behind. When kagami makes the effort of drawing his most authentic self, he first acts as a shiny model then as quirky cat noir.
But none of those poses portray the vulnerability and truth she craved for.
Perfection doesn't have to mean flawless, as she got close to him, the perfect Adrien was a flustered, confused boy who did not hide behind an automatic smile.
Luka could've been to marinette the kind and sensitive guy she liked in Adrien
And kagami could've shared with Adrien the connection and truth that he only expressed toward Ladybug.
Let's be honest they had so much potential ..
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But both adrien and marinette held back and left those two heartbroken. Although they accepted the feelings of luka and kagami; and went as far as dating them, they were not as invested ..
It is true that they were both busy and had a lot on their mind, but we saw marinette swooning over adrien right before seeing luka in "lies" that parallels "truth" and adrien would still flirt with ladybug as cat noir.
Were they really trying to move on ?
I dont doubt marinette thought luka was charming, she was more confortable around him but he had a soft effect on her, he had the tenderness and sincerity that marinette discovered on adrien in the umbrella scene
Adrien was also drawn to kagami since the begining, with her he had the thrill of escaping he had with ladybug and she was as smart and confident as the woman of his dreams.
But ..
Both our main characters had already a reality that was hard to let go of .. a romantacized person and a romantacized bond ..
They were not addicted to the agony but it was their routine, their daily emotions, something that became more of a reality than a part of it ..
Moving on would truly be going out of their confort zons .. it could've led to something beautiful.. but both couples broke up early .. im still grieving ..
If only the show stopped romantacizing soulmates .. fall in love .. again and again .. each one of those romances is valid ..
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kira-fluff · 3 years
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Hellonio👉 I heard headcannon requests are open, and I was hoping to ask for *cough* sell my soul for *cough* the RFA + Saeran with a huge history and science nerd MC. Pretty please with honey Buddha chips on top?
a/n: when I say this request is fine, when I say this request is SCRUMPDIDLYUMPCIOUS!! thank you T-T it’s beautiful // since you specified Saeran but left three other characters unspecified, please send another request if you’d like a part 2 with the rest of the characters! 
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MC who is a History and Science Nerd
Saeyoung 
Saeyoung is the Blueprint for being a nerd 
like come on he tries to flirt with you in binary code
I think he’d still tease you though 
little things like “oh wow my little nerd~” 
you have to remind him sometimes how big of a dork he is 
pokes your cheeks when you’re reading something 
instead of paying attention to him haha 
literally will pout 
if you ignore him too much 
still, seven is the type to get into your passions too 
seeing the way your eyes light up
he is intrigued and ends up loving it just as much as you do 
tries to make REALLY bad science puns 
I just imagine each time he’d tease you he couldn’t hold back the big smile he makes 
when he sees you look a little pouty 
if you don’t include him when you watch history documentaries he will be very very petty 
might ignore you until you say, “well, do you want to watch to?” 
when you were studying for your chemistry exam
instead of being helpful 
seven whispers dirty jokes in your ear 
all science-related of course 
oh gosh he LOVES messing with you so much 
will steal your little journals recording plant growth and read them out loud 
he’d hold it over his head when you try to grab it 
“LOLOL YOU NAME YOUR PLANTS?!” 
“ssSTOP!! SEV STOP!!” 
little mischievous giggles 
oh gosh he loves you so much. 
Saeran 
watching you talk about the subjects you love – it’s his favorite thing 
when your eyes light up and you have this big, geeky smile on your face 
he’s not good enough with his words to express it to you 
the way his heart rate speeds up 
and oh 
when you realize you’ve been talking non-stop 
and you blush profusely 
apologizing, saying you didn’t realize you were talking so long 
he shakes his head, “no, I like it. I like it when you talk about the things you love. tell me more.” 
now you’re blushing for a different reason.. how did you end up so lucky?
literally so supportive 
hypes you up while you’re studying 
makes you little flashcards ;-; 
loves you so much 
will genuinely give you lil kisses (they’re shy) when you tell him all about your favorite wars because ?? 
THAT’S SO CUTE uwu
PLANTS 
p l a n t s 
he has so many plants 
shows you all of them 
has names for each one
and his beautiful flowers
will read with you plant care books and scientific experiments about them
honestly will spend looooong nights just staying up and talking with you 
like can you just IMAGINE 
staying up til 5am… talking about everything and nothing 
accidentally falling asleep together on the couch 
he loves how you smell, and subconsciously hugs you closer 
you wake up 
and in a moment of boldness 
you wake up and exhales 
and hugs you a little tighter 
Yoosung 
he’s a (sort of failing) university student 
to be honest you will use each others strengths if you are in classes with him 
you lowkey carry him with all the assignments and studying you help him with 
but he really admires you 
he’s not really the type to seek things out for the sake of curiousity 
sure, gaming is different
but when it comes to subject matters and non-fiction it all flies past him 
he’s no dummy, it’s just hard for him to apply himself to something he doesn’t even really care about 
so meeting someone so refreshingly different from him is so, so nice 
not to mention you’re so incredibly sweet and kind 
you’re so patient with him 
and when you lean in to help him understand the concept more.. 
he can’t get enough of it 
he thinks it’s so cute how you’re so passionate and geek out occasionally 
you inspire him to succeed 
because you can do anything
and yoosung thinks that if you cheer him on, he’s able to do anything too 
oddly enough, he might even find a certain area of what you love to be really interesting, too
but honestly you kind of lose him when you get into astrophysics 
like are you even speaking korean anymore 
he can’t keep up with you 
when you talk about things he can’t really wrap his mind around 
but he could listen to you all day 
he would also probably want to tell you a lot about his own hobbies 
it’s very sweet how you both can love what the other loves – simply because you or he loves it 
Jumin
honestly Jumin is incredibly smart 
like he knows so much about almost everything 
so he eats up all the conversations you have about historical events or the sciences 
he’d hold his palm over his mouth, resting his chin on his palm simultaneously 
trying not to laugh 
because he looked at his watch 
and you’d been gushing about a new scientific breakthrough for the last ten minutes 
he’d avoid eye contact with you in that moment because he might lose all control 
and say it out loud 
I love it when you talk like that.
resisting you might be the only thing Jumin isn’t good at 
buys you ANYTHING remotely close to the subjects you like
if he ever sees something in a store, he’d immediately buy it on impulse 
“Y/n would like this..” 
God if you weren’t already dating it’d be beyond obvious that he’s so smitten with you 
He’d just give you it casually, saying, “I found something for you..” 
He’d pay any price just to see your eyes sparkle and a big smile light up your face 
Cute. 
He’s so patient, so even if you stay up late doing research or reading, he’d stay up 
and listen to you if you’d read to him 
or do some of his own reading 
can you imagine Jumin reading one of your little books during his free time? 
like oh my gosh 
he has a habit of getting really into your passions 
he’s certain anything you are passionate about is worth learning more about 
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