#that’s gonna be me every tuesday now

[keeps-ache]

i'm on some sort of kick lol

#art #my art #artists on tumblr #digital art #oc #listen i think this broke me a little bit Lmaohfv #i started laughing like a maniac and i just noticed i am. so jittery when i exported this rn hfshhd #this has taken me!!! i think like. 3 days #where did tuesday go ?? hello ??? tuesday?? where are you ? #which is frankly ridiculous even by my standards lmao #i Will be rerunning this at least 3 times. holy hells i needs to. stare into the abyss for a little while hvsh #it may look kind of simple but do not be fooled. not even i know how much effort went into this anymore Hfbvshf #my Back hurts there's something going on with my throat i think i magicked a headache away?? my hands are no longer working and my brain? #let's not even talk about it lol #staring into your eyesballs. now what if i designed more robots Hvhsfh #i did enjoy it! did it probably fry every system i need ot function? ye. but i'm gonna do it again anyway ehehgh #//aokay i'm going to. go. #byyye tooldes :3 :D

[evankinard]

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#idk why im thinking about the shooting rn but i am and its fucking me up a 🤏lil bit #i just think i so immediately discarded the terror of the moment once we were safe that it doesnt even feel like it belongs to me anymore #so every time i do remember its like eeuugugh I Forgot This Feeling #i recognize it from nightmares but its so strange that i now have to recognize it from a real event that happened to me #anyways i threw up five times last night and im changing my hair tomorrow so im gonna be a whole new person inside and out come tuesday #we are Moving on #-this message was not endorsed by a licensed therapist-

[xcziel]

oh i forgot to give the tuesday new release roundup huh

new john sandford thriller 'judgement prey'

yet another "danielle steel" book - 4th this year i think?

jordan peele's black authored horror-writing anthology is out: 'out there screaming'

sir patrick stewart memoir! 'making it so'

and awesome new music photo book! 'll cool j presents the streets win: 50 years of hiphop greatness' - this looks like an incredible gift book but i didn't get a chance to crack one open yet

book five of lore olympus graphic novel series in paperback

new kerri maniscalco adult novel set in her teen kingdom of the wicked verse - like tracy wolff she's branching out of ya: 'throne of the fallen'

hmmm what else ... new big hardcover d&d book 'lore & legends': quote "an illustrated history of the beloved fifth edition through artwork, interviews, and visual ephemera"

michael lewis has another business book out (he wrote the big short and liar's poker) 'going infinite'

oh also taylor lorenz's 'extremely online' finally hit the shelf

did i mention that 'chalice of the gods', the new rick riordan percy jackson book, came out last week?

#tuesday new releases #we don't talk about releases from the bigoted transphobe's media property sorry #excited about the hiphop book bc of the hyperfixation: imagining hiphop heads going through it makes me happy #so many things are gonna be out every week from now til xmas and idk what people prioritize #if anybody reads these updates let me know if you have an area you care more about lol #still tempted to do a 'new in horror' roundup post just for the season bc of awad's 'rouge' and canas' vampires of el norte' #also moreno-garcia's 'silver nitrate' #even if you don't buy hardcovers you can ask for them at the library!

[shrews-things]

Another top surgery update!!! Yesterday I was 10 days post-op and things are starting to look better and I can do more and more things alone ❣️

Went out with my partner a bit and oh boy I've missed it so much, it was so nice

#my recovery is quite bumpy so it's taking a lot out of me #so it made me super happy that I could go out and I'm starting to feel better #I got sick right after surgery with a nasty cold and had a fever a few times too #and then after a few days of coming out of it #it came right back #and Vini caught it too and they developed much worse symptoms and they're still sick from it #so we really did have some very rough days #and here in Hungary they don't use the flat JP drain that they use in America #which made it so I could feel it rolling around on my ribs and probably a nerve too every time I moved #and it hurt like bitch dgdkhdkdhdj #anyway to sum it up we didn't have fun these past two weeks or so #but now things are looking better and I'm super happy with the results and on Tuesday I have the appt to remove my sutures too #and my grafts seem well and healthy too! #excuse my oversharing I'm just so happy and hopeful #not very happy about all the uni stuff I'm gonna have to catch up with tho :') #I hope y'all are fine too!!! take care ❤️

[orcelito]

What they don't tell you about losing a parent is that there is so so so so much to do

#speculation nation #my elder sister is gonna be executive of estate (once we get that sorted out bc we couldnt find his WILL) #so i thankfully wont have to deal with as much of the legal stuff #but im still gonna try to help out as much as possible #went through his papers yesterday and set up some preliminary stuff #gonna meet at the funeral home monday to arrange that. tuesday we're going to do some legal stuff for the will establishment #gonna have to take inventory of EVERY. SINGLE. THING. in his house. for tax purposes. #im gonna be inheriting a good amount of things probably. both a blessing and a curse #in that i didnt wanna fucking lose my father for it #but this is the hand we've been dealt and we're dealing with it. #i got excused from my last week of work Thank God so im hanging around longer than originally planned #gonna get my cats today. i fed them enough to last to today but that was when i thought id only be down for 2 days #no work to deal with now. i'll figure it out. #part of me's sad that it really ended just like that. didnt get to properly say goodbye to the store #but at the same time. my dad's death is so much more important. so i'll deal. #it was already gonna be a transitory time. but now it is INTENSELY so. #anyways thats why i havent been around much. i have quite a lot to do.

[bunnyb34r]

Really missing having good/good enough managers man :/

Super fucking slow at work and they just let the auto-scheduler put in our shift schedules which is fine when it works but.... we're so fucking slow at work. Like my area is completely filled (with what I have... new shipment save me... save me.... new shipment) and recovered by 6am. I'm not needed. Not atm.

Now a good/good enough manager would remove my shifts (which would SHOCK save the company money! :0 and leave more of a budget for the managers which means bigger paycheck! Wow!) Or at least tell me that the reason I have ONE shift next week is in fact bc I'm not needed, and not the scheduler being fucky. But god we cant have THAT now can we!

I mean if I see "shift for DAY has been removed" on my app then hell yeah free time off! But bc they routinely forget to reprompt the scheduler, there's consistent weeks where I have 0 hours, but know to come in/assume I'm needed.

Like ffs arent you supposed to cut hours?? Which would be MINE since I'm only 20 a week??? Come on man 😭 I'm so bored

#marquilla #i swept under every table except NewLady's bc shes a wackjob that would assume that you did that bc you think she cant do it/ isnt #cleaning right/enough (she isnt) but i did all that. swept in basics and the battery isle bc i was so bored 😭 and part of hardlines #Tuesday i was sweeping and trying to get shit out of the cracks in the floor and ngl it was fun and i got most of em in our area but i #couldnt finish today bc NewLady's territorial lmao like man i just wanna pick shit out of the floor im not trying to invade your area ffs #anyway swept all that. zoned the hanging racks. zoned the womens shoes and basics shoes. and then fucked around on the computer #THOROUGHLY reading my emails and store survey reviews (so many OFFER SMALLER QUANTITIES motherfucker this is a WAREHOUSE #WHOLESALER STORE! NO!) and only got off the computer bc i apparently had the only working one and someone needed it #all this and i STILL had time to kill 😭😭 oh and straightened my boxes like they want. i was gonna do the womens boxes but i didnt #feel like going to my locker for my knee pads and didnt really care enough to do it anyway sgdvdvdgdg #but BaldBastard saw me cleaning and thanked me for it which was nice i guess like yeah you should try it sometime Mr Clean #anyway the old managers would always pull me from the schedule if we needed to cut hours and i was fine with it! i told em i was! #but we went through 8 managers and the few we have now are dumbfucks so yknow

[plasticsandwich]

surviving ^-^

#diary #hiiii hawooooo #ive been pretty off from all social medias recentylyy #im really really trying my best to pass this semester #trying really hard to work and get through it and its going well!!! #much easier now that i dont have like. 10 assignments due every week lol #after this week ill be done!!! for good..!!!!! #im gonna tryyyyy #and finish everything by tuesday #but realistically #ill be done by thursday or something #this is presuming i wake up and go to class on time mskfs #ill talk to you all later though!!! please take care!!!!!! #be sure to cheer me on!!!!!! passing this semester would be HUGE for me skjdnfs

[hella1975]

happy eurovison!! do your stretches!!!

babe it's been days since i did my stretches at this point im too scared

#in my defence idk WHAT was going on with my sunday shift bc i only waitressed 7 hours and that's a pretty normal shift for me #like im aware compared to a normal person it would be very difficult to just out of nowhere expect them to be on their feet #walking back and forth the entire length of a restaurant regularly carrying heavy things all the while keeping up ABOVE AND BEYOND socially #for SEVEN ENTIRE HOURS with ZERO BREAK like masking that entire time on top of the 7 hour physical workout #like it's insane if u think about it for more than 2 seconds and im really trying to bc every time i falter i beat the shit out of myself #and like? NO? my job is actually very physically demanding and emotionally draining compared to most people's day-to-day activity #it's gonna have impacts sometimes! #so yeah long story short i finished my shift sunday and when i tell you my legs LOCKED UP in bed that night #like mainly my thighs but it was all in my hips and knees and it was so bad that i lay there until 2am before getting painkillers #bc i couldnt hack it #which is SAYING SOMETHING for me bc im normally both quite good with pain and also a hardass for taking painkillers #ive had that happen once before (again after waitressing lol) & never worried about it but my mum recently got diagnosed with arthritis #and ever since ive been like. Looking at my own joints any time they even HINT at playing up #like i am RENOWNED for inhereting all of my mum's medical shit from mental to physical like i KNOW i'll get it it's just a matter of when #and yeah that was sunday it's now tuesday and my thighs STILL feel bruised #and im like. embarassed about it bc it's not like i did anything spectacular? and idk why it's happening? #yeah idk hiiii rori did u like me ranting about my physical health in ur stretch reminder ask sorry do u still think im hot <3 #ask

[snowoiive]

this is cruel n unusual punishment

#i fully was planning to escape the grip greys has had on me for the past two years #and not watch season 19 #what do you MEAN addison is gonna be a recurring character now #catch me dragging my ass outta bed at 9am every tuesday just to watch this dumb stupid medical show GRR #greys anatomy #addison montgomery #kate walsh #greys anatomy season 19 #NINETEEN!!!!!

[pepprs]

i do not want to get out of bed omfg. this week has been so fucking insane im exhausted but we have aprogram tonight until 7 and i have to facilitate and there are a million things to do today

#but i got my p*riod and cotaught on tuesday and broke up w my counselor on monday and a few days before that redacted redacted so im ph #physically and emotionally exhausted but we have this program tonight until 7 and then 2 trainings tomorrow andi have like 2 meetings inbetw #between those. and i just want to sleep and/or lie down w a heating pad bc my cramps have been brutal this time around. literally could #barely get work done on tuesday bc i was in AGONY and forgot my heating pad and no one could bring it to me from home but it s like i have n #nowhere on campus to lie down or get checked out or anything bc im not a student anymore so i need to just writhe at my desk (<- i have one #of those now finally btw 🥹💗) and jusf hope i don’t pass out. and i didn’t but it was so bad and im not recovered from it yet. idk. #everything is so much. there are some intense and in some cases horrible things happening. iwwish we had time to pause and process them and #that we weren’t so tired and stretched all the time. i wish we didn’t have all these pressures to worry about. i wish we could just have #time to love each other and check in truly and to support each other bc we are friends before we are colleagues methinks and i jsut want us #to be ok and happy and rested and healthy. idk. augh #delete later #purrs #also i think i am not normal when it comes to cramps btw. i think maybe it might not be normal to be in this much pain. or maybe im just #weak or have a low pain tolerance but i feel like it’s a lot worse than it used to be + i get cramps at Other times too and it’s ummmm bad. #ask to tag #like how absolutely insane that this is a huge part of my life and i feel like i can’t even talk abt it and it’s so embarrassing but it #literaly is like.. every other week im scared that im gonna be unable to function bc of pain but i literally say nothing at all and just smi #smile and pretend im fine and barely talk abt it. i don’t think that’s good or normal. and i think ppl should talk abt p*ripds more so it’s #not as weird or bad or gross or cringe whatever to talk abt being in pain and to accommodate urself or whatever despite other ppl knowing #abt it. cringeeeee augh i don’t want to be one of Those people but like. it’s bad and i fucking hate it

[exopelagic]

yeah I have more to say

#I think priest was right when he said I wanted a lot and it’s more than I can have bc I’ve taken more than I can handle #I’ve been trying to say yes to things which is all well and good but I’ve been out every night this week between hockey and friends #this week has lasted six months #and at the same time Tuesday was a few hours ago #and at all times there is so much I’m not doing. #as always it’s partially an issue of wasted time bc ive been getting up late and struggling to work in my room #but I also still haven’t recovered from the cold mentally or physically and it put me so behind #which was now two weeks ago god #somehow only two weeks #.but also two fucking weeks that’s so long #and I’m still trying to be gentle w myself but that doesn’t work but i also know I’m being too harsh on myself all the time #I don’t know what to do with any of this #I think temporarily I might stop Doing Things and just have time for me to get myself back together and slow down a bit bc it’s way too much #I think I’m just really horribly overwhelmed by everything and it’s built up to a breaking point #so this weekend I’m not gonna go out and see anyone I’m gonna stay in or go to the library and finish my work #have a goddamn cup of tea before I go to bed #I need to go to the shop and cook at some point but that can be basics for now because as much as I’d like to do the pie thing #maybe leave it until I’m more together so I’m not worried abt Extra things. I think temporary goal is to minimise the number of things #I really want to cry and just have it out but I’m teetering on the like. wanting to cry feeling instead of pushing over #this is a jump but I’m so tired of prioritising everyone else’s feelings #I realised tonight when I’m playing I’m always holding myself back a little to let other people do shit #and it’s not even like I’m holding back bc I’m good. I’m just letting other people do stuff bc I think they deserve it more #and when we had Shit happen I took on talking everyone down and making sure they were all okay #and then that whole weekend after I was completely fucked I couldn’t Do Anything #even with ms main character I’ve been stroking her ego do she doesn’t blow up completely and fuck stuff up for Everyone #maybe. just maybe my feelings are also important and I’m allowed to have shit not be my problem like everyone else #I think I’m going to bed it’s 2:40 #I’m gonna try prioritise myself just a little tiny bit more #luke.txt

[jonstarks]

every time my ex boss joking about how much money i got from losing my parents, the urge to strangled him to death just increasing even more than when im still work under him

#venting about my coworker #sometime i feel like quitting and do some freelancing at home #but the only social interaction i got was from work #at home all i did was cooking and cleaning for myself #and every Tuesday i play badminton so i guess it count as social interaction #idk i feel like being alone most of the time would be bad for me #I don't mind it for now but idk if i would be ok or am i gonna losing my marbles if i stay at home all the time #just gonna endure work i guess

[monarchisms]

AH’s minecraft series is ten years old today

#i was studying for my calc exam when the realization hit me #happy birthday but also #what the fuck man #i've been watching for about eight of those years #most definitely before episode 100 aired #and even back then i was like #''aw man i have so much to catch up with'' #it was worth it though #i hope they do something special to celebrate #but i also would understand if they don't want to #since they've forced themselves to play the game every single week until recently #for now i'll just cherish the memories and get excited for newer stuff and all that #feeling sentimental on this tuesday morning lads #i'm not gonna queue this lol #wait it's wednesday #time isn't real

[mazojo]

#absolute devastation rn nobody talk to me #like I know it’s time for it to be concluded but evastated nonetheless what am I gonna do every Tuesday now?? it was supposed to be my happy #day of the week. devastated. crying throwing up. #November 16 national holiday #manga #tokyo revengers

[kinglenaaaa]

despite how I felt about the ending, I definitely spent every waking minute thinking about never let me go today

#never let me go #never let me go series #pondphuwin #palmnuengdiao #whats gonna be my reason to live now that I dont have my angsty bfs every tuesday