#that's how i feel

[harryforvogue]

ok this thought just came to meeee: it’s the early days of faye & harry dating and mentions that his birthday is this week and inside faye is screaming because why didn’t he tell her??? but on the outsides she’s calm and collected lol. so she bakes him a cake and maybe gets him a small gift like a sketch book/pencils or a keychain with his favorite animal or show character or of CHERRIES ?????? and she casually asks to stop by after work cause she thinks she left a hair clip at his apartment she needs but she’s actually there to spend his birthday night with him 😌

"This isn't stupid," Faye reminds herself under her breath as she enters Harry's building. "This isn't stupid. Harry is your boyfriend now. You have the right to do this. He won't mind."

Timothée is the one that answers the door. He’s holding a sketchbook in his hand, a pen tucked behind his ear that's nearly covered by his curls. “Oh. Hey!” He looks at the box of cupcakes she’s holding. “Wow. Those for me? Ha. I'm just playing."

Faye and Timmy have had the “this isn’t weird right?” talk already, so this encounter isn’t the worst. 

“Hi. Um, Harry’s here, right?”

“Yeah. He’s in his room. Should I call him out?”

“Uh. Well, I guess I probably should have texted…”

Timmy smiles knowingly. “You wanna see him? You can come in.” He then glances down at her tote bag filled with a makeup bag, extra clothes, and other things.

She scratches her wrist. “If…if that’s okay. I’d just like to let him know something.”

“It shouldn't be a problem. He doesn’t have work today. Come in.”

During the 10 seconds that Faye walks in and takes her shoes off, she asks Timmy if it’s really fine that she’s here without notice at least 3 more times. He’s gathered that she plans on staying the night. The good thing is that he seems to have an infinite amount of patience. He even takes the cupcakes and sets them in the fridge.

“This is okay, right?” she whispers as they head to the rooms.

Timothée grabs her shoulders and gives her a small shake. “Hey. You’re a strong woman, yeah? No reason to be nervous.”

Faye stands taller. “Yeah.”

“You go in there and show him who’s boss!”

“Yeah!”

“You go and break his heart and stomp on his dreams, yeah?”

“Yeah! Wait, what?”

He grins. “Are you not going to go and break up with him?”

“What? No!” She gasps. “Is that what it looks like? Why would I bring cupcakes just to break up with him?” She scrambles to take her phone out. “I should text him.”

“Nah.” He snorts and then laughs. “Sorry. I couldn’t help it. Hey, you’re already here so just go in. He won’t mind.”

He heads back to his own room after giving her an encouraging thumbs up, shutting the door behind him. She walks to Harry’s room slowly, taking deep breaths to calm herself down. She knocks quietly.

Harry doesn’t come up to open the door. He just calls through it “Come in”. And so she does.

She steps in, nerves exploding in her stomach. He’s pulling a sweatshirt over his head in front of his closet when he sees her, curls wet from his shower, his eyes immediately lighting up. His laptop is on the bed and she can see he’s been answering emails. 

Harry’s face breaks out into a smile. “Faye!” He walks over to her and wraps his arms around her. “Hi.”

She hugs him back. “I hope it’s okay that I’m here.”

“Of course it is. How are you? You look great. What’s up? Everything okay? Did Timmy let you in?”

“Yeah!” After a moment of hesitation, she gives him a quick peck.

Harry gives her a pointed look. “I’m your boyfriend now, Cherry. Give me something a little better than that please.” He puts his hand on the back of her head and pulls her back in. He kisses her again, slowly. She slides her hands up his soft sweatshirt and plays with the drawstrings. “I haven’t seen you since last week so I thought I’d surprise you.”

He chuckles. “Bet you nearly chickened out a few times.”

Her shoulders fall. “You have no clue.”

Harry takes her hands and pulls her to the bed. He tugs her until she’s sitting in his lap, his arms around her waist again. “You know, given the timing, I’m suspecting this has to do with the fact that it’s my birthday.”

“What?” she says. “No. I’m only here because I forgot something.”

“Oh yeah?” Harry twirls her hair around his finger. “What did you forget?”

“My hair pin.”

“Definitely.”

She sighs, leaning into him. “Listen. You should have told me about your birthday earlier! I had zero time to get reservations for dinner anywhere, and not to mention I had work today! This isn’t fair! Now it’s 4pm and we’ve done nothing for your birthday.”

Harry’s grinning as she complains. “Sorry.”

“You’re not sorry!”

“I’m not. Birthdays don’t have to be a whole thing, you know?”

“This is our first one!”

“Faye, I really don’t think it’s that big of a deal. We can do something over the weekend together. You’re off then, right?”

“Yeah,” she grumbles.

“So there. We’ll make a day of it.”

She frowns, playing with his drawstring again. “But today’s your real birthday so we have to do something.”

“What do you have in store for me?”

“Well, I’m staying over tonight. If you’ll let me.”

Harry grins even harder. “And where are all your things? I really hope you don’t plan on using my toothbrush. You’re cute and all, but–”

She scowls. “I left my bag outside just in case you say no and kick me out and also break up with me.”

Harry throws his head back and laughs wholeheartedly. “Wow. Oh yeah, I’d totally break up with you for wanting to stay the night.”

“It was more of the whole not-letting-you-know-beforehand thing.”

“That’s what a surprise is, Faye. You know I don’t mind surprises when they have to do with you. I’d love for you to stay the night with me.”

“Good.”

His eyes sparkle when she leans down to kiss him again. He loves when she initiates the kisses, knowing how much it means to her to be confident enough to. “I also got you a present,” she mumbles against his mouth.

Harry buries his fingers in her pink hair, cradling her head as he kisses her again. “Yeah?”

“Mhm.” She turns her head so he can kiss her jaw. “You didn’t give me enough time to freak out for a few days before buying you something with a leveled head, so it might not be that great of a–”

Harry cuts her off with another kiss. “I’ll love it,” he promises quietly. “Anything you give me.” He kisses the corner of her mouth. “Hey. Timothée’s going out tonight with his friends so he probably won’t be home until tomorrow. Did you plan that?”

Faye blinks. “No, but that works out very well.”

“Right.” He kisses her once more. “Faye. I’m very happy you’re here.” He kisses down her neck. She shivers, his wet curls hitting her cheek.

He flips her over, pressing her into his mattress. She laughs as he hovers above her, kissing her neck and collar, the tickling becoming too much.

When Harry’s hands start wandering under her sweater, she opens her eyes and stops him. “Wait. Can I give you the gift first? Before I chicken out?”

He pulls off. “Of course. Want me to wait here?”

“Yes, please.”

“Yeah, baby. Go on.”

Faye hurries back outside and grabs her bag, bringing it in. She carefully pulls out a wrapped gift, bringing it over to him. He’s sitting on the edge of the bed looking very deliciously disheveled.

“Just to let you know,” Harry says, “if I don’t like this gift, I’m breaking up with you.”

Faye frowns. “Not funny!”

He smiles and begins to rip the wrapping paper. Faye nervously cracks her knuckles besides him, watching his eyes wander over his gift.

“Faye,” he whispers.

It’s a photograph of them taken by one of the photographers at the first show of Faye's that Harry went to. The one where Harry confessed his love. This picture is of them on stage, Harry in his suit still holding the bouquet of carnations, his hand on Faye’s cheek. She’s on her tiptoes, the smile on her face so wide, it’s unbelievable.

He remembers exactly what he was doing – wiping the glitter off her face right before he kissed her. He recalls how she was literally bouncing with adrenaline. He had to hold her still just to kiss her properly. Harry’s heart aches.

“I only saw it a few days ago,” Faye explains nervously. “Figured it would be a great memory to frame.”

“This… this is…” He looks up at her. “Thank you. Wow. Look at us. Look at you. I loved that dress on you so much.”

“You told me you loved me for the first time. I think about it everyday, Harry. I’m so happy there’s a photo of us from that night.”

He puts the frame down and brings her back to him, hugging her tightly. “I love it.” He smiles when she relaxes into his chest at the sound of the words. “This is amazing. Thank you, Cherry. Thank you.” He kisses the top of her head. “Oh, I don’t know how I’ll ever top this. You’ve made it very difficult.”

Faye’s laughter is muffled against his sweater. “You still have time. I won’t spring anything on you like you did.”

Harry lifts her head up. “I love you,” he whispers again, bending his head to kiss her once more. “Thank you.”

She smiles. “So I guess you won’t be breaking up with me tonight?”

His shoulders shake when he laughs. His thumb brushes over her cheek like in the photo. “No, baby. Not ever.”

#squidward holding his music sheet meme #that's how i feel #BUT THIS HAS BEEN MY FAVE ONE TO WRITE SO FAR!!! #harry and faye #harry styles fic #harry styles blurb #harry styles fluff #let it be known that harryforvogue does indeed write still

[yourlovelyspace]

Words are never enough to describe my feelings 💝

#its frustrating #so frustrating #horizon #that's how i feel #sweet words #sweet quotes #in love #couple #lovers #love quotes #quotes #i love you #couple goals #beautiful quote #romantic #love #life quotes #quoteoftheday #quotesdaily #spilled ink #my thoughts #love thoughts #write #writing #writers and poets #relationship goals #relationship #relationship quotes #couple quotes

[redsonsmoocher78]

Sometimes... I gotta draw Red son and his (reluctant to call) friends... sometimes it's a very strong necessity... Sometimes it is all I can do... Redson... Mei... Mk <33

They walked into a hot topic and came out insane /j

The headcanons and stuff are just for fun... pls don't kill me for them if you view things differently 🙏🙏

The among us and fall guys is also just bc I didn't know what to doodle and that's what my friend asked of me 😭

#lmk redson #redson #Red son is... Emo?! #lego monkie kid #lmk fanart #lmk qi xiaotian #monkie kid #red son #lmk mk #lmk traffic light trio #chimerashipping #Aroace !! #Woo!! #qpr ship #that's how i feel #mei dragon #monkie kid mei #lego monkie kid mei #They make me so happy #my bbs #mwah <3 #They need to hang out more #the besties ever #sighs dreamily

[centeris2]

A reminder that those SSO horse candles will exist, hopefully for a limited run because of how much they are being slammed. It’s not going away until those candles physically exist and are for sale.

Originally an April Fools joke or not, their “expert panel” are real horsey instagramers who no doubt cost a LOT (businesswomen, international/olympic level riders, tv personalities, they’re not SSE or SSO connected doing it for free like Elli and Helena). And they’re posting about it, possibly because it’s a product/promotional deal they will get a cut of. I’m not tracking their instagram stories, but so far at least one video post has gone up. Given SSO didn’t give an end date for picture submissions or when the candles will be released I expect the other two will post about it when there are more details. God only knows how much those three women cost SSE (and how many comics or novels that could have paid for instead).

Be vocal, complain to SSE and to their Support inbox, and directly call out their Marketing team for coming up with schemes like the candles. Their marketing department either doesn’t care or is really just THAT out of touch with what the fanbase wants. Think #ReclaimHorsegirl (oops we meant Ride With Us haha we bite people we’re so quirky!), or JoJo Siwa (love her but that was a flop in terms of helping the game in any way), or that time they made Star Stable Stories (remember that fever dream that looked like a scam??), or the numerous times they didn’t credit Elli on comic posts. Those were all Marketing. 

#sso #don't mind me I'm talking #and not knocking those three ladies I'm sure they're lovely but they're 100% getting paid #which they should be but like #that is not a good look SSE after what happened #you ever watch a train wreck in slow motion except you're standing in a crowd #but you're one of the few people in the crowd who knows was some of the stuff INSIDE the train is? #so you're just bracing for how bad the wreck is actually going to be once people realize just how HOW ridiculous and bad it is #once everything comes out if it does come out #but in the meantime you're just watching the train with the rest of the crowd barreling toward disaster #that's how I feel #that's how I've felt for a while but I keep learning more and more about the contents of the train #and just going 'ooooo that's uh. oh boy. oh dear. can't wait for everyone else to find out about this.'

[bubbles-for-all-of-us]

Mom just said do you have makeup on or did your eyes turn black and when I asked her how bad I look on a scale of one to ten ma'am said nine... I knew I was loosing it but dang didn't know it was that bad...

#you know how i feel #have you ever tried putting lots of lets say salt in the water #and have you ever reached the point where you're trying to mix it up but it no longer dissolves #because there's too much salt in the water #that's how I feel #like there's too much fucking salt in the water #rambling bubbles 🫧

[swashbucklery]

"I want to keep this draft under 45k" GUESS WHO DID THAT WITH A WHOPPING 128 WORDS TO SPARE WOOOOOOOOO.

#remember when this fic was going to be three chapters and 20k tops #anyway it's 44.8k but it's a WHOLE FIC and now i can edit for the next 240 years but it's DONE I DID IT #imagine me whipping my shirt off like a soccer player celebrating a big goal #that's how i feel #au: two eloras no waiting #ot3: kit and jade and elora something something powerful magic #willow: medium powerful magic once adjusted for inflation #writing tag

[journalsofanaesthete]

My toxic trait is pulling myself back and cutting off from you the moment I feel like you don't need me anymore. And the truth is I have always felt this way with everyone and maybe that's how I ended up like this.

#dishaa ke thoughts #spilled thoughts #spilled words #spilled feelings #spilled truth #dead poets society #writers and poets #indian tumblr #desi tumblr #desiblr #artists on tumblr #dishaakikhoj #that's how i feel #my words #true words

[hacked-by-jake]

Them: What are you doing?

Me: Writing with Jake

Them: You mean you play Duskwood?

Me: Why do you hate me so much?

#that's how i feel #they hate me #I'M WRITING WITH JAKE #DUSKWOOD IS REAL #duskwood memes #hbj dw talks #duskwood jake #duskwood jake x mc #hbj is waiting for new lives to continue playing [that’s why her queue takes over]

[mooninagust]

this is literally me spilling the tea to myself when i talk sh! t about everyone in my lil journal with a pink pen

#that's how I feel #an rambles #Selena gomez #taylor swift

[sleep-nurse]

How does it feel to be awesome person ever

I'M???????? THE MOST?? AWESOME PERSON.....??????? 🥹🥹🥹

#asks #I DON'T BELIEVE IT #that's how i feel

[pryces-wife]

There's literally not a SINGLE Arihnda Pryce x reader fanfic, how am I supposed to live in these conditions. Not even Karyn Faro x reader. Nothing.

#im thirsty and there's not a drop of water #that's how i feel #im just waiting #and waiting #and waiting.. #- #arihnda pryce #karyn faro #star wars thrawn

[madkitty236]

I wouldn't wish having Physical Touch as love language to my worse enemy

#outburst #text #love #love language #physical touch #touchstarved #summer sucks #i hate summer #my family and friends hate me #that's how i feel

[dinocam13]

listening to some tay/harry songs is like getting hugged in the ears

#idk if this shit makes sense but yeah #that's how i feel #taylor swift #harry styles #cam's trying to talk

[boyduroy]

fine I'll say it

the first how to train your dragon movie is the best one and the sequels don't come close

that movie just hit in such a special, unique way and the sequels forgot all of that

The animation, characterization, and writing feel lackluster in the sequels

I know it's like "oh cool, dragon armor and new species" but 2 and 3 lost all the charm and texture of the first movie

Hiccup doesn't retain any of his subtle intricacies and Toothless goes from complex creature with his own feelings and understanding to an overgrown pet

not to mention Astrid loses all her attitude (basically I think she softened too much too fast; it was a better transition over the course of the first movie, then in 2 she's just silly)

tl;dr httyd is very special to me, I saw it at a pivotal moment in my life and it still holds a special place in my heart, but 2 and 3 just fall flat of their predecessor in my opinion

anyway thanks for coming to my tedtalk

#how to train your dragon #httyd #that's how i feel #unpopular opinion

[thehie]

Anno Domini 2070: I'm still waiting for Hinamori and Aizen reunion behind my researcher desk, Kubo achieved immortality long time before and teased Hell Arc' second chapter due to 2100, I die in vain and my reincarnation will wait again.

#bleach #that's how i feel #momo hinamori #aizen sousuke #aihina #bold of me to assume 2070 #more like duemilamai

[twelvedaysinaugust]

Thoughts on the separate dressing rooms? Cause some people are saying it proves H and L shared, but I really think that’s wishful thinking. I think it leans more heavily to say there was a lack of cohesion there at the end and they were pretty much separate before they split.

Did you have any thoughts you wanted to share about the doc?

I haven't watched the premiere in its entirety yet, but I saw that clip and I agree with your assessment. I have no problem thinking 2015 was messy and complicated.

I did see the doc in theaters and it was exactly what I was expecting. I liked it a lot, I don't feel like I learned anything new, and I think it was a nice but carefully curated look at Louis and his life.

I don't really have that much to add that hasn't already been said, but I agree that what wasn't addressed was most interesting. And it did kind of confirm to me that Eleanor was not Louis' romantic partner. If she was, I think she would have been included in the documentary alongside Louis' family and friends. If the breakup supposedly occurred around Christmas as the article said, the editing would have been well underway by that time as the documentary was released three months later. And the concept and vision for the project would have existed from the beginning. So I don't think there was ever a plan to include Eleanor in the documentary.

I will say, for a music documentary, there was not a lot of focus on Louis as an musician. It was really a look at Louis as a person interspersed with some tour footage. That's how it seemed to me. Which is all well and good. We saw clips of the shows (with some of the dates misrepresented) but there wasn't much about Louis' creative process, the logistics of tour, etc. Even in the AFHF documentary we saw those extended clips of him rehearsing with Helene and, if I remember correctly, AOTV seemed less focused on that side of Louis' life. I came away from the theater thinking this documentary was a way for Louis to reclaim the public narrative about his life and I respect that.

#to address the elephant in the room #it did not change my opinion that the situation is and always has been #ambiguous #I do have a position #that I imagine is wildly unpopular #I do not talk about it and it does not matter one bit! #this documentary was one of many ways that Louis has said #he loves Freddie and enjoys spending time with him #and I don't think that will ever change at this point #and I also think there are certain things that are complicated ten fold by being in the closet #and having kids and being a parent is one of those things #so lets not make it even more difficult yeah? #I understand the complicated and twisty feelings #boy oh boy do I feel them too #but let Louis have this #that's how I feel #now