#that's okay tho

[the-great-anteater]

We are always here in our past and future lives.

#william vanderboom #laura vanderboom #rusty lake #rusty lake roots #imagine realising you're trans in 1850s 💀 #that's okay tho #god bless they have reincarnation and shady rituals at rusty lake

[stripedwolf88]

I like how I just pretty much abandoned everyone on Instagram (except my sister) because insta has become annoying to me. But what is funny is me randomly posting a story every now and then so people know I'm alive but still boring as hell.

It's the same few people that look at my story that I'm sure are hoping for something interesting or are curious 'cause I'm never on there but all they get is weird random thoughts I have in my head that I thought were funny enough for other people to feel puzzled by. Essentially an update to them: I am still a socially anxious hermit that has a lot of random thoughts that I find funny and no one else will. Also I am alive and have not joined a cult if ya care so yeaaaaaah. Also why are you still here? You guys are confusing.

Haha. Random ramble of the day I guess. Toodles 😁

#random rambles #random thoughts #random silliness #instagram stuff #instagram stories #i am a weirdo #that's okay tho #My goal is to make myself laugh

[pico-o-malley]

I thought it would be a fun idea to kinda revamp the spidersona I did like a long while back! Her name and suit are a work in progress?? idk what do you guys think?

#drawings #spidersona #lmaoo i half-assed miguel's suit #that's okay tho #i had fun drawing her! #i'm the oldest too so i just projected it to her #you guys can interact with her if you want

[curbstompthestars]

so like, it's kinda crazy how not having something to obsess over makes me feel so lethargic and, frankly, kinda depressed

yet also having something to obsess over makes me ignore important things in my life, like chores or college work

it's essentially an all-or-nothing hellscape, but tbh i at least have more fun on the daily if I have something to obsess over and look forward to

#adhd-and-autism-wambo-combo strikes again #i had made this blog with the intention of like #following through with my hobbies and writing projects but lmao #that's okay tho #kinda just want a normal blog without the pressure of commitment #kinda like the blog i had for several years but decided to delete #i don't really regret it #anyways i guess this is a jjk blog now lmao

[lunaursstuff]

Why are you so cute

the truth lies in the eyes of the beholder or whatever it is they said

#Cath #cath asks #luna answers #gay #top sub #dom bot #love #appearance #gay attraction #my wife is hot #she's gay 4 me #cath's gay #that's okay tho #no hate #only love

[nearltheradiant]

make sure to give appreciation scritches to your senomy for her hard work. 💖

#Gravel #Arknights #succuart #i've been going feral over senomy my wife lately i just love her sm #Senomy #also realized gave my oc dockutah a 2b lookin arm and hand #that's okay tho #2b can also give gravel love #sorry for rambling

[fandom-trash-goblin]

i beg you to love me, say that i'm enough, but you tell me— why are you like this? i think there's something wrong with you.

for @shestrying

thanks to @acelania for finding the unknowns!

in image / desperation sits heavy on my tongue, tumblr user tullipsink / mary oliver, ‘north country’ / virginia woolf, letter to violet dickinson / in image / blythe baird, from if my body could speak / Alice in Bed: A Play' by Susan Sontag (link in comment) / lynee rae perkins, criss cross / elena ferrante, Those Who Leave and Those Who Stay' (trans. Ann Goldstein) / rainer maria rilke, from rilke’s book of hours / in image/ in image

#webweaving #webweave #poetry #aesthetic #quotes #spilled ink #poems and poetry #poems and quotes #writing #poem #spilled poetry #words #spilled thoughts #dark academia #web weaving #*mine: graphics #brought to you by my anxiety running wild and my brain deciding today's a fine; fine day to ponder on the realisation that- #- all i've been doing is failing since a past few months... years #okay tho this one looks sorta ugly #some images blurred some not; unfortunately; i dont have the diligence to correct it as of yet #we'll see #added sources - 27/3/24

[plaguedbyvisions]

there’s just something about the weight of a hammer in your hand. feels so right

#rambles #this is a dyke post btw #everyone tagging this as fandom shit get off the computer and go build something okay <33 #peace and love #those of you making it about wanting to bludgeon someone to death are fine tho

[great-and-small]

I was reading the Wikipedia page for fans of taylor swift and their “industrial impact” and now I have a crazy idea that will most certainly not work

#I wanna galvanize the swiftie army to save endangered beetles okay sue me #did have to make a fake profile tho in case people actually find it

[painsandconfusion]

Alright.

You ready for a hard 'tag your oc' challenge?

Tag an oc who doesn't have childhood trauma. At all. Who's family is still alive.

I'll wait.

#okay aaron meets this tho

[saintforan]

Oh no, he's turning him into bread!

#art #artists on tumblr #digital art #digital illustration #poppy playtime #poppy playtime 3 #poppy playtime chapter 3 #catnap #dogday #smiling critters #i really need to know how animators do this #i nearly died on this like 2 second gif 😫 #but thats okay tho i learnt how to do something new

[sunsestart]

It's one of my favorite headcanons that he doesn't have the greatest eyesight akshskdj he's just like me fr

#WHY DID IT TAKE ME SO LONG TO FINISH THIS #Undyne is gonna call him a nerd the moment she sees him #it's okay she likes nerds and Papyrus was always a nerd anyways #she's still gonna find it funny tho #sunsest-art #undertale #papyrus #sans #undertale fanart #undertale animation #??? #not really #but I'll add that anyways #papyrus fanart

[nataliabdraws]

blessed are the peacemakers

Check out my shop for prints and stickers!

#rdr 2 #rdr2 arthur #arthur morgan #rdr #rdr2 #red dead redemption 2 #arthur morgan fanart #rdr2 fanart #digital art #art #fanart #not me posting art of a man on international women's day #its okay tho bc arthur is a feminist

[inkskinned]

so one of the things that's so horrifying about birth control is that you have to, like, navigate this incredibly personal choice about your body and yet also face the epitome of misogyny. like, someone in the comments will say it wasn't that bad for me, and you'll be utterly silenced. like, everyone treats birth control like something that's super dirty. like, you have no fucking information or control over this thing because certain powerful people find it icky.

first it was the oral contraceptives. you went on those young, mostly for reasons unrelated to birth control - even your dermatologist suggested them to control your acne. the list of side effects was longer than your arm, and you just stared at it, horrified.

it made you so mentally ill, but you just heard that this was adulthood. that, yes, there are of course side effects, what did you expect. one day you looked up yasmin makes me depressed because surely this was far too intense, and you discovered that over 12,000 lawsuits had been successfully filed against the brand. it remains commonly prescribed on the open market. you switched brands a few times before oral contraceptives stopped being in any way effective. your doctor just, like, shrugged and said you could try a different brand again.

and the thing is that you're a feminist. you know from your own experience that birth control can be lifesaving, and that even when used for birth control - it is necessary healthcare. you have seen it save so many people from such bad situations, yourself included. it is critical that any person has access to birth control, and you would never suggest that we just get rid of all of it.

you were a little skeeved out by the implant (heard too many bad stories about it) and figured - okay, iud. it was some of the worst pain you've ever fucking experienced, and you did it with a small number of tylenol in your system (3), like you were getting your bikini line waxed instead of something practically sewn into your body.

and what's wild is that because sometimes it isn't a painful insertion process, it is vanishingly rare to find a doctor that will actually numb the area. while your doctor was talking to you about which brand to choose, you were thinking about the other ways you've been injured in your life. you thought about how you had a suspicious mole frozen off - something so small and easy - and how they'd numbed a huge area. you thought about when you broke your wrist and didn't actually notice, because you'd thought it was a sprain.

your understanding of pain is that how the human body responds to injury doesn't always relate to the actual pain tolerance of the person - it's more about how lucky that person is physically. maybe they broke it in a perfect way. maybe they happened to get hurt in a place without a lot of nerve endings. some people can handle a broken femur but crumble under a sore tooth. there's no true way to predict how "much" something actually hurts.

in no other situation would it be appropriate for doctors to ignore pain. just because someone can break their wrist and not feel it doesn't mean no one should receive pain meds for a broken wrist. it just means that particular person was lucky about it. it should not define treatment.

in the comments of videos about IUDs, literally thousands of people report agony. blinding, nauseating, soul-crushing agony. they say things like i had 2 kids and this was the worst thing i ever experienced or i literally have a tattoo on my ribs and it felt like a tickle. this thing almost killed me or would rather run into traffic than ever feel that again.

so it's either true that every single person who reports severe pain is exaggerating. or it's true that it's far more likely you will experience pain, rather than "just a pinch." and yet - there's nothing fucking been done about it. it kind of feels like a shrug is layered on top of everything - since technically it's elective, isn't it kind of your fault for agreeing to select it? stop being fearmongering. stop being defensive.

you fucking needed yours. you are almost weirdly protective of it. yours was so important for your physical and mental health. it helped you off hormonal birth control and even started helping some of your symptoms. it still fucking hurt for no fucking reason.

once while recovering from surgery, they offered you like 15 days of vicodin. you only took 2 of them. you've been offered oxy for tonsillitis. you turned down opioids while recovering from your wisdom tooth extraction. everything else has the option. you fucking drove yourself home after it, shocked and quietly weeping, feeling like something very bad had just happened. the nurse that held your hand during the experience looked down at you, tears in her eyes, and said - i know. this is cruelty in action.

and it's fucked up because the conversation is never just "hey, so the way we are doing this is fucking barbaric and doctors should be required to offer serious pain meds" - it's usually something around the lines of "well, it didn't kill you, did it?"

you just found out that removing that little bitch will hurt just as bad. a little pinch like how oral contraceptives have "some" serious symptoms. like your life and pain are expendable or not really important. like maybe we are all hysterical about it?

hysteria comes from the latin word for uterus, which is great!

you stand here at a crossroads. like - this thing is so important. did they really have to make it so fucking dangerous. and why is it that if you make a complaint, you're told - i didn't even want you to have this in the first place. we're told be careful what you wish for. we're told that it's our fault for wanting something so illict; we could simply choose not to need medication. that maybe if we don't like the scraps, we should get ready to starve.

we have been saying for so long - "i'm not asking you to remove the option, i'm asking you to reconsider the risk." this entire time we hear: well, this is what you wanted, isn't it?

#where's the word woman in this u might wonder if u suck #good news i am nonbinary and have a uterus so that is something that can happen #im also gender fluid tho which means im immune to certain psychic damage bc if u call me a woman i'll be like <3 okay <3 #writeblr #the tightrope of ''ppl need access to this'' #and like also #''what the fuck is going on over there'' is like. so difficult as an activist #i was <3 punctured <3 during mine #and almost bled out on the table :) they didn't have anyone standing by bc it's ''just a little insertion'' #so i started crashing and i vaguely remember apologizing for the fuss as i heard my heart rate monitor start going <3 tachycardic <3 #she wasn't even a bad doctor tbh #ps btw the reason i even HAD a heart monitor is that i have a genuine heart condition and they knew GOING IN that there was a chance #i'd crash on the table #like my heart just likes to do fun little tricks and <3 stop working <3 (i do not want to discuss the specifics ty i am okay im ontop of it #and they were like 'oh u will be fine' and then she did do a puncture thru my uterus . pop! #and im sitting there dizzy and feeling my heartrate start to drop bc it feels almost. beautiful. like. the whole ground just #woosh! out from under you. and shit is like grey's anatomy. i'm looking up at her grey eyes #she's old she wears this nice shawl she's like got Cool Lesbian vibes and people are sprinting into the room #from other parts of the clinic unrelated to me. while the monitor is like a little aria singing #and shes like hey youre okay stay awake stay with me something went wrong we have to keep trying #and i remember thinking - i was trying to think of nice things. i have so many beautiful places that now overlap #with this terrible memory #i became dimly aware that there was too much on her wrists and hands. like #that was too many liters #and then when they had finished all this. i packed up and drove myself home #i have had (bad thing) happen to me. and the same feeling happened after #that numb almost lamblike bleating. you cry without noise. like. ur body is so shocked and ur mind so empty #you just stare at the road and everything everything is happening behind glass and static and you are standing so far away from it #while you hold ur hands at 10 and 2. and something in ur brain is SCREAMING at you - IT WAS BAD AND IT SHOULDNT HAVE HAPPENED #and ur just watching the alarms in your body going off and youre thinking. a little pinch! ha. i think i just lost something important.

[destiny-islanders]

i get it now

#baldur's gate 3 #bg3 #astarion #destiny doodles #destiny comics #even as an ace person when this happened to me i was like: yeah i get it. #i did try to burn his hand off tho #i'm playing with a full party of friends so i don't feel like i know what's going on most of the time haha #it's fun tho #reading the comments and tags and omg??? astarion is an ace magnet??? #okay i'm in act 2 now and i see a huge reason why. big spoiler tho so not gonna say but. yeah.

[comradekatara]

2 kinds of grad students (both massive nerds)

#id in alt text #avatar the last airbender #atla #sokka #zuko #zukka #<- seems like i may as well tag it. considering #sokkaxzuko #(secretly this is sokkaxsuki tho. just look at sokka’s hoodie) #modern au #art #mart #if you’re wondering why there’s only one pile of graded papers it’s because sokka saved that paper for last #bc the handwriting was so illegible #(and zuko is responding even tho sokka isn’t talking abt his work bc he’s touchy. bc he knows he isn’t ocean vuong) #also before anyone’s like ‘shouldn’t sokka be the one writing poetry?’ YES sokka also writes poetry but it’s like. #silly little rhyming poems #he would never do an mfa art is a hobby to him and he thinks getting a degree in it is a waste of time #but he doesn’t tell this to zuko bc zuko wasted so much time suffering in undergrad trying to pursue a ‘respectable’ degree #so sokka’s just like ‘okay. well he deserves this’