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thetonethetollandthethunder · 2 years

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Actually Citra and Rowan’s relationship is really good and the best relationship in the book (yes better than Greyson and Jerico) AND YES I WILL EXPLAIN IN HEAVY detail

Firstly, yes! It is a bit awkward in the beginning, because they ARE hormonal teenagers, they’re ONLY 16 in the first book, of course they’re gonna be juvenile, they’re kids. They don’t know what they’re doing. Their thrusted into a horrible situation where they can only really trust each other.

Let’s take their first kiss. An awkward moment but an important one to established their relationship.

Now this has been leading up for a while. Little hints here and there

They’re both thinking about it, them being together clearly. Both of them know it can’t happen, at least not right now. So Citra kisses Rowan, as an act to show, “We may want this, it can’t happen, so I’m gonna do this so we don’t WANT it anymore.” A way to quell it.

The two say they haven’t fallen in love with each other, and for Citra, that’s mostly true. She hasn’t really FALLEN in love with him yet. To her it’s still mostly platonic. But when Rowan says it he’s lying. HES fallen in love. He needs to know it can’t happen right then and there. And he understands, because the biggest part of Rowan’s character is that he CARES about Citra. He genuinely cares regardless on if he loves him or not, because he loves her, he cares about her.

Yes the scene is a bit awkward but thats the POINT. Don’t forget these two are 16 in the first book, of course they’re gonna be awkward THEYRE KIDS.

They’re forced to grow up due to their situation but at the end of the day they’re kids. And they’re gonna act like it at points.

Now let’s skip to end of the book, I’m sure we’re all WELL aware of this scene.

“I love you,” He said.

“Same here,” she responded. “Now get lost.”

AND ITS SO FUCKING GOOD MAN.

Citra doesn’t want to kill Rowan. She has shown that through-out the whole book. And she manages to not only not kill him, but make sure no one can glean him for a year. She’s planned this. And as Rowan is about to leave. He HAS to tell her. He’s on the run he doesn’t know when he’ll see her again IF he’ll see her again. He tells her he loves her.

And Citra loves him too. Because after their kiss her feelings became more and more clear. And she could say that because the rules didn’t matter. They just broke a rule, so it doesn’t really matter right now. But she knows it can’t be long, and he has to leave. “Now get lost” is a playful saying, so their last interaction isn’t too much. But something small, and fun.

These two scenes REALLY established things for the first book. BUT IM NOT DONE, NO NO NO.

Let’s jump to end of the the second book.

Now there’s a lot of moments that do establish their relationship but the ending really shows it off in its fullest.

The two know they’re gonna be deadish. They know they might not even be found for years upon years. In their final moments, it’s just them two. They don’t have to fight, they don’t have to be scythes. They can be themselves.

They can relax, have a bit of fun in their imminent demise. And the fact they can do that after everything shows how much they not only care about each other but need each other.

Now onto the Toll, there’s a lotta moment in here.

“Scythe Anastasia is not your concern.”

“She’s my only concern.”

This shows how Important Citra is to Rowan. She’s a big part of his development. Without her he’d still be the lettuce or something.

At this point he knows how important Citra is to the Future of the scythedom. He doesn’t have any other concern except her because the only thing he wants to see her.

The only thing that convinces him to not become deadish is Citra, because he knows she wouldn’t want that. That’s how much he cares about her,

“That won’t be a problem at all. Although after 117 years, your feelings may change.”

“They won’t,” said Rowan.

And they didn’t!

Eveb after 117 years HE STILL loves her. And now, when everything is finally over. They relax. They don’t have to be Scythe Anastasia or Scythe Lucifer. They can just be Citra and Rowan. Together and just be themselves for once.

THIS. This moment shows you how their relationship is. They care about each other SO MUCH. To the point where without each other they wouldn’t have overcome so many challenges.

And yes I DO think their relationship is better than Greyson and Jerico. DONT GET ME WRONG, I love their relationship. An explicitly queer relationship is amazing no matter what. But they have only had one book to develop their relationship. Citra and Rowan had 3, so their relationship is gonna be stronger yknow?

Anyways Citra and Rowan are the best relationship in the book and I have no regrets for writing this long ass essay!

Oh AND REST ASSURE I will be adding onto this when gleanings comes out and I reread the books DO NOT WORRY.

#i get why some ppl might not like it but I legally have to defend how well written and good their relationship is #the tone speaks #arc of a scythe #rowan damisch #citra terranova #i was gonna rb a post where their relationship was talked abt but I figured this would be too long and I didn’t wanna like derail anything

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tiredstressedemotionalmess · 1 year

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ok ok so if you like relating characters to classical myths…… what parallels do you think jet star makes?

ooooh okay, so, this was actually pretty hard to answer! theres a lot of characters where the parallels just jump out at me immediately and make so much sense in my brain and jts all just like. perfect (like party and icarus for example) but like, with jet ive never really given him much thought in relation to myths like this. i think bc hes already so intrinsically linked with the stars and the sky in my brain, i sort of see that connection as sort of the ultimate like. motif within his character. i never really related him to any other stories or anything like that bc hes always just been the sky and the stars to me

HOWEVER upon thinking about him with the specific context of classical muths in the mond, i have developed some Thoughts about... orpheus and eurydice. i know, i know, not really what i expected either but just hear me out okay

the story of orpheus and eurydice has always been one of my favorites; im a sucker for a good tragic love story yk? and ive always thought of jet star's character as, first and foremost, someone just filled with the most pure and genuine love for the world and everything around him. he falls in love with the stars and the sky as a kid because of stories his mother tells him, or because its the one constant in his ever changing life, or just bc he sees it as natures way of painting, of making art. he loves his crew in a similar way, where he sees them all as these sort of beautiful works, like these fucking blessings in his life that he never thought hed really get to have

he loves party and ghoul and kobra and the girl, and he loves his home, the desert, and the color and life that it brings. and so hes willinv to fight for them a till the ends of the earth, to hell and back

orpheus fails in his quest to get eurydice back, but i think the reason for exactly why is up to interpretation. maybe he doesn't trust that the deal he made was real, that she was ever behind him to begin with. maybe he turns around out of fear thats shes lost, or thats shes given up, or because shes begging him to look at her and he cant explain why he cant. wether or not jet star ultimately fails in his goals of saving his home and his family are also up gor debate, but i feel like no matter what he would consider himself to be a failure because he couldn't save everyone. i think he goes into bli's headquarters to pull his little girl out from hell, and hes so so sure that even if he doesnt make it, everyone else or at least someone else will along with the girl. he is going to save them all because thats what he does, he saves the ones he loves, he protects them and he goes down fighting.

and maybe as hes running towards desert with the girl and he chances a look back, thats when it fully hits them that no ones behind him like he thought theyd be. he failed and hes alone and suddenly hes eurydice falling behind the girl who trusts him to follow, and maybe hes icarus in a way, too, different from how party is because he chooses to fall instead

idk these were just my initial thoughts. just a whole lotta word vomit bc its like 1 a.m. and this is the first time ive ever really thought abt this in depth lol i might wake up tomorrow and completely disagree with all of this and write a response abt my ACTUAL answer to ur question (either way i will probably talk more abt jet and myths later bc i can im gonna be thinking abt this A LOT and im gonna have more to say later)

but yeah enjoy my thought process bc i was basically writing this down as shit came to me lmao

#asks #theres probably like a TON of super obviously parallels that im missing rn bc im Tired + when i think if them i swear ill yell abt it here #but for now this is what ur getting. i just took my first thought and kinda ran with it but i think it sort of fits. in a way?#if i articulate it right??#danger days: the true lives of the fabulous killjoys #danger days #jet star #ddttlotfk

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asexual-means-no-attraction · 2 years

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I used to have a discourse account and still follow some people I followed there on my main, but I've recently (read: in the past year) had to unfollow about 3 of them because they'd turned either into terfs or just became transphobic in general, and I just can't help but wonder what happened? They were transmeds (whether they considered themselves part of the group or not idk, but their beliefs alligned) which makes me think, you were so close. You had it all right there. How did you turn from seeing it as a legitimate medical thing to seeing it as people with mental problems or attention seekers? It baffles me because I always thought knowing the medical side of being trans is something that keeps people as allies. That something like seeing it as most of tumblr does, a vague feeling or just not subscribing to gender roles or whatever, was something that makes it easy to turn to transphobia because it's so loose and undefined. But seeing my former mutuals who I knew to be trans allies and who had a decent grasp of what being trans is turn to transphobia leaves me sad and so very confused

Thats the thing about the internet, it's an amazing place to grow more and more radical ideas. And you'd be shocked at how similar radical ideas are to each other, especially when they claim to be opposites.

You have to be really careful online. It's not hard to go further and further down a rabbit hole to the point of being unable to climb out. A lotta people start with very clear and understandable ideas about the world and other people. But the more time you spend the more things you see. The more posts that are specially written to make you feel anger, that leave out details, that use the worst faith example imaginable, that just straight up lie. And we've always been a society built on trusting others. Built on being social. All someone has to do is wear you down enough with "not everyone in this group. But looks at this person. And this one. And this one" to shift your idea of right and wrong, push what you think a group stands for, make you angry at them. You see enough shitty examples and you start to think it's everyone.

It's similar to the representation discussion. How much it can help a child's confidence to actually see characters they can relate to doing good things. Part of discourse is talking to people with other viewpoints. And when they keep showing awful examples it's easy to start falling for them without realizing it.

That's why it's important to also talk to people that agree with you. Look for posts that are positive. Look for good examples. Bot online and irl it's important to step back and take a break from discourse. Because when you dig too deep it's easy to get buried by shitty people.

You said you're wondering how this could happen. And it probably happened something along the lines of getting worn down from all the negative trans stuff online and all the transphobic shit from TERFs and tucutes alike. It makes you tired. The more you see it the more you forget it's not accurate. Humans are very susceptible. And we tend to go to extremes. These old mutuals probably fell into that and kept shifting their ideals to one direction little by little until it was a whole new idea altogether.

Much like my other post about how you're not gonna stop making someone transphobic overnight, you can't make someone transphobic overnight either. Changing someone's mind takes time. And unfortunately, the internet is a great way to do it since your posts don't go away. Discourse is a very easy way to start to fall into this too, which doesn't help. It's important to be able to step away, know when to listen and when to call bullshit. Not everyone can tho. It sucks. But the fact that they used to be supportive means they might come back eventually. So that's something.

#answered #ask #long post #i need to learn how to condense more #I type so much lol

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pjisskullourful · 2 years

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hey darling, i hope you're fine. can i request something for once you're finished with commissions, it you feel like writing it? Ethan x reader, where ethan tells her to sit on his face for a round of cunnilingus, she is a little insecure at first because she's heavy and he assures her it's okay and gives her a well deserved treat once she sits, grazie xxx

can i write that? yes. can i spend a whole lotta time fixating/fantasising about that scenario til im a totally blissed out dehydrated mess? also yes...

already the mind is racing. maybe y/n being apprehensive at first, like really wanting it& loving the idea of that powerplay of being the one on top-- but at the sametime talking yourself out of it cos you think hes only offering to be nice/polite/repaying times you've gone down on him& what if you take too long to finish& he gets a crick in his neck from it(or worse)

so you agree& climb aboard. but mentally you're like, this can just be the foreplay, i'll get a couple of really hot minutes out of this& that'll be enough, then i'll get off so he can breathe& do something more comfortable for him

but plot twist!! his oral skills are second to none& you literally cannot bear the thought of it ending before you cum. so your innerdialogue of just a couple more seconds-- becomes, just a couple more swirls from his tongue/pumps from his finger, just a couple more little peaks of electricity in my body

& hes ecstatic that you're getting into it/letting yourself go& he cant wait to eat you to completion& then eat a lil more after(cos lowkey thats like the most fun part of eating, in my humble homosexual opinion). & you get to cum all over his face& hes so thrilled that you trusted him to let him take care ofyou so fully& he reasures you that you have nothing to feel selfish over& maybe lets you fall asleep straightaway& its not the kind of thing he did in order to get something back

& you're like yay cos you've overcome oneof your insecurities & everyday he is fucking you into a more confident person

... something like that henny?

#pj answers #anon request! ethan #its been a hoe hours kinda day

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jaxson-v · 2 years

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rules: put your "on repeat" playlist on shuffle and list the first ten songs, then tag some people. tagged by the legend @lisascumslut78

this is about to be a whole lotta hailee steinfeld

1. Most Girls by Hailee Steinfeld

2. Cruel Summer by Taylor Swift

3. Capital Letters by Hailee Steinfeld

4. Trust Fund Baby by Why Don’t We

5. Just My Type by The Vamps

6. THATS WHAT I WANT by Lil Nas X

7. I Love You’s by Hailee Steinfeld

8. Troublemaker by Olly Murs

9. Love Myself by Hailee Steinfeld

10. You’re Such A by Hailee Steinfeld

#LMAOO that went exactly as I thought it would #tag game

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safesthavenoutsideofexistence · 2 days

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wtf I’m getting married to Laika this year. Well that makes sense since the without inevitably matches the within. And my within is rigged to give me my dream reality. My within is rigged to give me my imaginary reality. I never ignore the off feeling. I allow it to guide me. My fears are very small and harmless. Easy to wipe out. I naturally receive what my Divine self gives me. I naturally just don’t doubt my Divine self. Laika and I fuck on the beach(chills). Laika and I trib and cum at the same exact time each and every time (chills). We’re too energetically aligned in absolutely all aspects. Fuck……that’s sexy as fuck. (Chills) it’s deep energetic intimacy. I’m an enchanter. So is Laika. I’m never deceived. I’m always getting the real deal. A WHOLE GEMINI. White hair black hair and GREEN EYES. NAMED LAIKA. Only older than me. My life is magical with Laika. We’re boating together in Italy. We’re eating delicious food. We’re profoundly connecting all along the way and I’m super super super duper duper grateful for it all. A whole lotta magic going on. Laika appeared out of thin air I ain’t have to do shit damnnnnn. Like tero taskila. Like my family giving Christmas gifts. And Laika feels so unbelievably safe. In absolutely all aspects. Like I’m so happy. I can energetically upgrade my reality. This is profound. The universe being unrealistic is staggeringly profound(chills). The way I see the universe is everything beyond our wildest imagination is staggeringly profound. I’m excited for the unfolding of my manifestations LIKE DUDE ITS INEVITABLY COMING. Let’s get more magical. Thats insane how ilan flies my private jet like I trust him THAT MUCH(chills). That’s insane he just randomly appeared in my reality. My desired reality randomly appear in my reality. It’s insane how I trust and even insaner how it pays off. Laika and i sees fairies together. The way my desires actually come true is insaner than me. It’s safe to be insane. Laika and I marvel at the fact magical creatures are real(chills). Damn my life only get more and more infinitely batshit magical. All of a sudden I’m flying high sitting at the top of trees with Laika kissing and it’s insane actually. The experiences I have is insane. 3:33. I never forget it only gets better and better. It’s only supersupersupersupersuperup for me. Like not even I can stop myself from achieving all I ever wanted(chills). Laika’s coming real soon dude….thats crazy. That’s crazy omg that’s AMAZING! I’m really genuinely excited and genuinely curious about how it’s gonna go when I finally meet Laika omg🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹I feel id cry because wow life is this staggeringly profoundly magical. My life is more magical and fantasy than absolutely all magical and fantasy movies that has ever existed COMBINED. I only get more and more infinitely powerful. I only get infinitely times more and more terrifyingly powerful. I’m an identity all on my own. I don’t stress about the how or when. It’s inevitably coming. I naturally speak in the way that makes sense to me. Animation imitate reality. Ima go unexpectedly viral. I’m at the right place at the right time all the time so it’s safe for me to trust. I’m rigged to be at the right place at the right time. I’m rigged to never make mistakes. I’m rigged to succeed the first time. I’m rigged to not have anybody to worry about. I’m rigged to not have anything to worry about. I’m rigged to have Laika. I’m rigged to be a Zillionaire Superstar. I’m rigged to experience all of my desired experiences. I’m rigged to have my wishes speechlessly fulfilled. I’m rigged to be blissful, at eased, wealthy. I’m rigged to to be the world’s number one wealthiest. I’m rigged to be the most powerful one. I’m rigged to be the most untouchable one. I’m rigged to be the most invincible one. I’m rigged to be the most successful one. I’m rigged to get absolutely everything I want and way immeasurably and staggeringly more. I’m rigged to experience the neverendingly astonishing Magic of life. I actually got my Genesis interior boeing 777.

#vaunts

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nonnydog · 2 years

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Dgm rewatch: ep16/17 - millennium swordsman/pride of the swordsman

Some analysis + commentary below!

(Ep16)

-hey!! Good lenalee speech. She has a right to be pissed at him for not trusting her to fight w him and also for damaging himself.

“I hate your stupid eye”

Oo he reacted to that didnt he

-ALLEN “coming thru a window univated” WALKER: “im not a threat”

-poppop seems to think claudia left on her own choice. And the fiancee seems… bad. Assholish. Are they directing ppl toward akuma knowing theyll die? Is this a power trip?

-fiancee seems to be pissed at poppop bc of privilege

-allen you good bro?? Man got real pissed at privileged dad and fiancee. Daddy issues again? Or just anger at assholes?.

-g-good animation?

-“they only care about themselves” ah. Common theme here. It was just anger at assholes.

-kanda and allen spoke about pride during lalas arc. He bashed allen for wanting to give lala time bc that pride was useless. But now here, kandas pride prevents him from using innocence. Theyre both prideful, but in dif ways! Neat.

-o thats a lotta blood

(Ep17)

-oh… innocence has the power to fuck up its users if theyre not properly attuned? Like Vitorrio? Jeez, God. Rude.

-theres smth here with the whole pride thing. Kanda refused to use his innocence (and so did Vitorrio). He says it was out of pride. Note that everyone in this town seems to like honor/pride/etc, as we see the dad being annoying, the fiancee manipulating his newfound power, and the bounty hunters disregarding each other for survival of the fittest. Hm.

Is kandas pride gwtting in the way here? Mr. “Have a plan!” Is now going with “ill figure smth out” when lenalee points our vitorrio regens.

ALLEN JUST ESSENITIALLY PUNCHED HIM??? hEEZ

anD KANDA LISTENED?

-vitorrio saw the akuma as men, people.

-OMAY KANDA POP OFF that was smart, actually. So. He took the advice, moved his pride away and succeeded. Hnhnnngngngn i feel like Im missing something here. Maybe its just a story of how pride is important but can get in the way of logic? Hnnn. It just seems like such a significant part of the ep. Maybe we’re just supposed to note that he listened to Allen.

-an arm is amputated… reminds me of something. ;)

-aww… its not loyalty that motivates vitorrio-its love. Oh its another sad one. She follows his message and leaves her dad and fiancee, but the ending feeling is a sad one. I like it! Im excited for the light episode next though.

#tw amputation mention #tw blood mention #dgm rewatch #i wrote this!#analysis

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hxseok-honee · 3 years

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im thinking about changing up the style of the spinoff too,,, like its still mixed smau and written but i feel like so many of these moments are just,,, stand-alone moments between them without it necessarily moving the Plot forward if that makes sense???

how do we feel about shorter but more written chapters or like maybe combined text and written chapters??? like one text convo followed by some written stuff in the same update????

#guys this au has taken up all my brain space i want it to be perfect #fake dating fwb with platonic soulmate yoongi is #it hurts me #just think about it #all the physical stuff thats so new to them like kissing and stuff but it still feels weirdly natural #it means nothing at all but EVERYTHING AT THE SAME TIME #just… how comfortable yoongiyn have to be #all that trust #to just add physical stuff to their friendship without being worried about the friendship #thats a WHOLE LOTTA TRUST #okay im done i think maybe probably not #blossom!yg spinoff

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tatakaebomb · 2 years

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Russian Roulette

ꕥ Pairing : Dazai Osamu x Reader

ꕥ Synopsis : “ Russian roulette is not the same without a gun, and baby when its love if its not rough, it isn’t fun ♡”

ꕥ Word count : 3.2k ( i got a little carried away )

ꕥ A/N : I only wrote this for my own sanity , not proofread bc thats for smart people // p.s just as a side note , this is an AU where Dazai never left the PM.

- i don’t expect much interaction but anyways, enjoy <3

ꕥ TW : alot. 18+, dark content , smut , rough sex, noncon/dubcon, unprotected, creampie, choking, oral ( f receiving ), fingering, teasing, spit lol, manipulation,heavy over stimulation, dumbification, russian roulette so gun n shit, use of slut and bitch like once, lil praise, dacryphilia if you squint, whole lotta mind games, dazai’s big dick, theres probably more honestly idk, lmk if i missed any.

You knew you wouldn't be able to get away with it, it was virtually impossible to not raise any suspicion among the rest of the port mafia - not when Dazai kept an eye out for you since you first joined.

At first you didn't want to do it, hell, you'd be lying if you said you weren't aware you'd dig your own grave if you gave away that secret to the Guild.

It was a foolish decision but the pay promised by their leader seemed rather enticing and who in their right mind wouldn't accept that amount of cash ?

Someone smart of course, you, however , rushed into things without thinking of the consequences.

Driven by your own greed , you threw away your loyalty to the P.M that you've been praised for - for years. All in exchange for some paper.

Truth be told, you should of thought more about the fact you can't spend the damn money if you're six feet under.

And you knew that deep inside, but somehow that trail of thought left just as quickly as it came when you saw the suitcase with stacks upon stacks of bills stuffed inside it.

You talked and you got your money. A smooth exchange, smoother than expected.

Its been quite a while since that happened, maybe a week or two - you've lost count of days since the feeling of guilt and the anxiety of getting caught has been slowly taking over your mind.

You had a long history with the mafia, the way they always treated you was an advantage due to your powerful ability. You quickly grew accustomed to going on missions along side Dazai and Chuuya and you felt like you gained the trust of everyone around you. Everyone but Dazai.

And just as it started to seem like you got away with it - just as you were silently celebrating and praising yourself for fooling everyone, the harsh reality hit you.

You'll never be able to trick a man like him, not when his ability to deceit and manipulate is much grater than yours.

You just fooled yourself into thinking you're safe- and even worse, Dazai just let you.

" Chuuya! let- go - " You struggled against the tight grip of the shorter man as he began dragging you along the hall by your wrist.

You pulled away back towards your room, he pulled you back towards Dazai's like almost you were playing tug of war.

" This is embarassing Y/N, even for you "

When he suddenly let go of your wrist, you fell down on the floor with a hateful look in your eyes, one he couldn't help but laugh at.

" You're making this much worse for yourself - just speak to him " He shook his head, leaning against the wall.

" Whatever he wants to talk about can wait, i'm tired and its 3 in the morning " You lifted your hand up, signalling for some help.

Chuuya stared down at you, his blue eyes fixating on your hand as he raises an eyebrow silently, not moving an inch.

This was weird to you since you considered him to be the closest out of everyone to you, usually you got along well so a cold rejection like this was nothing you ever came across before.

A bad feeling began to form in the pit of your stomach as you helped yourself up instead, dusting off your silk night gown with a sigh.

" Look, i'll go - if it's really that important " You muttered under your breath, rubbing your wrist as you bumped into his shoulder to pass him with a scoff.

You reach Dazai's room and you twist the door knob, pushing it open slightly while looking back for a second to see Chuuya staring back at you before looking down at the floor.

You shrug, knocking on the door a few times before letting yourself into the dimly lit room, the only source of light coming from a small candle in the middle of his desk.

" Dazai ? "

No reply, you step in further , leaving the door opened behind you.

You call out to him again only to be startled by the sound of the door slamming shut behind you, the air blowing out the candle in the process leaving only the moon light shining through the windows.

" Boo "

" Son of a -

You turn around quickly and throw a punch out of reflex which he catches with a sinister laugh.

" Did i scare ya ? "

You sigh of relief when you recognise his voice and your eyes start to adjust to the light but in a split of a second, you're spun around by him to face the window instead.

" Very fucking funn- " You choke on your words as a sinking feeling forms in the pit of your stomach when you feel the cold barrel of a gun placed to the back of your head, pushing you forward.

" I have to say, it's quite disappointing..." You hear the click of the door locking behind you making you freeze " but not unexpected "

" W-What are you talking about ? " You try to sound convincing as you feel the barrel push further into your head.

" You know exactly what i'm talking about "

You gulp involuntarily and shut your eyes, tilting your head back knowing you've already lost.

The pressure disappears as he lowers the gun with a smile and you hesitatingly open your eyes once you feel the warmth of his hand grabbing yours, leading you to take a seat at the desk.

You follow through silently as he takes a seat across from you, resting the hand holding his gun on the table with an expressionless face. The same one you could never read, no matter how much you tried.

" How much do you know ? " You finally crack, placing your shaky hands on the table as you avoid to stare into his brown eyes, the moon light reflecting off them.

" 1 million for the layout of our base, that does seem like a good deal " He grins, leaning back in his chair. You curse under your breath, your eyes widening as you realise just how fucked you truly are.

" I assume Mori already knows " You take a deep breath, accepting your fate at this point as you shakily reach for his hand, pulling it towards you so the barrel of the gun rests against your forehead. He frowns, looking at you from behind the trigger.

" P-Please spare me the torture and just kill me " You shut your eyes tightly and you hear the click of the gun being cocked back. And you wait. And nothing happens.

Dazai's laughter fills the room as you feel him pull away and you open your eyes, a sense of dread filling every part of your body.

" I can't fucking do this - please " You plead making him laugh more, waving the revolver around like a toy.

" So dramatic - i haven't told him "

Your eyes glisten with hope as those words roll of his tongue.

" Yet "

And just like that, you roll your eyes as you lay back in your chair. Too good to be true.

" What do you want, Dazai ? " You sit up in your chair trying to sound as confident as you can while watching him take out the bullets from the revolver.

All but one bullet.

Fuck. No. You knew where this was going.

" Play Russian roulette with me " He says casually, spinning the cylinder before placing it to his head.

You froze, puzzled expression on your face as you sit up from the table.

" Is this a fucking joke ?! " You spit out only to see his gaze silently turn to the same serious one and you knew he wasn't playing around.

Your mind runs with thoughts as adrenaline kicks in and eventually you slowly sit back down. It's either this or certain death and you realise you'd rather take your chance.

He wasn't the one to back down from a deal, let alone lie about one.

You nod hesitantly and he gives you a half smile, humming to himself before going over the rules.

" We spin the chamber every time and take turns - twist is, we have to say one last thing to each other and treat it as last words before pulling the trigger "

" H-How many turns ? " You nervously look down at the table before being forced to look up at him as he places his index finger under your chin, tilting it upwards.

" As many as i want " He gazes down at you coldly before retracting his hand leaving you speechless.

" I'll go first to ease your mind - "

" Wait wait wait - " You try to stop him,

“ Why are you doing this ? “

" Because i get a kick out of seeing a calm woman like yourself lose her shit " He grins, taking a deep breath before pulling the trigger with no hesitation.

Click.

You clench your teeth before taking the gun from his hand and spinning the chamber, pointing it at your head shakily as you maintain eye contact.

" You're a sick fuck and i never liked you " Your eyes tear up as you pull the trigger.

Click.

He chuckles as you breathe out before dropping the gun on the table, which he quickly picks back up.

" That's quite a shame, i've always liked you "

Click.

" Wh-What? " You furrow your eyebrows, your eyes glued to the man in front of you who looks eerily calm for the situation.

You impulsively snatch the gun from him, pointing it towards him instead.

" You're a fucking liar, all you ever do is treat me like shit " You choke on your words as you build up the courage to pull the trigger.

Click.

A small smile tugs out the corner of his lips as he stands up, kicking the chair behind him causing it to drop down with a loud thud.

" Come sit here, Y/N " He taps on the table surface in front of him and in that moment you mindlessly followed the instruction given, too mentally exhausted to try to fight this.

You shuffle onto the cold surface of the table, avoiding eye contact as you feel the gun being pulled away from your hand.

" Please... enough " You feel the knot in your throat as you try to speak, your vision slightly blurring as he gets closer to you, one hand resting on your thigh catching your attention.

You look up at him, his brown eyes looking darker as he bores into your soul, placing the gun to his head once more making you turn your head to look away.

You try to keep in mind that every last word and move he makes is calculated, it always is. This was all part of a bigger picture you couldn't see yet, you couldn't fall for it.

" Y/N, look at me " His voice is quieter as he tucks a strand of your hair behind your ear making you silently turn back to look at him, your heart feeling like its about to explode.

And you fell for it, the hatred in your eyes turned to pure concern as the silence grew louder, his bandaged hand cupping your cheek gently and for once in your life, you noticed his hand was shaking.

His usual calm and calculated demeanour seemed to fade and behind that you realised this part wasn't planned. This was pure impulse.

He brings his forehead closer to yours, his lips inches away from yours as he slowly pushes down on the trigger,

" I've always hated how close you and Chuuya are - part of me wanted you for myself "

Click.

" Shit, i said too much " He chuckles nervously , shaking his head.

Your eyes narrow in confusion, the words echoing in your head as he finally puts the gun down, pulling you in closer by the neck until your lips crash into a long kiss.

You push away, your mind still in a state of shock as you part lips.

" What the fuck...is wrong with you ? " You whisper out of breath, your eyes scanning his features chaotically making him laugh.

" You're having fun playing these mind games , huh?! Pathetic piec-" Your angry yell gets cut short by his hand tightening around your throat, making you struggle to talk.

" This is exactly how i pictured this - you're so predictable Y/N "

He suddenly picks you up, forcing you to wrap your legs and arms around him as he leads you to the bed, dropping you down on the mattress and firmly pinning your hands above your head.

The eye contact was killing you, seconds felt like minutes as you tried to struggle out of his grip.

" I played along Dazai - we - we had a deal " You choked on your words as you felt his hands slip up the silk material of your night gown, his slender fingers tracing circles around your thighs.

" Mm, but you called me a liar " His fingers begin to inch closer to the band of your panties, snapping it into place causing you to sharply inhale before letting them trail back along your thighs.

" Did you not ? "

" Fuck - I take it back - don't-"

You exhale deeply, your thighs starting to tremble slightly under his touch while he doesn't fail to take notice of.

" Too little too late darling " He smirks, his fingers tugging down at the thin material of your thong slowly revealing exactly what you didn't want him to.

You felt the cold air hit and thats the moment you knew you weren't imagining things. No, the mere soft touches from before really had you soaking although you knew this was wrong.

You couldn't possibly be turned on by him after everything, right? -

You get pulled out of your thoughts as you feel him grip tightly on your thighs, pulling them apart before he lowered his head between them.

" Fuck, you're dripping "

You looked down at him between your legs with a blush, the way his eyes pupils dilated in the dark light as he innocently gazed up at you.

" You want me too, don't you ? " He breathed against your skin, the small action enough to make you shift further into the bed.

You nodded your head no but you couldn't help the small embarassed smile that crept onto your face, you never imagined seeing Dazai in such a lewd position. His mouth inches away from your cunt, licking his lips impatiently.

He was always attractive but the way he was right now, the warmth of his touch and his intense gaze - you couldn't really blame yourself for being turned on.

He lifted his eyebrows in a nonchalant way with a smirk, not giving you any soft of warning before diving in, the tip of his tongue running circles around your clit.

You gasp, your thighs clenching around his head as he begins to move his tongue inside of you hungrily, his eyes never leaving yours as you tangle your hands in his hair.

" Shit - Dazai - don't " You cover your mouth in embarrassment after you let out a loud moan, your hips involuntarily buckling up to meet his every move.

He replaces his tongue with his 2 fingers, a sly smile plastered on his wet lips as he moves them knuckles deep inside you, quickly finding your spot as you cussed out begging for more.

"There - yes " You shut your eyes tightly, your hand slightly gripping the bed sheets next to you.

" Poor thing, you're gonna regret that "

Before you could process his words, he brings his head down for a kiss which you melt into, biting harshly at his lower lip as you feel yourself letting go on his fingers.

You open your eyes in a daze as he grabs your chin forcing you to part your lips before spitting in your mouth, his hand wrapped around your throat as you swallow obediently.

He tightens his grip, kissing the side of your mouth before quietly muttering something,

" You better start counting "

That was the first orgasm and you lost count after the 10th one as he continuously tortured you, his fingers feeling like they re going deeper and deeper while planting hickeys all down your neck to your tits.

Your body began to twitch as you pleaded with him, mouth hanging open as you felt yourself become more light headed with every touch of his.

" No more - please - can't " You whined, bottom lip trembling while looking up at him.

" Give me one more - and i'll stop " He whispers in your ear and at that exact moment you felt yourself cum again, your lower stomach burning as chant his name.

He takes his fingers out with a satisfied smirk, and you sigh of relief as he brings them up to his lips, licking them clean before kissing you, letting you taste yourself before pulling away suddenly.

" Guess what, slut ? "

You hum a response, not being able to say anything more as you saw him unzip his pants, taking out his cock before standing up and pulling your legs closer to the edge of the bed.

You widen your eyes at the size, looking up at him and chaotically shaking your head no as he looks at you amused.

" I lied " He lets out, tilting his head back with a quiet groan as you sit up slightly, your nails digging into his arms as you felt him push inside of you, the tip grazing past your over stimulated g spot.

" D-ah-Dazai " Your raspy voice calls out to him desperately as he starts picking up his pace, lowering down so you can wrap your arms around his neck as he drives himself deeper.

" Fuck - you're my bitch now mm? You'll follow my every word , is that clear ? " He bites down on your neck and you gasp, your mind going blank from pleasure as tears start running down your cheek.

" Yes sir , please - god -" You squeal as you clench down on him, your eyes shutting close as you cum again, your body feeling limp as you loosen up the hold on him.

He bites his lip at the sight, tears staining your face as your breathing becomes heavier and heavier, the way you continuously clench around him as your hands try to push him away.

He plants a kiss on your forehead before he sloppily drives himself into you a few more times, his pace slowing down.

" Good girl - ah" He moans , his head thrown back as you feel yourself get filled with his cum, your body jolting under his as you both try to catch your breath.

He pulls out and zips his pants back up while you curl into a ball, a small tired laugh leaving you as your body continues to shake.

" Fuck - you really are insane "

He chuckles quietly and you hear the knocks on the door making him step away slowly as he straightens his tie, fixing up his hair quickly before he unlocks the door.

You widen your eyes as he opens the door , your eyes meeting Chuuyas shocked face from the hallway before Dazai lets the door completely open, turning back around to face you.

No way.

You desperately try to pull the covers over you but your body couldn't move so you settled on covering your face instead. The embarrassment consuming your whole body.

" Not one word to Mori about any of this, ok ? " You hear Dazai's tired voice say before you hear the click of the door shutting and you slowly take your hands away from your face.

Your head turns to look at the clock which now showed 7:00 AM.

Crazy son of a bitch.

You sink your head into the pillow trying to ignore the embarrassment you were feeling and the fact you actually just agreed to be Dazai Osamu’s bitch.

Little did you know, this was just the beginning .

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infictionalwonderland · 2 years

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Marvel characters with stripper s/o !

warnings : mentions of nudity, obviously stripping & pole dancing etc, lotta sexual shit bby, protectiveness, fem reader

characters included : tony, nat, steve, thor, bucky, sam, wanda

anthony —

mad protective

offers to literally pay for your well.. everything so you don’t have to work

but if you say you like your job and you want to continue working, he won’t push

he’ll respect your decision

i don’t think he’d come to your work place because he just wouldn’t be able to handle seeing other people thirst over his girl

major respect for you tho

cause pole dancing requires A LOT of strength plus the heels and everything

damn

definitely makes you were some of your skimpy stripper sets in the bedroom babe

and those high high heels

yea those too

if anyone ever talks bad about you bc of your career, it’s on fucking sight

death to all of them ☺️☺️☺️

always asks if you’re okay when you come back home cuz he knows how pple can be

fuck he was that person

but ultimately, just thinks you’re hot as shit babe <3

natalia —

i don’t know why but i feel like she knows how to pole dance as well

so it can be like a bonding experience 🤪

she doesn’t like the idea of people staring at what’s hers, and hers only, but she respects your decision

came to the strip club you work at once and ended up almost killing everyone that looked at you so she never went back

but

she did make you put your skills to use for something else

thinkin’ bout people looking at you while youre practically half naked makes her blood boil but when thinking bout you half naked on a pole makes her horny

so it’s a mix of emotions 😭

i feel like she would get a pole dancing pole but in her room or something and make you give her a private show

and perhaps

perhaps

if you’re lucky enough she’ll give you one back.

steeb —

😮😮😮😮

is like woah, and even more woah when he finds out just how much money you make

obviously doesn’t like it

flushes bright red whenever he’s reminded, bc of the images of you floating around his mind

doesn’t make any comments about it and tries to ignore the fact ( not out of shame, just cuz he flusters easily )

can get pouty at times

like when you’re about to go out for work sometimes he picks up the courage to say ‘you can stay home and give me a show, not them’

will whine

is really worried about people’s behaviour towards you at work!

immediately makes sure you’re okay as soon as you step in the door after work, looks you over for any physical sign of distress

if someone makes any sort of judgemental comment, bby is stepping up immediately

just supportive and flustered, as a whole <3

thor —

you’ll have to explain the job to him beforehand

but then he’s just extremely intrigued

asks you to show him your talents and what you do when you’re at work

is like 😮😍☺️🤩 thats my girlfriend guys, when you show him your pole dancing skills

genuinely so impressed with you

doesn’t see anything wrong with your career in the slightest

though if he does happen to stop by and see how the people react to you...

⚡️🌩⛈⚡️🌩⛈

trusts you completely without a doubt, he just doesn’t trust the people of midgard

‘if anyone troubles you, lady y/n, shout for help and i will hear you even if i am to be across midgard’

or something like that 😭

will unabashedly talk about your profession if asked

your biggest defender & supporter <33

bucky —

‘damn’

might drool a little ;)

then the fucking jealousy hits

and he just cannot get over the fact people get to see what’s his and his alone

expect some comments- tho all with purely heartfelt intentions

might catch him trying to convince the strip club owner to close it down

& he might.. jokingly.. suggest you get of on his metal arm cuz you like dancing on metal so much

he has a thing for your stripper heels too, and the outfits 😩😩😩

knock the fucking wind out of him

considers getting a stripper pole in your bedroom or summin so you can give him a show

all for education purposes ofc :)

checks how much money you make in a night and sees if it’s enough for his girl

if it’s not, he’ll have you do a show and give you the appropriate tips he knows you deserve

sam —

‘damn girl’

honestly is immediately turned on as images of you on a pole in slutty outfits fill his mind 😩

but then he’s like hold up-

people get to see you do that

half pouts & half glares at nothing at this realisation

has you give him lap dances and while you’re doing it he’ll brag that he has you doing it for free bc you’re all his

hands on your ass, ‘this is mine’ then a prolonged double boob squeeze ‘these are mine too’

checking you for any hand marks etc as soon as you walk through the door

making sure your shift went okay

and making sure that you’re okay

has you take selfies in your outfits before you go on

videos are acceptable and more than welcome, as well

wanda —

just raises an eyebrow at you at first

she could literally read your mind; she already knew

she would have said something to you if she felt it necessary but it’s not like she would ask you to quit, your body your choice & your life your choices

honestly thinks it’s attractive

thinking about you pole dancing in the sluttiest little bikini makes her wet

a fantasy of hers is you giving her a private show tbh

those outfits tho 😩😩

she cannot get over them.

the thought of people staring at you lustfully does make her slightly homicidal but we move

jumps at any opportunity to see you in action.. just, in private

the muscle you’ve gained from your job does turn her on quite a bit

has her way with you after work & presses kisses all over ur body to remind you that you’re hers :)

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budugaapologist · 2 years

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okay dokay so like. havent ranted about him in a while and i was thinking about all the iconic shit edward's done while i was dying today so anywho, here's some things he's done that made me cackle while my organs plotted my death:

so obviously him making it his life's purpose to torment a frail old man just because his first paycheck sucked is iconic

scaling a building in broad daylight because he and stede couldnt find a bar

picking a fight with the first englishman that tried to talk to him in havana

glaring death rays at woodes rogers when he called him ugly

by immediately stalking roberts, believing he'd help him get rich quick after completing a series of tasks for the man, edward proved he would fall for a pyramid scheme

the way his ai is kinda fucked up and without fail every time ive done the mission he peeks around the corner in front of adéwalé in full view of a guard

like judging by mydickssoft's track record you'd think they'd morph into a freakish being but nah, boundary boxes force these tootie frooties to spoon

do you think he knows what jagabat means? i dont think he does

*names a ship after a bird*

"speaking of dark creatures, you are black!"

grabs a sword by the blade multiple times dude what in the fuck

"i want my key!" dont you have like. four guns. shoot off the locks king, opening things properly has never been your go to why change now

kicking locks off BARE FOOTED bro i KNOW that hurts so bad you gotta be bleeding how the fuck are your feet so smooth you abuse the shit outta them

you tellin me you paid another man to give you nipple tattoos? okay

you tellin me you paid another man to draw tentacles on your cleavage? okay

thats a lot of back tattoos there kenway. who are they for kenway. you cant see the player who are those for kenway. are you expecting someone to be behind you admiring them kenway

picture youre just chilling in your cool half-underwater base admiring your treasure. all of a sudden a dummy thicc, unarmed, barefoot, and shirtless man pops out of the water and starts punching and kicking you to death

"you mad sap!" bro they are oysters and you have a whole crab and two knives. eat vane

surely going toward the man, who just left me to die in a cave, while i currently bleed out wont be a mistake!

why you dreaming about crawling on your hands and knees toward roberts kenway. why did you dream that roberts would be sitting on stede kenway.

him staring out into the void in that one dream sequence. "sorry bristol is too hard to render :P"

"so anne my wife is dead" "yeah" "would you like to-" "no" "aight fair enough"

he spent almost all of the game simping for a man named bartholomew

*bullies child daughter for not knowing difference between boat and ship*

why did he take his giant brig through a swamp. i think in that very moment adé became the captain, like the crew didnt say anything because this was for thatch but also they all silently were like "kenway dumb af"

"and would you be the devil" dude just call yourself a slur

put a lotta trust in the jackdaw crew to stay put while he went swimming for a couple hours every now and then

*******killed a man with piss*******

"eyo look at that massive ship in the distance. lets go fight it"

pets dog pets cow pets cat pets bird pets goat pets dog pets cow pets bird pets cat pets goat pets do

him continuously taking off the assassin robes to put on those god awful saggy pants. king your ass is amazing what did you do with your first outfit

never corrects adé when during battle and storms adé calls him and the crew sluts. eyo release directors cut of whats happening off screen boobsaresoft i wanna see whats goin on

why do you only fuck in beds why do you sleep everywhere that isnt made for sleeping

hes got like forty kids right

bonus adéwalé speed round:

*goes to brothel full of beautiful scantily dressed women that find him extremely attractive, just goes to bed*

"you look like a bowl of plum duff"

"i feel nothing but a hot wind on my ears"

what does edward have that makes you stay with him for so long (we know what he has we dont need to say it)

"this is where the jackdaw was sunk august" "cowabummer"

edward was definitely just a spoiled little figurehead captain for adéwalé right

"kicking chests is so two decade ago, i am going to brutally stomp down on them and shatter the hinges :)"

password is a song? okay i will sing it uwu [yes he is a better singer than edward]

"stop touching my boobs ma'am"

"i have a son? YOU NAMED HIM WHAT?"

bro one of his finishing moves looks like he smothers somebody out with his armpit. in reality, he breaks their neck with his bicep

"create a distraction? okay" *throws men*

#disclaimer. i love babatunde's name #i talk #assassins creed #adewale #edward #ac4 #when i say this game is iconic i fucking mean it #i could do this for almost all the characters

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