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pacifymebby · 1 year
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could you possibly do the peaky lads where their s/o who seems “out-there” to others (not weird like crazy and loud) as in doesn’t fully understand social cues, might speak before thinking, not understanding or realizing the vibe of a conversation in time/at all, but ultimately being good-intentioned and tries hard to act “right”? (essentially maybe being someone on the spectrum and if this sounds personal that’s bc it is lol) ty for ur consideration :) 🤍🤍
Okay so, i have adhd and suspected but not diagnosed autism so i based a lot of this on my own experiences but also just wanted to say thank u for the ask i love this its v v cool.
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Tommy
🌿Is probably taken back by it at first, his whole thing is being able to predict how other people behave and respond and when he can't do that with you he finds it throws him
🌿 At first... Once he knows he can't ever account for how you'll respond to him or how you'll feel about a situation he stops trying to control things or predict things and kind of realises he just has to be himself, no frills, no tricks, just plain old Tommy
🌿 Theres a moment the first time you meet, where he's talking to you, probably warning you away from the part of the city youre in, trying to put on the dangerous man act, when it becomes apparent that although youre listening to him (he thinks you're listening to him anyway?) your mind is clearly wandering and before he's finished speaking you cut him off with "Well i have to come here... Thats my favourite bakery," you point over his shoulder and he's a little stunned...
"Excuse me?" he looks at you in confusion, wants to ask why you can't just go to a different bakery but senses that if he does you might actually answer him...
🌿He realises pretty early on that any sense of danger you have is outweighed by your own stubborness/ routine. You're going to keep walking past the betting shop to get to your bakery whether he likes it or not, so he can either adjust and make time in his busy schedule to acompany you to the bakery, or he can let you get on with it.
🌿 So you get to see a side of him that he doesn't usually show anyone anymore. Things start out awkward but quickly become very natural once Tommy lets go of his need to control every element of his life.
🌿So other people don't really understand what you've done or how you've done it, but they notice the change in Tommy when youre around and they say that youve done him a lot of good. They think you're really good for him.
🌿 You're nervous to meet his family because you are aware that sometimes other people dont understand you, in a society of rules and set manners, you often come across as rude or a little odd... But Tommy would reassure you, probably by pointing out that youre about to enter a family full of "witches, psychics and murderous thugs" (joking of course) so how can anybody possibly say that you're the odd one...
🌿And when you meet his family he's watching you the whole time, trying to make sure he notices if you get overwhelmed or if you feel uncomfortable.
🌿 When youre nervous your habit of ramblimg very quickly can get worse and when he notices this happening he gives your hand a squeeze and makes sure hes following the conversation so he can answer when youre done... You have a tendency to leave people in stunned silence and he doesnt want you to be embarrassed
🌿 In the same vein, when you miss social cues, don't realise someones made a joke, don't realise you're being spoken to and need to answer, Tommy will gently, subtly nudge you in the right direction or just start to answer for you so that you know you can speak.
🌿 Also if its an important meeting or social event thats happening in which you will be on public display he will go through every step of the evening with you telling you what you should say when you greet certain people, when you should shake hands ect ect. He will explain different peoples personalities and mannerisms too, "When you meet him he'll probably try to charm you, he tells lots of terrible jokes, none of them will be funny but when he laughs you should laugh too, don't worry if you don't understand the joke, they're usually so bad no one else does either..." he will make sure you feel prepared to navigate the evening!!
🌿If anyone makes any sarcastic comments in front of you, theres a chance they will go over your head, but tommy will pick up on it and put whoever said it in their place. Hes probably more protective of you and feels he has to shield you from everyone who doesn't understand you
🌿 There are definitely times when he's been in the middle of a very tense conversation with one of his brothers or in the middle of a family meeting when the vibe is "tense" and you've not really picked up on the seriousness of a conversation, so have asked what to anyone else would be deemed a trivial question... John might smirk, Arthur probably frowns and can't hide his confusion... But tommy would just answer your question plain and simple.
🌿And the rest of the family would be able to tell from the look he gave them not to say a word.
🌿 When someone is flirting with you and you dont realise (because idk about you but unless someone is straight up "do you wanna fuck" i will not notice at all, and if they say something too obvious then i just think its a joke) Tommy will just quietly tell you, he'll be a mixture of proud and possesive, "you do realise what that man wants from you don't you angel?" "What?" "You..." "Oh, well... Thats unfortunate for him i guess?..."
🌿Ultimately the gist of this is that its amusing for everyone else seeing how Tommy has to relax and accept a loss of control when he's around you... And he is forced to open up, umwind and be less uptight because of you too. You definitely bring out the good in him.
Alfie
🐻 Alfie is exceptionally endeared to you, he thinks its cute when he catches you looking lost in conversation, he just wants to put an arm around you, take you under his wing.
🐻 The first time he met you, when he introduced himself to you and you didn't quite catch what he'd said so instead of asking you just hesitated, looking back at him waiting for him to say something else... He pretty much decided from then on that he was going to keep you around, he'd have a protective attitude towards you even if really you don't need protecting.
🐻 He would try to teach you a little about the streets of Camden, try to teach you some street smarts... Because he doesnt like the thought of you out there on your own... But if you weren't a quick learner he wouldn't mind. He'd be very patient with you, and honestly he probably enjoys being that person you look to for help in any situation.
🐻 He will also try to help you prepare for any social events which might be intimidating for you, giving you all the gossip and intel to help you behave accordingly with each person... Unfortunately he will let his own opinions get in the way, he'll refer to a person by his own personal insults "fat boy" or "mummys boy" little nicknames he gives to each person, which you may once or twice have been known to accidently blurt out upon an introduction.
🐻 He likes to catch your eye across a room and feel like he's your protector when he walks over, stands just behind you and picks up the conversation for you.
🐻 He can talk for England can Alfie and i think the first time you interrupt him, mid-sentence this excited smile on your face because you know exactly what he's talking about!
🐻 He'd be amazed the first time you cut him off like that but i think afterawhile, as he got used to it, he'd enjoy it, the two of you would have such long conversations cutting in on one another, talking about ten different things at once
🐻 Hes lowkey impressed by your ability to understand him and follow his train of thought when he's talking complete shit.
🐻 You're the only person who is allowed to interrupt him.
🐻 Ollie is lowkey jealous that you get away with all of your mishaps because he doesnt.
🐻 Alfie doesn't see any problem with the way you are, if other people say you seem odd or "out there" he just shrugs and says "wellllll i like 'em..."
🐻 More than that, Alfie actually enjoys the fact that you often misstep in conversation with others... He likes to see the looks of confusion on other people's faces when you say or do something they aren't expecting. He absolutely won't help them when you catch them off guard with a question they weren't expecting.
🐻 "Well? The little lady asked you a question... Didn't she..."
🐻 He would constantly be battling internally with whether to let you help him with business or not... On the one hand you'd be excellent at unnerving his opponents without even trying... But on the other hand you are so precious to him and he wouldn't want you anywhere near those kinds of people. Especially when you sometimes don't pick up on the vibe of the conversation, you might not realise if you were being threatened...
🐻 One thing he does find amusing but does spark his over protective and possesive nature, is that you never, NEVER notice when someone is flirting with you... You will giggle along, smile and be your friendly self with someone who is really pushing their luck... And alfie will stand there silently furious but also finding it incredibly funny that this man is trying so hard to charm you, is thinking that its working, but it actually isnt at all.
🐻 He'll cough, take your hand in his and raise your palm to his lips as a way of gently showing you his affection and passive aggressively showing the other man that you're taken.
Arthur
🍂 Arthur strikes me as spectrumy himself to be honest so i think the two of you would either get along incredibly well, having these fast conversations only the two of you can understand, or you'd constantly be misunderstanding eachother and getting confused.
🍂 I think he'd find it funny when you behave unexpectedly in front of Tommy, the fact that you really try to be "good" and polite in front of him but still end up mistepping because you don't pick up on the subtext of the conversation...
🍂 Arthur would find that both adorable and reassuring since he often doesnt pick up on those things either.
🍂 Honestly i think you would understand eachother better than anyone else understands either of you. You'd be able to have such easy conversations about the important stuff because neither of you would cut corners or pussy foot around difficult things... Youd just tell eachother everything exactly how it is/feels to you and then you'd have clarity that isn't there in your relationships with others
🍂 I think your inability to match up to societies expectations would marry up well to his "reject/underdog/outcast" thing too. You're both trying your best to be what other people expect you to be but you're both "failing" and through no fault of your own.
🍂 You would be eachothers salvation and sanctuary from a confusing and frustrating world. Instead of feeling like "whats wrong with me?" you'd come to the conclusion that the real question is "what the fucks wrong with everybody else? Why are we the only sane ones?"
🍂 He would be fiercly loyal and protective of you, if other people like his brothers ever made out like you had "a screw loose" or you were a bit "slow" Arthur would defend you with his whole chest (and fists depending on who said what where)
🍂 When he can tell that you're really struggling to follow a conversation he'll speak for both of you, whether he understands the whole vibe of the conversation or not.
🍂 When you are feeling overwhelmed he'll hold your hand in his lap and give it a tight squeeze
🍂 He fucking hates it when people flirt with you and you dont realise. Sometimes he gets frustrated with you but most of the time his anger is directed at the men.
John
🌼 Adhd king amirite <3
🌼 Who is actually interrupting who here? What are you even talking about anymore?
🌼 You and john would definitely be thick as theives, almost telepathic because you just get eachother in that way that only two neurodivergents can?
🌼 You'd balance eachother out as well, you'd be the laid back half to his excited child chaos.
🌼 Every time you "fucked up" in conversation this man would have your back, doubling down on whatever you said, always taking your side. He'd be fiercly loyal to you and you to him.
🌼 I think he'd make it even harder to concentrate on conversations though, you would be trying hard to listen in a family meeting and John would be whispering to you, knowing he finds it easy to distract you... So if you're missing the vibe of serious conversations its not your fault, its just you have the class clown sitting next to you and you're his favourite person so
🌼 I think you and John would struggle at first when it comes to emotional conversations. You know that bit in Wednesday when her love interest says "You're giving me all these signals Wednesday..." and like, as far as she's concerned she hasnt been giving any signals at all. I feel like at first thats how it would be... He'd be making it obvious how much he likes you... Cheesy flirting, real teenage boy flirting and you'd just think it was a joke IF you noticed it at all
🌼 And one day he'd just be like "y/n what the fucks going on here do you like me or not?"
🌼 "Well of course i like you John, i wouldnt spend all this time with you if i didn't like you..."
🌼 "You know i dont mean it like that y/n..."
🌼 "Like what?"
🌼 Basically you just being kind of clueless that he likes you and him just desperately trying to make it more and more obvious... But then when he finally cracks and says it to you plain and simple, you answer him plain and simple and he feels like a fool for not just talking to you...
🌼 And then when you are together it would be this learning curve for him, that he can't just say serious things in a jokey way because you won't know hes really being serious.
🌼 He has to learn to be a bit less childish sometimes... Only sometimes... Other times you behave like children together much to everybody elses frustration.
🌼 Together you for sure spell trouble and he is definitely ecstatic every time you cut Tommy off or ask him an unexpected question.
🌼 Finds it funny when you don't realise other people are hitting on you, but he does worry it will get you into trouble, that you'll mistake someone being sleazy with you for someone being friendly, so he keeps a close eye on you when youre out, even when youre not out with him
Bonnie
🍀 He's definitely been into you for way longer than you realise... He's been trying to give you signals for so long but they're all so subtle that you don't pick up on them at all
🍀 You're always referring to him as your best friend. You once told someone he was "like a brother" to you.
🍀 He's constantly suffering real teenage angst and yearning for you
🍀 Until one day you blurt it out in conversation and take him by surprise...
🍀 "I said something really stupid and I'm sorry Bonnie!" you'd say in the middle of his sentence about something totally different. Youd be awkward about it, fiddling with your shirt or hair, "I didn't mean to say you were like my brother... You're not that at all actually... Actually i think you're..." he'd be able to see that you are struggling with it but
🍀 He doesnt want to push you or talk over you so he just has to wait it out...
🍀 "think I'm what dove?" he'd be hopeful but not wanting to get his hopes up, because he's used to how unpredictable you can be sometimes, he knows you might not be about to say what he wants you to
🍀 "Actually i think... I really um.. You know..." he'd chuckle at that, biting back a smile as he plays with your fingers, definitely would enjoy teasing you when you steuggle for words/to say the right thing.
🍀 When you finally tell him he'd be so happy, he wouldnt even care that it had taken so long, he'd just be glad you finally understood eachothers feelings.
🍀 He'd be very supportive of you, he'd never let you feel embarrassed or guilty/ashamed if you felt like you'd messed up in conversation
🍀 Similar to Tommy hed make jokes at his family's expense like "You're worried you're the odd one here? Really little dove?"
🍀 Always telling you you're perfect and that he loves you, you're never going to feel like you're not good enough
🍀 Will defend you from any teasing that may come your way
🍀When youre watching him fight you don't hold back when you shout encouragement. You don't really understand when hes throwing the fight unless he spells it out to you first, so sometimes you won't realise and you'll be be shouting at him to "hit back, why aren't you fucking hitting him bon?"
🍀So he learns to warn you and tell you exactly how a fight is supposed to go before it starts. He's lowkey worried youll get him caught!
🍀Bonnie laughs it off when other people flirt with you because "well good luck to em i say, took you bloody years to notice me didn't it," but he does make a point of holding your hand in public, kissing you in public.
🍀 His favourite thing is that the idea of "manners" doesn't hold you back a lot of the time, if the other boys are being cheeky to you you wont hesitate to put them in their place and its always cutting and brutal, more so because you often don't intend for it to be.
Isaiah
🐀Doesn't have the trouble of you not realising he likes you because he is actually straight up with you from the very beginning. "I think me and you would make a good couple what do you say y/n..." "I don't know you..." "Well thats what a dates for... What do you say? I'll pick you up at 7?"
🐀Because hes so straightforward with you, you understand eachother quickly and you are able to trust him very quickly too.
🐀You'd never be confused about where you stand with Isaiah because he always says things simple and truthful and doesn't try to hide or sweeten things for you
🐀Still it takes him by surprise one day when he tries to, he's talking about a job he has to do for tommy, and he's not saying it but you know its dangerous... You turn to him cutting him off mid sentence, "so he wants you to kill them for him? How are you going to do it?"
🐀The way you offer up advice on killing them/disposing of the body so he won't get caught... You just want to make sure he doesn't get caught so that he will be safe, you don't really realise how removed and heartless you sound... When he points it out he says it with an affectionate smirk but you just shrug
🐀"well i just don't want you to get hurt... If i can help you to be safe why wouldn't i? How is that heartless?" he'd be forced to accept that youre right actually, its hardly heartless to care about him.
🐀He would be over protective of you around the others, if other peaky boys looked at you for too long, or tried to tease you, flirting with you and then snickering about the fact you don't seem to realise that they are... Isaiah would put them in their place immediately, wouldn't hesitste to hit them around the back of the head with his cap, shaking his head at them and talking down to them about how they behave like fucking children
🐀When you're worried about messing up in front of people he will be encouraging but in a "so what?" kind of way. He has had to spend his whole life fighting to be respected in the wake of a society that looks down on him for who he is, and his attitude to that is "fuck em" thats what he'll say to you.
🐀"But Isaiah what if i do something wrong and they think I'm..." "who gives a fuck what they think of you love, if you spend your whole life worrying about what the likes of them think about you you'll never be happy, they'll never welcome you with open arms so fuck em... You're fuckin perfect right, a fuckin star... Fuck em... "
🐀Expect lots of these angsty little pep talks.
Michael
☘️ Cares about you alot and can empathise with your embarrassment when you realise you've messed up in conversation by speaking too soon or saying something that isn't exactly relevent at the wrong time... He feels like he can feel it for you
☘️ And his response to this is to try and make sure this happens as little as possible... He doesnt want to make you feel bad about it because he knows you try your best and you just can't help it... But he also hates to see you embarrassed or being laughed at by others so he tries his best to help you get by in social situations
☘️He will write out step by step notes on conversing with certain people (like his cousin tommy who intimidates you) and if you're nervous about something like a job interview or just meeting someone important, then he will let you practice and rehearse the conversation with you too
☘️ He's very supportive in this way, and he'll never leave you to fend for yourself in any situation he doesn't 100% know you'll be accepted in
☘️ He will leave you on your own with Pol though, because he knows she will accept you for everything you are.
☘️ He does get frustrated sometimes when you cut him off but only when he's trying to talk to you about something serious (like your own personal safety) he's constantly reminding you to concentrate or listen to him
☘️ However when you're just talking about things together he likes to let you cut him off and start rambling about something, he loves how your face lights up when something interests you, or how you concentrate when you're explaining a new idea to someone. He could listen to you talk for hours and hours.
☘️ And when you are feeling confident in a social situation michael enjoys being a silent spectator just sitting back and watching you thrive. If you get worried afterwards that you missed the vibe of the conversation or you talked too much he'll shake his head "darlin you were the most interesting person at the table, if you ask me they should have only let you speak, we could all have enjoyed listening to you even longer..."
☘️ He warns his family in advance, and warns tommy especially because he wants tommy to be patient with you and will not tolerate anyone snapping at you or humiliating you.
☘️Really i think, michael was raised in a loving but judgemental family until he found his real mum, i think those prejudices would sometimes sneak up on him, so perhaps at first he would be concious of your differences, however he also knows that those exact prejudices are what meant he was taken from him real mum, they're hnjust and they target good people...so rather than hold those prejudices himself he would be extra concious of protecting you from other people who might hold them
☘️ He won't let anyone say a bad word about you ever, sometimes you'll actually have to be the one to say "calm down michael, he was just joking..."
I hope you like these and that they were what you were wanting, they've taken me a long time because i wanted to get them right i guess!!!
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kijosakka · 15 days
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alejandro,,, so fun <3 OKAY I HAVE MANY AN IDEA SO TO BEGIN WITH: panopticon
as established, panopticon is a Thing in this au mainly as a theme (but also a very very big influence in the creation of this in the first place).
panopticon itself refers to an institutional/prison design wherein a central guard tower and the construction thereof makes the prisons unable to tell if theyre being watched at any given moment; thus, self regulation.
^ dramaturgy, as an AU, focuses on noah acting ‘in accordance’ with the cameras in a genre-savvy adjacent manner; he self regulates. the ‘central guard tower’ to him is the audience.
to alejandro, however, the audience is not a variable. his competing does not factor in the audience and public the way noahs does; instead, his focus is shifted to his castmates.
to slot it in now, im talking about alejandros perception of the audience and the perception of him thereof (which, this and the above will be compounded upon with the stuff below further explaining alejandros facade/masking).
^ again, the audience just isnt a necessary variable to alejandro (at least, beyond *his family). playing in the manner he is, orchestrating and manipulating, you just cant fit in the time to placate the audience to make them love you. the more important thing is the opinions of his castmates, who are the real variables impacting his win.
and so, in short, alejandro is polarizing. people love a villain, but there is still the in-universe distinction of it being a reality show. it is real people; so, some part of TD’s audience will account that and denounce alejandro for being so comfortable in manipulating his peers so shamelessly.
[*his family, as seen in canon, seems to be something he is acutely aware of. he would be aware of how he presents himself, and would do so in a manner pleasing to them.
this is not to say hes unaware of the audience. he knows theyre there and speaks directly to them in the confessionals in a shifted manner (exaggerated/nitpicked for the purposes of this AU).
< where most characters speak about their competition to the audience, alejandro often speaks directly to the audience. tiniest distinction but i feel i should make it and emphasize it]
and now,, his actual facade; what it portrays, what it hides, and the reasons/motivations.
^ restating another post (ty ophe), alejandro has a mask of a person hiding antagonism. he acts like an idealist version of his actual person; kind, sensible, intelligent, considerate. athletic, helpful, goodhearted, compassionate, attractive to boot. taken to an extreme, holier-than-thou and patronizing. diminished, way overcompensatory, or maybe doormat-ish.
while this version of noah comes off as uncanny valley because no real person is so detached and lifeless, no real person is so perfect either. alejandro would trigger the same bells but to a much, much lesser degree. more like there were pieces of a puzzle missing rather than something distinctly wrong.
because alejandro seems like a person, he portrays depths and facets to himself (while all positive), and interacts with his castmates like how people interact with people.
it is, again, a the veil of an idealist person hiding antagonism. i don’t think alejandro is a cartoonishly antagonistic, unremorseful supervillain character (and hes not really portrayed as such in canon, but just to say), but he is absolutely not the perfection he portrays himself as.
now is a great time to add that alejandros mask heavily relates back to the expectations his family pushes on him; not only is it good socially (for the purposes of the competition) but theres probably a sense of validation there aswell (if shallow, because its still not an appreciation of the ‘real’ him).
^ and thats a Thing as well, the ‘real’ alejandro. flawed and imperfect, able to be irritable and snappy and meanspirited with arrogance hiding the cracks of overwhelming inferiority. as a person, that is, in intent for the game hes, well, an eel. conniving and slippery and manipulative and sly and vindictive and unapologetic.
and as for reasons,, staying in line with the burromuertos ‘high society’ position in this AU, maybe it was something like a way to prove himself; he works the social game and shows business promise because of it, and brings a hefty sum of money home to his family that he earned.
and his facade is an easy one, not only a way to show a sense of professionalism and keep the burromuerto name ‘untainted’ by blatantly unsavory behavior similar to someone like duncan, but a way to keep his castmates none the wiser while the steals the money from under them.
BUT within the au itself things umm do not go to plan as noah makes it his mission to unmask alejandro as just as fake as he himself is.
which brings about the topic of a very specific cast relationship: noah and alejandro
as,, yk,, the backbones of his entire au (ok its more like nervous systems. noah is central and alejandro is peripheral) i want to save a full digging into their relationship and developments for another post entirely (probably going episode by episode until pre london focusing mostly on alejandro, and then another post after i figure out the actual events of WT going through the changed canon)
but to just go through it very quickly; noah doesnt trust alejandro and sees through him. alejandro eventually catches wind of the fact that noah doesnt trust him, and i imagine it would trigger a wondering of how? spurred on by noahs whole ‘no substance’ thing.
and besides, nobody has anything on noah despite him being their castmate going on 3 years now. and now that he’s thinking about it, what does he himself really know about noah in the same way he knows things about the rest of the cast? that’s interesting. *
^ i imagine alejandro would be wary but not worried about noah knowing, simply because of the passive nature he’s read of the other. < poor alejandro. it is not nearly that easy.
[*interesting,,, i will cover that more on the actual post going ep by ep for their relationship. because i do have Thoughts]
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blobbyboiblob · 3 months
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Tw for very serious stuff! I can’t pit a finger on it just in case but also canon digging to create realistic touch to it
Dream: he went through several trauma
In the canon time line he experienced being used as a tool by villagers and wasn’t allowed to be negative
And he was forced to watch his brother clearly turn depressed and was unable to aid him(*He was 5-6 in that time frame I believe and already had enough on his plate*)
He was a people pleaser and was a child at that and was made to do things out of his abilities all because of the villagers
He than was left without senses for eons upon eons and was soon out of it and taught by, if I remember correctly, Lanny.
Lanny blamed him and Passive for the passing of Nim which was Nightmares-(*aka the corrupted guy, the negative parasite*) fault
And all Lanny did was teach Dream about his duties as a guardian and what has happened
Legit never thought “Hey Dream lost his ability to do practically everything for eons now! Maybe I should be considerate cuz his mental state may still be a 6-year-old!”
Nope
So meanwhile Dream is severally traumatized and still struggling to understand and live in this new world with all these beings and people and monsters
He’s also still mentally a child
So thats fun
He only starts to grow up and let go of Passive when he finds out Nightmare = Passive is incorrect, and Passive is a dead 6-year-old‼️ Which screws with him more along with clear trauma response to where he literally can’t see Nightmare as a not-brother figure so he wouldn’t actually *kill* the dude, he would need sever therapy yet everything still will go back to old ways because he’s a people pleaser
Corrupted & Passive: Now we need to remember, parasites need a body to secure their forms.. yes? Even a negative parasite! Now what if(Thank you Hobo my frien, ty ty sm) Corrupted was using Passives rag-doll body? Which would be bad wouldn’t it? Considering the pain and agony of his body being tore out and burned by the negative goop and the soon to start numbing pain of his eye-socket, which would ensure Passive was stuck along with Corrupted and forced to see *everything*. Along with the fact Corrupted is taller than Dream who is directly around Swaps height(*Swap father real 😨⁉️*) which means Passives small body would be tore into sections to fit the taller form and be a suitable vessel. So along with his agony and pain because of Corrupted he must suffer with being tore apart and semi strapped back together to be a good vessel.
So ultimately Passive regardless is a dead six year old and cannot date regardless. Would you truly ship a lil babay with grown adults?
Also another side note: going down this idea base that would mean if Passive somehow escaped the goop it is highly likely he wouldn’t survive long, as his bones would lack nutrients and strength along with having been destroyed and out together enough that it’s possible that one hug could dust him!
Normalize Dream being mentally around 6 still and being a people pleasing traumatized babay
Normalize Passive being a dead, traumatized 6-year-old that isn’t allowed to date- even in the “platonic kisses” way
Normalize Corrupted being an actual torture oriented bad guy cuz well- he was made that way 💀
Also this rant is cuz well
I read up on a small thing where someone took all of Jokus storyline and details and set them down in a Deviant art post! I decided to add headcanons me and my friends made and put a more realistic touch on it!
Tw for more serious based stuff due to well- Dreamtale lol
And of course, Dreamtale belings to @jokublog
Thanks for wonderful details to explore and joke bully people on 🙏
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scarsmood · 1 year
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hi!! Dont know if u do requests but if so any bdsm/kink stuff for a xenomorph kin? similar to that dinokin ask I just struggle to word things
Thanks for waiting anon, so I did some brief research for xenomorphs. Here’s some aspects I think are really neat about y’all, high level of mutation, resource control, territory management, cross breeding, castes. Reminds me of threatening wolves to some degree actually! Plus we both have blade tails so solidarity.
Onto kink suggestions, I would suggests honorifics like queen, king, soldier, royal guard. Face hugger would be a fun insult, same with chest burster.
I don’t know what your personal boundaries are so i’ll leave some warnings here for harder kinks.
-gore/cnc-
You can’t go wrong with a hunting scene i’d say. This can be non sexual optionally I personally find I do enjoy a good old game of hide and seek from an amped up predator.
Once someones caught it’s up to you how you might go about infecting or just eating them. You can buy wearable claws or grow your own. As a semblance to the knife tail i’d suggest knife play. Either with a fake knife or a real one. (Thats going to take considerable time to learn how to use one if you don’t know yet!)
Threats of ripping of someones limbs is crossing a bit into the bondage category i’d suggest trying bitch suiting someone which is akin to if you cut off their limbs. You don’t need a fancy suite for it. 4 thick belts or some rope works fine. Just need some background knowledge/research to get started.
If you like blood stretching/fisting can be rough on someones body (with consent) usually can illicit a decent amount of diluted blood that makes it look way more than it is. You can use food safe dye and add it to lube as well to get a gorey effect. Id just be careful looking at ingredient lists.
Using a strong Safe word is a great way be able to do some strong cnc play. Always fun. Forcing or being forced into either being inflecting or infecting someone sounds fun.
-disgust/bodily fluids-
With disgust I think you can do quite a bit. The acidic blood is interesting. Swapping it in with lemon juice or salt water for play could really make prey squirm. You might be able to make some sort of acidic vomit as well if you wanted to capsaicin and aloe vera might be a hell of a feeling rubbed on someones body. Nettles could work well also if you created a weak tincture.
Obviously pissing yourself from fear same with shitting might be someones vibe. Hell of a way to feel like your really getting them.
-bondage/experimentation-
Bondage comes to mind especially when you have helpless prey. Tying them, or you being tied to get experimented on. Can be really fun. It can go well with a wide set of other kinks. Tying someones limbs apart typically makes them feel more exposed while tying them together leaves them vulnerable and unable to really do much.
Great for a face hugger scene! Or chest burster you might just need to fill them up in other orifices. You can use gelatin eggs, water, lube I’ve heard milk or small amounts of alcohol can make different effects for someone. You can watch your prey go through every emotion its great.
Conversely being experimented on or toyed with while tied down is very fun! Nothing like a hesitant human scientist trying yo figure out how you tick. Goes well with substance kink. (If your of age) Alcohol is a great safe way to feel dazed. You don’t need to be drunk just enough to feel a little more uncoordinated than usual can make experiment subjects feel more vulnerable.
-food/prey-
Food could be fun. You might not even need to change much but simply directing someone to what they should eat (if theyre into that) or small quips about how you like the nutritional balance they got going on can be fun. Forcing someone to eat small gelatin eggs (thats a choking hazard wheeze) so your infecting them can be fun. You could even use flavoring since its being eaten.
Degrading someone and seeing them as prey in general can be fun. Circling around someone and commenting on whether you think it will be difficult to kill or infect them is a fun way to build up tension. Only referring to someone as “meat” or “prey” “human” can be degrading as well.
If its inverse only using scientific labels for the alien can be fun. Constantly reminding them of restrictions or consequences for acting out. A shock collar might be good to use here. You can use them on someones thigh. (I use it on my neck but hey, you didnt hear it from me) collars and ropes to keep your very own experimental subject in check may be required.
Hope this works! Let me know if you want any specific areas expanded on. I don’t mind focusing on subbing or domming more/ specific areas/kinks. All fun to me!
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skelletonscloset · 2 years
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Hello I have a request for a vnc x reader (gender neutral reader please) with Dominique Jeanne Noe Vanitas (Separate) if thats too much you don’t have to do all of them sorry about that. But the reader is normally a couple inches shorter then they are but they always wear platforms that make them a good amount taller then the character and sometimes teases the character about it the shoes look hard to walk in but the reader treats them like flats and still fights in them (Bonus points if they are boots and the reader hides a dagger in them) idk why I just thought it would be fun, sorry if that doesn’t make much sense
Thanks so much for the request Anon! I made them sort of long, so theyll be split up into two parts. I hope this is to your liking! Keep in mind this is my first request so im still getting the hang of things! Without further ado…
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Headcannons for a reader who is taller than their s/o ONLY when wearing platform boots
characters in this part include:  Dominique and Jeanne
~DOMINIQUE~
Domi is average height, resting at about 5’6 
and you towered over her at a looming 5’10
but she noticed it was only when you were wearing big boots.
which were always untied? 
how did they stay on
“how’s the weather down there Domi~?” 
she actually likes being the shorter of you two
she’s always been called “tall” for being a girl, but now having an s/o that was taller than her (regardless of how,,) is fascinating
 cool tho 
lowkey giving Domi ideas to change her wardrobe 
maybe matching boots in the future? 
likes you being taller, but the teasing has her rolling her eyes 
she enjoys standing next to you because she feels safe
this comes from always being protected by Louise, who was taller than her too 
Vanitas and Noe (mostly Noe) decided to have a little sparring battle since vanitas was getting a little too comfortable only using the book to fight a curse bearer. what happens if he just has to fight someone trying to rob him? so Noe proposed a little match for the four of you. Domi was very excited about getting to fight vanitas, ESPECIALLY by your side. 
the four of you went to opposites of the arena Noe chose to host this match in. you smiled down at domi, patting her head.  “ready domi?” 
Domi stared up at her s/o “only cause you’re on my team, (y/n).” her gaze shifted down to the boots you were always wearing. they gave you a good four inches on her. 
“your boots are untied.” 
“i know.” 
Domi tilted her head in confusion but shrugged. the match begun. 
in a split second you were already close to vanitas. 
then you knelt down, on one knee and started messing with your boot and laces. 
“now is not the time to be tying your shoes!” Domi wailed. then she noticed you stuck your hand into the side of the shoe. 
then out came a dagger. you launched towards vanitas with impressive speed and thrusted it towards his neck. 
Noe as always saved him by pulling him away.
so that’s why you always leave your shoes untied. Domi would take that into consideration the next time she went shopping for clothes.
~JEANNE~
Jeanne is actually VERY short for her age, being 5’3
you on the other hand were 5’8 
5’4 normally, however you always wore these boots that gave you extra height
you frequently teased her for being so small, “need me to carry you~?” 
“don’t worry, i’ll protect you!” 
“awww Jeanne, you can’t reach that shelf? here.” always with a smug smile
there were some times where she didn’t being shorter. but going anywhere in public could be frustrating. 
“oh is that your guardian?” 
you would always giggle and put and arm around Jeanne
sometimes you said yes to tease her 
she actually likes to hug you when you’re wearing the boots because she likes to hug you around the waist. 
she enjoys being out with you because if she has trouble seeing things, you offer to put her on your shoulders. 
she likes feeling tall  
she enjoys you being tall too because she uses it as scary dog privileges 
which she normally doesn’t need but it’s mostly to ward off Vanitas
Jeanne and you were walking around Paris at night on a little date. She held her parasol at her side, and held your hand with her free one. 
She noticed you felt more tense than normal, eyeing you from the side to watch your movements. 
“i think we’re being followed.” You said in a low whisper. 
Jeanne let go of your hand, preparing for a fight.  You slid your hand into your platforms.
“what are you doing?” 
you didn’t answer as you slowly revealed a silver blade from the side of your boot. “it’s just a safety precaution.” 
you gripped it tightly, ready for an attack at angle. 
out of the bushes ran a small bunny. A bunny. that was what was following you. luckily you didn’t have to use the knife. You sighed and slid it back into your shoe. 
“have you always had that in there?” 
“mhm, just in case. you never know.” you shrugged, offering your hand to her again. 
there have been times you’ve had to use it and been very grateful to have had it on you. 
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hedorah · 11 months
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What's wrong with orientalism in TMNT? || It's actually more probable that the creative team of most media don't go through fans' content, to avoid fans claiming plagiarism if the content does something a fan has also done. I'm not saying all creative teams stay away from their fans' content, just it's more likely they avoid it. Unless you have significant proof? || Your blog's cursor animation is cool.
1. not to say that tmnt is "irredeemable" or anything like that, but orientalism and anti-asian stereotyping has been a bit of a recurring problem throughout the franchise history ('87 especially... some of the lotus blossom episodes were hard to watch). for the last ronin lost years issues in particular, now that mike is going through parts of asia (japan, korea, china, mongolia so far), it really kind of becomes evident when taking into consideration how each country is depicted. more under cut cuz this got looooong
the second and third issues that partially took place in korea especially bothered me, since i'm ethnically korean with a family history on both sides of the border. unified korea is either portrayed like one of those neon, oversaturated, exoticizing pictures of east asian cities (see issue 2's cover) or dirty and full of violence, corruption, and criminal activity, depending on which side of the border mikey's on at the moment. the orientalism here is in this portrayal of koreans as a dirty, violent other for the turtles to judge and beat up. hell, donnie even calls them uncivilized:
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what the hell man, i thought you were cool. also, the writers saw fit to... turn all of what was china into a nuclear wasteland after a 9.6 earthquake in beijing? despite china being massive??? this is a confusing decision and i can only wonder why it was made
the parts of the comic that take place in japan and mongolia feature characters that seemingly exist only to help mikey on his journey and train him. i fucked up here and accidentally deleted a huge chunk of this paragraph, and i'm neither japanese nor mongolian, so i can't and will not get into the specifics because i really don't want to put my foot in my mouth talking about the specifics of cultures and ethnic groups that i'm not a part of
either way, asians in the last ronin: lost years are portrayed as an "other", a contrast to our american (mike explicitly refers to himself as "american" in issue 2) protagonists. they're either violent goons for action scenes or wise, hospitable mentors for mikey to learn from, but so far we haven't seen many asian characters outside of these two roles
unfortunately i think orientalism is something thats kind of hard to avoid in a franchise like this, where its primarily non-asian, american creatives writing stories that feature asian (japanese) characters and cultures for almost 40 years running (i checked, and i think there's only one asian american working on tlr:ly as an associate editor). ideally creatives would avoid orientalism and instead treat asian characters like actual people instead of "the other", but...well. yknow. to clarify, it's perfectly fine to like tmnt, hell i'm a MASSIVE fan with a decent collection of comics on my shelf. but i think its something that we as fans should be mindful of when engaging with the source material and fan works. sorry if my explanation is a little scattered, i need to go get dinner rn haha ^^"
2. at the very least, one of the artists scrolls through the lost ronin hashtag, he liked and rted my picture of lost years issue #1 and my ronin figures' boxes. i didn't really mean like fanfic or anything like that, just casual social media stuff, and so i didn't really want to bother the actual creators because lord knows how the twitter algorithm works. shit's dark magic to me and if i got pqrted id cry and wail because twt confuses me [exaggeration]
3. ty! i'm surprised it still works after all these years haha, i think i got it from this site
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ajaxdishsoap · 2 years
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*evil laughter* tswiffle ask game time. lover, the archer, i think he knows, cornelia street, death by a thousand cuts, soon youll get better, you need to calm down, ME!, and daylight for Reiji. i know thats a lot but >:) hehehe… And if u Want… possibly pick and choose those for ranmaru and lisa… 👁 ONLY IF U WANT THO IK THATS A LOT u and reiji give me Life
HOOOOOOO BOY ARE YOU READY. ARE YOU READY FOR HOW INSANE I'M ABT TO BE.
reiji (ft whispers in the dark on cornelia street)
lover: what's your favourite part of the life you've built with your f/o? - the softness the dedication the kindness and consideration for each other that informs every decision, the foundation of the life we've built will always be my favourite part
the archer: has your f/o had a positive or negative relationship with love in the past and how has that affected their relationship with you? - aha. oh the canon pain, so ik this prompt probably meant romantic but! his friendship with aine and what happened has led to some ah, interesting encounters especially given some old tendencies of mine. he'd be almost smothering at some points when i was really depressed because he was worried about me doing something stupid which would often in turn lead to me getting more stressed out and depressed and that's been. a bit difficult to work out
i think he knows: list all of the things about your f/o that make you fall in love with them a little more each time - >:) stupid puns, love for driving, food lover, nice voice<3, intelligent, quick witted, kind, and he's an absolute goofball (tl;dr i love everything about him So Very Much lololol)
cornelia street: do you and your f/o live together? if so what is your domestic life like? if not, what would it be like if you moved in together? - We Very Much Do Live Together. we fell into a rhythm pretty easily due to how sleep schedules fall. most often, ran-ran and i are up first, he goes for a run while i make lunches for him and reiji, and reiji normally wakes up while i'm making breakfast. daily chores tend to fall to whoever has energy after work, and the one who made dinner is banned from doing the dishes that night <3
death by a thousand cuts: how do you and your f/o handle bad times/how are you there for each other when life gets rough? - reiji is really good at seeing when i'm coping in unhealthy ways and redirecting me to better coping mechanisms, he also keeps an eye on me to make sure that i'm not responding to stress by taking on more stress which is a bad habit of mine. i on the other hand help him keep up with everything, make sure he's taking care of himself, and generally make sure he's not keeping track of everything on his own because i know exactly how stressful that is, i also make sure he actually gets down time at home instead of working constantly
soon you'll get better: how do you and your f/o take care of each other when one of you is sick? - haha. i normally get sick from overworking myself! reiji's way of taking care of me in this circumstance is effectively tying me to the bed and not letting me do any work (house or otherwise) until i'm better and then making sure i reduce my workload (i inevitably pick things back up and end up overworking myself again but that's beside the point). when reiji gets sick i can and will wait on him hand and foot, keeping him supplied with food, water, tea, tissues, etc. nothing is too much for my beloved
you need to calm down: do you have any lgbt+ headcanons for your f/o? - oh yes most definitely, he's agender in the sense of "i don't care how i'm perceived it doesn't matter to me and i have no real connection to it one way or the other", and very much bi. i take no criticism on him being bi no one's allowed to criticise me /j
me!: what do you love the most about your f/o? what do they love the most about you? - definitely how smart he is. like, man's brilliant across the board, and i love that. reiji loves my dedication to what i believe in and how recklessly i'll chase after what i want
daylight: how has your relationship with your f/o changed your opinion of love? how has their relationship with you changed their opinion of love? - (i'm not just answering this for romantic love) ah, we've both learned that love can do more than hurt. i, for the longest time, kind of believed that if it wasn't screaming, crying, fights, yelling, and toxic levels of devotion, it wasn't love. that's completely changed. reiji was scared of love, mostly because loving someone means losing them can fuck you up and he's experienced that multiple times, and through his relationship with me he's started to be able to handle that fear and be more open to loving other people
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ranmaru
lover: what's your favourite part of the life you've built with your f/o? - the fact that we're constantly pushing each other to be better. idk there's just something about the fact that neither of us is willing to let the other settle, leave negative behaviours completely unadressed, or backslide
cornelia street: do you and your f/o live together? if so, what's your domestic life like? if not, what would it be like if you moved in together? - answered with reiji
me!: what do you love most about your f/o? what do they love most about you? - i struggle to point to one thing and say "this is what i love the most" for any of my f/os but especially with ran-ran lol, the closest to holding that title is his kindness or his loyalty. the thing he loves most about me though,,,, hahaha. my willingness to challenge people and call them out when necessary, including him.
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lisa (my girl!!!)
i think (s)he knows: list all of the things about your f/o that make you fall in love with them a little more each time - her kindness, loyalty, intelligence, dedication, musical ability, baking skill, voice, everything about her is freaking swoon-worthy man
you need to calm down: do you have any lgbt+ headcanons for your f/o? - Indeed I Do, i hc her as asexual homoromantic<3
me!: what do you love most about your f/o? what do they love most about you? - "her entire being" probably isn't a valid answer but that's the answer you get<3. the thing she loves most about me is how caring and protective i am of the people around me
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rabble-dabble · 3 years
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I used to call you Rab and then I realized that sounded racist so now I call you Dab
huh! (i had to google just a second to see what you meant by that) it's nice that you thought it over and gave me a shortened lil nickname, rabble dabble IS kinda a mouthful but usually most people call me rabble or by my real name lol!
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thedancefloorsilly · 3 years
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Here's my first request 👉👈 how the main four would react if reader (who happened to be their crush) got rejected by her crush? Would the main four make a move on her asap or would they comfort her first?
AW hey welcome, love !! ok first of all I LOVEE this idea so ty for requesting ;)) I made these GN if thats alright!! hope ya like these and have a great day<33
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Gon
- I think he’d actually be a little sad for you given the look on your face! Of course, it would’ve pained him to see you with another person, but at the end of the day, Gon still wanted to see you happy. He’ll immediately go and try to console you, first trying to here you out in order to give his own thoughts. His advice is very genuine, and he says the most honest and sweetest things just to cheer you up!! 
- Gon will offer to do something with you that’ll guarantee to boost your mood!! Since you’re his crush, the boy definitely pays attention to your interests, and he’ll pick out one of your favorite places to go, together! He takes notice of how your mood begins to shift, and seeing that smile of yours again just reminds Gon of all the reasons why he likes you. When spending time with you, thats when he’ll realize that he mighttt have a chance with you now (but of course Gon’s going to wait a bit before he tries to make a move or confess).
Killua
- Killua was actually SO surprised to hear the news. Yes, deep down the boy did feel a little bit happy, but that feeling was drowned out by the shock when he found out that you got rejected. Words can’t describe the feelings Killua gets around you. With every look, this boy just can’t help but to fall for you even more. You’re such an important and special person to him, and to think that someone was just so blind to see what Killua saw was just absurd!! Then again though, he wouldn’t really know how to react IF your crush said yes.
- Killua will try and start comforting you first. Though he might not be the best with advice, Killua’s words are calm and gentle. He’ll try to sit down and have a talk with you, continuing to be a shoulder to cry on while you vent. Killua’s true feelings for you might even slip out when he’s giving you advice, admitting about how much he really cares for you and how much you mean to the boy. The sight of you starting to cheer up and seeing that small smile of your’s pop up on your face again just makes Killua’s heart pound. Not only that, but he couldn’t lie about the happiness he felt after knowing that he has a chance!
Leorio
- WOOO THIS MAN IS ECSTATIC THATS FOR SURE!! Yes, Leorio knew full well that it might’ve been shallow for him to feel this way after seeing the sadness it brought you. Then again, he’d be lying if Leorio said that he wasn’t just a littleee bit happy to hear. When you first told him, the man just responded with a loud “REALLY?” (maybe sounding a little too happy at that moment). But then he’ll apologize for how he sounded, trying to change his tone to at least sound a bit sad. Now, Leorio wouldn’t make a move on you asap, mainly because even he would think it'd be too soon. It might be a little awkward trying to console his crush getting over their crush but Leorio will make an effort to make you smile. 
- Yes, he tries to  his own little advice, but he also focuses on trying to make you laugh to cheer you up! The whole time you’re venting to Leorio, he’ll just respond by making a TONN of jokes about your crush. He tries to playfully make fun of that person the whole time in an attempt to make you smile. At that moment, Leorio will also be your own hypeman, giving you a bunchh of compliments, his own motivational pep talks, and much more to raise your spirits!! Once he see’s that his energy is rubbing off on you (making you less sad), Leorio will throw in at least ONE flirtatious joke to see your reaction.
Kurapika
- Once you tell Kurapika about the whole situation, he eyebrows raise in response because that was the LAST thing he expected to hear. He knew about how you were going to confess to your crush, but he never realized that you did it already (and unfortunately got rejected:( ). He’s definitely not going to use this as an opportunity to make a move because Kurapika thinks that’s just inconsiderate. 
- He tries to encourage you to tell him what happened with your crush Even though you’re his crush, the last thing he wanted was to see you sad. Kurapika will listen to you vent with open ears, and gives his own little reactions here and there. Kurapika hasn’t had many crushes in his life, but he’ll try his best to understand how you feel while he gives his own advice with the little knowledge he has. Like Gon, Kurapika will also think of all the things that make you happy, and take you to your favorite place to get your minds off things!! Overall, he’s very considerate about your feelings. Kurapika’s wouldn’t say he’s much of a flirt, but until you’ve fully gotten over your crush, that’s when he’ll (try and) start to romance you.
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after-witch · 3 years
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@kentucky-fried-hawks OMG ITS 5K THATS A DREAM THATS AHHHHHHH LITERALLY IVE NEVER BEEN MORE HYPED FOR A FANFIC LIKE IM LITERALLY SO EXCITED UR THE BEST OVERHAUL WRITER You need to write a real full length novel like ur writing style is really incredible i mean WOW
;asdf; ahh you are so nice!! too nice!! this comment made my week 
@saintdabi i’m embarrassingly excited for this
I hope you liked it! :)
Anonymous said:
In the town after she escaped. There was this beautiful wistfulness in your writing about things we take for granted until they are gone. UGGGGHH I LOVED IT! It made me so frustrated and sad and angry but in a good way!!! In my headcannon, the reader is able to escape again and this time successfully; living a happy a stable life as a big F U to Overhaul (2/2)
oh no if there was a part 1 to your comment, tumblr ate it. But ahh thank you! Forgetting little normal things and not even realizing that you missed them is something I liked about kidnapped yandere scenarios. What a nice headcanon!! 
Anonymous said: that overhaul fic I- 💀 he is so mean and that piece was so good, you really fed us well tonight 😭 I notice in all of your overhaul fics, he rarely if ever initiates intimate contact with darling. Do you think he ever gets to a point where he would be more open with hugging/kissing/whatever, or is he always pretty distant like that?
Ty!! He is the WORST, no consideration for your actual feelings. Just pushes and pushes to get you to break down and be more malleable. I think it takes a lot for him to initiate more substantial contact, it’s going to take a long time & his darling will have to be behaved and broken down. He’d take months to recover mentally if he went to kiss you and you tried to bite him. Eventually 
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imagining overhaul roasting me for my social media addiction since I don’t have an eating disorder. washing my mouth out for quoting too many tiktoks around him 😭💀
Normally I would say Overhaul isn’t one to force any sort of BDSM-like activities into his darling’s life but you would make him very tempted to buy a gag, lol. He makes you look at your dwindling follower count from your inactive TikTok just to fuck with you.
kentucky-fried-hawks: THIS MADE MY WHOLE WEEK THANK YOU THIS IS WOW WOW
I’m so glad!!! :D
writerandstudent said: Loved the overhaul fic! Would have reblogged by Tumblr doesn't always let me reblog post so decided to say I really liked it. It was so creepy! I felt so bad for the darling (reader), and it had be like cringing away from Overhaul mentally! Love that you hit that creepy/scary aspect of Yandere! (love me soft yanderes, but let's be real it's a horror story at it's core lol) When he was lecturing the reader and the soap thing I was just like: no, no, no, no, ack. Again loved it!
thank you for this comment! I’m glad it was creepy/scary, I wanted to avoid it being too soft! The soap was horrible to write!! 
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immortalpramheda · 5 years
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The 100 6x10 ‘Matryoshka’
Sanctum is on lockdown and the Primes are on the verge of morality, even more so now due to Kane’s sacrifice ensuring they cannot create Nightblood. After living for hundreds of years without the fear of death because there always the promise of another body someday. Now, the future is uncertain for these immortal beings.
With no time to grieve for a man she loved, Abby then finds out that her daughter is gone too. Slapping Murphy was partly anger at herself, for letting her addiction consume her when she should have been there for Clarke. But I don’t deny that Murphy somewhat deserved it. He did betray them and help the enemy. He did do the right thing in the end, but still, he was willing to help a psychopath who stole his friends body to prevent himself from going to hell.
It’s clear that after what Raven went through with Kane and Abby, it’s put things into perspective for her. She realises that she was aiming her anger and frustrations onto others unfairly. From seeing a brief glimpse of her reaction to finding out about Clarke’s death, it’s clear how much remorse she feels for being so caught up in her own feelings that she neglected to take anyone else into consideration.
Murphy's fears of dying are understandable but living forever is not the answer to avoid going to hell. Immortality is just avoiding the issue, morality means actively doing something to prevent it.
Russell’s biggest fear is the truth getting out. It could destroy Sanctum and all they’ve built. He was one who created this society by feeding them lies, making them sacrifice their loved ones for the illusion of these ‘gods’. They’re brainwashed into believing that it’s an honour to become one with the Primes, but really it means the end of their lives. They’re body snatchers, not gods and it’s a hard truth to swallow for the people who have never known anything else. Ultimately, once the people of Sanctum know the truth, that could be the key to bringing this society down for good.
Only four Primes are left now, until a null, Ty (who Ryker told the truth to earlier) kills another. He’s angered by the fact that he’s been lied to his entire life. He wants justice for his child and wife, who were given to the forrest as sacrifices, which he now knows was all for nothing. He kills Simone, and that crushes Russell. Before he was willing to be merciful, but now he wants to destroy all the people who have started to burn his world down.
Ryker seemed like he’d be an ally, until at the last minute he had a change of heart and knocked Echo out. As much as he wishes they weren’t, the Primes are his family. Now that there are so few left, and their future is uncertain, he decides to choose them over doing the right thing. He has shown to have doubts about their way of life, and was even the person who let Gabriel go. But at the end of the day, he still benefits from being a Prime, and it seems he’s not willing to give that up.
For a minute I thought all of the characters tied to the stakes were going to be burnt alive. I legit believed that the show might actually go through with killing them all. I saw no way out. But of course it’s Murphy who talks his way out of it. He suggests they could use bone marrow to make more Nightblood, just like Abby did to Clarke.
They all play along so they can live to see another day. Russell won’t allow them to experiment on a Prime, they’re too valuable. Madi will be the test subject.
Madi is another problem. She’s become a murder child possessed by a dark force, which is unsettling to see. She changed the passphrase so taking the Flame out is not an option. But, if Raven has Becca’s notebook and access to a computer, then she should be able to delete Sheidheda’s code and free the other Commanders who are trapped in the Flame somewhere. I originally thought Raven was going to be a part of saving Clarke, and that was how she’d make amends, but it seems like she’s going to be a part of saving Madi instead.
The Sanctum way of execution reminded me of when Madi saw a memory of Becca being burned alive by Cadogan. The Second Dawn cult was around when the Primes were back on Earth, and these two cults are both connected to Becca. There are too many similarities for it to be a coincidence. I think they must be connected somehow.
After Clarke has a seizure and blacks out, she wakes up back in her mindspace. Josephine’s memories are scattered all over the place. There is no door separating them anymore. Clarke quickly thinks of a plan before their brain completely deteriorates - float some of her memories to clear space.
Their mind is chaotic. More and more books litter the floor, with pieces of random memories spread all over the place. And there is no time, it all needs to be floated. They take cover in Clarke’s cell and it all disappears along with Josie.
“We can let the bad things that happen to us define who we are. Or we can define who we are.” Josephine has always let the things that have happened to her define her. She holds dearly onto every single memory throughout her many lifetimes and can’t let them go. It’s clear how hesitant she is when she doesn’t wants to leave a treasured memory of her and Gabriel. Without all of her memories, she fears she’ll be nothing.
Josie is self absorbed and seemingly incapable of feeling any kind of emotion or sympathy for anyone else. Except for love. That’s the most powerful emotion of all and it’s the one thing she can understand.
Blake siblings reunion! Loved the moment when Bellamy pulled his helmet off. Of course he came to save them. He’s reluctant to hug his sister, which is understandable. He doesn’t know the epiphany she’s come to. But it was a sweet moment none the less. And I’m sure they’ll be able to mend their relationship sooner or later.
“We’ve had our time. I have to let you go now.” Gabriel knows their time is over, and it’s time for someone else to have a chance to experience what they had.
When Josie’s mind drive is removed, she’s still in Clarke’s mind. She connected herself to the neural mesh and slashes Clarke’s throat with the same axe that her father used to kill her. But it’s when Gabriel mentions that the head needs to tell the heart to start beating again, when Bellamy knows what he needs to do.
“Clarke, I need you. Madi needs you.” Despite saying otherwise during the red sun, Bellamy can’t fathom the thought of living without her. Twice before, he believed she was dead and it almost destroyed him. This time, he won’t give up. He won’t lose her again.
The head and the heart. Bellamy gets through to her and Clarke gets the message. She kills Josephine and reclaims her body. It was through Bellamy’s love for her that literally brought her back to life. That scene was the most powerful profession of love that I’ve ever witnessed. It showed that Bellamy and Clarke cannot live without each other. It proved that love is not weakness.
I’ve seen some confusion about whether Josephine is gone for good. I was under the impression that the mind drive held a back up of her mind, meaning she still exists in there. The part that connected herself to the neural mesh was a copy and that is what Clarke destroyed. BUT since they started deleting memories and doing things you’re most definitely not supposed to do to a mind drive, it's very likely thats it’s corrupted. So I think there is probably a very broken version of Josephine still in the mind drive, but I’d say it’s unlikely we’ll see her again.
Absolutely incredible episode! The last five minutes were heart pounding and I don’t think I’ll ever get over it. I don’t really have much else to say other than I still cannot believe that this episode is actually real. It was better than I anything I could have hoped for.
Looking forward to seeing what the rest of the season has in store! I keep thinking I know where it’s heading and then it completely goes a different direction and exceeds my expectations. And I can’t wait for Bob’s episode next week!
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How did they they meet?
Hoooboy this is gonna be kinda long.
So, I have this headcanon that Rinoa was looking everywhere for a Garden who would agree to offer their mercenaries in exchange for a low price---which is a very horrible exchange. And she knew that.
First. Rinoa went to Galbadia Garden; the snooty rich SeeDs with more experienced fighters. Their headmaster declined Rinoa’s offer---as expected, but that hardly unmotivated the determined resistance leader.
Next, she applied for help to Trabia Garden. The best they could do was offer some technicians and a trainee to ensure safety protocols and offer security. And while that was a kind offer, it wasn’t what Rinoa was looking for. Trabia declined Rinoa’s want for their experienced fighters but gave her a referral for Balamb and allowed her to board the train free of cost. (They were a bunch of nice people.)
The minute Rinoa arrives in Balamb, she’s met with the sight of a silver haired woman ruthlessly kicking the snot out of some poor helpless burly guy while another man in a white coat brandishing a sword laughed hysterically at the woman’s antics. Indeed, that was the posse we all know and Seifer loves.
Rinoa immediately assumes Balamb is an island full of delinquents with a bad reputation, but that doesn’t deter her from seeking out what she came there for.
However, before she was going to head down the road towards the Garden, she was going to stop the brutal beating by stepping between the woman and the cowering man, DEMANDING they stop. She didn’t mind a brawl if it meant fighting for what was right. And they were vehemently out of line.
This triggers Seifer, and he decides to introduce the fear of god into the small woman’s tiny form. He leers over her, using his tall stature to make her feel small, obsolete, weak. His piercing greens bore into her skull. And if looks could kill? She’d have died a thousand times.
Rinoa cared little for his approach. She was NOT afraid of him.
She stares back, eyes winced, brows furrowed, hands on her hips. She challenged him; a huge mistake no one DARED think about.
Still. He was not getting his way by trying to intimidate her.
They stay like this for a good five minutes. Seifer breaks, finding everything about her...amusing. different. hilarious. surreal. He smirks, then scoffs at this little spitfire and tells her to get out of his sight.
Fujin ceases her brutal beatings on Raijin and notices Seifer watching the blue clad woman with a wide eyed stare, and a psychotic curl of the lips.
He did not want their game to end. He wanted to make her suffer.
So he  follows her...
Who developed romantic feelings first?
Seifer.
Rinoa was too involved with getting Independence for Timber that she didn’t have time for romantic feelings. Or so she thought. Yes. Seifer was cute. He smelled good. His voice was was like a melody to her ears, but it was normal to get infatuation. And Rinoa assumed it would pass. It obviously did not.
Seifer, however, developed feelings for her because she didn’t want him, and she never took his shit. He was a selfish asshole and always treated their meetings like a game. Until it wasn’t...
Something about how passionate Rinoa was about her cause woke something up inside of him. Her determination for what she wanted was inspiring. Just like a little boy he once knew from long long ago...
Rinoa’s feelings eventually grew the moment Seifer started talking to Rinoa about Forest Owls. He would show minor tender moments to show Rinoa that he sincerely wanted to help her. It meant a lot to her because of the lengths he went to make sure her dream would prosper. He didn’t care about Timber at all, though. He cared about Rinoa, and what she wanted. So, what was important to her, was important to him.
He promised her he’d become a SeeD, and offer himself in Garden’s stead. But not for free. She owed him a date, and she was already neck deep in a shit ton of debt---or so he claimed.
Rinoa loves Seifer, and still does to this day. Theres a connection she feels that cant be said with words. Its just there. And it always will be.
Who is their biggest “shipper?”
Raijin. Raijin likes Rinoa because she saved him from Fujin’s wrath more than once. THEREFORE. HE ENCOURAGED SEIFER TO CHASE HER. Lmao. But oh. Don’t tell Seifer what to do. xD
When did they have their first kiss and under what circumstances?
Very bad circumstances lol. Seifer is an asshat. We all know this. How he shows affection or interest is...unusual at best.
What he did was, he needled her over the smallest things, tried to convince her she was stupid, told her she was weak, and on one occasion prevented her from going anywhere by barring her path with his legs. He was sitting in a seat blocking the door, laid back, watching her freaking out to let her go. It was amusing. He LOVED playing with her.
During that moment of hysteria, he drops his feet, grabs her, and plants a good one on her. She answers with a big slap against his face and screaming about something or another. Yeah, yeah. He’s heard it all before sweetheart.
He laughs and simply says, “Wow, that actually hurt.” He bars her path again by slamming his hands on the wall behind her and whispers, “Do it again...”
Who confessed their feelings first?
Seifer. Though not in your usual way. I mean, of course right? He’s a pompous asshole. Confident as hell and really doesn’t care any other way. It was just.
“Yeah, yeah. I’m not concerned about what you’re saying, but I like your face.”
What was their first official date?
Uhhh. Rinoa is still in “debt”. Loooool.
How do they feel about double dates/group dates?
Rinoa thinks they’re adorable. Seifer thinks its tacky. And what if he got a boner? Its not for them. But. Oh well. they can look. He’s a pretty impressive guy and all. -rolls eyes-
What do they do in their down time?
I can imagine Rinoa likes to pamper herself with bubble bath, massages, facials, and taking naps with Angelo. She also likes to catch up with some of her friends with lunch or a little get together.
And I figure Seifer is doing something dangerous or completely stupid. You know. So he can come out in a blaze of glory.
What was the first meeting of parents as an official couple like?
Well. Being that Rinoa only knows Edea due to....reasons. She never got a proper introduction.
Seifer met Fury and he didn’t care to change his personality to look good in front of the General. And Rinoa LOVED THAT. Seifer wasn’t afraid to continue being himself even towards a man of “great importance”. Seifer was just Seifer.
Caraway HATES his guts.
What was their first fight over and how did they get past it?
Obviously over the stunts he does. He is reckless with how he approaches things and due to that, it could land the Forest Owls in hot water. Rinoa was PISSED with some of the things Seifer threw himself into for fear that he wouldn’t come out alive. She was constantly worried that he would die over just one mistake, and he NEVER took her worries into consideration.
He knows he’s hard to kill, and he always told her that. Why did she care so much, anyway?
Women. Right?
They never really got passed it. Just bored of it? It was the same argument over and over. Seifer was not going to change and Rinoa had to accept that. And she did, no matter how much it hurt.
Which one is more easily made jealous?
Uh. Both, honestly? Though I see Seifer much more inclined to turn the entire misunderstanding into a fiasco that would make you regret having known him. Like. Punching out a guy for having looked at his girl a certain way. Starting an argument with a guy at a checkout register for telling Rinoa to have a good day bc thats obv signs of flirting. (Yes, I am aware that is VERy toxic. Seifer is toxic.)
Rinoa is more reserved and wants to keep it between them. But she isn’t all innocent. If Seifer even so much as says “hey” in a certain way to another, Rinoa will do the same with a guy to make him jealous. Its just a cycle of ugliness lol.
What is their favourite thing to get to eat?
Who doesn’t like sushi, fam? ;D
Who’s the cuddly one? What their favourite cuddling position?
Rinoa obviously cuddles Seifer. She loves every snuggly position. Just as long as she’s near him she loves it.
Seifer prefers laying on his back with an arm around her.
Are they hand holders?
Rinoa certainly is. She wants to hold Seifer’s hand all the time.
Seifer thinks its pathetic and embarrassing as fuck. Buutttt. He’ll give Rinoa this ONE exception.
How long do they wait before sleeping together for the first time? What’s the circumstances?
They should have waited longer buuuut, about 5 months since they met.
Circumstance? They were horny? asdfjgdflks;
Who tops?
Seifer. He has more experience.
It took Rinoa a little while to really learn about her body and what it liked. She can top when given the opportunity.
What’s the worst first they’ve ever gotten into?
I’d say, their first kiss was the worst fist of the century. xD Pretty sure the people of FFVIII heard Hyne crying.
Who does the shopping and the cooking?
Both. Rinoa LOVES Seifer’s cooking. Rinoa is also skilled with culinary arts. And she also does the shopping since Seifer gets irritated and loses his patience.
Which one is more organized and prone to tidiness?
Seifer is really organized for being a scatter brained asshole. Rinoa is the tired little poof. She loves her naps. <3
Who proposes?
Unfortunately....we all know how this panned out. :’(
Do they have joined Bachelor/Bacheloette parties or separate?
Who is the best man/maid of honour? Any other groomsmen or bridesmaids?
Big Ceremony or Small?
Do they have a honeymoon? If so, where?  
Do they have children? How many?
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Journal#1: What’s been happening until now and what’s hopefully gonna happen later
Alright so, I realize there’s been radio silence until now, I’m still getting used to uploading weekly updates on how my process has been going and need to realize that everything i do revolving this project is actually part of the process and not just ...well..drawings. I feel like I’m a little behind, but thinking about it rationally, it’s not that bad (i hope so anyway...have to make it):
September: I basically spent September just tinkering with the concept. I had been sitting on this idea of “a comic about me meeting Scheherazade” for almost three years, but I never really sat down and thought how to turn it into a full start to finish comic...so there were some holes here and there. More on that on another journal. Anyway, by the end of september I had a strong idea of what i wanted my comic to look like, and made some concept art and doodles.
October (right now): So when i first tried to draw the pages ..I got a horrible realization: am I representing the culture correctly? I realized all of a sudden that altough i knew what i wanted my comic to look like, I didn't know how the details had to look like. By “had to look like” i mean that...i mean I’m drawing a comic that’s tying to the Arabian nights am I not? I’m representing god knows how many shades of cultures..I can’t just come up with how Sheherezade looks like or how her clothes look like or show the creatures from the thousand and one nights look like...I had to do some research...I wanna do it properly. At first I tried to do just....you know...quickly search on google some images. But the more I scrolled down the more i felt like it was all from a western perspective....all the images i was looking at were illustrations from western illustrators. I then tried to scrap that and just look up...uh. old Arabian fashion? obviously i only got more unsatisfying results that looked more like outfit themes for tumblr girls. I was spending too much time trying to look for the right pictures....and i was getting frustrated cause I felt like i was cutting off my artistic creativity. I mean the comic might be about the arabian nights..but its taking place in my imaginary world...so my view of it is still important right? so from there I decided  the easiest way to avoid both putting a western perspective and putting in my personal interpretation: spending  A LOT OF TIME getting familiar with ancient eastern art and epic literature and from there get inspiration on how things look like. It took a lot of time and research, using museum archives and also borrowing some books from the library, but it paid off. Sheherezade’s clothes and design are much more representing of  her culture.
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So yeah..october was mostly researching. I’ll share more on that later on another journal with some screenshots. 
Small confession: technically speaking I could have still kept on drawing...but honestly I was experiencing what i suppose one could call cold feet. I was researching and at the same time hiding from actually starting to draw.  This has definitely set me back on the process, but it’s not all for naught, since now i have no doubts about any part of my comic. I still like the thumbnails that i uploaded at the very beginning, and therefore will change the look of them only as I go, instead of just wasting more time on planning instead of actually drawing. In the end of the day I just...gotta start drawing. Which I have, by the way, and luckily for me it’s the research has proven to be useful. I’m not wasting time thinking about designs or how to fill space because I drenched my artistic “mind” with persian and indian miniature art and jewellery books. I’m just ...drawing and thinking about eastern art. I’m not saying im drawing persian art ...but im getting inspired by eastern art instead of a western idea of persian art...which is good enough for me. 
so yeah...not all for naught. Still stressing...but at least im drawing and thats the most imporant part right?
What’s next: I have 12 pages that I have to finish before in around one month and a half, which is not impossible. What I have to think about is how much I want to do in these 12 pages. At first, I wanted to go hard and color plus shade and light, but I have to think realistically now. At the moment, I’m going to stick with that idea. However instead of completely finishing each page, i’ll finishing the inking of all the pages, and from there decide whether I’d rather, in case, either give up colors or light and shade. Reastically speaking, color might have to be the ones to get taken out, simply because they take more time. With light and shadows I can still give a very good feeling of the atmosphere, which can’t be said about colors. Losing colors is gonna take a lot away from the comic, but it won’t take away the most important things. I have done a test on how only light and shadows would look like, and the result is not bad.
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So basically, I have an emergency back up plan, in case I realize the time is short. 
Additional notes: A big part of what eats away the time I put in my comics is lettering. I don’t like writing the dialogue for my comics because it takes AGESS to get them to look right, but it’s my preferred option over having to type dialogue using fonts, because while i dont like writing dialogue...i absolutely ABHOR fonts. Luckily, during class we learned on how to make our own fonts and I think that could be a good solution. We also learned how to make speech bubbles on illustrator...but the process looked quite long and I feel drawing them ismuch  easier. Or at least it is for me, since I always draw speech bubbles first and then write in them the dialogue..which apparently according to my teacher is something not many people do. Personally i find it much easier...and taking into consideration how i wanna go about comic (with the whole inking and then maybe coloring and shading), i think being able to just add dialogue later with illustrator after already having the speech bubbles in the pages sounds easier than having to spend hours on lettering by hand. 
...phew that was a lot of typing. But that hopefully clears up everything that happened until now in regards to the process towards my comic. By the way, i can’t keep calling it simply “comic” can I? I need to start thinking about a name....
anyway more journals to come yaaay 
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briteboy · 7 years
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yelling @ santi, i’m evil again (what else is new), SOME REALLY REALLY OLD ASKS, one GoT spoiler at the very bottom (beware)
*angrily slaps santi* GET YOUR SELF TOGETHER YAH POOP HEAD
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Lou and Fiona deserve happiness pls let it happen ty
they do ;-; it will happen, don’t worry, no one suffers forever <3 i’ve actually been planning out lou’s story and i’m excited to actualize it hehe
I just read all of Santis story. Dear god, it is amazing. I cannot begin to describe how much I love it. I have been really sick lately and have such a hard time concentrating on anything for more than one second but I have not been able to look away from this story, not even when I re-read it for the third time. You are an amazing writer and I have fallen in love with every charachter you have introduced. I teared up so many times and my heart began beating fast, it was really an experience.
OH MY GOD ;___________; YOU READ IT THREE TIMES WHAATDOSOIGODFSKL holy shit thank you so much, i don’t even know what to say right now lmao ;-; i’m just kinda in awe that i was able to grab your attention like that and that you enjoyed it so much and just askjdjfsd THANK YOU i can’t say anything else but just thank you, people like you make this all worth it <3 
A case of the novembers is the kinda story you read and you just know its going to stick with you for awhile. Like ones day, you'll be long gone in the future, doing something totally different, older wiser, all that bullshit, and you'll just randomly remember what a bittersweet story it was.
OMFG ;___; holy heck asjdjnfkdkjs this really got me right in the heart lmao. that’s the kind of story it’s always been for me and seeing other people interpret it that way as well is just mind boggling, thank you <3 
You are evil. My poor heart hurts. ;______________;
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you've ruined my life
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Life hack: listen to the entire Hamilton soundtrack whilst working out at the gym. By the end of it, you'll have lost half your body weight due to sweating and crying at the same time (pls help this was such a bad decision)
OMG that’s me with grimes’ art angels lmao i go hord to kill v maim and venus fly
hamilton fans also go hord i respect it. learn more about history get swole killing two birds with one stone
Okay this is so fucking random but a while ago you did a post where you talked about perfect bby gianni saying that he spent a lot of time in introspection and like Thank you 'cause now I have a word to put on this thing I do when I try to figure why I feel certain things or what my relationship with people/random shit is and why and yeah I kind of understand myself a little better now so thx a lot!!! 😘😘😘 Also, you're great.
i think i was actually talking about santi (’cause that’s where we’re at right now, in that period of introspection for him heheh) but YES omg that makes me so happy ;-; it’s a good word lmao and i do the same thing, in fact i’m always trying to figure out my relationships with everything in order to understand myself more. that’s kinda why i’m so into astrology haha. i’m glad you finally got to pin down that feeling for yourself, it’s the best when that happens <3 YOU’RE GREAT TOO 💫
NOOOOOOOO MY FAVS THIS CAN'T... LOU.... SANTI PLS... THIS IS A RIOT 😭😭
let’s start protesting santi in the streets
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Hi!! Umm I'm guessing you do but just in case, did you know there was a tear accessory? I think it's an eyeliner (cause you mentioned having to draw them yourself)
yeah i do! i mentioned the ones by s-club, i’ve used those a couple times. but i like drawing them myself because i feel like it’s weird to have the same single teardrop every time one of my characters cries (and we all know they’ve been crying a lot lately lmfao) if they didn’t cry often i probably wouldn’t feel compelled to draw the tears. but i don’t mind drawing them honestly, it’s kinda fun lmao. thanks for your consideration <3 
so im sitting here thinkin....... what if santi goes on this trip and coms back and lou is in a relationship!?!?!
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👏santi👏get👏it👏together👏
HE’S TRYIN
i want to die
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AAAH SOLE DEVELOPMENT BETWEEN CUTE DEVIL CHILD AND I ALMOST DIED TWICE TATOO MAN YES
I HAD TO READ THIS LIKE THREE TIMES TO UNDERSTAND IT LMFAOSDOJDKF BUT YES their relationship kills me the most ;__;
wait santi tried to kys :'(
WHERE U BEEN he did  :{
what font do u use in your histories?
arial!
hi u have a really pretty blog and I hope you have a good day
THIS IS SO SWEET I DON’T DESERVE IT ;-; I HOPE YOU HAVE A GOOD DAY TOO HONEYBEE 🌻
nyooooooom
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I WENT M.I.A FOR A LITTLE AND I COME BACK TO READ UP ON THE STORY AND HOW DARE YOU ASHDDJFKL
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@teishajenaie on instagram looks like Rooney to me, idk if you'd agree but ??
i see it!! definitely in the eyes and nose. also sorry i answered this literally like 3 months later lmao
gooey by glass animals gives me santi vibes :) ive been listening to it on repeat (bc im tht bitch) and it was making me think of you and his story! c: i hope you dont mind me over here lmao anyway, im excited to see where it goes and real excited for a back story for lou!! <3 lots of love
omg haha that’s actually funny because i used it in that one scene of him tripping, although it’s like completely a gianni song to me (at least personality-wise, it’s even on his playlist on my character page) and noooo i don’t mind, i love that song and i love when people recommend me songs!! i have a whole bunch of recommendations in my inbox that i need to acknowledge omg. anyway I’M EXCITED THAT YOU’RE EXCITED, especially for lou’s story, it’s coming up reeeeeal soon <333
i feel so late to the party but i Just started reading your story like five minutes ago and im absolutely entranced by it already and i cant wait to catch up and finally understand what to heck is going on
this was sent literally forever ago when santi and molly were out there being wild in the desert lmao so i hope you caught up and everything. “entranced” omg that’s such a wonderful word i’m honored
i didnt think i could love you more but the fact that you watch arrested development makes me so happy. i cry. my boyfriend has a mr manager, bluths frozen bananas shirt thats literally my favorite thing ever.
OMGGG YES i watched it once forever ago and i need to re-watch it asap lmao. I’M PRETTY SURE I BOUGHT THAT SAME EXACT SHIRT FOR MY BROTHER FOR CHRISTMAS ONE YEAR
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Just a biiig prank. Huge
this one is from so long ago i don’t remember the context but i laughed at loud when i read it. huge
i was playing with uncharted for the first time today and they said Navarro in it and i was like THATS MY BOI SANTIII
santi infiltrating everyone’s lives my bf played uncharted tho!! it looked cool. like indiana jones. i liked the marketplace part. a monkey stole his apple
Hi sunny! I really am in love with your story (even if it's tearing me apart at the moment) and just wanted to say you're cool Stay strong ma dude
HI THANK YOU <333 you’re also cool my dude and i’m sorry for tearing you apart (if it makes you feel any better this story tears me apart on a daily basis)
what packs and expansions do u have for ur game?
ummmmmm all of them except vintage glamour and fitness stuff. i wish i didn’t buy some of the stuff packs lmao but what can ya do i actually didn’t even get vampires or bowling or parenthood until like a month ago lmao i’m late to the party
Oh shit she's been dead hasn't she. Like this is all a drug or alcohol infused bender of mollys memory, she's probably never left. They're probably still at the hospital. I hope I fucking wrong but shit I also hope not. Poor santi
we’re so far past this but i just wanted to publish this anyway lmao it was a good theory! and this person was so sure of it it kinda made me wish it was true lol. sorry if that disappointed you but i’ll always remember this one in my sad sad heart 💔
how long did it take for you to make friends here? I started a simblr because I really like storytelling with my sims & I thought it'd be fun to meet people who enjoy that, too, especially since I don't have many friends irl...but I've been here for quite a few months now and it seems like no one even cares that I'm here....everyone I try to interact with pretty much ignores me after a message or two....I'm just feeling really discouraged about my presence here :/
I’M REALLY SORRY I DIDN’T ANSWER THIS SOONER ASKJDKJFSDKA (i’m sure it didn’t help the fact that you feel ignored, i really really hope you see this) but okay uhhhhhhh i only had acquaintances from 2015 up until like this year? then i started really becoming close with people. so it took a while lol, but i think everyone starts off slow because it’s mostly about the actual game we’re playing at first and then making friends just happens through that. don’t get discouraged, like i said it took a while for me. you really just need to reach out to the people you’d like to become friends with, reply to their posts, give your genuine thoughts, say something that’ll make their day...people notice that no matter what they have going on, i promise. i hope you’re still here and hanging in there. don’t get caught up in who’s talking to you or not talking to you, just do your thing, enjoy what you do, and people will notice you. <3
3. Hi so I just wanted to say that I love your story, I'm here for every update. I'm an s3 player I play s4 every once in awhile but s3 has my soul. I love Santi and I know he will be happy in the end, whether it's with Lou or not(hopefully it is tho) I only want him to be happy. I go through so many emotions in one post, like this is a tv drama and I can’t wait for the next episode. This is the end of my cut and paste. Have a nice day.❤️
HI HELLO <3 this is so sweet and i can’t believe you actually care about my story lmao thank you i’m glad you have faith in his happy ending, i don’t want anyone to think i genuinely like making my characters suffer lmao. i only do it to make the happy ending more satisfying. asjdfjksd comparing my stuff to film or tv always makes me so giddy so THANK YOU ily <333
"Suicide before you see this tear fall down my eyes" (Beyonce) reminds me of Molly's situation soooo muchhhh aaaahhhhh
OMG YES what a good connection. good song good connection yaeeahhh better call molly with the good hair
Ummmm... hello! I just read through your whole story with Santi and I'm like... holy fuck. Not only is your story wonderful, your editing is so good. I'm surprised I didn't shove my eyes up against my computer screen. Please continue making wonderful things and being great. Signing off 12:31 in the morning, I hope you have as much fun as you want to
“as much fun as you want to” omfgasdkngjd why did that make me laugh so much. don’t have too much fun, have the responsible amount of fun anyway HELLO thank you soooooO much ;-; pls don’t shove ur eyes up against the screen i’m almost positive that’s not good for them. but i appreciate this so much thank YOU for being great <3 signing off at 2:18 in the morning after ignoring this message for months now (i’m sorryyyyyyy) but um ily
HELLO??? I JUST READ A SERIOUS CASE OF NOVEMBER FOR THE FIRST TIME AND I'M LIKE CRYING???? y u do dis to me I hate you and love you at the same time
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(I need to rant I'm sorry) My uncle is really positive towards the army and war and stuff like that and all day he's been going on about how it should be mandatory to serve in the military, especially for "little brat girls" like me? And it's stressing me out so much I want to cry :( The army and war is something that genuinely scares me and I don't want anything to do with it, but he's just going on and on! What should I do?
this is literally sooooooooo late and i feel so bad i’m sorry, i hope this still helps you out and i hope you see it tho okay. i’m pretty sure this was even before the trans military ban like whew idek what your uncle must think about that. tbh just ignore him, like i know it’s hurtful but like...what is his point in telling you this? i would’ve literally been like (sarcastically) “ok then sign me up” but i’m also a lil shit so that’s probably not the best thing to say. but really like the only thing he’s trying to do is feel powerful by means of expressing his militaristic (no pun intended) opinions to someone far younger than him. it’s so that he feels bigger and better than you (especially by calling you a brat). he’s a sad man and anyone who relies on the military, of all things, to shape a person probably doesn’t have a strong sense of self anyway. i love you okay, just ignore him, don’t let him stress you out <3
I'm a little high and it's late but I have a lot of courage now so I've been following you for a while and I just want to tell you how much I love your story! I have come across other places on tumblr who do this but none have captured me as this one did! You are amazing and I am in love with this story! Thanks fo being you! :)
ONMG YOU HAD TO BE HIGH TO SEND THIS LMAO that was me this weekend anyway thank you so much, it floors me every time anyone says these kinds of things to me and it never gets old ;-; you are so amazing ok <333
you can't possibly be offended by a homophobic joke in game of thrones, it's set in medieval times. they had several lgbt characters in it, it's not the show that's homophobic, it's the characters, which is accurate for that time period.
o i can and i will lmao i mean i get where you’re coming from but with that logic you could say it’s only accurate to put homophobic jokes in today’s media just because people are still homophobic in the time live in. i know it’s the characters, but you do understand that someone writes those characters, right? it’s bad writing. it’s lazy and pandering and because of that it’s offensive. idk if you know the exact dialogue i was referring to but it was so completely unnecessary lmfao. they could’ve made a million other jokes. regardless of how it offended me it was just BAD lmao
SPOILER BELOW OK DON’T SAY I DIDN’T WARN YA
@ I wanna watch GoT anon: don't. It's just so fucking bad. The definition of overhyped tbh (and btw, sunny, PLS HELP HE SCREWED HIS FUCKING AUNT WTH)
LMAO SOMEONE ACTUALLY AGREES WITH ME? wow bless u. it is definitely overhyped, like it was good at first but it’s been riding that hype through these past couple of seasons to disguise the bad writing. i understand being entertained by it, but i’m always surprised when people think it’s actually well written at this point...it’s so cringey and now thanks to the season finale this fanbase will be justifying incest. great!
OK MOVE ALONG NOW
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no yeah i can totally wait till you're off mobile :) (lmao thats a genuine smile not a sarcastic one ty for taking time to answer me ahaha) . I agree that he's little odd but and eccentric, but why neuro-divergent?
ok ok I’m back! sorry for the long wait (n ty for clarification on the smile aksjd)
actually I kind of addressed some of this in this reply..so I’ll probably repeat it a bit. though as with a lot of things, a lot of it is just A Feeling. I find it impossible to watch him and not see that he is nd, and every other nd fan I’ve discussed this with agrees so..there is an element of just plain recognition (OTL I find things like this always sound not-great put into words too)
but ! I’ll try, and I think what you said is a good example - his weirdness/eccentricity doesn’t have a flip side. his behaviour is obviously quirky, and he quickly got a reputation for being sassy and petty and whatever. but it’s 90% because he has no filter or sense of appropriateness, and it’s just the way he is about /everything/, even when it’s really been to his detriment and people have tried to guide him otherwise. he’s determined to say exactly what he wants whenever he wants because he believes its the right thing to do, and he can’t seem to really understand why the rest of the world can’t do that too. even after jm did his best to teach Tao how and why you should be appropriate, as soon as he got away from it he did the exact opposite. even when his dad is telling him not to, because he’s literally complaining about one of his own idols aksjd (e.g when he openly gets angry and complains about work because the make up was uncomfortable, when he’s openly grouchy and inattentive to fans/interviewers. he doesn’t process, he just acts). n a lot of people view this as him having a bad personality, but everyone who works with him adores him because he’s so sweet. the way people describe how unusually genuine and childlike he is, even as he’s getting older (and that he has some odd relationships with men, because he’s not interacting with them like a guy his age normally would)). if he at any point showed any kind of indication that he understands why niceties are necessary and that he’s purposely defying them, I’d think it was just personality/image, but he really doesn’t.the way he shows off is so childish (and partly in good humour! he has a great sense of humour) and hyperbolic, and he’s willing to throw anyone under the bus to say that he’s the best at this or the strongest at that even if he clearly isn’t and he’s being pretty rude by doing it. he loves being mischievous and a lil shit to people he’s comfortable with regardless of circumstance and situation (which you could see a lot in exo - especially fancams of them during cons, they played with him and calmed him down and tried to deal with him in a cute way if he said anything a bit too much). (and these things all Matter because..he cant stop it lol this is him 100% of the time, there’s no alternate tao that behaves appropriately)
Actually this article is a really good example? rereading it, it sums up what I was trying to say asjkd but a tl;dr of it is that he’s basically got a lot of terrible traits and should be awful, but he’s so genuine and sweet you can’t help loving him
Other stuff.. That article and a few others (positive ones, not the ones dragging him), and his dad have commented on him having a low EQ which..yeah, cause he’s a very loving guy and would do anything for people he cares about and he’s very considerate of staff, but EQ covers skills like identifying, controlling, evaluating, expressing emotions and perceiving others and he’s bad at all of those.His comprehension is terrible too, he often doesn’t take in questions he’s being asked or gives answers that may as well be for a different conversation. if he’s under pressure he’s icy and weird and if he’s not his mind wanders. he’s very intelligent but can’t sit through structured education at all, like on tarm he threw a full tantrum over having to do written work at risk of being kicked out of the programme. He talks about not being human and having powers and idek how jokingly to take it orz (I guess a bit his :/// attitude towards love and relationships is a lil this too - he’s a big baby with guys and makes them love him and take care of him immediately but he’s so bad with girls. So bad kjsds). he seems to hyperfocus like hell. he can’t rationalise his fears.I think very relevantly (n the first thing that made me go Oh….), Junmyeon once said he wanted to ‘heal his mind’. for tao’s own good, he wanted to basically turn his brain back to Normal. this is the person who was closest to him wrt monitoring his behaviour, and it’s not like Tao had any reason to play difficult (or would have wanted to make problems for junmama or the others).SO idk if stringing all these words together actually helps make it any clearer.. the most basic explanation is that he’s not just a guy with a bad personality or lack of respect who’s kinda petty and wild now and then, he’s just so painfully open and unaware and immature and insensitive. I wouldn’t try to place what kind of nd he is but I rly can’t watch him do anything without noticing it💦
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