#thats all i wana do rn <3

[n0ct0urn1quet]

@vergildotcom honey i am very sorry this might not be as long as u hoped i am kinda not feeling good physically rn because i just have this massive headache n bein all teary eyed n emotional (NOT IN A BAD WAY !!!!!!!! im just emotional bc yknow . i get like that when im rly happy SKJDKJG) isnt helping so !JKSDBJHG,,, this mite not be as long as u hoped but i stil at least hope it puts a smile on ur face,, caus u deserve 2 smile bro,, u deserv 2 be habby,, (an also ur smile is verey cute <:])

but ok so not to be like Weird ig or naything but im looking at the drawing u made earlier and im just looking at like . the hands. im looking at us holding hands and literally its just . its so . Soft. i dont know how else to describe it !!!!!! its just . idk we are just gently holding hands n we r intertwining fingers and its just <:] that right ther is just actually geningly making me tear up. because im like !!!!!!! i wana hold ur hand like that!!!!!!!! and jus the way im looking at u in the picture n the way ur (presumably) looking at me thru ur bangs,,,,,,,i just bhjknhjnkdgfn <:] i am just looking at u so seepily and so kindly and u ar just like :3 and we are just holding each othrs hand and ohm god im just so in love with you jhkjhkHJKBDJHKJKBJKBFKJDNFGLKGF

ALSO ITS KJINDA HARD TOT TYPE RN i keep having to pause because happy stims and vibrayty hands. im very happy rn can you tell KJSDLKBLKGBKLJG plus im listening to music that makes me go blblrblrblrbrlbrlbrblr (bury the light, ive been listening to it on repeat for. like. the past 3 days OSKDJLBKGKG)so im just. oh im so happy il ove you so much pepper u donot even NKONW

i meant it earlier wen i said that i love u so much that i just couldnt put it into words. bc i cant !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i cant put into words how much i jus love an appreciate and care about u. u make me so unbeLIEVably happy that the only word i can use to describe it is hj bjhd bd bdhkfg bdfkghd dkhb bhdldg bdhbkhdj dgf ngdfklg fdbjhk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! bjhddfngkdfgbdfg g dfdfkj dgf dfj bjh!!!!!!!!! kjsd hbjksb dfsjbfsbfdkhbshbjk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! god u just make me so happy . literally u are the sweetest person ive ever met i think. ur just so kind and scrimbly and lovely and epic and u jsut make me feel so Loved n habby and i just . bhjjndfgbhj jbhjbhjdbhjdfgbhjkdfbk dfghb kgdfhjfdgjhdkfg <:] <:] <:]

i just bhjbnjhfg............OH i wish i was with u rn SO Badly i want to just shower u in kises n snugs n all sorts of affection,,jus wana b gentle and Soft with u,,,,,,,,,under alllll the blankys,,,,,,,,,n i just wanna !!!!!!!! lay on u!!!!!!!!!!!! beauc sbhjkdgnlk dgfjbgdfk lgdf bjhdgfbhj dgf nkgdfkj dgfbhkdjlbhj!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! god ur so cute ur so epic and niceys 2 me and jubhjbjkdfgkjdbfgjfbdk :] :] :] :] :] :] !!!!!!!!!!!!! ur very prety huny i lov u so very very vrey much,, u hav the cutest litol round face n the prettiest colored eyes n the cutest tummy n beegest softest thighs n just bjhkdfnjkdg all thos things,,,,,u look verey fuzy snugly sof,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, ur snugabl!!!!!!!!!!! snugy shaped!!!!!!!!!!!! ur my wife!!!!!!!!! abdfjhbdjkfnfdg i just love u <:]

i am kinda hoping mayb when my sistr leaves on saturday to b at her friends house that we can like vc or something,,,,,,,,,,,,maybe perhaps jus do what we used 2 do and vc to just Talk about stuff. maybe even do a little Gossiping since rob wont be home lmao KSDLJKLJG,,,,,,,,,but we should do that !!!!!!!!!! bc idk i just . bhjhbjdfgnjhfd ur voice is so pretty. i wana hear u sing acutally thats what i wana do. IMEAN dont ever feel pressured to sing in front of me or anythin u dont have to if u dont wana !!!!!! but. u have a nice voice and i think there r some things u could sing well. u hav a deep voice so ur prolly bettr at singing most songs than i am (cough cough like every mgr song and also bury the light, u have a much deeper voice than i do so u can actually like hit the lower notes. i cannot! i have babie voice KJSDLKJBLKKJLBKJ),,,,,,,,,,,,but idk !!!!!!! maybe we could vc n just lay in bed togther n just talk,,,,,,,,,,,,,mayb u could sing me 2 seep,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,just a thought,,t,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

but yeah thas rly all <:] i think i am going 2 come lay down wit u now bc headache is getting worse :'] but !!!!!!! i hope this makes u hapy!!!!!!!!!! an puts a smile on ur face!!!!!!! bc u deserve to be happy n u deserve 2 be loved and cared for and u deserve to smile!!!!!!!!!!!! bc ur smile is cute and ur a lovly person,,,,,, u ar very ebic :] i lov u pepper <:] get good seeps!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! mwa mwa mwa mwa !!!!!!!!!!!!!! :] :] :]

[wolfoblog]

been a bit

it has been some time sense i posted to my tumblr, after making that post a couple of months back i started to see things differently between life it self and what a relationship actually means to be a true one and where i had failed not only with freinds but with ones i care and love for, slowly but surely ive started to improve idk if the meds are really helping that much sense ive been on them a few months now and with my primary care doctor not being around where i go anymore to do checkups im not exactly sure if i should contiune the meds till their gone fully or just toss them as it can be harmful to stop them so soon without cutting the prozac into smaller doses, like i do feel better and less depressed but i feel their may be more then just depression that is causing me to act in such ways, ik its not that people arent doing enough as ive told kovo alot of times now i just feel like alot of the time i dont have that feeling to do rp with him at times or feel a need to be well “sexualy driven” to say the least, tho it may just be anxiety that could be  the cause of the issue and me just not being comfertable with my self as i still try to go through the proccess of transition from a male to a female and try to find doctors around where i live to get on hrt finaly, at least he is seeing that i am trying for him to make things right for both of us and working this out as a team instead of alone like before, i dont wana lose anyone else or any other freinds

moving stress- so 3 days ago my older brother and his wife and i finaly moved into our new place and across to a new town, first 2 days or so we were all just worn out and it didnt help that we had no gas or hot water for 3 days which made it hard to cook most food or even shower .3.” the fun of being sticky sweaty and smelling not great wasnt fun, then the other day i was tasked to fill our freezer with things that we had from family, my grandma gave us a little to much stuff idk where to even put half of this stuff rn as i type this out, but our freezer is kinda booby trapped rn because one thing after another comes out when we open the door to it and its small and cramped but we make it work, then last night we had a panic attack as my brothers male cat little bit was missing and he was starting to cry as he is a emotional support animal and a big part of his life, tho luckly we did find him after a hour of almost searching qwq, the big goof was moving around as we tried to find him which made it even harder on us

job hunting when you have mental disabilitys- the title says it all it becomes rather hard to do when alot of stress and anxity rolls over you all at the same time, for me it makes it hard for me to land and keep a job longer then a week or month at most as it can get to the point i cant handle it all, get sick by accident and get let go by the work company a day later or so, but i still try my best even if its a little money coming in as long as i can get somthing in to help my family out

i think thats all for now i just wanted to make a small update for the moment but hopefuly anyone who reads this has a wonderful day

nova

[jellipack]

throwing this here bc i dont have anyf riends who are up2date with hq’s manga/follow the manga closely so it was hard to talk about it in dept without spoiling them or borign the hell out of the rest of them PLUSS i wanted to word dump my Feelings before it inevitably fades :((

when EXACTLY i started hq i dont have any idea!!!! but it was probably around when season 1 of the anime started????? i was 13 and i in a sports club in school too so when i heard about it from a friend i was like hell yea and that was how it started. the friend who introduced it to me later lost interest but i was still going strong even after i graduated and stopped playing sports

idk man!!!!!!! hq ending right now is just so OOF bc its been w me since i had the word ‘teen’ in my age????? all the way until the end????? i turned 20 yesterday??????? thirTEEN to nineTEEN then when i reached twenty it was over....................

reading haikyuu as this loser kid really helped. haikyuu was about a bunch of kids in an after school sports club, playing a team sport. they wanted to win and reach nationals and stay as long as they could playing inthe competition. my experience was exactly that. u train some, the competition begins, u lose, seniors retire and it starts all over again

there were so many charatcers i could relate to even if some took me some time warm up to (@tsumtsum but jokes on me now he is mine). kids are impressionable right? having a bunch of all these other kids feeling the same way i do in a mostly??? the same kind of situation i was in had REALLY HELPED and i really Cannot stresss enough how thankful i am to haikyuu. it felt so relieving and validating to see others go through the same feelings or experiences i went through,,,,,, furudate was like hey ur feeling like this??? thats ok!!!!! and goddamn did that save me

at first i was like ehhhh bc i couldnt relate to hinat a and kags Genuine Love for what theyre doing but wow im so glad i decided to give it a try a little while longer. hq just latched onto my brain outta nowhere after that. usually in sports mangas even if i like both sides i usually have a clear bias to one side to win, but with hq it was Hard to cheer for one side the entire way and i LOVED that 

age diversity tooooooo. it wasnt only high school kids, there were adults, graduates, college kids. babie kids too in backstories who went thru some shit and why they turned out the way they did. all of them grew up with us too???? like wow hq the gift that just keeps giving huh. after i graduated from my sports club i wasnt goign through what the kids were anymore BUT i still had characters like MANGA ARTIST (tenmaaa) 

the stuff hq talk about like MAN thats so aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa????? hard work vs talent, burnout, interest and effort, teamwork, insecurity, leadership, winning and lsoing, and SO MUCH MORE im kinda bad at putting my happiness first over like practicality and stuff, like if i think its gonna be a lot of effort/not a high chance of succeeding i more than likely think its best 2 bail even if its gonna make me unhappier but seeing timeskip hq characters doing what they love and all that happy shit IDK MAKES ME SO HAPPY and motivated 2 try harderrrrr???? 

idk how 2 stress enuoght that hq has rly helped me so much???????? like if im feelin a certain way i can just go and reread a certain match then BAM im feeling a bit better. magic ???? possibly........... sounds cliche as shit but honestly the power of friendship, hardwork, and love has never been more inspiring and encouraging before i discovered haikyuu. i dont even know how i feel about all that but hq juz makes me feel like Everythings gonna be juz fine in a good way. dis some happiness producing shit right here

#long post #i knooo we prob will get other content like we hv the anime light novels n all that other things but this is how ifeel abt the manga rn #mabbe i shld write out another Feelings of each of my faves #jelliposts #as much as it suckssssss i dont ever wana stop feeling this way #ball go brrrrr ovrr net where it go i cant see it with all these tears in myeyes #took me years tofindout howta spell inevitably #if my school had volleyball i wonder which i wouldve chosen inthe end: my og one or vb #Overshaing On The Internet To An Empty Audience #me @12midnight on 20jul: its crying time bitches #my friends looking at my ig story: r u Ok. #<3 no #why does it feel like my typgn is worse than my handwriingg #tendou in high school: farewell my paradise #tendou years later: iz a fucking chocolatier doing what he LOVES #me: i guess everything IS ok #edit: looking at this rn maybe i shldve put it under a read more bc goddamn thats a whole lotta nonsense

[chicspo]

winter closet staples ❄︎♡

how to embody ur inner winter bunny (pt. 1)

1. tight long sleeves: i get mine mostly from brandy (if u dont like brandy leave the blog xx) so comfy and easy to layer with other things. buy as many as u can!! u can never have too many! basic colors, crazy colors, stripes, lace trim, flower print.. endless possibilities !!111!!!1!!

2. faux fur vests: cannot stress the FAUX part enough! id recommend getting a beige one bc it goes w everyting. it can be hard to find a good one but rn they have some at brownie! id wear with a long sleeve/oxford shirt/blouse and wide leg jeans. it could be also worn w dresses/skirts but eeehhh naut mon style

3. big puffers: get the biggest puffer coat u can find. one that goes down to ur knees and even a size or two too big. you'll look like the coolest/most confident/mysterious person in the room. plus it can make any boring outfit trés fun and chic!! i like to get mine in olive green, silver, black or navy. i also have a gold one that i like wearing when i wana piss off everyone around me x

4. cool sweaters/hoodies: these r such a must for everyday wear when u dont know what to wear. for sweaters i like to get mine from ralph lauren (they have similar ones at brandy wink wink) and most of my hoodies r from brandy. invest in cool and different ones so u can just throw them on and make them work for ANY occassion

5. wide leg jeanzz: get them a size too big! maybe even TWO!! since im always cold i like layering my clothes a lot. what ill do is put on tights (wool tights if its too cold), leggings on top, and then my jeans! that way i wont shiver as much lol. save the model off duty ripped skinni jeans for spring girlfriend !!! and pls dont get ur jeans from zara uve been warned

thats all for now!! if u want more ill make a pt. 2 to this so lmk girlfriends x

#winterbunny #ninasayerswinter #yassssss #swag

[worldsendgirlfriend]

seimeivector morning editorial incoming

i tryed i realy did..... i went to sleep around like probably 7am is when i actyally dozed off, mom woke me up around 8:30 flipping out bc its not Working, she just Cant connect to the wifi, wtf js Wrong she has so much Work, so i stumble downstairs w/o even putting my glasses on (so my face is 2 inches from any screen i have to read lol), she says she forget-ed the wifi and put in the new password but its Not Working!! What!!! so i was like ok. shoves my face up to her screen. rjght click forget network. didnt forget it for some reason, huh. try again. forgot it this time cool. put in new pass. 👍 all good. did it on her personal and work iphones too, both didnt forget first time either idk theyve just been connected forever nd i did manually punt a ton of devices off before even changing pass, who knows, worked the second time put in pass totally fine. she says she Did that and it didnt work it kept prompting her for stuf wtf did i do different!! vector, internally: im pretty sure u were doing sth else then. forgetting a network is like. does not prompt u. maybe itll ask u like Do u rly wana? idk bht like. its just basic. maybe its jyst me. but i just give a handwavey idk tech is weird blah magic touch who cares im goin back to bed. she azks if i can connect tvs again i say man i aint got glasses on i aint gonna be able to do ghat at this very moment nd im Tyred can it wait, shes like yah just before 4 pls. im like yea thas np sure, go upstairs, get back cozey and comfey, as usual cant fall asleep onbmy own so put on this like one specific asmr channel that this middle aged lady makes both soft spoken nd whisper vids (i hate all whsiper vids but her soft spoken is real good. like great volume yfm relaxing bht not too quiet that its whispery nor too loud. idk im a loser). fall asleep aft3r like idk 20 min.

wake up like 15 min after finally falling aslep. Fuckig Cold! turn on space heater but low setting so will be worm but hopefully wotn have to get up again to turn it off bc im boiling. btw i had to do that anyway. fall asleep p quick, thas neat, wake up again its hot asf turn it off back in bed. slep.

wake up. like 10:45am or sth. no idea how long ive actually slept for when i woke up at 8:30 i saw the time and thought "oh i got a few hours already at least" so like my brain hasnt has the mouse wiggled yet leave me alone. me: dam goin to bed later than i wanted, i kno i wont be able to sleep all the way till 1 uninterrupted but i can try at least. me: [gets a total of like i dont fucking know. at the very most like. 2.75hrs Maybe 3. tryna calculate rn] wow i slept so long thats cazy... and im refreshed so i kno i got good sleep :)

#yun said waking up to my essays of texts is like his morning paper and tb Fucking h im using that forevr LMAO

[curious-menace]

Any riddler u want x depressed male SO with bad ptsd (help i need serotonin and ur content is So Good)

aww bb. im sorry youre not doin so good rn. you know im always here for u <3

i think i will do arkham riddler and maybe blacklight riddler since they also canonically have PTSD, i feel like they would be able to empathise. 

read more for mentions of mental illness and abuse 

Arkham Riddler

He could write a 5 page essay on how trauma has fucked him up, without actually admitting he’s been fucked up . He’s pissy no one seems to take PTSD in men seriously unless its from combat. You both have been told to “man up” and get over it. Cheers neurotypical, thats helpful.

riddler has never been diagnosed with PTSD but even if he had, he’s not going to admit he’s got it. then you roll around and he’s like “oh shit it me.” when he sees you struggle. He’s still not even trying to get help but you help him understand so much more. 

Riddler has an eidetic memory. Everything seems like a flashback to him at times. he understands you cant always control it. for his sake and yours he tries his best to keep his hideouts 

he has a lot of stuff around to help with dissociation lying around. heavy blankets, tangle toys textured surfaces, sometimes lil sweets , snacks or food just to have one of your senses engaged  and hopefully ground you. 

he really struggles to control his fits of anger at times. but, he knows how triggering this is for you so he’s doing his best to just take himself away when he feels it coming on. You seem to have a 6th sense for his tantrums and depending on your headspace, can either remove yourself from the situation or try and comfort him through it. 

he hates to see you lie under your depression. in his narcissism riddled mind, he really thinks he can help cure you. but seeing you just lie there in bed not wanting to exist mostly discourages him from taking up chemistry and pharmacy to make you any experimental mood drugs. He’ll probably just bring you some coco and sit with you while it passes. 

he cant help, not really, he doesnt have the capacity. but at least if youre in a pit of misery you dont have to be alone.

Blacklight riddler

i guess you could call him a little more proactive in his approach to your ailments. He knew you were suffering when you two got together so right from the get go he had things in place to try and make you a little more comfortable. 

He’s got trauma but he’s done his stint in therapy. he takes his meds and his problems are mostly managed. Because of this he knows what you're going through, what you will have to go through to get to the other side of this. he wont dare compare traumas or recovery, that's not fair on anyone, but at the very least he’s going to empathise with what happened to you. 

now, Edward is not an angry man. Perhaps when he was younger, less in control of himself sure, he was prone to being easily angered. but if there’s one thing in life thats still going to make him see red its when people minimise male childhood abuse survivors. do they not realise that LITERALLY kills people??? how many men have suffered and even died because they were shamed or discouraged from seeking help?! he doesnt like murder, he doesnt want to upset or traumatise you further but like....just say the word and he’ll seal a bitch in an oubliette. 

his apartment his a sort of safe zone. like theres no noise, no smells  comfort foods and easy access to therapists and doctors. the building itself is basically a fortress with a deadbolt door that would make batman jealous. good for someone trying to avoid triggers , feel safe and as a bunker for the zombie apocalypse. 

listen, he gets recovery isnt linear. if you wana lie spend a day in a depression pit he’ll leave you be, maybe come lie besides you if you want him to so you dont have to suffer alone. but please dont mistake this for him trying to push you too hard. he’s just doing what he wishes someone would do for him, he had to climb out of the hole with no one to give him a hand and he wouldn't wish that on anyone. 

but that being said he’s not going to just let you waste away. he will cook for you if you cant, brush your hair and your teeth if you don't have the energy. he’ll even give you a bath if you haven't showered in a while. of course, he wont force this on you, he knows to respect your boundaries.  but he wants you to know the option is there, he’ll do anything for you to make you feel even a little better. you’re in this together 

i hope this sparks the joy, love. its rough all over and i wish i could give you a proper hug. maybe when this is all over we will. i know things are tough right now but it will get better. dont forget how far youve come, even only in the time we’ve been friends. im always proud of you 💙

got something you wana talk about? send me an ask or a dm! im aways game to talk about our favorite curious menace 💚💜

#asks #for my darling chris #riddler headcanons #tw trauma #tw abuse #tw mental illness #arkham riddler #arkham knight riddler #riddler #edward nygma #edward nigma #blacklight riddler #blacklight au #sorry for being gushy on main #my stuff #my writing #my headcanons #headcanons

[softwish]

92 truths

rules: once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 92 truths about you, at the end choose 25 people to be tagged

i was tagged by @loistomlinon

LAST:

last drink: water

last phone call: a group call with some friends

last text message: “Sssssssleepy baby”

last song you listened to: Small Doses - Bebe Rexha

last time i cried: i teared up like an hour ago to some video on twitter of people giving some kid some shoes

HAVE YOU EVER:

dated someone twice: yes

been cheated on: no

kissed someone and regretted it: yes drunk me is a dumb me

lost someone special: yeh i guess they were special at the time but tbh i cant rlly think of losing someone and having it still affect me today

been depressed: yeaaaaaaah boii

been drunk and thrown up: yeAH.

IN THE PAST YEAR HAVE YOU:

made a new friend: so many

fallen out of love: nahhhh

laughed until you cried: i do this a lot so ya

met someone who changed you: i think so. i think ive become way more open bc of people ive befriended

found out who your true friends are: uhhhhhhhhhh i guess

found out someone was talking about you: yes sad times

GENERAL:

how many people on tumblr do you know in real life?: i follow most of my irl friends on here and vice versa so..a lot

do you have any pets?: no :-(((((((((

do you want to change your name?: nope

what time did you wake up this morning?: i mean i went to bed at 5am so i slept on and off til like 2pm

what were you doing last night?:  called some friends and played a game

name something you cannot wait for: getting my first car bc i just got my license!!!!!! i wanna drive around on my own and play music

have you ever talked to a person named tom: yes i dont like him

what’s getting on your nerves rn?: i cant fall asleep until after 4am and i have no motivation to do anything :-)

blood type: no idea

nickname: shawns/chawna/chawns by my irl friends and wana by my cousin are the main ones but people are always making up random names

relationship status: single but TRYNA SHOOT MY SHOT

zodiac sign: gemini

pronouns: she/her

favorite tv show: catfish probably

college: graduated

hair color: some basic brown

do you have a crush on someone: unFORTUNATELY

what do you like about yourself: i can cheer people up easily, im kinda funny, i have nice eyes and idk people tell me im easy to talk to or that they feel relaxed around me and thats honestly so nice to hear

FIRSTS:

first surgery: none

first piercing: my ears when i was small small small

first sport you joined: baseball

first vacation: British Columbia

first pair of sneakers: UHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH?

RIGHT NOW:

eating: nothing

drinking: nothing

i’m about to: restart the song im listening to rn for the 3rd time

listening to: another sad love song - khalid

want kids: idk tbh somedays ya bc cute!, somedays hell no

get married: id be a cute wife, wife me up

career: im not rlly sure anymore

WHICH IS BETTER:

lips or eyes: ummm both are ideal

hugs or kisses: hugs i think! i love a tight hug where i stop breathing

shorter or taller: i dont really have a preference

older or younger: i think rn im like over 2 or 3 years in either direction is a nope

romantic or spontaneous: i dont know..........

sensitive or loud: sensitive bc the last couple ppl ive talked to have been really loud and i always feel weird with people who are constantly like !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hook up or relationship: relationship

troublemaker or hesitant: hesitant is cute but troublemaker is like oufff

HAVE YOU EVER:

kissed a stranger: a stranger kissed me..does that count

drank hard liquor: yeah

lost contacts/glasses?: i dont use either

sex on first date: hhhhh no

broken someone’s heart: i guess

been arrested: no sir

turned someone down: yes

fallen for a friend: nah 

DO YOU BELIEVE:

in yourself: sometimes for somethings 

miracles: no not really, i still make 11:11 wishes though

love at first sight: i believe in all the things that lead to 2 ppl falling in love at first sight like infatuation, etc.

heaven: i wish

santa claus: LOL NO

ouf ok time to tag some people. im gonna tag @soften @ectobiologyst @sad-gf

@gayderade @dissociativehabits @dork-gentlys @ktnip and anyone else who wants to do this

#tagged #this aint even 92

[hansolsdeliciousanus-remade]

kpop tag~

tagged by @wonpil6 and someone else but i cant remember who....

anyway i dont think i’ve done this one before sooo lets go

1. ULTIMATE BIAS: i like to keep a sense of mystery around who my ultimate bias is y’all would never be able to guess its ji hansol

2. ULTIMATE BIAS WRECKER? jinwoo and jinhwan both try and claim ownership of my heart 24/7 but hansols got a pretty good hold of it rn

3. FAVOURITE KPOP SONG? itunes is telling me my most played song is view by shinee but my fave rn is gold by offnonoff. idk this is a loaded question i got different faves for different moods. like exo what is love???? my ballad Queen. taemins back to you??? that emo bitch. mr mr snsd? they key change gives me life. like what do you want from me theres too many bops to pick one fave 

4. FIRST KPOP SONG? mirotic tvxq Another Bop 

5. FAVOURITE KPOP ALBUM/SINGLE?
 again this is a LOADED QUESTION. all my faves came out this year evahfdbks so offonoff boy album taemins move album deans love single exid full moon ep red velvet perfect love album 

6. FAVOURITE KPOP SHIP?
 im not really a shipper and my old ship is dead so i stan rosieXhansol 

7. HARD OR SOFT STAN?
 in public hard. in private dms at 1am very very soft 

8. FAVOURITE KPOP COMPANY?
 i feel like sm gets a lot of shit when other companies are just as bad if not worse than them. plus all my faves are in sm they make fucking great groups 

9. BACKSTORY OF HOW I GOT INTO KPOP?
 its not that interesting my friend showed me mirotic and then i fell into this hell hole and here we are

so i’ll tag just a few people @renhyucks @hrjn @nctplz @smileyjeno andddd yeah  gues thats it i dont wana annoy anyone else wahsvfbd

#get to know me #tag

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@fuckshitassbitchcockballs btich

#ik im gonna have to reblog this probably so im just gonna put this at the beginning of this lol #ANYWAYS HI BESTIE i am brain fog rn so like sry in advance if this takes a minute 2 write #too many thoughts brain overwhelemed' #but um yeas . i jus love u a lot i thimk #UM i want to lay on ur tiddies mayb. bro my neck hurts so bad my pillows suck #i wana use ur tiddies as piwllows cause i bet they r comfie #big tiddie means big comfie :] #ALASO i jsut did the weirdest lilttle gremlin laugh as we're talkgking about spamton being racist #THATS SO OUT OF CONTEXT BUT BAHJJHANJSKBHJFA #I JUTS Did the weirdest littele gremlin cackle whtaat even WAS that #god #AYNYWAYS BJHDGBJHDFBJGHBJHABJHA #i just um !!!!!!!!! i lobe u :] #i wamt to lay on ur tiddies and sleeb. bro jus wrap me up in a blamket and gimme a paci and lemme lay on ur tiddies #bc like #thats all i wana do rn <3 #i am seebie i am cosye i am babie and i wana jus #i wana snuggle!!!!!! #i wana be comfe cosye with u!!!!!!!!!! #bro lets make a pillow fort with stuffed animal s and pillows and blankets and lets just snuggle in it together #i think thatd be epic and pog #bro i jus wana snuggle.e......... #holde me gemtly.... amd giv me softe kis..... #i jus want 2 do gentle somft affectionate thimgs wtith u :] #i wamt u to kis me and holde me and cuddle with me n all thos thimgs........ #bro jus cmere alreadye............. #i wana jus laye on ur tiddies . and sleeb. while u do gaye things like kis me and play with my hair and stuffe..... #also god i just did it again i did thtat stupid fucking gremlin giggle jfc why am i DOING THAT #ANYWAYS . sory im getting off topic #but um yeag i jus want to be affecionate with u rn bc bhfbhjgbhjgf touche starvebd and also loenelee

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@fuckshitassbitchcockballs babie. babie girle babbie

#thas u! #ur babbie :] #smal bapy :] #haha. hahaha rmember when i used to unironically call you a small bapy #cAuSE yKnoW #yOu WeRE ShoRTER thAn mE #HBHJndskHJBDSnkBjdsjkSDBJHDBJHEa #and now ur fuckin like. half a foot taller than me. im like 5'1 and ur like. what. 5'7? 5'8 maybe???? #u ar tall . but i like tall girlse so BSJDNKJSDBJHE #ANYWAYS . u are literally a babbie and i loveu lotse #also um i am sory in advance this might be kinda short bc idk i am starteding to feel Not Well all of a sudden BSHDNKJbje #my brain be like 'u hav been too happy today <3 its time 2 be sad for no reason <3333' so thats nie bHNJKDBJHE #sry ik i said i was ahving gay thoughts n i still am i jam just . brain fogge and head hurt #but hey at least i dont hav school tomorrow so i dont gota worry abt tahat bJHSDNkbhje #but amnywayse. ur babbie #WE r babbie #and all i kinda wana do rn is just lay on ur chest n sleeb and not have to worry abt anything n stuff #i jus wana feel safe with u bestie...... regarldess of whether we r babie or not............ #im just very very tired and also i juts remembred russ and sophie are coming over rly early tomorrow which means moms gonna fuckin #try to force me to get up early but im jus gonna lock my door when i go to bed so that she doesnt fuckin wake me up lmao #but anyways yeas i am so seepie tired i jus wanna fal asleeb on ur bigge softe tiddies <3 comfie cosie <3 #augh why am i getting EMOTIONAL now whaddafuck #and i dont mean that In A Good Way i am just like . suddenly feeling like crying ???? bghhghgfhhfnhfmkgnb????????? #i dont like emotioins sometimes bestie <3333 #i am just seepie i wana sleeb on ur tiddies while u jus hold me gently n mayb comforte me or somethimg... #or idk maybe i could lay on ur thighs #bro idk jus maybe holde me gently n kis me somftly pls........ i am sad babbie....................... #gime smal hug and kis pleas :( #head hurt neck hurt emotions hurte :((((( #idk bestie idk why im suddenly feeling unwell i am just. having emotions !

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@fuckshitassbitchcockballs it is harde to be Positive rn bc i am still kinda sorta not feelimg great but um all i rly hav tha eergy to do rn is jus cuddle with u (the she)

#i wana ........ lay with u......... #im seepy i wana cuddle with u and also i wanna seep with u.... #bro lets make a littol pillow fot with blankets n pillows n stuffed animals and lets jus cuddle together in it #lets snuggle and watche cartoons annd hav pacis......... #and bro lets eat lunchables n drink capri suns whilwe we do thate.................... #thats kinda somethin i think abt sometimes. like eating foods n snacks like that #like dino nuggets...... n choccy milke............ n fuit gummy............... #n like thos lil fruit cups or apple sauce cups or stuff like that........... #bro i think itd be pog if we watched jus old cartoons or shows or something and ate thos lil snackse #id lov that................ #sry thats kinda all i can think of rn bc brain fog hJKSHDBJHbhje maybe ill write more in tha morning if i can think of anything #but yeas...... that is all bro...... goodnite i love u hunibie *mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmwah* :) <3 #also i just tried to type :heart: as in like the discord emote SHDJKHSDJKHKJE #im babie stupide rn <3