#thats not true i always want to but !!!

[hellomayu]

i'll be your anything.

#satoru who's everything will tear himself apart if thats what suguru wants #if suguru tells him to jump off the building and not use his powers he'll gladly fall off and crush himself to the floor lmao #true cult follower behavior #jujutsu kaisen #geto suguru #gojo satoru #satosugu #jjk fanart #oh and happy holidays thanks for always indulging my art!!! ; v; #i read tags often yall enjoying them makes me so happy uwu tysm~

[glitterghost]

Being ace can be pretty isolating at various times, for varying reasons that I don't feel like I have to explain because if you are ace, you probably get it.

#asexual #ace #pride #vague post but you know..*gestures to nothing* #i dont think i even need to expand on this #aromantic #could be thrown into this as well #things are just sometimes frustrating when people dont get it #if you read tags cook bc here we go a bit #there is always this talk of being left behind or being forgotten about or whatever #and yeah its true and when things happening almost in succession that makes it even more aware and apparent that yeah you kinda do get left #behind a bit* #so many ppl want marriage and or kids and its like #what about the people that want to hold on to things as they currently are? #to friends and books and cats and fictional feelings #and the way some ppl you know talk about how people gradual drift apart? #like thats a full on decision #thats not always a mutual thing #people leave at times and another person that might not be ready to end that connection with a person has to navigate their way through it #on their own #but like society is so weird to people that dont want the predictable life path #as you get older questions become are you married #do you have kids like its expected #where are the questions like whats the latest book youve read #whats your current favorite fandom #what makes you happy or brings you joy or whats a good thing about today? #not sure where im cycling down into with this bc theres too much to touch on #but not everyone wants sex or kids or marriage or crippling responsibilities of adulthood #sometimes we just want a hobbit hole to disappear into #a friend to text or pizza to eat or something funny to laugh at

[5hrignold]

this is all i got

#Tiny side ramble in the tags its what i do best #in the interview they mention charlie feeling way more like developed in s2 and I. if that’s really true iM SOOO happy and somehow #even more excited for it bc of that Because ive mentioned this before obviously ive always liked charlie #but like. im unable to really get into him the way i can do with pim. like there’s nearly Nothing about him that tells me anything about hi #character which AGAIN IVE SAID. IK THATS THE POINT and ur not even like. these aren’t even like designed to be blorbo type characters so- #-who cares BUT LIKE. I STILL WANT TO LIKE HIM AS MUCH AS I LIKE PIM YA KNOW #well not As much. he could never compare to pim in my personal mind #but yknow what imean. so im happy that probably means we’re getting more of him kinda in s2 #Aauauuaau so excited #Also i still hate drawing him #never wont #smiling friends #pim pimling #charlie dompler #Dumb name … stupid guy… #💝 #charpim is soo scary to actually tag like woah guys who said anything about all that.. hey now #odieart

[unexpectedbrickattack]

experimentin w shit heehee

#fake peppino #arts #mine #horror #eye strain #guh #body horror #a lil tho but i just think thats a more commonly blacklisted tag than 'horror' #spooky month is the only time im like. i guess i should TRY to draw spooky shit #i always feel like my style is too loose and roumnd to convey it in the way i want to #but spooky month is like okay u can fuck around and fuck up and itll still be good. the spirit of spookyness n all that #i love horror so much but it feels so hard to grasp. like what is ACTUALLY scary yknow? #its very easy to say whats not scary but then its also so hard to stop urself from doing the same things lol #to be fair. stories and 'motion' (through the use of comics or animations) are far easier ways to convey things like suspense n stuff #still art is like. well that is an image alright lol #not entirely true tho; theres an artist i dont know the name of that did trailcam images that were photorealistic #and theyre sooooooooo fuckin creepy #like when i get around to doing more fp art i wanna use that and the lighting in it as practice #okay thats it i think; gonna draw furry shit bc i need comms yay yippeeeeeee

[skrunksthatwunk]

something he can't put into words.

#ANOTHER DAIGO POST!!!! <333 #also sorry for being like teehee yaoi dojima anyway daigo can't/probably shouldn't be close to his bio dad and latched onto this random #20 year old but Doesnt Quite recognize what is so wrong about sohei and so right about kiryu and how he should feel about either #meaning he cant fulfill his true desire (baby duck around kamurocho with his babysitter who's probably got better things to do bc people #always have better things to do than take care of him but at least kiryu pretends he enjoys it #for hours and hours and hours. some of the others ask him how he is or what he's up to at school but they don't really reach him like kiryu #does. he wants to impress him soooo bad. aughhh baby daigo you're annoying but you're also so emotionally neglected #haha latching onto mentors bc they're more involved/easier to connect to than parents haha who would do that not me ahem uh anyway #(skrunks be normal about and not project onto a kiryu + child dynamic challenge: impossible) #anyway he can't just say sohei's his father bc he's a big crime daddy but he hasn't really.. accepted? whats going on with kiryu yet either #i dont think he knows kiryu's his dad is my point #rgg #ryu ga gotoku #yakuza #dojima daigo #like a dragon #daigo dojima #ykz #i accidentally saved over soo many versions of this so i had to be like fuck it we ball. thats the final version of that panel now #gonna schedule this for later today bc i dont wanna stifle the kazumi posts but i also uh. am impatient #anyway more little daigo content he's such an ass but it makes so much sense why he's like that and he deserves a whole lotta love #also i just realized i used different name orders for kiryu and yayoi... sorry idk im just incapable of writing kazuma kiryu #uhOOPS POSTED IT EARLY NVM #yer gettin a loootta skrunk content today ig #skrunkart

[thesilliest-littlefella]

finally finished hannibal. what the fuck.

#DUDE THAT WAS SOOOOOOO GAY SOOOOO GAY #hannibal spoilers #BUT WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT #them killing francis was like their first time together guys #AND THEN THE 'this is what ive always wanted for you will. for both of us' YALLLLLLLL #'its beautiful' IM SICKKK IM SICK #when will i find the hannibal lecter to my will graham what the freak #ALSO BEDELIA CALLING WILL A TWITCHY LITTLE MAN SHES SO SILLY #so true tho thats his identifier #hannigram #nbc hannibal #hannibal finale #will graham #hannibal lecter #hannibal

[forgondor]

I haven’t read the book so I can’t say but something that struck me in James Ivory’s 1987 Maurice is the fact that Maurice & Alec’s relationship is started by Maurice unknowingly sending a signal to Alec, which Alec largely misinterprets, but it works out anyways, and much later at the end, when they meet at the boathouse, Alec goes “did you get my wire” and Maurice goes “what” because again he completely missed that signal but it doesn’t matter because he’s here anyways. And it’s like. There were a million mistakes to make and a million mistakes they made, but somehow, they find their way to each other, almost unwittingly. Maurice says “It’s a chance in a thousand we met” but I don’t think that’s true. I think it was always going to be like this, in every world they would have found each other. It’s the way they fall into each other’s arms so easily and they try to get away from each other but they can’t and they’re separated by so much but they still collide... This story is SCREAMING at us that no matter how impossible it is no matter how alone and repressed you feel you mustn’t lose hope because your love will find you and you can’t avoid it! You will be happy!

#this isnt about being soulmates i don't really believe in soulmates nor do i love soulmate stories #this is about how queer people have never been alone and have always found each other throughout history even in the most repressed of times #this is about how maurice never gave up on his hopes for happiness and ultimately thats what brings him happiness (unlike clive) #if you trust life and you put yourself out there and you're true to yourself then happiness will find you #just dont lose hope #it's also when alec says 'when you arrived i thought I want that one and look at us now' its like well of course. of course #meant to be etc #also intertwined with the themes of nature and the natural and freedom etc #maurice #maurice 1987 #maurice and alec #maurice hall #alec scudder

[cleromancy]

"tim needs to get a new mantle he didnt steal from his siblings" wrong. Say hello to the new huntress

#🙅nuclear family 'wayne' posters dni🙅 #but honestly. why do you even want him to make his own identity #because itd be 'establishing his individuality'? because itd be 'healthier'? what are you a cop #honestly like its so boringgggg give me tim who crawled into dicks old uniform and stayed there until he got kicked out and then dragged+ #Jason's out of the literal garbage or I don't want any #genuinely its really difficult for me to wrap my head around the idea of using TIM of all people in an arc about like. what. #establishing yourself as an independent new thing in an actually interesting arc that rings true for him bc. #hes always been pretty independent for all that he was the Team-Up Robin like #if he didmt have that connection in the form of taking on someone elses discarded mantle hed just up and float away man 🤷 #dc #like he doesn't need to have... like nightwing but for tim drake #hes not dick lol. #however i do not want him to just be robin any mote #more*. Thats no good #in fact its horrible and im puking blood all over everyone involved #in making that decision #blergheejfggegh oh im puking blood on yuo <- pov you put tim drake #back in the robin suit

[the-somwthing]

I really wanted Jimmy to win Real Life after what he went through in that cave but his death scream absolutely makes up for the fact that he died

#trafficblr #real life smp #life series #I will say the fandom would be no offense insufferable if he did win so. #ppl would be like ‘you stupid canary curse truthers are trying to take away his win just because you want him to die first always!’ #when it’s like ‘THATS NOT A REAL WIN 😭 THIS ISNT A REAL SEASON 😭’ #like I’m already facing this problem with Cleo being a winner it would just be a million times worse if Jimmy won #all I gotta say to people who think RL counts as a true win: do u rlly believe that if Cleo were close to winning next season she should let #someone else do it because she ‘already won’? do you REALLY think RL is an adequate win that she would be hogging all the wins by winning an #actual season? #anyways ignore these tags this is about Jimmy’s fnafjumpscare scream

[sickficideas]

poor aku is not feeling good :(

#ive been wanting make art for this account for forever #i hope u guys enjoy teehee let me know maybe ill draw more for here #my Im Thinking About Akutagawa Throwing Up post will always be relevant bc its always true #also thats higuchis arm </3 #ugh i love him i wanna tuck him into bed #bungo stray dogs #bungou stray dogs #bsd #illness #sick #ill #emeto #vomiting #fever #fanart #art #my art #akutagawa #higuchi #emeto art #nausea #tw vomit #emetophilia

[ghost-bard]

Me when guideau is an unreliable narrator lmao

#the witch and the beast #majo to yajuu #mty #guideau #in the sense that. they are so so so heavily biased it’s actually hilarious #like are you really gonna look at guideau and take them at face value? #like obviously not all witches are bad lmao in fact id say most witches modern day are like. morally grey/leaning good #idk i cant wait for ppl watching the anime to meet phanora and johan #ALSO I SAW SOMEONE SAY THAT GUIDEAU AND ASHAF ARE YAOI CODED? LMAO???? #ik its not a super well known bit but i will say it until the day i die #GUIDEAU IS CANONICALLY NONBINARY #QUOTE #GUIDEAUS TRUE BODY DOESNT A CONCEPT OF FERTILITY #NOR A CONCEPT OF GENDER #END QUOTE #although thats not to say guideau/ashaf cant be yaoi #i just want ppl to be aware that no matter how it goes. the tension between angela/guideau/ashaf #is and always will be. homoerotic #sorry went silly mode in my tags lmao

[puhpandas]

Did you hear about how recently it was revealed that Gregory is actually Scott’s favorite. That gives me a lot of hope for the future of his character.

WHAT? WHERE? wtf thats awesome. gives me hope theyll focus more on the cooler aspects of his character like ggy/the no man left behind doing whats right for the greater good. im not surprised that gregory is scotts favorite in that he has a similar/the same role michael afton did as the tragic hero. but i AM suprised that if you mean in all of fnaf and not just SW era, gregory is his favorite OVER michael?? thats insane

#i would love a source #if its true thats so awesome for us gregory enthusiasts #gives me hope #pandas.txt #gregory is always the favorite damn #lmao #i hope this means theyll want to focus on him in HW2 #ahem ahem ggy prequel #very much needed for gregory and also more insight on the glitchtrap content massacre #pandas talks #pandas asks #thoughts #gregory #pre help wanted 2

[lilaccatholic]

how do i do it though. how do i let go of the bitterness and the hardness when they kept me "okay" for so long? does it come when i finally leave? can it ever?

#babes i actually relate to the frigid angry woman more than im comfortable with but this time there's no prince coming to save her and idk #i was never beautiful but i was and am angry and capable and that's served me well but being angry is exhausting #it's a birthright i can't give to a younger sibling. it doesn't transfer. #i dont inspire devotion. there's no version of this that ends with me waltzing with a true love. #im not the type you launch a thousand ships for. #so what's left? #who am i when i have no one? when ive spent my life making *me* less to make others more? when im nothing but a useful piece of furniture. #i know God loves me! i love Him! but it's not the same. i want *people* to love me. i want to be someone that theyd fight for. #im feeling that 'women have minds and hearts but im so lonely' scene from little women 2019 so much right now. #except im not jo. my family loves me but theyd never do for me what jo's would do for her. theyre also all focused on surviving. #i feel like a military ration. there to be consumed but cast aside the moment something more palatable comes around. #how do i become consumed with joy? how do i let go of the cynicism? its all thats kept me safe! but its choking me too. #its like tony stark in iron man 2. the thing thats kept me alive this far is killing me. i need to find an alternative but its looking like #ill have to synthesize a new element to make it happen and that freaks me out. #ive always been derivative. never an individual. how do i become a trailblazer when my job was always to hold the hand of the one blazing #the trail? how do i become myself happy and free? #because i WANT to be more #i WANT to be more than anger and coldness and a useful idiot. i WANT to be me and be so so happy #but i dont know how to get there #and if someone suggests therapy im shooting you. i dont want to listen to one more person pretend to care about me and tell me #all the things i need to change and spend even longer not learning how to think for myself #i want to be more than this. but i also cant stand the thought of taking up any more space than i do #anyway. #anyone who's read all this thank you and i promise im fine im just in my feelings today lol #im going to work out and get some happy brain chemicals flowing and then ill take a shower and itll all be good. #please dont worry about me! im just having A Moment TM #lilac rambles

[storm-of-feathers]

damn why did i stop being an alcoholic being drunk rules actually i dont feel a single OUNCE of my burdens. i just feel the wine. and its pink.

#this post is mostly a joke OBVIOUSLY i dont wanrt to be a True Alcoholic again #ive been sober #(in the definition that i dont consider myself addicted - not in the definition of complete abstinence) #since 2018. and its been very good for me obviously #but damn i gotta remember that alcohol exists and i have some if i ever truly need to unwind #bc like. yk. i have a lot of trouble unwinding #i used to have this uhh #one of my grandmothers brothers. idk the word. #he always said that the world was so bright and loud and sharp. except for when he drank. #dgmw. i do think autism runs on my dads side #(and thats cool!! bc it proves autism isnt just a white thing!!!!! something thats unfortunately a popular belief :/) #but i think there was def a genetic susceptibility to it on my moms side too #like ofc i was going to be autistic!! look at my family!!! #which is interesting bc as far as anyone can tell my only biological sibling isnt autistic #i have two Additional siblings but thats a longer story. but i love them both just as much as my biological sib #i love having lots of siblings by choice #so many of my younger friends have said im like an older brother they need #and i love that tbh. i love that i get to be something i desperately needed when i was a terrified teenager #n e ways. if u read this far thank you its just wine drunk ramblings. #WHO want to run in the forest naked with me

[muirneach]

it is fascinating to me that the majority of people it seems have never considered that borders are just lines on a map? its just a piece of paper? not to have anarchic tendencies but like. it’s just words

#tried to type and retype this sentiment in prev but it kind of negates the premise of the post (which i agree with) #because like. yeah borders are just lines #but like re prev jannik IS italian since thats what he identifies with #even though people call him german/austrian because of his background #which is weird to say right? its weird. like idk man he plays for team italy sooo #so i didnt want to be like well borders are fake. true but not the point #and now unrelated to prev post but back to the topic of borders #they do fascinate me. guy who’s obsessed with colonial history #something i think about a lot is like. ppl r always talking about how tiny european countries are etc #and its like yeah. due to the diversity of ethnic groups in the continent (yeah yeah multiple cultures in a country too) #and then comparing that to north america like if we considered indigenous bands and nations in the same way its the same thing #but no one ever talks about it. like damn theres a great diversity of people groups worldwide and only europe gets to carve out areas #<- although like again. not that im pro ethnicstate or pro border but like theres a reason why europe is small and other countries arent #idk. i heart political science and history and anthropology and culture god bless

[dontfuckingestablishcanonicalbac]

rick's backstory introduced a lot of plot holes and basically you can either accept the pre-backstory-reveal era as its own subset of canon OR you can headcanon ways for them to make sense SO i think the main issue with the multiverse setup is birdperson, because he's presumably as infinite as everyone else BUT the way rick acts about him would only make sense if it's always the same birdperson FURTHERMORE some moments absolutely ring hollow because of the backstory, in particular any nods to rick c-137 and morty prime having interacted before rick landed in the prime dimension just before s1 such as the picture of rick holding baby morty in bird person's house and rick's memory of holding baby morty SO for the sake of narrative cohesion rick should always have been friends with the same birdperson, and to a lesser extent the same morty, and overall because rick knew the prime dimension was the prime dimension when he settled there it makes sense for him to have spent a lot of time there before THEREFORE instead of his birdperson being some random universe's birdperson it would make sense for him to be the prime dimension's birdperson AND THEN with the possibility that rick spent a lot of time in the prime dimension prior to s1 (and even the creation of the citadel of ricks) while he hunted rick prime - it makes sense for him to have exhausted earth prime for resources on where to find rick prime SO that means he may have even been around the prime dimension for morty prime's birth (maybe part of him thought morty's birth would draw rick prime back into the picture, who knows) AND SO the baby photos and memories are indeed of morty prime. ffdkffffggjtjfgggg,,,,,,,,, ,,

#rick #morty #just ignore this post i needed to exorcise all this sprawling shit from my brain #all i really want is in canon confirmation that its always the same bp that rick has been friends with. thats all i want. canon confirmatio #that to him bp is irreplacable. #the morty stuff i can take or leave their relationship only rly matters at the beginning of the show it just would make rewatching older #episodes more sensical if all this was true #i have a crackpot theory that if it is birdperson prime who rick c-137 is friends with then bp met rick prime before #and rick c-137 just sort of... picks up where rick prime left off (as he is often wont to do) #and ends up making something sincere out of it. #rick c-137 simply cannot resist taking the relationships rick prime should have held dear and accidentally making something meaningful out #of them. #edit: its confirmed in rickternal friendshine that it's always the same bp. 👍