#the amount of tags... f

[geosaurus]

Get Your Life Together AU

#kaiji #kaiji itou #akagi #akagi shigeru #FKMT #edit: updated this illustration bc some of the rendering was bothering me #if you dont know what Kaiji is just pretend these are my OCs bc they might as well be for how unrecognizable they are. Also read/watch Kaij #why did i draw an AU where Kaiji gets his life together & becomes a tattoo artist and f.t.m Akagi is there? anxiety i guess?? #i've been unemployd as flck and my coping stratergy is that i terraform my blorbos #i know tattooing is kinda tabooin japan bc of yakuza but kaiji and akagi are pariahs so why not. not like he can keep a normal job anyway #it puts him in the flow state he craves but instead of gambIing away ungodly amounts of money he just draws a w ee d leaf on kazuyas a s #i put thought into the tatoos and stickers etc i want to explain them but i doubt anyone would read all that. but please enjoy the details #HEY HERE'S A FUN FACT ABOUT THIS POST #it wasn't showing up in the fkmt fandom tags for a while so i complainted to tumblr about it bc i was feeling petty #apparently tumblr looks through all your tags and all the individual words within your tags to see if its sensitive material #so i went through and changed words until it showed up in the tags #and then changed some back to see what would keep it in. and i know for a fact that one of the sensitive words was f////t///////m #so thats cool.

[cinnamon-phrog]

Silly fellows! My beloveds! Since a lot more people than I was expecting seemed to like the last edits I made [one even making one their icon! I am so touched/gen!] I made a few more!

So none of you are confused/weirded out. I personally see all three of em as ageless and/or all the same or similar ages. Though of course I'm aware other interpretations exist- love them even! Other peoples' views of the characters are wonderful so long as you're not being a dick to someone who's opinion is harmless and clashes with your own. Also if you're pr*ship dni [copy/pasted this from the last post I made because well. I can't go around saying I f/o Yellow when the fandom typically interprets him as a child, otherwise I'll get harassed if I'm lucky/banned if I'm not.]

Feel free to use with credit! References under the cut!

#dhmis #dont hug me im scared #don't hug me i'm scared #red guy #yellow guy #duck guy #duck #f/o #fictional other #selfship #selfshipping #selfshipper #selfship community #selfshipping community #selfshipper community #okay to reblog. but not pressured or anything /gen #<---- my attempt to condense the amount of tags i make so it's not overkill for myself #🍝👄 #🦆📋 #🎨🌻 #🚦🏠

[shsl-roomba]

the dr fandom cant handle wlw ships in any other context than background fluff with no depth

i like sakuraoi and tsumioda ect but they always get woobified and mellowed out like did they SEE 1-4??? aoi did not pull all that to get sidelined as a supportive background lesbian in your ishimondo fanfic

and don’t get me wrong. my girls need a break sometimes fluff is great i don’t have a problem with it. but it’s the constant sidelining of wlw ships in favour of het/mlm ships in pretty much any fandom that gets to me.

and how wlw ships are only acceptable in the community when they don’t have any dysfunction or toxicity, and if the ship does have even the slightest hint of the above qualities it is either mellowed out to the point of being unrecognisable or dumped on with thinly veiled misogyny and homophobia and when i say slightest hint i mean the literally slightest hint. like the girls will argue once and the fandom will label the ship toxic while shipping. fucking kuzupeko or something.

wlw ships are seen almost entirely as a way to get female characters out of the way of mlm ships. in het ships the female character is a tool to develop the male character. they show significantly less depth and probably dies to forward the male character’s development (sound familiar?)

in any situation female characters are characterised by their relations to male characters. a female character’s (usually romantic, or at least interpreted as such) relationship with a male character is their defining characteristic. if said female character is in a wlw relationship they are reduced to their most basic traits while male characters are explored and given depth, and exist in the story only to offer support to the male characters.

i haven’t even mentioned how female characters must be in a relationship to be even remotely relevant in a story, but that’s a rant for another time.

grrah the way that female characters mirrors how wlw ships are treated by the community, and that characters/ships that aren’t completely perfect and deemed acceptable by the community are dumped on by the larger dr community while worse ships or characters are welcomed because they happen to contain a male character is gonna be my 13th reason istg.

anyways this rant is getting long but in summary danganronpa fans hate women and they hate wlw relationships that they can’t jerk off to.

#apple chat #danganronpa #sdr2 #thh #ndrv3 #this post is incoherent i know i know #also as an add on #leaving this in the tags because my post is about female characters and wlw relationships exclusively #and what im going to say affects mlm relationships as well #but the despite the amount of queer fans a lot of the dr community esp the ones on reddit view heterosexuality as the “default” #and dump on queer ships simply because they happen to be queer #the dr community’s constant complaining about its queer fans drives me up a wall #yes a lot of them are annoying and i also hate the annoying komahina saiouma shippers who hate anything that isn’t pale twink yaoi BUT #we can dump on annoying dr fans and ships we don’t like without bringing up sexuality i believe in you guys❤️ #oh no the poor straights the shippers made their favourite characters gay💔 damn those homos ruining everything #is what you guys genuinely sound like sometimes #the tone deafness in this community #one day i will round up every dr redditor and set them on fire #I’m so sorry you had to see gay people on your dash as repayment you get one f slur pass use it wisely #i will shit on dr community again another day for now goodbye🫡 #psst btw i have no beef with kmhn and (most) of its fans but a bunch are Like That so yeah #on the other hand fuck saiouma all my homies hate saiouma (well *I* don’t like it but good for you besties) #ok this is getting long enough BYEEE #homophobia tw #misogyny tw

[principled-uncertainty]

I got bored again so it’s time for another selfshipping reblog game!

Requests are CLOSED for the moment, I think we’ve got enough 😅 These will be going out uhhh… Slowly

If you have an F/O from one of:

💫 Genshin Impact

🌙 Mystic Messenger

💫 Enstars

🌙 Obey Me!

💫 Honkai: Star Rail

🌙 … And more?

Reblog this with your request if you want to get a (small) letter from them in your inbox! I’ve listed the popular selfshipping fandoms I’m most familiar with, since I’m picky about getting characterization right, but you can request from others as well! I’ll accept it if I know the character, or if I can get a good enough idea of your ship from your blog.

I will edit the post to close this once either momentum dies down or I get overwhelmed, so check the original post before requesting.

#smiley’s reblog games #<- block this if y’all don’t want to experience spam for an indeterminate amount of time #yes I’m aware writing ^_^ as ‘smiley’ makes me sound like a creepypasta character #but the underscore in the emoticon doesn’t show up in autofilled tags #so this is what we’re going with #f/o community #self shipping #self ship #f/o #self ship community #f/o x s/i #romantic f/o #familial f/o #platonic f/o #imagine your f/o #f/o imagines #f/o reblog game #self ship reblog game #selfshipping reblog game

[zvaigzdelasas]

lol yet more proof that the A-10 is still probably the most actually useful plane in the USAF despite the flaw of not making Lockheed millions

#syrskyi is commander of the ukr army #f-16 who #f-35 not even in the ballpark #'[a] major general has been […] reprimanded and [fired] for [saying] that [blocking] retirement of the A-10 Warthog amounted to 'treason'' #- 2015 #(mostly edited to fit in a tag) #nafo ukrposters are trying to clown on syrskyi here but hes right lmfao

[tempfleurs]

assorted funger doodles: the sequel

#oh god rhe amount of tags #kenny draws #fear and hunger #fear and hunger termina #cahara #d'arce #le'garde #abella #samarie #marina domek #d'arcehara #darcehara #ledarce #f&h #fear & hunger #d'arce cataliss

[prussianjet]

me and al @eeryuck dedicated a full day to redrawing hetalia mmd screencaps.. last pic is a collab . this was so fun :D

#hetalia #aph prussia #hws prussia #gilbert beilschmidt #aph america #hws america #alfred f jones #aph russia #hws russia #ivan braginsky #aph china #hws china #wang yao #aph italy #hws italy #feliciano vargas #this is a ridiculous amount of tags sorry.

[defendglobe]

i need my followers who haven’t seen LOTR to understand that gollum literally said the F slur on live TV

#it’s bleeped so it’s ambiguous which f word he’s using but STILL #i spent an excessive amount of time watching the bonus features on the extended edition dvds as a kid #and all three of them have a secret joke video hidden somewhere in the dvd menus #one of them is the ‘when will you wear wigs’ interview. another is a sketch with jack black at the council #of elrond with the ring stuck on his fucking cock. and the other is this. #blah blah blah #lotr tag

[stuffedsand]

Wahey milgram oc time my silly guya

013 - Shiratori Masaki

My boy

- 20

- prisoner number 013 (I slapped them into base milgram cuz I don't wanna make a whole new cast)

- to quote my own character notes: cringefail specimen of a man.

-- fun name thing! His first name means "true, hope" hehe

UNDERCOVER

"Under, oh so aware of all that you say

This makes me sick, so please, go away"

Votes (fabricated lmao)

T1 - INNOCENT

T2 - GUILTY

Songs of Prisoners

+T1 – what…what are you talking about?

+T2 – no…you-you’re lying!

Voice trailer (t1)

Oh uh… Shiratori Masaki, that's my name. 20, uni student. Uhh what else … oh, sorry if I forget anything, i, ah, my memory has never been any good

If I'm being honest…I don't know what the hell you're talking about! No one around me has died recently. At least…not as far as I can recall…

*Takai? Takai! Wake up! This isn't funny..!*

Voice trailer (t2)

Hi, Es-kun, how have you been? Ah, Shiratori Masaki. You didn't forget our deal, right?

*Shut up! I don't want to listen to you and your stupid problems anymore!*

Personality

-- a timid yet stubborn man. It is very difficult to change his opinions on things. Polite, but very quick to turn defensive if blame is turned on him.

He can be a prick at times.

Extra notes

-- a man with really bad memory loss. During T1 interro, he makes a deal that he'll take MILGRAM seriously if Es can tell him who his victim is. And he has to believe it

-- not mentioned but his memory loss is a trauma response. Dead bodies are traumatic I don't think that's a contraversial take

-- the indirect murderer of the pair

Full body:

Please note -- his ugly fucking shoes were not an accident he has a horrible fashion sense

014 - Akabane Kazuko

The She

-23

-prisoner number 014

-based off one of my multifandom ocs (and my favourite of the 2)

--fun name thing! Her name means "gentle/kind/harmonious child". 子 is also(apparantly) male specific. I have fun reasons for that

UNDERCOVER

(pardon the artstyle change this was done on my tablet instead of my computer and was. Rushed💀)

Under, I don't care if I'm in the right or wrong

Songs of prisoners

Full of malice, we will waltz to our doom

Votes (edit)

T1 - guilty

T2 - (?)

+t1 – let's get on with it, shall we?

+T2 – ...you're not very good at this.

T1 – voice trailer

Hello. I am Akabane Kazuko. 24. A pleasure to make your acquaintance, Warden.

I am interested in how all this will play out. But nothing will really change the impact of our actions. Remember that, Warden

* My final act… will take your breath away! *

T2 – voice trailer

Good day, Warden. Kazuko, you remember, yes? Seems your choices have caused quite the ruckus.

* You…You know what you've done! I'll make you pay for it!*

Personality

-- a calm and gentle woman. A showman at heart, she is elegant and loves performing magic tricks.

-- some are unsettled by her, but she does her best to be kind and friendly to those she speaks to

Extra notes:

-- Magician coded :)

-- because I can fabricate fan theories, es assumed they killed 2 people in trial one. They have only killed one.

-- the direct murderer of the pair

Full body: (outdated a lil, I changed her vibe. Design still stands)

Please note -- bowling alley socks

Interro qns (please give me some interro questions tho I'm very bad at thinking any up)

Also note: interros are formatted as

--

Question

Kazuko

Masaki

--

Cuz I wrote this when I labelled Kazuko as 001 and Masaki as 002. I'm changing it to reflect their new numbers but editing on Tumblr mobile sucks so I'm not changing the order </3

Q)Tell us your family structure

014 — mother, self, brother,

...it's just me now

013 — parents, me and my twin, Shiratori Takai.

Q)Is there people you hate?

014 — hypocrites.

Don't become one, warden

013 — people who always depend on you

Q)Which prisoner is the most similar to you?

014 – yuzuriha kotoko.

013 – hm...

Probably kayano. He looks like he doesn't know why he's here, too

Q)What was your murder weapon?

014 — what a bold question

It was a bottle.

013 — haha, I'll humour you for this one

Hmmmm...... My words, maybe? I've been told i have quite a sharp tongue

Q)What was your family like?

014 — kind, resilient. They were wonderful. I

loved them

013 — they're ok.

Which prisoner do you get along with the least?

014 — mr mukuhara. Nothing against him, he just reminds me of someone.

013 — …Kusunoki. No reason, but I do wish she'd stop trying to talk to me. It's annoying.

Q)How has your experience been within MILGRAM ?

014 — quite good, considering we're all in here for murder.

013 — uh… good? I still don't believe you saying we're all murderers.

Q)Do you have regrets?

014 — yes. I should have done something sooner

013 — no? I did argue with my brother recently, but it was nothing, really. I'll apologize and everything will be fine

Q)Is there a verdict you hope for?

014) all I hope for is your honest judgement. I want to see how you choose to judge

013) Well, since I don't think I've done anything… I'd hope to be forgiven, of course.

Who was your victim to you?

014) nothing.

013) eh? Warden, I don't know. We made a deal remember? You tell me!

What is your father like?

014) i dont consider him my father.

013) uh…he’s my dad. What more do you want me to say, really...

What do you think of the prisoner paired with you?

014) Shiratori? Not much opinion. I do wonder what he's done to be here, though.

013) Ms Kazuko..? Shes intimidating, if I'm being honest. Not scary, just...intimidating

#milgram #milgram oc #aughdgdhsgs my guys!!! i think about them alot #kazuko is an old oc from when i only used wattpad. i just changed her name lmao #and her backstory lmao #masaki doesnt like muu but he kinda parrallels her in that t1 he seems fine if pitiable and t2 he starts victimblaming #as my character notes states: his coping mechanism is being an asshole #anyways guess their victims i think its too obvious but idk #also giv eme more interro questions💥💥 im bad at fitting in questions for a character who genuinely doesnt know #wahey 💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥 theyre silly to me #i havent fully fleshed em out :p but i lobe them #anywags my f #my guys my sillies. im so eepy #the amount of tags is vuz im procrastinating on send post jm nervous this is an oc post ive never done fhis lmao #oopsie. post button

[booperbeanv3]

Man if you’re gonna write out faggot as an insult just write out retarded as an insult

We all know what it said anyway

https://www.tumblr.com/booperbeanv3/724562206605344768/drawstuck-10-cultural-exchange

You'd be surprised

#the amount of people who tagged it as cw f slur and not cw r slur is astounding #bean answers #and you have to admit #“are you re(dact)ed” is hilarious #homestuck

[hyp3rfixation-h3ll]

DIVERSITY WIN! the girl who tried to kill you yesterday is really good with swords and ohh shit she's kinda pretty awww frag aw shit ( closeups + no filter vers beneath the cut!!!!! )

#botbots tag 🏪 #kin tag: burgertron 🍔🤖 #f/o tag: bonz eye 💚⚔ #transformers #transformers botbots #botbots #selfship #burgerbonz #maccadam #burgertron #bonz eye #the amount of lesbian tension in the original scene was insane i HAD to redraw this one #bonz eye looks so happy w/ herself i LOVE HER??? #also the implication that she basically attacked fomo because he IS the camera . primus bless her actually he had that one coming #i hope it hurt SGGNSKGHSJGN

[mattodore]

#river dipping #every time i unlock my phone i get stuck for ten minutes just staring #anyway.............. hello nkjdfjdkfn #vanished friday night and then i've been SUFFERING #cramping like you would NAWTTTTTT believe #ever since then and haven't logged in to do anything other than read some quotes from literate passion which >:) i now have an epub for #so i'm going to read that soon i'm excited it's like 400+ pages i think so <3 #but god the amount of ibuprofen i've taken the last three days...... #the amount of SLEEP???? i've been getting??????????? insane #anyway. #i finished putting together a nav. post for mobile users but i like my pinned too much atm so for now it'll sit in my drafts #and i think my avpd is kinda getting to me so i'm having trouble getting myself to interact atm </3 #um. #so give me some time to check my activity and actually reply back #this post is fr just bc i don't want to leave anyone hanging but i'm also like. unwell atm kfdnjghkdnh #i will for sure be back sometime in like... the next day or two? #but for now i'm just going to stay offline for a bit #um. so like......... just don't be surprised if i'm pretty quiet in the tags on posts and stuff when i do? idk. i'm hoping the avpd is #just acting up bc i'm not feeling well? otherwise...... well. #f in the chat to pay respects #like i'll push my way through it anyway bc i've learned it's the only way to keep myself from having an Isolation Spell #but it's still pretty tough to do... anyway. love you all <3 miss you dearly MWAH #the disorders............ they're just winning out rn #.............also now you can see how long it normally takes me to type out the tags that i do. like yeah this took twenty minutes #i reread what i type a lot before i even think to hit post

[astriiformes]

Our Lilith has made her Hooty. Even longer.

#just an unprecedented amount of hoot #f: us weirdos have to stick together

[emi-writings]

MCYT Yuri Week Valentines Day Three

I am... really sorry to @mcyt-yuri-week for this one, I may have gone a little crazy with the cursed ships. On the plus side, I am increasing the number of different mcyt yuri ships to exist.

#nikirose #puffychu #kristin x samsung smart fridge #kristin x sally the salmon #kristin x mamacita #hopefully this time the amount of fanfics I have posted will stop the number of f/f fics on ao3 in the dsmp tag from going down

[heirbane]

feel free to ignore if you’ve already talked about this before, but i was running prae recently and it got me curious about gaius’s feelings on livia / nero / rhitahtyn? or the xivth in general. :>

i have been roosting on this for. weeks? months? because i have Thoughts and not a lot of them are popular probably lol. long long post below. so!

Livia and Lucia lived with Gaius after they were orphaned. The wiki gives like one sentence to say they were separated, but there's no linked proof. For the purposes of my canon, Lucia and Livia are identical twins, and fell into Gaius' custody around the age of nine or ten. (Mayhaps they had intended to separate them, but doing so to people so obviously two halves of one soul, as twins are oft believed to be, was cruel.)

Livia and Lucia were Gaius' first children. He was 39 and had spent twenty five years in the military already, a feat both telling of his ability and his early enlistment. Those who made it to twenty summers in the military had their futures financially secured for them. Gaius would never want for anything, and he now felt that he could offer himself up as a mentor figure to those younger... because as a child who had raised himself and had grown up in the military, he believed that all children needed was a safe home, plentiful meals, and education. His coin could provide all of those things.

Gaius scarcely remembered being ten years old. Not from lack of trying but from purposeful forgetfulness, a merciful omission made by his subconscious to truly forget the half-dozen winters spent trying to relieve his mother of her grief and fending for himself. He thinks he remembers being lonely, and cold, and scared. That, he thinks, he can avoid with the twins, even while he's on a tour of duty. He is so resplendently well-off and respected that the girls could attend private lessons and be dressed in the warmest coats.

(Providing the essentials - even to a level bordering on excessive, or stifling - is not a love children need. His first daughters were no better off than he at ten: they may have been clothed, in classes, and being raised by one of the military's finest, but they were still cripplingly alone. It is a knife he had handed all of his children, something he doesn't feel the blade of for over a dozen years.)

Livia was desperately, horridly lonely. Even before the death of her parents, she did not receive the amount of attention and love that she felt she needed. Her parents attention had always been split between her and her sister, and - as is often the case in multiple child households - Lucia was often seen as the more proper daughter. Upon their demise, Livia was left with a flurry of emotions she had yet to truly acknowledge and decode as one would growing up. Without a proper parent to idealize and a healthy, consistent environment to grow up in, Livia gorged herself on any and all attention, no matter how uncouth or unhinged. All attention was good attention.

She idolized Gaius to a suffocating degree. After her parents died, it seemed as if he swooped in and brought them into gilded luxury: she had everything she could have ever desired... but somehow - ... she still felt empty. But she felt loved and seen whenever he was home. She didn't know what she wanted, nor did she have the maturity to know there was a what: she simply wanted whatever scraps of affection he would offer... and never quite grew out of that. Trauma and emotional neglect is a bear trap one does not get free from on their own. Unfortunately, Livia was very much alone.

Lucia fled Garlemald at sixteen. Both girls were enrolled in the military at fifteen - one more willing than the other. Livia made leaps and bounds in a short few years, clawing her way to fight at Gaius' side, where she believed she belonged. Lucia focused on espionage, and used her adopted father's name to her advantage... and fled. Livia never saw Lucia after that, and died not knowing if her sister had ever found what she had sought in the savage lands.

Rhitahtyn, by comparison, was decidedly more a younger brother than son. A half dozen years his junior, Rhitahtyn entered the military not long after Gaius turned twenty-four. Not long after, Rhitahtyn was assigned to Gaius' very first platoon of soldiers ... as those from conquered lands were oft used as a new General's testing group.

Rhitahtyn and other Roe folk often used their native tongue to chitchat when in the barracks or otherwise not under the direct eye of Garlemald... or when they believed their superior to be ignorant of the language. Gaius had been in the military over a decade by the time they crossed paths and had chosen to learn the basics of the tongues spoken by those under his command. Needless to say, Rhitahtyn had choice words for his leader. (Needless to say, Gaius had his own in return. The floors of the platoon's bedquarters would never be nearly as clean as the Roe had made them that night as punishment.)

Despite the bad foot they got off on, Gaius saw promise in the younger man. He remained level-headed no matter the confrontation, already had years of work behind him as a mercenary, and had a sharp wit to boot. As time went on, their footing became less uneven, and Gaius began to see him as a peer instead of a recruit. Time and time again, he chose Rhi to be at his side, much like Nero and Livia.

Rhi knew the rest of Gaius' children. He met all of the Au Ri from Terncliff: he knew the Garlean orphans the man sponsored care for. They all came to see the Roe in a similar light to Gaius, despite the wide age gap between himself and them: to his children, Rhi was but another sibling. (It was Alphonse, still losing baby teeth and learning how Garlean names worked, who stumbled over Rhitahtyn's name enough that 'Rhi' came to be. Only the children dubbed him so. It was not a name Gaius would ever admit to using.)

As it is in canon, Gaius would not have sent Rhi to Cape Westwind to die. He would not have left the grounds to Livia and others. He did not believe the Warrior of Light so strong as to put down two soldiers he had trained himself: he had more faith in their abilities - and in Garlemald - than he had fear of the Warrior.

(As not many survived Westwind or after, it took Gaius many, many years to learn how Rhitahtyn perished - a fact only the Warrior of Light carried with them. He knew he had perished: he knew he had fought until the end. But to know that his brother-in-arms had fully intended to go down in flames with the Warrior of Light - ... to say he has regrets is but a sliver of the truth.)

In a perfect world, Gaius may have set up Nero with one of his daughters. In a perfect world, Midas would not have perished, and they would have happily co-parented Cid. Both Cid and Nero were born when Gaius was in his early twenties, and he sees both men in a similar light, much to Nero's disgust. A little competition never hurt anyone, and each boy's promise seemed to ignite fire in the other.

Much akin to Livia and Lucia, Nero is ... definitely the black sheep. While close to the age of his adult children, the man froths at the mouth when such is spoken, forever rushing to be great in his own right. Nero's sights for the future - his future, specifically - is both endearing and infuriating to Gaius, who sees his soldiers as part of a larger whole.

Unfortunately, no matter how infuriating or offbeat he is, Nero is a genius... but would have still come up short, had Cid stayed in Garlemald. Gaius knows this. Nero knows this, and he will fight until he is near dead to get out of the shadow Cid left behind by simply existing.

(Nero does not know why the shadow remains. He does not know why Gaius is soft-hearted for Cid, or why his voice is so fond for Midas. His relationship with the scientist is a secret only two other people were privy to: Midas' wife, and Cid. By the time Gaius meets Nero, Midas' widow has long since disappeared from under Garlemald's eye... and Cid is presumed dead.)

Had Lucia not fled and had Livia been sound of mind, he does think they would have made a fine lineage, all things considered. However, Livia only had eyes for Gaius... and Nero only had eyes for Cid.

#age gaps tw #hm #mental illness tw #unhealthy relationships tw #how to tag. idk. d.addy i.ssues (tm) but not in a f un way #ⅩⅣ tertius oculus ( hcs. ) #dubious consent tw #PROBABLY. BECAUSE LIKE FRANKLY she definitely came onto him. he just wasn't interested #me squinting at some vague roman history lore: good enough #not me projecting my parental issues lmfao #idk i definitely resonate w/ l.ivia. or i did as a preteen/early teen. which is why i peg her as Unwell #bc she's exhibiting behavior at 26-ish as i was at 13-ish #trauma does that to a bitch. im sorry l.ivia. you're cringe but you're understandable #idk i have a lot to say about the objectification/adultification of pre/teen girls who - #- obviously act the way they act because they don't have a healthy environment to explore and untangle their emotions - #and don't have a safe spot or person to go 'i can't tell if i have a crush on this teacher or if he reminds me of my father' #because - especially if you're emotionally neglected - deciphering the love languages and the meaning of attention can be difficult #or i found it to be as a pre/teen :) the amount of teachers i pack bonded on bc i wanted to be loved so bad that i didn't care how that was #very cringe of me. very mentally unwell of me. but i was unwell. i was neglected. and so were l.ucia and l.ivia! so. confetti #war tw #death tw #fire tw

[ifievertoldyou]

man, i wish that i had thought to take notes on the basic timeline when i read atol :/ i have done that with thaw, but not atol, which sucks because i think that would be incredibly useful sometimes (aka: right now, as i'm trying to write my thaw comment)...

#~ever rambles #thaw nation #going to have to remember to do that whenever im motivated enough to reread atol cover to cover again #atol is so freaking long that i can only do the 'entire work + ctrl f' method on my laptop bc it literally breaks my phone halfway through- #so a written timeline of what happens in each chapter and how much time has passed like what i did for thaw would be so handy sometimes </3 #the amount of times i've wanted to reread an atol chapter but couldn't remember which one and had to seek it out is too many to count #(bc i do reread atol a lot still just not cover to cover like thaw bc that's a Lot) #but yeah that is definitely on the list of things for me to do in the future #long tags