#the beauty in people. the true beauty.

[ruporas]

invisible scars (referenced previous talk here)

[ID: A colourless, digital Trigun comic of Vash and Wolfwood talking about Wolfwood's scars. They're both laying in bed and topless. Vash lays on top of Wolfwood, playing with the rosary around his neck. Then, Vash kisses a spot on Wolfwood's chest. Wolfwood asks, "What are you doing?" Vash smiles sadly, "You got shot here. In the last town we visited. You didn't even bother moving."

Vash props himself up over Wolfwood, who frowns slightly. Wolfwood is quiet for a moment before he says, "You remember that, huh?" Vash grabs Wolfwood's left wrist and brings it to his face. "And here." He kisses another spot there. "When you helped free the hostages from that robber..." Wolfwood dismissively says, looking away, "Was a lucky shot." Vash huffs, “Don’t brag. Jeez.”

Half of Wolfwood's expression is shown, eyes returning to Vash who is now sitting up, continuing to say, "And..." Vash goes on and kiss Wolfwood's right palm. "You got cut here, even though that girl was aiming at me." A moment from the past flashes, of Wolfwood grabbing a knife aimed at Vash, his hand bleeding.

At present, Vash moves down and puts another kiss on Wolfwood's right shoulder. "And here, from watching my back." Another memory flashes of Wolfwood and Vash back to back. Vash looks back as Wolfwood grins while holding Punisher, bleeding from multiple gunshots in his shoulder.

"And," Vash combs up Wolfwood's hair to reveal his forehead, "Here." A final memory shows Wolfwood with a regeneration vial in his mouth while getting shot on his temple. The next panel is framed in blood with Vash at the center, eyes wide and stunned in horror. The next panel is a closed up shot of Wolfwood's eye, locked on Vash's face.

Back to present, Vash’s head is bowed down as Wolfwood raises a hand to his nape and says, “Spikey.”

Wolfwood looks serious and frowns as he says, "We talked about this. Those were my decisions. They're not there anymore. Forget about them." Vash looks very sad before he smiles ruefully and says, "I still see them. All the time." He leans down so they touch foreheads. Wolfwood’s sorrowful expression can be seen as Vash says, "You protect so much. I could never forget what you've done to me. And many others..."

In the last image, they're drawn more cartoonishly. Wolfwood sweats and asks, "You don't actually remember every wound, right?" Vash points at a spot on his chest. "Kuroneko left a scratch here 7 times." Wolfwood, startled, says, "Why the hell are you keeping count—" End ID]

Credits for ID here and here

#vashwood #vash the stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #trigun #trigun maximum #another scars comic for one of the vw week days!!!! frankly i think about their scars WAY too often . most notably wolfwood's because #it really symbolizes a lot for him imo bc for vash it's a history of all the people that's ever harmed him betrayed him and the trust he has #given to humanity despite it all. its a beautiful reflection of his character and then u look at ww and presumably #since we dont really see him half naked Ever (shame) and i mean. i guess technically its a hc -- i assume he wouldn't have any scars bc #of the regen potions (which is why he doesnt have his t scars btw the regen pot took them away :pensive:) #in a way its like washing his hands of blood. giving him the body of someone who might never been involved in a fight never held a gun #but he knows thats not true yet he cant really do anything about it anyway bc he's still just human. if he stops taking the regen pots #he can't press forward. so its just a rinse and repeat and growing accustomed to whats inflicted on him because he knows it'll go away at #the end of the day. he's human but he's also not he's far beyond what could be considered a normal human but he still just is. #mortal but also not immortal. idk. i overthink about it a lot GMSKGMDK frankly i dont think it matters THAT much in the context of trimax #but it means a lot to me somehow. also thinking about how no matter how many times ww kills he's never numb to the sensation of it. maybe #the adrenaline gets to him for the beginning half but ive been rereading like.. vol 3? and that entire fight for ww #u can slowly see him spiral as he keeps on going on. anyway anyway. i love ww #ruporas art

[cohlumbo]

antlers, angels & wings true detective (2014) / william blake / robert w. chambers / stevenson memorial, abbott handerson thayer / disco elysium / true detective, unreleased pilot script

#making this for a round number of 3 people but by fuck i know my target audience #i have GOT to clear my yellow king drafts its insanity in there #actual grounds to get wellness checked #and i have to make room for new ones so #this is what we get this is the food #true detective #rust cohle #marty hart #webweaving #web weave #carcosa #the yellow king #h #its literally carcosa-only hours in here thats all im gonna put out here in this beautiful spring #intricate rituals <3

[ganondoodle]

once you notice how few characters in media have brown eyes it really becomes impossible to not pay attention to it and its been bothering me ever since

#ganondoodles talks #i now its not that there are literally zero #but it almost is #and i get giving fictional characters non natural eye colors is fun #but blue and green is still everywhere evne tho those are also real #like sometimes it feels like brown is actively avoided #going for red or yellow instead #and i know in anime especialyl theres this idea i think that similar to hair color its bcs the majority of japanese people have those #so it feels 'more special' if its anything but that #idk how much of that is true #also its not just anime #feels weird #brown is such a diverse and beautiful color #makes me sad

[mynqzo]

Why do you like vampires specifically, what do you like of them?

the sucking and fucking

#ask #also many several deep complex reasons #and if i were to divulge into them i would actually never shut up #its the. vampyrisim being a metaphore for otherness. for queerness #them being originally created (in europe at least) to be cruel representations of jewish people - immigrants and eastern europeans - and #these people reclaiming them. the reclamation of vampires to be the 'others' the ones that are ostracized by society #and people finding solidarity in that. vampires are queer their entire mythology is inherently queer as well so its beautiful in its own wa #vampires were transformed from cruel caricatures with intent to portray the fears of xenophobic english men to #complex deeply thought-out characters that embrace their differences from 'humanity' and live in their true identity #remember when i said “i cant delve into this otherwise i wont stop talking” yeah sorry it happened anyway

[lesbaurinkos]

julian blossom is like. i dont think hes GAY, like, GAY gay. but i DO think hes gay in that he HAS the blossom gay gene. he definitely got the genetic homosexuality passed on to him. and i do think the car accident and then getting to do musical theater shook those genes loose. i also think hes homophobic .and also an ally. and also homophobic. but in an ally way. i also think he probably Wants archie. and reggie too. his opinions on gay people are forever, well, going left, and also going right. i think hes just a mischievous boy at the end of the day. <3PAUSE im rewatching season 1 cause i havent watched it since 2017 why did gay kevin just call veronica his hag out loud i feel faint

#anyway. i look at julian and all i can think is “wow... hes so mischievous :)” that is my official julian stance #i cant POSSIBLY take a stance on his Gay People Opinions. those are up to god and whatever is the funniest at the time #we may never know his true heart! and that is beautiful to me #you go little porcelain doll :) #riverdale

[introspectivememories]

"evan, i find you adorable". adorable as in able to be adored. as in capable of being adored. as in i find you worthy of adoration. adorable, from the latin adorare (to worship) to adorabilis (in the sense 'worthy of divine worship') to the current day adorable. as in maybe if we had made it to the movies or if eddie didn't show up, i could've showed you just how much i want to worship you. as in i look at you and there is a font of adoration in my heart for you. adorable as in i flew into a hurricane with you and yet this date is a thousand times more thrilling than that. adorable as in there is a person in your building who saw me jump up and down like a little kid in the lobby after i had kissed you for the first time. adorable as in i kissed you and immediately thought fuck i could do this forever if he lets me. adorable as in i want to press kisses to your birthmark. adorable as in i spent the entirety of the days leading up to our date wondering about you, if you liked your coffee with two sugars or one. if you liked storms or if the lightning strike had put you off on them all together. if you liked cats or dogs or if you were the kind of weirdo who liked goats instead. if you thought about the kiss as often as i did. if your stomach tangled into twisted knots as saturday drew closer. if you would be agreeable to sitting in my lap. if you would blush as prettily as you did the day i kissed you. if your world also realigned when our lips met. if our orbits had matched up now that we flew into a hurricane together. if the gravitational pull between us had finally been too strong for either of us to resist that night in your loft. or maybe, more simply, adorable as in, "evan, i find you adorable."

#SOMEBODY SEDATE ME #what is this #i heard that line and was like how can i wax poetry about this #tommy kinard the man that you are #like it was just an interesting line to me. it literally keeps me up at night #and then tommy immediately following it up with 'i just dont think you're ready yet' #because it's true!!! idt buck was ready for the restaurant and maybe if buck had told tommy this was his first 'dude date' #they could've picked a more secluded spot and maybe then the movies could've still happened and they could've sat in the back #as some stupid movie plays onscreen but buck would ever so carefully tangle his hands with tommy's bigger ones and tommy would #squeeze them once and buck would be so nervous he wouldn't be able to look at tommy and would stare resolutely ahead at the movie he #doesn't care about but the whole time he'd be thinking about the way tommy holds him so gently but eddie did happen and buck is freaking ou #so tommy steps back and tells evan 'i dont think youre ready' w/ the implication being call me when you are and he puts the ball back in #evan's court. and maybe tommy thinks that's the end of it. it takes people years to be ready. hell it took him years to be ready except #beautiful brave evan calls him less than a week later and says 'maybe i'm not ready but if there's anyone i'd like to find out w/ it'd be y #i need to be sedated #911 abc #evan buckley #tommy kinard #bucktommy #buck x tommy #911 spoilers #911 season 7

[cloudmancy]

delloso de la rue is such an interesting character to me but I don’t think it’s for any of the reasons that the rest of the fandom likes rue for. oscar played them in such a metatextual way and it’s like, does he know? does he know how complicated and selfish and thoroughly flawed character he ended up creating? ruehob is so... fascinating to me and it’s not because I like the romance of it. there’s just such a twisted rotting core to it when you compare it to chirp & her wife, or even binx & andhera (and it’s FANTASTIC. I wish people didn’t shy away from how truly miserable ruehob is because that’s what I’m into)

it's like. you are delloso de la rue. you are an owlbear, under a spell of glamour. you have chosen to serve the court of wonder and at heart, you are a romantic. this year, you are planning what they say will be the very last bloom, and you are drowning in the narrative perfection of it. 

you do not like the court of wonder. you do not like the duty you hold. you do not like that you are in this pretty, lithe form you have chosen for yourself. but here are things you do like: love, romance, and EXCITEMENT. you meet two lords of the wing and you want to bear witness to love matches so badly that you make a wager for it. you want this to be the last, best bloom. you want this so ardently and selfishly that you are willing to fall for the first person you see who will fit this narrative (star crossed monsters in courts that don't accept them, what could be more perfect?) while ignoring everything you already have - because it's not enough for you. 

you say want love but you HAVE love. you say you want acceptance - but you could have that, too. you don't want love, you want the CONCEPT of love - the kind that people read storybooks about, that little owlbears dream of at night. you want romance. you want to be swept off your feet. you don't want acceptance, because acceptance and love is duty and you are beginning to hate the concept of duty. acceptance is (as hard as a knight pledging themselves to a different court for the sake of someone they love) as easy as realizing that of all the forms that the fae can take an owlbear is nowhere NEAR the most monstrous. the queen of air and darkness isn't even corporeal, half the courtiers of hoof and claw are feral beasts - but that realization is not grand enough for you.

you meet hob and you hold his paws in yours and you tell him (with tears in your eyes, so they sparkle better in the moonlight) that you feel - not alone - for the first time in your life (because it's something someone in a sweeping romance would say) and you (forget wuvvy, who followed you from her own court and accepted everything of who you were and repackaged herself smaller, neater, tidier like you, because that's what you wanted in the court of wonder) tell him that no one will ever use him again (while you use him to satisfy that hungry selfish hole in yourself that demands not LOVE but ROMANCE) because you love (what he represents, could represent for the grand romance of the sweeping fairytale you imagine your life could be if only someone loved you) him.

#a court of fey and flowers #delloso de la rue #wuvvy #ruehob #acofaf #sorry I have like. so many feelings about this #and meanwhile chirp and her wife and binx and andhera are like. #they love and it's not beautiful it's not picturesque but it is real and true #like actually I don't hate ruehob I just wish people realized it's uhmmm Fucked up lol #can we all make a pact to get into howfucked up they are like if someone told me they were toxic I'd be into it #but no ppl treat it as such a perfect romance and it's like. Divorce be upon ye #repackaged from a convo I had with fiovske #i looove your wuvvy art

[oceanwithouthermoon]

currently thinking about unreliable narrator saiki kusuo, and the fact that if the manga was written from anyone else's perspective then everyone would see him as a tsundere stalker, borderline yandere..

#tsundere? absolutely without a doubt. stalker? yeah you actually just cant deny that. yandere? mmm debatably true. #obsessiveness/possessiveness/protectiveness that makes him act kinda abnormally or sometimes literally go into a violent episode.. #yea thats just kinda a part of his character #but its not as severe as i think being an actual yandere implies #the thing that makes me think its close is the fact that he literally blacked out and had a violent episode back in elementary school #like he does genuinely care and think about other peoples feelings but in the moment of anger he literally lost control and had an episode #like he regretted it after but he still had an uncontrollable violent episode #and thats part of the reason he doesnt get close to people now.. #yeah i dont think it's quite yandere but something close #idk why im actually talking about the logistics of kusuo saiki being a yandere sorry #damn it my beautiful princess with a disorder #saiki k #tdlosk #the disastrous life of saiki k. #saiki kusuo #meows post

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Worry not for the Nameless Red Disciple, they just went down to the river to chill with the river turtles!

#poorly drawn mdzs #nameless red disciple #tulu xuanwu #Not calling this mdzs as it *barely* counts #I will have this character appear in the story again but for now they are going on a personal journey to find themselves #and also hang with turtles #are they spiritual turtles? no they are just the normal variety of wise and beautiful semi-aquatic creatures #LSZ really just found one off to the side and picked it up. Once again I must bring up the consequences of disturbing wildlife #In this fictional setting its fun but don't actually pick wild animals up and hide them in your sleeves. #but it does hold true that girls LOVE turtles. Boys too. People who aren't either also love turtles #turtle is a universally loved entity #and now NRD is learning their secrets! They will be unstoppable! #meta note: This is part of my slow plan to dig myself out of my deep pit of inbox backlog. #I love all the messages but oh man I have been in survival mode for 2 months

[jahiera]

Please,,,, please more rambles about astarion and him healing and his slowly changing relationship with (-tav-) Sex and intimacy and choice and-

LISTEN BUDDY...

Okay gonna talk about the Grave Scene. this scene truly lives in my head rent free. I've been rewatching it a few times and every way it plays out is so touching. Especially the way he.. hmm... expresses himself here? There's such earnestness to him that frankly is unimaginable to the person we met in act 1. He really went from being both so sly & yet obviously lying ("[you trusted me...] an objectively stupid thing to do.") to someone who admits and lists the way Tav makes him... feel.... SAFE? and held? and I understand why it's not something a lot of people focus on but I actually am so heart-touched by how complex and intricate his journey to reclaiming sex and desire is at the end of this conversation. None of it is gratuitous. None of it is for show. The blending of the nonsexual intimacy, and openness (the grabbing of the hands, the showing of the grave, the raw admittance of so much vulnerable material he gives to Tav; all things he would never have even CONCEIVED of offering up in even act 2.)

("I've been dead in the ground for long enough. It's time to try living again." ... "With everything that life has to offer.")

It's an extremely nuanced and thoughtful approach to an SA survivor rediscovering & reclaiming what they want to make of their desires, their sexuality, in the aftermath of what was done to their bodies without their consent. It's so thoughtful & beautiful imo. Finally here at his grave, he tells Tav that they're someone he feels safe & accepted with, & he can experience intimacy on both sides with someone who has put forth the effort, the time, the willingness to learn and wait and watch and care for his own desires in a manner no one else EVER has.

("I feel safe with you. Seen. And whatever the future holds for me, I don't want to lose that.")

It REALLY... gets me in the heart here. It doesn't avoid the difficulties of sexuality in the aftermath of abuse, and it ultimately shows one individual's journey toward reclamation and reconciliation with autonomy on their own terms. That's so vital here, that he reaches out, chooses to make the step forward, HIS choice. There's no lingering gratuitously on the trauma, if that makes sense? the descriptions and vulnerability are raw; Tav is grounding person here, Tav gives him room to speak. The true balance of intimacy in verbalizing his feelings, intimacy in being close physically with Tav, intimacy in discerning for himself what he desires, intimacy in accepting touch, contact, affection, togetherness. It's all so... [BITES INTO FIST SCREAMING]. And the ending. Where he and Tav get to set off on another adventure. Get to explore who they are truly now, with each other, without any higher powers looming over and putting a yoke around their necks. I'm personally partial to the "finding a way for you to be in the sun," ending myself but all of them are just ... so delightful. He really SHINES in a way that exceeded my expectations so completely in act 3. he went from totally closed off and locked away and unaware of how to navigate his own personal relationships, no idea what a "relationship," even was, no idea how to express boundary or unravel his complicated ideas and feelings around his body, what it was forced to do for Cazador, to:

("For nearly two centuries I stalked the streets like a ghost while the person I was lay here, dead and buried. Now I need to figure out who I am. What I want.")

also laying a flower on his grave and all he says is "cute." but there's such a minor moment of tenderness there. I weep I wept I will weep.

#I do get why I've seen the interpretation that he's totally sexless after it all & far be it for me to stop people from #interpreting it that way; interpretation and all that; but I personally really love & appreciate the narrative's conclusion here #in which sex is treated as thoughtfully as it can be; real and tangible and /yes/ an avenue of true togetherness beyond #like. getting off. that's not what it's about at all. (and the way this contrasts his post-ritual ending with all the SHOW...) #there's so much genuine intimacy & beauty here both nonsexually & at the end when it's reclaimed like whaahhaahahhahhhhh #it's hardly nonexistent in media for sexuality and SA to be something explored thoughtfully but I admittedly HAVE NOT #seen it explored this thoughtfully in a major RPG video game before. not to this level and not in this way. #SA survivors re-finding bodily autonomy ohhh boy I have. feelings. #sa tw #sa mention #abuse tw #bg3 meta #bg3 spoilers

[femme-dor]

“SHEIN kills our planet & uses child/migrant labor” she types from her latest iPhone after finalizing her Amazon order & driving her gas powered vehicle to the mall for NIKES.

“Theyre evil and unethical!! THRIFT INSTEAD!!”

A Depop notification pings. Her $200 Kmart Jeans has arrived.

#there is no ethical consumption under capitalism #yall hate on SHEIN and log off to consume unethical items anyway #that or spend half your rent thrifting #because you’ve been guilted by social media to do so #people are either fake or ignorant in ethical consumerism discourse #but usually it’s both & it’s from young girls who watched ‘the true cost’ ONCE #shein #zara #ethical consumerism #queue are so beautiful to me

[lizandreil]

i love how neil is canonically good looking and andrew is average guy tm but this fandom went “yeah but how about we draw him as the most beautiful guy ever instead”. and you know what? that’s how neil sees him. he’s gorgeous to andrew because neil is smitten for who andrew is and his personality since he doesn’t care about the looks, and i think it’s beautiful.

#all for the game #aftg series #andreil #andrew minyard #aftg andrew #aftg neil #neil josten #neil x andrew #also i love the “neil-thinks-andrew-is-the-most-beautiful-and-aaron-is-ugly hc #that’s true love folks #neil is the embodiment of would he pick you in the room full of people #and he would pick andrew always and forever #even over exy #he’s in love your honor #i wish somebody loved me the way andreil love each other

[scp-69]

can we normalise saying english people instead of british people like actually

#like british people technically covers everyone in the uk and the generalisations u make about british people are rarely true of #anyone besides the english. idk. #i also think anti british jokes are good and funny but also i think we need to abolish the idea of a british person entirely bc that means #nothing. ur talking about english people. u can just say english people. #leave the beautiful celtic nations out of this #mine #welsh

[astralmlm]

This pride month, lets keep the gatekeeping and attacking of queer comrades to a minimum and instead practice radical kindness and acceptance of other queers, even (ESPECIALLY!) if you don't understand their identity or reasons.

The only way we can win liberation is by sticking together and supporting each other, not by infighting and tearing each other down over perceived wrongs. A bi lesbian or aroace person or queer kinkster are all on the same side when the fascists start knocking. Pride is a riot, stand with your fellow comrades this season and fight with us (and not against us) for our collective survival.

#queer #queer community #pride month #bisexual #lesbian #bi lesbian #asexual #transgender #trans masc #trans fem #pride was a riot #queer positivity #queer liberation #this post coming to you courtesy of a tired transfag sick of this infighting #i love every queer person regardless of identity because being queer is radical and beautiful #there is no 'wrong way' to identify because as we the queer people have always said #you cannot control your identity #or others #assume everyone with these fringe problematic id's is operating in good faith trying to be true to themselves #because aren't we all? #anyway

[sciderman]

How do you feel about the increase in really weird NSFW ads on here (advertising panels that look like sexual encounters, and AI art apps that pride themselves on porn) but will take down NSFW posts from their users, even if it isn't technically sexual.

i hate all social media and it's consistent prioritising the advertisers over the users and the internet simply was a better place before capitalism sunk its hooks into it

#i could write essays about how capitalism ruined the internet. #i was actually talking to someone earlier today about how youtube was kind of effectively ruined by monetisation. #and they were raised in the soviet union and we had a bit of a talk about how art was better because it wasn't for profit. #the people who made art made it because they wanted to do it and because they loved it. #she said that communism was terrible for every aspect of life for her. people's lives under communism wasn't pretty. #but the art was better. and i feel like it's true for the internet – it was better when it was a free-for-all. #the companies didn't know how to exploit it yet and turn it into a neverending profit-driven hellscape. #people created content because they wanted to. because they wanted to make something silly to make people laugh. #not for profit. not for gain. not for numbers. not to further their career. #i miss the days of newgrounds and youtube before monetisation. #capitalism has soiled everything that's joyful and good in this world. #people should be able to share whatever they want. #people should be able to tell any story they want without the fear of being silenced by advertisers. #that's what made the internet so beautiful before. anyone could do anything and we all had equal footing. #but now we're victims of the algorithm. and it makes me sick. #i'm quitting my job in social media. i'm quitting it. it makes me too depressed. i have an existential crisis every freaking day. #every day i wake up and say "ah. this is the fucking hell we live in #i'm so sorry i feel so passionate about this. #social media is a black hole and it is actively destroying humanity. forget ai. social media is what's doing it. #i miss how beautiful the internet used to be. it should've been a tool for good. but it's corrupt and evil now. #sci speaks

[lesbaurinkos]

DanAndPhilCRAFTS - Slime (2024) / Our Love Is God - Riverdale Cast Recording (2019) / Riverdale Chapter Fifty-One: Big Fun (Gay Kevin's Gay Cult Wedding)

#post for very few people. but a post for MEEEEEEEE #theyre gonna take me out back soon they told me. but thats okay. because im having so much fun #see it has to be the riverdale cast recording of our love is god cause it has evelyn evernever's special little culty additions #which makes it more beautiful. more true and beautiful. you understand #anyway this is just like gay kevin's gay cult wedding. to MEEEEEEEEEEEEE #dnp #dan and phil