#the best/worst experience of my life

[zombie-bait]

House md really is the gayest of gay queerbait. Like I’m sorry but besides SPN and maybe Sherlock no one was doing it like them. And the thing is I don’t even think it was intentional??? House md was unbelievably popular but in a normal Game of Thrones, Grey’s Anatomy way. It’s the kinda show that everyone’s mom watched when it first came out on cable (mine included). Appealing to a young queer internet audience in 2007 wasn’t a marketing strategy they would ever attempt. It doesn’t make sense.

And yet. 

The sheer amount of gay jokes and allegories is just overwhelming by the time you get to the last season. Amber is Wilson’s House proxy, House and Wilson move in together TWICE, the fake marriage proposal, the exploration of toxic masculinity, Wilson’s 3 failed marriages, fucking everything about the last few eps. Like what other tv show spent almost a decade creating the most co-dependent, self-sabotaging relationship between its two main male characters that is essentially the backbone of the entire show. They literally ride off into the sunset together. Idk what else you want from me.

#House md #hatecrimes md #house #wilson #hilson #Listen #ive probably made this exact post before #And I’ll make it again #Cuz that show is batshit crazy #And one of the best worst experiences of my life #i am a changed man #i can never go back to who i was those years ago #“I need you to tell me that you love me” #Every winter i return to my house era #Every summer too #I think its a curse or smthn idk

[suncaptor]

nothing will make you sympathise with conspiracy theorist ideology more than having a seemingly rare reaction to a vaccine lmao.

#reading articles that try to falsify genuine incorrect information about the covid vaccines from 2021 is making me feel insane #'there's no way the covid vaccine can trigger an autoimmune disorder' uhhhhhhhhhHHHHHHHHHHHH #factually extremely wrong! #they're soooo condescening too like why on EARTH do you think people who are genuinely sick or scared would believe you. #they'll be like there's no scientific evidence that anyone can be harmed by the covid vaccine <3 blatantly untrue. #I know that part of this is retrospect like obviously since more studies have come out and all #but it's infurirating bc they're from the time *I* was having those symptoms *and* telling doctors about it *and* being told the connection #to my other severe symptoms from the covid vaccine were Utterly Impossible (since proven false) and that if the symptoms WERE related #it meant i had a life threatening illness at worst and had a high chance of losing my vision at best #likeeeeeeeee #doctors still DO NOT know what the fuck they're doing do NOT trust anyone who gives ANY 100% answers #i don't know why i'm doing this i just said to stop obsessing but i'm just reading pages and articles on countering misinformation to make #sure i don't -- i want to know the conspiracy theories to recognise them immediately right #and then people are just saying bullshit to defend themselves #i mean most of the anti covid vacc people were also far right so i don't have too much sympathy for their vaccine ideology #but like. fucking hell what a way to push people into conspiracies. #you CAN'T counter misinformation by SPREADING MORE MISINFORMATION #just because it SOUNDS BETTER and MORE REASSURING to say there's not chance of harm doesn't mean you should #there's A LOW chance of harm THAT IS MUCH MUCH less high than the impacts of covid #god I'm pissed off. 2021 i was so fucking terrified of spreading this shit just by talking about my lived experiences. #to say i was not taking the pandemic seriously OR anti vax is so blatantly ridiculous considering who I am as a person but that doesn't mea #that the covid vaccine specifically didn't make me ill :////// #delete

[rusquared]

Palestinian Red Crescent workers comforting little children terrified to use a crossing because they fear they'll get killed... where does one even begin? A child at this age should be worried about monsters under their bed, dentist's appointments, having to get out of bed for school. Not that another human being will try to kill them. And the brave rescue workers putting on smiles and pulling out juice cartons, tickling them to bring out a smile and maintain the illusion of safety...

#may every person that contributed to this genocide live a nice long life in solitary confinement #may they rot alive in their jail cells while hearing news of a liberated palestine #i found this on Instagram but it really won't leave my heart so i had to share #these children are the best of us being forced into the worst atrocity any human could experience #from the river to the sea palestine will be free #palestine #Instagram

[uncanny-tranny]

Trans people don't have to abandon their entire pre-transition lives, and this is something I wish more people could acknowledge and respect.

There's an expectation for trans people to abandon every aspect of their "old selves", that it is only right for us to renounce everything that we were or that we thought we were before discovering we are trans.

Trans people will sometimes engage in communities that are "antithetical" to our current understandings of ourselves for so many reasons. For instance, a trans man might go to a lesbian meet-up because the lesbian community was the first place he could explore his gender and presentation in an environment that tends towards accepting gender and presentation deviance. There are way more examples of this, but my point is that trans people are not bad, or lying about their current gender, or heaven-forbid are predatory for engaging with these communities. You don't have to understand why some people do what they do, but I find that there is so much fear mongering about trans people who don't "match" what's expected of their gender or transition. Not all trans people will retain their pre-transition lives, and that's fine. Some of us do, though, and both these types of trans people can coexist; we take away nothing from each other by existing.

#trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #mtf #nonbinary #like i've unironically seen people equating a trans man at a lesbian meet-up to a predator going to a lesbian meet-up and like... #...you realize how that's different right???? same went for trans women at gay meet-ups #same for nonbinary people at 'womens events' and 'mens events' #like trans people existing isn't predatory and i'm so tired of people equating us to predators #do you *have* to understand? no. but it's not an excuse to be transphobic #i don't go to lesbian spaces because i don't have a connection with them and don't ID as lesbian however i am not the only Guy in existance #your experiences are not universal ect ect #similar to another post but also. i'm living my best life and i don't particularly feel the need to slog through the horrid tag search #tumblr legit has the worst search function of any media platform i have been on ngl

[aria0fgold]

Honestly my headcanoning for The Cursing of Chateau Castle lore continues cooking in my brain like I got more for it but it's all in the microwave for now. Like I got a whole ass storyline for Pierre and Lady Irene. With how hardcore hc-ing I am bout these characters, it makes it seem like they're my OCs but no they're like-- my half-children I think? isat is the other parent of course. I got nothing else to go off of in regards to the chateau trio but the small crumbs and a dream.

#aria rants #like bout pierre's home life being The Worst ever. and like the internal monologue he'd have after sacrificing their castle #imagine going through all that ordeal. joining the supposed ''heroes' party'' and then betraying The Hero aka josephandre #all for your own family to recognize you as being worthy of being a part of the family. so that you can be recognized as a noble #but in the end it wasnt enough. he wasnt happy. in the end pierre was happiest with josephandre and the others so he #went around. turned their back on the ppl he has spent majority of their life proving their own worth to go back and save #the first genuine friend he ever had in ages and the cost of that being the very castle they wanted to be a part of #so in the end. he never got to actually be called ''lord'' he didnt have a place in the family. he lost the castle #but thats fine anyway cuz he found a home with josephandre and the others BUT THEN!!! he apparently got into a near-death #experience like how horrible is that??? to have your title stripped away from you from birth and then abandon the #one chance and opportunity to have that title for the sake of saving your friend and realizing that it'd be better to just be #with them instead but before that moment can even sink in well enough-- YOU'RE NOW ON THE EDGE OF DEATH! #yea pierre is turning out to be my fave character from like-- that mentions of them betraying the party and then #sacrificing their own castle to save josephandre and then the fate of them possibly dying near the end of the series #like that guy went THROUGH IT. not as much as josephandre but he really did just went through it and im like-- out here #using my brain power to the maximum in filling in the blanks cuz i got attached to 3 characters with only a name and #some information. i got some more in regards to lady irene and josephandre too btw like-- this is for you mirabelle #im spreading the cursing of chateau castle propaganda as best as i can with the crumbs im given

[wulfhalls]

Okay but like your English is literally more than perfect to the point where you use niche internet slang and cadence far better than I or any of the other English-native internet-native people I know do… Sorry random but how do pls????

I ask because I’m trying to get my French to a fluent level while I’m here and I feel like what you do is the standard of truly truly fluent 🙏🙏🙏

Is it just that you consume a lot of media/social media in English? If so rip because I haven’t enjoyed any French shows I’ve watched so far, so if anyone has recs pls share 🥰

yes to the media/social media aspect everything is so english centric u almost can't help it idk if any of this is helpful with french at all. but also. 1. being on tumblr.com for like 13 years 2. prolonged high intensity exposure to kpop twitter (HELL) 3. mental illness 4. having the funniest mutuals and osmosing the fuck out of them 5. ur so wrong the message u send is more coherent than 98% of the things I've said on here ever 6. strictly using words in a recreational sort of manner 7. mental illness 8. incoherence and enigmaticness idk wtf I'm saying it's pure vibes u don't get what I mean and neither do I

#asks #if anyone got any french recs? im drawing a blank rn tbh #maybe martyrs ? altho worst movie watching experience of my life ngl. #it was like 10 years ago and id just gotten on my meds a few days before and i was like #sitting there beside the best friend with the pulse of someone being hunted for sport in the australian outback #while having fever induced visions of the apocalypse #i think we made it like. 45 mins into the thing sksjdhdbdb

[quicktimeeventfull]

i think gone girl is an absolutely incredible movie and is loyal in every single one of the ways it needs to be. HOWEVER there is this one scene which to me captures literally every single thing about amy and which unfortunately is not in the film. i will show.

“Let me tell you a story, one quick story. About three years ago, we were driving up to Massachusetts. It was awful, road-rage traffic, and this trucker flipped Amy off—she wouldn’t let him in—and then he zoomed up and cut her off. Nothing dangerous, but really scary for a second. You know those signs on the back of trucks: How Am I Driving? She had me call and give them the license plate. I thought that was the end of it. Two months later—two months later—I walked into our bedroom, and Amy was on the phone, repeating that license plate. She had a whole story: She was traveling with her two-year-old, and the driver had nearly run her off the road. She said it was her fourth call. She said she’d even researched the company’s routes so she could pick the correct highways for her fake near-accidents. She thought of everything. She was really proud. She was going to get that guy fired.”

anyway!! i’m absolutely obsessed with her. it’s not just that she’s cruel and vengeful, it’s that she’s just so completely and unendingly relentless. she is fantastic. truly amazing!!

#i think fincher does truly beautiful book adaptations & has a really good sense of what has to stay and what has to go #im assuming this was cut bc it a) wouldn’t film well and b) rosamund pike’s performance portrayed this just fine #idk i don’t like all of his directorial decisions including some of the ones he made in gone girl but he always gets the meat of the book #i will say tho. i think gone girl is one of his best films and its very loyally adapted #i don’t think this is one of those things where the book is going to give you a completely different & better experience or anything #but it is SO good it’s truly one of the best-written things i’ve read in my entire life #imo its the adaptation which stacks up the worst when compared to the book purely bc the original is so ludicrously good

[paterklatter]

who up experiencing double internalized homophobia

#'i can't like girls that's unnatural and disgusting' #'i can't ever be a real man if i like men' #CAN I EVER WIN????????? #also i get like physically ill at the idea of marrying a man? not even dating that's fine. just forever tying myself to a man fucks me up #i feel like if i marry a man best case scenario i'm always going to be a faggot worst case scenario i'll be a wife until death #when i daydream about relationships i'm always married to the women and only dating the men #god i wish i were just a straight trans man then i could just be a regular ass man who was born in the wrong body #i transition and i get a job at the office bs factory and marry a woman and adopt 2.5 kids. i know i still wouldn't be normal but i wish #i always imagine i'll be in a happy regular marriage and any past relationships with men was just me 'experimenting' #i know that's bs. i know i like men just as much as women but i wish that it's going to change. i know it won't. but i wish #idk why i think about this so much i literally play overwatch and collect criterions i can't get dick or pussy to save my life #i had an interaction with my mom most akin to the 'damn nobody want you fr fr' meme the other day #i get so few bitches my mom can't even be homophobic anymore she just needs me to fuck already because i'm an embarrassment #peter.txt

[moonilit]

I hope your relationship with Genesis Rhapsodos be like mine, going from "if he doesn't shut up I will seriously kill him " to "if he is not in that party im not going"

he is such a drama queen, and such a bitch that I just gotta love the chaos he brings wherever he goes YGAFIEWIO

#and to his defence #like for the solderty of two drama queens i have to defend my guy here #we really meet him at the worst moment of his life #like imagen this #your body started falling apart #you find out that your entir life was a scientific experiment #you thought you joined the army at 15 but actually your entire life was under servalent #your whole village was littrally made up for you #AND THE MOST IMPORTANT GUY IN YOUR LIFE MIGHT ME YOUR HALF BROTHER #i would be losing my mind too #also the guy you have always been competitive with and one reason for you to have inferiority complex has always been the superior expermen #and you were concedred an avrage at best #like wow #genesis be haveing a bad day #a bad month #and a bad year #my guy #sucks to be him but still #if he say one more line about loveless I WILL SMAKE HIM #Genesis Rhapsodos #FFVII remake #FFvii cc

[sockeyesoren]

He's having fun in there guys, I promise

#mob psycho 100 #mp100 #doodle #artists on tumblr #this is so dumb #I made this instead of doing my schoolwork #this image just wouldn't leave my brain #best post ever #worst post ever #the post of all time #this took 12 minutes of my life that ill never get back #worth it #I listened to area math from the minecraft soundtrack while making this #it felt like an out of body experience #I wasnt there when the ballpit happened I learned about it from historians #myart

[potionwitchmaya-15]

darkest dungeon 2 makes me so angry in almost every run without fail and it's my favorite game ive played this year im literally obsessed with this game

#darkest dungeon #darkest dungeon 2 #dd2 #witch talks #go find my review on steam that i just made bc i just had the best/worst experience ever #the suffering is endless and necessary and i do it all for hellion #i dont know how to strategize effectively at all but considering my most recent run was the farthest ive ever got #was either pure luck or me using my fucking brain for once #also i still havent beaten dd1 dont look at me #anyways cant wait for workshop compatibility for dd2 thats gonna make my life so much easier

[lazyheartcomputer]

Me: goes on Ao3

Also me: saw a go rush fanfic

Me after reading this:

#yugioh go rush #yes i went to ao3 #best to somewhat worst experience in my life #ao3

[quietwingsinthesky]

“It’s like you kicked a big hole in the side of my life.” things even would say if they met the doctor After-

#askfjglsjkf its. coalescing. im putting the pieces together of where their story goes. #and one solid piece is that. the doctor is their best friend in the whole wide world. and they kind of hate him for that. #because without him. what would they know about friends. or the universe beyond their ship. #he blew a hole in their life and gave them the best gift anyone possibly could and. if they could look at the whole of their life. #if they could see all of it at once. they would be happier that he did. despite everything. #but people can’t do that. they’re fresh out of the worst experience anyone could have. and they never would have been in that situation if #not for him. (and worse - might never have been freed again. if not for him. it stings to be saved twice when you’re regretting the first #time.) #and so they blame him for it. (it was their own fault. their own choice to run rather than face the consequences of their actions - however #well-intentioned.) (but at the same time. where’d they pick that skill up from huh?) #and they hate him for it too. a little. a lot. it varies. #and they still have the watch. the one they can never return to its rightful owner anymore. and they still have the beads of their #friendship bracelet - the bracelet itself long since broken. it was. after all. authentically cheap. #and he was their best friend. and they love him. and they hate him. and it probably doesn’t help that they’ve spent the past however long #being influenced by someone who had an investment in fucking up their remaining attachment to the doctor. #god i wish this show would stop making me ramble about my silly oc just because i hears a single line aksjfkjfls #or not. never stop doctor who my beloved. #dw oc #dw #dw lb #dw 8x07

[spaceaudio]

boston2 anniversary is kind of crazy

#kind of was the start of the worst miserable downfall of my entire life #but also was kind of the only surface break in a full year of drowning #so mixed feelings bc i feel like were it not for the post concert crash i feel like my sophomore slump would’ve been much better #but in a way if i hadn’t had mcr or boston2 that year i would have probably died #i was shocked when i saw it had been a year #bc i feel like that felt so far into the school year and my depression last year #and this year it’s only the first week of school! #but emotionally it feels like it’s been 2 or 3 years #like my soul has aged like 5 years since then #i am making no sense bc im high but idk i feel like i need to commemorate it #one of the saddest and most special moments of my life and triggered so much feeling in me #like i was the weirdest worst person in the world for not fitting there or here #it sounds like im ragging on it but i really needed the change in my worldview and my thought about my place in the world and at harvard #it was my lifesaver. it was the best day of my life last year. it was the first and last time I felt beautiful in 2022 #my hair is like that again after a year of growing out. I feel like I’ve completed a cycle & a rebirth or something since then #and famous last words was a religious experience to me that I assume is how a born again feels in a Baptist tent #thank you for being there those of you who went you have no idea how much you changed my life

[alltheendings]

.

#somehow this was the best and worst year of my life and reflecting on it makes me so sad cause like. yes so many great things happened #but also so many terrible things and experiences and feelings

[ukrainian-psycho]

I want to write an extensive post (some people might call it an article) about depression food. As someone who has struggled w depression + cooking for one (=spending more on food) I wish i could express my thoughts as someone who used to be the “what to coo k when you’re depressed” articles kind of audience . Nobody ever considers how you don’t get to have fresh groceries all the times. Seething at the most of “10 minute meal” google result which still often times so much above you energy level levels never mind cleaning up. The nights I’ve spent starving myself because it’s the easiest way out. Concerning on par of all these chefs who think they know what a depressed person of capable of and what they can’t do.

#in my personal experience the best nutritious depressed meals are #miso soup with egg #eggs in any form really #idk at my worst even macaroni and spaghetti we’re too much #I suggest soups that you blend #like tomato or celery soup first you bake or boil and then blend it all #the most you have to do is cutting things up and cleaning up #I’ve been eating much better lately but I’ve struggled w this my whole life #I will not quote American psycho on this one even tho I could