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pinchinschlimbah · 24 days

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On "Coming Out" and Noel Fielding

I mentioned forever ago that I had this post in mind and then never got around to it, but now with the new interview quote I was yelling about recently it feels like a particularly good time to get it out of my brain and onto the page! tl;dr: musings on the concept of "coming out" as it has evolved over time, whether it's something that should continue to be necessary or expected of queer people, and why Noel is particularly inspirational to me in that regard since this is, after all, my brainrot blog. This may be extremely long and a bit disjointed but I hope some of y'all will enjoy it!

So a while ago myself and several friends were discussing the concept of coming out. All of us are some flavor of queer both in gender and orientation, but each is in a different place along their self discovery and identity journey, with some being long since out and proud, and others just starting to dip their toes into exploration past the expected cishet.

This discussion actually was prompted by a different discussion about Noel, spurred by comments we'd come across slamming him as being homophobic/transphobic on Bakeoff for making comments suggesting he has romantic or sexual attraction towards Paul, referring to himself with female-centric terms, playing female characters in the skits, and a particular moment where he brings up Old Gregg while talking to KimJoy and says "he was a sea transsexual....quite a demanding role for me" while laughing to indicate that that last part was said in jest. Hey fellas, is it homophobic/transphobic to be a little bit gay and trans? This got us talking about how the current culture of queer identity has evolved to the point where "coming out" feels more like something the public feels they're owed in order for them to view one's expression as valid, rather than its original purpose as something one does for themself in order to live most authentically. I don't think I need to go into detail about how many artists have been harassed by their "fans" into coming out before they were ready because people wouldn't accept the validity of that person's work without knowing exactly how that person identified, there've been plenty of articles and video essays and better written tumblr posts about that, but it's definitely a concerning trend. It can be particularly dangerous when it comes to people who aren't feeling confident or safe enough to come out, who end up being criticized and shunned by the queer community as being somehow problematic for not being able to fully articulate to a group of strangers the ways in which they're experiencing their identity. In this situation, the people who are struggling the most end up with the least support. Forcing people to either declare an identity or get out just leads to more people staying closeted out of fear of doing it "wrong" and never getting the chance to explore the most authentic and joyful versions of themselves, or even worse, feeling the need to out themselves before they're in a safe place to do so and suffering the resulting consequences. Questioning or cautious people deserve space in the community to experiment even if they haven't yet or maybe never will come out! My high school's Gay Straight Alliance was comprised entirely of "straight allies" when I was there. There was not a single "out" person in the school at the time. Nearly all of us in the GSA ended up being some flavor of queer or trans years later after graduation. But whether it was intentional closeting or just feeling an innate affinity towards something we couldn't quite pinpoint at the time, we all knew we belonged there and made that space for ourselves and others like us. Back when "coming out" first became a concept in the public consciousness, it was during a time where cishet identity was not just considered the default, but the only option. By coming out, queer people were giving genuinely revolutionary representation for themselves and others like them by telling the world that, as the old saying goes, we're here, we're queer, get used to it! Nowadays, we're lucky to live in a culture that is much more cognizant of queer identities being a thing, so in many cases coming out has become less about having to explain to those around you the basic concept of queerness existing, and moreso about which specific identity you fall under, and that's where things get messy.

My friends and I shared our own thoughts and experiences. One is currently identifying as "unlabeled" because they haven't found a term that feels correct yet, and therefore hasn't come out because they wouldn't know what to say. One spoke about how when they first came out they were much more insistent on what terms or pronouns people used for them but as time has gone on they've grown to find joy in being inscrutable and letting others wonder what they're perceiving. One expressed that given the state of the world they've been retreating somewhat back into the closet for safety reasons rather than being super outward with their queerness like they used to and is working on learning to embrace those parts of themself again. One said they felt like they'd already been existing as queer and expressing that queerness "before I even had the terms to come out to myself" and is now working on catching up on the conscious end of figuring out what's what. I myself never really had an official "coming out", I just became increasingly visually/socially/vocally queer as I became more and more confident in who I was and what I wanted to be and who I had on some level always been, and decided if people didn't get the hint that's their own problem. I came into consciousness of my queerness during the early 2010s original tumblr MOGAI microlabel boom, where there was a ton of focus on figuring out the hyper specific identity labels that exactly described what you were experiencing. I did a lot of digging and soul searching and experienced a lot of unnecessary stress trying and failing to find my perfect labels and landed on clumsy terms like "full time drag queen" because it was the closest I could get to what I was feeling about my gender, only to be told it was problematic for me to call myself that as an AFAB person because drag "belongs to cis gay men" (don't get me started on that statement, that's a whole other essay lol) It was a real wake up call once I distanced from these aggressively labeled and segmented online spaces and made my way into real world queer communities where I was relieved to find that in fact no one there asks to check your membership card before letting you in, if you feel like you belong there you're welcome no questions asked.

I had other people in these communities referring to me as "queer" and "fag" and "gay" and "queen" before I felt comfortable doing so myself based on online Discourse I'd experienced over who is Allowed to use certain terms, and having these community leaders I respected recognizing those things in me and welcoming me in like that gave me the confidence to really find my own footing in ways that attempting to find my exact correct identity label so that I could officially proclaim it never did. Once I could answer the question of what I was with a shrug and "queer I guess!" things became so much easier. Microlabels can be incredibly helpful and liberating for some, don't get me wrong if it works for you that's great, but let's not pretend that everyone is going to have the same experiences.

So anyway, back to Noel. Noel has never, to my knowledge, ever had any sort of official “coming out” or explicitly referred to himself as queer. So I know there are people out there who will disagree with me considering him to be queer. But so much of what he’s said and done throughout his several decades long career has indicated to me that this is clearly someone of queer experience navigating the world as such, and just as the queers in my local community welcomed me as one of them before I knew to do it myself, I extend that welcome forward.

Let’s take a look at some of the facts. In the public span of his career, Noel has.....(in no particular order, also if anyone wants to add additional instances of note in the reblogs or comments please feel free, this is by no means a fully comprehensive list) -repeatedly called himself "the woman of the Boosh" or Julian's/Howard's "wife" in ways that suggest that's how he actually felt about it rather than it just being a punchline that he was mistaken for female in the show [2] [3] [4] [5] [6] [7] [8] [9] [10] [11] [12] -referred to himself at the GQ "Man of the Year" awards as "never been a man" and "a sort of girl, he/she" -been referred to by Sandi Toksvig as being "on the cusp" in regards to gender, to which he reacts with amusement and acceptance -consistently expressed excitement and appreciation when others refer to him with feminine terms or say he looks like a girl [2] [3] [4] [5] [6] -said "I love being a man-woman, it's much more interesting than being one or the other" and expressed that the loved shooting the Boosh Electro episode for this reason -referred to Vince Noir (a character who he's been pretty open about being based on himself) as "wasn't seemingly one gender or the other" -expressed that he felt most free and happy when presenting femininely [2] -had Julian, one of the people closest to him, express that Noel and Sandi (an out lesbian) may have "real sexual chemistry" because Noel is "all over the shop, he's a different sex" -used the "Confuser" line of "Is it a boy? Is it a girl? I'm not sure I mind" to refer to himself rather than Vince, and express that he's had to work to find new ways to feel as androgynous as he'd like now that he's older -referred to himself as a lesbian [2] -said that he "sometimes looks in the mirror and sees a woman", in the same interview that Julian implies that Noel is in fact a girl -referred to himself as a "girl/boy" -consistently referred to himself with feminine terms on panel shows and bakeoff -made a joke on bakeoff about not being a testosterone-based person -responded positively when asked about the ways Boosh had influenced queer and nonbinary youth -has said he's "quite obsessed with the man/woman mixup thing" -has said if he was an animal he'd want to be a seahorse because the males get pregnant -Had Lee Mack, who Noel used to live with, refer to him as "the little transsexual one, yeah I think she's fantastic" in a Boosh documentary and "a young lady who came out here happy to be herself" in response to Noel's Wuthering Heights drag performance -had his own mother refer to him as "the daughter I always wanted" -described his own appearance as that of a "transsexual witch" and when an interviewer attempted to make fun of him for calling himself "a transgender witch" by showing Noel a drawing the interviewer clearly found repulsive, Noel responded that the interviewer was "holding up a mirror" and called the image his passport photo

And I'm not even going to bother citing sources on the countless times he's made comments suggesting romantic or sexual attraction towards men. Literally just watch any non-character appearance he's ever done, it's kind of his whole thing??? Not to mention his penchant for picking up explicitly queer and gnc character roles, and also just [gestures vaguely to everything Noel and Julian have said about each other suggesting romantic and sexual tension between them and how they used their characters as an excuse to explore those feelings in a less scary way, again that could be a whole other essay on its own but ooh boy] I also think there's something interesting to explore in the idea of Noel repeatedly referring to his appearance as transgender or transsexual rather than identifying himself as such- at what point does the appearance of something become reality?

It all begs the question- is it even a joke anymore if it's that consistent? Either it's not a joke and it's an authentic expression of his real feelings and experiences, or he for some reason really really wants everyone to believe that he's queer when he's not, with this behavior spanning back to a time before the concept of queerbaiting was on anyone's minds and when being publicly queer could mean the end of your career. Which scenario do you think is more likely? And, does someone who’s been conducting themself like this for their entire career really NEED to come out? Honestly, I find this level of simultaneous authenticity and inscrutability aspirational.

In this Velvet Onion interview from 2012, Noel compares his penchant for dresses to both Grayson Perry and Eddie Izzard. This is interesting because those two people represent pretty opposite intentions behind their presentation- Grayson identifies solidly as cis male, and for him the shock value of crossdressing is the point, saying “I signed up for a gender and I want them to be very clearly delineated so I know I’m dressing up in the wrong clothes.” This doesn't seem particularly in line with where Noel is coming from given him famously referring to himself as "the Confuser" and stating in that same Velvet Onion interview that he "never even bothered giving it a label, I never went oh I'm a transvestite, I just went yeah if I fancy wearing a dress I do, never really thought about it really" Eddie on the other hand has famously said "They're not women's clothes. They're my clothes, I bought them." indicating that they were a genuine part of her authentic expression rather than a crossdressing costume, and has subsequently over the years identified more and more solidly as transfemme. I find Eddie's trajectory particularly fascinating because it's been so non-linear. In the 90s when the language for transness was much less public knowledge, she referred to herself consistently as a transvestite- a cishet man who enjoyed dressing as a woman, as well as using terms like "male tomboy" and "male lesbian" and "a full boy plus extra girl". Despite doing most of her standup shows in femme looks, most of her acting jobs were male-presenting, and there was a period of time in the 2010s where she dropped the femme presentation entirely in an attempt to be taken more seriously as the "crossdressing" was seen by many as a gimmick. Swinging back around more recently, Eddie has been explicitly identifying as genderfluid and transfemme, and in recent years has made the decision to "be based in girl mode from now on", and use primarily she/her pronouns. Since this announcement, in her trans advocacy work Eddie has described herself as being "out" as trans since the 1980s despite all of the above. She always knew who she was, it's just she's gotten access to more accurate terms over time to describe what she was experiencing, as well as feeling more safe to do so the more that transness became a known and accepted concept in the public eye.

The interview I mentioned at the very start of this post isn't really a coming out from Noel. And I don't think we'll ever really get one from him. In my opinion Noel has spent the past several decades conducting himself as someone who is in fact already out- it’s pretty clear Noel knows and is proud of who he is regardless of how he chooses to describe that identity. At this point, making some sort of official statement would just be for the benefit of others looking for clarification on their own perception of him and people who want to be able to put him in one box or another, and that’s not what coming out should be. The statement in the new interview is not "I am genderfluid", its "I've always been genderfluid", simply putting an accurate name to what's always been publicly visibly true now that he's got the terms to do so.

#noel fielding #gender files #gender files masterpost #gay yelling #the mighty boosh #shouts into void #a lot of this could also apply to my other wife #but that discussion is way more of a minefield so I'm not touching that for now plus many more people already have

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iliveforyouilongforyouvesuvia · 5 months

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If the M6 had any mental disabilities (OCD, Autism, ADHD...) What do you think they would have?

Brainrot's Arcana Essays: M6's mental health conditions

@hewwo-its-floof .... this probably isn't where your ask was heading, but here's an essay! XD I've actually been turning this concept over in my head for several months now, so you'll see what I could see each of them having but you'll also see why I haven't unpacked it much ^.^

(cropped because this is long and addresses each character)

I'm going to be totally honest and say that I'm extremely hesitant to focus on diagnosing fictional characters beyond lighthearted headcanons. From my own experience of having multiple diagnoses at different times, people and characters tend to be fairly complex in the way their nature, nurture, and mental health interact with each other. So while it's really fun and in many ways healing and validating to see our experiences and habits reflected in a loveable character, it's easy to fall into a trap of confining ourselves or a character to the diagnoses we're focusing on.

Asra, Julian, Muriel, and Lucio, for example, all have the kind of lived experiences that you could fully expect would result in CPTSD. Asra's parents disappeared while they were a young child and they experienced the extended trauma of growing up homeless on the streets. Muriel experienced that same abandonment and homelessness, and then that gets layered with his experience in the Coliseum. Julian has clear memories of the trauma of being shipwrecked, losing his parents, and trying to care for his sister as a young boy, plus the apprenticing he did as a teen treating soldiers on active battlefields. Lucio has a similar traumatic background with the amount of time he's spent in combat and the kill-or-be-killed world he grew up in. Portia doesn't have any memories before the grandmothers at Nevivon, but that doesn't erase her body's memory or the chances of second hand trauma from her closeness to her brother. Nadia didn't exactly have an easy childhood, but we aren't aware of any traumatic incidents before adulthood.

All that to say, there's multiple ways to interpret behavior that reflects a mental condition that doesn't match what's considered "normal." Asra can seem ADHD coded - we've seen them fixate on curious puzzles, completely zone out and forget what they're doing, and turn their living space into a cozy state of chaos. That looks a lot like ADHD! But, that could also be the trauma coping mechanisms of someone who likes to live with the luxury of having a space covered in their things without fear of them being removed, or focusing solely on things that make their brain happy in an unpredictable world. Or maybe Asra's just a naturally curious person who finds chaos comforting and spends a lot of time in their own head. Maybe it's a combination of all of the above feeding into each other in different ways!

The same goes for the other three - does Muriel like a more isolated lifestyle because of the trauma from crowds in the Coliseum? Does he like to keep his own heavily guarded space and set routines from living on the streets? Or are those autistic traits, seeking out a space that isn't overstimulating and doesn't require masking? How much of that is natural introversion and a general preference for calm, ordered spaces? He could be a combination of some or all of those things, but he's still himself regardless. If we were to focus on just one, we'd risk leaving the rest to fade into the background.

Julian has one of the stories in which MC plays a very direct role in addressing his mental health. He depends on them heavily to help him find new purpose and a new way to live. You could almost say that MC helps "fix" him, but this doesn't involve losing a lot of the things that make him so messy - it mostly involves helping him dial it back enough so that it's no longer unhealthy. (for example - he drinks as a coping mechanism, but the solution isn't for him to never touch alcohol again. he still drinks and has a fun time, it's his need to self-isolate and self-destruct that really needed to be addressed) He can still be loud and flamboyant and entertaining without having to pin his worth on how much validation he gets from it. Could those super high highs and low lows be signs of bipolar disorder? Maybe, but whether it is or not, Julian's wide range of emotional expression is core to who he is.

Lucio is his own special case (I mean, the story starts out with him as the villain). The plot of his route is his transformation. It could be easy to read narcissism into a lot of his behavior, and if that's a diagnosis his character was built around, it would make sense! It could also be easy to argue that his tendency to idolize himself is a response to growing up in a world where he had no control and felt constantly unsupported and ignored. But the focus isn't on bashing how he sees himself as much as it is on teaching him accountability around what he does with that. Lucio at the end of his story still has a sizeable ego, still sees himself as a protagonist, and has no qualms about being good enough for MC. However, he's gained experience acknowledging his own flaws and mistakes and it's enabled him to seek out a fresh start.

We could unpack Portia and Nadia too - is Portia's super competence and hard working nature born out of the pressure to be strong and steady for her traumatized older brother? Did that cause the hyper responsibility that kept her adventurous spirit in Nevivon way past her childhood? Does her annoyance with her older brother's struggles come out of frustration at never being able to process her own difficulties in favor of playing therapist for everyone else? Are her loudly cheerful attitude, tendency to fill her day with work, and love of escaping into books all masking techniques for chronic depression? Maybe all of that is true, but it's accompanied by a conscious decision to be optimistic and a genuine love of caring for other people.

We could speculate about the source of Nadia's insecurities for hours - what did her old dynamic with Lucio look like? Where did her hesitance to get involved and try to fix a broken system come from? What caused someone with such a focused personality to make firm decisions and express deep doubts at the same time? Does her quest for influence come from a desire to implement improvements or a need for control? Maybe her love of precision, good omens, and controlled environments are a result of OCD, or maybe she's just discovered what it's like to have her confidence shaken and this is what it looks like to move forward.

I've processed my own share of eating and mental disorders, dysphoria, neurodivergence, disability, and trauma. Some of my diagnoses only lasted several months, others took decades to work past, and a few of them I know will be with me for the rest of my life. They help explain a lot of how I function, experience the world, and interact with others as a person. But those conditions and experiences are only part of the amalgamation that makes me who I am, who I've been, and who I'm becoming. I don't care to completely define myself by certain parts when the sum of who I am is what's going to decide my story, and I like extending that mindset to the stories, people, and characters I interact with as well.

I hope that makes sense, and sorry for the unexpected essay!!

Cheers, friend -

brainrot

#ask arcana brainrot #the arcana #the arcana headcanons #the arcana hc #the arcana game #asra the arcana #julian the arcana #nadia the arcana #muriel the arcana #portia the arcana #lucio the arcana #asra alnazar #julian devorak #nadia satrinava #muriel of the kokhuri #portia devorak #lucio morgasson

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magewolf-the-artist · 1 month

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Haha Sulinda Brainrot go brrr-

So this was a VERY spur of the moment thing that I decided to make canon to the Domestic K-9 AU. The basic rundown is that in 1978, Linda Thompson moved back to Michigan for a job opportunity several towns over from Brighton. While she didn't want to see Felix again, she did want to know how everyone else was doing, especially Susan since they were best friends and probably something more but that's for her to unpack another time.

Except oh fuck, everyone's gone missing and Bon's Burgers shut down and the company is extremely cagey with the details. Linda is distraught and launches into her own private investigation, especially since she doesn't trust a word out of Felix's mouth about how everything is totally fine.

She doesn't get very far for a good while until in 1982 shortly after the death of Brian Stells, an ex-BSI employee reaches out to Linda because he heard that she was running an investigation on the shady shit in the company. This employee, who is an OC I'll probably design later, recently discovered quite a bit of dirt on the company and quit soon after. He didn't want to say anything out of fear, but after the death of Brian shakes up the community and Linda goes around interviewing everyone she can about it, he reaches out to her and reveals the following:

That all the missing person didn't just randomly disappear one day, they were murdered

Their bodies were shoved into the animatronics

Felix is complacent in all of this and the company is trying their damn best to pretend the missing people never existed

Brian isn't the first BSI employee to go missing

The employee clarifies that he doesn't know who the murderer is and that he has reason to suspect it wasn't Felix, and that he doesn't know WHY they were killed. Idk yet how he finds all that out but I imagine it'd be over a period of time and he'd quit once he found out that the missing people were murdered and possessing the animatronics out of fear for his own safety.

Linda is obviously horrified and enraged that Felix would do this but really wants to have all her information straight before she start throwing accusations around. She asks where the animatronics are because she wants to try and find them and the employee reluctantly tells her that all the stuff from Bon's Burgers is stored in the K-9 facility in St. Juana's forest. Linda profusely thanks him and promises that when she releases all this info to the public, she won't mention him. The employee thanks her and leaves, and Linda drives to the K-9 facility.

She breaks in through a window and looks around for a bit before stumbling across Susan in the Banny animatronic. There's an awkward moment of silence before Susan asks what the hell she's doing here. Linda quickly explains all the previous stuff and says she really wants to know her side of the story. Susan is extremely bewildered but complies. She goes into detail about her death, Bon and Wonderland, the deaths of everyone else, and Jack Walten's mysterious disappearance. Susan is once again furious at Felix for doing all of this shit but thanks Susan for the info.

Then they kinda sit around a talk for a while since Susan hasn't interacted with the outside world for over 8 years. Linda briefly catches her up to date on things and they talk for awhile, and then the conversation eventually turns to them reminiscing over the past. Linda at some point says that despite the... unusual and very sad circumstances, she's glad to see Susan again and off-handedly says she still looks beautiful inside the animatronic. Susan freezes up as Linda confesses that she thinks she had feelings for Susan back in 1974 but obviously wasn't able to act on them, but she really wants to start over and asks Susan out. Susan is incredibly fluster and confused by this turn of event but says yes almost instantly, admitting that she had feelings for her too but obviously didn't want to get in the way between her and Linda.

Linda promises she'll be back tomorrow night to interview everyone else and gives her a quick peck on the cheek. Susan.exe has stopped working.

Later that day Charles walks past the room Susan's in and sees her laying on the floor, staring up at the ceiling numbly.

Charles: One of those days, huh Susan?

Susan: *quietly* I have a girlfriend.

Charles: HUH?!?!?!

Susan gets flustered VERY easily because she was closeted her whole life and pretty much solely focused on her work so being in a relationship is very new. Plus the complete whiplash of her seeing a long lost friend, being suddenly questioned about her death and all the shady shit with BSI, and then getting a girlfriend is a bit much for her to handle in one day but she's not exactly complaining.

I imagine Susan never lets Linda out of her sight and goes to great lengths to keep Bon away because she knows if he finds her she's a goner.

I'll probably drawing Linda interviewing the rest of the K-9 people at some point but for now have mindless, tooth rotting lesbian fluff

#the walten files #walten files #susan woodings #twf banny #linda thompson #felix kranken #sophie walten #twf fanart #twf #Domestic K-9

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wifelinkmtg · 1 year

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HOT. CROSSBOW. AUTUMN.

We’re going back to Innistrad, and oh thank G-d Magic is horny again.

INNISTRAD: MIDNIGHT HUNT + CRIMSON VOW

Welcoming Vampire (art by Lorenzo Mastroianni)

Welcome, indeed, to you who have traveled far across the sanitized wastes of Zendikar, the milquetoast art direction of Kaldheim, the mediocrity of plane after plane: here is a feral place, and a bloody one, of slavering predators and racing pulses, a place where the primordial twins of fear and lust are impossible to sever. Enter here, ye thirsty, and be quenched.

Novice Occultist (art by Zara Alfonso)

Oh, we are off to a great start. This is not only one of the hottest girls in this set (and definitely the one with the best hair, jesus), but also everything about this moment makes me feel protective - the apprehension in her expression, the conjunction of the knife and the bandaged arm, the fact that she is evidently attempting some sort of amateur summoning ritual with a salt circle and several raw steaks, which let’s face it, is not going to end well. The interplay between that feeling, then, and the mechanics of the card, which doesn’t really do anything until she dies, so you want to sacrifice her to some other card, is very effective. Yes, she only exists to die doing something instructively ill-advised, but she’s vulnerable, sympathetic, and really, really hot, so you feel something when she does. Art and mechanics working together! This is the kind of thing that makes Magic special. 10/10 would do something occult and ill-advised in a barn with her any night.

Augur of Autumn (art by Billy Christian)

I don’t know, it’s like, am I over-intellectualizing this stuff? Like I see a beautiful woman and my immediate response is to interrogate the nature of my attraction to her, what’s going on there? [feather. antler. apple.] Shame, you think? Probably some of that, yeah, some internalized whatever or maybe just fear of the vulnerability that comes with saying desire out loud. Plus, I spent a lot of years back in the day reacting to bad experiences with kink & its practitioners by getting unnecessarily moralistic about sexuality. [acorn. bone. acorn.] Yes, very funny. But you’re right, subtlety is overrated, this whole project is just...publishing my desires (as entertainment, but still). Maybe I should only be writing this while pent-up and turned-on? Or maybe I should be more selective. Like, you’re lovely, and I really like that you seem to be a competent occultist, unlike my last, but I’m not feeling much beyond that. [bone. gem. feather.] I don’t... sorry, I don’t know what that means, could you - hang on, is that feather bloody? When did that oh my G-d I know what I need to do.

FOUR YEARS AGO

was when I reviewed the last Innistrad sets, Shadows over Innistrad and Eldritch Moon. And while I still retain my extremely justified bitterness over how that story fridged the hottest angel in Magic canon, I was definitely on some fucking brainrot at the time, like. Look at this bit from the intro:

Shadows over Innistrad block! but with none of the angels because Eldrazi corruption is viscerally distressing! no matter how many emotions i feel about Avacyn, the Purifier’s blood-soaked wings & solid black eyes! or Subjugator Angel’s vacant, fell glee!

You stupid child, me-of-January-2019, you idiot baby, you cretinous fetus, just because something is existentially horrifying doesn’t mean it’s not also really hot. What, were you worried about people thinking you were A Bad Feminist And Person because a fictional eldritch monster mindfucking a fictional girl angel into an insane blood-soaked omnicidal goth gets you hard? (Yes.) “Viscerally distressing” yeah, that’s what makes it good. It was hot, you knew it was hot, you even basically said it was hot, and yet you left the angels out of the review because you were a coward. Well, it is time to set things right.

ACTUALLY IT TURNS OUT THIS ONE IS INNISTRAD: MIND-CONTROLLED ANGELS WILL MURDER YOU AND IT WILL BE SEXY THE ENTIRE TIME

Subjugator Angel (art by Lius Lasahido)

It feels... so good to give in, doesn’t it? Whether that’s to the whispers in your head telling you to purify the land of filth and sin with fire and sword and no shred of mercy, or to the undertow pull of whatever part of your interior makes a bloodsoaked, winged woman with great tits and a shattered mind fucking sexy as hell. Free will can be such a weight, can’t it? Don’t you see how much happier she is like this, with no agonizing over moral complexity, no weighing and counterweighing relative measures of good and evil? It’s so much simpler, so much more fun to just kill everyone, don’t you think?

Angel of Deliverance (art by Joseph Meehan)

Well, looks like someone’s been elbow-deep in the sin-riddled bodies of reprobates and the dissolute, hm? What’s the matter, darling? Surely you’re not too tired for one more.

Archangel Avacyn (art by James Ryman)

Avacyn was created perfect, an icon, an idol, her sole purpose to safeguard the people of her plane - so it’s not really news that she’s gorgeous. We love the black armor and the black lipstick and the glowing eyes, but what really makes this good is the symbolism in the crumbling spear, the fraying edge of the loincloth. She is fighting a war for her mind, to keep hold of herself, of the only purpose she has ever had. And it is so much better when you fight...

Avacyn, the Purifier (art by James Ryman)

...because when you lose, when your mind’s defenses are subverted against you, when your last panicked thoughts try in vain to survive the ravenous onslaught of who you have become instead, when you are at last the monster you struggled in vain against, the collapse is absolute. Spear broken, clothes tattered, hair and wings soaked in the gore of your children, your victims, your slaughtered sheep, and your eyes jet-black, void, and utterly empty of anything that was ever you.

Gisela, the Broken Blade (art by Clint Cearley)

Mental corruption is one thing (a very, very hot thing), but let’s not forget physical corruption as well. Wings beginning to replace feathers with fleshy webs of tendon, tendrils creeping out of her shoulders. She changes. She changes.

Brisela, Voice of Nightmares (art by Clint Cearley)

She is changed.

Because honestly, why would you settle for one angelic abomination when you could melt two of them together and get disa-fucking-ssembled in ways undreamt of by Euclidean geometers or anything with bilateral symmetry?

Whew. Okay. Yeah. I really needed that. The rest of the newer Innistrad sets will happen soon. I promised you crossbows, and I aim to keep that promise.

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thecw-unicorn · 1 year

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Haunted, Bloody Machines

This is a rewrite of a story I did for my creative writing class since I have been in extreme FNAF brainrot…I hope y’all enjoy this is my first fic!!

TW: blood, gore, anxiety

The first thing you notice is the pounding headache.

Sharp stabbing pains as if someone was drilling a hole directly into your skull. You open your eyes, or at least, you think you do. The room is pitch black, trapping you. You try to sit up, the very action causing the dark world to spin on itself.

The next thing you notice is the smell.

A pungent odor seeping through your nostrils, practically burning them. It practically had a mind of its own, a mission to spread all around and infect its stink anywhere and everywhere it could.

You could feel something warm trickling down the side of your face. You clumsily try to wipe it away, halfway successfully. You could faintly pick up the smell among the other foul odor.

Is it blood? You wonder. Did someone hit you and put you in this room? You could barely remember anything leading up to now…

You hoped that wasn’t the case. The thought sending shivers across your body. The anxiety racing through your body, causing your heart to clench in fear.

You sit up, and try to swing a leg off whatever cool table you were lying on. As your eyes struggle to adjust, you are able to make out shelves lining the wall. Several items placed upon them. It was too dark to see a disearnable figure. There seemed to be…were they heads? Some with extended ears growing from them. Your eyes settle on the biggest figure it could in the room. There’s something…slumped against the wall. It was a sort of costume? You try to stand up, and immediately notice the smell growing in intensity as you face the limp object.

Is it coming from inside that? you wonder. You cover your mouth, attempting to suppress the gag that arises from being nearly suffocated with the decaying smell. There’s something dead. Something rotting, decaying in this place. And it’s in here with you.

You HAD to get out of here. Far away from this awful place.

You slowly stand on your feet, legs feeling like wet noodles. You’re able to make out a faint outline of a door on the other side of the table, the smallest amount of light leaking through. You stumble across the room, using the table for much needed support until you hear something even more terrifying.

A thud, and a loud one. It sounded heavy, almost mechanical. Then, a loud groan of metal.

Something big was out there. Some kind of..robot?

What is this place?

Thud. Thud. Thud.

Another noise sounds. Some kind of music. But it sounded scratched and messy. Like a broken record attempted to play a melody. The music sounded as though it was from a music box, as though it was meant to be whimsical and magical to whoever heard it in a different, more lighthearted setting. But in this moment, it sounded insidious. Mocking. Taunting.

Then, replacing the sound of the music cutting through the darkness, a voice.

“Wheeeerrrrreeeee aaarrreeee youuuu…….don’t you wanna playyyyyy?”

It was drawn out, as if deliberately. The voice was playful, yet deeply sinister. It sounded very light, as if meant for children. Whatever demon is out there wants to find you. Your tears blur the faint light pouring in from the bottom of the door. Whatever it was, it was looking for you. You didn’t think it would stop until it did.

The footsteps continue, slowly, painfully making its way down the hall.

Just as the footsteps seem to fade away, you slowly turn the knob. The door creaks open, while you silently curse it. Once it’s opened, you quickly (and shakily) step out of the room and quietly shut the door, trapping the horror inside. You notice the pattern on the floor, a black and white checkered tile. There was just enough to see from small, secondary lights to make out the setting. There was posters on the wall, children’s drawings of them eating pizza and cake with various animals along with phrases such as “My fun day at Freddy Fazbear’s!”

Is that where you were? Freddy Fazbear’s? You go left down the hallway, passing a starry curtain with a noticeable “OUT OF ORDER” sign. The hall then opens up to a much bigger room. Before you, you see several tables and chairs, party hats neatly lined up down the tables. At the center of the room lies a stage.

There you see 3 figures. You take a closer look, trying to make sense of this awful nightmare. 3 mascots. 3 animatronics. You could recognize them from the drawings in the hallway.

In the center, was a brown bear holding a microphone. It had a top, along with a matching bow tie. To the left of the bear was a purple bunny. The bunny was holding a red guitar, while wearing a matching red bow tie. And finally on the far right was a chicken. It held a cupcake with eyes and a candle, while wearing a bib that says “LET’S EAT!!”. Your blood runs cold. Where they the ones I hear outside the door? you wonder. You hoped it wasn’t the case. The anxiety was pumping through your body, causing physical discomfort in your chest from the intensity. Your wooziness further amplifies the fear and disorientation. It was as though it was the master, and you were the unwilling puppet, forced to do as it bid, unable to escape and outrun your body.

They can’t walk. They just can’t. You try to convince yourself. You turn around and pick up your pace down the hallway you can, passing by the room you woke up in. You hurry by, not wanting to see that room any longer than necessary. Eventually, the hallway opens to a lobby of sorts, with 2 double glass doors keeping you from freedom. While approaching the door, you catch a glimpse of your reflection. The blood dripping down your face, your hair disheveled and eyes wild. To the common person, you look like a nightmare come to life.

You try to push open the doors, becoming more and more desperate. You could feel the tears running down your face. No, no no please! You beg. You’ve come this far, to be stopped by something so stupid and trivial.

Then, the power cuts. What little light you had, what little you could see instantly vanished, trapping and sending you into a deep dark abyss. You try to scramble around, find some other way out of this hell when you hear footsteps. Loud, heavy footsteps.

Then, the music plays. It is a different song from before, but still as haunting and frightening as before. You can see the eyes of the robot, lighting up in tune with the song playing. You could barely breathe from the tears and anxiety choking you. Through it all you hear a voice:

“There you are!~ It’s time to playyyyy!!!”

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littleliongirl16 · 7 months

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What if postcannon End avatar Jon

'kay so I've never posted on this account before but I've been brainrotting this idea around all of my friends so I feel like I should inflict it on strangers as well.

Jon tried to put the world out of its misery. He essentially tried to give everything to the End. And yes, the End gets everyone eventually, regardless of whether the fears leave the world. But he tried to give everything to it soon, and in a way that would take everyone through its post apocalyptic domain and potentially feed the End the fear of the other entities as they died. So I think it would still mean a lot to Terminus, even if it always eventually wins anyway.

So it’s been established: Terminus really likes Jon for even trying to do that. So when he gets stabbed by Martin and falls into Somewhere Else, maybe it’s the End that saves him rather than the Eye.

Note that I said the End saves him rather than “keeps him alive”. Getting stabbed by Martin does kill him, which means Jon just moved from beginning to choose one of the fears as his patron to dying to become an avatar of that fear in literally thirty minutes. I think I’d make it a thing in this universe that the Pupil definitively has to be dead for the fears to be severed from the world and this is .. a loophole, basically.

I’m a sucker for Jon and Martin are temporarily separated when they reach Somewhere Else aus (I don’t like super angsty fics since cannon is All Suffering, but I really like reunions, especially chaotic ones where they’re both surprised at what’s happened to the other since they’ve been separated), so I don’t think Martin is there when End!Jon finds himself Somewhere Else. So Jon’s alone, multiversally displaced, and suddenly the avatar of two fears rather than one.

One more small problem, Terminus, in death god fashion, decided that instead of actually reviving Jon it would just keep him animated. So End!Jon is also medically dead, basically a sapient zombie.

One of the most interesting things about this, I think, is that as a double avatar, Jon can pick to feed both of his patrons or only serve one of them, and just lean into that one fear. He has to decide whether he’s more likely to be able to get statements in some way that does minimal harm or prophesize people’s deaths in a way that while it definitely still does harm at the very least lets them finish unfinished business or properly take advantage of the time they have left.

And there’s the other layer of: Jon is extremely traumatized and guilty from letting a ritual succeed. A significant part of the reason he tried to kill the world in the first place rather than let the fears spread across the multiverse is that he couldn’t live with himself if he doomed another world. If he serves the Eye, he’ll always be scared he’s somehow contributing to another ritual, but if he serves the End… well, the End doesn’t have rituals.

So I think he probably chooses to lean into Terminus rather than the Beholding, and trying to use his End powers for good, or at least for a net neutral. I’m definitely going to ramble a lot more about this as an au, and think about how he and Martin are separated + what Martin is doing this whole time because oh my goodness this au has me by the throat.

#the magnus archives #post mag 200 #end avatar #Liongirl's End!Jon au

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artisticbunny · 1 year

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Alright Bun— bonus ask before I go to sleep because I think I’m getting Whispering Willow brainrot lol (on top of utdr and fnaf rot ough—) Because tbh I sincerely think it’s really well thought out, with the little tidbits I’ve read about. The first chapter of it was cool Yk? I’m gonna guess that you’re new to ao3 writing? :3c am I right?

But, skipping the rambles, Lemme get to what I wanted to say:

Can you pretty please feed give us me Kat lore? Like I love ghosties and everything, especially ones that hang around. Like how does she hang around? We know she got buried alive (must’ve been terrifying seriously my bros buried me in sand once but not my face…) but how does her spirit hang about?

Also, why’d her adventure friends bury her? Was it for a reason or just them being like plain old toxic? I don’t think they’d have to like, bury her tho if it’s the second option… :( maybe it was a sacrifice??

(Thanks for storytelling tho Bun! I’m totally locked in! It’s very interesting so far! <3333)

UWAAAA THAT IS SUCH A HUGE COMPLIMENT THANK YOU!!! Literally I have no idea what’s more flattering than having someone brainrot over something you made!!! I’m so SO glad you like it so far!!!

I AM new to writing on ao3!!! You are correct!!! I actually just made my account about a month or two ago! I actually attempted to post this on a website I made in the past, but 1: it didn’t get any traction and 2: I didn’t like my writing, this is actually the third iteration of this story! I am much more comfortable with my writing now than back then :3

Anywho, on to Kat ;3

Here’s the ref I made for her for visualization’s sake! :D

You may recall on the post where I gave a brief rundown on each of my ocs that Kat was framed for a crime she didn’t commit. Kat was originally a Part of an adventuring group called The Rogues of Justice, though since her death she can’t remember the name of her group or the people involved, or even their faces. The Rogues of Justice were a chaotic good group of jokesters. They were known for helping wherever they could and for their wacky and often nutty solutions that didn’t seem like they would work, but always worked out in the end. They were very close.

On Kat’s final mission, she was framed for a crime that severely broke her team’s moral code. She was made to look like she’d ransacked and destroyed a nearby town. Entire livelihoods and homes were destroyed and burnt. People were severely injured. She was found with valuables from the people of that town hidden on her being, and thus was the one to blame.

Of course, she didn’t actually do this. She would never. She was most likely the one who believed in the moral code the most.

She was set up and doomed to be buried alive by a member of her team. Someone who, once upon a time, she loved dearly. When things didn’t work out between them, in a fit of rage, her ex was the one to have sealed her fate.

He didn’t exactly expect for it to go this far, but he didn’t dare speak up, even as the dirt was being shoveled onto Kat’s face. He stood on the sidelines, watching her last moments.

She woke up days later, memories missing, with only the feeling of once being part of something, a burning feeling of injustice and betrayal, a fuzzy memory of a single face she couldn’t recognize, and a crippling fear of tight spaces that gives her a horrid sense of deja vu. She had no idea where she was or how to leave, stuck in the middle of nowhere with nobody nearby. She had been stuck in those woods, going in circles, unable to escape, losing track of time until the day she would find a way to leave.

So basically what’s keeping her here is unfinished business that she forgot ;)

It’s honestly really really sad, but she copes with humor and distractions most of the time so she doesn’t have to think about her memory gaps and the extreme distaste for that one person she can’t quite remember.

There are quite a few dark themes hidden in the story beyond the found family and fun fantasy settings, sorry haha!

I should also mention that the main reason she sticks around with Brook and the gang is cuz she’s BORED. Like she has been stuck in the woods and these are the first people she’s seen in GOD knows how long and they’re on a quest??? That’s some high quality entertainment there!!! She also gets pretty attached pretty quickly because again: human interaction!!!! And they helped her get out!!!! It’s honestly the least she can do while having hundreds of thousands of years ahead of her of existing.

Fun fact!!! Ghosts are basically the magic sparks of people who refuse to return back to the cycle just yet for whatever reason. They can last a REALLY long time but eventually they will get re-absorbed back into the cycle as everything continues on. :)

#bun did a draw #bun rambles #kat whispering willow #whispering willow book #I’m sorry for any grammatical errors or spelling mistakes or anything I’m typing this before bed so I’m a bit tired hehe #also Moog i want you to know I’m reading all ur tags on the reblogs and every time I do I get all giddy #laying on my bed and kicking my legs like a schoolgirl <3 #i should also mention that these refs are a year old now- I made them for art fight last year #i think they hold up pretty well tho :)#long post

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iamthescalesofjustice · 1 year

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do not have the focus rn to write the whole post in a satisfying way, but know that if i was in dragon age they would try to put me in a circle and make me tranquil, bc of my Symptoms and Behaviors. but that making me tranquil would not work out the way they want, bc

1) it wouldnt even do that much about my symptoms and behaviors, bc many of them have little to nothing to do with emotions

1b) it wouldnt even severely impede me, bc i have decades of experience functioning through extreme depressive episodes, dissociative states, executive functioning problems, etc and i have been in extremely bad and toxic and punishing environments without chance of escape before and if it didnt make me compromise my principles then, neither would the tower

1c) if anything, and i am speaking from experience with my own altered states here, being unable to feel shame or fear or sorrow, would consequently dramatically reduce my capacity for things like hesitation and doubt, which are fueled partially by emotions but which are not quite emotions themselves. this would actually reduce my impulse control a lot, with only stuff like the fact that anger and annoyance and restlessness and excitement and giddiness and bloodlust not being there either to help balance it out.

2) the fact that ‘everyone knows’ the tranquil are ‘incapable of using magic’ and ‘basically just soulless automatons’ would be possibly the most effective shield ever. their own brainrot from their own ingrained propaganda would make them blind to my schemes

2b) see the fact that people commonly think the tranquil cannot feel pain despite being outright told, by tranquil, that they can

2c) or the fact that mages can be made tranquil for using, or being suspected of using, blood magic. obviously some of these mages get killed rather than made tranquil, but mages can and do get killed over anything and everything regardless of the reason. if it was commonly realized that tranquil mages can use blood magic, it wouldnt be used in these cases and they would all be killed instead.

2cii) yes, tranquil mages can use blood magic. this should be obvious to anyone who thinks about it for a second, but apparently its not.

2ciib) tranquil can also use runes btw. obviously. if those needed a connection to the fade to use then dwarves would not have invented them or be able to use them.

2ciic) i also think dwarves could probably use blood magic if they had the chance to learn. possibly there is a subsection of the dwarven population that would be equivalent to mages, and they could do it but not the others, but nobody knows exactly because this kind of stuff just isnt being explored yet.

2ciid) i also think that across all species ability to use magic is more of a spectrum than a solid yes/no and there probably a lot of people whose capacity for magic falls below the flashier threshold of what most of southern thedas seems to think of as ‘mage’ or manifests in a different way. this includes the people who get approved to become templars because there apparently is some kind of innate trait they look for in the people they are willing to train to use templar abilities, which are definitely a form of magic.

2d) aside from the sheer stigma, the biggest practical downside of blood magic is that it can dampen the casters connection to the fade, making their ability to use the normal sort of magic weaker or less reliable. for someone whose connection to the fade is already shut down, this is a nonissue.

2dii) the second biggest issue with blood magic is the need to draw on a source, typically either the caster themself or other living beings. personally, i dont think theres any real ethical problem with using yourself for blood magic, and the problem of using others is far less pressing when you have, say, a bunch of templars around to drain instead.

3) they literally have books you can learn blood magic from without ever needing to talk to a denizen of the fade. the tower top brass put those books in their own fucking library. as a plant to get unwary mages.

3b) i am excellent at learning from books.

3c) if pressed about why i am reading a book about blood magic, i can answer that theres no reason for me not to. now that i ‘cant use magic’, theres no danger in me learning the theory. knowledge is valuable for its own sake.

3cii) this has the benefit of being mostly true, even. and not feeling smugness or excitement or anger means i would be more easily able to say things with a straight face and not have roiling emotions give me away.

4) if i were a tranquil who could do blood magic and i saw a templar menacing a mage in an otherwise-empty corner of a tower i would puppet that asshole over to the stairs and make them trip themself down it so their death looked like an accident

4b) and then when the mage looked at me like something other than a piece of creepy walking furniture for the first time in maybe years i would simply say “youre welcome. also, neither of us were here, and no one will ever believe you” and calmly walk away

#this last part would admittedly be an asshole move #but making someone question their perception of the tranquil would be a favorable outcome and also even when in severely #apathetic/depressed/dissociated states getting reactions from people remains relatively high on my priority list i know this about myself #what is my endgame here? bide my time learning blood magic and doing what i can to take it down from the inside until the day comes #that either the circle is rocked by rebellion or i think i am actually going to be killed or a large enough group of non-templar circle #denizens is going to be killed or otherwise made to suffer in a way exceptional even for circle standards at which point i will unleash the #absolute most havoc and destruction i can upon the templars and the physical boundaries of the tower itself #which if i have been slurping the gurt of every available ounce of suffering and shed blood the tower environment produces (A Lot) to build #power would be probably a pretty decent showing. and then shoo everyone away from the tower and encourage them to find their freedom #i figure eventually possession would be on the table and then afterwards there are numerous ways to stop being possessed if i decided #not to be tranquil anymore by then. putting back on the fetters of negative emotions etc etc #and if at any point any if this fails to work out in a way that turns out to be unrecoverably too much? theres always the ultimate back up #plan which is to alivent but this post is for being flippant and hubristic bc im built different so shhh

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skiinny-witch · 3 years

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SOLJIWAN + TEXT POSTS

#nevertheless #kdramaedit #dailynetflix #userstream #soljiwan #sol x jiwan #wlwedit #dailylgbtq #kdrama #the brainrot is getting extremely severe i fear

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azlrse · 3 years

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A Delinquent's Prized Possession (Yandere Shigaraki x GN!Reader)

Ayooo it's time for a yandere brainrot cause I can't stop thinking about shiggy—

CW: yandere themes, kidnapping, stalking, obsession.

Part 2

‿︵‿︵ʚ˚̣̣̣͙ɞ・❉・ ʚ˚̣̣̣͙ɞ‿︵‿︵

Imagine yandere shigaraki being a local delinquent in the school you attended with his small group (the entire league). He is top notch the worst student in the campus; talking back to teachers, shoving anyone in his path and spits out disrespectful words from his mouth, both towards teachers and to his peers.

When he first met you, you are actually a wallflower, just an ordinary goody two shoes student that aces every test and joins extra-curricular activities. As soon as he saw you, it was love at first sight and does anything in his will for you to be his.

He tried everything, from flirting to slipping flowers into your locker (with the copy of your keys of course) and constantly asked his allies a favor to hand over some letters and small flowers on your classroom. However, you prioritize your studies first so being in a serious relationship was out of the question and it was impossible for him to win your heart.

It didn't take long for him to stalk you on your way home, saving your pictures on his phone and knows some personal info about you. Shigaraki thinks that this is alright I mean, their soon to be boyfriend needed to anything from the love of their life, right?

It wasn't long for his simple crush on you turned into something dark, something that it was eating him on the inside, desperate for your sweet yes to his proposal to be together, it was obsession....

You were even confused as you set foot on your bedroom. You swore to yourself that you locked your window before going to school. Your clothes were missing and your bed sheets are kinda touched. You just shrugged it off, thinking that it's your dog messing your bed or your mom opening the window to let in some fresh air.

A year passed and you just heard rumours that the most feared delinquent developed feelings for you. You just brushed it off, saying that it was just someone else and you didn't have time for some stupid relationship.

Your friends frantically pressured you to confess towards him, imagining on what's it's like to be in a relationship with the local delinquent in their school but you said a firm no, which makes them disappointed.

Little do you know, Shigaraki heard every single word you spoke, this made him upset and angry. He has no choice but to resort to an.....extreme method.....

As you are walking home, a van stopped in front of you. Two of his allies grabbed you as a wet handkerchief was pressed against your mouth and nose. You began to thrash around, trying to loosen up their grip against your body.

Suddenly, you felt tired. Eyes are threatening to close down as your legs began to feel like jelly. The last thing you seen is you were taken inside of the van and several tall figures stared at your body.....

You woke up at a dimly lit room, the sound of air conditioner hummed softly as your senses began to get back. You realized that your leg was tied on the side of the bed post. You began to feel scared, 'Who took me? Where even am I Where did they take me? I am screwed, I am screw—'

"I didn't realized you awake, (y/n)..." A voiced rasped on the corner of the bed, which startled you a bit. "You know, if you just accepted my tokens of affection, I didn't have to resort to this..." Shigaraki spoke. The rumours are indeed are true. The most feared delinquent was, in fact, has feelings for you. You began to feel scared, tears are starting to form from your eyes as you began to feel fear and paranoia.

"I-I'm sorry but p-please let me go. I promise I won't t-tell the authorities about this!"

"Shhhshhhh, it's okay love it's okay. You're staying with me from now on."

Your tears slide down from your face whole your sobs became uncomfortable. Shigaraki knew that this is wrong but he doesn't have any choice. He need you, you need him. You are his and you belonged to him, is this even difficult to understand?

"Shigaraki, why? why did you do this?"

He sighed, getting up from the chair he used to sit beside his bed and lies down on his bed, enveloping you in his arms, ignoring your body shaking.

"it's because I fell in love with you. I can't bare seeing you with someone else other than me. And please, call me Tomura my love..."

‿︵‿︵ʚ˚̣̣̣͙ɞ・❉・ ʚ˚̣̣̣͙ɞ‿︵‿︵

Do not republish, edit, or repost to other websites.

Reblogs and likes are appreciated! 💕

#yandere bnha #yandere bnha x reader #bnha x reader #yandere #shigaraki x reader #tomura imagine #shigaraki imagine #mha x reader #yandere shigaraki x reader #tomura shigaraki #shigaraki tomura #yandere shigaraki #soft yandere #yandere tomura shigaraki #shimura tenko

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telehxhtrash · 4 years

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GON FREECSS IS NOT INSANE (and the next person who says he is is getting their shins broken)

Hi ! Welcome to another one of my brainrot analysis, and this one is entirely fueled by my hatred of people who mischaracterize Gon. I keep on seeing people say that Gon is crazy, unhinged, a psychopathic monster who only plays a role of the innocent kid.

He’s not.

Gon is a 12 year old with severe trauma due to his dad’s abandonment and unhealthy standards and with a chaotic moral compass forged by his childhood spent on an isolated island.

He’s not a sociopath, not a psychopath, not a monster, not unhinged. He’s just a 12yo thrown in a ruthless world where he has to constantly prove his worth to feel like he can live up to his dad’s expectations.

We’re so used to seeing shounen protagonists be happy, go-lucky characters who never suffer any real mental consequences from their past or adventures that some people have a hard time realizing that it’s just not realistic.

Gon is a realistic portrayal of what happens to an abandoned child tossed in a merciless world where he constantly has to prove his worth. And of course, it’s not pretty. It’s terrifying to see Gon’s evolution, and it’s scary to see him slowly lose it. But it doesn’t make him a monster. It makes him feel human.

Gon is introduced as this happy, cheery, stubborn kid who never backs down from a fight and likes the thrill of putting his life in danger. Which is…. normal in the shonen world, I’d say. But it’s really not normal for a 12yo, and when you take all the following events into account, it’s clear that Gon is not a normal shonen protagonist.

Gon is a very, very stubborn kid, and we get to see that very early in the manga. The one event that strikes me the most is during his face-off with Hanzo.

Gon gets absolutely destroyed. He’s pretty much getting tortured, with Hanzo breaking his left arm and threatening to cut off the rest of his limbs if he doesn’t surrender. But Gon doesn’t back down. And it’s terrifying.

No matter how much pain he’s in, no matter the consequences, he refuses to give up.

Because he hates being seen as weak.

Gon refuses to show any hint of weakness, and gets extremely mad whenever people perceive him as such. It doesn’t matter what the consequences are, he will NEVER back down. He’ll never be weak, even if it kills him.

And we’ve seen this a lot throughout the manga. Right after he shows his Ren to Tsezguerra during the Greed Island interview, Gon is pissed because he felt like he was being treated like trash. Same thing during early Chimera Ant Arc, when Kite tells Gon and Killua to fight Rammott, Gon gets really, really mad when Kite implies that if they can’t defeat him, that means they’re weak.

Gon really, really struggles with being perceived as weak. It’s the one thing he hates the most. That’s why he’s stubborn about this and never backs down even if it costs him his life : he wants to prove his worth. He feels that need to prove he’s not weak, to prove he’s not trash.

Weakness is not an option. He has to get stronger and stronger and stronger, because at the end of the road lies his goal : Ging.

And to me, Ging explains Gon’s most prominent character traits. Because Ging not only created those traits, but he also enabled them.

In shonen anime, oftentimes, the main protagonist’s dad is out of the picture, but it never truly has any impact on the character’s mental state or behavior. This is not the case in Hunter x Hunter.

Ging leaving left Gon with deep, deep trauma, and an extremely distorted view on his self-worth that leads him to overcompensate with physical strength.

When a child gets abandoned, they usually blame themselves. It creates that feeling of guilt, that maybe their parent left because of them, and that they weren’t and AREN’T important for them to just walk out like this.

This feeling of guilt and shame creates a twisted self esteem in that child, making them believe that they aren’t important, that they aren’t of value. That they aren’t worth anything. Because their parents left them, it surely had to do with them, right ?

Gon has that distorted self-esteem that a child experiences after being abandoned. He has absolutely 0 value over his own body, constantly breaking it, pushing it past its limit to reach his goals, and this lack of self-worth and need to prove his worth is oftentimes represented physically by Gon hurting/losing his arm.

Everytime Gon loses/hurts his arm, it’s always after doing something out of need for validation. In Hunter Exam Arc, it’s right after refusing to let Hanzo win. In Heaven’s Arena Arc, it’s after he uses zetsu to win, no matter the consequences. In Yorknew Arc, Gon gets his hand destroyed by Nobunaga/his arm almost broken off by Feitan after he stood up to them. In Greed Island, Gon loses his hand for the sole purpose of training. And lastly, in Chimera Ant Arc, he loses his arm entirely after destroying Pitou in an attempt to ease his guilt.

Gon really struggles with his self-worth, and it’s also illustrated during the time they’re held hostage by Nobunaga, when Killua insists that he’ll stop his blade so that Gon can escape, even if it costs him his life. To which Gon replies with a sentence that is extremely crucial to be able to understand Gon’s character.

”I can say I’ll die, but you can’t !”

Gon values Killua’s life more than his own. He gets to talk about death, he gets to be hurt, he gets to put his life in danger, because it’s fine if he does it, but Killua is absolutely not allowed to. Gon has absolutely no value over his own life, and doesn’t care if he dies. He doesn’t care if he gets hurt. Because at the end of the day, his body is not of value, and I truly believe that Ging’s abandonment left him with a feeling that he wasn’t of value as a whole.

And to me, this broken sense of self-worth is what created Gon’s hatred of being seen as weak. Because if he shows weakness, then Ging was right to abandon him. If he’s weak, then that means he’s trash, and worth nothing. If he doesn’t live up to his dad’s expectation, then what’s the point ? He’d mean nothing. He’d be no one. Just a small island boy whose dad left because his job was more interesting. That’s why he has to prove his worth no matter what.

Finding Ging is like this Holy Grail to Gon. It’s the ultimate goal. Like Kite said the first time he met him, it’s the ultimate hunt. It’s something that proves you’re worthy. So of course, Gon has to do everything in his power to find him. Because he wants to prove his worth. He wants to find his dad and prove that he’s not weak.

And to me, that’s why Gon is so stubborn and self-destructive.

I mentioned that Hanzo fight earlier, and there’s something interesting that happens during that fight that can be used to illustrate this.

Hanzo asks why Gon is so stubborn, why he refuses to back down when he could just lose this match and face someone else. It’s true, Gon could have easily given up and fought someone else, he could’ve won then. But he refused to even consider the possibility. He had to win THIS fight. But why ? Is it out of pride ? Is it out of pure stubbornness ?

Well, as Gon says himself :

It has nothing to do with pride or being stubborn for the sake of being stubborn. It’s easy. If he shows weakness once, he’s not worthy. He’s not worthy of finding Ging, and he’s worth less than trash. Because if he’s weak, he doesn’t deserve to find him.

And this is so, so important. Because this is the reason Gon never backs down from anything, even at the cost of his limbs. Because like he said, if he loses, he thinks that he won’t be able to meet Ging. So he has to do ANYTHING, anything at all, no matter the cost, to be able to find him.

That’s why he’s not backing down from the Hanzo fight at the cost of his arm. That’s why he’s using zetsu during his fight against Gido, even if it’s dangerous, because that’s what he has to do to get stronger. That’s why he purposefully blasts off his own hand during his fight with Genthru. Because he has to get stronger, no matter the cost.

And Ging enables him. By making him feel like Gon has to “earn” the right to see him, Ging is fueling Gon’s self-destructive behavior.

Ging enables him when he tells him that he has to hunt him to find him, that he doesn’t want to see him and that he’ll run away when he senses him coming. That cat and mouse game is putting extreme pressure on Gon’s shoulders. His dad expects great things of him. He expects strength, and he expects him to find him. It’s a challenge. And an unhealthy one.

Greed Island is another example of that unhealthy challenge and the pressure of Ging’s expectations. Greed Island was created for Gon. It was created to train him, and as Bisky says herself :

If Gon wants to see Ging, he has to be strong. He has to always be stronger and stronger so he can earn the right to see him.

Quoting one of my references here, but this is also a form of abandonment that fuels Gon’s self destructive behavior.

All of these expectations put extreme pressure on Gon’s shoulders. Because he has to keep on pushing further and further, always improving, always getting stronger, and he’s not allowed to show weakness because it’d mean losing his goal.

But showing weakness wouldn’t only mean he’d lose his goal. Being weak would also mean he’d lose Killua.

I mentioned that when a child gets abandoned, they fear it’s their fault and develop a broken sense of self-worth. But that’s not all. After having been hurt, it’s normal to try and minimize the risk of being hurt again. You’d do anything to not be walked out on again. And that’s what Gon is doing. His fear of vulnerability and weakness is a fear of rejection and abandonment.

That’s also why Gon hates being seen as weak. Because if he’s weak, not only is he not living up to his dad’s expectations, but he’s also running the risk of Killua walking out on him. Because he’s scared that if he shows weakness, Killua will leave him, just like Ging did. Because he’s not strong enough to keep him, or anyone by his side.

And to make up for that overwhelming feeling of insecurity and his guilt over being weak, Gon overcompensates with physical strength and stubbornness. We’ve seen it multiple times throughout the manga. Gon purposefully gets hurt when facing a dangerous situation, just so he can prove his worth. Just so he can get stronger.

Gon overcompensates and takes everything onto his shoulders for this sole purpose of proving he’s worthy of staying.

Take the dodgeball match during Greed Island arc. There’s an interesting thing happening during the match that says a lot about Gon.

When Killua almost gets killed by Razor, it makes Gon’s blood boil. He’s furious and enraged that Razor dared try to hurt Killua. Because Killua has NOTHING to do with this. He’s only here because of Gon, and here he is, risking his life for him. Razor is putting Killua’s life in danger because of Gon. And that makes Gon go feral.

But the most interesting line happens here :

“I have to crush him completely”

Gon completely shuts off Killua at this point. He says HE has to be the one to crush him completely. He’s taking this responsibility onto himself, he has to be the one to defeat Razor, it’s his role. His and no one else’s.

And to me, that’s another sign of overcompensation fueled by abandonment issues. Gon feels guilt at what just happened. Killua shouldn’t have to risk his life to hang out with Gon. He has nothing to do with this, he’s only here because he wants to, and it drives Gon mad that Razor is trying to hurt him when it has nothing to do with him.

So because he feels guilt, because him not being able to protect Killua fully is a sort of weakness, he overcompensates with strength and by wanting to handle everything alone.

He affirms that he will take the responsibility of winning against Razor. It’s his fault Killua almost got hurt, so he has to bear the consequences alone. He has to make things right, no matter the cost. He has to show strength. He has to prove his worth.

Because what if Killua left him because he wasn’t strong enough?

I think this situation illustrates pretty well Gon’s trauma-fueled thought process :

• “It’s my fault this is happening because I’m too weak” (sparked by his twisted self-worth due to his abandonment issues)

• “So I have to bear the consequences alone” (to prove his worth as to not be abandoned again)

• “I won’t back down under any circumstance because my life has no value” (because of his lack of self-worth once again)

And this pattern is found in any situation in the manga. When Gon lets Kon scratch his arm until he bleeds to keep Kite from killing him, he’s doing it because it’s his fault Kon’s mom had to die. When Gon refuses to back down from Hanzo’s fight as he keeps breaking multiple parts of his body, he’s doing it because he believes that if he’s weak and backs down he won’t be worth seeing Ging. When Razor almost kills Killua, Gon flips out and emphasizes that he has to crush Razor because it’s his fault Killua is here and he won’t back down on kicking Razor’s ass. And that’s why when Kite dies and Gon sees his mangled body, he tells Killua “I’m taking on that one (Pitou) alone” : because Kite got hurt because of his weakness, Gon has to make amends in any way possible.

That’s why Gon hurts himself, that’s why he’s constantly putting everything on his shoulders : he has no value over his own life. He’s focused on proving he’s worth something at any cost.

And those escalating feelings of insecurity and this behavioral pattern are exactly why Gon broke down during Chimera Ant Arc. Because everything that was piling up went crumbling down when he saw Kite’s arm being cut off. Because he was weak for an instant.

It was his fault. It was his fault, because he was weak, because he couldn’t defend Kite, because even though Kite had just lost a limb, he was still stronger than both Gon and Killua combined. If he had just trained harder, if he had put his life on the line more, if he pushed himself past his limit, maybe this wouldn’t have happened. It was his fault.

At that precise moment when Kite’s arm got severed, every single insecurity that Gon had from the beginning of this manga is flooding in. Gon feels weak, he feels guilt, he feels like all of this is his fault. He feels like he wasn’t enough.

And because it’s his fault, he has to take everything on his shoulders. He has to be the one to bear the weight of his mistake alone. He has to be the one to carry the burden. Just like that dodgeball match.

Because he just lost everything. He showed weakness once, and everything crumbled. He had just gotten his dad’s student hurt, and that weakness meant that he also just lost his goal of finding Ging. Because now that he showed a hint of weakness, Ging would never want to see him. Gon had just lost everything. His mentor, his goal, and his weakness might drive Killua away too.

That’s why he put everything on his shoulder and vowed to make things right. Because he wanted to prove to himself, to Ging, to Kite, and more importantly to Killua that he could do this alone. That he wasn’t a failure. That he wasn’t weak. That he was worthy of staying.

That’s why when he sees Kite’s mangled body, he tells Killua that he’s taking onto Pitou alone. Because it’s his responsibility. He has to make things right. It was his fault for being weak. It’s his fault Kite got hurt.

And at that moment, Gon probably already knew that he wouldn’t stop at any cost. Because it was a quest to assuage his guilt. It was a quest to make things right and prove that he wasn’t weak, that he could fix things, that he was still worthy of Kite and Ging and Killua. That he wasn’t a failure. So he pushed past his limit. Took everything onto his shoulders. Pushed Killua away, because it has nothing to do with him. It’s his own mistake, not Killua’s.

Him going after Pitou is his attempt at redemption, a plea for help. A plea for someone to realize his worth. A plea to not be abandoned again.

And that’s why Gon is not a monster. He’s just a terrified child.

During Chimera Ant Arc, he’s bottling up his feelings of inadequacy and guilt just so he could attempt to fix the mess he created, attempting to carry everything on his shoulders alone, because he can’t afford to drag anyone else into his mess, especially not Killua.

Gon is not a monster for pushing Killua away. It is not a sign of him being unhinged or manipulative. It’s an act of protection. An act of love, his way of saying “This is my mess and I have to fix this, I can’t let you get hurt for my sake.”. It’s the desperate attempt of a broken 12 year old to try and make things right.

Gon is not a monster because he threatened Komugi. It was a desperate attempt at regaining a sense of control on the situation.

Because Gon’s morality has always been weird, it broke him to see Pitou heal Komugi. He couldn’t comprehend why something he categorized as evil was doing something as pure as healing. Just like that time during York New Arc ! Gon couldn’t understand why Chrollo was mourning the death of one of his members when he showed no remorse relentlessly killing innocent people. This inability to understand that bad people can do good things already broke Gon during YN arc, and it happened again during Chimera Ant Arc.

He had nowhere to put his anger. All this time, he created this mental picture of Pitou in his head, this one where they’re an evil, evil villain who could never do anything good, he classified them as bad and that was that. But faced with them performing a pure act of healing, it broke Gon. He had no outlet for his anger.

So he did what a 12 year old with a broken sense of worth and a need for validation would do : he overcompensated with even more anger.

In a desperate attempt at regaining a bit of control on the situation, his last resort was to threaten an innocent life. To take her hostage.

Because if he couldn’t make things right, he’d just lost everything. No matter the cost. No matter what happens. He had to do this. He had to ease his guilt.

Gon is not a monster because he sacrificed his life. He’s not a monster because he turned into an adult version of himself. He’s not a monster because he bashed Pitou’s skull in until it was mush. It was the actions of a broken boy who had nothing left. Who had just lost everything. Because Kite wasn’t hurt, he was DEAD. He was dead by his fault, it was his fault. He had nothing else to live for, because he was weak and lost everything.

So he decided to kill himself to take down Pitou. Because he didn’t deserve to live. And this “fight” with Pitou wasn’t even to avenge Kite’s death. It was an attempt to ease his guilt. To feel a little better, because he might’ve lost everything, but at least he took down Pitou with him.

I’m not condemning Gon’s actions or excusing them. At all. He made mistakes, and committed actions that are hard to excuse. But it was out of despair. It came out of years of pent up trauma and insecurities. His actions were a cry for help.

Gon didn’t “snap” out of nowhere. He always felt weak and insecure, he always had a broken sense of self-worth that led him to be self-destructive and overcompensate by taking everything onto his shoulders.

Chimera Ant Arc just pushed him past his limit. But this darkness, this plea for help, this trauma was always there in Gon’s heart. But it doesn’t mean he’s crazy. He’s just a child with abandonment issues and deep trauma.

To summarize, Ging’s physical and emotional abandonment left Gon with deep wounds that reflected in his behavior. Gon feels weak and insecure, he has no self-worth and a deep need to prove his value which leads him to constantly exhibit self-destructive behavior for the sole purpose of living up to his dad’s expectations and proving his worth.

Gon feels the need to prove his worth and handle everything alone in an attempt to appear strong, and this unhealthy standards he puts onto himself and that Ging’s behavior enables are what ultimately led to his breakdown.

Because when Kite’s arm flew off, so did Gon’s entire reason to exist.

He blamed himself for it, cursed his weakness and desperately attempted to make things right no matter the cost. Even if it meant death. Because death is better than being weak. Death is better than the guilt of having let his mentor down. Death is better than being rejected by his dad for his mistake. Death is better than being abandoned by his best friend.

And this deep, suffocating agony is what led Gon to act the way he did during Chimera Ant Arc.

It wasn’t the acts of a crazy, psychopathic monster. It was the act of a kid, desperately pleading for help.

But this breakdown was a good thing. No, really, it was. It was necessary.

Chimera Ant Arc was written to break down Gon to his core, to break his character in the worst possible way to annihilate the toxic traits he had.

His stubbornness, fear of weakness and self-destructive behavior were always going to break him in the end. But now that he knows what happens when you let all of this take over, it won’t happen again.

Gon is back to square one. Clean start, new beginning. Back to Whale Island with no nen, no goal, and with his best friend gone.

And while some people might see this as depressing, or a sign that Gon didn’t change at all during the manga, it’s actually the exact opposite. It represents a second chance.

It’s the purest form of second chance he can get. He’s back to zero, and he has a blank canvas to be able to fix every wrong he made in the past.

With no nen, he now has the opportunity to learn it the proper way, taking his time to enjoy the process, learning it for pure purposes and not rushing to get stronger for the sole purpose of proving his worth.

With no goal, he’s free to find something that he wants to do for himself, not live in Ging’s shadow. He gets to be who he wants to be, with no unhealthy expectations.

With Killua gone, he gets to reflect on their relationship. He gets to realize the wrongs he’s made, the what-ifs and lost opportunities, he gets to realize how much Killua means to him.

This second chance is not a curse, it’s a blessing. Because it’s exactly what Gon needed to be able to heal.

And I’m willing to bet that this will be Gon’s final character arc : healing. We’ll get to see Gon act in ways that highlight how much he’s changed, showcasing his growth. When he was stubborn, hot-headed and impulsive, he’ll have learned to be more calm and composed. When he was always looking to prove his worth and look for strength, he’ll have learned that his true value lies in who he is and in the little detours of his travels.

He’ll be more calm, won’t put himself in danger for the sake of being stronger, he won’t drag Killua in impossible situations where he has to clean up the mess. He won’t hurt his arm, which was the physical representation of his trauma. He’ll have grown.

Because that’s what HxH is ultimately about. Togashi is all about deconstructing and reconstructing his characters to show growth and healing from trauma. To show that tragedy happens, but at the end of the day, you can overcome your worst traits. At the end of the day, you can become a better person, no matter what.

EDIT : I actually wrote a post on how I believe Gon’s next character arc was foreshadowed here.

Thank you for reading this ! I hope it was all clear and that I expressed my thoughts correctly, without mischaracterizing Gon.

Full disclaimer that I am NOT a psychologist and I’m not attempting to diagnose Gon, I’m just linking the signs of emotional trauma due to abandonment issues to his character in an attempt to explain his actions.

Please feel free to give me your thoughts or criticism !

References :

• “Understanding the pain of abandonment”

• “How to overcome abandonment issues from childhood”

Those two articles are the foundation of my meta. They’re extremely interesting articles that show all the signs of abandonment on a child’s behavior, and it showcases the consequences of both emotional and physical abandonment on their self-worth.

• “Fear of vulnerability and learning to trust again”

#hxh #hxh meta #meta #my meta #holy shit this took me so long to write AHAHHAA #i hope i didnt mischaracterize too badly #and i hope i was kinda clear #ty if you decide to read this <3<3<3

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Tell us your thoughts on gaanaru/narugaa

anon you must be recent because as can be seen here here and here AND HERE i am an avid narugaa enjoyer and have always been

ok lemme just ramble this is mostly on gaara's pov bc as we know naruto is the show's ship bicycle literally half of the ninja population is obsessed with this japanese gary sue we love that for him

to not repeat my talking points from 7 years ago its pretty much the gaara ship i care about the most!!!! i respect gaara's severe naruto brainrot that ACTIVELY motivated him to do better and become a better person, something not even his siblings that he half heartedly cared about at best at the young age of 12 achieved!! like sorry to say but the sabaku family dynamic was something NARUTO made possible it wasn't there before and it wouldn't have happened considering his siblings were terrified of him. kishimoto even confirmed this when he stated in the fanbook that it was naruto that pulled gaara from a dark place in a literal and figurative sense even whilst surrounded by dozens of people that cared about him. that was literally the main theme of the kazekage rescue arc baby.

like naruto is just a HUGE part of gaara's personality and growth you can't really ignore that when it's one of the few MAJOR naruto dynamics that constantly get referenced and brought back in the story (even kurama and shukaku wont shut up about it LMFAOOO) but in a way where the drama is already sort of? resolved? like you could tell with p1 and p2 that narugaa was a dynamic that kishimoto cared about and where his feelings eventually shifted from

naruto -> -> -> -> gaara to naruto <- <- <- <- gaara

it has an actual real dynamic development AND conflict without being boring if that makes sense??

something that constantly gets overlooked i fear is just how much gaara puts effort into naruto and how much he wants to be part of naruto's journey which makes me hard to imagine he'd be just??? happy and content being with someone else rather than single in the sliver of a hope naruto, who pretty much returned that sentiment previously but still picked sasuke over him in kage summit arc, will one day realise that as well. GREAT CONTENDER FOR ANGST if you picked the canon setting. gaara knows that if he cant be naruto's #1 he will still try to be there for him how is that not utterly HOMOSEXUAL

as for aus??? in a setting where sasuke isnt around its my default naruto pick lmfao naruto is just extremely stupid and has to be made clear that he and gaara are a thing like a real thing i just want gaara to hang up his kazekage/ceo/whatever responsibilty the little man has give it to temari and go travel with naruto or open a botanic garden or flower shop or ANYTHING as long as its with naruto itd be infinitely more enjoyable to gaara me thinks

tl;dr when you can feel his pet roaches crawl on your bare feet but you still want him

#ask noni #narugaa #meta #sorta #you can tell the very handful of ships i care about i have a lot to say #need to draw them again for now theyre just a side staple in sunan related aus #narugaa was sort of referenced in colorblind but only if you squinted

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Haikyuu as MysMe Characters

Good afternoon today at work I went on a brainrot frenzy and created this. I tried not to go with the obvious choices so I put some thought into it lol lmk what you think:

Oikawa as 707

Okay, I was originally going to categorize Oikawa as Zen because of the good looks thing and flamboyancy, but I think Saeyoung fits Oikawa much better. They’re both beautiful boys who use humor and false confidence to mask their inferiority complexes. They also feel very deeply and are passionate people. The only difference between them is how they’re oriented. 707’s self destruction is because of unhealthy selfless behaviors. Oikawa’s intentions are purely selfish and I think that’s the main difference between them. They’re also both scarily logical and intelligent. Plus, the quick wit? The platonic flirting? The need for attention? Yeah, this is the best matchup.

Yamaguchi as Yoosung

Okay, I thought really hard about this, but I think this is the best fit. Yoosung and Yamaguchi are both overall shy people who work really hard. They’re both relatively insecure and feel the need to live up to people’s expectations to the point it brings them down. They both care immensely about their friends. They also have been subject to varying degrees of teasing/bullying in their lives. Additionally, they’re not afraid to call people out on their bullshit and are ridiculously loyal. Aside from the fact that they’re both gentle, soft hearted people, they have that Pisces/Scorpio bite to them that really is what matched them together here.

Kageyama as Zen

This one might be controversial but honestly I stand by it. Though they’re very different, I think this is an interesting perspective to look at Kageyama in. Zen is known for his good looks just as Kageyama is known for his setting. They’re proud of this trait of theirs, but it’s often the only trait people see in them. Their value is based on that aspect of them. Their personalities aren’t very similar, but they’re both very hot-headed and easy to anger despite overall being relatively calm individuals. They’re very passionate and work extremely hard on their talents and goals and it’s often a main focus for them. They also both had drama in the past regarding this prominent trait of theirs and people close to them. They both had people extremely close to them abandon them. Yeah, for different reasons, but it’s similar nonetheless.

Kita as Jaehee

I was originally going to put Kiyoko, but I think this fits much better. Kita and Jaehee are both very calm, blunt individuals whose talents and hard work were originally severely underappreciated. They’re both known for their level-heads and logic, resulting in the people close to them showing a vast amount of respect and sometimes fear. They both care very deeply for the people close to them, and that shows in their scary candid manner towards others. I settled on this pairing mostly because Kita’s hard work and intense care is not appreciated at first. Jaehee reflects this in her relationship with Jumin. They both have great talents that are brushed over by superiors, but they never argue it. I literally love them omg.

Akaashi as Saeran (no it’s not because they’re both my favorite)

This one was difficult as Saeran is such an immensely complex character, but I think that this matchup is decent. AE Saeran and Akaashi both have a similar demeanor overall. Calm, intuitive, observant, smart and empathetic. They both have a character development that stems from a “compared to this other person, I’m just a stepping stone” complex, it just manifests in different ways. They’re both confident and proficient in their respective skills, but sometimes they overthink and that directly effects their work. Obviously, Akaashi and Saeran don’t share similar backstories, but AE Saeran and Akaashi are relatively similar in my opinion.

Yachi as V

I was on the fence a little about this one as well, but I think this matches best. The difference here is where their development took them. Yachi originally categorizes herself as a bystander, a side character in the main story that helps move things along without being the focus. I feel like V has this mentality to some degree throughout Mystic Messenger. He often removes himself from the main events, preferring to keep to himself and watch from a distance. They’re both timid characters. V is shown as a pussy people-pleaser, not wanting to get on anyone’s bad side, this is further proven by his relationship with Rika, never standing up to her and just waiting on her constantly. I feel like Yachi also demonstrates this trait in the beginning with her mother and teachers, never stepping up to the plate and standing up for herself until her interaction with Hinata. The difference is that V sits and writhes in his despair and suffers silently, whereas Yachi is willing to make actions to change that about herself, to become more than townsperson b. Plus, they’re both Virgos

Sakusa as Jumin

It had to be and no not because i mentioned it on discord. They’re both calm, hardworking individuals who are shown to carefully assess situations and make cautious, logical decisions in their fields. Sakusa and Jumin, in addition to both being extremely analytical, are relatively reserved, preferring to keep to themselves. Their priorities are oriented towards their goals, and while Sakusa is never shown to be averse to dating like Jumin, his spot on the Japan team shows that his interests lie in volleyball much like Jumin and his company. And they’re both Mo’s type and that settles it.

#haikyuu #mysme #mystic messenger #haikyuu x reader #haikyuu headcanons #mystic messenger x reader #mysme x reader #mysme headcanons

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