#the characters were never bastardised THIS strongly

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stanning spn during 15.18-15.19 is like. you’re the unpopular girl at high school and you’ve had a crush on the captain of the football team for ten years, and then one day he asks you out to your senior prom. and he says he loves you, he’s always loved you, you’ve always been important to him but he was too scared to tell you. and then you go to prom together and you get slimed because it was all a big prank and of course you’re just a joke. or like, you know. you’ve been best friends with your same-gender buddy for years. and you think you might be in love with them, but you’re so afraid to tell them. and you tell them, and they say kind words to you, and you think it might be okay, maybe even they might love you back, and then overnight your entire friendship group won’t look at you or speak to you because you’re a queer. or like, as a child you planted a seed in your heart. and all these years you’ve seen it grow and flourish into a beautiful tree, without you even noticing most of the time. maybe it could be the most beautiful tree in the entire world. and then someone just comes in and burns it all to the ground. anyway fuck supernatural

#tell me something though why does this rejection feel so blatantly homophobic more than anything ever #like the way the show went the found family is a lie and the only real characters are actually the Brotherstm #I need to zone out of this show until next week at the earliest .... my god #I wish I could simply not care about canon but then misha collins made me fucking care!!! #and frankly I did anyway! because despite all its flaws #DESPITE all its FLAWS #the characters were never bastardised THIS strongly #and e18 and cas' speech to dean really made me feel like they had redeemed dean's character mess #no. this week he simply forgets cas exists #everything was so awful and I just. again. feel so violated #and I shouldn't have put my trust in this show and I don't blame misha for that but like #the good writers and cas gave me something true and special #and all of that was torn down. #spn spoilers #kira for ts #supernatural spoilers #just thoughts!!!!!!