THE DARKSIDE
MY STUDIES ON THE NATURE OF THE FORCE’S DARKSIDE.
THERE HAVE BEEN DEBATES FOR MILLENNIA ON WHAT THE DARKSIDE IS.
IT IS VERY EASY FOR YOUNG MINDS TO SIMPLY BRUSH IT OFF AS SIMPLY “EVIL” INCARNATE. FOR OLD FORCE-USERS TO SAY THAT IT IS SIMPLY “POWER”.
THE FORCE IS ALREADY POWER. BUT IT IS MORE THAN THAT.
THE FORCE IS THE INTERCONNECTION OF ALL LIVING THINGS. ANYTHING THAT CAN BE COUNTED AS TRADITIONALLY ALIVE, OR POSSIBLY TRADITIONALLY CONSCIOUS (THERE WERE MANY POWERFUL FORCE-USERS, AFTER ALL, THAT SHOWED EXTENSIVE SKILL IN MAINTAIN CONSCIOUS DROIDS; NO MATTER WHAT THE LAWS OF THE TIME SAY A DROID IS OR IS NOT).
THERE ARE THEORIES THAT IT IS THE ORIGIN OF WHAT ONE MIGHT CALL A “SOUL”. SOME FOOLHEARTY SITH LORDS MIGHT FIND COMFORT THAT THEY ARE POWERED BY “SOUL ENERGY”. I PROCLAIM THAT WATCHING TOO MANY TANGSDAY MORNING’S COLORFUL AND CHILDISH ANIMATIONS.
IT IS NOT OUT OF THE QUESTION TO SAY THAT THE FORCE IS ALIVE, AND AS ALL LIVING THINGS, IT DESIRES TO EXIST AND REMAIN EXISTING. AND ITS CONNECTION TO CONSCIOUSNESS SUGGESTS THAT IT MIGHT BE, IN A MOST FRIGHTFUL OF THOUGHTS, THINKING. THOUGH I DARE SAY THAT ITS THOUGHTS ARE INCOMPREHENSIBLE TO A SINGLE MIND.
THE JEDI HAVE SPENT YEARS TRYING TO UNDERSTAND THE THOUGHTS OF A ELEMENT THAT MAKES UP THE WHOLE OF REALITY ITSELF. PERHAPS THEY SHOULD HAVE WATCHED PLANETS ROTATE, FOR ALL THE HELP SITTING THERE AND THINKING DID FOR THEIR SCHOLARS.
BUT AS SAID, THE FORCE IS A LIVING CREATURE, AND ALL LIVING CREATURES CAST A SHADOW. AND IT IS A THINKING CREATURE, THOUGH ELDRITCH IN THOUGHT, AND THAT WOULD MEAN THAT ITS SHADOW IS APART OF ITS PSYCHE.
IT IS A LIVING CREATURE THAT IS BOTH A MIND AND A BODY AS ONE BEING. ONE... FORCE, IF YOU DO NOT MIND PUNS.
A PSYCHE’S SHADOW IS ALL THAT ONE REPRESSES ABOUT ONE’S SELF, AND THAT ONE MAY INCIDENTALLY PROJECT UPON OTHERS. INDEED, IT IS OFTEN HEALTHY FOR A PSYCHE TO CONFRONT ITS SHADOW, THOUGH IT IS NOT AN EASY AFFAIR, IN ORDER TO ACCEPT PARTS OF ONE’S SELF.
SO IMAGINE, IF YOU WILL, WHAT A FORCE OF REALITY MUST REPRESS ABOUT ITSELF. IF INDEED IT CAN EVEN ACKNOWLEDGE WHAT ITSELF IS, IN ANY CERTAIN WAY WE CAN COMPREHEND.
WE CALL THIS SHADOW OF THE FORCE... THE DARKSIDE.
FORCE-USERS MIGHT BE TAKEN TO ENVY THOSE WHO CANNOT TAP INTO THE FORCE ITSELF, FOR THEIR DARKSIDE ARE MERELY TRAITS THAT THEY DO ACKNOWLEDGE, AND IS NOT THE SHADOW OF THE WHOLE OF THE COSMOS.
THERE ARE MANY POSSIBLE PATHS TO TAPPING INTO THE DARKSIDE.
ANGER, RAGE, HATE, PASSION, FEAR, SELFISHNESS, PRIDE-- ALL THINGS THAT YOU MAY DENY OF YOURSELF, ARE POSSIBLE PATHS.
THEY CAN DRIVE YOU TO DO THINGS YOU MAY REGRET, BUT THIS IS A CHALLENGE AND A FAULT OF ALL LIVING THINGS THAT DO NOT HAVE SPACE SUPERPOWERS. DO NOT DESPAIR YET.
BUT THE FORCE IS A LIVING BODY AS WELL AS A MIND. THERE IN LIES WHERE THIS SHADOW CAME FROM, WHEN ALL LIVING THINGS WERE MERELY PRIMORDIAL SOUP ON SOME FORGOTTEN NAMELESS PLANET.
FOR WHEN YOU FEEL FEAR, YOU ARE IN FEAR OF YOU LIFE. FOR WHEN YOU FEEL ANGER, YOU FEEL HURT. THESE ARE THE BASIC EMOTIONS OF ONE’S FLIGHT OR FIGHT RESPONSE.
... WHICH DOES LEAD ONE TO THE IDEA THAT “FREEZING” AND “FAWNING” MAY ALSO HAVE FORCE-USER CONSEQUENCE.
THE DARKSIDE MAY, AND IS STILL, A RESPONSE OF MASSIVE POWER IN ORDER TO SURVIVE. NOT UNLIKE AN ADRENALINE RESPONSE.
BUT WE SENTIENTS ALL TEND TO GET IT TWISTED UP. IT COMES WITH HAVING SENTIENCE.
AND UNFORTUNATELY FOR FORCE-USERS, WE ARE A SMALL SENTIENT BEING. ONE ENTITY IN TRILLIONS, AND A MERE SPEC OF SAND AMONGST STARS, IN COMPARISON TO THE MASS OF THE FORCE.
TO HAVE THE ADRENALINE RUSH FROM THE LEVEL OF A COSMOS GOING INTO ONE BEING...
IS IT ANY WONDER THAT MOST SITH ARE MORALLY AND INCOMPREHENSIBLY INSANE? OR THAT YOUR ONCE CLOSE FRIEND OR APPRENTICE OR MASTER WOULD CHANGE SO COMPLETELY, SO DRASTICALLY, AS TO BE ANOTHER PERSON ENTIRELY?
AND THAT SITH, WHO PRIDE THEMSELVES ON TAPPING INTO THE DARKSIDE, WOULD ESCALATE TRAGEDY UPON TRAGEDY, HORROR UPON HORROR, TERROR UPON TERROR.
SUCH AN ADRENALINE RUSH CAUSES MADNESS ON FIRST TAPPING. ADDICTION UPON CONTINUOUS. IT IS NOT A NATURAL THING TO GET METAPHYSICALLY DRUNK ON EVIL ACTION AND PROCLAIM IT STILL EVIL-- ONE COULD EVEN CALL IT CARTOONISH, AND THAT MAY MAKE THIS ALL THE MORE HORRIFYING FOR SOME.
FOR OTHER CULTURES, THIS IS THE PART WHERE YOU START SACRIFICES AND CONSTRUCT STATUES FOR “GODS”.
TO TAP INTO THE DARKSIDE, IS TO BE THE WOUND, THE WOUNDING AND THE WOUNDED.
. FOR THAT IS WHAT IT IS-- HURT ON THE LEVEL OF THE MIND, THE BODY AND THE VERY SOUL, AND THE RESPONSE OF SOMETHING THAT WANTS TO LIVE, BUT TWISTED BY THE VERY CONFUSING NATURE OF LIVING.
ALL CONGEALED INTO A SINGLE SHADOW ON THE VERY CORE OF EXISTENCE ITSELF.
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The afterthought.
Caution is to be taken. But do not fall into the trap of thinking that you are not allowed to feel or to communicate what you feel. Do not overburden, as you will regret and merely hurt yourself and possibly others further.
But allow yourself the space and time to simply feel. Let the mask fall, show your true face to the one who’s kindness matters the most-- yours. For your feelings are real to you, because they are yours.
Do not punish yourself, be kind. Accept and learn, and if damage is done, mitigate, recover, and repair. Recovery is always the most important step, even if you are only capable of recovering yourself.
What many Jedi fail to understand, is that you should not deny yourself your worst aspects. Face them, accept them, learn from them; all living creatures feel on these things at one time or another, out of reaction, out of personal history, out of simple misery, or perhaps foolish intent.
My fall was a madness of never fully confronting myself, letting false-kindness feed into selfishness of the moment, and there is so much damage I cannot undo.
I am afraid I have not earn that forgiveness yet, Obi-Wan.
I’m sorry, Luke.
- Anakin
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