#the day she lives for its night

[coolnonsenseworld]

Samurai and Ninja in crappy pics because December here is under a constant cloud and I just want y'all to see them all golden and cute without learning how to take aesthetic pictures 🥴 💙❤️😆🥰

linktr.ee/Mezzy

#klance #can i tell everyone to look away before i write tags to someone privately lmao no? damn #anyway yes i meant music!! and thank you for sharing something!! #baking seems like a hyperfixation #like i know you said you baked once but then look at me #...i was thinking if i could make salads.... i gotta be medicore at least at one food thing #its a joke its a joke #i will one day get used to focusing on more complicated kitchen work than heating up meat or cooking things in salt and water #anyone else had trouble getting out of bed this december? #once i do i try to pick physical activities that dont require creative thinking because man #at the post office i had small talk with a lady waiting in line she didnt speak polish so u know me it happened #and she recommended light therapy lamp #im very tempted to try it becase i had record bad thoughts sleepless nights and jerking awake this month #it might be rooted in economic instability growing inflation costs of living and shitty working conditions while still trying to buy gifts? #but hey there are things we cant have control over and there are things we can #ive got winter wonderland comic coming though #i will try my best to speed-finish it as a christmas gift aight #i hope its going to be a nice thing!! #wow thats a long set of tags

[oatbugs]

pls i need to provide updates

#basically yesterday night was chaharshanbe suri . which is a solar new yr tradition where we let go of the past suffering in our year #and like...start the new yr w fresh vigour . anyway so my friend was at the event and we were abt to leap over the fire #and she was like bro im im glad u blocked her (situationship) etc etc . and then. my phone started vibrating. and i look at it. and my f #friend looks at it. and its her. and were both like what the fuck?? i blocked her things r Over and anyway so i pick up the phone and shesl #acting like nothing happened (bc nothing DID happen for her) and she was like ohh ur doing chaharshanbe suri im not doing anything etc what #are ur new yr plans so i jusr .IDK WHY I DID THIS . but ig i didnt wanna come off as like lonely i said probably hanging out w family and #friends maybe reading poetry together . et cetera and she was like wait that sounds so fun why didnt u invite me! #LIKE WDYM YOUVE BEEN CONSISTENTLY MAKING IT CLEAR U DONT WANT TO BE IN MY PRESENCE . and i told her that after #everything i thought she didnt want to see me again and she was like you always think that 😐 . like. ?? ok anyway so she expects me to #invite her . and like. there is an above 0% but sub-5% chance she will actually show up . but the panic that gripped me #i started making calls to my friends asking them if they can come on the 23rd bc there must be an event and also i asked my mother #and she said actually yeah i am doing a thing on the 23rd :D it involves over 16 ppl (we live in a v small flat) of which like...7 are kids #so you wont have space to be in ur own room let alone invite others. which tbh like ...being around a bunch of loud kids doesnt seem fun fo #any of my friends or me etc so i thought maybe i should arrange things so that we all go out together and if she shows up she shows up 🤷‍♀️ #but . im so. WHY DID I SAY THAT . i had to panic-call my research partner and ask him to get from oxf to where i live on the 23rd #and when he heard the explanation he like. the light in his voice disappeared 💀 but he potentially agreed so idk #THE ISSUE IS. 23rd im supposed to also have . a date #w this girl that i had a huge crush on when i was 15-16 (posted abt this b4 but id get shitty black coffee in the mornings just to spend a #few more minuted w her each day and she was the cleverest girl in school and she cared abt nothing but her academics but now shes very gay #scraggly homosexual etc etc shes cute) and YEAH IDK #like id have to go there on the date come back fast meet ppl POTENTIALLY (again under 5%) meet situationship girl #like is that even doable #but the thing is it would be so so so funny bc all of my friends dislike her sooo much #.........what if i invited the girl im supposed to have a date w over to hang out w us #god that would be so hilarious and chaotic . i wont do it tho im a mature person x #but it would be soooo funny #I HAVE AN ASSIGNMENT DUE TMRW 12:30PM IT IS 10:49PM RN I HAVENT STARTED IT bc i was rotting sadly in bed #popped a ritalin pill tho so here we go x #i have found myself in a state of such sheer agony and rage and sorrow and grief over this girl that atp i feel like #its just so entertaining . like i feel vaguely over it? ik nothing will come of it so its like just . have fun . vibe

[honeyvenommusic]

❗️NEWGLASSANIMALSGLASSANIMALSGLASSANIMALSGLASSANIMALSGLASSANIMALSGLASSAN-

#glass animals #honestly i wore out dreamland sm my brain took a lonnng break from expecting anything from them?? idk i’m just huh???? #like….. when i say wore out #i cannot describe how much i listened to it #i usually have some vague idea even if it’s a ridiculous number #like 52 times in a month for an album or something (has happened) #i cannot recall w this #gonna say bc 2020 & they were Literally the last band i saw live. next morning everyone found out about everything annd lockdown. no joke #so it was big dreamland time when it dropped and revisiting their past albums when i broke out of its spell lmao #(pretty sure before that like january was when i listened to déjà vu 100+ times in a row tho so oop. it was a tough day lol) #anyway seeing this aww man. i really have had this band with me for a long long time. 🥹 i remember hearing gooey on the radio one night #driving home from work late @ night in 2014. the drive was so short i couldn’t be arsed to fish out my ipod & plug it in #sometimes so just popped on a good station i had preset. started the car and heard this *voice* and i was like who???? #had to check the station bc it was an alt station and i thought i had it on another one which was fine i was just v confused #it was in the middle of the song & i was immediately anxious to know the name hoping i’d hear it & it wouldn't just flow into the next song #then the dj would pile the names together after x number of songs played bc i was tiired (but woulda stayed in the car ngl). got lucky & #ran inside to find it then yelled at my roommate the next day that she HAD to listen to it during a smoke session after work #(i was right & it blew her miiind) #god. what a fucking time. what a fucking band. idk what the disc horse is surrounding them now since they blew up via tiktok #i’m sure people are v quick to say they’re overrated bc of that but idk & i’m glad i don’t know. they’ll always be this #highly inventive incredible band i stumbled upon for the perfect night drive home after a long long shift #a band that came back from a Horrible accident that should have ended 1 of their lives & somehow didn’t & should have ended them #as a band (like still cannot believe Joe was drumming in 2020 & i saw it with my own eyes like how tf???!?) #a band deserving of all of its successes. glass animals forever

[aamezish]

everyone prioritizes their family and that means even extended chacha ke chacha fufa ke tau etc and i can't even prioritize my sagi one i hate myself

#and its not that they're bad or anything #but im such a people pleaser i feel validation from strangers is more important than family #its because maybe ive watched them too closely and nothing about them fascinates me anymore i know the pattern #and my fun is meeting new people cracking the code #but still #i hate that people will cut your calls leave your message unread kyunki aaj poora din bua mausi aaye the #wish i was that focused on my relatives #ill literally text call anyone even in a middle of a fucking apocalypse #idk yall should tell me if im doing something wrong do yall keep your phones away and forget to text your friends #but i can't focus one thing for too long i cannot physically see messages decking up and not reply #i hate this #do people simply not check. there phone as often or am i an addict #or have i still not learnt to be in the moment #and tomorrow night i leave for home and my friends have planned a meet up #now frn 1 comes to home for one month in her holidays so giving one day or even two days to friends doesn't matter #frn 2 lives in hometown so there's no problem but mind you if she comes she has to leave in 2 minutes because her mom calls every five #minutes just to get her back to home for nothing #frn 3 comes home same as me aka 4-5 days so giving 1 day to friends is parents saying tumhe hamse matlab nahi hai tyohaar mei bhi har baar #milne jaana hota hai #etc #but im home past 4 days ivd literally done nothing papa bhai se utni hi baat hui jitni phone par ho jaati hai #haan for mummy i spent time with her #but most of the time i was on tumblr or scrolling insta to kya hi matlab hua mere ghar aane ka #that means unhe bas meri physical presence chahiye #na ghar par bua aayi na mama na koi #lekin ab kal mujhe jaana hai to kal mama aa jaayenge #why are things this way

[vettelcore]

people with outdoor cats be like: yes my cat came back home half dead, caught hiv, is full of parasites and sometimes has gone missing for weeks but i don't care bc at least the cat is free and not locked inside like selfish people do!!!

#i cannot fucking stress this enough PLEASE do not let your cats roam outside freely if you care about them #if they're used to going outside leash them!!!! #the amount of cats we get at the clinic who come almost dead/with horrible wounds bc they're allowed to be outside is insane #not to mention how many run over cats i see where i live #they could get attacked by other animals too #like its just not worth it #we had to put down a cat today after the owners found her almost dead with an INSANE infection bc she had ruptured her intestines #her hip was shattered too #looked like probably some asshole kicked her #and the owners were like oh we had just buried one of our other cats the other day after she got attacked by another animal #and im just standing there like ?????? and that's normal to you?????? #oh but at least the cats can climb trees though 🤪 #remember the dude i talked about a while ago who brought his cat in honestly the worst condition I've ever seen? #covered in poop vomit piss and fuck knows what else? #that had a colony of cats all infected with FelV bc he refuses to vax them? #yeah this woman was a family member btw #thank FUCK he didn't come today because that would've been a shitshow #all things considered at least this woman seems to be... not absolutely fucking insane? i guess? #but anyway she kept saying how it was sudden! and how the cat was perfectly fine last night! #oh my gOD that cat had maggots eating her from the inside that doesn't happen overnight #cats are tough and will hide a lot of pain but can't you just tell the truth??? #you either didn't care enough to bring this poor baby earlier or you just noticed now what had happened to her

[riraro489]

They say that isolation is one of the worst forms of torture...

#THIS IS NOT VENT ART!!!!! this thought has just been in my head: #my story for pmd2 Darkrai is that after being attacked by a mob for accidentally causing nightmares Cresselia made him live in isolation #while she visited him from time to time Darkrai was slowly beginning to go crazy with only his thoughts to keep him company #when Cresselia abruptly stopped visiting he completely snapped. he couldn't stand the way he was living so he wanted to change it #originally he hated himself for being a monster but now he embraced that notion entirely #if he was going to be hated for simply existing then why should others be able to live peaceful and happy lives while he suffered alone? #it no longer mattered if he was a monster. Darkrai would destroy time itself and thrive in his world of darkness even if it hurt others. #anyway I just thought I could convey those feelings better if I drew this piece while tired :] #kind of glad to finally get my ideas for pmd2 Darkrai written even if its in the tags of one of my posts #if you read all of this ily /p and hope you enjoy your day or night <333 #darkrai #pmd2 #riraro's random things

[rexscanonwife]

I'm crying and throwing up and asking where my phone is

#jane journals #self insert talk #crush: 🗡 #UOOOOORRGGHGHHHH ITS SO JOVER #ive been talking to laura about it and reading up more about what happens and stuff with wyll and the story in general #and ofc i watched my friend play a bit last night who graciously went almost straight to wyll for me #AND FUCKING I DIDNT MENTION BEFORE #WHEN U FIRST INTERACT WITH HIM PROPERLY HES TEACHING A TIEFLING CHILD TO FIGHT #and hes soooooooo sweet about it 😭😭😭💖💖💖 #you guys know my weakness is kids and how characters interact with them and wyll canonically wants them one day #so you know IM FUCKED #and hes so!! UGH CUTE 💖💖💖💖 #hes always saying these poetic romantic things and he wants a proper old fashioned romance with the wooing and the courting #he calls his lover his LIGHT LIKE CMON MANNNN #IM TRYING TO LIVE #tbh the only thing stopping me aside from not having the game is deciding what species to be #my indecisive ass #thats another thing i was talking to laura about and she suggested making a backstory first/choosing a class and all that THEN deciding #im probably gonna go with my default which would be a rogue which is pretty atypical for my s/is but its what i lean toward in dnd #or idk maybe i SHOULD go more out of my comfort zone 🤔🤔 idk ill keep thinking about it #but for wyll's kiss animations WHEN THE PLAYER IS A HALFLING OR SMTH SHORT HE KNEELS DOWN TO KISS THEM UGGGHH 😫😫😫💖💘💖💘💖💘💖💘💖💘

[coffeewithcalypso]

4:46AM

I've done a lot of emotional labor tonight and I am tired.

A friend earlier this evening messaged me. We don't talk a lot other than when we see each other in person but sometimes he gets buzzed/drunk and will end up messaging me. Which is what he did tonight. It wasn't too bad, he was spiraling a little about something, I didn't ask. Mostly just wanted to talk.

Then right when I was falling asleep at 3AM my friend with the piece of shit abusive husband calls me which is usually a good way to ruin my night, though never as badly as hers has been. At least tonight she was calling because he decided to be an abusive piece of shit again and got arrested this time. But I did have to sit with her for almost two hours while she processed that. She also just got over covid. Or is supposedly over it. I swear if I get covid from this I'll be so pissed. I'm going see Janelle Monae next weekend. But at least he's hopefully out the picture since he was already on probation from the last time he was an abusive piece of shit.

No one is allowed to have a single feeling in my vicinity for the next 24 hours. I just can't do it

#i know I sound insensitive about my friend and her abusive situation #but she has ignored my advice from day one about him #but I'm who gets called any time day or night when he acts up #and she keeps going back #i understand the complexities of it #but its exhausting to watch #i told her once if she doesn't leave him I'll be testifying at her murder trial #she let that fucking man live in my house #something i still don't reallt forgive her for #i asked her why he had been arrested and she insisted he wasn't dangerous it was just a bipolar episode #i find out months later after they move she's always known he was dangerous #he tried to drown her once!!!

[girlwithfish]

im in a really irritable mood rn i dont know why. Lolol

#i had a good day but everything just feels off #🫡🫡🫡 #dont really want to talk to my family and i feel my mom is playing some passive aggressive shit ppssibly #idk its my adoption day today not rly a big deal but even my dad txted me to say happy family day to me but my mom didnt maybe shes salty #i wasnt home🥹🥹🥹😭 #Idk im jjst so tired #i wish i lived alone #And idk i slept really fkn ba dlast night idk #I am not comfortable or happy anywhere.

[maraeffect]

okay today was like the first time since surgery that i've been able to exist as a human outside my house!! and i had a great time even though i am PAYING FOR IT. HEAVILY 💀

#god my ribs are KILLING ME SLOWLY #anyway i had a good day 🥺🥺🥺 last night my partner and i woke up at the same time #bc we both had to pee. and i totally forgot but when we laid back down i told her ''i'm hungy..'' #bc it was like 3 am and i didnt wanna get up. so i just wanted to complain lol #but she woke me up to a big breakfast she ordered in like ''hey it made me sad that you were hungry jn the night- #so i got you and i a big breakfast 🥺👉👈💖'' and UGH it made my heart so happy #and then we chilled out before i decided i could handle leaving home and wanted to go to the mall #and i had a really good time existing in public!!! im getting a little depressed from being bed bound #i FINALLY got after laughter on vinyl after wanting it for like almost 5 years 😭😭😭 #and some cute stickers!!! anyway yeah i had a nice day w my baby and it made me happy 🥹💖 #as much as im hurting badly rn it was worth it for the lil date 💖💖💖 pain meds should help soon anyway #im just glad to have finally gotten out of the house #chatter #round 2 #also let me just say my previous thoracotomy did NOT prepare me for this one. #turns out the open version is VERY DIFFERENT. which i knew but god its so stark when youre living it #p sure by 2 weeks post op last time i was relatively fine!!!! almost back to normal #oh and uh #autumn

[sirpepperston]

every few years I'll look for a specific childhood home of mine on google maps and every time i find it i get hit with such a wonderful wave of nostalgia

#its still there too! its in such a weird location that i wouldnt have been surprised if it got bulldozed and built over #but :))) seeing it still there(at least as of last year) is so nice #i always forget the address only the cross streets and i have to bounce around street view trying to find it #and when i tell you. the feeling of turning streetview around to see the front of that house. wow #its this big duplex that we lived in for maybe a year or two when i was really little like maybe 4 or 5? #i remember the day we moved into that house so vividly too. that was nearly 20 years ago and i can pick out so many moments during that day #picking up rollie pollies with my aunt who was like 7 at the time. she had a clear plastic container with a yellow lid that she put them in #and me and my sister watching my dad pull the ramp down from the moving truck. i was fascinated by that #or when we pulled up to the house for the first time. it was so green. it mustve been the middle of spring when we moved #and it was spring in the early 2000s so it was this bright lush green. everything was so colorful #i remember looking up out of the moving truck and seeing big trees and grass everywhere on the property. and sunlight coming through #i have so many memories of that place. watching my dad teach my sister how to make scrambled eggs(she hates them now bc it was all we ate) #watching my dad and sister play on the playstation 2. playing mario 2(my first video game!!) on the computer my dad built #walking to the stores nearby all the time. i remember a specific time when my sister had this orange milkshake from carls jr #and she had an allergic reaction and thats how we learned she was allergic to oranges #i remember buying snacks with her and my dad at the huge convenience store nearby and then watching ren and stimpy all night #<- my dad is notorious for showing my sister and i stuff we should NOT have been watching. like taking us to see watchmen in theaters #OH or when a wasp got stuck in the room! and i screamed and hid under the blankets while my dad tried to hit it by #snapping his shirt at it. so my dad was shirtless and trying to attack a wasp. i did NOT get that trait from him #just. agh. i remember so much of my early childhood and how it all felt like magic. like every day was so so special #given how shit the last 15 years have been. im glad there were times before that where life was exciting just because i was alive #trying to get back to that feeling

[sodastarpop]

out of the four ripples on the page

only these two are worthy of the spotlight by that the other two a actual shit

also long eared ripple supremacy

dropping to my knees in sadness, but remembered my queen and the sad stopped

but during the process two of my good outline pens fucking died, so the sad kinda won this time :(

#queen ripple #ripple star queen #kirby art #kirby fanart #your honor she has big ears so please be a little more quiet as she is very sensitive to loud sounds #i have this comic idea for ripple that i REALLY REALLY LIKE #wonder if i will ever even start it #due dates stress me the fuck out #and im not even half way #well this might stay in the sketchbook if im not going through with it #anyways this is my cope art ladies and gentlemen neither both or inbetween #i was legit going insane #time was going to fast for my liking #having moments of realizing im actually alive was kinda funky #its cold but ive learned to deal with it #i like the cold #okay enough with me rambling :) #hope you have a good day and you drink water and bundle up good at night #or dont if its hot where you live #apricot soda art

[scuopsie]

Just rescued a cat that was trapped on the roof for 3 days 😪

#i cannot take credit for most if it tho... #gosh... i live in a 5 story apartment where theres no way a cat could get on the roof from outside #someome mustve left the doors open and the cat had gotten to the roof and then they closes the roof's door #apparently i was the only one who could hear her thru the vents for 2 days #we went looking last night but it was super dark and we couldnt find anything #but today the whinings started again and more incessant... #i went looking again and finally spotted her and managed to lure her into the staircase and close the roof“ #roof's door with boiled chicken #but she was so scared she wouldnt run downstairs like i expected her to #i left her some food and water but i was so worried bc she didnt have anywhere to pee and poo #even on the rooftop we dont have any garden or anything #so i waited for my neighbour across who has a cat to come home from work so we can figure something out together #she managed to gain her trust and scruff her and we jumped into the elevator #it was a 2 man job kdjdkdjd #but we finally managed to release her back into the world <3 #its so weird that even my neighbour hadn't heard the meows last night... #but im so relieved... #she was such a pro with the way she caught the cat... like damn #oh did i mention it was a calico?🥺 #anyway #rescue mission: successful ✅️

[1980ssunflower]

if anyone could keep me in their thoughts itd be appreciated

#todays been a hard day #and ive just received bad news now on top of it #it feels never ending man #anyways my childhood dog has a terrible heart condition and its possible she wont make it through the night #if she does my parents have decided to put her down since shed only live one more year tops if she makes it through tonight #and we dont want her to be in agony for the rest of the time she may have if she makes it #it makes me sad thinking abt it #thinking back to when i held her wrapped in a blanket on the car ride home when we first got her #today feels so hard #tape entry circa 1980 #vent

[junkiee]

Love when my neighbors threaten to shoot our animals :) perks of living in the boonies i guess :)

#they are fucking evil and psycho #one of our cats disappeared recently and im pretty certain they killed her. makes me want to cry and throw up thinking abt it #we have all of the cats put up inside permanently now which is what i always prefer anyway #but since its notmy house It wasn’t my choice b4 #funny how it just so happens we have a bunch of pets and animal luvrs living rite next door to ppl who admittedly HATE animals #like ysterday the crazy bitchtold went off on my aunt ranting about how she won’t stop her pos husband frm shooting the cats/dogs #and ya it’s legal to shoot guns whenever the fuck u want out here literally smtimes u hear shooting all day and into the night til 4am #crazy af i hate it #i want to kill & maim them so bad :))

[minimoefoe]

my mum said last night that the cat has some kind of bump on her head and I was like maybe its a tick and she was like yeah maybe but i caught her just now and she has some weird scab with pus in it on her forehead right up near her ear and it's kinda gross actually

#*mycats #cant really see much of anything there #other than theres a bump that i think is just a scab #and then there was a bunch of pus that was pretty grin #grim #i dabbed it with some paper towel a couple of times mostly pus came off on it #with a tiny bit of blood #its probs nothing crazy like she was probably just in a fight or caught her head on something when she was out an about and got a scratch #the pus does freak me out tho bc that feels like more than just a little scratch flr there to be pus there #idk #imma tell my mum when she gets home later and she what she aays #she probs wont be worried at all #hopefully she'll grab her when she can either today or tomorrow and have a proper look at it herself #bc im not confident in my description of whats really there #i just know - bunp that is probs a scab and some pus #the cats have vets in a couple of weeks anyways so itll get looked at then #but i dont want it to be a bad thing that just gets left to get worse for a couple of weeks #hipefully if we just dab it a bit with a wet cloth to just try and make sure its all clean then itll be fine #this cat is hard to catch tho #sometimes she sleeps in the living room all day/night #and sometimes we'll see her for ten minutes at a random time in the day and then not see her again for the next 18hrs #she mostly sleeps in the neighblur's garage or under another neighbours car #so like #i dont she goes far that often lmao #shes just quick and hard to catch if shes not in the mood #and im probs her least fave of the three of us lmao