#the dissonance is strong

[mueritos]

its crazy how coming into clinical social work, i really just thought I was up against systems and cycles of trauma....but it turns out i'm up against those two things AND other therapists. the amount of work spent correcting mistakes from other clinicians--whether with clients or during the classroom--is fucking crazy.

i totally get we're all on different journeys in terms of being clinicians. but it is insane finding out day after day of therapists and clinicians saying the worst things ever to clients. demeaning them, telling them "it's all in their head", the racism and the ableism and harm that is caused. like no fucking wonder people are afraid to seek therapy (on top of the accessibility issues). while i'm a little biased and think that at the very least clinical social work training focuses on viewing people within their environments (so not engaging in the medical/individualist models of practice that a lot of counseling programs focus on), that doesn't mean it gives every person the skills to be an effective therapist. i'm also not saying i'm the best clinician ever--I'm literally in training--but boy! it is jarring seeing how some of my peers interact in class and wondering...is that how you are with your clients??

my social work program at the very least also has a focus on anti-racism, but i know students from other programs and some of them don't even mention racism AT ALL and focus entirely on diagnosing people "correctly", or finding the perfect form of therapy to use on a client. but man, what none of these programs teach are basic life skills. wanting to be a clinician isn't enough, especially considering that an inhumane amount of people in my program are 1. so nervous about making mistakes that they lose scope of their practice 2. have so much internalized racism/white guilt to work thru 3. or they have absolutely no listening skills.

again, im not trying to make it seem like I am the number 1 clinician in the world ever. I don't even have a psych background or bachelor's in social work. my reasons for going into social work are quite selfish (I want a job that is very flexible, easily transferable, and can be done in different contexts), and the helping people part is just a plus. i'm just saying it's very jarring seeing other people in training and realizing they too are working with clients. i have conversation after conversation about these issues with other BIPOC/queer/marginalized clinicians, so I know i'm not the only person worried about some of the people that will be out of this program in a few years practicing on their own or with vulnerable populations.

#muerto talks #just rambling #maybe im just a hater virgo with a strong sense of justice #i am just forever perplexed #learning that some of my classmates believe that you can be racist to white people is crazy #learning that some of my classmates are rude and dismissive to BIPOC students but they work in BIPOC communities #learning that some of my classmates weaponize their mental illnesses as an excuse to act shitty to professors classmates or clients is craz #there are zionists??? trying to be social workers?????? #i literally have classes with zionists #some people r doing a whole ass career change because they had a spiritual calling to help people?? #again not saying im such a great clinician im in training just like the rest of my program #but you cannot like tell me to even try to be hopeful about some of the people who will be my collegues in a year #because i have no hope for them #and its going to take making serious mistakes for them to maybe snap out of it #and that fucking sucks #nothing in my body feels safe around those people #like idc maybe im an elitist with impossible standards #maybe im the one asking too much from these people..... #the cognitive dissonance is real in these people man

[lloydfrontera]

lloyd: i will do absolutely everything in my power to protect my new parents and give them a happy life, i will bring down a centuries old corrupt organization to make sure my new little brother isn't getting bullied anymore, i will risk my life so all my workers are safe and get to return home to their families and i will fight against heaven, hell and fate itself to keep my best friend alive and let him live a happy and long life at my side-

javier: you're a good person who cares about others and i trust you completely

lloyd: ok one you're cringe and two no i'm not take that back rn >:c

#i talk a lot <3 #tged #the greatest estate developer #lloyd frontera #sir. sir please. the cognitive dissonance. it's too strong. #ch 367 #i respect the commitment tho #and him making javier regret immediately being sappy with him.... same honestly akjshkjdfs

[californiasplit]

like listen i dont think russia needs any defending but its amazing to me how "all russians are evil genocide supporting warmongers" mentality so often coexists with "every representative on every political level in my country is actively supporting a genocide in palestine and overwhelmingly anyone speaking out against it is punished and blacklisted and arrested" like ????????????????????????????? are we not on the same page? that our political systems as a whole inherently support the murder and disenfranchisement and ethnic cleansing of vast swathes of population for a nations own political gain?? how is my uncle being pilled by russian propoganda any different than your uncle being pilled by the every single Palestinian is a terrorist and deserves to die narrative being pushed out??? is it not a curse that we must collectively organize and fight against ???

#speaking on this topic because i am in fact russian-ukranian sorry guys my aunt lives in a fucking warzone and half cousins are refugees #and no. i dont think russians as a whole need defending because their daddy government is doing ethic cleansing obviously. what i mean is #the crazy cognitive dissonance that allows us to completely lose sight of solidarity. something that actually would benefit every anti-war #and pro peace movement in the world. #are we not only as strong as our unwavering principles of peace? #i simply do not believe that let the citizens of a country experience pain and repression and isolation and laugh until they overthrow thei #government somehow is a rational approach to solving global issues. and i feel like this should be overwhelmingly evident to most people

[doomalade]

A fucking what?

Animation

Mishap

He recoiled, rubbed his cheek, there was an audible slap

What

Wha

Huh

I just what uh huh?

#rwde #the mental dissonance is strong #rwby #blake belladonna critical

[unfriendlyamazon]

i'm worried that i won't articulate this properly but as someone who's been in fandom since the early 2000s and knows people who were on usenet in the 90s and also a star trek fan so i get to see historical fanworks from the 70s...

the state of fandom has changed in relation to the state of the internet. it's hard not to look at numbers and metrics and data and feel some kind of way about it, but i think fandom is moving more towards a "content" output rather than an artistry coming from passion. fandom is by nature a DIY affair, usually done by people who love the source material but find something missing in it, whether it's character development, pairings they like, or scenarios they think would be fun. there have always been big name fans in these spaces, and people who are widely popular whether you like that or not, but i feel more and more fandom is losing its interactivity. i think it's how social media is training our brains. fandom is, ultimately, a lot of weirdos coming together because they love a thing. how they love that thing, how they choose to interact with it, it can not be for you or it can be something you love, but it's weird to exist in this place where commentary and ideas get minimal interaction even when they seem to be beloved by the fandom. it leads to artists and writers who are trying to game the algorithm, see what makes people tick, what will garner likes and reblogs and comments, producing "content", and i think a lot of pressure suddenly gets put on creators to make the right thing, or the thing you like, when ultimately they're nerds on the other side of a computer screen too.

#i feel like this had a strong start and no finish #i think social media has removed a lot of community aspects for me for fandom #it feels much harder to follow and hold onto the people and things you like #tumblr's pretty good but it still feels dissonant to me #idk maybe i'm talking out of my ass feel free to respond

[muppet-on-a-spit]

The quarter rest is my best friend. I see him on the sheet music and I smile fondly and caress his cheek

#quarter rest is a he. the half note is a she. the double eighth note is non-binary #i don't have strong opinions on the genders of other music notations #anyway i miss choir so so much. i miss reading music :( i miss harmonic dissonance #gray speaks #music

[scarefox]

Zouey is so complicated

... does he have more than one painting of him? Since the scene in ep14 happened before the scene in ep1...

#I need a psychoanalysis of him #i try to puzzle it together myself but yea he's complicated #the cognitive dissonance is strong in this one #playboyy the series #ep1 #ep14 #rewatch #playboyy #zouey being sus

[missingn000]

teen gojo by mappa is exactly how I envisioned tpg gojo :D

RIGHTTTT ME TOO 😭 he’s so precious oh my god no wonder tpg toji adopted on sight (okay, maybe it took him a few months.) toji’s anime voice is so deep though i always pictured him with like. overgrown delinquent slang

#my cognitive dissonance with canon vs tpg toji is so strong like tf you mean this man isnt gojo and maki’s adoptive dad #guys. guys. Guys i can fix him #gojo is so adorable my GOD i want to hug him. he looks like he’s out to cause every problem ever completely on purpose. Good for him #BABYYYYYYY MY BABY BOY #holding him gently #tpg

[thepetesimp]

OK, I'm not one to use phrases like "You're not a true fan of X ship/character if you believe this" etc to invalidate their perspective, but if you say you love VP but also hate Build, then you're not actually a VP fan I'm sorry. I'm gatekeeping my beautiful son from these people because they truly don't deserve him.

#Imagine loving a ship but hating the actor who played one of the characters of said ship #does not compute #how can you say you love Pete but hate Build when one of the main reasons VP *works* is because of Build's stellar acting? #like come on be serious for 2 seconds pls #kinnporche the series #pete phongsakorn saengtham #vegaspete #build jakapan puttha #cognitive dissonance be strong with some people

[batbusiness-schooldropout]

Tim: My worst enemy, card games.

Steph: you collect playing cards

Tim: and?

Jason: you play solitaire religiously

Tim: are you guys going to get to the point or not

#batfam #tim drake #red robin #spoiler #jason todd #red hood #the cognitive dissonance #is strong with this one #just siblings being siblings

[ozymandiasdirge]

sometimes i genuinely wonder if sengoku’s character was originally supposed to go in another direction than he ended up going because the man genuinely feels like a completely different person pre and post timeskip in a way that feels almost beyond the reach of like any kind of character development

#one piece #another big post to make once i’m caught up by like??? #i’m sorry you expect me to believe the man who okay’ed what happened to fleavance and ohara and marineford….was rosinante’s father…… #i know the cognitive dissonance of those in power is strong but????? hello????

[supernutcollectionuniverse]

I wanna watch you be raped and skinned alive

A reasonable response from the supporter of a state that’s totally not actively committing genocide.

#anon hate #free palestine 🇵🇸 #fuck israel #the cognitive dissonance is strong

[jojolimons]

that pokemon rejuvenation personality quiz really is accurate, got npcs using my they/them pronouns even tho i chose the boy option

#limon talks #nah im not saying im being misgendered #im assuming either its a bug or just written that way as a catch all #so far first impressions about 10 minutes in: funnily edgy #ik ppl want more serious plots but seeing characters threaten lives with pokemon kinda veers into dorkly territory. sorry. #also the prologue with the zorua and the pangoro just kinda screams 'cry over how angsty and tragic this is' #i guess the context of it being a bedtime story creates some dissonance #like bedtime stories are written as simple morals to read to children #didnt really get a moral out of it beyond maybe 'don't play *mean* pranks on your friends' #and ostensibly the point is to draw a clear parallel between maria and her family and pangoro and zorua #and not to make sense as a bedtime story first #but idk maybe the story could've been introduced in a different manner then #like at her school or smth #and then she comes home and gets sacrificed #dunno how id go about making pokemon convincingly intimidating #inherent limitation of the format i guess #then again gothitelle is not a strong start in terms of scary pokemon #its a little too goofy looking #maybe an alakazam? not very original but i think its a little less goofy

[sonic-adventure-3]

is there any sonic music that’s particularly garage-y? the closest i can think of is faraway avalon, but the strings….

#i love shlocky garage shit #i fucking love those shrill dissonant squeak things i forget what they are #i have a strong desire to hear sonic music in every genre i like #music posting #rambles

[vol-au-vending-machine]

Larys resting his face on his hands, the shy smiles, putting his hands either side of him on the sofa and rounding his shoulders.... he has the posture of a shy teenage girl and that is fabulous

#larys strong #not to mention the flower sniffing #it really creates a dissonance with his actions and words #petition for larys strong to make himself a daisy chain #i love my uwu psychopath #hotd #house of the dragon

[a-deadly-serenade]

oh my god i gotta tell yall something; theres this one guy that followed me a few years back bcuz he saw me in my selene cosplay and thought something was gonna happen. but regardless, he is a Film Guy™️ and posts a lot of reviews of movies he's watched which, whatever. p harmless sometimes even a little fun. tell me why this man gave a raving review of WONKA> that garbage new remake that doesnt even market itself as a musical, the one where hugh grant straight up admitted he only took part for the money...... and said that The Boy and the Heron was TRASH??? and he puts it on his top 10 WORST list and wonka in his BEST ? ooohhh it still makes me mad just thinking about it

#'mahito was such a bad protagonist. it doesnt make sense.. this is the movie the big man is going out on?' #gee i wonder what the story having do to with a young boy losing his mother and going on an adventure to find closure with her #and learning to accept his New Mother #is about #insane how this fool has branded himself as some sort of Film Guy and yet. #the dissonance... she is strong with this one