#the first one is buck introducing carla to eddie

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Resource for Important Buck & Eddie Episodes:

Hello friends! Tis I, back with another compilation. This time I was asked by a lovely follower if there was a list of important Buddie episodes, so I decided to make one because I’m not sure if there are. I also had another follower ask me if I could highlight pro Buddie writers & directors, which I’ve also done. Blue is pro Buddie writers & red is pro Buddie directors. When I say “Pro Buddie”, I just mean that some of their directions can be seen as them angling the romantic route. Again these are all just my own opinions based off what we’ve seen come to play on the show. It just helps you distinguish who can be seen as writing these guys a little bit more than platonic, and who doesn’t. Because this is very lengthy, I have included it all under the cut. I hope you guys enjoy!!

•2.01-“Under Pressure” written by Tim Minear & Brad Falchuk // Directed by Gwyneth Horder-Payton

Need I say more??? Eddie introduced through Buck’s eyes WHILE HE IS PUTTING ON A SHIRT. They have some heated words in the gym while they’re trying to get a rise out of each other. The episode ends with Eddie complimenting Buck and him blushing like a little boy with a crush. SO CUTE! The start of their partnership.

• 2.02-“7.1” // Written by Zachary Reiter // Directed by Bradley Buecker

Eddie is hesitant to tell Buck he has a son for some reason (totally not because he’s worried about what this new crush may think) and to his surprise, Buck is completely delighted. He spends the whole episode comforting Eddie about the safety of his son. Buck literally imprinted on the Diaz boys in this episode.

• 2.03-“Help Is Not Coming” // Written by Zachary Reiter & Tim Minear // Directed by Bradley Buecker

Buck and Eddie working seamlessly during the quake. The most important part of this episode is Buck taking Eddie to pick up his son. It’s so wholesome and the whole moment in which he’s watching Eddie and Christopher reunite is heartwarming. Literally the beginning of the Buckley-Diaz family trio we all know and love.

• 2.04-“Stuck” // Written by John J Gray // Directed by Sarah Boyd

Eddie is struggling with child care because his Abuela ends up in the hospital after watching Chris. What does Buck do?!?! He tells Bobby ahead of time that they’ll be bringing Chris to the fire station. That little cute moment of Chris sliding down the pole with Buck and Eddie helping is so precious. Then he introduces Eddie to Carla because he wanted to help him. Like are you kidding me?!?!! I love this episode so much, especially when you consider how flirty they were throughout it.

• 2.10-“Merry Ex-Mas” // Written by Christopher Monfette // Directed by Brad Buecker

So much goodness in this episode! We get a glimpse of jealous Buck when he finds out Shannon is back and *gasp* is sleeping with her estranged husband. We have that cute Buckley-Diaz family moment with the Christmas elf mistaking them as a family and Buck being all adorable and not correcting her. We get Eddie offering up his marital problems as if he has to explain himself to Buck lol. Sooo much goodness in this episode.

• 2.13-“Fight or Flight” // Written by Kristen Reidel // Directed by Millicent Shelton

I’m only including this for the sole purpose of when Buck was in hospital jail and distraught because his sister was missing, they had Eddie be the one to come in and talk to him. This was like the first real time we saw Eddie be Buck’s person for any and all times he’s needed someone to lean on. I love their moment together in the hospital.

• 2.18-"This Life We Choose" // Written by Tim Minear // Directed by Brad Buecker

Not a hugely important Buddie episode but like Eddie just lost his wife and then has to witness his partner stuck under a whole firetruck. He looked like he wanted to cry so bad. And the fact that a trained medic who could have helped them lift the truck off Buck, sat there and held Buck's hand, providing him comfort was just everything. Don't even talk about how when Bobby comes back and they're all talking about how everything is back to normal, Eddie looks sad when he says, "Almost." THEN THE FIRST EVER BUDDIE HUG!! Buck was in so much pain, still recovering but he could NOT miss Eddie's little ceremony and it was just so freakin sweet I cannot.

• 3.01-"Kids Today" // Written by Kristen Reidel // Directed by Jennifer Lynch

THE INTIMATE BUDDIE HUG!!! Chris making Buck a card while Eddie watches fondly. Then Eddie takes Christopher to Buck’s house to help him get out of his depressive funk. Peak wholesome Buck and Chris scenes that eventually lead to one of the best story arcs of the show!!

• 3.02-"Sink of Swim" // Written by Juan Carlos Coto (JCC) // Directed by Brad Buecker

Buck and Christopher in the aftermath of the tsunami. Eddie thinking they’re ok the entire time. Buck acting like a whole ass parent and jumping into the water to search for Chris. Ahhh I love this episode!!

• 3.03-"The Searchers" // Written by David Fury // Directed by Chad Lowe

Buck searching for Christopher the entire episode. Him crying while trying to tell Eddie he lost Chris. Eddie’s lone tear at the thought of his son being gone. The Christopher and Eddie reunion while Buck crashes. THE ENDING WHERE THEY COME HOME TO BUCK!! “Buck, there’s nobody in this world I trust with my son more, than you.” 🥺

• 3.05-"Rage" // Written by Lyndsey Beaulieu // Directed by Jann Turner

All I’m saying is divorce at the grocery store. “No but he filed a stupid lawsuit and now I can’t even talk to you because of it. You know how much Christopher misses you?! How could you, you’re not around.” LITERALLY HOW IS THIS REAL?!?

• 3.06-"Monsters" // Written by Christopher Monfette // Directed by Tina Mabry

The make up after the divorce. I loved this so much. Their little hug in the end where Buck just wanted to hold onto him a little longer but Eddie was in so much pain.

• 3.09-"Fallout" // Written by JCC // Directed by Marcus Stokes

THE KITCHEN SCENE™️

• 3.10-"Christmas Spirit" // Written by Andrew Meyers // Directed by Alonso Alvarez-Barreda

So many Buckley-Diaz family feels with this one. Buck making gingerbread houses with the boys while Eddie looks in like a lovesick fool. Buck helping his boys be together for Christmas!! Then, them opening presents with their son 🥹

• 3.11-"Seize The Day" // Written by Lyndsey Beaulieu // Directed by Sarah Boyd

“This is Eddie’s house. I’m not really a guest.” NO he’s not because he lives there, duh. I mean who even?!? They’re so married it’s not even funny.

• 3.12-"Fools" // Written by Andrew Meyers // Directed by David Grossman

Buck helping Eddie think of new ways in which Christopher can enjoy the things he wants to. The little family skateboarding scene in the end 🥹

• 3.15-"Eddie Begins" // Written by Robert M. Williams, Jr. & Christopher Monfette // Directed by Robert M. Williams, Jr.

This episode is literal gold. Just everything about it is so wonderfully done. What platonic best friend wouldn’t dig through 30 feet of wet earth while screaming at the top of their lungs for their best friend who’s been buried?!?! Totally platonic behavior right there 👀

• 3.18-"What's Next?" // Written by JCC & Kristen Reidel // Directed by Jennifer Lynch

Buck being a concerned parent over sending Christopher to camp!! I love the little glimpses we get of them coparenting. Jealous Eddie my absolute beloved. No seriously, just an hour of Eddie being so petty and jealous while worrying over his dumb partner. Then, the party after where they take cute pictures and enjoy themselves!!

• 4.03-"Future Tense" // Written by Andrew Meyers // Directed by Marita Grabiak

The entire Buckley-Diaz family scene at the Diaz residence?!? Buck and Eddie acting like coparents while Chris is his adorable self. One of the first episodes in which you really see their coparenting dynamic and it’s wonderful.

• 4.04-"9-1-1, What's Your Grievance?" // Written by Nadia Abass-Madden // Directed by Brenna Malloy

Eddie being the one there for Buck when he’s dealing with the aftermath of the horrible family dinner with his parents. The entire scene where Eddie is comforting him at the station gym and looking at Buck with such fondness will never not be old.

• 4.05-"Buck Begins" // Written by JCC // Directed by Jann Turner

Literally love Eddie in this episode. I know people say he was barely in it, but he was in it in such a profound way. Him reassuring Buck he’s not defective and that it’s not his fault he couldn’t save his brother. Being the first one to grab the line and help Buck save the guy. The whole “No, I know you did”. AHHH SUCH A FOND FOOL IN LOVE!!

• 4.08-"Breaking Point" // Written by Bob Goodman // Directed by David Grossman

Once again, coparenting at its finest. Christopher calling an actual Uber to run away from his dad, to his other dad!!!! Screamingggg!!! And Eddie immediately asking Buck for help when he can’t find him 🥺

• 4.12-"Treasure Hunt" // Written by Bob Goodman // Directed by David Grossman

Some good, peak jealous Eddie in this one. I love how he used his pretty face into convincing Buck to let him team up with him and the reporter. He was also jealous and we love when Eddie’s jealous.

• 4.13-"Suspicion" // Written by Lyndsey Beaulieu & Andrew Meyers // Directed by Brenna Malloy

This will forever be one of my all time favorite, and most iconic Buddie episodes. The shooting scene™️ I can go on and on about the brilliance of this scene. I mean choices were made and I love every single one of them.

• 4.14-"Survivors" // Written by Kristen Reidel // Directed by Robert M. Williams, Jr.

Buck telling Chris about his father!! Buck breaking down in front of Chris!!! Buck staying and watching after Chris!!! Eddie waking up and asking for Buck!!!! THE WILL REVEAL!!! “Because, Evan”!!!! SO MUCH GOODNESS!!!

• 5.01-"Panic" // Written by Tim Minear & JCC // Directed by Brad Buecker

I’m including this because it’s very important to Buddie’s progression. We have them heavily staring at each other like they wanna jump each others bones in the station. Then Eddie has an actual panic attack because of the idea of a ready made family with his girlfriend. Then Buck being a concerned partner and inquiring why Eddie was in the hospital!!! So much goodness.

• 5.02-"Desperate Times" // Written by Lyndsey Beaulieu & Andrew Meyers // Directed by Brad Buecker

Buck basically telling Eddie to break up with his girlfriend by using himself as a metaphor. Mhmmm sure. And then the whole Buck and Chris hug is so precious to me!! I just love it so much.

• 5.03-"Desperate Measure" // Written by Kristen Reidel // Directed by Ben Hernandez Bray

Eddie literally telling Buck he’s gonna go break up with Ana will never not be iconic. And then him telling Ana to go home just makes it more iconic.

• 5.04-"Home and Away" // Written by Bob Goodman // Directed by Brenna Malloy

Eddie being the one who was there for Buck, again, when he needed someone, is everything especially considering Buck had a whole ass girlfriend at this time. Eddie confirming that he knows Buck by telling him he’s the guy who likes to fix things is such married behavior. And the whole “Ice goes on the eye bud” AHHH so much affection in those words.

• 5.06-"Brawl in Cell Block 9-1-1" // Written by Andrew Meyers // Directed by Paula Hunziker

Buck and Eddie literally taken hostage together!!!! The captor immediately going after their Achilles heel and threatening their son. Buck becoming a protective papa bear and getting hit with the back of the gun!! Pretty boy and the kid!!! Buck screaming and running after Eddie because he thought he got shot again!! Brilliance. Andrew always has our back!!

• 5.10-"Wrapped in Red" // Written by Lyndsey Beaulieu & Nadia Abass-Madden // Directed by Brenna Malloy

Eddie struggling with Christopher’s behavior and once again confiding in Buck. Because Buck is his person and he tells him everything, especially when it comes to Chris. Then the ending where Eddie tells them he’s leaving and Buck looks heartbroken!!! Oh the angst.

• 5.11-"Outside Looking In" // Written by Bob Goodman // Directed by Shauna Duggins

The Buckley Diaz family dinner in which Eddie may or may not have positioned his husband’s girlfriend’s food lol. He was so petty I can’t. The kitchen conversation between the two of them where Buck tells Eddie he doesn’t have to pretend with him. Don’t even get me started about the ending scene where Eddie comes, sees Buck and immediately smiles because he’s happy. But then leaves because he doesn’t want to damper Buck’s happiness.

• 5.13-"Fear-o-Phobia" // Written by Andrew Meyers & JCC // Directed by Marcus Stokes

Literally BUCK BROKE DOWN THE DOOR TO GET TO EDDIE!! Because Christopher called him instead of 911 and Buck immediately dropped what he was doing and ran to his boys. I will never get over Eddie allowing Buck to see him at his most vulnerable because that really is a sign of pure unconditional love and trust.

• 5.14-"Dumb Luck" // Written by Taylor Wong // Directed by John J Gray

Buck being Christopher’s and Eddie’s backbone through Eddie’s recovery with his ptsd!!! Coloring with Christopher while Eddie’s at therapy is such a dad thing. The whole “I misunderstood the assignment” thing with his drawn heart. Ahhhh chewing glass. Then the equine therapy family outing. Like they’re a whole ass family.

• 5.16-"May Day" // Written & Directed by JCC

Just Buck and Eddie being partners again as if no time has passed. Eddie seamlessly working beside Buck like he’s meant to be there. Them helping save Bobby is just everything and more. And the scene where Buck chose to stand by Eddie’s side while his girlfriend and the woman he cheated on her with have a talk. Not suspicious or weird at all.

• 5.18-"Starting Over" // Written & Directed by Kristen Reidel

Buck helping Eddie fix up the holes in his walls because he’s the guy who likes to fix things. Eddie helping him out in return with his relationship troubles because at the end of the day, those two always have each others back.

• 6.01-"Let The Games Begin" // Written by Andrew Meyers // Directed by Jann Turner

THE BUCKLEY DIAZ FAMILY DINNER SCENE!!! THE COUCH THEORY!!! SO MUCH FORESHADOWING!! I love this episode so much!!

• 6.10-"In A Flash" // Written by JCC // Directed by Brad Buecker

No thoughts, just Buck getting struck by lightning and Eddie screaming his name 5 times, while running up the ladder to get to him. Let’s also remember that Eddie had also been thrown off the ladder but didn’t hesitate to go after his partner and then tried to PULL HIM UP TO HIM 🥺 Also Eddie calling Buck a cowboy before the lightning hit is so funny because the man was flirting!!!

• 6.11-"In Another Life" // Written by Lyndsey Beaulieu // Directed by Joaquín Sedillo & Jann Turner

Eddie being the one to eventually get Buck’s heart to start again is some soulmate type shit. The iconic “DO MORE” while the doctors are wheeling Buck into the operating room. Let’s not forget Eddie grieving like an actual widow with his all black attire, grown facial hair and the tears. Then smuggling Christopher in to see his other parent and not being able to look at Buck is heartbreaking. His immediate happiness and awkward flirting once Buck is back is typical Eddie being a gay disaster but we love him.

• 6.12-"Recovery" // Written by Andrew Meyers // Directed by John J Gray

Buck going to his safe place which happens to be Eddie’s house to escape all his guests!!! Falling asleep immediately once he gets settled in on Eddie’s COUCH!!! Then the talk about the shooting and Buck being so honest with only Eddie. I mean come onnn.

• 6.13-"Mixed Feelings" // Written by Stacey Rose // Directed by Jihane Mrad Balaa

The Buckley Diaz family scene where they’re helping Chris with his homework is soooo sweet. And the fucking sexy poker date game, whatever you wanna call it. They looked so hot and what for huh?!? Eddie looked like he wanted to jump Buck’s bones the entire night. And then finally the ending scene with Buck and Chris being a literal father and son while they baked cookies!! I mean it’s all there in front of us.

These are the episodes we have aired so far. But I will include the remaining episodes of season 6 with the writers and directors and let you all decide for yourself whether or not those episodes will be good for us in terms of Buddie!

• 6.15-“Death and Taxes” // Written by Taylor Wong // Directed by Greg Sirota

• 6.16-“Lost and Found” // Written by Lyndsey Beaulieu // Directed by Brenna Malloy

• 6.17-“Love Is In The Air” // Written & Directed by JCC

• 6.18-“Pay It Forward” // Written by Andrew Meyers & Nicole Barraza Keim // Directed by Brad Buecker

#buddie #evan buckley #eddie diaz #christopher diaz #911 on fox #911 meta #buddie meta #buddie resources #911 resources #911 episode guide #i’m back with another deep dive #will I ever learn?!? no #I wanted to include a gif for every episode BUT TUMBLR DID NOT ALLOW ME #also I hope I didn’t forget any episodes but these I feel like are the most pivotal #long post

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Okay, this is kind of long, but just hear me out:

I keep seeing people say Eddie saying he ‘moves too fast’ seems out of character, but I don’t think I agree.

For one, he proposed to Shanon after she got pregnant, and when she came back in his life he immediately started sleeping with her and immediately moved to re-propose when he thought she was pregnant again.

With Ana, he did take things slower at first, but he did introduce her to Chris pretty quickly (at least I think so). Though, I will admit he didn’t introduce her without thinking about it because he did go to Bobby and Athena for advice. However, after he introduced Ana to Chris, they seemed to get a lot more serious fairly quickly. They hadn’t even said ‘I love you’ before Ana was stepping into this sort of ‘motherly’ role. After all, she was over at Eddie’s house cooking meals (ex: the dinner with/ Carla) and she looked after Chris for days during the blackout, when Abuela or Pepa could have helped out. Eddie described it as a “ready-made family”, which for me translates to ‘things went too fast and got way too serious before I knew it’. When he realized just how serious things were getting, he started panicking. She was enveloped enough in their life that Chris thought they would get married someday. And when the reality caught up to him that he was building this family unit with a woman he didn’t love, couldn’t love, it scared him and he broke it off.

Then he rushed things with M*risol and he freaked out again. The whole (admittedly stupid) nun storyline was there to show us that Eddie didn’t know anything about this woman (and that he has catholic guilt), yet he asked her to move in before he even said I love you. Why? Well, it goes back to Eddie’s age-old enemy: obligation.

For one, he feels obligated to have this permanent mother figure in Christopher’s life (and someone on here made a great post about how Eddie’s decision to ask M*risol to move in tied back to Chris’s storyline in 7x01 which I agree with with 100%). I also know that Eddie has never had a healthy romantic relationship in his life. He has never gotten with a woman without something pushing him to do it. With Shannon, it was a teen pregnancy and the church. With Ana, it was his (well-meaning) friends who pushed him to move on from Shannon. With M*risol, it was Pepa (with good intentions) who pushed him to start dating again, otherwise he might end up alone.

Marrying someone is something one does because one loves someone. Eddie proposed because he was afraid of what the church would think. Letting someone step into a mother-like role in a child’s life is something one does when one loves someone. Eddie did it because he was afraid he and Christopher were never going to be able to move on from Shannon. One asks someone to move in because they love them. Eddie did it because he was scared of having someone else walk out of his and Chris’s life.

Eddie has never followed his heart when it comes to his relationships with women. He has never dated someone casually before. He always tries to commit way before his heart is in it. He goes through these really long stints of being single, followed by relationships that do, admittedly, move really fast. He thinks he’s following his gut, but in truth, he’s following his misguided sense of duty.

The only time Eddie has made a serious commitment that wasn’t born out of obligation, was when he wrote Buck into his will. No one told him to do that. He did that because he wanted the best for Chris, sure, but more so because Eddie doesn’t trust anyone as much as he trusts Buck. And he did that knowing that his parents would disapprove. He did it despite his obligations to his blood family. Eddie followed his heart and tied himself and his son to Buck for the rest of their lives. (And notice how Buck has been a borderline co-parent to Chris for years, and that has never freaked Eddie out before)

So, yeah, I think he does move too fast in his relationships with women because he always takes serious steps before he develops serious feelings for these women. And he probably knows, deep down, that he’ll never be able to develop serious, romantic feelings for women. This is why he jumps into the deep end, because if he doesn’t, then he’ll never get there.

He has wants. He’s just not ready to acknowledge them yet. So, for now, he’ll just keep on doing what he feels he’s obligated to do.

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Buck & Eddie: Chris was looking for his dad.

In season 6, both Chris and Denny were looking for their dads.

Full Disclosure: Before I delve into this parallel, I have to admit that I ABSOLUTELY LOATHED the way the Hen, Karen, Denny and Nathaniel storyline was handled and I mentioned it several times in my Season 6 -Constructive Criticisms posts (main one about stereotypes linked here). I don't believe the show did a good job of capturing most of the things they attempted to illustrate for the audience throughout the season but it's over now and there's nothing that can be done about it. Thankfully, TM is back as the ONLY SHOWRUNNER FOR SEASON 7 so he can fix the mess that was made by KR for seasons 5 & 6.

Now back to our regularly scheduled programming...

Over the seasons, I've found many instances where Buddie and Henren were paralleled and so were their sons, Chris and Denny. They're friends and they have been for years just like Eddie and Karen (post linked here) but they're barely shown together anymore. Was it on purpose, maybe but they along with Harry were the youngest of the 118's children until Jee-Yun was born in season 4.

IIRC, the last time Chris and Denny were shown talking to each other was in 5x10 when Hen arrived with Denny and he ran over to talk to Chris.

In season 6, they weren't shown together at all but their lives were paralleled A LOT with regards to their dads!

Reminder, Eddie calls himself Chris' father when he talks to Buck about Chris (post linked here). Even though I completed a post about the way Chris was looking for Buck in 6x11 during Buck's coma dream (linked here), I didn't notice the parallels between Chris and Denny that I'm including in this post until recently but they've been there hiding in plain sight. I think I missed them before because their scenes happened in different episodes starting in 6A and they continued through 6B.

In 6x9, Denny went off on his bike looking for his dad but he didn't tell Hen or Karen where he was going. When he arrived and Nathaniel opened the door, Denny introduced himself and said, "I think you're my dad."

Reminder, for his birthday, he asked Hen and Karen if they had any information about his birth parents and they gave him a folder. Later in the episode, he overheard Hen talking to Chimney on the phone after Eddie and Buck dropped off their four-way call and he started looking for him.

Fast forward to 6x11 and Chris was looking for his "dad" (Buck), not his father (Eddie) in Buck's coma dream. He asked Buck, "Can you help me find my dad?" but Buck told him he wasn't real which means he didn't believe Chris is already his son too even though he's been coparenting him with Eddie for six years.

Reminder, Chris already knew where Eddie was but he asked Buck to help him find his dad because Chris is the son Buck's been searching for since 3x1 - 3x3.

Both Buck and Nathaniel were in the hospital in season 6 and Chris and Denny were both upset by it. In 6x11, Chris insisted Carla take him to the hospital so he could see Buck and in 6x13, Denny and Nathaniel were in a car accident but Hen and Karen didn't know Denny had been spending time with him. Denny got upset and stopped talking to Hen and Karen because he thought they didn't care about the fact that Nathaniel might die.

In 6x10 Buck did die but Nathaniel didn't in 6x13. Chris asked Buck to come back and he did but Hen and Karen went to see Nathaniel in the hospital after Toni had a conversation with them.

The scenes above are similar for two reasons. First, they both happened in 6x13 and second both Denny and Chris were spending time ALONE with their dads. The difference is Eddie KNEW Chris was with Buck and I always wondered why he just dropped Chris off and dipped so they could bake cookies for Chris' whole class (post linked here) but it wasn't the first time he did it (and it won't be the last). The first time was in 3x1 before the Tsunami.

In the scenes below, Chris asked Buck, "Can you help me find my dad?" but after Denny knocked on Nathaniel's door and he opened it, Denny said, "I think you're my dad."

Why is this important?

It's important because Chris has always considered Buck to be his second dad/parent while Denny was looking for his dad. Buck is the one who hasn't realized he already has a son even though Nathaniel did. Reminder, Eva told Nathaniel about Denny and she showed up with him in 2x5 even though she lied to Hen and said she didn't know who his father was.

Also, Nathaniel made an agreement with Hen and Karen that he would follow their lead. He broke the agreement, they didn't.

Eddie put Buck in his will and named him to be Chris' legal guardian but he waited a whole year to tell him about it. One major difference between Buck and Nathaniel is Buck WAS ALREADY COPARENTING CHRIS WITH EDDIE! But Nathaniel was not in the picture and he hid the relationship he wanted to have with his son from Denny's mothers.

Let's be real for a minute because KR did a horrible job of making sure these parallels got recognized and it might have something to do with the fact that there was so much BS included in season 6 that it made everything EXTRA messy. From the sperm donor storyline; to interim captain to Buck wanting to be happy, Hen working towards completing medical school, AA sponsors that were created out of thin air, dating storylines that came out of nowhere, characters acting out of character... just everything overlapped and it was too difficult to determine what they were trying to do.

Will things finally be better in season 7? I hope so but only time will tell.

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I think a lot about every time 911 shows us Eddie understanding a little more about Buck in real time... 

(after cut because this got long but bare with me)

Like, the first season should be the most obvious, with the earthquake eps and the next one showing Eddie’s surprise/reaction to Buck’s immediate unconditional support when it comes to Christopher. You can literally see something click for him in Stuck, first when Buck clears Chris spending the day with them with Bobby, then when he introduces Carla to them. 

But then you have new and interesting glimpses at moments when Eddie found another piece of Buck’s puzzle. In Kids Today, for example, we see that Eddie’s approach to Buck’s “sulking” is rather closed off, almost cold, and it’s one of the very first time we hear him mention his father’s toxic masculinity preachings... but when Hen points out that Buck doesn’t have much outside of work, you can literally SEE the second it clicks in for Eddie. Not that Buck doesn’t have anyone, but that he doesn’t know he does. That he doesn’t understand. Which is why he brings Christopher over. Not to teach a lesson, but to show him he’s wrong and he has people who love him regardless.

While the whole lawsuit arc was probably illuminating, for me the real highlight when it comes to Eddie understanding Buck a little bit better is in the famous kitchen scene. Before they get all flirty with the sexual tension... we see Buck ask if maybe Eddie is still angry at him, if maybe Eddie wanted to fight/hurt him, and while Eddie pokes fun of Buck making this about himself, I think it’s a very big moment when he realizes how deep the self-loathing runs, that Buck cannot just accept the fact that he was forgiven, that he still things that Eddie wanted to/would under any circumstances hurt him. So he makes a point to say “I wouldn’t do that”, matter of factly (even if he later has to sidestep it with a joke because this is pre-therapy Eddie after all). 

Which of course later leads to The One That Got Away and Buck’s traumas shining through his relationship with Red and you can see how adamant Eddie is that no, Buck is not being left behind and no he isn’t losing the 118 family, and he’s annoyed when the others aren’t as quick to reassure him. But this is all part of Eddie-understanding-Buck-arc in s3 (remember the post-embolism thing i mentioned above). Which, of course, later becomes a punch in What’s Next? when Abby is back and Eddie sees real time one of the people who’ve filled Buck with abandonment and scars. Buck who, at this point, fyi, Eddie has already chosen as the person he trusts most to look after his son in case he dies.

Anyway, s4 is short but there’s treasures like What’s Your Grievance and Buck Begins, in which Eddie very clearly sees the roots of Buck’s pain and is already quick to validate his feelings and offer him a shoulder and space to vent. This Eddie is far more prepared than his counterpart at the beginning of s3 to see and understand Buck and offer his support openly. Which is what leads to the shooting and, more importantly, Buck once again acting like he’s expendable. And, because Eddie’s had this whole journey so far, he’s at a place where he can see better than the other characters that Buck doesn’t think himself invincible, he thinks himself disposable. But you can see the confusion in his face when Buck says it the first time, the moment —again— when he processes this new and painful information about his best friend. And he, once again, takes action with words of affirmation to show Buck that, again, he’s wrong. 

Now, by s5 Buck and Eddie know each other pretty well so there’s fewer surprises on Eddie’s side (s5, after all, it’s Buck’s turn to go through the journey of truly seeing Eddie’s scars and pain and being there for him) but I think about Home And Away, and how Eddie needs to do a double-take after he jokes that Chimney will not forgive Buck. Because it’s a joke, it’s meant to be, but the hurt in Buck’s eyes is so clear —because, again, he thinks himself easily discarded as soon as he screws up once— that he looks genuinely shocked that he has to clarify the joke in the first place. S5 keeps telling us Eddie already sees Buck, in little things like recognizing how Buck wants to fix things and how he might struggle with lack of control when he can’t help. 

Then s6 doubles down on the idea that Eddie already knows Buck so deeply, “it’s clearly bothering you”, knowing the happiness convention call was hard on him and teaming up with Chim to cheer Buck and Hen, picking up on his changes in habits and the fact that he might be hiding something, not joining the schedule to check on him after the lightning, being the one who offers the right space for Buck to open up... and then there’s the cemetery scene and there’s another DING moment when a new piece falls and Eddie realizes that Buck has changed, how could he not, and he’s now trying to catch up with whatever is wrong or new. And even then, he knows Buck enough to reassure him that he doesn’t need to pretend for anyone else’s sake. 

Anyway, I don’t know where I’m going with this, except for the fact that I love the journey these two have gone through and how we’ve gotten to see on screen (rather than just assume or be told) the moments that have slowly morphed Eddie’s perception of Buck from the cocky kid from day 1 to the rather hurt and vulnerable and open hearted man he truly is. 

#buddie #eddie diaz #evan buck buckley #911 fox #911 abc #i'll eventually #make a similar one for buck's pov about eddie because i'm obsessed with analyzing them

[ghosthunterbuck]

a mile further (or ten)

(buddie) (1k words) (6x02 spoilers) I'm not even going to pretend im not on my angsty bullshit with this one I love my traumatized firefighters <3

The thing is, Hen is probably right. 

Buck can acknowledge that. 

It’s what the whole couch thing is about, isn’t it? No one’s just going to hand him happiness or fulfillment or whatever on a silver platter. The answer isn’t in a book, or on the lips of a man who was dead before they ever got to him. 

Maybe there is no answer. 

Maybe that’s the point. 

Maybe it’s something he’ll be searching for his entire life, and in his last moments he’ll be close enough to taste it, only for the blood in his mouth to sour the flavor permanently. 

He still hasn’t quite managed to shake that metallic tang. 

Buck sits in the single recliner in the center of his empty living room and thinks. Thinks because it’s the only option left, isn’t it? Thinks, because there’s got to be something he’s missing. Something he’d be able to see, if only he could open his eyes against the bright sunlight that must be shining somewhere. Thinks because—

There’s a soft knock before a key turns in the lock to his front door. 

Thinks because Hen is probably right, but the closest he ever seems to get to an answer is when he’s with Eddie, and he doesn’t know what to do with that. 

The taste of blood in his mouth is as strong as ever. 

“Me and Chim missed you at breakfast,” Eddie says, dropping a plastic bag on his kitchen counter. 

Buck pushes himself up from the recliner. “Wasn’t hungry,” he replies quietly. 

“And now?” Eddie asks. 

Buck grimaces as his stomach growls. 

Eddie laughs, a bright, happy thing that sometimes seems like it shouldn’t exist in Buck’s cavernous loft. 

“I brought you a crepe,” Eddie says, pulling a plastic container from the bag. “They didn’t let me add blueberries, though, so I grabbed some from that stand on the corner.” He holds up another, smaller container and shakes it. 

“You didn’t have to.”

Eddie shrugs. “I wanted to.”

Something warm unfurls itself in Buck’s chest, and he settles next to Eddie at the island. 

“Thanks,” Buck mumbles, taking the fork Eddie hands him. 

Eddie bumps his shoulder. 

The crepe is good, still warm despite the traffic Eddie must’ve fought on his way over. For a few moments, the sweet blueberries and fresh cream are the only things he can taste. It’s nice, the reprieve. 

“Do you want to talk about it?” Eddie asks, when Buck sets his fork down. 

Buck frowns, turns the question over in his mind for a moment before he can answer. “I’m not… sure if I should.”

“Not what I asked,” Eddie says gently. 

Buck lets out a soft sigh. “Do you ever feel like you’re just… going in circles?”

“I did.”

“What changed?”

Eddie lets out another laugh, this time soft, barely more than a huff of air. “You,” he says. “More than once, actually. But I’m pretty sure you knew that.”

Buck ducks his head. “I mean… why did it change, though? How?”

A long moment passes before Eddie answers him. “Do you remember when we met?”

Despite himself, Buck snorts. “You mean that first day, when I was trying to out-flex you and you taught Chim how to take selfies?”

Eddie shakes his head and chuckles. “A little later than that. When you introduced me to Carla, actually.”

“Man,” Buck says quietly, “that feels like a lifetime ago.”

“It kind of does,” Eddie acknowledges. “I was so sure that I had to find all the answers on my own. And then you just… swept in and gave them to me. Just like that.”

“I didn’t—”

Eddie fixes him with an unimpressed look and continues. “It was the first time I ever felt like I could just… trust, that someone had my back.”

Buck bumps his shoulder. “Always do,” he says quietly. 

Eddie nods and continues speaking. “I wasn’t ready to accept that, though. I still felt like I had to rely on just myself. Not because I was alone, but because I didn’t want the people I—I didn’t want to burden you or anyone else with any of my baggage.”

Buck looks up from his scraps, only to find himself trapped in Eddie’s gaze, unable to make himself look away.

“So I carried it. I carried it until it was too heavy to bear, and a mile further after that. And when I couldn’t take another step, you came and picked it up like it was nothing.”

“I am pretty strong,” Buck jokes half-heartedly. 

Eddie shoves his shoulder, then allows his hand to fall to Buck’s elbow. “So am I,” he says, with a meaningful look. “So whatever it is you’re carrying right now, how about you give some of it to me.”

“Hen said that I need to find some answers on my own,” Buck says, fighting the urge to pull away. 

“Hen’s a smart person,” Eddie says. “It doesn’t mean she’s always right.”

The corner of Buck’s mouth ticks up into a smile. “But you are?”

Eddie barks out a short laugh. “Hardly. But I think I might be this time.”

“So what, I just ask you for the meaning of life and you say forty-two?” Buck jokes. 

“Nah,” Eddie says. “You ask me for the meaning of life, and I promise to help you find it.”

“Just like that?” Buck asks. 

“It might take us a few tries,” Eddie replies. 

“I just… want to get things right. I want to be at ease,” Buck says, looking at his hands. 

Eddie trails his fingers from Buck’s elbow to his wrist. “I know you do,” he says softly, seriously. “I’m not sure there’s an answer that gets you there all the time. But that feeling you’re looking for, I’m going to help you find it. If it means buying a new couch or interviewing all the senior citizens in Los Angeles or reading the entire self-help section in Barnes and Noble, we’ll find it together.”

“Eds?” 

The fingers around his wrist tighten in acknowledgement. 

“Thank you,” Buck says softly.

The answer he’s looking for feels like it’s on the tip of his tongue. 

The taste of blood is as strong as ever. 

#911 #911 spoilers #911fic #911 fic #buddie #buddie fic #Evan buckley #Eddie diaz #coda #abbie writes #fic #userceecee

[lovecolibri]

Yeah yeah Buck never meets Eddie and Chris if he's not a firefighter, but can we talk about the 118 literally changing EVERYTHING for Buck?!?! Bobby teaching him to cook, Chim the older brother he never knew he was missing had, Hen the surrogate big sister he needed, Abby his first relationship that tought him so much about not just who he wants to be but who he CAN be, Athena a mother figure who may be tough but is fair and still kind to him. The 118 changed EVERYTHING for Buck, and also gave him a safe and stable place so when Maddie needed somewhere to run, Buck had space for her to run to and a family to bring her into.

The ways the firefam has shaped the lives of the Buckley siblings is immeasurable before you even start counting how Eddie and Chris change everything AND how Buck changes everything for the 118!! He's someone Bobby can mentor and be a father figure to, he's the one to help Athena and Abby save that little girl in the pilot, Bobby fought for Eddie because Buck needed a partner, Buck introduces Carla to Eddie BECAUSE he met her through Abby, all the lives Buck has saved, INCLUDING Eddie and helping save Hen, Chim, and Bobby at various points, all the lives MADDIE has saved at dispatch including the whole dispatch center when it got taken hostage because she alerted Chim who got Athena involved.

It's a MASSIVE ripple effect and I am SO excited for this episode and frothing at the mouth for the fics we are going to get out of this.

#911 fox #911 #911 spoilers #evan buckley #maddie buckley #firefam #brb gotta go scream into the woods for an hour

[matan4il]

Do you have a favorite underrated Buddie scene?? I mean we have so many epic heavily loaded scenes we all concentrate on that it feels like some of the ones that would be heavy fodder in other Fandoms get overlooked.

For me it's that tiny moment during the call center fire when Eddie called out for Buck and we see him look back then say here hold this to the other firefighter, I gotta go help my boyfriend right now. I'm not sure why the subtlety gets me so much. Maybe the underlying fact that Eddie is "with Buck", meaning Buck should be leading. So it kind of cool it shows Buck will still follow Eddie any where. I don't know I just love that little moment!!

Hi Nonnie, thank you for the lovely ask and for your answer. I love it!

Oh, I feel like with my weekly Buddie meta I have probably yelled too much about too many things, so I'm not sure I have a right to speak. Even if I did, I'm not sure if my choice would be exactly "underrated," but I guess I would say the 202 to 204 arc of Buck being introduced to Chris and choosing to step into Eddie's mess with him.

Everything about this is gold, any one of these could qualify IMO as an underrated moment in Buddie's love story:

The way Buck wants to know who Eddie is trying to call in 202. Damn, Buck, YOU WERE AT EACH OTHER'S THROATS TWO SHIFTS AGO, KEEP IT IN YOUR PANTS!

Eddie's hesitancy, but willingness to share the most pressure part of his life, the most vulnerable part of his heart, with the guy who was a dick to him just two shifts ago. I GET IT ALREADY

The way Buck keeps encouraging Eddie to believe the best possible scenario when it comes to Chris, a child he literally has no investment in, and Buck's doing it even at moments when Eddie is not giving an indication of being distressed. This is where Eddie first sees Buck is marriage and co-parenting material, and there's no faster way to Eddie's heart than that

Eddie choosing to let Buck drive him to Christopher's school, meaning reserved Eddie allows the guy who was a dick to him just two shifts ago to witness his emotional re-union with his son, and accepts that he will introduce them to each other as Buck will drive them both home at the end of 203, NO I AM NOT OKAY

Buck choosing to get involved and help Eddie with Chris by introducing him to Carla in 204, just everything about that ep is WILD and I have not been able to shut up about it since s2, but really the most significant thing will always be the way Buck doesn't have to be told to step into Eddie's mess with him. Buck WANTS TO

I hope this kinda answers the question? Thank you again and have a lovely day! As always, you can find my ask tag here. xoxox

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[tommy-evan]

thinking thoughts about how, aunt pepa is gonna be the one to prompt eddie dating again when after chris, she was the next diaz to meet buck and went "hm? and who's this? / "ah, i thought you just dressed alike," and how her and eddie's convo is what made buck realize that eddie was struggling with child care, which eventually prompted him introduce eddie to carla, taking that very first big step into eddie's life as his partner

i just think that's all very interesting

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[spotsandsocks]

And It's There When You Call Out My Name

Companion fic/part two to this fic posted last week And its there when I look in your eyes Read it here first from Buck's pov

Read on AO3 2k Teen

It’s just an ordinary evening; no different from so many others he’s had with Buck and ordinary might sound dull to some people but Eddie loves ordinary. His eyes follow Buck around the kitchen. It’s not the only thing he loves.

The amount of pleasure he gets from being here, talking about ordinary things, helping to cook or clean up afterwards is ridiculous.

He’s happy and it’s been a long time since Eddie could say that. It’s been a hell of a journey to get himself to this point but he’s not had to do it alone. The thought makes him smile.

They move around the kitchen together, a seamless dance of two people who know each other down to the bone. Buck takes the last plate from his hand with a smile.

So, Eddie’s not alone. Not anymore. He’s in Buck’s kitchen and it feels like home, no, he corrects himself because that’s not quite right; it’s Buck who feels like home, wherever he is, that’s where Eddie wants to be. It’s one of the reasons he knows he’s in love, his stomach gives a pleasant little flip at the thought. 

And it’s why evenings like this have become the norm for them now, Eddie’s allowed himself that much, a slow slide into Buck's life and Buck’s happily let him in. So now it’s either Eddie and Chris at Buck’s or him at theirs. It all adds up to more time together than apart. More evenings like this than he can count. 

Then Buck turns and he has a smudge of pasta sauce on his face and with all that love in his heart and unfortunately not a single thought in his head Eddie reaches out and wipes it away and with that one simple gesture everything changes.

He knows what’s happened straight away. He can read that face without any effort at all. No one understands Buck like he does, which means  he has to act quickly because everything they have is going to vanish if he doesn’t. 

The man he loves has gone rigid, blue eyes wide and terrified because he’s finally noticed. He finally knows. And he’s not ready, but then Eddie already knew that, it’s why he hasn’t said anything.

Eddie holds in his sigh, despite all his efforts it was inevitable that one day Buck would see, after all, how can all that love truly stay hidden. 

Yes, Eddie thinks, inevitable, from the second Evan Buckley ducked his head and smiled his way around the words ‘who me?’ 

How it’s taken Buck this long to work it all out is a mystery because Eddie is very aware he’s been looking at him a certain way for a long time. He’s tried, not to hide it exactly, but to damp it down, keep the love muted to an acceptable level of affection for a best friend. 

Ultimately it hasn’t worked, but what was he expecting, his heart has been bleeding into his eyes for years, ever since Buck had seen him struggling and stepped into his mess. 

It had been overwhelming at first, realizing that someone, still almost a stranger to him, had wanted to help and had always found the perfect way to do it. First  when he’d called ahead to tell Bobby Chris needed a place to stay, then introducing him to Carla. After that there was Christmas and skateboards and never ending support. How could he not fall for him and how could he keep those feelings from showing when he looked Buck’s way.

He knows his heart had been firmly in his eyes when he told Buck there was no one he trusted more with his son and his heart was definitely bleeding when he yelled at him in a grocery store, missing him so desperately it hurt. 

Later he’d been unable to keep the love he was starting to understand from his face as he’d said ‘I know you did’ when Buck had risked everything because his own heart was breaking.

The love he could barely allow himself to acknowledge had bled out along with his body, spilling over hot LA asphalt when he’d held onto Buck’s eyes, until his own had closed against his will. 

He thinks now that he’d hoped Buck would see then but he hadn't; he also hadn’t understood what he’d tried to say with his words and his eyes in the hospital.

And then after all that - those blue eyes had been the lifeline that held him together and kept him tethered to a hope of a brighter future. 

How is love like that meant to stay secret? Inevitably it doesn’t, you can’t hide all that forever so now Buck knows and while Eddie isn’t that sorry about it, he does wish the poor man didn’t look like Bambi caught in headlights.

It’s clear Buck isn’t ready to accept that kind of love. He's only known for a few seconds and already he’s spiraling. Eddie can hear every word running through his head. If he can’t stop him, Buck is going to panic and do something they’ll both regret. He jumps in with a gentle but firm voice.

“Stop it. God, you think so loudly.”

He's proud his voice is so calm nothing of his frantic heartbeat can be heard, he can feel it though banging fiercely against his rib cage. He desperately needs this to work. The boy behind him and the man in front of him are his whole world, his family and he will not lose that.

Each word matters, he speaks slowly, “Buck, it’s ok. Just listen, can you do that?”

There’s a glimmer of hope because Buck manages the smallest nod he’s ever seen. He gives Buck the truth and tries to hold onto his happiness;

“Buck, there’s nothing you need to do about this. Nothing you have to fix. I'm not waiting. I'm not hoping for something more.” 

God he has to make him believe and it’s all true, every word.  He just wants to keep what he has. If he can make Buck believe then everything will be ok. He manages to lock the fear growing inside him away and carries on. His voice sounds calm and steady. 

“I'm just being here with you, because this is where I want to be.”

Please let him believe that. Eddie sends his prayer into the universe. Buck looks like he’s going to bolt at any moment.

He holds onto sapphire blue eyes that glisten with unshed tears and hopes against hope that he’s not going to lose everything. All he can do is trust that Buck doesn’t want to lose this either that he’ll want to hold on as tight to ‘them’ as he does.

Buck blinks blindly but slowly reason replaces the panic and Eddie lets his smile widen. Buck’s coming back to him. His heart eases a fraction and his arms ache to hold him. He can’t do that so he settles for a hand on each of his arms, trying to push the reassurance  that they can stay just as they are into his skin. 

He keeps talking and he prays it’s enough.

“Nothing needs to change. I don’t need anything more than this Buck. I’m really happy with everything just like it is. Ok?”

With his heart beating wildly he waits for what feels like a lifetime before Buck nods and mumbles ok twice before the briefest of pauses, then this most remarkable of men resets his brain and moves onto ice cream. 

The relief almost takes him out at the knees. Buck trusts him enough to take him at his word, to believe that Eddie doesn’t need more than Buck can give. A deep steadying breath feels appropriate, he takes it and sits down with Chris to wait for ice cream and breathe slowly until his racing heart returns to its regular steady rhythm.

So nothing changes, he keeps his promise and it’s not even hard. He doesn’t change anything and neither does Buck. They stay them; Just Eddie. Just Buck. Just Eddie&Buck.

There is one slight difference though, Buck knows he’s loved now and Eddie’s glad of it. 

Every ordinary day is a gift. He has something he never had before Buck came along- someone to hold him up and push him forward, comfort and challenge him whichever is needed most. Eddie knows Buck loves him in some way, the warm quiet affection of the man he trusts with his whole soul is obvious. 

He’s not waiting for it to change, he didn’t lie to Buck about that, he has no expectation Buck’s love will ever mirror his own feelings. 

He doesn’t need any more than he has, he’s happy. He does sometimes suspect he could be happier if by some miracle anything were to change between them but he doesn’t dwell on that because he has everything he needs and he doesn’t think about wanting.

He just loves Buck, it's as simple as that, not that he’s perfect, love isn’t blind and he knows that. He knows that despite the smiles, the light he brings with him there are parts of Buck that he needs to work on, darker parts, sadder parts.

Buck sees that too and Eddie’s there for him. He’s there when he works out something needs to change and when he does the work that’s needed to make that happen. He’s there to help and offer support but mostly it’s Buck working hard, making changes. He learns about himself and he grows and Eddie can add proud to all the other emotions Buck generates in him.

Later still when Chris starts pulling away, growing up and building his own life Eddie is equal parts pride and sadness, he aches for what he’s losing but Chris is becoming who he’s meant to be and that’s the whole point of being a parent isn’t it. Buck reminds him of that and is there for him again, like he always has been. 

Even when it’s become just the two of them more often than not he doesn’t expect things to change until one night it does.

He turns to his name on Buck’s lips, he said it differently somehow, it makes him curious, sparks something inside him. Buck asks a question.

“You said once you don’t need anything more than this, but do you want more?” 

Eddie adds a frown to his smile, they went over that a long time ago, which is what he says; surely Buck can’t be worrying about that again now.  When Buck shuffles closer and reassures him he’s not worried in a voice that means something his stomach flips.

“But, do you want more” this time Buck’s meaning is clear and it sets Eddie’s heart racing. He’s spent a long time not hoping, so to be flooded with it now is a little overwhelming.

“Because if you do, could you tell so I don’t waste anymore time.”

He wants to answer but his brain’s shut down and words are a step too far. He suspects his face is painting an eloquent enough picture despite his silence because Buck’s holding his hand, fingers closing around his own.

“Please, please tell me you do.”

The quiet words, etched with longing set him free.

Buck wants him.

That means he can want too, he didn’t need it, that was never a lie, he’d have stayed forever without any more than this but if he can have more he’ll grab onto it with both hands and never let go.

The words are out of his mouth on his next breath,

“I want more, I want everything.” 

Buck’s eyes light up and Eddie’s halfway through a final check, the words “but you don’t…” barely touch his lips before Buck’s mouth is on his stealing them away.

Buck kisses him.

He's never let himself think about it, what Buck’s mouth on his would be like, how soft it would be, how he would taste, he never imagined how his hands would feel on his face or sliding down his back and pulling him closer. Now he doesn’t have to imagine, now he knows. 

He falls into the feeling, lets it soak into him like sunshine sinking into his bones, enough heat  to keep him warm for a thousand nights, bright enough to guide him home again if he was ever lost. He doesn’t think he’ll ever feel lost again, not with this man by his side. 

Buck loves him so it’s ok to want, he pushes and then he has Buck beneath him, pressed into the couch and tasting of desire and devotion, of home and family. 

Buck loves him.

He can taste it, feel it in every place they’re connected. 

He hears his own name gasped out desperately and there’s love there too. 

Eddie’s known he was Buck’s for a long time but now Buck is his as well, he wasn’t expecting it, he hadn’t needed it but he’d wanted it and now he plans to take it and keep it safe and never let go.

Buck loves him and they kiss and nothing’s ever ordinary again. 

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[trashendence]

The Couch Discourse Masterpost (that no one asked for)

Season 6 has started and, as is now abundantly clear, Buck doesn't have a couch. Nothing too out of the ordinary; an insignificant detail if compared to the big, flashing events of most episodes...right? Well, it now has its own Masterpost so maybe not quite.

Inspired by this collective post (featuring yours truly, @yramesoruniverse, @extasiswings and @stagefoureddiediaz), here's a slightly more ordered ensemble of observations on the symbolisms hiding behind the couch.

Enjoy the madness!

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Abby's couch

(Episode 1x10 - "A Whole New You")

Abby is Buck’s first true love, the first home Buck has known after all those years spent drifting, and arguably the very first person who’s chosen him. She’s not the first to leave, though, and it’s on her couch, in the apartment Buck now calls home, that she tells him she’s going to Dublin. For Abby, her place - and LA - is a constant reminder of what she’s lost, while Buck can only cling onto this new sense of belonging and promise he’ll wait for her. For as long as it takes.

(Episode 2x01 - "Under Pressure")

At the beginning of season 2, Buck still lives at Abby's. And still waits. He’s so sure she’ll come back that when he sees someone is home, he doesn’t hesitate and rushes inside, but finds Maddie instead. At this point, he’s still hopeful and so attached to what once was that the only shift he embraces in his life is the return of his sister - someone who also belongs to his past -, nothing and no one else gets the benefit of Buck’s enthusiasm. He cooks for Maddie, offers her a safe space, and nurtures the sense of family she brought back to him - the pure love they have for each other -. And to Maddie, on Abby’s couch, he opens up about what the point really is:

“I like the me that I am with her.”

(Episode 2x04 - “Stuck”)

Buck and Maddie are once again in Abby’s apartment. Maddie is circling the couch - trying to find the right way to ask buck when it is, exactly, that he’ll let go. She ends up asking if the new ‘boy crush’ her brother has on Eddie means that he’s finally over Abby. But Buck, who’s already sitting on the couch, is not over anything.

Buck has nothing against fresh starts, so he is excited for his sister when she tells him she’s found a place for herself. She’s building a new life right there, by his side, and Buck’s brain keeps telling him that it makes sense for Maddie to look for a new place to live, she’s still searching for what she wants - it’s normal. Buck, on the other hand, has found it already; it’d be pointless for him to look anywhere else and get lost again in the process. People will know where to find him if he just…stays put.

In the same episode, Buck asks Eddie to come over and introduces him to Carla, actually making pro-active use of his ties with the past to help a friend. Then, together, he and Eddie help Maddie move. And even if it looks physically impossible, they somehow make her brand new couch fit through the door.

(@stagefoureddiediaz made a very smart post about this scene in particular)

Buck’s very first couch

After painfully letting go of Abby, Buck couch-surfs for a bit, learns that true love is something you make and decides to get a place for himself. He goes for the loft: it’s beautiful and Ali really likes it. It makes sense.

(Episode 2x18 - “This Life We Choose”)

While he’s trying to recover from getting most of his bones and all of his career aspirations shattered, Buck sits (on his new couch) through Ali breaking up with him. What he tried to build - to make - does not work out in the end, but there’s a new level of awareness that comes with the end of this relationship: he’s a firefighter despite everything. He’s not going to leave the station, he’ll go back and fight for it. For now, though, fighting to keep what he wants means not leaving the loft, nor the couch. Buck clings onto what he has left because it’s solid and it’s the material representation of the home he so badly craves, even if it’s not home at all. At least it’s a first step, right?

(Episode 3x03 - “The Searchers”)

-This entire bit comes from @fiona-fififi’s incredible tags.-

Despite the couch being where Chris chose to sit the morning of the tsunami, when Buck is trusted with Eddie’s heart for the second time, he and Chris choose to sit on the coffee table instead. If before Chris was on the couch, tucked away right under the stairs - a kind of future Buck couldn’t see -, after the tsunami they sit together in plain sight (Seen and Found). It’s a reinforcement of Eddie’s trust and Chris’ infinite love and admiration, and it’s born from what Buck lives as an unforgivable failure.

What was supposed to work - the couch he and Ali bought together, the couch he’s been stuck on for months after the injury -, didn’t, but Buck is now stepping into a whole new role and he’s doing it on new premises; the trust and unconditional love given to him.

(Episode 3x09 - “Fallout”)

Chris and Eddie are at Buck’s again, The Kitchen Scene takes place, and the three of them end up playing video-games on Buck’s couch. It’s ‘Eddie’s kind of therapy’ and probably Buck’s too, reconciling the reminder of all his failed attempts with a brand new beginning. The pain it took to have and keep a couch completely vanishes when it comes to the effortless affection running through all of them. It’s a second chance at building a home.

(Episode 4x08 - “Breaking Point”)

The couch hasn’t featured in any meaningful scenes for a while. Not through Buck dealing with Red’s death, nor in the revelation that he once had a brother. He’s been dealing with past trauma and fears, none of which related to this new home he wants to build - hence, none related to the couch.

The symbolism comes back in full force when Buck finds out Albert and Veronica - someone who represents Buck’s attempts at moving forward in life - are dating. It makes him fall even more into the undercurrent spiral of ‘there is no loyalty or love for me’, and leads to “your life is nothing but meaningful relationships”/“I don’t know, doesn’t seem the same”. Buck has started therapy and is trying to fix things with his parents, he’s bettering himself, and he is ready. So why is it not working out for him?

When he later finds Albert and Veronica on his couch, he reaches out to Taylor for a double date, during which they all sit on a couch for a long, uncomfortable moment before Taylor decides to leave.

In the same episode, Chris finds out about his dad’s new relationship, and runs to the loft. He sits on Buck’s couch while Buck promises that he’ll be there for him no matter what. That he’s not going anywhere and Chris will always have a place right there, in Buck’s home.

Eddie’s couch

There have been glimpses of Eddie’s couch throughout the seasons. The first scene with Shannon features his couch, as does one of his dates with Ana - whose couch we also see during the Math Date in “Breaking Point” -. Buck himself has been on the couch multiple times but always only with Chris, playing video-games or hanging out during the party that gave us, “Uh, this is Eddie’s house, I’m not really a guest”. He and Eddie are never on it at the same time.

(Episode 4x13 - “Suspicion”)

With “Suspicion” a lot of things in Buck and Eddie’s lives change. Eddie’s couch is suddenly very present and becomes a recurrent element in the story.

At the beginning of the episode, we see Eddie fret over his couch, moving the cushions around so that they’re perfect for Carla’s arrival. When she finally knocks and the Diaz boys run to greet her, Ana waits where she is, on the other side of the couch and away from their joyful love.

Despite Eddie’s best efforts, Carla immediately sees through him and asks Eddie follows his heart when it comes to choices that affect him, not Christopher’s. The couch, almost invisible in the dark, looms over her shoulders.

(Episode 4x14 - “Survivors”)

Eddie’s been shot, he’s fighting for his life on a hospital bed, and Buck takes over the care of Chris. While at the Diaz House, Buck chooses to sleep on Eddie’s couch, barely able to look at Eddie’s bedroom, much less sleep in his bed. It’s when he’s on the couch that Chris wakes him up from a troubled sleep and gets him to start his day (not before Buck’s checked his phone for updates on Eddie’s conditions).

When Eddie finally comes back home, there is a little welcome back party waiting for him. Even Taylor is there, and @stagefoureddiediaz noticed the couch keeps appearing in the background, reminding us of Buck’s fitful sleep and everything that has happened since the last time we saw it in “Suspicion”.

(Episode 5x09 - “Past Is Prologue”)

An honorable mention goes to Buck’s couch in this episode because it’s there that Buck comforts Taylor after their trip to Oklahoma. In this scene of “Past Is Prologue”, we get Taylor’s “I’m sorry I didn’t tell you […] I tell other people’s stories for a living because I hate telling my own,” which is both a callback to “Dosed” and foreshadowing of what’s to come.

(Episode 5x10 - “Wrapped In Red”)

Eddie’s couch is central throughout the episode, going from the initial scenes of Chris and Eddie decorating their house for Christmas, to Chris snapping and revealing that he wants everything to be perfect because he fears Eddie could die at any time. It all happens on the couch, the fragile equilibrium breaks and Eddie has to face his kid’s trauma, as well as his own (or some of it, at least). He talks to Carla about he and Buck being taken hostage and the deep guilt he feels for continuing to be a firefighter when his son is so clearly terrified by the idea of him dying.

Once again, Eddie is doing what he feels is right for Chris and doesn’t stop to think about what would be right for himself, too. He protects his home - his heart - by leaving part of it behind.

Taylor’s Buck’s second couch

(Episode 5x13 - “Fear-o-Phobia”)

Taylor’s moving in with Buck. The premises are quite possibly the worst; guilt and avoidance on Buck’s part, inability to see beyond the surface on Taylor’s.

As noted by @yramesoruniverse, Taylor's couch (which is meant to replace the one Buck bought with his ex) is the exact same color and fabric as Eddie's - dark blue velvet - but not quite the same. Hers is too fancy and impractical, uncomfortable to sit on, let alone sleep. Coincidentally, both Taylor and Eddie’s couches recall the colors of LAFD uniforms and, while the movers carry her new couch into Buck’s loft like a dead body, we are reminded of the shooting all over again. Meanwhile, Buck - who is helpless in front of the sudden changes in his life - still desperately reaches for a sense of home and just stands there in a white shirt with dark stripes.

In the same episode, Buck is forced to relive the deep fear of that day when Chris calls him because something is wrong with Eddie. For a split moment, Buck freezes in Eddie’s bedroom - the same room he’s been avoiding for a while now - and thinks that his best friend might really be dead.

Just before that happens, though, Buck and Taylor make up on her couch. “Do you think I trapped you?”/“Am I wrong?” and Buck, while honestly admitting he doesn’t know why he asked her to move in with him, clings some more onto their relationship. He wants it to work. He needs it to work.

“So no more lies.”

(Episode 5x14 - “Dumb Luck”)

After quite some time without seeing it, Eddie’s couch makes an appearance. And it’s a Significant one.

@stagefoureddiediaz pointed out that the last time we saw it, it was at the very end of season 4, when Buck slept - horribly - on it. His real-life nightmare is paralleled with Eddie’s actual nightmares. In his dream-turned-horror Eddie is even wearing the same shade of pale blue Buck had on back then - which Kym tells us means ‘trustworthiness, responsibility and reliability’ - because he always wants to be a safe harbor for Chris, no matter what.

When Eddie wakes on his dark blue couch - the color of ‘externalized depression and sadness’ -, Buck is driving Chris to school. He is helping Eddie just like he did after the shooting by being the reliable figure they both need.

Since it was apparently not enough, @yramesoruniverse pointed out that Eddie’s couch hovers in the background when Buck tells Eddie he’s misunderstood the assignment.

Buck gives his figurative heart to Eddie, admits he’s misunderstood a basic notion so drastically that it’s kind of ridiculous, and listens to Eddie wonder what the point really is anyway - if there is one. All of it with Eddie’s couch in his line of sight.

(Episode 5x17 - “Hero Complex”)

Buck’s couch is definitely gone when Hen and Chimney stop by the loft to ask Taylor about the footage from the dispatch fire. As @stagefoureddiediaz said, Taylor sits on her couch without Buck. Instead, she’s between two members of Buck’s found family who don’t trust her in the slightest, and swears everything they say is ‘off the record’. Where she said “no more lies” she’s now starting a lie that will bring to the inevitable end of her relationship with Buck.

(Episode 6x01 - “Let The Games Begin”)

Buck has been single for four months now, but as Chris notices:

(x)

They are having dinner at the loft, a home-cooked lasagna Buck has attempted three times before he was satisfied enough to serve it to Chris and Eddie. The atmosphere is warm, relaxed, but Bobby’s decision not to consider him for the position of interim captain seems to bug Buck. To his “I just want to know what these other candidates have that apparently I don’t”, Christopher answers that Buck doesn’t even have a couch, getting to the core of the problem.

It’s clear by now that the couch is a symbol of Buck’s search for home and for a lasting romantic love, which are one and the same. In @yramesoruniverse’s words, ‘it’s the way he projects onto the material, the trappings, what it looks like to "make" a life with someone. All the stuff he uses to cope and obscure what's right in front of him’. And that it is Christopher of all people to point it out is the first nudge toward an important realization; he doesn’t need a new couch to have a home. He doesn’t need to follow a series of pre-set steps leading to love and stability, the couch can’t bring him to anything on its own. It’s just a piece of furniture, after all.

Buck then talks to Bobby, and the temporary promotion is the farthest thing from his mind. He opens up to Bobby about the couch instead, says he’s afraid of making a mistake again and choosing the wrong one. What Bobby suggests is that he takes inventory of his life, sees where he’s at and waits to feel at ease with himself before moving in any direction. So Buck starts doing just that.

Before we’re shown Buck looking around his loft and moving his armchair in the empty spot left behind by Taylor’s couch, though, we get a glimpse of Eddie and Chris playing at their house, their couch right there in the background. The concepts of fate and time tied together with those of home and love, a connection Buck can’t see yet because he’s still too full of fear for the future. He’s giving up having a couch for now but he doesn’t feel at ease, he’s not free from what the couch represents for him and is probably simply wondering what his life will be like if he never finds the right one.

Maybe he’ll find out life is pretty great even without a couch, or maybe with one he hasn’t considered up until this point.

#couch discourse #this pretty much covers it all #i feel sliiiightly unhinged about this don’t know if you’ve noticed #911 on fox #evan buckley #eddie diaz #christopher diaz #buddie #buddie meta #(​hope the english in this is englishing)

[mazzystar24]

End of 6x10 and all of 6x11 were so good:

I mean when Eddie is getting buck down and the latest in a pattern of parallels to Carla’s invisible string speech

And him yelling out his name and then doing the compressions like Buck did with him ahhhhhh

The amount of Bobby is Buck’s real dad acknowledgment in this episode was unreal, I loved it so much

Also all of Buck’s inner thoughts were so heartbreaking I just wanna wrap him up in a blanket I swear on god

I literally hate his parents I mean I get they lost their son and I sympathise but the way they treated Buck and the amount of emotional baggage they gave him is ridiculous

Also as always any Chris and Buck scene gets me I loved the speech he gave him (even if I would’ve loved more to see Buck able to hear it) and eddies reactions to the speech

I loved the recognition that Buck helped out on that front more than he realised, and yet even then he still attributes it more to Carla, which is so in character. Because if this was from an outside perspective, Buck helped on that front more than anything but he’s our unreliable narrator so he only gives himself credit for introducing Carla

I also loved the little hint of how words really do get to him by having that line of “stop being so needy” or like “do you have to be so needy” used against Daniel aka Buck’s subconscious which is along the same words that Taylor used at him in one of their fights.

And I also liked how they used lighting when he first woke up to the dream world and he thinks everything is great it’s all bright and colourful and then when he finds out about Doug the world literally dims

#911 #911 s6 #buddie #evan buck buckely #evan buckley #buck x eddie #eddie diaz #christopher diaz #bobby nash #my posts

[canonicallyobserving911]

Buck & Eddie: Season 6 Love Interests👀?

I noticed something interesting about Buck’s and Eddie’s “supposed love interests” who were introduced during the latter part of 6b.

Eddie

Based on the comments left by GA viewers on social media and post-mortem articles, before she reappeared in 6x17 “Love is in the Air”, most viewers couldn’t even remember who Marisol was or where she came from.

Those who did remember her, made it clear in their comments that her character seemed like she was in love with her brother.  Even though she was in 6x5 “Home Invasion”, she was only there for one emergency and while they were inside of the ambulance, Eddie seemed weirded out by her fascination with her brother too. He barely interacted with her while the 118 was on the scene and when he returned to her house with Buck and some other unrecognizable firefighters (still don’t know who they were) to help repair her ceiling, they barely spoke more than one sentence to each other and any other conversations he had with her happened off-screen.

It was different when he interacted with Ana because he had several on-screen conversations with her and he was shown conversing with her four times in season 3 before she reemerged in 4x6 “Jinx” as his love interest which means the GA didn’t have a problem remembering her.  He wasn’t instantly attracted to Marisol like he had been with Ana when he went to Chris’ parent/teacher conference with Carla.

Maybe the reason the character of Marisol was chosen to return has something to do with the fact that she’s FORGETABLE.  Unlike Ana, who was reintroduced to stick around for a while, it’s possible Marisol was only there to help Eddie SEE who and what is right in front of him and to realize who he really wants to be in a relationship with.  If that was the point of her being at the hardware store, then it’s possible her reappearance was so Eddie could rethink his stance on asking her out and that could be the reason why Marisol was chosen instead of Vanessa or Felisa.

Vanessa was the most recent woman Eddie had a date with in 6x14 “Performance Anxiety” and even though she let him down easy, the audience would have remembered her instead of Marisol.  Also, Felisa’s emergencies were the only ones included in 6x7 “Cursed” and Eddie actually had an on-screen conversation with her at the end of the episode.  It was about the Tsunami and if they wanted to choose her instead of Marisol, they could have. The point is if the show wanted to use someone the audience would have remembered to be Eddie’s love interest, they very well could have but for some reason they chose to use someone who barely even talked with Eddie on-screen this season and he didn’t have an instant attraction to her like he did with Ana; so maybe there’s a reason for it.

Buck

Buck’s past love life was on full display in 6x17 and it appears Natalia may have been introduced so he could realize who’s right in front of him too.  She exhibited characteristics from at least two of Buck’s previous girlfriends that makes it seem like she was being setup to be the perfect woman for him but something was off about her especially with the way she kept saying “That’s so cool” (WTH?). The first time she said it was in 6x15 while they were having coffee and he explained the way he died from the lightning strike.  Then she said it again when Taylor was on TV right after Taylor mentioned the book she wrote about the 118.

The first comparison can be made with Ali from season 2.  The audience doesn’t know anything about Natalia except she’s a death doula. Every time she had a conversation with Buck, the parts the audience saw and heard were the things he said about himself and that could be the reason why he told Eddie, she SEES me. He’s always seen himself through the eyes of the women he’s dated. Her void characterization can be compared to Ali’s because all the audience knew about Ali in season 2 was her job and the fact that Buck and Eddie saved her during the earthquake.  Buck even called her Abby and she had to correct him. She was only in four episodes and for two of them she wasn’t Buck’s love interest. She reappeared in 2x8 “Buck Actually” to ask him out on a date but she didn’t appear again until 2x18 “This Life We Choose” after Buck’s leg got crushed by the ladder truck and then she broke up with him because he didn’t want to stop being a firefighter. Natalia is similar to Ali because she asked him out for coffee too but she’s also the opposite of Ali since she appeared to be fascinated with Buck’s job and his death in 6x15 “Death and Taxes” while Ali wanted to run away from it in 2x18.

The second comparison is with Taylor.  Natalia’s a lot like Taylor too because she seems to be very career driven and things like death fascinate her while it terrifies most people and it makes them uncomfortable.  Buck told her in 6x15, “It’s fascinating. I never knew someone who could spend their life bringing someone closer to death… legally” and it appears Taylor’s fascination with death may have rubbed off on him since she assumed Jonah was a serial killer and she also said it was “fascinating” in 5x17 “Hero Complex”.  Most people don’t find death or serial killers to be cool or fascinating so there’s that.

Also, some of the words Natalia said and her mannerisms came off as abrupt or harsh and they caused Buck to retreat within himself the same way he used to do with Taylor.  During their conversation about the tip, Buck was genuinely trying to figure it out but she assumed he was flustered after he saw LD.  His math powers were gone and he was really struggling but to compensate he tried to play it off.  While it may not have been intentional (especially since she doesn’t know him) her comment about “They give you three options right down here” caused him to do something he hasn’t done since he broke up with Taylor. He tried to make himself smaller and he looked like he was struggling to come up with the answer.  His reaction to her comment was similar to the one he had in 4x8 “Breaking Point” when Taylor told him he couldn’t stand it when people don’t like him and when she called him “needy”.

Additionally, Taylor told Buck to take care of himself after he broke up with her in 5x18 “Starting Over” and Natalia said the same thing to him in 6x17.  She walked over to the dining room table, picked up her purse, told him to take care of himself then she left his loft and he looked over his shoulder at her almost the same way he looked at Taylor after she told him that.  The point is Natalia’s introduction appears to have been done to help Buck SEE that even though she’s a little like Ali and her opposite in a lot of respects and she’s a lot like Taylor, she’s still not right for him.

Will either of these characters reemerge in 6x18 “Pay it Forward”, it’s possible since their names are on the synopsis but it’s also possible, they may not be since episode synopses have been incorrect a lot this season.  Reminder, the synopsis for 6x1 “Let the Games Begin” stated Chimney and Maddie would go to couples’ therapy but they didn’t and the synopsis for 6x5 stated Hen would talk to her professor even though she did it in 6x4 “Animal Instincts”.  Could it have been a mistake to list them?  No one will know until Monday but the truth is AK who plays LD and MW who plays TK’s names weren’t in the synopsis for 6x17 but they were there so who knows if Marisol and Natalia will return.

#buddie #eddie diaz #evan buckley #911 fox #911 on fox #911onfox #911 abc #911 on abc #911 meta #911 speculation #911 #911 s6 #911 season 6 #911 season 6 speculation #anti natalia #anti marisol #anti taylor kelly #anti ali martin #anti ana flores

[princessamericachavez]

911 6x11 Coda

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“So this dreamland of yours,” Eddie says after a comfortable silence filled only by the background noise of the sports commentators, “what was it really like?”

“Super freaky,” Buck huffs a laugh. “I told you already.”

“No,” Eddie drawls the word with playful annoyance. “You told us the saccharine version because Christopher was there. Or because you didn’t want someone else to know the details. I don’t know,” he shrugs. “All I know is you aren’t telling the whole story.”

“I am,” Buck tries, but can hear the uncertainty in his own voice.

Eddie finally peels his eyes off the tv screen to pin him with a knowing look.

“Buck, I know you. You were holding back. Which… fine, you don't owe the entire world details about whatever was going on in your brain during a coma. I get it. But, c’mon, it’s me. Spill.”

Buck bites the inside of his cheek. There are details he really doesn't want to reach the others. He doesn’t want to upset anyone with the fucked up things his subconscious came up with. But… yeah, this is Eddie. Somehow, it feels wrong not to tell him.

“Bobby was dead.”

Even now, in the real world, having seen him just a few hours ago for lunch, the words get stuck in his throat. Buck hates the way his voice shakes with the ghost of heartbreak, still remembers the sensation of the world crashing down around him when Chimney (fake Chimney) told him. He tightens the grip of his beer, letting the sting of his wounded hands ground him in this reality.

Eddie arches his eyebrows. “What happened?”

“He… fell off the wagon. No one noticed, until it was too late.”

“Because you weren’t there?” Eddie’s expression turns critical. “Buck, you do know Bobby’s sobriety isn’t your responsibility, right?”

“I know. I know. The world doesn’t revolve around me,” he rolls his eyes, taking a sip of his beer to wash down the bitterness. “But you… you didn’t know Cap before. Before you joined, for a while, he was… different. Too reserved. Like- like he thought if he didn’t get to know us, we’d be better off or something.”

He can see the confusion in Eddie’s eyes while the information sets in. He can’t blame him. This Cap, this Bobby, is so different it’s almost impossible to reconcile him with the one he first met.

“Anyway,” he tries to lighten the air, “I guess I was annoying enough to break him out of his shell a little, or make him laugh. Or maybe I’m just giving myself too much credit.”

Eddie lets out a noncommittal hum. “Guess I can see that.”

It feels good to have said it, to let it out, to have someone else know. He trusts Eddie’s discretion and knows that, if Bobby’s death comes to haunt him in his nightmares, he’ll at least have someone to tell. He’s ready to return his attention back to the game when Eddie pops a sudden question:

“And me? What was I like?”

“I told you.”

“Angry, yeah,” Eddie frowns. “So that’s it? Without you I’m just… angry guy?”

Buck laughs, shaking his head, and is about to change de subject when he notices that Eddie looks bothered by the statement. As if whatever Buck’s subconscious said about him was a big offense.

“It wasn’t about me,” he offers.

Eddie pins him with another look meant to strip him bare of his secrets. Buck looks down at his hands, unable to meet his eyes:

“You- you lost Chris. To your parents. Big messy legal battle. Hen- Hen said they declared you unfit to be a single dad and a firefighter.”

Eddie takes a big gulp of beer with his eyes on the screen.

“Oh, yeah… that’d piss me off.”

To Buck’s relief, he sounds lighthearted about it. He guesses it’s easier when it’s just a made up crazy reality in someone else’s dying brain, when it didn’t feel so real and definitive as it did to him.

“Guess no one else there introduced you to Carla.”

“And you weren’t there,” Eddie points, “to fight for him.”

“No, I wasn’t…”

Eddie nods, still staring at some point in the distance, clearly not watching the game. Buck waits him out, let’s the idea settle, because he knows his silences enough to guess this one prefaces a statement.

“And you didn’t meet me there?” He finally asks and, again, he seems offended with Buck’s subconscious.

Buck feels the need to defend himself:

“To be fair, you would’ve just called me crazy and called the cops on me or something. I mean, Chim and Hen were ready to roll with it, but you don’t even believe in jinxes. What do you think you would’ve said if a guy you’ve never met before showed up claiming to be your best friend from another life?”

Eddie laughs, really laughs, and Buck finds himself smiling too. On retrospect, he kinda wishes he had searched him out, just to have another ridiculous scenario to tell him about now.

“No, that’s- that’s true,” Eddie shakes his head, still smiling. “Probably would’ve dragged you to the nearest psych ward. Still…” he trails off.

“Still what?”

“I don’t know,” he shrugs. “I feel bad for that Eddie. Sounds like he could’ve used a Buck in his life.”

Buck is past feeling guilty for leaving those subconscious versions of his family behind (except for Chris, he’s never getting over that one), but he’d be lying if he said he hasn’t been running through scenarios in his head, wondering what could’ve happened if he’d stayed. (Aside from, obviously, being dead and all that).

“Yeah, I guess so,” he sighs sipping his beer. “Still, I don’t know how much I could’ve helped. I mean, of course, I would’ve tried to help you- him get Chris back. But I’m not sure how that’d work without the whole legal guardian thing, you know? I mean, m- maybe I could’ve found Ca-“

The cushion hits him square in the face and nearly makes him spill his beer.

“Hey! What’s that about?! I’m convalescent here!”

“That’s not what I meant."

“No?”

“No!” Eddie rolls his eyes, exasperated for some reason Buck doesn’t understand. “I mean… yeah, if I was in that position, of course, I’d want help getting my son back. But that’s not it…”

Buck scratches the back of his head, squinting at Eddie like it’ll somehow help him read between the lines of whatever he’s trying to say.

“Then what is it?”

“I just-“ Eddie stumbles with his words and sighs. “I just meant... it sounds like he could use a friend.”

What good would that do?

Buck doesn’t say it, but his face must betray the thought by the way Eddie’s mouth twists with annoyance.

“Buck, all your help with Chris, introducing us to Carla, you being part of his life, helping me raise him… of course, it means a lot. I don’t think I could’ve done this without you.”

“But?” He prompts.

“But,” Eddie says slowly, looking him in the eye, “that’s not all that matters. I mean, you’re my best friend, man. Even without all that, I’d want to be friends with you, hang out, laugh, do shit all on a Sunday night. That matters too.”

Just being Buck.

“Oh.”

Eddie looks away, takes two big gulps of beer, like they can wash down the emotional weight of what he’s trying to explain.

“I’m just saying,” he says, eyes still on the game they are both ignoring. “If I was going through that, it sounds like hell… I’d want a friend like you by my side. You’re a very good friend.”

Buck ducks his head to hide the heat of blood rushing through his entire face. “Uh, well, thanks… I- uh, I appreciate it. You’re a great friend too.”

He tries to picture Eddie without him. Tries to picture himself without Eddie. Both options seem impossible.

“Well, good thing we met," he decides with a grin, raising his beer lightly against Eddie's.

"Good thing you didn't die," Eddie says, and though he tries to hide it behind a sip of his beer and a distant look at the tv, Buck can feel the heaviness hidden behind that sentence. It only hits him at that moment... Eddie was maybe a little too close to finding out exactly what his life without Buck would be like. "I mean," he goes on with a shrug, "sucks for that other Eddie, but I'm not much of the sharing type. So I'm glad you came back."

"Of course," Buck smiles, trying to match the false lightness in his tone. "You're stuck with me."

"Good," Eddie nods a single time like the matter's settled. "But I'd rather not be stuck with this couch."

"It's so uncomfortable!" Buck chuckles, glad that someone finally brought it up.

"So uncomfortable!" Eddie agrees, finally meeting his eyes.

"My mom's always had the worst taste in furniture."

"Oh, so it runs in the family."

"Hey!" Buck pretends to be offended and throws the cushion back at his smug grinning face.

He misses by quite a bit (something to worry about later). Instead, the cushion knocks the beer bottle clean out of Eddie's hand and spills the dark liquid all over the couch's white fabric.

Buck and Eddie look at the growing stain. They stare at each other, silent, frozen with the sudden panic of two little kids about to be reprimanded by a grown-up. Except, there are no parents here...

...just two grown men who burst out laughing at the exact same time, bent over in a fit of giggles so loud that it drowns out the game's final touchdown. Not that anybody was watching, anyway.

#buddie #eddie diaz #evan buck buckley #911 fox #911 spoilers #i just want them to be happy and laugh together ok? #911 fic

[deluweil]

I’m so done with this Eddie-wasn’t-in-a-dream-because-he’s-not-a-parent-figure-or-a-sibling-to-Buck take, like how can people be that delusional?

As for the episode, I didn’t have any expectations as the show has been a disappointment for the last 1,5 seasons but I’m still super salty about them reducing Eddie to a barely there background character (not in a buddie sense, just generally). This season has too much Buck, every episode so far makes me like him less and less.

I think Eddie wasn't in the dream coma because an Eddie that never met Buck, that lost his son to his parents after fighting like hell to keep him, with a boss who is not as lenient as Bobby, who didn't have Buck to introduce him to Carla, is another kind of Eddie.

I would like to take a second and throw us all back to 5x05, where Buck tries to leave the 118, Eddie asks, "Who's going to replace me?"

The answer is that no one can. In Buck's mind there is no sufficient replacement to one Eddie diaz.

There is a reason Buck's first memory upon awakening in his coma dream was of a real one, with Eddie, because nothing can erase that. Buck only asks about Eddie, once he realizes the implications of him not being there for Bobby, so then he has to know what became of Eddie and Christopher.

And from that moment on, he was working harder on getting out of his own mind. Even dream Christopher wasn't enough to stop him, because at that point Buck knows that Christopher in his dream is with his grandparents in Texas.

All that's left for him is to get out and get back to the real Christopher, the one waiting for him in LA with Eddie.

As for reducing Eddie, we got an Eddie focused storyline in S5b (along with Maddie and Chimney, don't even get me started about the parallels). This season focused more on Hen and Buck.

Hen's storyline wrapped in S6a, along with the realization that her place is with Karen, Denny and the 118.

Buck's storyline has started, but it didn't really get anywhere, so that's what we're getting now.

I'm hoping that Eddie’s role in Buck's recovery will be more significant from what we've seen in the hospital.

I would like for Eddie to finally tell Buck how much he loves him (platonically or otherwise. At this point, I just want acknowledgment of Buck’s significance for Eddie said out loud already!) While Buck is present and conscious to hear it.

I also think that somewhere, Eddie is trying really hard not to repeat Buck's parents' mistakes (and by proxy Taylor's), where they only show affection when Buck nearly dies.

But that might just be me and my interpretation of things.

As for liking Buck, I gotta say that while I'm an Eddie girl through and through, Buck's character development made him grow on me more and more with each season.

So if you want to be mad at someone, be mad at the showrunners, whom, at times, seem like they aren't completely sure what they're doing.

Because both Oliver and Ryan are giving it their all, and for that, they earned our (at least my) respect and love.

Thank you for sharing your thoughts with me 🙏💜💜

#911 ask #eddie diaz #evan buckley #buddie #hen wilson #911 5x05 #911 6x11 #911 spoilers #911 speculation #911 on fox #911 cast #911 fox #oliver stark #ryan guzman #deluweil answers

[baddygab-bi]

I lied, one last episode thought.

I love the writing of the episode, I may or may not have an actual script from the show that this writer has written. I love her style. No you will never see it, it’s mine.

But…

There were a lot of things in the coma dream that went unresolved, that as a writer… irk me.

Buck mentions getting Maddie from Doug, get her safe, see her with Chim. None of that happens. There’s a brief line from Chim at the end.

Buck being a teacher and having kids. Nothing happens there.

Buck finding out about Eddie. Nothing happens there. He briefly sees Chris later, but it changes nothing.

He didn’t fix anything, which I know you could be saying “But Gabbi that’s the point! He’s a fixer and he couldn’t fix anything in that world!”

And I say, “Yeah! That’s so true! Could be so deep and meaningful!”

Except… he didn’t try.

He had a conversation with Maddie, that’s about it. The rest of the episode was about Buck realizing he made impacts on Bobby and being proud that he’s Buck, dealing with being called spare parts, and then saying he’s a firefighter. Which is amazing and would’ve been a great episode, except those things lasted less than 5 minutes.

This is what would’ve made more narrative sense and would’ve worked with the (about) 45 minutes they get of air time:

Cut the stuff about Chimney and his dad/step-mom. Not relevant to this episode.

Cut Albert and Chim talking about Chim being a dad. Not relevant to the episode.

Cut Buckley parent stuff. (I’m going with pre-6b Buckleys and how they used to be, along with pre-6x10 Buck baby donor thoughts)

Now, have everything go as it was up through Buck finding out about Eddie. Except Cap isn’t dead, he’s just struggling as bad as he was when Buck first joined the station. Worse maybe. Quiet, stoic, drinking on the DL.

From there, what the episode should’ve been (and following the progression of past seasons and 6a), was for Buck to get his 118 family back together again.

He gets Maddie away from Doug, she meets Chim— you see the connection in their eyes.

He sees his life as a teacher, sees the cards, sees drawings, sees a class portrait, he realizes that he has these kids, but they aren’t his. He loves them, but *wipes his tear* he has a real kid to get back to. (Intercut this part with Chris in the hospital room) He knows he has to get Eddie and Chris back together so—

He gets Carla. He introduces Carla to Eddie and Chris is magically back (it’s a dream world).

His parents can still be loving, but Buck’s focus isn’t on them, it’s on his fire family because he realizes that they are the people who love him no matter what.

He puts the pieces back together, because he’s Buck. He is more than spare parts. He’s a firefighter. He’s his own person. He has a family. He’s happy.

He wakes up surrounded by the people who love him, and he goes home with Bobby, “let’s go home, son.”

Instead we had an episode where everything was touched on, nothing was fixed— but with no resolve of why, nothing answered for Buck in regards to his happiness, and it all stuck with a weird “I love my family” idea… but it was the wrong family?? It was an episode where the people who he struggled to leave in the coma dream were his parents who had been awful to him, and then irl were being nice. So it wasn’t like he was missing anything by staying. If his parents were still how they were seasons ago (“love me anyway”) then, yeah, leaving them would’ve been hard. That would’ve made more sense. But instead he went from picking them up from the airport, having family dinners, feeling happy with them, to the coma dream where when he woke up afterwards his parents were still nice. It lacked the tension that would’ve existed if there was a difference between irl parents and coma parents, but it was too subtle.

What should’ve made it hard to leave is that the 118 he got back together was going to miss him so much, that he was a part of them, that he felt like he was home already but he knew he wasn’t. The whole thing with him running out of time would’ve still been in the episode. So he had to leave his fake family to get back to his real one.

I think that’s what’s driving me nuts. The potential for this episode was amazing. Everything was aligned for it to be amazing. And it was incredible! Just… lacking.

The only way to fix what happened is if the Buckley parents turn out to still be evil later this season, and are only being nice because they need something, this would set Buck off… except that there’s no time to resolve that and we’d need another coma where he can realize things.

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when or at what moment do you think eddie fell in love with buck?

Hi Nonnie! Thank you for the ask.

TBH, this is such a difficult question, ‘coz I think most of the time, falling in love is a process. There is no one moment when it happens, at most there is one moment where someone realizes they’re in love. What people refer to as “love at first sight”? I think that’s a recognition that something about another person is so striking that there is a willingness to let go and fall for them, let the process of falling in love begin. 

In Eddie’s case, I do think something about Buck attracted him from the start, we see him in 201 showing more specific interest in Buck than in anyone else of his new team as revealed during the gym confrontation, when Eddie says he knows Buck’s a good guy and going through a messy break up. By the end of the ep, his interest and attraction have been justified, and the two of them exchange a vow to always have each other’s back, which I only half-jokingly think of as their wedding vow, but TBH, while I think it was a big step forward in the process of Eddie falling for Buck, I don’t think it was the truly first major one. 

I think that starts in ep 202, when Eddie hesitates, but eventually decides to show Buck his son’s pic. Any rejection, no matter how small, any insincerity in Buck’s reaction, and I have no doubt that would have been the end of the process for Eddie. Chris is literally his heart. I don’t believe Eddie could ever fall in love with anyone who didn’t love his son as well. And that because Christopher matters so much, any falling in love process for Eddie will always only truly starts when he sees his son being embraced by this new potential love. So yeah, when Buck is so genuinely enthusiastic about Chris, when he spends time along the ep thinking about how Eddie must feel, not being able to make contact with his son, and as Buck tries to comfort him, or when let him know right away once reception is back. How could Eddie resist falling for a man like that? And then 204 comes along and seals his fate. Not only does Buck adore Chris, he’s literally stepping into Eddie’s mess with him and helps him manage parenting. The heart eyes Buck gets when Eddie hears what being introduced to Carla is all about? That’s the most gone he has ever been for any human, I am convinced of it. That’s not the end of the process, there’s a ton of additional moments where Eddie kept falling deeper and deeper in love with Buck, but I think that’s the incident that pushed Eddie from really, really, really liking Buck to being properly in love. Even if he didn’t know it himself at the time.

I hope I managed to sort of answer your question, Nonnie? Have a great day! As always, here’s my ask tag.

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