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madpunks · 7 months

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poor memory is a huge deal and i wish people wouldn't diminish it by saying "oh yeah i can't remember what i had for breakfast lol."

i can't remember the first 10 years of my life. i can't remember entire days, weeks, months at a time. i can't remember entire people, i can't remember names or faces. i can't remember when things are scheduled for, my calendar app on my phone is booked to the max with reminders and task checklists. i can't remember when i moved into what home when, i can't remember important milestone dates like when i got or lost certain jobs, or when i started a new hobby.

that's what i mean when i say i have poor memory. poor memory is so scary for the person who has it. it's not a quirky thing, everyone forgets small details. memory problems are scary because you can go through entire events or days with no memory, or plan for things in the future that you can't recall ever even looking into or scheduling. it's not a funny haha kind of thing, it's serious, and it affects a lot of people in very unavoidable ways.

not being able to plan for appointments or work schedules, not being able to remember people's names or faces, not being able to recall whether or not you were present for something or whether or not you met someone, not being able to keep track of what's happening on what dates and losing track of items because you can't remember where you put them are all very real problems, and anyone dealing with them deserves to be taken seriously, and not diminished when they choose to speak up about it.

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borderlineangel222 · 2 years

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it’s unfair how i have the responsibility to heal myself when i didn’t cause my wound in the first place

#actually borderline #bpd favorite person #living with borderline #diagnosed borderline #bpd thoughts #actually bpd #borderline personality disorder #bpd awareness #ptsd #ptsdwarrior #living with ptsd #ptsd thoughts #generational trauma #trauma #childhood trauma #daddy issues #father issues #mommy issues

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mariposas8494 · 1 year

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Haha yasss

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yet-another-autism-blog · 7 months

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It's actually really ableist that I have several expensive interests and no money. I should be given 5k a month just autism related spending money

#actuallyautistic #actually autistic #autism #autistic #autism spectrum disorder #this is sarcasm #but also its true #special interest #i have several expensive special interests #they all tie into each other #glam rock music which leads into fashion/makeup #but also ties into music in general #anyway i went to the store to buy hair dye and black face glitter #because i need it for an outfit for an upcoming concert #they didnt have either one #but i stopped at the bookstore #and they had david bowies moonage daydream book #about ziggy stardust #and they had a beginners learn-to-play drums set #and i wanna learn to play drums #but i think i need to get better at guitar before i take on a whole new instrument #but i cant justify spending the money right now #especially with the upcoming concert #thats going to be expensive #i have to go out of state for it

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panicismydefaultstate · 7 months

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Just in case anyone else needed to hear this today-

Your health is not your fault. You didn’t do anything to “deserve” this. And you are right, it isn’t fair. You are allowed to feel upset, hurt, angry and jealous that your health, body or mind disables you.

It’s not fair, and that sucks. You are allowed to scream about that as much as you need to.

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lostmf · 7 months

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biggest-gaudiest-patronuses · 1 year

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growing up with a perpetually anxious primary caregiver is such a mindfuck. that shit will rewire your nervous system

#not a shitpost #i get that parenthood and modern life in general is extremely anxiety inducing #and that anxiety is a common mental health issue and anxiety disorders exist and do not disqualify you from being a loving parent #but i am begging you PLEASE do not project your anxiety onto your kids #especially younger kids #your job is to make your kids feel safe and secure. that is a primary requirement #that doesn't mean you can't be anxious!#but just like being angry doesn't mean you're allowed to yell at your kids or slam doors or break things #being anxious doesn't mean you are allowed to surround your kids with your own fear and stress or teach them to share your anxieties #your job is to be a comforting nurturing parental figure. that means projecting comfort and love #even when it is hard! even when you are tired or angry or scared!#which is a damn hard job! and you won't get it right all the time!#but dammit babes you gotta TRY #kids deserve to feel safe and comfortable in their daily lives #you CANNOT be teaching them to expect catastrophe lurking around every corner

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knifearo · 6 days

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this year my challenge for everyone is to unlearn the association between love and morality. love is not something that is inherently morally good, and the absence of love is not something that is inherently bad. sex without love isn't morally bankrupt, it's just an action. people without love aren't less kind or less good, they're just people. when we can get past this false (and often unnoticed) dichotomy of good love/evil lovelessness then i think we are going to be able to take leaps and bounds in sex positivity, aro advocacy, certain discussions of mental health...

#and also. not the direct focus. but love doesn't make things good. you can be in love and do terrible terrible things.#people do bad things in the name of love and in despite of love all the time.#but!! imagine a world where people could exist as people and not be demonized.#sex positivity means being cool about All sex. reexamine your internal systems of moral judgement.#this goes for sex workers. for aroallo people. especially aroallo men. for aro people in general who might enjoy sex.#and frankly i think it can easily bleed into discussions about mental health disorders around 'not feeling' certain things #especially demonizing ppl who don't feel as much empathy. i think there's definitely a correlation between that and the emphasis on love.#our support needs to go out to Everybody and i think these things are all structured together in one way or another!!#it might not be immediately obvious but when i tell you it all leads back to amatonormativity..... little bit wild.... large bit wild....#anyway. horror movie psychopath 'oh he can't feel emotions or love' damn alright. well. let's take a closer look at that.#silly that there's an association between lack of love and Murdering. feel like that might affect some stuff.#love is just an emotion/a feeling it doesn't mean anything about you one way or another #same with empathy. you can feel it all you want but it doesn't inherently change the actions you choose to take #anyway. thesis statement. there is a socially constructed link between love and morality. unlearn that.#kiss kiss (<— lovelessly)#aromantic #aromanticism #arospec #talking #aroace #aspec #sex positivity

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angelboybreakdowns · 1 year

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just. ugh. youll say “i am experiencing something that is a literal textbook symptom of the disorder i have” and nts will tell you youre making it up and its obviously not a real thing

#‘being anxious about school isnt a symptom of gad’ oh sure yeah not like its. yknow. LITERALLY LISTED AS A SYMPTOM IN THE DSM-5 #living with nts is just. so fucking exhausting #you mention anything they havent personally experienced and they think its somehow impossible #actually autistic #autism #autistic #neurodivergent #adhd #actually neurodivergent #autism/adhd #actuallyautistic #actually adhd #neurodivergence #generalized anxiety disorder

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reimeichan · 10 months

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oh sure when actors playing a character with DID or otherwise acting as multiple people in one body switch between alters on screen they're "such a talented actor" and you "get chills" but when I, actual diagnosed DID system, switch in front of you, it's "scary and unnerving" and you "no longer know how to talk to me".

#dissociative identity disorder #did #actually did #actuallydid #did osdd #osddid #cdd #this has nothing to do with anyone online btw #I'm just. so tired of people have treated me.#i am so envious of those who can treat DID like it's some cool novelty in media #or a way to flex their acting skills #while I am ridiculed and shunned by the people who I thought were my friends #this is not a callout post for anyone #this is a callout post for society in general #vent

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desultory-suggestions · 2 months

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Just a little reminder for you today. You are loved. I know you are trying your best, and I promise you that it is enough. Any mistakes you made today will pass, give yourself the kindness of admitting that you are just a person and people make mistakes. Take a deep breathe in, and let it out. You can do this hard thing.

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borderlineangel222 · 11 months

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i’m afraid that one day my anger will overshadow the little love i still have left for the world

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mariposas8494 · 1 year

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Doing our best looks different 🫶🏻

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she-is-ovarit · 1 year

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Please hear me.

Being tired isn't normal. It doesn't matter that you're aging. Being fatigued is a serious sign.

It might be difficult to judge "normal tired" from "bad tired". Rule of thumb is that if you notice that other people seem to be on another plane of existence with alertness, you're not "normal tired".

I slept for 10-12 hours a day at least and still was tired for most of the day but "functioned" (went to work).

It turns out it wasn't just one thing. It was a lot of things. I went on liquid vitamins first because that's all I had energy for—to throw money at something that can be delivered to me. And it was crucial. I went off my heart medication after my doctor let me know my active heart rate was way too low (prior to the vitamins). I felt super improved and this went from feeling super improved to extremely improved after I began to eat more healthy fats (avocados, eggs, nuts, vegetarian-friendly animal products). I cannot emohasize the eating more fats thing enough. Did you know that due to our biology women are supposed to have way more healthy fats than what we're typically told?

I had struggled with other symptoms I brushed off as normal too. My hands and feet being cold all the time. Turns out this wasn't normal. How many women and girls have cold hands and feet constantly? I was "adoringly clumsy". Balance issues from vitamin B12 deficiency. Foot cramps. Magnesium deficiency. Generalized anxiety disorder. Still have it, but significantly improved because my body isn't fighting for it's life. Lack of focus/concentration issues to the point where I worried I had ADHD or something since that's all I know about that mental health condition.

Constant cravings I blamed on emotional eating. Increasing my healthy fat intake all about cured this—helped more than protein. I began to lose weight when I increased my healthy fats because I was no longer seeking out sugar or bad fats. Iron deficiency and vitamin D3 deficiencies were also confirmed on blood tests before I started liquid vitamins.

When I went off my heart med and bought those dumb electrolyte packets for my water, my arrhythmia is now hardly noticeable physically.

And to circle back—I am awake. And I sometimes break down and cry because I can't believe how I was functioning now that I understand what having energy feels like. I didn't know. I didn't know there was even anything wrong with me. I thought I was just a tired person. That being tired was normal to being female and aging.

Chronic fatigue is extremely serious. It's not normal. You're not just a tired person.

#chronic fatigue #health #women's health #generalized anxiety disorder #vegan #vegetarian #nutrition #my posts #mental health

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doomsdayradio · 2 months

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YOU call him a narcissist because he's a horrible person I call him a narcissist because he fits the NPD criteria and he's just like me fr

#this is about alastor from hazbin hotel but also just like in general too #words words words !!#npd #narcissistic personality disorder #actually narcissistic #actually npd #!

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coffeeinthecoffin · 6 months

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People when someone with bpd starts showing symptoms of a literal personality disorder that can’t be romanticized: 😮 😡

#actually bpd #bpd #cluster b #actually cluster b #borderline personality disorder #bipolar 2 #actually bipolar #bipolar disorder #mental illness #generalized anxiety disorder

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