#the girl in my dreams is called medmoriel and she has beautiful eyes and she is full of wit and hatred and happiness and i don't know what

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constantly thinking abt her (the girl[?] i keep dreaming of) i don't understand why i keep seeing her or thinking abt her bc like . im 100% certain i havent seen anyone like that irl ?? it makes no sense djdjd anyway im confused why my brain is doing this and what it means

#i had a dream where someone who hates me chased me through my childhood town and i told them they have a beautiful smile and they told me i #will be beautiful when i die #i thought to myself you have infringed upon pure memories (the most sacred thing) and i cannot forgive you for that #i woke up and it was 3pm and i couldn't stop thinking about how the field stretched out and how unspoken grief makes a human so effective #and simultaneously dysfunctional. when you know a last kiss will be the last kiss it will also be one of the best kisses . #the last time i kissed someone i was not in love . i was not grieving them . i was grieving my own loss . #i thought i had died #the girl in my dreams is called medmoriel and she has beautiful eyes and she is full of wit and hatred and happiness and i don't know what #any of it means #look at me anyone anyone anyone look at me #stare at me - i will not stare back direcrly - and let me hold your shoulders and tell you i love you i love you i love you #i will love almost anyone i think most people will love almost anyone if they know them enough #any stranger will become beautiful once you know them