#the high note gets me every time

[funeralprocessor]

I really need to socialize with people more. Shame about the horrors though.

#not the horrors that I'm friends with obviously I love y'all #but like every time I manage to have a good time talking to people I inevitably find myself scared of talking more because #well what if I fuck it up *next time*? better to end on a high note #and despite people generally thinking I'm alright and other people straight up saying they also wanna socialize more and make friends #I cant help but feel that I would be overstepping my bounds and acting completely outrè by (checks notes) saying hi #and when people DM *me* I get spooked #this is not ideal lol

[muppetcube]

I think if the Usher family had just taken edibles together everything would've turned out fine

#aka i think the idea of them all taking edibles and everyone except like . perry leo and camille greening out and those three being too hig #h to do anything about it or help is really funny #i think if Tammy took a dab she'd either have the worst time like . ever or she'd become enlightened or something #i just really wanna see Tammy high off her ass #the fall of the house of usher #roderick usher #madeline usher #camille l'espanaye #napoleon usher #prospero usher #victorine lafourcade #tamerlane usher #frederick usher #also final note b4 anyone gets onto me about 'not understanding the show' my solution to every show i like is 'how would them greening out #together affect their dynamic' because mike flanagan writes the most tragic family dynamics ever and im obsessed

[skeletalheartattack]

im showing my friend clanker the awesome six eggs and single ice key i found today

#happy easter clanker #for the past three days ive just been playing banjo kazooie for fun #ended originally with a time of 8:22:12 #but that changed when i wanted to try getting the stop n swop stuff for the first time on my copy of banjo #so the final time is 9:32:33 #i forgot how much i disliked rusty bucket bay. good lord that engine room and stinky bad water #every other level was fine. though i got so confused at first as to what jiggy i was missing in click clock woods #it was just the one on the branch at the very top of the tree. i wouldve never found it had i not looked it up #notes and honeycombs though? did those purely from memory #jiggies too i guess minus the single 1 out of 100 #which i think is better than what i was hoping to achieve playing without a guide #i didnt get all mumbo tokens though. i DID get the ones you could easily lose if done wrong though. #i need 7 more mumbo tokens basically to reach 100% #i was also very tempted to 100% gruntys furnace fun (i.e. all squares) but. at a point i was like ''hm. no lets not'' #maybe someday. just not then. #i managed to blind guess a lot of grunty questions though #only talked to her sister like. once. and i didnt get any of those questions on the quiz #oh yknow whats fucked up? that one shortcut between rusty bucket bay and mad monster mansions puzzle #you cant break the gate for it if you raise the water level too high #also it took me until today to learn that CheatO's cheats are upgrades and not... cheats #fucked up. but i didnt have too much problems without it. <- he died to grunty once only cause he got knocked off the tower #anyway sorry for the strange photo quality. played on my n64 on an old crt ive had. and i only have a lamp on in my room. #its not as dark as it looks in the image atleast #i also learned that banjo kazooie has way more cheats than i ever knew about #before collecting all the stop n swop stuff. i gave myself the infinite air underwater cheat cause. god. #its so nice to swim around with any anxiety. mostly just used it to swim with clanker for a bit. :). #didnt need it for any other reasons. i done collected everything else girlies #though kid me used a lot of cheat codes in tooie. only because i had a magazine that had all the codes #i 100%'d that one a few years ago i think. jiggies atleast. i think. #anyway. :) clanker

[lilacthebooklover]

Why did nobody tell me there was a Death Note musical before now??? With Jeremy Jordan in it??? I feel betrayed.

#musicals #death note #jeremy jordan #what a legend #light yagami #death note l #yagami light #death note musical #misa amane #srsly im obsessed with stalemate #the high harmony gets me every time #and where is the justice??? #it's so good #this whole thing is so good #ryuk death note

[the-valiant-valkyrie]

some sort of comp

#fabbylaris #suggestive #not tagging it any more than that this is just for the believers #tthese fucking screenshots have been sitting in my notes for months.... get Out of here.... #not pictured is 'JUST THE NORMAL SUCK IS OKAY PLEASE'. i also think thats fitting to the aura of this post #idk... i guess i havent evolved since middle school #but the concept of a med/high libido fabby engaging w a. not even low libido just completely oblivious solaris #takes me out every time... its the simple things i think

[no1raulesparzafan]

i'm your ⁿᵉʷ commander

and you now are my prisoner

we return to transylvania

prepare the

#this is all i can think of when i hear that line #also not the point but the high note on new gets me every time #mine #the rocky horror show #the rocky horror picture show #rocky horror #musicals

[moregraceful]

Also I deleted the post bc it was a bad version of myself, but I'm gonna say it again, it is bananas to me that Taylor Swift only sang one song off of her self-titled album in the Eras tour movie. like girl you cannot hide from "Tim McGraw" and "Teardrops On My Guitar" even if you were just cosplaying Tennessee country like those songs put you on the goddamn map and this is how you repay them??

#the thing abt the eras tour movie is. it unlocked many opinions about taylor swift's music i didn't realize i had #''is fearless her greatest album'' i asked myself. ''all these songs are bangers i still know all the lyrics'' #no dummy you only know all the lyrics bc your 15yo sister put the house in 24/7 tswift lockdown every time she released an album #these songs are fun but more importantly your sister is 6in taller and an athlete so you didn't control the aux past the age of 17 #i haven't listened to a taylor swift album in full since 1989 was released (when my sister moved out)...some of her newer stuff is fun #don't blame me is pretty good. wish i had not been surrounded by middle schoolers the first time heard it. #but she's got some bangers. DON'T tell me anything about her personal life i don't wanna know and i don't care to learn #(my coworker: ''i forgot she swears so much on reputation and midnights 😭 oh well our kids probably see worse tiktok every day'' #me: 🫠🫠🫠) #also side note my 21yo coworker was like do you ever call our kids ''my kids'' around people and do people get really confused #i was like yes. people think they are my real kids and ask how old my kids are and i say high school and they get kinda worried #she was like yeah....my college classmates asked how old my kids are when i said i was taking my kids to the eras tour movie #and when i told them middle school they got really really alarmed and worried about me #nonprofit work lol. i'm stressed all the time about other people's children. i call them my kids. they all lowkey hate me. life this is it #fresno oilers.txt

[usareiis]

#seriously seriously one of the most beautiful pieces of music i have ever heard #i feel so conflicted thinking about this but i was always afraid to get more into shinee because of jonghyun #i remember the exact day he died when i was in high school and i remember feeling slammed with the news even though he was just guy from... #...clue + note to me and as i have gotten more into kpop in the past few years i have been there for all of shinee's comebacks from don't... #...call me on and i always kept them at a distance bc even though i thought they seemed so cool i was worried to get into them and always... #...feel like someone was missing. and now that my little sister has gotten so into them i have too #and it does feel like someone is missing all of the time and we watch so much content of jonghyun together that sometimes it hits me all... #...over again how unreal and bad it is that he isn't in the world with us anymore #i am so sad too thinking about how i almost didn't hear some of the most beautiful music out of the fear of grieving him #one of the most beautiful voices and i click with his words so so much #like he's my friend and i almost never got to know him :( and that thought it so much worse than the worry of having to miss him :( #it also makes me sick bc if it would have changed anything for him at all. he's still making so many people happy. he's still there for me. #i don't get this emotional every time i listen to him but sometimes it all hits me #music #Spotify

[mercymaker]

chilling vibing getting stuff done and then suddenly getting hit by 'why do you try so hard to make something new and good and bend yourself backwards pushing for quality when that stuff is mostly discouraged and low effort quantity-over-quality stuff is constantly rewarded'

#life #was on a high after writing quite a bit today #but now feel like a deflating balloon lmao #like yeah nah yeah i've worked with social media enough to know that you have to play 'their' game in order to 'succeed' #but that whole premise is so soulless and yet #it's the shit paradox that most often the less time and effort you put into something the more likely it will do good online #but with constantly diminishing returns it can get pretty tough #like the pattern is there it's all in motion #and it's just gonna get worse and worse and worse #people barely reblog anymore barely comment #i started posting my writing because i thought 'well at least one person might like it!' #like... i cannot NOT write it's just who i am #but even with the folders full of personal writing and whatnot at some point i stopped #because writing is just incredibly lonely and it was starting to make me feel worse about it so i stopped #but yeah nah fam #i'm just fully in the period shits and getting emotional #but the ongoing decline of engagement and communication is just sad to see #like even artists around me who are incredibly talented i see them barely get any notes and if they do it's pretty much all likes #shit's depressing fam #and then on top of that we have people stealing shit from us #like that fucking guy who copied every bg3 creator's ideas and then started playing victim when called out #what was up with that lmao

[xoxoxoxoxos]

#selection baaaby #that high note gets me every time #drowning out holiday music the only way i know how with 90s/00s r&b #i'm healing #music #Spotify

[rohirric-hunter]

I am seriously considering picking up my whole operation and moving it to a different server. Crickhollow was widely considered one of the nicest servers when I started, but I'm starting to realize more and more that isn't the case anymore, at least not when it comes to PUGs and raiding.

On Crickhollow there's a cabal of about 20 big-shot raiders who rule the roost, and they decide who is or isn't good enough to do t2 and above raids. Even if you try to start your own group that has nothing to do with them, they'll clog up LFF with constant insistence that you're not good enough and you're going to get wiped, and if you tell them to shut up they'll claim they were "just trying to help." And if someone starts their own group, manages to persevere through all that, and makes the mistake of inviting one of this lot to their raid? They'll actually try to get themselves set as leader and then kick people they don't think are good enough. I've seen this attempted, with varying degrees of success, eight or nine times, and usually if they don't succeed they'll then drop out in a huff, because they never wanted to run the instance, they just wanted to stop other people from doing it. Once someone pretended like they were going to tank, aggroed all the trash, and then sent "this group sucks good luck" to fellowship chat and left the fellowship, which booted them out of the instance and left the rest of us high and dry. (Joke's on them, we finished the instance anyway with 5 of us and me tanking, because even a blue-line hunter can tank t2 Stairs. And yes, I reported that behavior but obviously nothing happened.)

SSG has been attempting to mitigate this through various means; delvings, for instance, grant high level gear so these people can no longer use gear as an excuse to keep people out of their private party, and this did help a little bit, but the most assholish of this group will now refuse to raid with people wearing delving gear, because, in their words, "gear is an indication of what you've managed to accomplish, and you could have gotten that from doing nothing but t1 delvings."

I have tried joining kinships that raid, but that experience has been even worse because as someone who is (I don't mind saying) pretty good at the game and usually geared out pretty well, I immediately got catapulted into the raiding "in-group" in these kins, where people expected me to help them put down members of the same kinship with exactly the same vindictiveness. (There was also a general intolerance in these kins for people who weren't in a financial position to preorder every new expansion the second it was available, which didn't sit well with me when I could afford to do that, who even knows where I'd have been when I couldn't.) And when I specifically look for kinships that are not like that, they were always way too casual to attempt t3+ instances -- most likely because picking up extra people to fill out the raid results in harassment from The Cabal.

Not to mention that although I said a few days ago that I thought the vitriol against DPS had died down a bit since it's been so hard for them to get DPS for months and months, I had apparently just luckily happened across a very reasonable group, because last night I was looking for (t1!) Carn Dum instances in LFF and someone saw that I was a Hunter and said I obviously couldn't handle it because I "probably didn't even know what mits are," like that's an appropriate thing to say to someone who's just looking for a t1.

Anyway. I'm really tired of the whole raiding scene being held hostage by like 20 people and their exclusive little club. I really want to go to a server with a more active raiding scene, since if more people are raiding, I figure there will be enough people that one group can't get that kind of a chokehold on it. I just need to do some recon and figure out where to go.

#lotro #ignore me im complaining #also these damning condemnations of dps classes always seem to come from tanks who cant hold aggro #just an observation its probably not connected at all #but i will definitely note that i play on a regular basis with tanks who can hold aggro and actually dont know what mits are #but are still better tanks than this lot #because they understand what their job as a tank is #(holding aggro. in case that isnt clear) #i legit once had a guardian tell me that 'its unreasonable to expect them to hold aggro at all times' IT LITERALLY ISNT #IT IS YOUR JOB #AND I KNOW PLENTY OF PEOPLE WHO ARENT IN YOUR STUPID LITTLE CLUB WHO CAN DO IT #can you imagine if i as a dps class went out there and said 'its unreasonable to expect me to do high damage in every boss fight' #to be very clear none of this is about the gwathrenost group from the other night they were all very lovely #except for the girl boss/man boss thing but to be fair thinking back over some things #i think english might not have been their first language. so well forgive that this once #this was about me trying to get a group last night and seeing that nothings really changed i just got lucky

[exopelagic]

sudden realisation that the thing holding my art back is that I never had an anime phase

#going to find a time machine and get my younger self into death note or smth #I have been driving myself insane for the past few years bc I wanna draw characters but all I know how to do is portraits #I’m trying to figure out how I could recreate smth similar now and tragically I think it does just come down to draw more :/ #however! I am also going to try using brushes which will be bad for sketchiness and better for lineart bc I might need to force myself here #I just gotta simplify things down to basic shapes how hard can it be #[has been thinking this exact thing for years and it’s not worked] #I am getting better every time I do stuff I’m just not satisfied bc art is frustrating when you know what you want but can’t get there #god it’s 2am I should not be awake rn but I could draw again tonight so I was taking advantage #endlessly frustrated by hair. why is it so awkward. I need to understand hair better how do I do this #i have a feeling it’s bc I’ve not figured out how to apply the shit I figured out abt volume yet #I’m also getting impatient bc I’ve been trying to do a study thing for some art styles but I decided I wanted to draw ocs instead of that #when I hadn’t gotten to the actually important bit which was. making smth new. but I can still do that #and I ended up doing a different style anyway (someone pls stop me rounding everything make me use high opacity square brush for my health) #the Other problem is I never wanna switch brushes. like I want to use one brush for whole drawing bc the extra clicks annoy me #I wonder if there’s a shortcut to swap brushes #anyway I’m gonna stop complaining bc drawing is fun but god I wish I’d drawn some more pokey mans when I was a teenager yknow #ideally younger. would rlly like to not have to actually think to figure this out rn #I’m probably overthinking stuff anyway honestly and I KNOW I’ll get it if I practice enough but goddamn it is hard to practice #especially when my me insists on making the bad things look better by making it more realistic #instead of figuring out why the shapes aren’t working #OKAY IM DONE WITH THIS NOW. GONNA TRY NEW ART THINGS LATER STOP TALKING <3 #luke.txt

[pnuk-r0ck]

I finally got my mom to listen to smfs :0

#She liked Hold Me Like A Grudge #She really liked that part in the chorus when Patrick hits the high note doing “yeah-ah” #Although she wasn’t much of a fan when in I Am My Own Muse he goes “let’s twist the knife again” #My sister was so pissed we were listening to something that wasn’t Taylor Swift #Every time we get in the car my sister goes “Mom can you put on Taylor Swift” #This is the one time I picked the music and she was angry💀 #Victor Speaks

[bunnyb34r]

Afsgsgsg I started donating to charities both to help people bc I can (I check em on that website to make sure my money is actually helping people) and to get address labels and cards and shit bc my mom gets so many and I was like 👀

Well be careful what you wish for when you have no one to send mail to and now have a gazillion cards and address labels 😭

#it's not actually a problem agsgdgdg i just think it's funny like oh yes give me all the labels! this is great! oh no... oh no what have i #done... and even if you stop sending money regularly they still send you shit after a certain donation threshold (i think at $50 or $100 #over a couple months donations is when i got stuff) #and you can opt in to let them send your info to other charities and im greedy so i said yes and now i have a gazillion labels pads of #paper and cards 😭 i got a t-shirt once from a charity i refuse to donate to shdhdhd they were like GIVE US $15 AND WE'LL SEND YOU #ANOTHER SHIRT! and another mailer from them was like $15 and we'll give you a hat agdggdgdgdggd #my aunt had so much of this shit it was hilarious bc she donated a lot of money to different charities over decades of time #and she had like a box full of them along with wrapping paper sheets and shitty bags they send a couple blankets too agdgdgdg #imo the coolest was the long pad of post it notes pbs sent me :D i was like holy shit this rules shdhdhdg #funny that when i finally get address labels and shit i have no one to send mail to bc they either passed away or i dont talk to them #anymore. like in high school my friend and i would mail back and forth the same card and add to it every time agdggdgd it was so fun #anyway it feels nice to be able to budget in some money for charities every month or whenever i remember to mail em #feels like im helping bit by bit #also i really just like getting mail lol #marquilla

[thestarlitnights]

one of the greatest things i’ve stumbled upon - eurovision trombone champ

just discovered trombone champ covers of promise, cha cha cha, solo and who the hell is edgar and tattoo and i’m Dying https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nzGZ5wVTlAg https://www.reddit.com/r/eurovision/comments/12mb92w/i_made_a_trombone_champ_mod_for_blanka_solo_youre/ https://www.reddit.com/r/eurovision/comments/12nccqu/i_made_who_the_hell_is_edgar_for_trombone_champ/ https://www.reddit.com/r/eurovision/comments/132xr35/honey_wake_up_new_trombone_champ_cover_just/ https://www.reddit.com/r/eurovision/comments/12y09oa/i_made_cha_cha_cha_for_trombone_champ_better/ if someone manages to cover all esc 2023 songs in trombone champ i’d be very impressed and also dead from laughter, like: - “hello? samo mi se spava [AGGRESSIVE TROMBONE DOOTING]” - “i decide to BE [TOOT], DO [TOOT], LOOK [TOOT]” - “CIUTO TOOTO” - “you can’t! break a! [LONG TOOT THAT REPLACES HIGH NOTE]” -”A CHANTER LA GRANDE FRANCEEEEEEEEE [long arse toot]”

#eurovision #esc 2023 #EUROVISION TROMBONE CHAMP COVER MAKER IS ICONIC #imagine the wobbly high and long notes for some songs #trombone champ gets me every time istg #star's rambles

[daisywords]

imagine actually making measurable progress on your wips...finishing them even...works that are no longer 'in progress'

#guys I can't write #like I can write when I do it it's good actually I just can't do it that often #on the one hand...the ''forcing myself to produce'' energy is getting all used up by #*checks notes* literally everything else in my life #but even when the stars align and I do have both time and energy #I am SO SLOW #and yet I am the KING of ideas fr #but they are wasted on me because I'm never going to be able to get around to them #anyway I've finished literally ONE short story in my whole life #not counting the one that was a school assignment in sixth grade #and it's like ''oh okay maybe writing isn't for you then'' #listen I am thinking about these stories every day of my life #and it's like. my favorite part of being myself #but in conclusion something is wrong with me ig #like seriously how do you guys do it how are you writing more than like 12k a year #I keep saying maybe when I'm done with school it will be different but sadly I don't think that will come to pass #and like all the advice is like ''everyone has time in their schedule you just have to prioritize writing'' #as if I haven't been hanging on by my fingernails since high school #like seriously I'm inordinately busy rn but that's not even the problem #but idk what the problem IS #it's not like I'm stuck bc of a particular wip either bc I've switched and written different things #idk I need to get better habits #but it's hard to devote headspace to that when life is a treadmill set to a speed that I'll just never be fast enough for