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#the koschei is dead saga
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what if we were two mentally ill kids in a society that has no words or tolerance for that. what if we killed someone and unavoidably our identities and relationship were built around that trauma. what if we spent the rest of our lives trying to grapple with what we did to each other, still without words for it. and what if we were both girls/boys/it’s complicated ashkdjhdgjhg
Words: 28735, Chapters: 8/8, Language: English
Fandoms: Doctor Who (2005), Doctor Who & Related Fandoms
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Characters: Twelfth Doctor, Missy (Doctor Who), Theta Sigma, Koschei
Relationships: Twelfth Doctor & Missy, Theta Sigma & Koschei, Twelfth Doctor/Missy, Theta Sigma/Koschei
Additional Tags: The Vault (Doctor Who), Doctor Who: Academy Era, torvic - Freeform, Trauma, Dissociation, i think. or something like it, wibbly wobbly memories, Self-Harm, Hurt/Comfort, Bathing/Washing, Vomiting, only in the last chapter, Non-Linear Narrative, Flashbacks
alternatively, what if youre like 10 and you almost get drowned by a bully and get that memory warped so that instead of the victim you become the murderer. what if you did that for your best friend. i mean what if your best friend did that to you. did you die?
theres love, somewhere in your body. theres death, somewhere in your body. you are remade so many times by through because of love. you die so many times by through because of love. are you dead yet? were you ever alive?
you were remade before you were made. you are a person inside out. you are a body without a soul. your friend did this to you for what you did for them. have you decomposed yet? why have you not decomposed yet?
#the koschei is dead saga#i like the ending#natural conclusion to making her symbolically dead#im not killing her theres no love in that. besides shes already dead. i did something better#i will not finish the thasmissy fic before the arbitrary deadline i set for the 30th but thats okay bc i did finish this one#it's silly how much i devalued this fic in my head once i got going on the thasmissy fic#as if i didnt write them in conversation with each other#as if this isnt the longest fic ive published until i finish the thasmissy one#it's not my best i dont think im particularly made for longform fiction#but im still very happy of what i managed to say#about thoschei and what torvic's murder did to them#i think the actual story in this is chapter 1-6-8#or maybe even just 1-8#but i also think the space between them is important. like the more space between 1 and 8 the better#i just maybe could have used that space/time more effectively. put more punches in them?#i feel like now they maybe meander a bit although there are still moments in them that i use in ch1 & 8#like most chapters Are i think in some way building to chapter 8#but also i started out writing this as just vignettes of Stuff I Wanted To See#and i in the end didnt quite manage to spread out the loadbearing stuff evenly over the chapters#THAT BEING SAID. it was a good learning experience probably. not sure i learnt anything much about plot bc im messing up in the same way#with thasmissy. but even so. practice makes better#and im very happy with the point i eventually manage to make with this. even if it takes me a couple of self-indulgent chapters in themiddle#anyway#im gonna log off for a bit#feel free to send me stuff you want me to see if i miss it
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elliemarchetti · 16 days
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Gwynriel Weeks Day 4
I know I said I would write drabbles for this year's @gwynrielweeksofficial, but I got a little carried away.
The angst saga goes on.
Prompt: Warriors
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War meant death, and loss, and suffering. It was horrible in all its forms, but war against a god of death and his followers was devastatingly cruel. It didn’t take place in an open field, it had nothing to do with the honour and the thrill of battle that was talked about in books. It was made of secrets, some to be kept hidden at the cost of one’s life, some to be uncovered regardless of what one had to sacrifice to do so. Gwyn didn’t think she was cut for this type of war, a constant battle between survival and feelings, between integrity and safety. She had realized it some time ago, when she would’ve died rather than leave Nesta alone on that sacred mountain she would’ve preferred to see razed to the ground, and even before, when she had sacrificed her innocence just to save the children of Sangravah. The training she had undergone after had taught her she should’ve behaved differently, be more selfish, but at the same time her mentor told her she did the right thing, making her incredibly proud.
It happened during one of their private sessions: they were both sweaty and exhausted, but battle don’t stop when you wish for it to, so her instructor had tried to end the fight as quickly as possible, to teach her a lesson and return to his rooms, where he would’ve washed the dirt away and from which he would’ve then disappeared until the next day, but he scared her, and a single tear had run down her freckled cheek. He had let her vent, he had let her cry and scream in despair and sob without ever showing the slightest sign of mercy, his fists clenched as if to keep himself from killing those responsible, souls he had already reaped during another war, against another enemy. He had saved her, and had massacred anyone who so much as laid eyes on her, yet he wouldn't tell her where he spent his nights, if he had a home in Velaris, an apartment whose location only the High Lord knew, or if he flew every night to his mother’s house.
Gwyn knew she was stupid for having fallen in love with a mystery. She realized the complexity of her feelings when no one heard from him for a while during a mission and even his closest friends began to accept the idea he might be dead. She had talked with Emerie about going after him, and had even argued with Cassian, but in the end she had waited like everyone else until he returned, unharmed and distant. Those who knew him well had told her it was normal, that Azriel never talked about what he had seen and had to do during his travels, but Gwyn wanted to know, she wanted to take that weight off his heart and see his shoulders relax under her touch. She yearned for a moment of intimacy, and prayed every night that the Mother or the Cauldron would allow her to be seen by him as a possible partner and not as a mere pupil.
“You did the right thing,” he had told her on that occasion too, when they had finally found themselves alone after weeks spent being constantly surrounded by priestesses, friends, and allies. She may have done the right thing, but she still felt guilty, because the male she loved took for granted that no one would ever come looking for him, that no one would ever enter his study looking for clues as to where he was headed.
“You could have found a mangled corpse, a rotting carcass devoid of meaning,” he had warned her, and when she told Nesta, her voice breaking at the mere thought, she had suggested that perhaps the spy’s path wasn’t her vocation.
“Nothing will ever take away the title of Valkyrie and Carynthian from you,” she reminded her during one of their sleepovers. “But maybe a role that puts such a strain on your morals isn’t what you need to heal.”
Gwyn had been tempted to agree with her, to end her training with Azriel and forget about Koschei, but when he had sent her a note in his familiar handwriting, a simple white card with a date and time to meet, her resolve crumbled and she showed up at the training arena right when the first star started to shine in the night sky. They had fought, sure, but for the first time he had taught her to recognize what was happening around her when she was deprived of her predominant sense.
“Fae and mortals are equal in this: we rely on sight because we’re used to, but when it’s taken from us we must still be able to protect ourselves and prevent the enemy from turning us into weapons,” he had explained, standing so close to her she had felt his hot breath on her neck and the ghost of his wings caressing her back. She almost fainted at the sensation, but the lesson had been helpful, more than she liked to admit.
“Do the right thing,” he had told her some weeks later in a foreign land, when their vision started to diminish and everything around them faded in pitch black darkness. A spy would’ve run, a soldier would’ve listened to the orders given by a superior, but she was a warrior, so she put his arm around her shoulders and began to trudge in search of shelter.
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johannstutt413 · 2 years
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So, how's your queue? (And how are you doing?)
I'll answer these in inverse order for legibility's sake. I'm doing pretty good, I think - DND's going well, Master Duels is...interesting (Normal Summon Aleister, that's all I'm gonna say on that :P), and of course we here at the Arknights Emporium are continuing our work when the Muse Prisma strikes. Stopped dueling for the day to knock a fic out before I call it a night. Settling into the new apartment with my roommates, work is more than survivable, no one's dead at home. We alright.
And now, the Queue:
1. (requested by calligomiles) Utage/Gummy II (the fic for today/tomorrow, depending on how fast I write it)
2. (requested by calligomiles) Flint/Zima
3. (requested by calligomiles) Flint/Leto
4. (requested by calligomiles) Absinthe/Zima
5. (requested by mathmaticalknight) Doctor gets TP’d to G&K
6. (requested by calligomiles) Rosa and Talulah, bonding over shared rejection of nobility
7. (requested by calligomiles) Swire/Rosa III
8. (requested by calligomiles) BP/Andreana
9. (requested by calligomiles) Saga/Archetto
10. (requested by calligomiles) Saga/Absinthe
11. (requested by calligomiles) Dusk/Deepcolor (“I’m not worried about collateral damage”)
12. (requested by calligomiles) Ifrit/Rosmontis/Eyjafjalla
13. (requested by mathmaticalknight) Ceobe walks around Dusk’s paintings freely
14. (requested by calligomiles) Skadi/Gummy 6: Someone’s Gonna Die From Sugar Overload
15. (requested by mathmaticalknight) Dusk burns Nian’s movie collection, Shaw is the most upset
16. (requested by mathmaticalknight; continuing from this) Archetto joins the group
17. (requested by mathmaticalknight) Franka gets Liskarm to help with her biggest prank ever
18. (requested by calligomiles; continuing from this) Rhine Labs Sandwich
19. (requested by calligomiles; prequel to this) Mayer and Magallan’s Meeting
20. (requested by mathmaticalknight) “Hey Dusk…Why don’t you fight like you did during your event?”
21. (requested by calligomiles) Rosa/Nearl III
22. (requested by mathmaticalknight) One of the gang [from Dusk’s event] learns Dusk has the worst physical results of any non-robot Operator
23. (requested by calligomiles) Horsebucket II: It’s All Coming Together
24. (requested by mathmaticalknight) Utage becomes the Great Chief
25. (requested by calligomiles) Swire/Rosa IV: Sweet as Honey
26. (requested by calligomiles) Swire/Talulah (in a world where Koschei doesn’t exist that fucking prick)
27. (requested by anonymous) Platinum in the Arknights equivalent of this scene [Mr. Incredible’s part at least…anon feel free to clarify, it’s been a while since I’ve seen this movie]
28. (requested by mathmaticalknight) Someone starts worshipping Dusk or Nian (…probably the Doctor honestly)
29. (requested by calligomiles) FrostNova/Alina/Talulah, in an idyllic setting (similar world setup as Talulah/Swire imo)
30. (requested by mathmaticalknight) Ceobe and Saga, maybe a couple, maybe just being hungry doggos together, we’ll figure it out when we get there
31. (requested by mathmaticalknight) Iris returns something to Whisperain from before her last reset
32. (requested by mathmaticalknight) Dusk/Whisperain
33. (requested by mathmaticalknight) What If…Nian made Chen’s sword?
34. (inspired by this post) Vulcan/Sideroca
35. (requested by mathmaticalknight) Bagpipe/Reed [separated to make sure work gets done]
36. (requested by calligomiles) Zima/Gavial III (with Tomimi squeeze toy)
37. (requested by calligomiles) Zima/Ifrit
38. (requested by calligomiles) Scavenger/ShiraYuki III
39. (requested by lonewanderer2033) Doctor, Suzuran, and BP take a nap by the power of Soft Tails
40. (requested by calligomiles) Grani/Swire
41. (requested by anonymous) Pramanix, Cliffheart, Nearl, and Blemishine hanging out
42. (requested by lonewanderer2033) Suzuran braids Platinum’s hair
43. (requested by anonymous) Toddifons/Reed (because we always take the shipping option)
44. (requested by mathmaticalknight) Blemishine’s DND character is a Blackguard
45. (requested by mathmaticalknight) Shining becomes Blemishine’s teacher
46. (requested by lonewanderer2033) Skadi Harem II: As in there are two of them, would the Real Skadi please stand up (please stand up, please stand up)
47. (requested by greenone170b7) Nearl’s Alternate outfit getting applauded (and, later, ‘tested out’ by the wives)
48. (requested by anonymous) Mint and Heavyrain as BFFs
49. (requested by calligomiles) Plat/Gravel/Nearl II
50. (requested by mathmaticalknight) Gladiia gives Andreana the Abyss Hunter talk
51. (requested by lonewanderer2033) BP puts together a girls’ night
52. (requested by calligomiles) Zima/Leto in the angstline
53. (requested by calligomiles) Rosa/Istina in the angstline
54. (requested by coldgoldlazarus) Click/Conviction (EXP Record Producers)
55. (requested by lonewanderer2033) Red discovers Caprinae are fluffy too (Red, Eyja, Earthspirit)
56. (requested by calligomiles) Swire/Jackie II – I will give you diabetes
57. (requested by lonewanderer2033) BP/Suzie II
58. (requested by calligomiles) Mudrock/Gummy/BP. Maybe a date or smth?
59. (requested by foxgirlcock) Sussurro/Myrrh
60. (requested by lonewanderer2033) Blue/Astesia II: The frog has a great jacket
61. (requested by calligomiles) Botan/Polka on a first date [free trial]
62. (requested by princess-sheep) Bison on the way to Bidaughter (yes this is a terrible pun)
63. (requested by thewizardmus) Misha actually Defects to RI (at W’s request)
64. (requested by lonewanderer2033) W vs Ash (based off a scene in the new Suicide Squad movie I have not seen)
65. (requested by calligomiles) Gummy/Rosa/BP [BP’s two mutually-exclusive girlfriends]
66. (requested by calligomiles) Zima/Glaucus II
67. (requested by calligomiles) Rosa/BP II
68. (requested by calligomiles) Leto/Specter II
69. (requested by anonymous) Mint/FemDoc
70. (requested by lonewanderer2033) Amiya, Nearl, and Dobermann do a Destiny [Splendor 2.6…I legit have no idea what this is]
71. (requested by anonymous) Arknights [this…may not have been a request lol]
72. (requested by lonewanderer2033) BP and Suzie have dinner with Mudrock/Folinic
73. (requested by anonymous) Exu finds Tachanka at the shooting range
74. (requested by lonewanderer2033) Skadi gets Suzie a trinket
75. (requested by anonymous) Doctor dreams of Priestess, and the world bears the consequences
76. (requested by mathmaticalknight) Angelina/Utage III
77. (requested by u/Undividedbyzero) Doc will continue the Swire Bloodline
78. (requested by anonymous) Ash is asked to train RI’s younglings…which kinda sets her off
79. (requested by confronting-reflections) Beanstalk/Vanilla
80. (requested by anonymous) Blitz lends RI HR his linguist skillz
81. (requested by lonewanderer2033) Astesia takes Blue on a trip
82. (requested by lonewanderer2033) Skadi’s Harem III: Become Cop
83. (requested by anonymous) Blitz and Liskarm training session
84. (requested by lonewanderer2033) BP, Suzuran, and Astesia on a cold day in Terra
85. (requested by mathmaticalknight) Nian and Saria’s Wedding (likely gonna wait for Ling to do this one)
86. (requested by calligomiles) Rosa/Gavial III
87. (requested by anonymous) Jessica goes to Ash for tactical grenade advice
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allflooby · 6 years
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2 weeks from the Comics Dungeon: Shadowman #1, Archie #29, Iron Fist #79, Saga #50, Wonder Woman #43, Giant Days #37, Rick and Morty #36, BtVS: Giles #2, Superman #44, Lumberjanes #48, Black Magick #11, The Wicked + The Divine #35, The Terrifics #2, Doctor Starr and the Kingdom of Lost Tomorrows #2, The Walking Dead #178, Adventure Time: BMO Bonanza #1, Green Hornet #2, Jessica Jones #18, X-O Manowar #13, Astro City #51, Koschei the Deathless #4, Daredevil #600, Abbott #3, Doomsday Clock #4.
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finishing the koschei is dead saga by putting her in a funeral gown is that too on the nose
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allflooby · 6 years
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Emerald City Comic Con put me 3 weeks out from picking up new comics...Luke Cage #170, Rat Queens #8, Lumberjanes #47, Jessica Jones #17, Doctor Strange #386, BtVS: Giles #1, X-O Manowar #12, Bloodshot Salvation #7, Wonder Woman #41, The Terrifics #1, Steven Universe #13, Saga #49, Rick and North #35, Monstress #14, Superman #41, Koschei the Deathless #3, The Wicked + The Divine #34, The Walking Dead #177, Superman #42, Summit #3, Ninjak vs the Valiant Universe #2, Wonder Woman /Conan #6, Batwoman #12, Adventure Time #74, Doctor Starr and the Kingdom of Lost Tomorrows #1, Doctor Strange Damnation #1, #2, Giant Days #36, Quantum + Woody #3, Action Comics #998, Future Quest #7, Green Hornet #1, Hellboy and the B.P.R.D. 1955: Burning Season, She-Hulk #163, Descended #27, Strangers in Paradise XXV #2, The Defenders #10, Doomsday Clock #3, Daredevil #599, Lazarus Sourcebook Vol. 3: Vassalovka, Rick and Morty Presents: The Vindicators #1, Rasputin: The Voice of the Dragon #5.
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