#the last 3 will take some time

[obsob]

days are getting warmer but i am always warm when im with you ! !

#mine #original #i cannot even begin to express the amount of demons i had to fight. to do this drawing #i was goin 2 attach my process video but its so embarassinhg i cant skjbdskgdjks #local artist cant colour right :( #i sitll dont love it but also i will start eating thro my waalls so :3 ! here u go ! #i bought a new water botttle the other day extremely exciting stuff. AND. a bag for said water bottle so i can take it on walks :3 !!!! #eveytything else has been . normal !! #shop orders r very slow which is th same as this time period ??? as last year ? for some reason ?? #i will hopefully try n plan sm stickers soon n maybe sm new prints ??? not sure ! but either way if u want 2 buy a lil smth #ur support is greatly appreciated !!

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

I'm surprised you haven't posted any Welcome home stuff recently! Honestly kinda makes me sad since I love your WH art and stuff

yea y'all are gonna have to be Patient w/ me bc

a) i have like. a week left to pack all of my stuff before i need to shove everything into a uhaul and leave, so its crunch time! leaving little to no energy/interest in anything else

b) to be honest my mental health is the worst its been in years - which is fine, its whatever, i can deal. it's not as bad as it could be and im handling it! like a champ, even! but also its leaving little to no energy/interest in anything else

c) had a minor crisis over my art and how i interact w/ WH, and i realized im not scribbling enough of what I want. ive mostly been trying to please people and do as asked and thats! not good! so i want to temper expectation & reassert that im Not a WH art blog - its just a hyperfixation / something i love rn. i draw what i enjoy & what i want in the moment.

#i picked up my tablet last night and all of my motivation died on the spot #so im just. eh whatever ill get back into the swing of things eventually #but yeah im spending my time packing & keeping myself afloat! not much room for other things at present! #rambles from the bog #but yeah i was starting to feel like a commodity of sorts? #like the majority of asks are just some form of 'can you draw this' 'draw this' 'id love it if youd draw this' #which is. fine. im an art blog! thats what i do! #but its also like hey. im just some guy doodling what they enjoy. im not a machine churning out content for consumption #& it gets to the point where there's so much expectation and obligation and 'demand'- #when do i ever sit down and truly indulge in what i want? #like the monster scribble i posted the other day! it made me so happy! i love monsters and Beasts! #when do i ever allow myself to draw them? #rarely bc i feel like people Expect puppets from me. and thats not a great feeling! #i love puppets i love wh and everything but i would like to enjoy it w/o pressure yk yk.... #& for a second there i Was feeling the pressure and scribbling puppets was starting to feel like a chore #something i Needed to do to please people #so! im focusing on real life & taking a break from creation & keeping my mindset away from 'jump into traffic' thankyew <3 #theres just too much going on right now #in my head And outside of it. #so ill stick to packing & binging psych & i'll lovingly place everything else on the backburner

[thekidsarentalright]

27 / so much (for) stardust

#good morning time for violence <3 #i think ive like. obviously considered these lyrics parallel before but for some reason after last night it’s like. a more insane #purposeful parallel like. he is literally taking the sunshine who he doesnt have and. even if it isnt meant for him he’s shooting it #directly into his veins i. it’s very much love never wanted me but i took it anyway. augh. #txt #lyrics.txt #fob #fall out boy #p: 100

[scattered-winter]

there's something sooooooo heartbreaking about quests as a narrative piece. you set out on this journey to rescue someone or defeat a great evil and along the way you face hardship and horror and you grieve and fight and love and lose and then when it's all over you come home. everything is the same as when you left, but you're so irrevocably different that you no longer fit in the one place you used to be truly at peace. you're tired from your journey but you find no rest or recovery, only ghosts. and you almost wish for another quest, another dangerous mission, because at least then you know your purpose.

#hi sorry i just rewatched the lord of the rings trilogy and im in A State #its just. the concept of leaving your home with your 3 friends to go on a quest for something you don't understand. #you're all plucky and full of life and hope. #and then you're beaten down and nearly killed and you don't know if anyone's still alive or if you're the last of your friends left. #and you suffer. oh do you suffer. #and when the battle's over and it's time to come home you don't recognize the person you were when you left. #you're too traumatized and haunted by everything you've seen; everything you've suffered; everything you've done to survive #and you're a ghost in your own home because nobody from your hometown can understand. #and it's so painful and you're so so tired that when you have a chance to move on to leave your friends behind #for the sake of getting some goddamn peace ... #well what else can you do but take it? #im just oughoughoughoughough #this applies to both frodo and bilbo i think #the dichotomy of the scene where bilbo is Leaving the shire (running and shouting for joy because he's going on an ADVENTURE!) #and when he returns (beaten down and grieving and lost. a stranger in his own home.) #literally makes me gnawwww #im feeling some kinda WAY #winter speaks #tropes #on knights #<- rich inner world

[robo-dino-puppy]

horizontober 2023 | 1: favorite machine (WATCHERS!)

#horizontober2023 #horizon forbidden west #hfw #aloy #red eye watcher #last night i finally managed to take some new pics! (first time in a loooooong time *sob*) #idk if i can do all the prompts but i HAD to do this one for my favorite little robot dino puppies <3 #complete with the watcher armor! in my favorite colors! and the facepaint! #it sure was a pain trying to pose with this lil guy tho #even set to defensive he was always running around #but it turned out ok in the end ^^ #(i actually wanted to go into hzd for a *regular* watcher but i realized i'd deleted all my hzd saves off my ps5 #and i'd have to haul out the ps4 or find whichever usb my ps4 saves are backed up on... and it was late and i just didn't wanna lol) #hfw watcher #hfw machines

[bookrat]

Pretty sure my little man has a case of abundism affecting the marble tabby coat under all those white splotches

#random pet post #it really is a weird coat pattern #I'm never sure if I should describe him accurately as a white marked tabby or as the first impression people get of a black and white cat #love his little backward C's #I got all my other pets around the same time and they've been dying off one by one this last year or so #I'm down to just this 4yo kit and Bruiser #actually I'm not done whispering in the tags #pretty soon it's just gonna be me and this terrible little man against the world #and he gives me such weird problems you cannot even begin to imagine #took to the leash and harness without a bit of difficulty but I can't take him anywhere cuz he freaks out about people 500ft away #really difficult to find sitters for him cuz he gets so stressed about changes and waits until 3am to SCREAM #he's 17 lbs and wants to sleep on my chest 14 hours a day #took him on a work trip a week or 2 ago cuz of aforementioned petsitting troubles and some kind of wire got crossed #so instead of stress peeing in my laundry basket he now humps the nearest blanket covered limb to alert me of problems #he got scared of his water dish recently and is only now starting to get over it after 3 weeks of drama #he knocked it over last night and humped my leg while I tried to sleep to try and convey to me that he was thirsty #I'm thinking of getting a second cat and just fucking hoping that it'll be normal and maybe Prompto can target it for some of his weirdness

[werewolfpdfs]

the latest moash reddit thread has me in stitches actually

nature is healing. pay no attention to the man behind the curtain (people further down saying moash can’t be saved, “some people are irredeemable”, fuck moash truthers, etc). take my hand, we are entering the era of moash the construction worker

#cosmere radicalism #stormlight archive #‘moash exists to show that sometimes the Skybreakers are right’ NO THE FUCK HE DOES NOT!!!! #ignoring the annoying answers for the silly ones actually i DO think moash might benefit from some time offworld #also i want him to meet kelsier lmao i think it would be funny <3 #i especially love that last one like i appreciate the energy but are you sure about that #moash did nothing wrong is such a bold stance to take in this day and age. i support It.

[compacflt]

wip wednesday: made a HUGE amount of progress this week (for context—purple is unfinished & yellow is finished; last week all of them were purple) … i am in the home stretch here

#and then… it will be time for me to say goodbye i think #some darkstar politics in here #driven by an essay I read last year titled tinted blue: Air Force culture & American civil-military relations #everyone has a different idea of what modern warfare will look like #1 & 2 are from the same section obviously… i just think it’s interesting #& i wrote elsewhere in may maybe that ice & mav would be on opposite sides of this debate #ice with his big picture managerial perspective… it’s good for warfare… mav with his specialist pilot loyalty POV #obviously their conversation predates the russia-ukraine war which has shown drone warfare in its fullest to date potential #4. is… idk. does it help to tell you it takes place in 2014? #3. * #pete maverick mitchell #tom iceman kazansky #icemav #top gun #top gun maverick #top gun fanfiction #sorry for the like defense ethics conversations if that’s boring #i just think that stuff is philosophically so interesting

[sysig]

Ooo requestober eh? Something I've been curious to see a bit more of maybe is Jake interracting with Scriabin. Edgar wondering about what the two of them talk about together alone got me curious too 👀

(Resending to the main for you :3)

Day 3 - Definitely not kissing! If that's what you think!

Meanwhile, Jake:

#My art #Requestober #Vargas #Scriabin #Edgar #Jake #Since I already got my serious ''This is what I think they might get up to'' a couple Requestobers ago I opted for silliness this time lol #Plus last time I did Before so this time how about some After! #What situation would arise that Scriabin would have a one-on-one with Jake without Edgar? Maybe Edgar had work? Had to take Todd somewhere? #Either way he's painfully jealous on all sides haha poor lad #Jake's good to them I'm sure he'll get some affection later - Scriabin'll still hold it over his head for as long as he can tho lol #Can you tell I like lipstick stains haha ♪ They're legit some of my favourites to draw! :D #I think this is my first time - at least in a long long while - drawing them digitally tho :0 Fun! #They're just jkfdlsafd they're So cute haha ♥ Evidence of attention! Incriminating in their placement <3 #Shows where someone was most focused on making them feel loved hehehe it's just so cute to me 💕 #Like that they obviously went for each other's necks - of course - but also their foreheads and Jake kissed his nose #And also missed/got a bit too rowdy and got some lipstick on his glasses lol #Tell me that's not adorable! #And in classic fashion the lover returns home and sees lipstick stains and gets envious lol #Scriabin definitely used lipstick to make out with Jake specifically to make Edgar jealous lol - he could've avoided this and chose not to #Kiss him Edgar you'll feel better #Jake just having fun not thinking about the implications haha ♪ #I may or may not have spent an inordinate amount of time thinking about how Jake interacts with each of them around kisses >.> #I mean - other than mainfic every time he shows up he ends up kissing them in some capacity! It's hard not to recognize his patterns! Lol

[sonknuxadow]

can they just say whos voicing shadow already so i can be free from the neverending cycle of random twitter users claiming to know who the va is and saying it with no evidence and people just believing it and spreading it as confirmed fact

#''keanu reeves is voicing shadow guys !!! look this leaker confirmed it !!!!'' #we've been through this already you guys were saying the exact same shit about hayden whatever his name is not too long ago. come on. #idk what it is about the sonic movies specifically that has people accepting baseless rumors as facts #or falling for obviously fake leaks or just spreading easily debunked misinformation #or even taking something that Is true and turning it into some wild exaggerated version that definitely isnt true anymore #example of the last thing: i once saw people take ''the director of the sonic movies worked on the cgi cutscnes for shadow the hedgehog'' #which is true. and turn it into ''the creator of the shadow the hedgehog game is being brought onto the movie team to make sonic 3'' ????? #and also people saying that the third movie is confirmed to be a shadow the hedgehog adaptation #JUST because some of the writers mentioned that game in an interview once as a shadow focused game they COULD take inspo from #but didnt confirm anything.. and people were also framing these claims as reasons to panic because they dont like shth #which makes it more annoying ... #also the amount of times ive seen obviously fanmade movie posters for sonic 3 being spread around as real. come on. #not saying the keanu as shadow rumors are 100 percent fake but we definitely dont have any reason to be immediately accepting #them as fact either. because this person is providing literally no evidence and could easily be lying

[dayurno]

the amazing showstopping life-changing beautiful lovely and talented @alcego tagged me in the writing game where you post all your first sentences from already posted fics (and also the just as amazing showstopping life changing beautiful lovely AND talented roisin, thank you!) but i don't really care much for those lately so here's the first lines of several WIPs at the moment as a compromise :)

Kevin knows he’s being watched. (with @knickknacksandallthat <3)

“Riko? Are you awake?”

In the morning when Jean is supposed to be sent to his death, he takes five minutes out of his schedule to braid Kevin’s hair. (with @jaywalkers :)<3)

Not for the first time, they are in the infirmary. 

“Coach says you don’t talk anymore,” Aaron mumbles, looking out the window awkwardly. 

Christmas dinner with the Gordons is perfect.

Some people ride the crazy train. Jeremy drives it. 

Neil knows the gray does something to people.

what this tells me is that i am bad at writing first lines HAHA :3 i am tagging um everyone who wants to do this. thank you!

#theyre also all rather short which at least im pleased with #also my favorite is number 2 its the riko transmigrator au and it lives in daydreams with me #i LOVE you scum villain's self saving system i love you i love you #its so silly and i love it so dearly #uhhh lets see what else. thg au with roisin! absolute banger #kerejean with miss niknak! ABSOLUTE banger #7 is first time / first light #and 8 is gratuitous kandreil smut with gray haired kevin <3 yay #no but seriously what this tells me is that while looking through my wips i realized i need to write something for k/t or k/j/t #ive written thea before but only in brief mentions so i want to try to get her pov right or at least a good grip on writing her #kevin day you're fucked. and you will be fucked #amen #uuuh lets see. number 6 i will not tell you but i will say i love seth gordon #and number 4 is the previously mentioned jean in palmetto fic #but it is actually mostly an excuse to write gratuitous sub!jean smut #thats all i have for you. for now. i will go back to the drawing board and draft up some kevthea for my enjoyment #either lesbian kevthea (i hauve covid) or. i shan't say it in public #nora sakavic saw me talking about kevin day forced feminization the last time i'm not taking chances now #txt #my writing

[elinourmar]

“I’m struggling to sleep. Keep seeing him with his head…”

#regional gothic #midwest gothic #southern gothic #tlou #tlou part 2 #the last of us #ellie the last of us #the ending of this #just sad #can’t wait for pt 3 #but my current head cannon is that #Ellie went back to Jackson after this and found Dina again #and despite it taking some time Dina and her were able to repair their relationship #dark cottagecore #maybe???

[aaapplepie]

so I was going through Elowen's introduction again for research purposes and also bc I love her and I noticed

she specifically says she's been looking for Sage for three years. assuming she wasn't just like, hanging out for two years before she decided to go hunt him down, that suggests either a) no one was sure who killed Lucan and it took them a while to figure it out or b) she didn't hear about Lucan's death until two years after it happened.

(I'm leaning towards b because it's angstier because she recognizes signs of corruption in Sage but gets completely blindsided by Lucan's transformation, so it's possible she wasn't around to notice what was happening to him.)

it's just a theory but can you fucking imagine. her baby brother was dead for two years and she just didn't know, and she finally tracks down his killer but instead of finally getting justice she learns he was corrupted the whole time and she didn't know about that either!! I'm going insane. someone get her a blanket or something.

#last legacy #there's a good chance it was just a mistake and nobody caught it #(or that I've somehow got the timeline incredibly wrong) #but if there's a chance to read too deep into something and make myself sad I'm going to take it!! #she also might have been around the whole time and STILL not noticed the corruption which would also be. rough #esp since she seems to have at least some knowledge about it #and maybe could have done something to help and/or stop him #anyway the point of this post is that elowen is having a bad time #mourning her brother for 3-5 years and suddenly he's like a complete stranger and did she ever know him at all??? #what else did she miss #it's almost 1 am and I'm so normal about her #apple.txt

[silenthillbunni]

🐇💭

#i've decided that after i've recovered from surgery i want a glow up!!! #i want to make an effort to try to feel better nd not be so miserable all the time. it's so draining nd soul sucking :< #nd some things i wanna do is start better habits such as journaling nd reading a chapter every morning #meditate/do mindfulness every evening. do a full body stretch routine once a day. go to the gym 3-5 times a week. #ofc daily walks in nature (i've missed that sm). spending time w my cat nd dog. getting better at studying a little bit every day #i might even bleach my hair nd dye it... i just wanna dye it one last time then im done T-T #smth im unsure of is my diet. i have no idea what i can eat nd atm im so hungry but im scared of eating. so i'll have to figure that out #nd then try to meet up w my old high school friend every now nd again #try to keep asking for help from the personality disorder psychiatric clinic... or try to get online therapy maybe??? #i just wanna feel better nd *do* smth so these r some of the thinngs i wanna try to do to feel better :3 #hopefully i'll feel better soon nd recover as swiftly as possible so i can start wanting to do these things #oh and also!! wanna try to revive my interests. such as writing more nd taking photos nd such

[theshadowrealmitself]

Still thinking about Spiderpeople (and people connected to those Spiderpeople) from the universes where it seems an awful lot like they’re the only heroes landing in a universe where it’s one of the Spiderpeople who’s surrounded by other heroes like the Avengers and the Fantastic 4, etc

And obviously because of this they’re gonna be extra careful about secret identities because of all the extra heroes who aren’t Spidey hanging around, and I’m just thinking about the Prowler (Aaron) trying to figure out if he’s alive or even existing in this universe while trying not to give away too much so he’s just like “who’s the coolest bald man you know?”

And Spidey’s like “oh!! I know exactly who you want!! follow me!!”

He brings them to Nick Fury.

Later on they run into what’s obviously a variant of Miles, who the other Spidey of that universe didn’t bring up because Miles isn’t known as “Spiderman” in that universe (maybe it’s like “arachnikid,” or it’s Prowler!Miles, or maybe he’s just going through a phase where he’s trying out a new hero name each week, etc)

So Aaron’s like “oh great, I can definitely ask him, but again I gotta be discrete because of all these extra heroes around” so he asks him in the exact same way he asked the other Spidey (“who’s the coolest bald man you know?”)

Miles also brings them to Nick Fury.

(Yes his uncle is still alive, yes the other Aaron is absolutely gonna tell on him)

Also! Because there’s so much emphasis on the other heroes handling “big stuff”, I like to imagine they all keep trying to insert themselves into the situation because it’s a multiverse situation which falls under “their jurisdiction” and Spidey’s just like “??? they’re all Spiderpeople tho, this is my thing, go away, shoo”

#this is being scheduled in case I don’t come back #I mean like in case I’m gone for more than a few days #taking some time off the internet #either this is a healthy break or I’m isolating myself. not fully sure. #hopefully I come back mentally better #and not. like. worse because it was actually a ‘bad isolation’ thing. #so yeah we’ll see #it’s gonna feel weird not posting everyday #should I make a post before taking a break? …nah I don’t think it’ll be a big deal #(<- famous last words but seriously I’ll be fine) #I’ll probably be back once they finish figuring out my financial aid stuff so I don’t have to keep stressing over it #they’re having issues accepting my ward of the court letter it’s hella stressful #I don’t really *need* to schedule a post but I hardly ever use the scheduling function #so I’m using the excuse <3 #scheduling for the dead hours as a fun gift for the people who will still be up at that time #Spiderman #spiderwoman #spidermen #spiderwomen #spiderpeople #peter parker #just cause he’s my default spidey #miles morales #aaron davis #the prowler #nick fury #Spider-Man #spider man

[puppyeared]

I CANT USE CSS ON ARTFIGHT...............

#I WAS REALLY HOPING TO FIX THE FUCKING. PARAGRAPH WIDTH. SIGH #idk why but it stretches across the ENTIRE page like. it takes up the full width of the browser and it BOTHERS ME. ON ALL THE PAGES #i could try manually putting shift breaks but im worried it might not look so good on mobile. ugghh... auyggghhh..... #im already learning CSS and API so i thought i could put it to good use but. AUGH #this whole time ive had to go into the inspect panel myself and change the padding so i dont have to read the length of the screen #like a fucking typewriter... i would have also loved to use custom fonts and animations...... #i did find a guide for BBCode which the site uses on default and it covers basic styling but its not the same. sniffle #you CAN unlock CSS if you donate $25 to the page which seems fair. and if i could do it i would but. i do not have any way of #sending or receiving money online </3 i really need to figure out how to do that so i can set up comms like i said i would last summer #but it intimidates me.... and im already kept on a short leash when it comes to that so it feels like a lot of things could go wrong #i think toyhouse allows CSS or some sort of code...?? i remember seeing some oc pages with custom layouts #if thats the case i'll try fiddling with it but im not very familiar with using toyhouse so thatll take a while #(thanks again for the code sal ^_^ ill put it on my pin once its ready but im trying to learn my way around the site heh ;;) #at least i can use my pixel dividers.. ive been digging around for pixels to use and found some really cute ones #yapping