Y'all ever need to make yourselves sad so you can write a chapter in your fic, so you go and read some hurt no comfort fics? And then suddenly it's midnight and you're crying and you can't write because now your depressive mode is kicking in---
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i have been feeling so horrendously bad at my job this semester and idk how obvious my baggage is that my advisor has to stress that i deserve to have a show next semester and that she's already talking to people about things maybe needing to shift around so no one thinks its my fault and her saying i have a good sense of what i believe and can listen to both sides without swaying easily just kind of felt like "youre so mature for your age!" all over again and i feel so behind in a class i was so excited for and my body image has been horrible and im lucky to be getting 6 hours of sleep a night and it's getting harder to leave my apartment and people who mean well but barely know me are laying on high school levels of "you need to make sure you're eating enough" scolding and its so suffocating and i just want to snap and tell them that this is the best i have ever been about taking care of myself and im trying and self aware and dont need to be parented by people four years younger than me and i haven't been to therapy since before the semester started because i HAVE grown and i CAN handle it but i also know its been too long and they just weren't kidding about how much your early twenties suck but i also wouldn't change it for anything and i just want to sleep for a week and then ill be fine
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my brain: we are feeling the bads, time to cope! grab your favorite form of internet and seek validation!!!
me: dude idk if this is healthy like maybe we should see a therapist
my brain: yeah but that simple tiny little thing currently requires overcoming a really bad trigger without help
me:
me: so Tumblr it is, huh?
my brain: text your best friend first and seek validation for very dumb reasons
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contemplating blowing up someone’s notifications so I can just hit the like then unlike button for half an hour and see the heart constantly reform and break on a potd gifset just like mine did when tegan and five said they missed each other.
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