#the only way to stop itls for me to physically remove myself from the sotuations

[goldkirk]

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#i’m TRYING #i’m really really trying #like #yes. things are absolutely in multiple ways better than several years ago #i just.... #like this has gotta start paying off sometime right #at some point i have to start seeing myself get out of these situations right #i can’t fix everything i ‘cant #there’s too much and i can’t change people and i know that but like i canmt stop trying to fix things all the time and i think #the only way to stop itls for me to physically remove myself from the sotuations #into my own place #eventually in a different cory #*coty #*CITY #because i WILL kill myself one day by trying too hard and long to fix family things if i don’t i really think that’s the truth #i can’t keep doing ghis #i’m trying so hard and these things don’t get fixed #but i don’t trust anyone else to do it bc adults always failed or were the ones who needed fixing and i just #need to get out #in the last year of college i was the healthiest ive ever been and i couldnt believe how good it felt #i just #can’t keep living in the middle of the fire again #at some point i need to walk through the flames just far enough to catch the oxygen tank and firefighter suit friends are holding while wait #waiting for me #and i need to walk my way out of the burning forest #i guess #but i can’t just LEAVE THE OTHERS HERE TO GET BURNED???? #im TRYING #idk fam #i have to learn that i can’t save everyone because it’s either that or i just go till i collapse