#the purgatory verse hello

[faebhaal]

@dreadwxlf ☆ Cont.

"Well I couldn't let you have all the fun, could I?" Or all the possible loot. The verbal gratitude coupled with the freely giving of identity causes a brow to raise along with the hint of a grin to start tugging at her lips. If she were a more devious creature of her nature, she'd be more inclined to utilize such things. Perhaps she'll keep those aces up her sleeves.

"Ithaca." There is no hesitation, no shame in how she starts riffling through the pockets and pouches of the freshly deceased. The fizzle of magic still prickles her fingertips. And blood still stains her sickle's blade. "You hurt? Busted bones? Gaping Lacerations? Bramble scratches?"

#dreadwxlf #pixie hollow and purgatory (dragon age) #/ hello hello!! #/ Imma apologize now for lack of da verse info #/ I have an idea but I haven't decided if it's too cringe or not to use lol

[crimsonkaiser]

「 @universestreasures​​ | Ahmes / Aichi Sendou」 issued a challenge:        

"Please. Please let me help you feel better." The prince says, kissing the burnt palms of his human companion. Did vampires have some kind of magic healing ability they could transfer through a kiss? No, No they didn't. However, it was a gesture of compassion from the prince who knows that Toshiki once again got hurt in his stead, even if he is unaware as to who did the deed.

(From Ahmes Aichi. This is deep building for the lore I promise)

If nothing else; the gesture was incredibly sweet. Of course the attention couldn’t truly take away the wounds themselves, nor would it take away the scars they were bound to leave behind. But still... it made Toshiki feel better in a sense. Enduring the torture was worth it to get back here, beside Ahmes. That’s how he felt, at the very least. It was worth it so long as the flames that had licked his skin was kept far from the other. He’d endure them time and time again to keep it that way.

❝ ...Ah-- ❞

He feels the cool breath of the prince dance across the surface of his palms as the vampire framed his question before acting upon it. It felt odd-- as though his skin was both overly sensitive and equally as numb all at the same time. It didn’t hurt exactly, but it was enough to garner a visceral reaction from the older teen. Toshiki quickly realized this, an apologetic expression masking his previous more uncomfortable one. The pain he had been in was buried masterfully, if not for the nasty burns decorating his hands one would be none the wiser to his injuries. Ahmes, of course would be able to see right through the façade. Although, it was far past the point to bother wearing a brave face. The damage was done, and they both were well aware of that fact.

The only sign now to his truer emotions was shown in the way his hands had begun to tremble under Ahmes’ care. Toshiki’s face showed none of the fear, none of the pain, none of the upset he had surely been experiencing after his run in with Percival. Just as he was now; Toshiki had been made to show his hands, palms facing up and made to accept punishment willingly. He can recall the sound the fire had made once in contact with his skin, the smell of his flesh as it had burned away, the blinding light that had reflected in the knight’s rust colored hues--

Toshiki shakes his head, shoving the recent memories aside. The red eyes that looked at him now were laced with concern, not the subtle enjoyment of his torment. He does not remove his hands away from Ahmes; instead he entrusts the weight of them to the prince entirely. He wasn’t simply maintaining a position as he was when being punished, when he was trying to hold out for as long as humanly possible. He was allowing himself to accept the prince’s efforts. Refusing the prince was a crime punishable with far worse than a burning, but Toshiki knows Ahmes and Ahmes wouldn’t punish him for refusing him. Although that wasn’t why he let the prince tend to him as he wished. The true reason for it was much deeper than the superficial oath between most in their position. For they had long broken past the limits of what a servant was to his master.

But at the end of the day Toshiki was but a human, and there was no quick way for the likes of him to heal unlike their overlords. That alone was why it was rather unfortunate Percival had targeted his hands; it had meant this injury would constantly be irritated. The wounds themselves affected only a small part of his body, giving him no excuse to rest and recover, all while inconveniencing him due to their location. But... even if the prince could somehow magically cure him, Toshiki wouldn’t accept it. He had taken on this pain for the prince. It would mean nothing if Ahmes could just take it all away. That ultimately had meant Percival’s punishment would last long past the initial infliction, but Toshiki was willing to carry it with him for the prince’s sake. This wasn’t the first nor would it have been it the last time, after all.

❝ This was not your fault. I incurred this upon myself. This is my punishment, not yours. You cannot take the pain away for it is mine to bear. ❞

He moves one of his damaged hands to lightly cusp the prince’s cheek. Although he could only do so with the very tips of his fingers as to not aggravate the broken skin of his palms. Toshiki tells it to him as it was. The prince could not do much to help him at that moment. Even knowing that he’s sure that won’t stop the pain Ahmes surely was experiencing himself now. The prince was quick to blame himself when it came to Toshiki’s punishments, even when bedridden as he was. It would seem that the torment he underwent was as much the prince’s as it was his own to suffer. If only he could do as much for Ahmes as he did for him-- The frail vampire still managing to comfort him despite looking as though he’d collapse again any moment...

--It... was just as Percival had said. He couldn’t even so much as bleed for Ahmes. 

As Ahmes kissed his wounds, Toshiki cursed his own weakness.

❝ I... I wasn’t strong enough to endure it completely on my own. ❞ The curtain of brown-haired bangs fall as his gaze drops away, obscuring Toshiki’s deep blue hues. His heart bleeds as he admits his shortcomings in a quiet voice, as though that’d soften the blow. He’s thrown himself into darkness with his eyes squeezed shut, and there he saw it once more. Saw him; Ahmes... reaching out to him from beyond the veil. Just as he saw when he had shut his eyes from the searing pain of Percival’s judgment. It was due to that image of the prince that Toshiki had managed to endure the extent of the torture at all. Without it...? Without Ahmes... He’d have nothing to fight so hard against their fate for. ❝ ...I’m afraid I must share in your strength once more, Ahmes. All I ask of you is to allow me just this moment...this once... ❞

--To be weak...

Toshiki still cannot bring himself to voice such vulnerability, but it shows in his actions. It’s the way he leans forward, resting his forehead against the prince’s shoulder that says it all. To be close with Ahmes like this, it’s all he needed. The reverberating pain of his wounds were but a faint reminder by now as he finds solace in the prince’s presence. The lesson he was to learn by Percival’s judgment was lost on him at this moment. His feelings for the prince couldn’t be so easily burned away, that much was certain. -

#.//slides u this portion of hurtcomfort as an afternoon snac...enjoy frien :] #PICTURE IT「ic」 #QUERY「asks」 #VERSE.// THE PURGATORIAL FLAMES #universestreasures #THE LIGHT OF COURAGE「universestreasures | Aichi Sendou」 #tw long post #tw torture #tw burns #.//so i totally meant to post this last night but i got distracted writing 11 paragraphs of percy!gaillard being a shit so :] #.//lolololoolololol #.//past ahmeshiki comfort cuddles hELLO kaichi needs to catch up thEY'RE LOSING TO THE OLD GUYS LOL

[zabiume]

Hello I'm sorry for asking that and you don't have to answer at all but do you know fics where it's Ichigo who's being protected? Or do you mind sharing Bleach fics that you like?

I just can't find ones that I like idk I must be searching so badly. Again you don't have to answer this ask

Have a nice day!

Hi! No problem! Honestly I don't read many Bleach fics these days, but I do have a few old favorites.

IchiHime

The Will to Protect by hyapporankan - Set right after the battle against Yhwach, and probably my favorite Hurt/Comfort IchiHime fic!

love sought is good, but given unsought is better by orihimes on ao3 (@ichihimies on Tumblr) - Another short and tender Hurt/Comfort. Ichigo isn't being protected physically here, but he is being protected emotionally if that counts.

welcome sunrise with the morning glory by @fictionaryplace - Set shortly after Ichigo loses his powers. I genuinely love Orihime’s POV here, the perfect balance of angst and humor, and Ichigo’s characterization especially is so::chef’s kiss:: I’d recommend everything by this author honestly, their Tumblr has a lot of great stuff.

Making Peace with Purgatory by Child of the Ashes - This is kind of old, and the author’s works are very popular but I thought it was worth mentioning because it’s one of my all-time-favorites, and inspired me to start writing again when I got back into Bleach, so definitely worth checking out!

Always Summer by folle - This is a fic from 2011 that I found a few months ago and was impressed. Angst, set right after the Winter War, and there’s this scene where Ichigo, Uryuu, and Orihime give their opinions on Hamlet and Ophelia and I am obsessed with the tension in the air because I am obsessed with IchiIshiHime tension.

it’s cold without you by urfriendlyneighborhoodpan - Set in a canon divergent verse where Ichigo is forced to stay back in Soul Society (like Shunsui implied in TYBW). The writing is so good, the characterization is brilliant, and it’s so sad, but in a beautiful way? The author has been around for a while and goes by @captainrukias-husband on Tumblr, but if you haven’t heard of them then you should definitely head over to their blog and read all their works because they’re one of my favorite writers!

demagnetize by ghosty - This author only has two Bleach fics up on AO3, but they’re both super worth reading! I love their characterization of Ichigo, and they’re so good at writing Awkward Fluff without it being too awkward. A+ 

There’s a paradise they couldn’t capture; that bright infinity inside your eyes - I’m asexual, so finding a well-written Ace!Ichihime fic was so special to me! This is a really cute fluffly fic of Ace!IchiHime on their wedding night.

Becoming Whole by lovelycollision - Post!TYBW, really well-written exploration of Ichigo and his feelings for Orihime + a teeny little confession in the end that I adore.

Asano Keigo Is Cooler than You by die kaiserin - An IchiHime story told from Keigo’s perspective. This is one of my favorite IchiHime fluff fics of all time! Ichigo is so good here, and this fic is so funny without trying too hard! 100/100.

If you’re looking for more lighthearted stuff, I’d recommend scribblles (@/scribblles​ on Tumblr). They’re not active anymore, but if you check out their blog you should find their fics! They always bring a smile to my face!

Also: If you don’t mind old fics (and LiveJournal’s user interface lmao), you should really check out To What Is by damning_dance and literally everything by revenue_rice.  Mind you, To What Is was written in 2005, and the characterization is so perfect that it will make you believe IchiHime writers had some kind of sixth sense about what canon!IchiHime would look like in 10 years.

Now, if you don’t mind unfinished fics, nemutai on LJ wrote this fic where Ichigo decides to confess after Orihime moves on (and she [spoiler alert]: rejects him). I think this was meant to be a three-part series where they eventually get togeither in the end, but the author only got around to part one (Orihime’s POV) and two (Ichigo’s POV). Nemutai, if you’re somehow magically reading this, I would give my right arm away for an update, but honestly anon if you don’t mind unfinished stuff you should absolutely read this. The author has some interesting takes on both their characterizations here, and they write a really great Tatsuki too.

RenRuki

The Heart is a Muscle by polynya (@recurring-polynya on Tumblr) - This is a fantastic, canon-compliant series that explores the in-between/little-explored moments of Bleach and how Rukia and Renji managed to come together across each arc. The world-building is immaculate, the characterization is superb and I especially love Polynya’s characterization of the shinigami characters! She puts so much thought into the lore and every single idea is so well-executed. If you like RenRuki, or shinigami in general, I’d recommend starting with this series and then reading everything else by her! She also has a really good What-If-Byakuya-Died-in-TYBW AU, which is tastefully angsty, and really well-written! Absolute fave, do check it out!

that which cannot be seen by nymja - This is a fic where Renji dies, and is reincarnated into the World of the Living. Told mostly through Ichika’s POV, and just so, so good!

Misc

Weapons by Random One-Shot - A character study of the Karakura Quartet (plus Tatsuki, Keigo, Mizuiro). Short, but really compelling! I love the author’s flow, and how uncompromising it is, and I especially love their interpretation of Ichigo, Uryuu, Orihime  and Chad (my faves, lolol).

anyone’s ghost by fathomfive - I think about this fic so often, it’s so great and probably my most favorite Bleach fic of all time. Post-Winter War character study of Shinji and Momo, and how they pick up the pieces after Aizen’s betrayal/departure. It’s one of the most thoughtful explorations of Shinji as a character, and Momo here is just top notch brilliant! I especially love the author’s dialogue and use of metaphor; would leave 1,000 kudos if I could tbh.

attrition by tragakes - Mostly canon-compliant exploration of GrimmUlqui, but it diverges somewhere towards the end of it. I’m obsessed with the author’s language and writing style + their interpretation of the characters, but also: this fic is dark. Pay attention to the tags/warnings if you’re checking it out!

balance of power by elektra (@ulquiorracifer​ on Tumblr) - Ela’s Ulquiorra is so good, and everything about this series makes me stare at a wall for at least an hour after that. They really get him, and their writing style is just so immersive, you should absolutely give it a try. Kazui, Orihime and the other Arrancars make minor appearances, but Ulquiorra and Szayel are the main focus. I also liked love is a bloodsport which is a Post-HM GrimmUlqui fic (Ela’s Grimmjow is just. chefs kiss.)

A Leap Over the Line by doublejoint - TatsuHime, Pining!Orihime. This fic is just so perfect (I do love a pining!Orihime, sue me) and their banter is just so cute and perfectly in-character!

And, if you're new here, would it be too self-absorbed to plug my AO3 too?

#that's all i've got for now i think #asks

[kbsd]

destiel // “bat out of hell” - meat loaf

what better way to illustrate the 12-year, slow-motion car wreck that was destiel than a 10-minute-long opera about a motorcycle crash [ watch in hd: with captions / without captions ]

#god ok. so this is LONG #but i had a lot of fun with it #i have so many thoughts about this video but i will not go insane writing them all out in the tags #bottom line is. the lyrics ended up fitting perfectly with the chronological nature of it #the purgatory verse hello???? #yes i had to speedrun carver era and s13 but i think it's ok #and sorry divorce arc there are enough videos about you. i HAD to cut directly from the empty deal to despair #that's the crash the whole song is about!!! #anyway. i'm exhausted so i'm posting this and going to BED #i hope you guys enjoy it!!!! #destiel #deancas #spnedit #spnamvarchive #video #kbsd.amv #flashing cw

[twistedfable]

 --- i like to call this post, WHERE ARE YOU, YOU FUCKING FUCK ?                                                     i have many many blogs and with that, it’s really hard for me to stay focused on one at a time; which is why my activity here might fluctuate, but i promise im trying to fix that because im absolutely in love with salem. but with her intensity, it can sometimes get a bit much so i’ll still be blog hopping. if you need me, or want to see any of my other blogs, here’s a list of where i’ll be. least to most active, BOLDED are where my mains are, italics are ones im trying to take somewhere. 

BORNFIIGHTER - a neil gaimen & stephen king oc name coraline, yes heavily inspired by the book but also with a lot of my own twists to the point where she is now my own. respect this blog please or i’ll absolutely come for your fuckin’ knee caps. 

DELINQUENTBORN - the CHILDHOOD of bornfiighter. 

HIIGHCPES & BCRNMISFIT - hiiighcpes is the main blog, the other a side blog to it. these are sibling ocs who are are based off of the ship me and iinterminatis have ( shout out to my babe. ) 

IITLIES - a blog inspired once again by both neil gaiman and stephen king, in a reality where pennywise is both the other mother and the entity that caused the shinning incident. horror heavy. 

HELLLRAISED - an ORIGINAL CHARACTER multimuse, i encourage ya’ll to peep at this because this is a blog i’ve struggled to get off the ground and i’ll love to take it somewhere!

THEYSAVE - A MULTIMUSE BLOG, there are muses from all medias here; video games, live action tv shows, movies, animation --- so there i A LOT and i can understand why that isn’t to many peoples taste, however i will eventually be added rwby muses if anyone is interested. 

TOEXPOSE - okay while im struggling with this, big shout out to my aiden pearce blog of watchdogs. 

#im reworking on my bornfiighters rwby verse and i might put that verse on a separate blog #but im also just. not sure about it #because it is an overpowered verse but i really like it despite a lot of people not vibing with op ocs #but i've learned to just say fuck it to op ocs i mean jesus christ look at salem OISHODISHDHSD #im just unsure. because the concept was her having magic along with salem and ozpin #aka death purgatory and life ? HELLO ???? IM LOVE THE CONCEPT #and the more death that's happening in the world the more she can't kill #because its messing with the balance of life and death #and i be vibin with that #so lemme know if you're interested in that #『 OOC 』—- YOU AGAIN ? GIVE IT A REST BUDDY !

[sodomitecastiel]

just finished part 3 of skyverse and HELLO. the main twist aside (which DID make me lose my mind fyi). Hell not being an eternal punishment but the longer road to heaven for people that need redemption. SOUNDS FAMILIAR.

DOESN'T IT MAKE MORE SENSE THAT WAY... and i know you and i are holding jewish eye contact over the internet rn but also. doesn't it just make more sense that way. i don't think sky verse was written after season eight aired, so the concept of purgatory was still unaddressed in-canon. tbh everything starandrea came up with about the afterlife in spn is more interesting than in spn

#nathaniel.txt #answered #sky verse

[paula-of-christ]

Anonymous asked:

hello! this is the previous anon that asked you if i could ask you a few Q's about Catholicism! i hope none of this sounds rude because im genuinely trying to learn,because i don't know much about the church. okay so first- in a post you reblogged, there's a few verses from John that explain Transubstantiation , like John 6:53, but isn't that meant to mean dying with Christ etc, like not in the literal meaning? please tell jsjfja second, could you please explain what Sola Scriptura means? a lot of Catholics say that the Bible tells us to hold on to the traditions we were taught, but don't those traditions basically mean the Gospel/the good news of Christ? and finally, what is purgatory? i hope none of this sounds rude or ive asked too many questions lmao. i just really want to get closer to God, and i found your account a while ago and it looks to me like God has blessed you with wisdom. feel free to ignore this if you want, and i hope this wasn't a bother!

Question one about John 6:53-56;

53 Jesus said to them, “Amen, amen, I say to you, unless you eat the flesh of the Son of Man and drink his blood, you do not have life within you. 54 Whoever eats[a] my flesh and drinks my blood has eternal life, and I will raise him on the last day. 55 For my flesh is true food, and my blood is true drink. 56 Whoever eats my flesh and drinks my blood remains in me and I in him.

The modern Protestant interpretation is that it was symbolic, however Christianity up until about the 1600s always knew this to be literal. Even Martin Luther and other reformers believed in the Real Presence. I don't remember what conference they had or papers that decided this but early on in Protestant theology, it was decided that Christ was actually, literally present. Which is why traditional Lutherans and Anglicans often believe in the Real Presence in their churches.

I am not entirely sure when it started being interpreted to be symbolic, but it certainly wasn't by early Church Fathers or by the people in the Gospels themselves.

Second question about Sola Scriptura

Sola Scripture (Literally meaning "Scripture Alone" or "Solo Scripture") refers to one of the 5 "Sola's" that were developed by Reformationists to describe their belief that it is through Scripture Alone that we get our Theology, rather than through Scripture and Holy Tradition as Catholics and Orthodox believe.

The problem Catholicism and Orthodoxy have with Sola Scriptura, is that the idea itself cannot prove itself. That is, Scripture itself in both the Old and New Testament support the use of Holy Tradition.

As a side note, this is why many "traditionalist" Catholics take issue with certain modern practices, because if done incorrectly/for the wrong reasons, it flies in the face of a very Catholic idea, which is that we have the Traditions of 2000+ years of Church History, dating back to Christ Himself, on our side.

This rejection of Sola Scriptura is primarily found in 2 Timothy 2:13-15, but here is a good break down of a bunch of other quotes in both the New and Old Testament.

13 But we ought to give thanks to God for you always, brothers loved by the Lord, because God chose you as the firstfruits for salvation through sanctification by the Spirit and belief in truth. 14 To this end he has [also] called you through our gospel to possess the glory of our Lord Jesus Christ. 15 Therefore, brothers, stand firm and hold fast to the traditions that you were taught, either by an oral statement or by a letter of ours.

Third question about purgatory.

The easiest understanding I have to give on Purgatory is that it is a place where people who are already bound for heaven, when they have died in a state of sin or with grave attachments to this world, go to be fully cleansed by the redeeming Love of Christ. No one will be there for eternity, but since it is not of this world and is "outside of time" we have no idea really how long people "spend" there.

It is like when you have a dirty plate and you use soap and cold water to clean it. You may not see the dirt or food on it anymore, but it isn't really "clean" in the sense that it isn't sanitary. You would need to use hot water or some kind of sanitizer for that.

This isn't a perfect analogy, but it is a pretty common one people use to help explain it. It isn't that believing in Christ doesn't sanitize you, it does because Purgatory isn't for people that won't be in heaven, it is for people that for whatever reason didn't die perfectly "sanitized" by Christ in this life. For an example, someone who had a habitual sin or addiction, and was trying to recover but died before they could "fully" recover, would have that stain still on their soul. They were still trying to rid themselves of that dried-on food and invisible grime, but died before having a chance to, and so are sent to Purgatory prior to entering the gates of heaven.

I hope these all make sense and please send me more if you have any other questions!

#catholic #catholicism #tradcatholic #tradcatholicism #christian #christianity #transubstantiation #purgatory #traditional catholic #traditional catholicism #sola scriptura #protestant reformation #jesus #eucharist #nuns #nun #take back the tag #real presence #old testament #new testament #prayer

[ugh-againwiththenames]

A Musical Social Experiment...Destiel.

Alright, so I thought to myself, while playing along with @thenightwemetnatural​‘s Destiel song picks, that despite my musical tastes, and them tending typically (although not exclusively) towards the Metal genres, that EVERY song can in some way, be paralleled to Destiel. This is such a ridiculous experiment, and I apologize, but I’m at the cottage, and it’s fucking pouring with rain, so let’s play…

Here are the rules: take your Music library and throw it on Shuffle – every song that comes on for an hour(ish), connect it to Destiel...(below the cut for my results).

You can access the playlist here (if you have any interest in listening along!). I am not going to necessarily describe every possible connection - I think that a lot of them are SUPER obvious...like *eyes rolling out of my head* obvious...

In the End – Black Veil Brides – Well we’re off to a hell of a start, as this song from start to finish screams Destiel and sacrifice. In the end As my soul's laid to rest What is left of my body Or am I just a shell? And I have fought And with flesh and blood I commanded an army Through it all I have given my heart for a moment of glory Who will remember this last goodbye 'Cause it's the end and I'm not afraid I'm not afraid to die A Modern Way - The Exies – only on song 2, and it’s once again, really hard to cut out any of this song, as the repeating “I’m bound by my insecurities” SCREAMS Dean at me.

I’m Bound by my insecurities

Open your eyes and Throw your arms around me I need the right not to fight To breathe

Swallow the lies I'm the one to blame Having no voice left to choose Am i so blind, feeling justified When i'm alone and confused

Brother – NEEDTOBREATHE – I have to laugh…as I added this after watching Jensen sing this at a Con (for J*red), and no lie, I’m in LOVE with it, but it’s somehow now determinably connected to the brothers for me but I can/WILL draw the lines here…EASY.

Everybody needs someone beside em’ shining like a lighthouse from the sea Face down in the desert now there’s a cage locked around my heart I found a way to drop the keys where my failures were Now my hands can’t reach that far I ain’t made for a rivalry I could never take the world alone I know that in my weakness I am strong, but It’s your love that brings me home Summoners Rift – Dangerkids – Um. Well. The first line of this song just made me laugh out loud.

There's no room for martyrs in a dying scene Well I'm not quite dead I'm something in between

And if I had another chance I would tell you

I guess I'm not afraid of what comes after We are the only ones We stand alone in the dark

Question everything you blindly follow Truth's a bitter pill, it's hard to swallow You think you're winning but your time is borrowed We are the only ones We stand alone in the dark

Royal Beggars - Architects - I mean…the repetition of my sentiments is going to get a bit silly…so i will not. read on...

All hope is dead, but we're coping

Somebody save our souls

Like a bird in a cage, trying to fly away Is this the price that we have to pay? Overflowing with rage, yet we still obey 'Cause we're asleep in a hurricane

We sit on a throne, waiting for God to bend the knee But we're nothing more than royal beggars

Edge of your Bed - Thousand Below - “why’d you have to go and keep calling out my name” Calling out my name” pure purgatory “where’s the ANGEL” “I prayed to you Cas, Every night” The rest of the next verse is also poignant, very Dean again “where I can only feel peace when the wave hits”, “and I’ve become what I thought was wrong, I love the feeling when it feels too strong”.  

Why'd you have to go and keep calling out my name? Calling out my name

I found sorrow at the edge of your bed

Is it now a bad habit? Where I can only feel peace when the wave hits And I've become what I thought was wrong I love the feeling when it feels too strong

Animals – Siamese - “It takes a killer that thinks he’s a saint, it takes believing to be this insane” – well. yes. ok. 

Shattered not broken We stand our feet Houses rebuild on These bloody streets I fill my lungs into this beat With closed eyes we're hoping for remedy

It takes a killer That thinks he's a saint It takes believing To be this insane

Spineless Crow - Hands Like Houses

We were young together but I've grown ancient Cracked and weathered and filled with regret Waiting to sink, rushing to sink in my sleep

The realization sinks in through the skin Like a disease, a blight inside of me Missing your touch, your weight on my fingers

My Underworld - Tonight Alive

Now we sail into deep blue storm clouds Overhead now, strangely I feel at peace as I dive into My underworld, world I dive into my underworld, world Down in these depths I'm adding up the numbers Of all I've suffered in past lives, tied down in the darkness Finally I begin to learn what I've returned tonight Time has come to begin again, leave something else behind

Ever After - Marianas Trench - All this talk of being someone’s disaster – Welp! Hello!

Don't you move Can't you stay where you are, just for now I could be your perfect disaster You could be my ever after

Apologies, I'm not myself but I can guarantee That when I get back, you won't believe That you knew me well Don't want to think about it

I'm fuckin' tired of getting sick about it Now stand back up and be a man about it And fight for something, fight for something, fight for something Nobody told ya this is gonna fold ya We go marching in like toy soldiers To have and hold ya over sold ya They’re marching like toy soldiers I'll be your disaster, ever after So fire away Goodbye

Room 138 - Asking Alexandria - While this song is clearly actually about an overdose of some kind, it’s parallels shockingly well to the post confession scene.   So these are the walls that have to hold this moment Somebody hear me, someone open up the door Get me up off of this floor and stop the shaking, the shaking Through the haze I saw a face A second chance, another life to live How did you forgive me? Held my head against your chest Told me everything's alright, don't be afraid Close your eyes and rest

Witness – Daughtry

Does it feel like you're just wasting time Here without a reason or a rhyme The answer you've been looking for Is standing right before your weary eyes And if the weight of the world is on you now But you know you can turn it all around again How Many Walls - Rise Against  - Guys, seriously, I’m not even going there...How many years have we wasted….how many walls can you put up? How many guns til you feel safe? This is a song about war – this is Rise Against, this is purely political and somehow can STILL be pulled together with Destiel.

 How many walls can you put up?

How many guns 'til you feel safe? How many times can we watch this story Over and over and over again? And how many years have we wasted Counting the lies that we've been fed? For something to change we have waited Over and over and over again Pray – Picturesque - Nope. Don’t even need a description here. Once again this is FAR TOO OBVIOUS!

I should pray a little more and think a little less The devils in my head and he won't let me rest Everyday just like the last since you up and left I should pray a little more, I shouldn't pray for death I Knew You Were Trouble – We Came as Romans (Swift Cover) - SwiftNatural is a thing for a reason… 

It's like a kaleidoscope of memories. It just all comes back. But he never does. I knew his world moved too fast and burned too bright. But I just thought, how can the devil be pulling you toward someone who looks so much like an angel

I think that the worst part of it all wasn't losing him. It was losing me. Once upon a time, a few mistakes ago I was in your sights, you got me alone You found me

I knew you were trouble when you walked in (you were right there, you were right there) So shame on me now Flew me to places I'd never been Now I'm lying on the cold hard ground Texas Is Forever - Pierce the Veil – lack of communication anyone? I don’t know, do we know anyone like that? If anything should happen to me I want you to know, I’ve loved you since ever…

Here we are If anything should happen to me I want you to know I've loved you since ever since then Don't dance around me I know what it means No communication, cannot be received But I'm such a sucker for the rain, yeah Oh, here we are Butterfly - Wearing Scars – the Butterfly/Angel parallel alone…go with it.

Seems we're alone We're fixated Just waiting for something As time goes by And when we're way up high We'll look back down with different eyes Let's take our time Awake this life So spread your wings And take my hand Tonight will be the end

With Grace - The Weight of Atlas

This place looks like hell to me I cast myself into the sea Picked up my conscience and left my disease I don't know, I don't know if I can make it through this storm Keep your eyes shut it will be okay. Will we make it out alive? Will we make it out alive. When all you have is hope I will be your anchor I know that I can let you down But I swear I'll pick up the pieces. And be reborn again I Always Wanted to Leave - The Plot In You

I guess it's a shame I'm so damn destructive And you're so reluctant to mean what you say The way you act so abused The things you confuse You know I always wanted to leave "Hello... You can sing, I'm here And I love you more than anyone or anything With all my heart."

Unsteady - X Ambassadors – just a stay parallel. Don’t leave, don’t let go. If you love me. Don’t let go. #I haz the sads.

Hold on to me 'Cause I'm a little unsteady If you love me Don't let go Bury Me Alive - Normandie – pick a line – ANY LINE!!! 

I guess I'm not going to heaven now I got caught in the chase Now I'm falling from grace But I never stood a chance Could've given me a sign I'd be giving you blind obedience Mantra – Bring Me The Horizon Before the truth will set you free, it will piss you off Before you find a place to be, you're gonna lose the plot Too late to tell you now, one ear and right out the other one 'Cause all you ever do is chant the same old mantra Could I have your attention, please? It's time to tap into your tragedy Think you could use a new abuser Close your eyes and listen carefully Imagine you're stood on a beach Water gently lapping at your feet And now you're sinking, what were you thinking? That's all the time we have this week

Oh Lord - In This Moment – cutting any of this out was actually hard. Cas, my love, are you there?

Oh Lord won't you save me Save me from my soul Oh Lord won't you forgive me For I have lost control Oh Lord won't you tell me Am I the righteous or the damned? Oh Lord won't you please hear me Do I obey or do I command? Oh Lord please forgive me For what I'm about to do Oh Lord won't you believe me I'll burn in hell for you Oh Lord won't you teach me Teach me how to see Oh Lord tell me you love me Am I Lillith or am I Eve?

Bleeding is a Luxury - Atreyu

I’ve talked the talk, I've walked the walk, It's taken ten fucking years, For them to see I don't need their approval. I've paid the piper, I've stayed my course, Lived chomping at the bit. With only blood, sweat, and tears to adhere to- Take it for granted, Forsake the costs, Wear a big, shit-eating grin (with only blood, sweat, and tears to adhere to) Now bear the burden to chase your fate Grind your teeth 'til it fucking hurts So they can see I don't need their approval. Seize the day, Take your beatings, Lead the way, Or decay as you fall down... You fall down.

Would you Still be There - Of Mice & Men – wow, this song in full. All of it. I can’t.

If I could find the words, if I could shake the world, If I could turn back time would you still be there? I can't stop thinking about the way I left you sinking with no escape. Now there's no lifeline, no way to save. But maybe next time I won't throw it all away. Dislocated, I lie awake Suffocating in my mistakes. I lost my halo when I fell from grace, But maybe next time I won't throw it all away. I ask myself everyday... If I could find the words, if I could shake the world, If I could turn back time would you still be there? If I could find the words to say, If I could shake the world to break you down, Then would you still be there?

The Broken - 3 Doors Down 

This is the call to the broken, the broken Take it from me. They don't care if you're lonely. As you can see, They don't care if you're scared. Your heart Is the only friend you have in this whole world. Don't start, Think you can do this yourself. I know what you're thinking. You say you're tired of keeping score, keeping score. Trust me, You're not the only one going through this. You see, I've been through this before, this before.

Wow, I Hate This Song - The Used – this one took a little imagination – hardest one so far – because it really is just about hating a song! So we’re HC’ing the Zepp track that reminds Dean most of Cas, post Empty.

Every time I hear the key I see you in the melody It never was a part of me Heart feels like it's being stabbed Kills me emotionally Dirty Little Secret - Bullet For My Valentine – let’s take this back to – take your pick…Leviathan!Cas, Godstiel, Casifer, any of the times that Cas did the wrong thing for the right reasons…and did not tell his boy. 

There once was a time Where everything was just so perfect Now everything has changed And you've become a total stranger I've seen another side to you I never even knew existed Dirty little secrets, dirty little secrets Giving in to your primal instincts There once was a time When anything I do is for you But everything has changed And I've become a lonely prisoner I'd kill, even die for you You never even tried resisting

Kill Plan - Parabelle

I'm sitting stunned just like a lesson I never learned Made of emotions and mistakes And what you say Leaves me lost and in the way And that's the place you stay Remember silence Now we're painted into corners So we can watch the world get sold out Hold me closer don't let the sun in Hold me closer don't let the sun in Cuz the setting sun feels like a cage Don't let me defend the kill plan

Roman Sky – Avenged Sevenfold – This song only has a few lyrics, but we can definitely make them work.

As the embers rose through the Roman Sky Tell me, were you calm when they took your life? Just before you go, tell us how the heavens flow Weightless evermore, as you walk beyond that door Shine forever true To Those Left Behind – blessthefall – these boys might be my favourite band ever, but these are ANGRY lyrics – these are about betrayal.  This is a relationship gone wrong. I feel these best work with the divorce arc, the Angry Dean that we see, or Dean’s mood after any of the “Cas fucked up again” moments. You found me at my worst When I was far too weak to grow In spite of all my fears And how I may have lost my way Only now I know the truth

Awake and coming clean

If you can't sleep It's your conscience That's eating away At the mess you made So let's end this Sew this last stitch Lift this weight off my chest I'll put you to rest The past should stay dead

How did we find ourselves here? Haunted by our own design With everything that's come to pass Makes it harder to confine

#supernatural #destiel #dean #cas #spotify #song challenge #i challenge you to do the same #can you also connect dots? #why was this so EASY #I guess 12 years of pining helped #so much possible material to draw on #look I was bored and music is my thing #this is dumb but it was also really kind of fun #I love these two idiots

[nefeviibata]

Okay, it’s time to make a list for the requests I get for my “angel eyes edits” as I so eloquently named them… anyway it’s too late to go back and change the tag.

I’ll just list the episodes for the scenes & characters I want to do, or have requests for. The ones with am asterisk are the ones I also really want to do, so they will probably take priority over the others.

TO DO LIST / Requests

specific scenes: *4x22 - Destiel wall shove in the beautiful room *4x22 - Castiel: “We’re making it up as we go.” - scene 5x02 - Castiel: "Dean, give it to me.” 5x17 - Drunk!Castiel 5x18 - Castiel beats Dean up in an alley. 5x18 - Dean: “You know what? Blow me, Cas.” Cas: -frowny face- 5x18 - “Last time someone looked at me like that…” 6x20 -  Castiel: “Let me tell you everything.” *6x20 - Castiel kills two demons at once. 8x05 - Cas and Benny bickering in purgatory 8x07 - Cas cleans himself up after purgatory, Dean likes. 8x08 - Dean asks Cas to lift the anvil 8x17 - Castiel breaks free of Naomi’s mind control 9x11 - Castiel: “You have a guinea pig? Where?!” 10x14 - Cain comes for Dean 10x17 - Castiel threatens Metatron 10x23 - Dean and Castiel fight. 15x18 -  just more scenes from that episode in general apparently

characters: - anything with Casifer apparently, you guys request him a lot. - demon eyes for meg - demon eyes for ruby (specifically “I’m awesome” speech) - angel eyes for anna

FINISHED EDITS:

Season 4:

4x01 - Lazarus Rising but make it angel!dean 4x01 - The Iconic Destiel Meet Cute 4x02 - Castiel: “You should show me some respect.” 4x07 - Castiel: “You’re close to blasphemy.”

4x18 - Castiel: “Just so you understand why I can’t help.” 4x18 - more reverse!verse destiel Season 5:

5x02 - Castiel: “I did it all of it, for you.” (Demon!Castiel/Angel!Dean) 5x04 - Samifer: “Hello Dean.” 5x08 - Gabriel: “Gabriel. Alright? They call me Gabriel.”

Season 6:

6x10 - Castiel: “Will you, b o y?” 6x10 - Castiel: “Will you, b o y?“ - but as a video. 6x20 - Castiel: “I remember many things.” 6x20- Castiel: “Let me tell you everything.“

Season 8:

8x07 - Castiel: “You can’t save everyone, my friend.”

Season 12:

12x10 - Cas and Dean bicker in the Impala 12x10 - Dean and Sam interrupt the meeting between Castiel and Ishim

Season 15:

15x18 - Castiel: “I love you.”

#the list as a post which I can now link for mobile I think #... #we'll see #Ignore this if you already read this list on my blog #Imma put a read more to not clog anyones dash

[found--family]

For the ask thing: 75!

hello lovely! thankyou for your question! 😘💌

#75 — Which alternate future/universe in canon is my favorite?

I know a lot of people would probably answer Endverse (and I do love endverse!Destiel) but an Apocalyptic world overrun by zombies is a little too dark for me so it doesn't take out my Top spot (no matter how many awesome fics I've read 😍) but it definitely gets an honourable mention. 💖

Because I'm indecisive I'm gonna list my Top 3:

#3 - PURGATORY aka. Purgaytory  (s8)

Aside from the delicious Destiel content (Dean searching for Cas for a year and praying to him every night), Benny being a delight in every sense, and the general comical bickering of our 3 amigos, I love that it gave us purgatory!Dean (his entire journey in season 8 is quality content) as well as the introduction of Monsterland after we were teased with it in season 6.

I am sad they didn't explore the landscape and realm size further, as well as any monster hierarchy, or show us other types of giant/archaic monsters, but plot and budget restraints are understandable and what we did get was gold (the filter was a nice touch too, really helped set the tone and give it a vibe remeniscent of the early seasons). Thankfully there are also awesome fic writers out there exploring the unexplored for us (Redemption Road is a must-read 📖).

Season gr8 is my favourite season and Purgatory is a big part of Why. I'm thrilled they brought it back in season 15 and the introduction of the Leviathan Blossom lends inspiration to what other kinds of botanical life might reside there. 

#2 - THE FAERIE REALM  (s6 + s8)

The aliens-oh-no-wait-it's-fairies! ep of season 6 (6x09) is one of the lightest and (imho) most enjoyable eps of the dark season, and i love the x-files vibe of it. It gives us glimpses of fae realm creatures from Leprechauns and little Elves to Redcaps and Tinks, and we witness some fae magic including being teased with the fix-it of a Leprechaun's magic being able to reach into Lucifer's cage and retrieve Sam's soul with no fuss (i mean WOW, yes I'm intrigued). And let's not forget Dean's brief foray into the realm itself, which means he can now see fairies while others can't (I love coda fics of Dean's time there, and would gladly read more extensive fics exploring the realm, ie. Dean and soulless!Sam in a Canon Divergent adventure).

..which brings me to season 8 (8x11) where we meet fairy!Gilda and witness some dark fairy magic. Is Gilda's world in the same realm as the fairies we met in 6x09? Possibly. I would gladly read an adventure fic where Charlie, Dean and Sam venture into Gilda's realm (and don real warrior garb). I'm sure the MOL have files and artefacts that could be worked into a multi-realm case fic (Dean would be an awesome warrior in a fantasy war). 

Basically I love the introduction of fairies and a fae realm into the SPN 'verse because it lends a different kind of magic than we've seen from the usual witches, demigods, demons and angels. I wish we'd had another episode or two that explored fae lore. 

an honourable mention goes to Oz (because I love Dorothy and the fact that Charlie got her quest). It seems cool, but i prefer the open-to-interpretation-ness of a *fae realm*.

#1 AU!WINCHESTERS WORLD  (s15)

AU!Dean and AU!Sam might’ve been scripted mostly for comedic relief, but the existence of their world is a gift: a world where they drive a pastel fiat, wear expensive fashionable clothes (and manbuns), where people are aware of monsters to the point that cooperations exist to train hunters and get paid handsomely to hunt all over the world..

I mean, I'm sure there have been Alternate Canon fics set in such a world but now it's canon and i just love it! The possibilities are endless, y'know? 

I want a fic exploring their upbringing and hunter lives in this other realm, how society differs and whether any creatures have been enfolded into that society over the years. 

I want a fic of our boys swapping lives with the AU!Winchesters for the duration of a case. 

I want to see what our other beloved SPN characters are like in that AU. 

But to be perfectly honest the main reason I love that AU is because it gave us the beautiful cinnamon roll that is AU!Dean (we must protect him at all costs! 😍) and how contrasted his characterisation is to our Dean. 

I love how the AU!Winchesters appear to be rich&pampered and yet we have to remind ourselves they come from a world with monsters, they come from a life of hunting that takes them all over the world and is "exhausting", they come from a "family business" existence (incorporated). They may appear non-threatening, dress differently, speak differently, not drink beer and all the other differences between them, but they are still world-renowned monster assassins smart enough to jump from one universe to another in order to survive. They're a badass duo I want to read more of. 

Thankyou so much for the ask! I had fun with this one. 😁

send me more questions from this list! 

#q and a #spnaskmeme #thoughts #purgatory #s6 #s8 #s15 #15x13 #alt!chesters #alt!dean #6x09 #8x11 #fairies #Oz

[woulddieforgabriel]

“evermore” (the song) by Taylor Swift is a post-15x18 reflective piece about the inner turmoil Dean faces, complete with a happy fanfic ending by none other than Heller Swift herself. the proof:

“Grey November...”  Anyone who doesn’t think November 5, 2020 was a grey day needs their memory checked.

"I replay my footsteps on each stepping stone, trying to find the one where I went wrong." This is Dean at the very end of 15x18, breaking down on the bunker floor where Cas once stood. He just keeps repeating everything over and over, trying to figure out where it all went wrong. How did it get to this point? Years of yearning came to such an abrupt end when Cas died for him without ever knowing how Dean felt about him.

“Writing letters addressed to the fire.” Dean prays to Cas every day. Every day, he sends a heartfelt plea to Cas to come back, even if he knows it’s never going to happen and that Cas is stuck in the Empty for good now. He’s “writing letters” that he knows are never going to see their intended recipient; thus, they’re “addressed to the fire” where they’ll burn up, never to see the light of day.

“I was catching my breath, staring out an open window, catching my death.” This refers to Dean breaking down and preparing for the inevitability of death because what’s the point in stopping Chuck and saving the world if Cas won’t be around to see it? (This concept is further explored in a later line.)

“I had a feeling so peculiar, that this pain would be for evermore.” This one’s pretty obvious. He didn’t think this was something he was going to get over. He thought the pain of his loss would haunt him forever.

“Hey December, guess I’m feeling unmoored.” According to Oxford Dictionary, “unmoored” means “insecure, confused, or lacking contact with reality.” This explains Dean’s actions in 15x19 and 15x20 perfectly. He puts on a brave face and goes on to face the day, but he’s not grounded in reality as he does. In 15x19, he knows he has work to do and that he can’t allow himself to get distracted. In 15x20, he’s convinced that because there’s no world-ending-threat looming overhead, he should be happy. In both episodes, he pushes away every thought and every mention of Cas and the reality he should be facing of a life without him.

“Can’t remember what I used to fight for.” This is like the same concept as the chorus. What’s the point in fighting if he’s not fighting for Cas? But in this verse, more time has passed. The wound is no longer as fresh, but he’s just as broken as he was when it all went down because he hasn’t given himself the chance to properly grieve.

“I rewind the tape but all it does it pause on the very moment all was lost.” “The tape” is a subtle reference to the mixtape. On a literal level, this line refers to Dean finding the Zeppelin mixtape he gave Cas all those years ago -- finding that Cas kept the tape -- and listening to it over and over. Metaphorically, the line refers to Dean replaying the events of 15x18 over and over. It’s similar to “I replay my footsteps...” except, again, it takes place later on. He has a wider view of the situation. He’s not just focused on their last few minutes together; he can see their whole relationship now, the last 12 years, and he’s trying to figure out where it all went wrong. At what point was it doomed to end like this? But every time he tries to figure it out, he gets stuck on that last moment, that last “goodbye, Dean” when he realized all was lost.

“Can’t not think of all the cost, and all the things that will be lost.” Dean may be good at pretending he’s moved on, but deep down, he knows this is going to haunt him to his dying day. Yes, they saved the world, but at what cost? It’s not a happy ending if they had to lose Cas to get there.

“Can we just get a pause to be certain we’ll be tall again?” Dean is basically calling for a timeout. He just wants someone to tell him that it’s going to be okay, and that he’s going to see Cas again and that it’s all going to work out.

“When I was shipwrecked, I thought of you. In the cracks of light, I dreamed of you.” Through every problem, through every hardship he’s faced, Dean has leaned on Cas for support. Dean would rather have him, cursed or not, you know?

“It was real enough to get me through.” Their love was real enough to carry him through the last 12 years. From the archangel catfight to chopping monsters up in Purgatory, it’s been nonstop trouble, but the fact that they had their love was enough.

"I was catching my breath, floors of a cabin creaking under my step. I couldn't be sure; I had a feeling so peculiar..." This is Taylor writing her post-finale Destiel fanfic. Dean is in Heaven now, after the events of 15x19 and 15x20 and reconnecting with his friends and family. He finds himself in a little cabin in the woods. He’s not sure why he’s there, but he just had the most peculiar feeling that he was supposed to be -- and not in a season 5 “screw destiny” way; he just knew this is where he belongs. And then he hears that voice... “Hello, Dean.” “This pain wouldn’t be for evermore...”

#it's l i t e r a l l y destiel #there is not a single part of this that isn't destiel #ik i skipped a few lines bc i originally wrote this as a twitter thread and fitting it into 240 characters per tweet is hard but it w o r k #supernatural #destiel #spn #taylor swift #evermore #taylurking #dean winchester #castiel #heller swift #15x18 #15x19 #15x20 #season 16 #spn season 16 #supernaturla season 16 #supernatural season 15 #spn season 15 #season 15

[uniasus]

fic rec. Clean 16K Ineffeable husbands fic

Summary: When Crowley gets cursed to be trapped in purgatory, he finds himself reliving Armageddon over and over again, with increasingly deadly results. He has to figure out how to get to the only Armageddon that ended with everyone alive, whole, and happy. But how many choices make an Apocalypse? Hundreds, maybe thousands, maybe some were made before time existed. Meanwhile, Aziraphale is armed with a flaming broom, one former antichrist, a dog, and two of his favorite humans to try to guide Crowley back home.

Comments: I found myself really into the different version of Armageddon (and hello book verse spot!). They’re all well thought out and full of varity. Plus, there’s some super good supportive Newt in here that I adored.

#fic rec #saturniidae #good omens #ineffable husbands

[destielfanfic]

Flirting is hard, destiel failboat edition

Who’s up for a little nostalgia tour? The chosen theme for this mid February weekend is flirting failboats Dean and Cas, and these are some of our forever favorite short fics. All fics have been previously recced on this blog; some of them a long time ago, quite a few are by writers who have already left the fandom. If you are a new destiel reader, you may have missed these little gems. Check them out and you may discover your new favorite author!  

All title links go to AO3, second link goes to the rec list the fic was recced first. The year the fic was posted is adde in the bracket. See here about recent changes in our fic review and reccing format. Screen cap from homeofthenutty

A Safe Deposit by casbean [T, 1,500 word count, 2019]  previously recced here! 

Dean has a special deposit to make at the fertility clinic. His nurse is ridiculously hot and it's distracting. 

A Single Kiss by whelvenwings [T, 4,100 word count, 2016]  previously recced here! 

>> So did you kiss him? Cas read Anna’s text message with a sigh, standing next to his bed in his pyjamas, only just woken up. He should never, ever have allowed his sister even the slightest of glimpses into his meagre dating life.

Eelings for You by K_K_TiBal [Gen, 4,200 word count, 2017]  previously recced here! 

By the request of of purgatory-jar, who wanted non-crack eel-themed deancas.  (aquarium tour guide Cas meets teacher Dean and his class)

Incredibly Single & Ready to Mingle by imogenbynight [T, 3,600 word count, 2014]  previously recced here! 

Sam uses Facebook like the social media junkie he is. He's befriended literally every person he's ever had a conversation with since he got an account, which means that approximately—Dean checks—eight hours ago, he shared this horrible photo with something in the vicinity of nine hundred people. The caption below the picture reads “incredibly single & ready to mingle ;)” and roughly half of them have liked it. Dean has never been so embarrassed in his life.

Neighborly Behavior by Annie D (scaramouche) [T, 1,900 word count, 2017] previously recced here! 

Cas and Dean at a neighborhood potluck, in an AU where they’re both kinda assholes. 

Novak Quadruplets verse by violue [T, M, NC-17, 8,100 word count, 2016] previously recced here! 

It took weeks, even months before Dean was confident that he could tell the Novak Quadruplets apart... [summary of part 1]

okay, cupid. by orange_crushed [T, 4,600 word count, 2014] previously recced here! 

"The dating thing?" Dean frowns. "Online dating is for weirdos. Robots. Dudes hanging out in their basements." "You hang out in your basement." "I have an air hockey table down there,” Dean says, icily.

One White Lie by komodobits [T, 11,200 word count, 2015] (our review) 

Castiel takes a deep breath and rings the doorbell. He doesn’t need to run through what he’s going to say – he’s already planned and edited and rehearsed it a thousand times. He is going to ask Dean Winchester out to dinner. If it’s not too forward, he’ll say, perfectly charming. You see, I’ve seen you around the neighbourhood and you always seem so earnest and I’d really like to get to know you bette— The door swings open, and Castiel panics.He intends to excuse himself. He means to apologise and come back some other time. However, in a moment of blind fear, what comes out of his mouth instead are the words, “Could you spare a moment for Jesus Christ?” 

Support Your Local Gay Beekeeper by Powerfulweak [NC-17, 4,000 word count, 2015] previously recced here! 

It’s not like Dean goes on Grindr very often, just when he’s bored and alone. The blue-eyed guy's profile reads "Beekeeper, 29, 5'10, Single, I watch the bees." Dean is intrigued. He has to send a message. 

‘Tis but a Crush by Annie D (scaramouche) [Gen, 5,600 word count, 2018] previously recced here! 

Castiel discovers that he'd somehow drawn the possibly-amorous attention of a man with green eyes. It's flattering and intriguing. Now if only the man would say hello.

The fics have been previously recced on these thematic fic rec lists (listed in chronological order):

Ask about Cas and his better twin 

Dean/Cas Social Media Rec list 

Seriously ... AUs (AU oneshot rec list) 

Naughty or Nice - the Nice Edition (T rated AU oneshots) 

Destiel: Pets and Vets rec list 

Destiel AU, vol.3 - Meet Cute 

Tell Me Where It Hurts (doctor Cas) 

If you enjoyed the fic, please drop by the archive (AO3) and let the author know with your comments and/or kudos! And if you found our recs useful, let us know by Liking and/or Reblogging our posts! <3 

#archive fic rec #favorite #courtship #short #destiel au rec list #T #NC17

[themanwiththecrown]

Also never be shy to lemme know if you want a specific verse. I have four main ones but I am always happy to plot custom stuff outside of them or within them!!

I currently have: The Rise of Dick: Taking place anytime during season 7. Purgatory: Dick is back in Purgatory and well, you either survive with or get hunted. Hello, World: Susan, the best assistant one could ask for, put Edgar’s head back on his shoulders and together popped Dick back outta Purgatory. He’s on the rise again in the background - so this is for post season 7 stuff. W1nn1ng: An AU where the Leviathans have won and Dick’s crown fits so fucking good.

#i want the leviathans to be more of a threat and more competent than what little we were given #hearing about how scary and competent they are but not seeing it owned up to has always bugged me #let the first beasts be BEASTS #ooc

[theexecutionerssong]

Hello, darling! I wanted to say thank you for reblogging that Destiel fic "Ninety One Whiskey" yesterday because it made me read it and I absolutely love it! So I was just wondering if you have any other recommendations? This was my very first Destiel fanfiction, I've never read anything from SPN fandom before so I'm very unware of those tresures out there! :)

ahhhh you have no idea how happy that makes me! here are a few of my favorites that I’m copy pasting from my old fic rec page. Most are a few years old, I’ve got way more and some more recent ones too if you’d rather. They are all deancas centered. If they aren’t online anymore then let me know and I can send you the file as I’ve got over 3000 saved lmao also I LIVE AND BREATHE for angst, if I don’t cry my eyes out at some point then what’s the point sdfghjk you’ve been warned

‘Til the Last by miss_grey (American Civil War AU, my fav ever, probably)

When the war came, Dean Winchester was determined that he was not going to get involved. He had more important things to worry about than some rich man’s fight. He had work on the farm and he had taking care of his family. Nothing else was worth his worry. But in August in the Year of Our Lord 1863, when the soldiers came knocking, they weren’t asking. They dragged Dean away.

Dean and Cas have been best friends since they were kids. When Dean is drafted into the Confederate army, to what lengths will Castiel go to ensure that Dean makes it back home alive?

Exonerated by thecouchcarrot (thriller AU)

Years ago, Dean Winchester was the detective who put serial killer Castiel Goodwin behind bars. Last spring, Cas was proven innocent and his conviction overturned. Neither could’ve predicted the way their lives would intertwine…

Lost Souls by thelastknownwriter (thriller AU)

Homicide detective Dean Winchester is thrust into a past he has tried hard to forget when he finds himself leading a manhunt for an unlikely killer: his childhood best friend, Castiel.

Painted Angels by WinJennster (human AU, so much damn angst but damn it’s worth it)

Author Castiel Novak has finally hit the big time, with a book based on his failed college relationship with a brilliant painter. He’s put all his pain behind him, but at a book signing, he comes face to face with Dean Winchester for the first time in twelve years, and the reunion doesn’t go like Cas hoped. Dean’s a broken man, with a lot of scars and secrets, shoulders weighed down by his demons and self loathing.Cas sees a second chance with the man he’s never stopped loving, but Dean’s moved on, and is about to get married. Sam launches a “brilliant” plan to reunite his brother and his best friend, but Cas is worried it will all blow up in their faces, and he’ll go through the agony of losing Dean a second time.Out of the Deep by riseofthefallenone (merman AU)

Stay away from the light-beds. Stay in the deep.It is the first thing hatchlings are taught the moment their fans unfurl and they can swim without their parents to buoy them along. It is the first rule, the first law. It is the beginning of every boogey-monster bedtime story told when they settle against the cliffs to sleep.Castiel should have listened better. 

To Raise A King by riseofthefallenone (medieval/royalty AU)

This must be some kind of horrible joke at Castiel’s expense. Is he truly expected to protect a King? One who has been their enemy for as long as he can remember? He is much more suited to being a part of the army, or at the very least someone who helps to train the knights. That would be far more preferred than having to watch over the King. It means Castiel would get to keep fighting – and that’s the only way he knows to give meaning to his life.

Tramps Like Us by mkhunterz (human AU)

Dean Winchester’s life is falling apart. He’s lost his job, his apartment, and his brother, all in one day. He seems to break everything he touches. Frustrated and alone, he drives off into the night with no idea where he’s headed. But then he meets Castiel Novak, a quiet and reclusive man with a haunted past, and suddenly he finds himself with a very specific destination in mind.

Kiss You When It’s Dangerous by zoemathemata (thriller canon divergent AU)

When his partner Uriel, betrays him, Federal Agent Castiel Novak is saved from becoming a ritual sacrifice by brothers Dean and Sam Winchester. Discovering the world of the supernatural and learning about werewolves, wendigoes, vampires and things that go bump in the night also leads to learning more about Dean and the strange life he and his brother lead. The more he learns, the more Castiel finds himself drawn into Dean’s world and toward Dean himself.

Until Uriel wants to complete the ritual he started.

Pick It All Up by thepinupchemist (human AU)

Army veteran Castiel Novak is a wreck after his tour in Afghanistan, brought home to his brother’s apartment in Lawrence, Kansas with scars both mental and physical. He copes poorly, and during one night of bad decision making, meets somebody just as much of a disaster as he is – a prostitute named Dean Winchester. And suddenly, two damaged men might not be as irreparable as they believed.

The Bird That Feels The Light by ratgerastory (canon, no romance, Dean is a 5 year old but it’s the first I read almost 10 years ago and one of my favorites ever)

AU from 5.18 (or thereabouts). Castiel awakens in the middle of a smoking crater, stranded and very much human. According to the people who have discovered him, it’s six months to the day after Michael and Lucifer faced off on the field of battle outside of Detroit, and Castiel isn’t the only one to have returned. When, at his insistence, they take him to this other person, he finds a child –a little boy– and realizes that, contrary to all his expectations, he has been reunited with Dean Winchester. The world has changed in their absence, and not for the better. Sam is gone, whether dead or simply missing is uncertain. Castiel is given the name of a man in Idaho who may have answers for him. He is faced with the task of travelling cross-country with Dean, who is dependent on him now in ways he never was before, in order to discover the truth. But along the way, as he and Dean learn to know and trust each other once more, Castiel begins to realize that the answers he thought he wanted might not be the ones he needs. 

the inexhaustible silence of houses by Askance (canon, I adored it but it left me in pieces, it took me weeks to get over it)

Almost two years after the world doesn’t end, Castiel falls from grace—and loses his voice in the process. It is the impetus for confession and change; before long, he is settling into a loving relationship with Dean, the Winchesters are tired, and hunting for a place to land has taken precedence to hunting anything else. Dean and Castiel fall in love with the strange little house on the end of Swallowtail Drive, and for a little while life is as it should be—sweet, affectionate, and beginning afresh. But more and more Castiel sees and hears things in the house that beg the question of whether or not a place itself can be alive. The walls and rooms seem to shift and grow and breathe, and one night, Dean comes home from a hunt changed in a way that Castiel cannot explain. In the months that follow, their domestic bliss takes turns for the dark and sour, and the confusion of their circumstances will ultimately test everything Castiel knows about the man he loves, and everything he believes to be true.

Last Man Standing by cerulea (canon, purgatory!verse)

Picking up exactly where we left off at the end of Season 7, Cas and Dean are stranded together in Purgatory struggling both to save their lives and their friendship amidst constant peril.

After The Fire by Themista (canon, end!verse)

Starting in 2013 and going through 2014 this is the story of Dean and Cas in their ill-fated quest to find the colt and shoot the devil - set in the endverse alternate reality seen in 5x04 The End. The apocalypse poses Dean and Cas many threats along the way, as they have to contend with the croats and Lucifer’s demons, led by Meg, all while trying to work out whether they can trust the infamously devious demon Crowley, with whom they already have a bloody history.

Twist and Shout by standbyme and gabriel (human 60-70s AU) (I don’t care how divisive and unpopular recommanding this one is, I was skeptical going in but it’s been years and I still have to skip Can’t Help Falling In Love and Twist and Shout when they come on shuffle in my playlists, that fic destroyed me))

What begins as a transforming love between Dean Winchester and Castiel Novak in the summer of 1965 quickly derails into something far more tumultuous when Dean is drafted in the Vietnam War. Though the two both voice their relationship is one where saying goodbye is never a real truth, their story becomes fraught with the tragedy of circumstance. In an era where homosexuality was especially vulnerable, Twist and Shout is the story of the love transcending time, returning over and over in its many forms, as faithful as the sea.

I also read ABO fics but I don’t know if you’re into that so I’m not including any in this list ^^ enjoy, let me know if you find something you like!

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my favorite destiel fics under 10k

hello enjoy!! there’s a bunch so they’re under the cut. :) a couple are dcj which is noted after the title! 

don’t forget to kudos & comment!!! 

A Change of Scene by SurlyCat

Words: 7,606

When Dean goes over to see his Dom on Christmas Eve, he isn't expecting Cas to play naughty Santa, and neither of them is expecting how it turns out for them.

Aloft by VioletHaze 

Words: 5,271

Despite his bravado walking in, he can’t quite bring himself to sit on Cas’s actual bed, but he stands near the foot of it and takes a long pull of his beer. In silent satisfaction, he watches Cas watch him lick the beer off his upper lip.

From past experience, this should be when Cas strides forward and Dean pretends to let him take charge. For whatever reason, though, that’s not happening. If anything, Cas seems to have put a little extra space between them.

“Dean, about today,” Cas begins and Jesus Christ when he said he wanted to talk he actually wanted to talk.

Dean feels the embarrassment at being so far off base twist at his gut. The bottle he was holding loosely in his hand is now clenched in his fist as he makes for the door. “We are not doing this.”

He’s stopped in his tracks when his vision goes black, disorienting him. It takes a second or two to realize it isn’t the black of darkness or unconsciousness, but a deep iridescent black of feathers and wings.

A moving sea. by orange_crushed

Words: 3,356

It’s a pretty song but just too fucking sad, even if he doesn’t catch all the words, so Dean reaches out to change it. But Castiel’s hand meets his halfway, startles him into pulling back. He glances over and sees Castiel’s eyes watching him, glittering a little in the light from the dash. He wasn’t sleeping at all. “I like this one,” Castiel says. “Do you mind?”

"No," says Dean, and leaves it. Castiel twines their fingers together and they stay like that for the next dozen miles.

Angel-Mine by relucant @relucant​

Words: 4,274

Cas exhaled. "When an angel's wings are injured," he said to his feet, "the healing process can be augmented by… grooming, I suppose, would be the most accurate word. Removal of the maimed feathers to allow growth of healthy ones. Otherwise, they're left to fall out alone." He tilted his head towards the nightstand. "As you see."

Dean stared at him. "So… that's why I can't help?" he said slowly. "'Cause I can't, y'know… see 'em? Or touch 'em?"

"Yes," Cas said, slightly too quickly, and Dean snorted.

"You're still a shitty liar, Cas," he informed him. "What ain't you tellin' me?"

A Room of His Own (or not) by Valinde (Valyria)

Words: 3,036

Dean took a deep breath and reassessed the situation. He was in bed with a guy, sure, and technically they were snuggling, but it was Cas. The guy had absolutely no reference on what was appropriate physical contact between two dudes sharing a bed in the... normal, completely unsexy, no-funny-business, way.

A Simple Touch, A Single Look by jujubiest

Words: 2,334

Something is going on between Dean and Castiel, and Sam is determined to find out what it is. Meanwhile, Castiel puzzles over surprising aspects of his relationship with Dean.

As Long as you Like by artsyUnderstudy

Words: 6,626

A few months after Cas finally comes home to Dean, the two have settled in comfortably together. It's only after a botched date that Dean starts to worry he might not understand what Cas needs.

Boys On Film by LoversAntiquities 

Words: 8,540

But maybe that’s what it is—maybe Castiel’s finally realized something Dean is too chicken to admit, despite the fact he’s been jerking off to the idea of Castiel fucking him for the past few weeks. The idea warms him as much as it pains him to think about, his friend not being able to talk to him about something like that. That has to be it—it’s the only explanation. Castiel likes him.

“Or maybe he knows you do cam shows.”

Dean chokes on his burger.

Castiel's Angel by Valinde (Valyria)

Words: 5,073

The angel took a deep breath and looked down at his hands. He was fidgeting Cas noticed. Usually he was so bizarrely at ease in his human form, lounging around and tossing winks and smirks at anyone with a pulse. That more than anything had Cas straightening on his stool and wishing he was a little less tipsy.

“Ineedyoutogroommywings,” Dean muttered in one long, almost unintelligible, string. He was blushing.

Casturbatus Interruptus by smallhorizons

Words: 6,118

post-9.01, in a slight AU wherein Cas comes to live with the Winchesters at the Bunker. Written before 9.03. Crossposting from Tumblr. Written for a prompt from hightopsandsharpies: "Okay, so Cas is a virgin, and has no idea what pleasure is and Dean decides to show him and Cas gets all cuddly and needy afterwards."

Dean walks in on Cas masturbating. He’s doing it all wrong, but when you’re a bazillion-year-old virgin, that’s to be expected. Dean decides to lend him a hand in a totally platonic, non-romantic way. Things get a little out of control.

Curriculum vitae by cadignan

Words: 2,875

Curriculum vitae, n. A short account of one's career and qualifications. From Latin "course of (one's) life."

Dances With Bees by shiphitsthefan @shiphitsthefan​

Words: 1,402

There is no First Blade. No Mark of Cain. No Ezekiel or Metatron or Trials or Purgatory. There is Dean, and there is Baby, and there is Cas, and all three are worse for wear.

"In which Dean is not a bee, Cas is not a flower, and the image of Cas' left hand on a radio dial and a hole in the knee of his scrubs will haunt your every waking moment for eternity. YOU'RE WELCOME."―Thank you for helping write the summary, Betty.

Days With You by omgbubblesomg @omgbubblesomg​

Words: 3,212

Dean’s almost tragically offended when he moves into a new apartment and despite his absolute best efforts he can’t win more than a smile from his devastatingly handsome neighbour.

Every Last First by Areiton @areiton​

Words: 1,514

Somewhere along the way, Cas stopped being an ally, a friend.

Now, he was simply everything.

For Science by shiphitsthefan @shiphitsthefan​

Words: 6,105

“Think of it like an experiment," says Dean. "You’re testing a hypothesis as to whether or not a desirable response can be achieved through the stimulation of the anus via the application of a willing volunteer’s muscular hydrostat.”

Cas raises an eyebrow. “Are you actually trying to use the scientific method to talk me into letting you lick my asshole?”

Freeze Frame by surlybobbies

Words: 4,998

Dean's got about two minutes before Cas comes back, which is more than mildly inconvenient because Dean's just found out Cas is in love with him.

Friends Helping Friends (Telling Me What My Heart Meant) byAnnie D (scaramouche)

Words: 6,201

Dean and Cas have known each other for about a year now, and in that time, Cas has never gone into heat. So far.

He Came in Through the Bedroom Window by betts

Words: 4,725

Close to every day of every summer, Cas climbs into Dean’s room immediately after he wakes up.

He Woke Me Up Again by artsyUnderstudy

Words: 7,642

Castiel is injured at the studio, giving him and Dean time to work through their newly forming relationship.

If I Run by Anonymous

Words: 4,365

"Dean Winchester is a red-blooded American male. He lifts all the things. He aims for functional strength. He counts his macros and makes fun of curlbros. He is not a member of the Tarahumara tribe and he will not read Born to Run, no matter how many times Sam tells him to, because Starting Strength is the only book Dean will ever fucking need."

***

Wherein a friendly competition with the mysterious ThursdaysAngel turns into a sexy selfie-trading spree that motivates Dean Winchester to train for his first marathon.

Inhuman by Annie D (scaramouche)

Words: 2,098

Dean has learned that sex is different when there's an angel involved.

Just After, But Before by cymbalism

Words: 8,712

Just after Purgatory, but before whatever's next, Dean has a broken angel to put back together.

Just like honey. by orange_crushed

Words: 4,505

"Dean," Cas says. His hand is still flat against Dean's heart. "I've been- will you do something for me?"

"Sure," Dean says. He doesn't even have to think about it. Cas's eyes are starring over, gleaming at the edges with the faintest track of unshed tears, even though he's smiling again. Dean's never actually seen him cry: happy, stubborn, tireless Castiel and his bees and guacamole and perfect coffee and perpetually bare feet, Cas, Dean's hardy dandelion blooming in the middle of the sidewalk. Dean would do literally anything he asked right now, jump off a cliff or ford a river, hand to hand combat with a mountain lion, an eight-course dinner with all Cas's jerkoff fundamentalist relatives. Dean would learn Esperanto or become a bonds trader, whatever the fuck that is. Dean would die for him. Dean would do it smiling.

"Marry me," Cas says.

Kisses by Sunflower Beds by fanforfanatic @fanforfanatic​

Words: 3,299

Cas can’t bring Dean back. But he can’t be without him. So Cas leaves to meet versions of Dean he hasn’t come across before. Dean at three as a snotty toddler. At eight as a grubby child. At fifteen when he's already damaged. Cas travels through time to meet Dean throughout his life, different version of the man and Cas loves every single one.

La cucina. by orange_crushed

Words: 3,962

Dean turns around and Castiel is picking through the jars, turning them over carefully to read the labels, totally engrossed. Dean watches him.

"Is there," Dean says, "uh, anything in there you like?" Castiel looks up at him and then back at the apples, sitting in a basket on the counter in their golden skins, ripe and pretty. Castiel smiles up at Dean.

Like a Parched Land by Las

Words: 8,676

Written for the following prompt: "Reverse!verse: Castiel is the Righteous Man and Dean is the angel who drags his ass out of Hell." This is an AU version of episodes 5x01 through 5x03.

Long Nights in Cold Months by pyrebi

Words: 2,344

When you're an insomniac, you get used to the "what the hell are you doing up, man?" look. Dean just hopes the guy who's stocking the shelves will stop giving it to him long enough to help him find some damn pineapple.

Love, Take Your Toll by aileenrose

Words: 8,724

Cas sees hundreds of faces every day, but there's only one that he really cares about.

Movie Night by Annie D (scaramouche)

Words: 7,683

Dean invites his friends over so that they can gangbang Cas, and fun times were had by all.

Mysteries. by orange_crushed

Words: 2,542

But if God is not gone entirely, if God is not blind, then God knows about this, too. He might be the only one who can hear it: the inaudible rumbling in Castiel’s heart, restless and aching like an empty stomach.

Negotiating the Spot by shiphitsthefan @shiphitsthefan​

Words: 6,521

"They lie there in a comfortable silence for a while, Dean on his back with his eyes closed and Cas on his side curled around him. Eventually, Cas’ back starts to hurt, and his arm starts going numb beneath the pillow, squashed by the weight of his head and the odd angle. This is becoming a common problem when they cuddle after sex, and Cas doesn’t understand why."

The wet spot on the bed often poses a problem once the afterglow subsides, but rarely does it offer solutions.

okay, cupid. by orange_crushed

Words: 4,591

"The dating thing?" Dean frowns. "Online dating is for weirdos. Robots. Dudes hanging out in their basements."

"You hang out in your basement."

"I have an air hockey table down there,” Dean says, icily.

Once Upon A Dream by jujubiest

Words: 4,899

Everybody-Dean included-attributes Castiel's awkward staring and lack of appreciation for personal space to his lack of understanding when it comes to humans. Funny thing, though: Cas never invades Bobby's personal space, or Sam's. Why is Dean different? Maybe there's something everyone is missing.

Orange You Glad by shiphitsthefan @shiphitsthefan​

Words: 6,062

Dean hates farmers markets and everything that they stand for. However, following a conversation with a new friend, an aptly-timed epiphany, and some impromptu pie-sharing, Dean's definitely rethinking that opinion.

Perfect Symmetry by FPwoper (dcj) @fpwoper 

Words: 1,447

In which Dean gets drunk and gets lucky. With twins.

Petals by Morethancupcake

Words: 1,745

"He tells him about the bet, about how Ash had pointed Castiel out and had said "Fifty bucks none of you can't have him." Dean doesn't tell him the insults, but Castiel can guess them, all of them. They all probably laughed at how awkward he was, how out of place. How wrong."

Dean tells him about the bet. In the morning, Castiel is gone.

Physics can wait by museaway @museaway​ 

Words: 1,654

Dean doesn’t want a tutor, especially not some kid his age in a tan sweater with a tie and a freaking button-down, but his mom insisted.

Pink by museaway @museaway​

Words: 7,651

After a chance encounter at Lawrence Laundromat (at 3am, no less), Castiel is enthralled with his memory of a man in dusty jeans and a plain t-shirt with a pair of panties in his laundry basket. So Charlie Bradbury (aka Castiel's Former Best Friend) places a "missed connections" ad on his behalf, because that's what friends are for.

Queer by SeashellDestihell

Words: 1,948

A collection of times Dean encounters the word queer.

Release by lovegonestale

Words: 2,504

"Dean refuses to acknowledge his affection/lust for Castiel which backfires horridly when an angel/monster/witch strips Dean of his control and leaves only the basic instincts. The animal inside Dean wants Castiel, wants him under him, submitting, his mate/bitch and he'll do whatever he needs to get that."

Sharing Hands by almaasi 

Dean feels something strange when he touches himself, and realises Cas has been using him as a vessel ever since he came back from Purgatory.

Shopping with Castiel by Anonymous

Words: 2,126

Dean takes Castiel shopping, and the tension is just too much to handle.

Show Me by relucant @relucant​

Words: 3,069

“Huh,” Dean said again. He paused for a moment, then blurted, “Do you think you could show me?” Cas’ eyes widened, but before he could respond, Dean continued in a rush, “Like, um, a porn or something? I mean, just to, like – oh, God, never mind.” He dropped his head into his hands, the tips of his ears bright red.

It wouldn’t be the first time their decade-long friendship had gone a little beyond PG-ratings, between curious middle-school jerkoffs over the pilfered Playboys from Dean’s hidden stash to some drunken high school party games that maybe got a little more handsy than necessary. But they were seniors in college now, and Cas’ attraction to Dean had acquired a weight it hadn’t had as teenagers, and he was pretty sure watching gay porn together was a bad way to fuel that fire.

“Okay,” he said, before his mouth caught up to his dick.

Dean jerked his head up. “What?” he said stupidly.

Something Like This by AlizarinDreams

Words: 2,891

PWP continuation of Missing the Point. Really. That's it.

Steal my Breath by Sincestiel

Words: 1,991

“Tighter, Dean, please,” Cas urges throwing his head back to rest on Dean’s shoulder. Dean squeezes. He doesn’t know why Cas wants this or even what the appeal is, but he always comes harder when he’s struggling to breathe.

Study Break by relucant @relucant​

Words: 3,544

“Stop whining,” Cas said. “Finish your outline and we’ll go. There’s beer at the apartment. We’ll put on Star Wars and pretend we never set foot in the library over break.”

“Castiel Novak,” Dean said, putting his hand to his heart, “you are the wind beneath my wings.”

“Idiot,” Cas said affectionately, hoping Dean didn’t notice the hot flush creeping up his neck. He snatched his pen back and returned to his paper.

They worked in silence for several minutes, punctuated only by Dean’s occasional groans of boredom. Finally he pushed his laptop away and opened his mouth to complain when another clap of thunder shook the walls, much louder than before, and the lights flickered briefly.

Stupid with a Flare Gun by remmyme @remmyme​

Words: 3,912

“Look,” Dean grits, pinching at the bridge of his nose, “You’ve got a body. Yourbody.” (Castiel, not long ago: “Jimmy…his soul was not returned to me.”) “You’re gonna damn well learn how to use it.” The hunter reaches under the seat to jerk at the lever, sliding back the whole of the front bench and badly startling Castiel with the unexpected jolt of movement. “And, hate to break it to you, but this town’s really not that big. You just got yourself kicked out of the only joint that’s got the professionals at work.”

Dean twists to lean against the car door, pulling up a leg to lay across the seat. The moment stretches, silent and tense.

“I ain’t gonna fuck you,” he says, voice gruff, “but I’ll talk you through it.”

Support Your Local Gay Beekeeper by Powerfulweak

Words: 3,976

It’s not like Dean goes on Grindr very often, just when he’s bored and alone. The blue-eyed guy's profile reads "Beekeeper, 29, 5'10, Single, I watch the bees." Dean is intrigued. He has to send a message.

Take Me Home Tonight by Persephoneshadow

Words: 8,111

“Come on, we’re finding you someone to��engage with sexually or whatever,” Dean explains, chancing another swig of beer before going on. “Anyone in this bar, no limits, who would you would be your top choice to bang?”

“Well, you, ideally.”

Dean spits out some beer before collapsing in on himself, legitimately choking this time. “Excuse me?!”

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Or the one where Cas wants to have sex and Dean is there to help.

Take Your Time by smallhorizons

Words: 2,532

Basically: Dean takes his time opening up Cas with his tongue and fingers before he finally slips inside and gives Cas what he wants.

The First Thing by Valinde (Valyria)

Words: 2,609

Dean figures out what he wants.

The Occasional Sentimentality by Annie D (scaramouche)

Words: 7,512

Dean has the Winchester business, Castiel is an independent contractor, their penchant for violence is something they have in common. For eight months they've been meeting off and on for brief yet intense encounters, but like all things, it can't stay that way forever.

The One Thing You Can't Lose by MajorEnglishEsquire

Words: 4,955

You know what I like a lot? The thought that Dean can just tug Cas anywhere at any time and Cas, who can lift tons without effort, who can demolish things with the light of his grace, who has battled and gone to war, has defended and broken, will just let Dean do it.

The Samhain Trials by jemariel @jemariel

Words 8,068

On Samhain night, the veil is thin, not only between the spirit world and our own, but between humankind and their inner natures.

Every year, the hunt is run. Alphas and omegas brave the woods in search of glory and passion. Every year, Dean Winchester comes out alone. The soulbrand on his neck means that he has a True Mate, and what should be a blessing has only been a curse.

He hopes, and he waits, and this year his soulbrand has been itching as if it were newly risen.

It's nearly sundown.

The Sweetest Taste by habitatfordeanwinchester @cineastette

Words: 1,938

“I assure you that I can feel and taste things just as well as you can, if not more so.”

“You’ve spent centuries as a, what do you call it, fucking celestial wavelength? You can’t possibly tell me that you think you’re a greater authority on hot chocolate.”

***

In which Dean and Castiel argue about hot chocolate.

through hardships to the stars by museaway @museaway 

Words: 4,554

Cas showed up at Dean’s apartment six minutes before midnight with a six-pack of Ad Astra under his arm and Interstellar on blu-ray.

Times Two by relucant (dcj) @relucant

Words: 5,416

[10:50] From: Charlie

So did you find Mr. Sex Hair?

[10:51] To: Charlie

actually yeah. and dude -- there's TWO of them

[10:51] From: Charlie

… How drunk are you?

[10:52] To: Charlie

im not!

[10:52] To: Charlie

ok im lying, i am a little

[10:53] To: Charlie

but srsly, they're twins. and ofc i accosted the wrong twin abt the pic

[10:55] From: Charlie

Oh my God. Your life is a fanfic.

[10:56] From: Charlie

So… Dean-sandwich on the menu then?

To be Alone with You by artsyUnderstudy

Words: 6,248

Castiel needs a model for his new sculpture project, and Dean Winchester sounds perfect for the job.

Tush by Sales Associate Steve (Stiney) @salesassociatesteve

Words: 5,359

Dean's still not exactly clear how he got here, but it's not so bad, actually, it's pretty awesome modeling panties on Tumblr.

Unfocused, Blissed Out by jemariel (dcj) @jemariel

Words: 1,818

“You’re both so beautiful,” Cas finds himself saying.

Jimmy laughs a high snort of a laugh. “Whatever you say, asshole.”

Dean slaps him lightly on the shoulder. “Way to ruin the moment, jerk.”

But Cas just settles deeper into the pillows and around his lovers, smiling and content.

We Will Touch Our Feet Together by cadignan

Words: 7,388

Go to one hour’s worth of paid cuddling—touch therapy, whatever—and end up with a pothead moping on your couch, talking about kinky sex.

Wordplay by Dangerousnotbroken @dangerousnotbroken

Words: 2,964

“I don’t understand why talking dirty is such a big deal for you humans,” Cas complains, apropos of nothing.

You Deserve This by beansprean

Words: 2,190

Sex with Cas was never supposed to be an emotional experience, and Dean doesn't deserve to be made love to.

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