#the second one is gonna hurt too

[luck-of-the-drawings]

FOR A BEAT OF HEART, THE BREATH IS SHOT. AND WITHIN A BREATH, THE HEART IS CAUGHT. THE PIPES ARE BURSTING, UNDER GREAT STRESS, BOLTS TORN ASUNDER, MAKING A MESS. A FINAL COUGH, A FINAL RETCH, A GOREY SLOUGH, CLAIMED BY WRETCH.

#cw gore #jrwi riptide #jrwi riptide spoilers #chip jrwi #jrwi fanart #jrwi show #I LLOOOVE POETRYYY I LOVE MAKING WORDS RHYME IN STRANGE WAYS AND DESCRIBING VISCERA AND VIOLENCE OR WAHTEVER. YKNOW WHAT ELSE I LOVE #CHHHIIIIIIIBBOOOOO MY BEAUTIFUL MAAANN WWHAT. WHAT HAPPENED. OH MY GOD. IVE BEEN SAYING FOREVER. I NEEED CHIP TO GET SCARIER. #HE HAS THE POTENTIAL! I KNOW HE DOES! HAUNTED BOY WITH THE HAUNTED EYES WHAT TRAUMAS HAVE YOU SEEN? AND WERE THEY YOUR FAULT? THINK ABOUT I #EVERY FAMILY HAS CRUMBLED AROUND HIM. HIS BIRTH FAMILY CRUMBLED BEFORE HE KNEW IT. HIS SECOND FAMILY DROWNED. THIRD BURNED TO THE GROUND #AND SHALL THIS NEXT FAMILY JOIN THEM? CHIIIIP YOU UNFORTUNATE BOY YOU HAVE WITNESSED SO MUCH CALAMITY #YOU ARE CALAMITY BOYYY AHAHAHAHA DONT YOU SEEE!! ZOMBIFIED AND DEAD. TRUELY MORE HAUNTED THAN EVER BEFORE. THIS WILL BE FUN #THE FIRE HURTS WHEN IT BURNS TOO LONG. BUT NOW YOUR NERVES ARE DEAD AND YOUR MIND IS FREE. BURN THIS CORPSE AS YOU WISH TO GET WHAT YOU WAN #CHIP IS NOT THE FIRE HE IS THE MATCH. I LOVE THAT IDEA SO MUCH IM SO PROUD OF IT. OHHH AND CAN WE TALK ABOUT THE CORRUPTION #bizly mentioned that chip wants to be a good captain. in his most corrupted state however. he would be the BEST captain.. #thAT DOESNT MEAn hes gonna just suddenly be all controlling. the BEST captain keeps his crew safe. keeps them together. keeps them alive. #and chip is doing just that! he doesnt need to stop being a good captain just bc of the corruption! he just needs to be the BEST CAPTAIN #AND THATS SUBJECTIVE BABY!! im so excited to see where chips zombie arc goes. neeeed him to get scarier and just a little more fucked up. #neEED HIM TO PERFORM ABHORANT ACTIONS THAT HAVE JAY N GILL GOING ' dude woah what the fuck...' #RIGHT I SHOULD TALK ABT MY ART TOO. this one took TOO LONGGGstarted out witha sketch how did it end up like this... #the heart and the blood KILLED ME. LOOK AT MY RENDERING LIKE HWAAATT #better not see any more mistakes after i post this.... i cant fight withit anymore....STILL RLY PROUD THO.. #I WAnted to make it visually LOOK like the grossest vomiting sound possible #i want it to make your throat feel uncomfortable. am i achieving that? i hope i am. thats tubes dude!!! like cmahn!

[roomy-ghosted]

My feelings towards ao3 this morning.

#baldurs gate 3 #astarion #bg3 astarion #like-i get it. but- #please. please for the love of god. just fluff or non-sexual fics. #for five seconds. #please. #I can only handle so much corn. especially when it's almost all geared just towards women. #this is all /lh i dont actually care all that much- but there comes a point where theres too much and all a man wants to do #is hold another man close. or go on perfume dates or pottery lessons with another man. #small things to help healing or gentle things or silly playful things. #hell- even taking care of all the spawn with Astarion in the bad ending- #why are all the bad ending fics ive seen corn btw? I've seen like- zero non-corn ones. #i get it. I get the vibe. but like- also. consider. like- maybe I wanna read angst with. with no corn?? please? #I've got 4 unposted fluffy fics im working on. One being hurt-comfort with some extra hurt #which i had to stop writing for a bit today because it was hurting a bit TOO much. #but yea. a little less corn for Astarion? for those who aren't horndogs? please? or just don't wanna fuck him because they #dont wanna hurt him more- (im not at the point in game where he's comfy with sex again yet-) #BESIDES GALE IN THE WAVEMOTHER ROBES IS RIGHT THERE PEOPLE- #LIKE COME ON. IF YOU'RE GONNA SEXUALISE A MAN HE'S RIGHT THERE WITH HIS PUPPY DOG EYES AN HAIRY CHEST. #There needs to be more sexualisation of Gale. NO I don't take no for an answer (Astarion is still my favourite though-)

[rings-of-power-realm]

Sadly sold out already :(

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#bear mccreary #the rings of power #for one second I had hope and was gonna be even more broke buying this #my heart hurts I need this so bad #iM SO THIRSTY FOR MERCH ITS NOT FUNNY #also wanted physical cds since I have all of Howard Shores score too #fml

[bsaka7]

fuck it lol im buying new running shoes

#I thought I could make it through this cycle on this pair but it's now obvious I cannot #these shoes r dead deceased nonfunctional and making my knee hurt so. #I know what shoe I want too if they have last seasons asics gt 2000 im getting it #the unfortunate thing is I've only seen asics at this one store #and they weren't very nice to me last time I was there lol #Which is fair. But also a bummer like i am gonna spend a hundred plus bucks on u lol #my brooks r still good i just need a fresh second pair #My guess is these shoes have500+ mi on then and my others r around 350. #So it'll be good to be able to get back into a 6mo #shoe buying rotation #Tetrapod runs

[wherenymphsroam]

i like your choices!! i love all the characters its so hard for me to decide too (i've literally wrote a fic for so many re characters at this point)!!

i love older leon too he needs more love <3 re6 leon is my top 3 istg nobody gets ittt other than you!!

re6 Leon is just…. UGH.

he reminds of soft saxophone jazz. like … he makes me wanna stay up dancing to soft jazz while sipping on some obscure alcohol in the middle of his apartment with him until ungodly hours of the night. the way he treats Helena and Ada in re6 makes me wanna eat my fist. like … he’s so inherently gentle even under all that rough and toughness he’s had to take on and just GOD he is just so lover boy coded it legitimately makes me throw up sometimes.

like are we kidding. are we kidding. he just UGH I NEED HIM SO BAD.

#that one scene where he catches helena after they both hop into a man hole into the sewers #the hand placement the eye contact #idk about you but my knees would have buckled so damn fast #AND THE WAY HE PICKS ADA UP WHEN SHE WAS TOO WEAK TO FIGHT THERE FOR A SECOND ??? #literally kill me. #don’t even get me started on his voice you will NOT hear the end of it #im going back to my time out corner he makes my head hurt #yaps. ˚₊‧꒰ა ☆ ໒꒱ ‧₊˚˚ #fairies. 𐦍 #we r gonna ignore how long this sat in my inbox 😭😭😭

[mira0000000-blog]

not sure yet and not very sonic but im thinking about it

#still not sure about her design aaa its mostly cos sonic universe doesnt have giant otters #i know archie had an otter at some point but i looked at it and was like nah i want big TEETH #im also not sure cos what she is now doesnt really look like sonicesque enuf #i always end up making her eyes too smol for sonic world #i was listening to “Os Tincoãs” and was like my oc i remember her and then i started mindlessly doodling #and although making her be a capoeira practitioner was in my mind already i never drew anything capoeira related before #so i picked a video on youtube and made a little last second “study” with her weird proportions #turned out trash but im happy i tried #i want her to be kinda like vector cos u know giant otter #and they also have their bodies connected to the tail like crocs #also yeah she is a girl i just didnt want to giver a shirt cos then it would hide the markings they have on the neck #that like makes their family differentiate one from the other and i was like awn im not hiding dat #but maybe if i find another way to make her shapes she can have a shirt on #I have a name idea im almost sure its gonna be her final name but wanna think more #if nothin changes her name will be Floreio :3 #wanted to do more but my back hurts and ima sleepy its past midnight again yeyy #wee my art i gues

[crybaby-bkg]

I just finished my first public piano performance since the pandemic and I’m so TIREDDDDD!!!!! but I did pretty good :) my first song was great and I stumbled a little on the second but overall it went by very well!!!!!

#best part about it was going home tho LOL #one guys song was literally 28 mins no exaggeration #everyone was getting so irritated and restless and kept whispering that he was taking too long #I felt kinda bad but almost 30 straight mins of piano is a lot lmfao #but yeah!!! second best part was coming home and taking my hair done #my edges HURT that shit was so tight #I don’t wanna touch ANOTHER MF piano for like two months after this #and everyone looked so bored lol the energy that used to be there before the pandemic just wasn’t there #also my family is full of niggas cause why did they immediately leave when I finished skdhfkdj #literally don’t blame them tho cause if I didn’t have to stay to the end I would’ve left too #okay bye I’m sleepy and haven’t been on here since this morning so I’m gonna catch up :) #—in store chit chat! 🍫

[astranauticus]

oh i absolutely gave myself way too much of a workload this semester but holy shit i finally have like... about 80% of that orv changgwi animatic down in concept and i am. cartoon villain cackling

#asto speaks #when (yes WHEN not IF) i get it done its gonna hurt so bad #i mean i dont think it'll get done *soon* cuz god my workload this semester is. something #but if my math isnt wrong the webtoon is only gonna get to chapter 188 (where i plan to cover up to in the animatic) in like june so #ive got time?? kinda?? anyway i literally *cannot* stop thinking about this fucking idea so mark my words i will get it done #also yes its going to hurt me to make too because i havent ever done an animatic for a full song yet #changgwi is one of those songs thats kinda impossible to split up idk #also because my BEST ideas are at exactly the beginning and ending of the song. convenient. #the ending was like my one major concern when i first thought of this idea actually cuz the part of the song that #originally made me think of orv was that second (third?) verse of like the spirit telling the story of its own death that felt very yjh idk #but i just had. no idea what to do with the second half of the song #but then i read the novel and chapter 188 hit me in the back of the head with a baseball bat #and now that ending might be my favourite part of the whole project #>:) #big massive sorry to all my rwd mutuals btw i know there was a bit where i kept talking about making another rwd animatic #i do still have that sitting in my brain just cuz ive already animated a few segments of the song #i just dont reaaally have a full plan for the whole thing exactly so #by this point im just seeing if we get any DX-TR lore in s5 that might inspire me idk #project 2 electric boogaloo #stay tuned idk i have a bit of a proof of concept i plan to make this/next week #its funny actually cuz i got introduced to this song through an arknights animatic i saw on bb and i spent #honestly an embarrassing amount of time worrying if some of the ideas i have in my plan were just like. subconsciously stolen from that one #but i was like procrastinating schoolwork today and trying to plan out some stuff and just #went and looked up every changgwi animatic on bilibili i could find #and turns out the stuff i was worried id been stealing are honestly just like. common among *all* the stuff ive seen that use that song? #like cuz the official lyric video for the song is just so. stylistically *striking* a lot of genetic material from that just makes its way #into everything people make using that song like at this point the monochrome red colour scheme and like #ending on a backwards timelapse (?) through the vid is basically like scenes a faire for any changgwi animatic LMAO

[skrunksthatwunk]

yeah i can't come to class today, sorry. yeah. yeah. it's cause my hair's too long. mhm. gonna put me out of commission til the weekend at least

#fuck it's too long it's too long it's too long hate hate hate hate hate kill kill kill #i am resisting the urge to cut it all off with scissors but just barely #i havent been able to go home lately and my clippers are there. fUCKK #ITS TOO LONG SOMEONE GET ME OUT OF HERE #i cant stop thinking about shaving my head again or at least cutting it short #it's summer i should have short hair summer is for short hair FUCKK THIS IS WEIRD #i feel like a sad stonermetal mushroom. in middle school. and NOT in a cool way if that wasnt clear!! #hhhhhhhhgnnnghfhn fuckk i feel so gross and weird #i didnt even do anything why are my spoons gone FUCKK. SHITITTTUJ DAMMIT #this is so dumb i literally skipped my second class for no reason and i have so mucj work but i didnt even do anything #i shoudktn be this out ofnit. euhhhhhghh #and i have a new friend and he really really wants to hang out and i dont hav.e the spoons #but i feel so bad.. and i have other ppl i wanna hang out with but i cant bring nyself to readh out #and even if they reached ouy i probably wouldnt be able to respond and i have to go see a show thid week too #bc theyre doing into the woods and i love that shit and i promised id go ans ive been lookign forward to it for months #but i cant. bwuhhhhhhhhghhhh #and i cant just tell the new friend i don't wanna hang out twice this week (one is the play) bc i blew him off all last week #i really dont wanna hurt his feelings but i really can't communicate like he wants me to. and ive kinda said that but still #mmmmmmnnnnuguhghh hes only doing it bc i mean a lot to him but it's moving so fast ans I can't really be there forbhim the way he probably #deserves.. i should probably eat skmething idk. eughhhhhhhhgghhghhggh. melting into a pile of slop and slurry rn #just gonna sink into my bed and not sleep and feel bad. hoorayy

[cementcornfield]

Ja’Marr changed his profile picture on Instagram… our boy is going through it rn 🥺🥲 Also could be because he misses his son

Also Joe Mixon commented “We got you brother” 🥹

i did notice that 😔 and i'm trying not to read too much into it! i can definitely imagine he's taking comfort in loved ones like his son right now to get through it (it is a super cute picture)

loved all the supportive comments on joe's post yesterday, from mixon, to cj stroud, to patrick queen - a bunch of the receivers etc etc. that man is so loved by his teammates and it shows!

#as for ja'marr changing his profile pic....oh man #i don't want to speculate (i mean of course i do) and obviously i don't actually know what he's thinking and have no way of knowing #but it does feel a little bit like he's giving up this season #or not giving up - i can't think of the right words #but perhaps not as a committed #he's a professional athlete his body is everything and you can tell this man thinks about his future a lot #(how carefully he managed his hip last year - talking about wanting joe to be here for the future) #and we know how he feels about joe #how much faith he has in him #i don't doubt his loyalty is to joe first and the team second (especially with his other bestie tee being out) #i think he realizes that their chances are much worse with joe out #an objective reality #and maybe he doesn't want to risk getting hurt by trying too hard and i cannot blame him at all! #i remember earlier this year after the titans game and when he was saying the always open stuff and just generally upset #someone during his stream asked him if he had any touchdown celebrations planned for the year #and he said he 'hadn't been thinking about anything like that' #aka he knew with a hobbled joe he wasn't going to be getting many td's #now he DID get one with jake in garbage time last game #and i feel like if jake does well then ja'marr would be willing to change his mind and go for it #he's gonna do the best he can with whatever the situation is #ok rambling too much i've thought about the simple act of a man changing his picture to be one of him and his son (perfectly reasonable!) #way too much! #good morning!

[hauntingblue]

So what now....

#really because what else #like this has been luffys worst week ever #literally gets left alone. basically resurrects TWICE. and now his brother is dead. and youre telling me blackbeard is here now too???? #like what else. what now #leave my boy alone. that is enough just lt him live in peace for a second #is that too much to ask??? god #god doesnt exist because he wouldnt let this hapen #is luffy just like jesus made to bear everyones sins?? has anyone suffered more than him??? like???? ace maybe. but now he is dead also #like what else #what else is left #how is he gonna recover from this #how are they even gonna leave that place #god...... #listen one piece was fun until.now. now iy just hurts #like thriller bark gave us a taste of angst with zoro but this is something else. sonce saboady it has been intense #but after the time skip it looks fine too. #joy has a habit of returning after all #talking tag #watching one piece #episode 483

[theradicalace]

for the HTF screenshot redraws(tw:gay middle aged men???)

I’m so normal abt them

old man yaoi <3

i can't believe you would make me draw a car tho </3 /lh

#ace rambles #happy tree friends #screenshot redraw #my art #i think i either made mole too tall or lumpy too short and i can't tell which it is #maybe both? #also i spent an embarrassing amount of time motion blurring the headlights to pretend i know how light works #i realized on the second headlight that gaussian blur works better but i forgot to redo the first one lol #anyway i'm not totally happy with this but i like how mole turned out #i realized halfway through this that i probably should have used a smaller brush size </3 #gore// #i still don't know if the cartoon gore warrants a gore tw but it doesn't hurt anything to add it so i'm gonna keep doing it #oh fun fact i listened to weird al's ''dare to be stupid'' the whole time i was drawing this #as any drawing of lumpy demands #lumpy htf #mole htf

[neverendingford]

.

#friendship arc over. time for your regularly scheduled unfriending of all new social contacts #the problem with making friends is that if you're not actually making good friends then they're not worth the energy they cost #I have a limited amount of mana and low value friends with high mana cost are simply not worth keeping in my deck. #I'm never going to get anywhere spending my energy on people who provide nothing in return #yes altruism is good. yes we give and love and grow #but I cannot give without recharge. I cannot love if I am not loved in return. #I can't hold a conversation if you never talk back #it's not a date if only one of us shows up #sorry. I'm in a mood cause I'm watching Arcane and honestly I might be vibing with Jinx a little too hard #I could keep talking but the problem is people read these now. you see me now. you see me hurt. you see me scream and cry and bleed #do you remember the night I rambled about Mononoke? I talked about ego death and how my whole world was spinning #I couldn't see straight and I could barely sit up #I poisoned myself. did you know that? I tell everyone I cut my veins because that's easier #easier than telling them that I put my chemistry skills to good use that night. natural oils and pills from the local pharmacy #all in neat little capsules homemade #I make everything myself. food. lanyard. comb. gloves. even shoes one time. #I've made my skin a hundred times over. I counted one time. you know that? I counted how many scars I have. #give me a second I'm gonna make art now #tag talk

[witchwhaat]

jung haein does his pouty face with big sad eyes and my heart breaks

#his other faces that deserve recognition include: #'i'm so mad i can't even say anything or i'll combust' #yearning heart eyes #bonus points if he breaks into a big smile that lights up his whole face #so hurt you think he will break any second #so mad his eyes look insane #and finally - big grin with happy loving gaze #dude really can act all possible emotions just with his eyes huh #ANYWAY i'm watching one spring night *laying down emoji* #istg he's going to be the death of me #like he does his little face and looks like he's about to cry and i'm like oh. oh no. #im so sure that his character is going to break soon and i know i'm gonna break too 🫡 #jiho baby you deserve so much better #every other guy in this series annoys me so much omg i want to punch them all #maybe one of jiho's friends is an exception but the rest............ watch out. #the rest is just so cruel and egoistic and bland #agnes talking #jung haein

[niuxita21]

TFW the Girl You Love Tells You “Thanks But No Thanks. You’re Still My Best Friend, Tho!” - A novel by Ana

#madre solo hay dos #ana servín #shitty screencap posts (TM) #me: I will only be able to make a couple of posts about this episode bc it hurt so much and I can't keep rewatching this scene #also me: *spams the tl with ten million posts* #but LISTEN #I am ASTOUNDED at how well this bit captured that sort of weary disappointment lesbians are all too familiar with #when the girl they're in love with is like 'you're my best friend!' (unspoken second part of that sentence: 'and nothing more') #I'm gonna try to articulate why but like #from what we know of canon I don't think ana has ever in her life had feelings for another woman who friendzoned her #and yet here she is getting her heart broken by another woman for the first time and it's just SO RELATABLE #to those of us who HAVE been there before you know? #because I don't think she would have the same microexpression if mariana had been a dude #there's something there that screams 'yeah haven't heard THAT one before' and it's just... *chef's kiss* #(me? analyzing ana's microexpressions as a coping mechanism? it's more likely than you'd think!) #also this is just a friendly psa (although I don't think anyone is reading my tag vomit which definitely is for the best) #but my blog is a mariana hate-free blog and I'll start caping for her if I have to :) #I'm just here to have fun (and get my heart shredded by a silly mexican comedy apparently life is wild sometimes)

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

See, I know things like waking up at a reasonable time, making and eating healthy meals, and exercising will all help my mental health. But uh, my mental health needs to improve before I can do that. Y'know?

#my mental state has been BAD #my sleep schedule is shot. i haven't gone for a walk in months. it's a battle to make myself dinner #AND a fun new symptom has started #delusions. probably related to my bipolar #things like thinking my gf is cheating on me. with no proof or reason to think it #(dear if you read this i know you're not cheating. my brain is just a disaster. i love you) #thinking random people are out to hurt or kill me. that's a fun one #thinking someone is waiting outside my apartment every night to hurt or kill me #tonight i heard a noise outside and panicked because for some reason i thought someone was trying to break in #this happened about a year ago too #i started locking my bedroom door because i thought my roommate was going to kill me in my sleep #and closing my blinds because i thought someone might be watching me #i thought my gf wasn't my gf for a second. like she was someone pretending to be my gf #that was really fun #idk what's going on with me but I'm scared #I'm gonna bring this up to my psychiatrist but my next appointment is a month away #i am feeling unwell #but other than everything I'm doing okay