#the unwilling mother

[valyrfia]

HAND OVER THE FF LESTAPPEN

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Charles blames the Instagram algorithm, when one day she’s scrolling aimlessly only to come across pictures of Max Verstappen in a bikini. 

Max lounging on her stomach across a sunbed under the European sun next to a cerulean sea, the band of her dark blue bikini riding up, sitting snug across her muscular shoulders peppered with moles and the unmistakable shape of a fading wine-coloured mark high up on the curve of her shoulder that makes something in Charles's throat curdle and sets something strange and deep in her core alight.

She sends it to Pierre immediately, because of course she does. 

Charles Look at this shit. She probably called the paps on herself. 

And that’s the odd feeling deep in her stomach, it’s anger, the fact that Max can be snapped near naked on a strange foreign beach without consequence and Charles has to be careful that the knee-length skirt she wears on errands in Monaco doesn’t get blown up, lest she gets another embarrassing lecture from Mattia on her public image. Be careful Charletta, he would say, Santina is a better nickname than Puttana. Puttana, a fitting word to describe Max’s recent endeavours, really. Charles’s socials have been pushing her the pictures all week. Max outside bars, hanging onto tall men who make more in a year than Charles would care to mention, their young pretty wives off to the side with them, seemingly resigned to the fate of what’s happening. After all, who could compete with Max Verstappen, champion of the world?

#the vague idea is charles leclerc heavily repressed lesbian with a shit ton of internalised misogyny AND lesbophobia #also in this version charles gets the nickname santina instead of/on top of el predestinata #mainly because of this whole idea in media culture of women must be passive in their narrative #basically it's fi takes on a man-centred world view and takes an unwilling ff lestappen along with her #lestappen #fic bits #also charles is still charles because a. i cannot name swap when i genderbend #and b. i decided charles was catholic so it would be appropriate for her to just be named maria charles leclerc #and she goes by charles obviously because everyone and their mother has the first name maria in southern europe #ALSO MATTIA USES THE DIMINUTIVE FORM WITH CHARLES'S NAME BECAUSE HE'S A MISOGYNISTIC ASSHOLE! #anyway fun facts with fi #i've thought this out #maybe now that work calms down i'll get around to writing this properly i anticipate it to be maybe like a 30k oneshot

[sheepgirlmaidtummy]

fucked up that so many of yall havent grown up with prophecy looming over your back for your entire life. like. not shit like having to be the first in ur family to go to college or smt. i mean being part of God's retribution for cleansing the world. being the only generation to remember the old world as your forefathers are left behind and the sinners like you will not be saved

#rember yall i grew up in a cult where my mother threatened to kill me if ''god'' demanded it. more than once! #she legit forgot the first time and didnt believe me when i told her she did that #anyway. genuinely insane that some people grew up with like. ''normal'' expectations #i dont think giving any kind of expectation to what a child should live up to is okay. but like. #yall didnt have an existential crisis about the fulfilling of prophecy and your unwilling part in it?

[viksalos]

it's like actually hilarious that now that i'm learning to communicate with my graduate advisor, *she's* actually better at figuring out when i'm struggling mentally and helping me to calm down and find support, than certain "friends" who now seem to be threatened by my increased self-awareness and expertise on certain topics to the point that when i COME TO THEM struggling and asking for help, they fixate on their own insecurities and berate me for it rather than... fucking helping me or anything

#text #WHY DOES THIS KEEP HAPPENING LATELY. #feels like autist1c tall poppy syndrome #this friend used to like. socially mother me and infodump to me about her interests for hours on end #and i'm just now realizing that she like... barely let me talk about anything i cared about at all before recently. lol #literally it feels like there's a STRONG correlation between how economically privileged someone is #and how unwilling they are to accept lived experience expertise; even if they CLAIM to be willing; lmao #in fact the ones that CLAIM to be willing are often the actual worst about... actually recognizing the self in the other lol #i mean i'm pretty sure that repair with this particular friend is possible eventually but hoo boy #is she gonna have to hear *at least* a more compassionately worded version of this. and apologize

[sparklecryptid]

*pfft* Reveal!AU because Ace actually *does* have to register 'Ardyn' as a middle name.

Ace stares at the scrounged up documents he managed to drag out of his burned down home. Apparently his mother and aunt - along with Libertus, Nyx and Selena's mothers - decided that it would be a good idea to put all of their Important Documents - birth certificates, passports - into one fire proof box.

That isn't the issue here. The issue is that Nyx is wheezing in laughter while Selena has dissolved into helpless giggles and Libertus is staring at Ace like he regrets being friends with him.

Ace Ardyn Apollonian.

That's not the name on his birth certificate, but it is the name on his fucking passport.

"I am going to drown him," Ace says.

Selena giggles. "He'd come back!"

"Not if I tie him to an anchor," Ace says bitterly.

That makes even Libertus crack and he howls with laughter.

-

It doesn't become a problem that his middle name is technically Ardyn until he applies for Insomnian residency.

The desk worker raises a brow at his middle name and Ace gives her the most exhausted look he can manage.

"You're going to ask about that aren't you?" Ace says tiredly.

"I have to," she replies raising a brow at him.

"Would you believe me if I said my mother had a sense of humor?"

The workers brow raises higher.

Ace sighs.

"This is above your pay-grade," he says bluntly.

"Try me," she says.

Ace stares at her and wordless he extends his palms and an orb of light springs to light in it.

"That explains nothing," the worker says.

"I'll call the Crownsguard," the worker also says when it dawns on her that it really is beyond her pay-grade.

#royal bastard au #so of COURSE ace winds up somewhat unwilling in the citadel #he is grumpy #he just wanted permanent residency! #regis is staring at him #clarus is staring at him #cor's brain has run through everything and figured out who ace is and who his mother is #ace stares at them and then because he is a little bitch uncoils his magic all at once #people wince as magic that sings of storms and thunder and lush jungles and dark soil rushes throughout the room #ace stares some more

[pupkou]

i’m really sick of .. being older sister-ed in all of my relationships lol

#my best friend always picks everything we do and we quite literally always do everything she wants #i didn’t have a good time with her today because she didn’t let me enjoy the place we were at that i enjoy usually #and because she’s so picky and unwilling to try anything new we never eat anywhere adventurous or interesting #she wouldn’t sit on a train for an hour for me but was fine asking me to drive 5 at night and not paying 4 my gas (the drive traumatized me) #and she didn’t do the one thing i asked her to do for me for christmas which would be fine but she promised she would #all i asked for was that she make me some soup and she promised she would #and she just texted me asking if i can make her chicken enchiladas tomorrow #i just don’t feel appreciated or cared for in the slightest #i’m not your mother or your older sister and i’m sick of being taken for granted #:(.. anyways #knight rambles #vent tw

[ed-teach]

I once again wish my mother died

Everything would be good suddenly

#if you read this mother. #you have caused enough pain for twenty lifetimes #i told you last year that i didnt hate you. i was indifferent. i am no longer indifferent. #it's one thing to hate me. or whatever. and then claim oh im not transphobic i was Wanting to speak to you always or whatever shit #it's another thing to do the same thing to my brother. who youve always liked more. until now. #you are a broken person unwilling to see past your own shards. there is no healing anymore. you are beyond forgiveness #and i hope every single one of your days is worse than the last until you wither away #and your mean spirited and misguided and simply evil soul creeps miserably into an ever-torturing hell #i hope you get back even a fraction of the pain and misery you have caused others. i hope you suffer. and i hope sincerely that #at last you will realise that you broke those that loved you and turned that love into a poisoned resentment #i curse you. there is no redemption anymore #quip

[adelalovesmadara]

What♪

#parents just told me that they adopted two adult sons from palestine?? #and that the real parents are coming #my parents wanted the oldest two marry into the family #the problem is i'm the only girl☠️ #just another reason why i feel suffocated living with my parents lol #i don't. like. men. #i don't like arranged marriages #and nowadays the feeling of being abnormal is becoming stronger idk i'm foolish #personal #my mother just asked me via whatsapp if i would be willing to wear niqab if 'my husband told me to' #i said no #she said 'i should heed my husband's command because a married woman's heaven is with the husband not the parents anymore' #what kind of world does she live in... #she wanted to be an arab it seems... idk #i think it's fine if she wanted to but please don't drag someone unwilling #alldlwkdheoanahjsooowushsusskskekwoejhsie #is this even normal #idk what is normal #she wants an obedient daughter 'anak nurut' but unfortunately she got me #sigh #愚痴 #ただの愚痴 #悔しい逃げたい消えたい

[curiosity-killed]

On a campaign to convince the people I love that there’s no glory in self flagellation and that celebrating personal accomplishments is good, actually

#it’s not working but I’m trying #I don’t just say bullshit when I’m complimenting you!!! so if you’re like no it’s not actually good #ur calling me a liar #@ my mother and sister #personal #for so long I was ‘the honest one’ but people are so willing to believe ‘honesty’ when it’s negative #or critical #and so unwilling to believe when it’s praise #so now I am using my ungodly stubbornness to dig in my heels about sincere praise of #*ig

[uraandri]

i was a woman in stem since elementary school cause i remember our religious education teacher telling us how when you boil the first red egg for easter in holy water, it will remain unchanged even a year later, or more precisly, he told us it wouldn’t have a bad smell or any changes in texture if you were to crack it, so when good friday came around i made my mother boil all of the red eggs in holy water, and on the next good friday, so exactly a year later i cracked the eggs (we kept 3 red eggs (the first one was marked with х.в. se we knew exactly which egg it was) and 2 green ones that were not boiled in holy water) and they all smelled so bad i got yelled at for stinking up the house

#i cracked them one by one #starting with the marked egg #and it started stinking whithin first 10 seconds #and then i cracked all other ones at the same time and just left them on the kitchen table lmao #i was a menace with my little experiments #my mother was often the unwilling participant and assistant #she forgot about it so when i left them in the kitchen she didn't know what i was doing #so the smell was like a propper stink bomb #she just opened the door and gagged and i herd her yell my name #also this was before i stopped beleiving in god #idk if this influenced me because i thought it was unplausable even tho i believed in god #i knew that things had to rot either way and that perserving them took more than just holy water #but i did not like the fact that the priest lied to us #ura.txt

[nymphilily]

I need a Touken BASARA AU where this is the dynamic between Kasuga and Gokotai

#Very much a 'My Dad And The Cat He Didn't Want' situation #idk I think Kasuga becoming the unwilling mother figure to a bunch of little Tantou's is cute #Touken BASARA #Sengoku BASARA #Touken Ranbu #Kasuga #Gokotai

[pepprs]

in my despera (despair era)

#purrs #talked to her about everything and uhhh. i think she simply cannot compute that being a mom is about more than feeding your kid and bringing #them stuff when they need it (not that that isn’t important or real or anything ofc) or that she has hurt me in ways that run to the deepest #parts of myself. i think i did a good job keeping things civil and not being inflammatory like i usually am but everything i brought up she #refuted by pointing out something that i did wrong which i would then address / explain and apologize for and own up to and then when i woul #would point out stuff she did wrong she would just deflect w my own wrongdoings or change the topic or whatever. lol! and i told her she #night love me but i don’t think she likes me (hashtag ladybird) and she said that that was hurtful to hear but i explained why i felt that w #way and then she did nothing but continue to exhibit the same behaviors that make me feel disliked and quite frankly unloved by her so um. #lol and lawl and lel i suppose. the absolute hopelessness of it. she is never going to understand or change. there are the most basic things #in the world that i need from her which are also the hardest things in the world to ask your own mother ofr and i couldn’t even bring up the #favoritism thing bc everyone was around LOL but um. wow! she does not understand how she is hurting me and nothing i do or say will get #through to her. this will continue and worsen ♥️ i do not feel better i feel worse ♥️ every day brings a new reminder that she is emotionall #unavailable and unwilling to even try to be nurturing in ways that will impact me for the rest of my life ♥️ #delete later #the energy it took not to start crying during that and now im too tired. what a fucked up day it’s been #like it’s as if i didn’t even say anything. she is like i pretend i do not see it <3 #also she was like i had these same kinds of fights w my father but i realized what counted was that he was always there for me and i eas #like you’re not wrong but also… maybe that at least partially explains why you are an emotionally unavailable parent! lol!

[dreamlogic]

gggrrrrrrrrrr

#ctxt #family cw #my mother has been behaving in some WAYS lately that are deeply hurtful to those around her #and either can't see it or is unwilling to accept how her actions affect her family #oh my god she is exhibiting some. uh. choice behaviors in my texts this morning and i am so tired of being diplomatic & compassionate #i wanna lay into her like a dog on a rope toy i'm so fucking furious. absolutely livid. #can she just move across the country with her new boyfriend already so i don't have to deal with her horseshit any more??? #i have been trying so fucking hard for so long to mend our relationship and she's parried almost every attempt at healing so far #so fine!! fuck you!! it's biting time!!! #shit chat

[blujayonthewing]

[LAYS ON THE FUCKING FLOOR] MY MOM LEFT THE GRAVY AND BUTTERNUT SQUASH SOUP SHE MADE YESTERDAY JUST OUT ON THE STOVETOP OVERNIGHT AND ALL DAY TODAY AND THEN TRIED TO FEED IT TO US

#HELLO!! HELLO!!!! #APPARENTLY SHE HAS A REPUTATION WITH WORK FRIENDS FOR BEING GROSS BECAUSE SHE'LL EAT YOGURT SHE BROUGHT FOR LUNCH 2 DAYS LATER #AFTER KEEPING IT IN A CUPBOARD AT ROOM TEMP #FUCKING??? HELLO?????? #I AM ABSOLVED!! OF EVER CARING WHETHER MY MOM THINKS MY RISK ASSESSMENT IS CRAZY!! EVER AGAIN!!! HOLY SHIT!!! #I have in the last two years been transformed from a 'will probably eat last night's pizza' goblin to... Not That #by a couple of well placed foodborne illness psa posts on here actually #but TWO DAY OLD? YOGURT?? TURKEY GRAVY????????? THERE IS NO-- YOU ARE NOT IN THE ACCEPTABLE GREY ZONE OF GROSS ANYMORE #I AM LEGITIMATELY CONCERNED ABOUT YOUR JUDGEMENT #DAIRY???!!!???????? WET!! MEAT SLIMES!!????????? MOTHER. #she SAYS people do it in england and she got desensitized and now she's like 'idk I haven't gotten sick yet haha' dude no! no!! #I am unwilling to believe They Do It In England Routinely without hard evidence that is a DAMNING accusation to level at an entire culture #even one infamous for being food criminals #maybe your husband and his family are just nasty #I can't believe! I actually cannot believe this!! I feel like I've gone insane!!! #like this is not 'I'm 100% correct but could be accused of being paranoid or uptight anyway' this is just... beyond the pale #about me #irl frens #(and family)

[mitunafishsaladsandwich]

i can’t believe there are some people celebrating the stripping of rights from a body of people.

to people who are happy about the overturn:

there is a void where your soul should be. how much death, how many pictures of women and young girls dying in alleyways, dying in hospitals, dying alone in the newspapers will you have to see to know this doesn’t stop abortions. this doesn’t save children. how much pain will it take you to stop rejoicing in the rights and lives of americans being taken away?

#why are you happy? #i hope the pain you bring into the lives of unwilling mothers and unwanted children haunts you #you are the problem #roe v wade #feminism #abortion #abortion is a human right #pro choice

[tenth-sentence]

It crossed to Orb's arm.

"Incarnations of Immortality: Being a Green Mother" - Piers Anthony

#book quote #incarnations of immortality #being a green mother #piers anthony #knife #unwilling #wedding

[grantmightbeme]

1/3/2024 7:35 am.

#over 15 years of my life I’ve struggled with this #more than half of my life I’ve lived in shame from an addiction I was unwilling to face or accept #years of self hatred #isolating myself from people I care about #losing sleep #last night I finally told my mother about it #I’ve never directly told another soul this was a struggle for me #the last I tried to it backfired horribly #I’ve read so many stories of others who have struggled the same #I know this can be overcome and things can get better #I also know this isn’t going to magically fix everything #it won’t be a light switch life changer #but -those- thoughts came back #I had them after the breakup with Margo and I attempted in May 2 years ago #I can’t go on living like this #I’ll be talking to my therapist too on Saturday #so many times I’ve said I’d change and did nothing #I want to be free #i want my life back #they say one month is the hardest #so here’s to seeing yall in February